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figofswords · 18 hours

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the post grad why did i get an art degree what am i even doing what do i want in life where am i going crisis has finally hit i want to. lie down in the dirt. or something

#WHAT AM I DOING!!!!#i get up i go to my stupid retail job i stick labels on bags they pay me fucking thirteen bucks an hour i come home i lie on the couch #too tired to draw in too much pain to go anywhere no energy to reach out to college friends to do anything fun #no idea where the even start with getting an industry job no clue what i even WANT at this point #trying to remember what i loved so much about comics i want it BACK i HATE this #WHAT IS THE POINT!!!! WHAT DO I WANT WHERE AM I GOING!!! WHAT COMES NEXT!!!!!!#there's no clear career trajectory i can't do freelance i need structure i can't work too much i need free time #my brain doesn't work every job requires me to move across the country the irs just took fucking three hundred stupid dollars from me #my friends live in different states i can't get a job without experience i can't get experience without a job #i can't work on my portfolio with no energy and no time and i dont have any money and everything is so expensive all the time #i can't get anywhere bc i dont drive and im too stressed to think about taking driving lessons again #and WHAT DO I WANT!#THE MOST INTERESTING THING I DO EVERY WEEK IS GO TO PHYSICAL THERAPY!#I AM EXCITED EVERY WEEK FOR PHYSICAL THERAPY!!!! WHY!!!!!!!!#anyway WHATEVER i need to go to bed #delete later #i got into spx. today. so. had to have a crisis about how i felt when i attended spx (energized. excited. a part of something. ambitious)#versus how i feel now (tired. unmotivated. kind of apathetic about art. disconnected)#i dont miss the stress of school but i miss being around other artists. ppl who speak your language and who want the same things you want #ppl who are excited abut art and that makes YOU excited about art. ppl who get you #i miss that i want that back #whatever. its 1am i gotta go shower i have an 8.5 hour shift tomorrow. wahoo. $13.50/hr lets go

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mariemarion · 1 day

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hey, long time no been here. I'm sleepy, but I have something to say

I will abuse google translator a little cause I originally wrote all this in spanish :p

I haven't had energy the last few months. I am currently in a not very good state of mind so I will allow myself to be somewhat negative below.

I have lost interest in continuing with art, or at least the motivation is at the lowest level it has ever been, my only real reason for continuing is because it feeds my family, my pets and me, its reason enough to keep going , I fervently believe. But this doesn't stop me from feeling like I'm not going anywhere, that I'm stuck. Drawing has never been so exhausting, so tiring. I loved it, it may not be a permanent feeling, but currently I do not feel love for my drawings, for my current style, although I like it I feel that it is not mine, that it is not me, that I am not being sincere.

My dream is to reach that level of skill, like the meme, a rookie artist drawing something super rendered and complex and the senior artist drawing the most simplified style possible, I want to be that senior artist x'D.

How socials are treating and overshadowing artists lately also has a lot to add here, to hell with the numbers, I'm not interested in them, I'm not interested in the algorithm, I don't quite understand what it's about, I don't want to be tied down all the time , I want to come and go freely, that's all, I don't enjoy loggin into networks as i used to be.

Sometimes I would like to go back in time, when I felt free to create, when I was looking for to experiment and had fun. Today just thinking about holding a pencil makes me want to run away to the comfort of my bed or go play with my cats or to want to climb a mount and never coming back. And not to mention the damage I have done to my eyes and my hands, sometimes I can't do anything but overdo everything, and therefore hurting me, I foolishly force myself to accomplish deadlines that I have imposed on myself and that I am aware of its a short time.

I'm in a situation where I can't stop drawing, it's my job, I can't simply take a rest. I practically survive with what I earn (which lately is little), prices for many essentials are going up to the stratosphere and beyond (the price for cat food is so ridiculously expensive that I have started opting for homemade food) I have not been able to save anything, if I stop drawing and taking commissions, I don't know what else I could do, looking for alternatives is also tiring. I just want to sleep.

Apathy, that is my current state.

Fatigue.

Drowsiness.

A bottomless abyss, although when I say it out loud it makes me laugh x'D

Going to therapy has crossed my mind, I know there are issues to resolve, but thinking about the absence of money and next month's expenses somehow overlap everything else.

I think there were more things to add, but I can't think anymore.

