#then i relapsed 🤷‍♀️

[isalabells]

Frau Herzog hat mich persönlich angerufen und gefragt, ob ich Herrn Pawlak im Sorgerechtsstreit um seine Tochter helfe. Wissen Sie was davon?

#tdo* #self gratuitous gifmaking because. most interesting scene ever since Gallwitz invited Faber to the bar #this is literally the mlm/wlw violence I always wanted from a potential Matuschek/Gallwitz meeting that was never gonna happen #the way I deadass thought he said 'Du' when I freaked out about this to Leni lmao. wishful thinking #also here's the thing I would go back to watching if you kept them both as recurrings and gave me at least one bitchy scene with them per e #(I know Moritz's not in the next one and I bet once he gets back they already kicked her off. so. I won't relapse.) #also quick where's the text post how tumblr users will claim to yearn for evil unhinged female characters when in reality #they can't even handle women who are mildly unsympathetic to their blorbos🤷‍♀️ #Tatort Dortmund

[makkie-is-screaming]

About 1 year since my ed relapse

#It’s so fucked up because I was mostly okay eating wise for like 3 months #like sure there were some foods I wouldn’t eat but I wasn’t tracking cals or fasting or compulsively exercising #N I wanted to go skateboard n the pants I usually skated in were dirty so I put on these old jeans #size 3 hollister mom jeans from 8th grade to be exact (I still glare at them bc those fuckers triggered this relapse) #and then had a mental breakdown in the bathroom when I I put them on n they felt tight n gave me a muffin top #I have since lost 20lbs but I still feel like shit n hate myself so 🤷‍♀️ #Ed shit #screaming

[misfit-among-the-angels]

So this Sunday gonna be mother's day and I'm not feeling okay with it (part of me is kinda scared too). I just hope that i won't feel anything like last year and will be able to ignore it otherwise yikes

#otherwise i might relapse a lot i guess not that really matters because relapses happen to me so often now 🤷‍♀️ #abusive mother #personal

[keenbugg]

Spotify wrapped before everyone starts getting sick of them :)

#relapsed... the beatles are back as my no 1 artist #I had RAM on REPEAT while I was studying for my final exams #so I’m not suprised paul and linda are in my top 5 but was expecting more than one song from the album to be in my top 5 #genuinely suprised Taylor is at 5. I don’t remember listening to her very much this year #she must have been a lot of playlists I’ve been listening to 🤷‍♀️ #the sunny brainrot is responsible for those mountain goats songs #a little shocked they werent in my top artists tbh #spotify wrapped #o

[n0t-vzin1s]

bf!dazai headcannons

a/n: this is my first hc post and it's all over the place L O L

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- he's definitely like an idiot yk

- he knows nothing on relationships

- like sure

- he was in like three in the past

- but he was an asshole

- obviously he is still learning!!

- so pls don't get mad at him for these things

- he teases you for simple things

- you said a word wrong?

- tease.

- you answered a question wrong?

- tease.

- you bully eachother. 100%

- he has a dark sense of humour, that can occasionally leave yoh worrying

- he'll apologize after though

- teaches you self defence!! he wants you to b safe at all times

- dazai LOVES listening to you talk about your day

- like will literally sit and listen to you for hours

- he loves the way your voice sounds, what can i say?

- also loves when you read your books out loud to him as his head rests in your lap

- watches tons of movies with you

- mainly romcoms

- and 2005 movies. they're fucking awesome.

- the two of you prank call chuuya often

- would buy you a pony (???)

- he would often join you on walks at night to help you feel safe

- would probably hide behind you if someone taller than him tried to fight him /hj??

- and then tell his friends how he took down some 7'1 man (he was like 6'1)

- and you took him down tbf

- 🤷‍♀️

- romantic dates!! or suicide ones!! no inbetween 🙄

- one day you could be having a picnic in the park

- the next you could be cliff jumping

- who knows

- late night convos!!

- especially b4 he asked you out

- listening to each others music in the car

- midnight drives through yokohama!!

