#they wld be the one i wld talk to about this

[skunkes]

#prefacing this with I Know Spanish. i cant not know spanish‚ my parents don't speak english #but im the only one of my siblings that didnt get to go to school over there 🇲🇽 (just pre school) #adn the thing is like. my siblings wld talk to me in eng of course #(if they talked to me at all! what do u say to a baby when you're 9 12 and 15 yrs older.) #and my parents wld similarly jst not talk to me? i did not have conversations with them from birth to now lol. #thjere is something about how like. my sisters kids are also learning the languages at the same time #but when they mess up in spanish theyre corrected‚ by my sister (their mom)‚ my other sister‚ my parents #why not Me. why wasnt that extended to Me as a child... #the same reason I have the least amount of baby pictures while my siblings all have one full book each i bet #the same reason why my and my eldest sister are 15 yrs apart LOL #igts so crazy to me. i hate mentioning this bc people assume #im one of those ppl who isnt fluent bc their parents speak english and spanish and never taught them #my parents dont speak english❗❗❗❗ #my nephew thats older than me who is my fave family member and also only speaks spanish #is coming up on sunday idk that i can fully carry convo with him! #pure spanglish bc i didnt grow up having convos in it writing it reading it #thats why im so desperate to read books in spanish now. im so deeply ashamed #igts so crazy. i hate it. #saw a comment on smthng the other day thats like ''idk how u can have parents that only speak spanish and not know it lol'' #well can you take a guess. can u take a guess as to how that would happen via interactions. lack thereof. #idk why but its even more embarrassing this way. genuinely how cld u not know...? #its like i was born to feel isolated from my family in every single way...youngest by so many years #the language thing. the Hates Eating thing. the trans thing. most severe failure to launch #im so embarrassed to be alive....! #and i dont belong anywhere. and i am Alone wherever I am. #abandoned by direct and distant relatives. ancestors.

[emoreooo]

doomed valentines 🥀

aka what if kel and aubrey took over sweetheart’s castle ?

this is an au where if you interact with the keeper of sweethearts castle as anyone but omori, it unlocks a whole new optional level. you wake up in the picnic area with hero but no kel or aubrey. sweethearts castle is different and basil joins you for this level

the castle's main towers seem to have split into two, but the main building remains one, and smaller from the outside. but it turns out to be unnaturally spacious at times, as if the building was a psychological maze trying to separate... certain people apart

you find aubrey. she looks different, but happier. “it's like a princess' dream come true. it’s everything i could ever want and more.” she says, smiling at you. “now... all i need left is my lovely prince charming—”

“hey, guys !!”

enter kel.

“ugh.”

kel also looks different, if not for the fact hes wearing an obnoxious shade of pink, head to toe. he is happy to see you all. “everyone here LOVES me ! they respect me and trust me and all that kinda stuff. man, i feel so powerful ! im never leaving this place !”

that didnt seem to sit right, so hero intervened. “but.. if you stayed here, wouldn’t you miss everyone else ? omori, basil, me... mari ?”

“well, duh ! that’s why you guys will be staying with me too !”

that broke a new fight between kel and aubrey, but for the wrong reasons

it ends with aubrey dragging basil along with her, hero with kel, and you alone on the bridge connecting the two towers. you have a choice to follow one of them first. lets say, kel.

you head for kels tower and find hero talking with kel, trying to convince his brother.

“didja know ?? the sprout moles here love me so much they made me offerings, like, im a god or something ! pretty cool huh ?”

“..offerings ?”

“yeah ! oh man.. hero, youre not jealous, right ?”

“wh— no. its just.. a bit ridiculous.”

“...ridiculous ?” kels confused expression contorts into a smile, that of understanding. “i see whats going on. its okay, hero, i know its gotta be tough to be put to the side. and overlooked. bet its weird not being in the spotlight for once.”

you caught a quick flash of horror written on heros face. “kel.. are you saying this because—”

“but its ok ! as long as were here, neither of us will ever have to feel that way !”

remaining determined, hero put his foot down. “thats enough, kel. you cant stay here.”

“yea, thats a good one, bro.”

“im... serious. were leaving, kel.”

the younger boy stops laughing. ”...oh. youre— why ?”

“i dont think this place is anything like it seems. i think its a sham.”

kel barks with laughter.

“oh so when it benefits ME is it a sham. man, how selfish can you be ?”

“...what ?”