I will not abandon art, it is clear to me, but if these last few months have been slow (in terms of making art), they will be even more so in the future, so you better do not miss me too much, you have been warned x'D

ty for reading

#marion talks

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nikoisme · 9 months

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Naptime

#nimona #nimona 2023 #nimona movie #ballister boldheart #ballister blackheart #ambrosius goldenloin #goldenheart #art #fanart #therapy is expensive but drawing them is free #i have a problem and they are the cause #drawing them napping is therapeutic lemme tell ya #personal hc is that nimona has the worst sleeping positions #she complains about back pain and her dads are like #geez i wonder why #i love them so much

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ptnia19773882 · 8 months

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𝘙𝘦𝘶𝘯𝘪𝘰𝘯

#path to nowhere #ptn #path to nowhere fanart #ptn chief #ptn zoya #无期迷途 #無期迷途 #무기미도 #zoya x femchief #therapy is expensive but drawing zoyachief in love with each other is free

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just-avocado · 11 months

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I should be studying for my finals but qsmp brain rot is more important (and these two stole my heart)

#qsmp #qsmp fanart #my art #fanart #qsmp baghera jones #baghera jones #mcyt #baghera jones qsmp #qsmp eggs #qsmp pomma #I’ve known these two for three hours and I would already die for them #I made this in like 2 hours #i think i need help #therapy is expensive #drawing Minecraft people is free #french creators on the qsmp

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carbone-arts · 7 months

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im so normal about them so so so so normal

#therapy is expensive but drawing girls kissing is free #genshin impact #genshin impact fischl #genshin impact barbara #genshin fanart #genshin impact fanart #myart #fischl von luftschloss narfidort #barbara pegg #genshin girls #fischara #genshin wlw

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stealingpotatoes · 2 years

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sketchbookComp #4: black sails!! birates ftw

#black sails #anne bonny black sails #anne bonny #miranda barlow #james flint #miranda hamilton #captain flint #james mcgraw #sketchbook #traditional art #my doods #therapy is expensive drawing anne with one eye covered by her hat is free

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purble-gaymer · 9 months

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one of these days i’d like to stay asleep for longer than 6/7 hours

#kirby right back at ya #meta knight #sword knight #blade knight #knights qpr #star’s roundtable #swordblademeta #therapy is expensive but drawing characters sleeping is free #roommates if you see this yes that is the blanket bill gave me at the end of the term lol #i love it to death #rhyn's art

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localgardenweed · 18 days

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Sitting and sadly staring into the abyss waiting and watching for smth to make life worth while again. Trying to get over my internet social anxiety cause weirdly i would rather say hi to someone in real life than send in a ask without anonymity or send a dm saying you’re awesome sauce.

At this point im so aimless and empty brain I have like no motivation for anything anymore its actually crazy. I have no idea what to do with myself cause my spark for art is hanging by a thread cause of my AP Art class and im trying to scramble together smth like “guys if i draw enough CKND personas for people and draw enough hetalia japan doodles everything will be okay it will all cancel out” when im sobbing and letting my tears smudge the ink and have this blaring in the back and my fists slam into the desk, lime lays chip crumbs all over my face when I know I should probably stop eating them cause my last job fucked me over so bad I had to emotionally stress eat and now have high cholesterol

I need another high i need a new spike of fire, i desperately crave the days I was so crazy into Hetalia, Eddsworld and CKND I NEED IT BACK I WANT THE AVATAR BACK /ref. I need to go back in time and relive the high it’s actually crazy. I tried to dive bacj into past fandoms like Lupin III, Mr Osomatsu and others but they dont hit the same and OMG AS I WAS TYPING THIS THE OSOMATSU SAN SEASON 1 OP STARTED PLAYING OMFG ITS A SIGN

Anyway please please I beg of you send requests for drawings I need content i need nutrients

#localgardenweed #the weed is rambling #i think the more im left to my own devices the more unhinged i get so like i need help fast #but sadly therapy is expensive and i dont want to waste more money when I cant even stay sane after I leave #i need to save money for college dude i may count for independence but i still gotta pay like hella cash bro #during the summer imma try to open my commissions and get COIN #when i turn 18 this December I promise guys its gonna get crazy #i will be free to draw and get commissioned for as much gerita/itager sex as I want JUST THINK OF THE COIN #ITS ALL FOR THE COIN #THE YEARS OF INTERNET ACCESS WILL ALL BE WORTH IT GUYS I SWEAR

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bee-in-a-box · 2 years

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The show's costumers didn't put Bree in athletic wear so I guess I have to everything myself huh?

#hi yes this IS my favorite thing I've ever drawn #I think you can tell cuz this is the cleanest work I've done in a while #fhdsjkafhdasjkf #omg her hair is /the/ funnest thing to draw #therapy is expensive but drawing Bree Davenport's hair is free #THE COLORS WERE SO FUN YOU GUYS I HAD SO MUCH FUN #lab rats #bree davenport #lab rats art #art #god i really want the sleeveless hoodie i drew her in why can't it be real :'(#might make it myself-

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sssatrn · 1 month

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an unstoppable force (the urge to draw my characters smooching) vs an immovable object (the need to work on solar episodes)

#solar project #neptune oc #phi oc #therapy is expensive but drawing phi in crop tops is free

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digoload · 13 days

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part THREE! of drawing bedrock bros as kakashi & naruto screencaps (part 1, part 2, part 4, part 5)

i know i said "day 1" in part one and have continued to post every day since then but we're setting ourselves up for success so dont continue to expect daily art. however. having said this. therapy is expensive and drawing bedrock bros as p!kakanaru is free :sunglasses_emoji: