#there goes my ptsd!😄

[winterchimez]

things/aesthetic you associate with your moots please!

hi anonie!! it’s been a while since i’ve done tag games like this so LETS GAUR 🤩

im doing for the ones that i talk to most often ✨

@from-izzy my soulmate 🤞🏻(who clearly SHOULD be living in my city instead), sunricyeon!!, ✌🏻level-headed and ☝🏻dum-dum, purple 💜, bunnies 🐰, raccoons 🦝, in constant denial of her love life 😒, long calls & video calls, SAUR, music 🎶, “ALLY HELP ME 🥺”, fellow believer in God, concerts, has 19374848 plans to meet up but our studies/job preventing us to do so 😞 (but we will beat them and meet irl someday SOON BCS I MANIFEST)

@sungbeam my precious lil 妹妹 🫶🏻, blue 🩵, “hear me out….but another changmin potential wip/plot 🤡”, photocards, that wet tree rat pc, if talent was a person its her, care packages 📦, fellow introverts ✌🏻, the one who convinced me to purchase my sony headphones while we were videocalling in the store 🥹, my sleep paralysis demon, “ALLY JIEJIE”, my cutie wookie little sis 😔💗, but also goes 😐 whenever i talk abt sangyeon 🙄

@aimeecarreros the unhinged and wild one in the b*****, 1/4 of sangyeon’s whores, twerking ✨, the best gif maker ever 😤, “so elena…pretty pwease can you gif this for moi 🥺”, BBANGJU 👅, “CORREQUE ✌🏻”, insanely hilarious and unhinged memes and text messages 24/7, the moodmaker of the group, “haysss *inserts stripping meme*”, teasing me 24/7 🙄, pinterest, fashion 😍, bridal dresses 🤍

@snowflakewhispers the SAVAGE, maknae and the demon (lovingly) in the b*****, teasing me is her everyday job atp 🙄🙄🙄, mrs jacob bae, 1/4 of sangyeon’s whores, spitting fire 24/7 🔥, matching sony headphones 🤍, matching macbook colours 🩶, psych & kids 💗, the sunwoo to my eric, apparently is in a messed up relationship/situationship with someone who shall not be named 🦝, the moot who lives the closest to where i am 🥹 (so faster get your ass back here after uni ends)

@daisyvisions the unnie of the b*****, NAUR, that iconic zoom selfie 😌✨, constantly being distracted at work bcs of ✨unholy thoughts✨, podcast 🎧, 1/4 of sangyeon’s whores, also joined in on the fun with elena & ophelia on teasing moi 😔, jerry lee 🤤, doggo 🐶, newnudeshot 😏📸, photoism 🎞️, spongebob memes, BIG SEXC BRAIN 🧠, late night talks while working, always judging me for some reason 🙃

@justalildumpling my dongsaeng 👧🏻, sunricyeon!!, black 🖤, ptsd from windows turning from black to bright blue, “pull a j” aka doing and leaving assignments till the very last minute 😁, “guys…..”, “yall…..”, a simp 🤓, attracted to red flags men (but not anymore 😚), FOODIE CHINGUS, malatang, “guys….can we just call for like 20 mins max…i promise it won’t take long” = a 6-7hours call, late night (or early mornings) video calls, SHE IS A BEAUTY AN ICON AND SHE IS THE MOMENT 😍

@ethereal-engene my long-lost best friend 🥹, JU HAKNYEON 🍊, anime!!, men in glasses 🔛🔝, fellow chinese friend ❤️, cny 🧧, lion dances 🦁, WOOZI (ESP IN LONG HAIR 😩😩😩), matching hakkie pottery pcs 🤍, wips brainstorming ✍️, another cutie lil 妹妹 🥺, arms….and pecs 🤓, editing 👩‍💻, convos abt our studies/work life 💗

@kimsohn kim sunwoo, pinterest, “maya….i had a dream abt sangyeon….”, “oh!”, anime!!, that smiling and then speechless meme, sangyeon drenching himself in water 😀, “so when are you gonna write this”, sunric sluts, tbosas, coriolanus snow, always talking abt being on writers block with one another but eventually gets things done (and sometimes its long af), being caring 🥺, food!!

@quaissants 1/2 of my gremlins 👹, sends me lip gloss sangyeon 24/7, my twinnie 🤞🏻, same birthday & mbti 💗, speaks in such a soft manner like hello 🥺, genshin impact!!, ragnvindr bros ❤️💙, childe 🤓, angsty angst ❤️‍🩹, constantly looking out for me 🥹, men 😃, “i have selective reading”

@sanaxo-o another 1/2 of my gremlins 👹, unhinged as a person, sabrina carpenter 💗, flirty af but then i dont return the favour 😄, sends me sangyeon content 24/7, a great listener and gives me comfort, always checking up on others, ✌🏻level-headed and ☝🏻dum-dum, “LET ME BETA YOUR FICS”, pinterest, “Als”

@stealanity my unnie 🥺💗, always looking out for everyone, the big sister of the net, amazing as a person (i admire you loads), moodboards 😍, aesthetics ✨, a field of flowers 🌹🪻🌸🌺, brave (never afraid to speak up!!), i miss you sm unnie always 🫶🏻, calls me a cutie 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

@cloverdaisies CLO MY LOVE 💚, great britian 🇬🇧, fish & chips, “you have no rights ally ive revoked them”, “you dont love me anymore 🥺” aka clo’s way of making me feel guilty that i couldn’t visit her when i was back in EU (IT WILL HAPPEN ONE DAY I SWEAR I WILL BE BACK 😤😤😤), writing fics for one another 💗, STRONG ASS WOMAN 💪 (who juggles between work and uni all on her own 🥹🫂), “there’s a rat in my apartment”, phone & video calls (which we havent done in a while and we should again!!)

@juyeonszn my fawnie my bubba 🥹, coffee ☕️, zeneration livestream 🙌🏻, crying tgt, unboxing albums ✨, pcs collection, puppies 🐶, anime!!, big sexc brain 🧠, sunric sluts, INSANE MAKEUP LOOKS 😩, delulu is the solulu ✨, education 📚, never-ending talks on dc (which we haven’t done in a while i miss you loads 🥺), my fellow dancer 💃, if cutie was a person its fawnie 💗

@itsbeeble my pookie 🫶🏻, kim sunwoo, another big sexc brain 🧠, taylor swift 💛, eras tour ✨, “ALLY GO TO SLEEP”, eric sohn, ateez & svt!!, memes 24/7, exposing each other’s asses 😄, biker sunwoo 😩, delulu is the solulu ✨, another coffee buddy ☕️, talks abt uni/work life, always bouncing off ideas with one another

#❣️ — love notes! #❄️ — asks! #mutuals! <3

[st-dorothy-minority]

You know, I would really like reading something on how your Cell fought (is fighting) his trauma! His inner thoughts or how hard was for him in the beginning when the experience was still fresh and how it translated into his new life! Maybe some episodes of PTSD and his attempts at covering it. Let's just say I'd love to read more about his vulnerable side!

Eeeee!!! Thank you for this!!! 🙏🥰

I'm assuming this is based off my headcanon for what happened to him in Hell? Let's talk trauma responses! A favorite topic of mine 😄

To me, Cell would most likely react with either fight or flight out of the 4 responses (fight, flight, freeze, and fawn). Fight is obvious because he's a fighter and filled with so much fighter DNA. He will literally punch and destroy away his problems and triggers. Physical threat? He's absolutely responding with fight energy.

When it comes to psychological and emotional trauma (brought on by a certain type of physical trauma, as is what happened to him in Hell with being repeatedly assaulted), I see him having a flight response - and a unique way of flight because he's not always physically fleeing! And what I mean by that is flight in the sense of he runs from it mentally. He buries it. He blocks it out. Does whatever he can *not* to remember. His brain is figuratively fleeing the threat, which is all of the emotional trauma (shame, weakness, helplessness, etc). However, if something does happen to trigger the memory/sensation, he gets both fight and flight. He physically runs away from the place he's at and whoever he's with and goes into fight energy by blowing up shit (in my headcanon, it's planets and stars). His body has to purge that energy by going and physically doing something while at the same time, his mind is in a flight response by feverishly burying the memory into oblivion.

This makes it hard to write some scenarios to showcase him in these responses because he's a master at hiding emotions and what happened from everyone, and whenever they do show, he just flies off to destroy things and comes back all "normal." He does "so well" (and I put that in quotations because it's not healthy to ignore emotions! 😄) at pushing all the yuck aside that I don't see him dwelling on it much or at all. Only if something inadvertently triggers it does he then think about it. And even then, it's not for long because he's doing whatever he can to get rid of it and bury again.

I hope all that made sense! I got a bit carried away 😅 I just loooove thinking about this stuff. As he and Gohan become closer, I could see him opening up just a bit and letting himself show some emotion, but never for long. I would love, love to hear your thoughts and any possible specific scenes/content ideas you have! Perhaps there is a way to showcase his vulnerable, PTSD-suffering side that I just can't think of at the moment lol 💜💚

#ama #ask me anything #ask #headcanon #my headcanons #cell #perfect cell #dragon ball z #trauma #ptsd #angst #trauma response #psychology #character study #cellhan

[whentommymetalfie]

Sorry, I somehow couldn't paste my message in the comment section of the chapter, so you get another dm. 😄

A new chapter and such a long one! Thanks a lot for this!!! And again, I was sucked into the story from start to finish. Another great, albeit heartbreaking, segment of your story. What I forgot to mention last time is that I admire your style of writing. At first I was a bit irritated by the passages of Tommy's troubled/anxious/muddled thoughts and wondered where all of a sudden the upper and lower capital letters, let alone periods and commas, had disappeared to. But to write his state of mind in this way is a great idea and very well done! I still love how you take the time to describe the recovery process (he'll recover, right?!!!) and keep it realistic - with ups and downs. The new low is really heartbreaking and I suffered a lot as a reader. But then again, that only seems logical. I was watching „The Fall“ the other day (I’m a bit late to the party, I know) and they were talking about strangulation and the probability of wetting yourself during the process. So if Tommy is dreaming about it that intensely, it only seems logical that this symptom would appear. In this sense, once again great attention to detail. I look forward to reading how it goes on and wish you time and a visit from your muse for the next chapter. All the best to Sweden! ❤️

Thank you for this wonderful message ❤️ a long comment is always the best gift to a writer

To begin with I was hesitant to go all out with throwing all writing rules out the window in Tommy's segments, but then I decided that if I didn't do it in a fanfic, when was I supposed to do it? I believe in being self indulgent. So I'm thrilled that it grew on you. My aim has been to make the reader almost as confused as Tommy when he's at his worst, by making some parts virtually incoherent. When his state of mind is a bit clearer, so is the writing. And he's almost always wavering between the two states, and he'll still have moments of that confused state even when he's doing a bit better , so it can sort of ebb and flow within a chapter. At least that's been my thought process and goal.

Oh that's interesting, I didn't know that (Also I'm even later to the party because I haven't even watched The Fall). I included it as another symptom of PTSD and trauma, but it also makes sense to see it this way.

Thank you again for taking the time to write this message ❤️ It made my day. I'm working on the next chapter right now, and it should be out in a few days!

#asks #trying to break the 'one update every two months'-rut

[wayward-sherlock]

Hey, hope you don't mind me rambling in your inbox, but when I see ao3 author's link fics i'fe read of theirs on Tumblr, I love to ramble in their inbox about how much I liked it and you're the latest. I love how real Will's reactions and panic felt, i may not deal with PTSD, but as someone who's dealt with panic attacks and whatnot, they can definitely vary a lot, so him sometimes needing Mike to ground him, and other times needing to not be touched was really nice to see! And of course, I loved how sweet Mike was. Like, obviously he's usually doing whatever he can to help Will out, even if it goes against his own instinct of just wanting to wrap him in his arms and comfort him, but asking Joyce for her cookie recipe?? That was just too cute, oh my god. I hope one day he perfects it, lol. Anyways, yeah, just wanted to ramble about how realistic and sweet i found your fic! Sorry for the kinda long message, but I hope you don't mind

hi!!! you’re totally fine, i really appreciate the comment!!

im glad you thought it was realistic 😌 ive dealt with similar things, so i used ✨personal experience✨to write it lol

yes, mike is definitely a sweetheart. i love him <3 i hope he perfects it, too! i’m glad you liked that detail 😄

thank you so much for the comment! i really appreciate it, more than you know <3 thank you so much for reading!!

#asks! #exhausted #wayli writes #byler #stranger things #will byers #mike wheeler #havenshereagain <33

[agirlwithmagicpals]

Tw: emotional neglect, mentions of physical violence, and childhood trauma

So since I’ve been working more often on my au I’ve decided to share a few headcanons with you

When it comes to my version of bark(deadname:Lolita)(who is the long lost child of the og himself) he also sorta goes by in an ironic fashion “snowball”.

him and fang(Jackson) met while they were in 10th grade at the time being two edgy humanoid teens thus they quickly became best buds along side bean(Sid) as the ironicly formed a pact together

Now as for little old fang here….. in my au he was repeatedly through out his life treated like an inconvenience and a threat by his own already problematic and aggressive family members his sister despised him,his cousins took pity on him, his step dad once threw him across the room LITERALLY JUST YEETED HIM FOR JUST EXISTING, his mom treats him like LITERAL TRASH 🗑, and everyone else pretends he doesn’t even exist ether that or he was assaulted by his siblings or worse his mom yelled at him she only kept him due to being paid to keep him by the state as a baby the only reason why she still at least tries to care is because “oh he’s my son I can’t abandon him like that….it would look bad on my part” unlike bark’s foster parents who would do anything just to not be held accountable for they’re care.

they have already cut them out of there lives permanently and are ready to move on despite the ptsd and torment they suffered at least they have each other now

hope you liked it have a nice day 🥰📖😀😄📝

#bark the polar bear #fang the sniper #alternate universe #au #fanfic #childhood trauma #tw triggers #headcanon #creative writing #bark is an autistic intersex trans man #While fang is a random cis Aussie dude with adhd and ocd #sonic idw #sonic au

[new-message-4-u]

Where is everyone? Adonis? Casanova? Hayden? Anyone?

#yeah wow #how amazing #how am i still alive #there goes my ptsd!😄