“you really cant stand it when its not all about you, huh ? but what about me ? what about kel ?”

“i-i think this place is affecting you. please, kel, listen to me.”

“no. if you wanna leave so bad, fine ! the sprout moles can send you out. but im not leaving. im happy here anyway, and you wont get it.”

with that, kel leaves you two in his tower. hero seems distracted, before suggesting you both go find basil

you head for aubreys tower, only to find a scared basil locked in a cell. upon freeing him, he stares over your shoulder.

“o-omori.” he whispers. “...behind you.”

“well, well.. well !”

enter aubrey.

“aubrey! why was basil locked in?” hero asks, perplexed.

“hm? well, he kept trying to leave! i couldnt let that happen, not when i was sharing my happiness with him.” aubrey frowns. “i thought he was my friend.”

basil looks terrified. “aubrey.. i am your friend.”

“hmhm, of course you are. friends dont leave each other behind, right omori?”

hero once again steps in. “aubrey, i think youre taking this too far. of course we want you to be happy, but kidnapping your friends isnt the way. this place is messing with your heads, so we should leave before it gets worse.”

but your path is blocked by kel in the doorway.

“that wont do.” aubrey hums behind you, brandishing her shiny pink bat. “no.. not at all. what do you think, kel ?”

“i think its rude to leave in the middle of a party. right, hero? you taught me that one!”

“kel..”

he then takes a bow as aubrey joins him. “so, friends, may we have this dance?”

“let us sweep the floor !”

boss battle mechanics !

you can not change aubrey or kels emotions even at the start of the battle. the only ones who can change their emotions are each other, so the best strategy is to adapt with your own party’s emotion play

there are 4 phases to this battle. a neutral state, tier one emotion, tier two, and lastly tier three, much like most emotion based bosses. between each phases, aubrey will make kel happier, while kel makes aubrey angrier. they are not made to have the sad emotion, however,

if you end third phase with an attack from hero, kel will start fourth phase with a depressed emotion instead of manic, giving your team good advantage on winning since he relies on speed. aubrey will still be furious, but its still one enemy disadvantaged

once you defeat them they will go snork mimi in your arms and you must carry them out of the castle and back to mari.

“aww, i guess its past their royal nap time !”

#added choppy explanations under the cut i copy and pasted them from my twitter so pls excuse the writing. LMAO #i swear i write better than this im just laying down what the au is all about #also i didnt put it in there but when i said the castle was weirdly big inside like its trying to separate some ppl ? i was talking abt #kel and aubrey. i meant to show that the castle serves to give the prince and princess their biggest desires #like aubrey living in luxury and happiness in romantic pink while kel lives the fantasy of being the beloved golden child #but the thing is. those are kinda surface level wishes. or ones they Think wld make them happy #like aubrey and kel finding each other annoying. so its obvious for them to want to be away from each other right ? #and thats exactly what the castle acts upon. it gives them all those surface level wants #but despite being separated by space manipulation itself. kel and aubrey seem to Always find their way towards each other #which both will scoff and groan at. not realizing that their heart longs for the others presence ! #something something your love for each other beats the labyrinth of psychological horror trying to keep u apart. and you Hate It #i think their dynamic is rly funny #omori kel #omori aubrey #omori hero #omori basil #omori (character) #kel omori #aubrey omori #hero omori #basil omori #omori #kelbrey #omori baseball bat #omori fanart #fanart #my art #omori sweetheart #kind of ?? the theme is based around her #ALSO I REDREW THE UI MYSELF BC I COULDNT FIND A HIGH QUALITY VERSION OF IT GRRR

[munamania]

obsessed w my friend. i named her jackie i think forever ago lolol one of the film girlz. anyway her not letting sam get a word in last night when we had to record a little podcast together for a project. he was sooooooooooo mad

#we were Chatting... #and look first yes it's cause he naturally kept just trying to talk over/through us and she would just keep going. yay<3 and then like #she just wouldnt let him talk for more than like. i wld say 30 seconds tops but thats like barely #esp bc he just kept going back to like Well and ahahahaa so quirky fact about me is i was hit by a car #girl we've heard all these stories already including the professor and it barely has to do with our topic why are we doing this #and then after me and jackie are talking abt that one insane prof who like on top of needing ketamine injections is just not a great #person hes such a character. but talking abt how he seems to be struggling to keep up w um. post metoo life and just like women #being any more than assistants in the industry. and after like a Whilllle of this conversation w examples of shit he's said that we had to #report lololol sam goes... 'and he's also a misogynist.' hello? melania clip #abby talks #later tried to corner me abt doing a roadtrip w him and his gayass bestie to see the eclipse. like me saying Oh idk #and then him being like oh do u want me to look at tickets for u etc. girl im sorry if i do anything im going home...

[oopsallmabari]

me: oh i should write a flashback scene in ostwick circle that'd be a good thing to explore

me, 5 minutes later: i need to diagram the entirety of ostwick circle in my mind with floorplans

#ari speaks #i'm. not gonna do that but i'm like. #ok scene takes place in a chapel bc circles seem to have chapels in them. what floor is the chapel on? #first floor so everyone can access it? #but wait would the templars (known religious fellows) want to pray in the same place that mages would? #prob not bc it wouldn't help w keeping emotional distance from their charges. #but then WHERE do the templar quarters go? should it be like the circle tower or should it almost be like there are different compounds? #should there be something like a chapter house where the templars go to pray/contemplate the chant? #do the templars have their own dormitory in a separate building? #and now i'm feeling like i need to replay pentiment and do research on medieval christian monasteries for reference. #all for ONE SCENE in ONE CHAPTER...so deeply unnecessary....it won't leave my head now... #what i'm asking for bioware is for you to give us another WOT that goes deep into the structure and running of Circles #as if it were a history book. #like i have wot 1. i know what is in wot 1. what i'm talking about is like. yknow how your old history textbooks wld talk abt ancient egypt #and like diagram the pyramids and diff chambers and their purpose and shit like that. that's what i mean. #bioware PLEASE. i'm about to lose it for no reason.

[mumintroll]

i think all of my flatmates knew i had a crush on the boy i have a crush on which means he defo knew becaause he was also my flatmate lol. kills self but undramatically

#i was at the pub w a couple of my flatmates from last year and we were talking abt him (he wasnt there) and one of them asked me #'were you into him last year' or something and i cldnt say antyhing i was so embarrassed. i thought i was okay at not being obvious abt it #:( #so he probably knows and the fact that he has never tried anything on me despite knowing i wld not say no makes me think there is no use in #my continuing plan to tell him earnestly how i feel about him but idk i still want to do it it will be cathartic even if it leads to nothin #but hes never freeeee im struggling so hard to organise a time to actually see him and then when i do i will definitely get too scared.

[derekhalesbian]

some sterek girlies are privileged and by that i mean they don’t have any takes that would get them torn to absolute shreds by the rest of the fandom

#most of my opinions are common. most of my headcanons are common. #but some. some of them……. #ik it’s not that big a deal. but it also sometimes feels like if i ever said i think ******’s fics are overrated #i would be flayed and roasted over an open flame #(don’t read into the number of *s i just put a random amount not the amount of letters in the authors name) #like i would never say it publicly mostly bc i don’t want to be a bitch that hates on another fans work #but a part of that is that i don’t think many sterek fans wld agree with me LOL #to be 110% fair i’ve only read one of their fics but it was so ooc and off putting to me #i can’t bring myself to read more #which is also a reason i don’t voice this particular opinion i don’t actually know what im talking abt #anyways. having a private gc of trusted fandom friends where you can bitch about things like this #is so essential to a good fandom experience i’m being so serious #personal #kitty needs to chill

[kucherovv]

thinking abt dating a nonbinary person is weird because what am i supposed to call them. im not abt to be 19 calling the person im dating my "partner" like

#all of the names for it is STUPID so dont suggest anything #also ive been sooo brave not talking abt this on tumblr but ill have u know its been making me. fucking insane as of late #esp stupid bc i heard them talk abt not wanting to be in a relationship w their last gf for like. the entire time 🤣🤣🤣 #so i think if we actually dated i wld be very insecure it would be fucking lame #but what ever. we move we survive we thrive #also. its SO cringe to kiss someone then not be able to acknowledge ur feelings about one another. #ok im done what ever #delete later

[unganseylike]

Business as usual shall continue

#(i am the one vote for other) #if u are the one vote for stop talking about lab stuff u have been outvoted but i wld love to hear why via anon ask

[nullvoiids]

Me when I become increasingly desperate for funky little system friends cus I <3 friends who I can relate to on the level of system struggles and knowing how to navigate that without having 2 over explain it to everyone

#rambles #not that im mad at singlets #but ni one can understand a system like another system #i cld talk so openly about it #it wld be lovely #me when i become desperate

[sureihsan]

who: @alarakaplan​ what: *tiffany pollard ‘beyonce?!’ meme only it’s bitter*  where: ...you choose...

“ oi -- did you know !? ” they were past common courtesy, past at least greeting each other before entering confrontation territory. as ihsan saw it, she left deserving common courtesy when she left him. “ were you fucking hiding that shit, too !? ”

#interactions ! #interactions || alara ! #interactions || alara 2 ! #miss the days of having a bunch of windows open so i cld see the gifs *sad violin* #(also they cld be anywhere! letting u choose bc idk if he wld kno where her place is but that's one option so!) #((also also obvs he's talking about terry but...... not saying it bc he just ASSUMES))

[skunkes]

was abt to make a silly post about how at this point i barter with the universe for a bf like "please id take care of him and walk him and dress him up", like a child begging for a pet, and then i think abt how as much as i want an actual pet I don't think im fit to ever have one of those either

#talkys #i want a partner i dont think i should have one for equal parts not thinking im worthy and also being too picky #and enjoying my alone time as much as the loneliness and skin hunger hurts me so badly every single day #after hearing with and interacting with others its like is it even worth it if ill still turn to my imagination...! like will it ever be #enough? #or i see ppl post about the Good and its like. id never be lucky enough to find someone who fit my needs and didnt hate me and #wanted to spend time with me it wld be so difficult. i will never be that lucky #but then wagh. ive talked about this before i hate falling into this pit bc ive always been undesirable so convincing myself of all this #feels very like. well yeah. it was never gonna happen anyway but good thing you finally found your Cope! #delete later #i cannot even make friends. the stars will never align. but all i want is my own guy to worship. belongs with me‚ the devotee #being unworthy but also being like. im a catch i can be as picky as i want (forgets hes ugly as fuck and kind of useless with it too) #whatever either way we are not going to make it

[fwob]

rough week

#i am . going through it #shits been ROUGH man . #instead of talking abt the serious stuff i will instead talk abt my silliest problem with the easiest solution . godbless #i genuinely think talking about one piece with other one piece fans would help my mental health #because i am not getting nearly enough dopamine rn like in general and talking abt things im passionate abt w ppl who actually care #wld def help #but also i am so utterly terrified of talking abt one piece with like . other one piece fans #i literally have nothing worth saying #i dont know what id even talk abt . i have nothing new to say . nothing that hasnt already been talked abt yk #im not worth talking to like i genuinely have nothing to say that hasnt already been said #i will make a fucking fool of myself #FUCK !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #dies . falls on my fucking face #ace speaks #literally how did i manage this before . how the fuck was i making friends before this

[chompe-diem]

man did brian murphy manage to nail my type in blorbos……

#once again thinking about the quote ive posted twice about #likes playing high status ppl who want nothing to do with the other characters etc etc #i mean it’s mostly that theyre just these pathetic men #rn i am talking abt gerard greenleigh and jens lyndelle #bc those r the ones i am Familiar with #however i hear that his other characters also generally pathetic mfers so thats something to look forward to #honestly i jsut love a fucking loser man who’s a bit of an ass and deserves to be pathetic but also look at him!! he’s so sad actually #like secretly he’s so tragic actually but also. he DOES deserve every loser thing coming for him <3 thanks for understanding #……tbh this came up bc i fuckinnnnnn saw dear evan hansen against my will last night #(not a musical kid btw!!!! like no shade it’s just not me. the only musical i wld die for is the band’s visit) #and like. holy shit that plot made me wanna plug my ears and squeeze my eyes shut like a horror movie #however. ahem. #however i did enjoy. i did enjoy jared kleinman. i thought his character was neat #ANYWAY. you didn’t hear that. bye-

[noxtivagus]

head in hands thinking of hermes n ebenholz

#🌙.rambles #rereading question of life again a bunch today n. hermes.. searching for the answer to change in other stars. #my bro. my dear. beloved. i daresay the answer's been w you all along.. in a way #I FEEL. SO MUCH FOR HERMES. BCS HE FELT SO LONELY N DIFFERENT IN THE IMPERFECT SOCIETY OF ETHEIRYS #but bro if you're an aberration then fuck it i'll. be one too yk? you won't be alone #i haven't finished lingering echoes yet on yt or wtvr but #that freedom he rlly yearned for.. that touches me so much. i can't even begin to explain it oh my god #out of all my favs in ffxiv i probably talk abt hermes the most. in terms of his chara he's probably my fav #but alphi n emet-selch r equally as special as well i rlly don't have a fav in ffxiv 😭 #in arknights. i rlly don't know much yet but with chara design there's mostima n lappland that definitely caught my eye the most #but. even w those two n others as well. ebenholz i think was the chara that i knew wld be my fav #n then help my mind has two definite like. IDK HOW TO SAY IT BUT i'm rlly thinking of both hermes n ebenholz at the same time #n. one of my ocs too. who srs just. helpp i project sm unto him he's probably like my no. 1 ideal type #ständchen & dead butterflies & no plan r the three songs i'll obsess over today it seems >.> #dead butterflies w the context n the. word choice the imagery the emotion in it :^) so special. so meaningful. #to me it. it's like a persisting emptiness. a sorrow that doesn't ever quite go away. fitting w the context of yk yeah i think #no plan! hozier! THE LYRICS R SO PERFECT MY MAN ILY #i rlly relate w the meaning behind the lyrics of the song <3 #n then ständchen T_T EBENHOLZ.. N THEN. YK THE MELODY FROM SCHUBERT #i love music so so much. n everything about music. the meaning behind it n what it means to me as well n. yeah. YEAH #wait. i'm still obsessed w doomsday :^) sobs n talk from hozier too.. n. running in the dark. yeah #doomsday.. dealing w loss. inevitability of mortality. talk w the flowery insincerity oh my god. n then. #running in the dark i can't even rlly say bcs the song is just. rlly means a lot to me personally T_T it's so comforting #once i learn more of arknights! i will certainly write what i think of it in a different light someday #i think. i can rlly emphatize w these song themselves. the meaning behind them n the context n #i'm also very aware of what it personally means to me n #that small certainty in smth that's rlly just so vastly uncertain brings me some ounce of comfort. #curiosity of the unknown gives me comfort too. i've never rlly been one to hide or run away from what i fear bcs i still find it interestin #i just. rlly love sm things in life. i'm rlly glad i can still hold unto this part of me despite the painful things as well #but i'm one that. i. have to appreciate life wholly. it gets overwhelming tho but i still strive to just be myself n what that means to me.

[songtwo]

this has been a really good year like despite my insanity its just been incredible and amazing and im literally so lucky<3

#one of my best friends made some collages w some pictures of all of us from this year and im tearing upppppppppp #pics at school parties clubs someones house another towns coffee shops 12 of barely fitting in a car etc and its so <3 #and like those arent even half of the times we were together and even if they were they would b enough #but theyre not like im going 2 scream its been a great year <3333 #and i mean those r moments w him . im not even talking about seeing the love of my life (damon) w my two best friends in the entire world #and the strokes w my dad! and that trip 2 the beach w my mom and grandma! #living by myself in the city again and i think ive grown as a person a lot this year #that and getting to know me even more and im my most authentic self so far <3333333 #like ive never been more true to myself than rn #and i love that im unapologetically myself and the entire world knows im obsessed w damon albarn and i dont care #and also being like . completely out makes m feel so good <3 #idk its been real nice #despite me needing a lobotomy every few weeks its overall been an awesome year #++++ finally realizing what it is i wld like 2 do........... life changing

[caruliaa]

in the alterante universe were s3+4 of cs are good im making a carmen yoyok amv right now

#not explaining this. idek if i want to #it makes sense only to me. in a way only i can understand #okay. two things i will say: 1. the first verse of yoyok isnt abt the boy u like rejecting you its about loosing what you thought would #define you whole life at the time and the second one isnt about having specifically being a singer be an innacseseable but in general #whatever you seen next/whatever will help you escape from that being/feeling impossible to get to #and 2. babes i need u to understand i talk abt relating to julia a lot but also. carmen is also just me imo in many ways okayy!! #okay not explaining more than that. or maybe i will who knows. maybe later. #actually i mgiht still make it. actually no i wont bc even in that universe the song makes me cry making an amv to it wld be too hard #anyway. i hope u r both picking up on important peaches lore here and also not judging me. im posting at nearly 3am i cant b judged #for what i say rn okay !!!!!!!!!!!!!! #flappy rambles #im aware this does no make any sesne 2 anyone else but also im the only cs fan left so therefore it doesnt matter. love and light<3