- but you're driving

- bro can't drive for shit

- gets high w you

- and then asks "are you my s/o?? ur so hot"

- will give you little nicknames

- "my little corn muffin"

- cute tote bin

- he researches deeply into your interests

- learns new languages just to compliment you in them

- learned like 7 words of 30 different languages

- italian was his favourite, or french

- goes shopping with you !!

- if he ever annoys you, just spray him with a spray bottle filled with water

- skips work to hang out with you

- hangs out with his friends with you

- constantly brags about how "awesome" you are

- his friends love you

- they make friendship bracelets with you

- pda is sometimes there

-simple gestures of affection >>> big gestures

- he doesn't like you doing anything extreme for him, he thinks he's not important

-he has a weak immune system so he gets sick often

- you constantly take care of him

- NAPS ON HIS COUCH.

- dazai sleeps a lot or a little due to his depression

- makes sure you take any meds you need to take and you do the same thing

TW

- he relapses every so often, resulting in you not leaving his side

- you take care of his bandages since he hates looking at his body

- he also needs constant reassurance that he's doing his best and that he's doing a good job

- when he goes through an episode, he doesn't communicate well

- but he wants you right there by his side at any given moment

- he has panic attack during the night when he doesn't sleep well

- when the two of you started dating, he stopped trying to commit suicide

- but if he has an episode or relapses, he obviously tries again

- regrets hurting you and thinks you deserve someone better than him

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#bungou stray dogs dazai #bsd dazai #dazai fluff #dazai hcs #dazai imagines #dazai x reader #bsd anime #bsd #bungo stray dogs headcanons #bungo stray dogs #bungou stray dogs #headcanon

[remcycl333]

Void/LOA success by 💇‍♀️anon

This post is gonna be a bit lengthy , blunt and unbelievable 😭 also very sloppily written cause i’m havijh so much fun. i really have got out of my comfort zone and I’m so happy i did. No you do not have to follow every step I did! This is simply for motives and inspo.

So, yeah it's obvious i was one who struggled with void and loa blah blah blah for a LONG TIME! I was a hardcore druggie, physical and mentally abused all my life, had a very rare illness and so much more. But who gaf ab the old story. ☠️

So after a day of sending that cringe ass message to u i ended up prioritizing myself. It’s clear I was idolizing void and I’ve been doubting in LOA too like ??? So in the 3D i moved in with my one and only friend, got a job at a fastfood place (pls this is sorta embarrassing), and decided homeschool was much better for me. Also between that time I learned how to correctly manifest and shiz by you and @theandreiaeffect<3. And girlllll literally less than the next week I manifested perfect mental and physical health, my dream job, desired appearance, and 7,000,000$ with a 15,000,000$ home me and my bestie now live in. I was already so happy how it was. Yet after that crazy ass week passed by i woke up in the fucking void. I have no clue how but i did.

Now for what I manifested in void.

- ‘i heard a rumor’ power - a power of this girl from a netflix show. basically you say ‘i heard a rumor ____’ and it happens. its like a brainwash power? its simple to explain but idk. (If u watch that show my fav character is klaus whats urs?)

- Time travel(?) - so when i got in void it was prolly like september 11th 2022. i just said in the void ‘it is August 30th’ and when i woke up it was august 30th as you can tell so now I’m just relapsing my days but in a goodway.

- changed family - my bestie is like family and i changed her appearance to her desired appearance, more cousins, siblings, aunts etc. my dad being a famous nfl star.

- Revenge - basically just fucking with my abusers life the same way they fucked with mine. I have no regrets so🤷‍♀️

- Name and age revision - I always hated my full name so i changed it. I was 17 and just revised that i’m 21. yeah it was a big gap but idc it was worth it for me honestly. i also manifested i’m not gonna die till like 90 and age like wine so.

- a bf- oh let me tell u. i’ve always had a crush on ralph macchio. and now i have a boyfriend who is his twin but even more attractive. his personality and the way he showers me with love is mwah.

- Removing phobias - i’ve always been scared of animals🤦‍♀️ not anymore tho now i have 2 cute lil puppies and a parrot:)

- Vegan restaurants and shops opening up close to me - I’ve been vegan since the beginning of the year due to animal cruelty and just not enjoying meat.

- Immune from getting preggo til 25 - its self explanatory what i be doing but i’m not ready for a baby yet so🤫

- Being protected and safe 24/7 - anyone around me also is aswell its like a invisible barrier to danger

Now those are just a handful of what I manifested. I literally manifested sooooo many other priv things. Just get ur shit together. I have nothing else to tell u. Honestly idk how LOA coaches don’t get fed up with y’all constantly crying ab how u dont got ur shit when u are the reason why. U have a cheatcode to life. Not many people are spiritually awoken. Do you know how fortunate you are to have discover LOA???? Keep this in mind and maybe ya know manifest ur dream life. To Rem, I thought I’d be on tumblr way longer as your anon, but I’d rather go live my life to the fullest for a while. I hope my story leaves an imprint on the LOA community. Andreia, you have also really inspired me. I’m so fucking happy I made a whole 180 with my life. Rem and Andreia, i will NEVER forget what you have done for me. Thank you so much really. I love u guys so much🥲🥲

yesss im so proud of u!!! when u said u traveled back in time from september i got the chills! and baby go live your life and enjoy it, you deserve it!!! come back whenever u want and update us <3

#void success stories #💇‍♀️ anon

[zzzzzestforlife]

Getting My Life Mentality Together 🌝☕🌱

once again, i am trying to find stability, be inspired, and heal more completely. (lorde wasn't joking when she said maybe the internet raised us, it's literally how i'm reparenting myself.)

good morning to me 🌻

my morning didn't go as planned the moment i started working 😂 i know the importance of guarding my time, but i also just feel an enormous amount of pressure when it comes to my job these days 😅

❤️ try a new guided meditation

🎧 Korean intermediate podcast

👩‍💻 admin tasks + stand-up

🥰 warm-up + workout

👩‍💻 pair programming session

good afternoon, lovely 🌹

i found out i basically relapsed 🙃 my chronic pain is indeed chronic 🙃🙃 i then bought a fluffy sweater on sale to feel better ☺️ retail therapy >> physiotherapy

👩‍💻 code review (2x)

👩‍💻 ticket grooming

📚 read 2 chapters of Sophie's World

📝📝📝 Japanese lessons

🥰 physiotherapy appointment

good night, darling 💕

there was... a small fire... 😬 it's kind of personal, so i won't talk about it here, but it took some time to work through and i endured a lot of stress. still, it was important to deal with.

🧠 comparative cognition readings

❤️ journal

🎧 Japanese listening practice

❤️ plan an extreme form of time-blocking for tomorrow

💌: 힘들어 일 😮‍💨 많이 것들 있어요 😵‍💫 가끔 선택 없어 거 같아요 🤷‍♀️ 근데 이건 진짜 진실있습니다? 🤔 가끔 다 좋은 선택, 가끔 진짜 좋은 선택을 없어요 — 아무튼, 우리는 항상 선택을 있어요 😤 미래에서, 난 더 좋은 선택을 만들어게요 🤧

💌: it's hard work 😮‍💨 there are many things 😵‍💫 sometimes i feel like i have no choice 🤷‍♀️ but is this really true? 🤔 sometimes all the choices are good, sometimes there are no good choices — anyway, we always have a choice 😤 in the future, i will make better choices 🤧

#studyblr #langblr #workblr #getting my life together #getting my shit together #korean langblr #japanese langblr #study motivation #study inspiration #studyspo #100 days of productivity #100 days of studying #100 days of self discipline #self empowerment #100 days of code #software engineer #software engineering #software development #software #coding #codeblr #programming #programmer #progblr #self love #self improvement #self development #self care #daily routine #daily habits

[aleksa-sims]

Simselfstory

The next day D. & I went to my parents to pick up our cat and some of my stuff.  Last night, we talked again. We decided to just stay together for now, to see..... how things will turn out.

There was also something else D. told me. Since he was getting better while he was away, he thought about starting his own business, bcs he quit his job. My Dad offered to help him.

The two had this in mind anyway. They talked about it months ago and now it was time to inplement things. I don’t want to go into too much detail rn. It will explain itself over time.

Mom: You have to take your pills regularly, D. This is important! The same goes for you, A.! The more time passes, the better you’ll be and hopefully..... forget what happend. 😞

Dad (to Daniel): The main thing is that you are safe & fine. Soon we have a lot to do and distraction is always good! But one thing I want to mention again. No matter what probs you two have, even if you relapse, talk to us!! None of us will blame you for asking for help. We want you two to be well, okay?

Daniel: Yea, I got it. 😔

Dad: And what about you A.?

Me: Yea, ok! But I want you to help D. with that job thing.

Dad: Of course I’ll help him. And actually we could start immediately, but if we proceed as planned and discussed, it may be that you and Daniel have to move. 😕

Me: Um... okay. I am prepared to do whatever it takes. 🙂(😟)

Daniel (to me): You...are really ready to move? To.... my house!? 😯

Me: We’ve talked about it before, and..... now that I’m pregnant, why not? You, me and.................. our Baby? 😳

Daniel: I love you, so I’ll love your Baby, too. Our Baby! And well, N.'s Baby. 🤨

Mom: Are you serious about this, D.? Can- and do you even want that?? 😟

Daniel: Yes!

Me: We decided to try and I have to talk to N. about it too.

Dad: However you decide to continue, together or .... separately, I will help Daniel. I’m just clarifying this, so you don’t make your decision dependent on that.

My Dad and Daniel kept talking about their new plans, while my Mom couldn't stop asking me questions.

Mom: You really wanna move? You know what kind of... strange things his mother did there. In that house! 😟

Me: It's a pretty house. I like it there. And she moved out, it's all fine. Besides, I have other worries rn, as you know.

Mom: That’s what I’ve been trying to make clear to you these past few weeks. But well, now you're pregnant. Either you two accept this and move on, or you’re really getting a divorce.

Me: He wants us to stay together. And actually I want the same. I don't wanna lose him.... I’m moving back to our apartment with him for a short while, see if Daniel and I can make it? And, I'm gonna talk to N. I don’t want to disappoint N. or hurt him. I have to come up with something. A soloution! 😟🤯

Mom: In other words, it's either/or? There is no other way out, A.!

Me: Who says that? You?.... I’m gonna do what’s right for me, Daniel and Nico, not for you or anyone else. 😒

Mom: What are you trying to tell me?.... You can’t do the same thing you did back then. This isn't normal!.. And you were unhappy! That’s not what you want! And I’m sure Daniel won’t agree with that. 😦

Me: I'm going to do what I got to do.

Mom: I know you A.! You won’t do anything. You will wait until one of them.......... goes nuts.

Me: I don’t think so. 😒

Just before Daniel and I wanted to leave, Ana also had some questions for me.😩

Me: Everything you are about to say, drop it pls.

Ana: Um.... ok! Have you had makeup sex? Or, no! I’d rather call it... homecoming-sex.🧐 I mean, you didn’t really fight, he just... took off.🤷‍♀️

Me: No, we didn’t!! We talked!

Ana: Then it's obvious! You want N.! With him you couldn’t wait even 24 hours. Plus, he knocked you up. 🤷‍♀️😬

Me: Ah...yup. You know, we'll see S. later. Are you joining us?

Ana: Nah! Sounds like a double date, I really don’t feel like it. I have other plans. And now go and have fun with your..... man. 😏

Me: Who are you having fun with, Ana? 🤨 Dennis?

Ana: Are you jealous of me for Dennis? 😜

Me: Ugh!... NO! 😖

Ana: Don't worry, sis. I’m not dating Dennis, a messed up guy. NO thanks! I have fun...... with myself. 😄

Me: Hmm?... I know you Ana! You have a secret. And you know me, baby sis. I'll uncover it. 😏💁‍♀️

Ana: Weirdo!

Ana really had a secret. At first I thought she was back with Adam or something, but no, it wasn’t Adam. Just that much, I get why she kept it a secret. 🤭

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#ts4 #sims 4 #sims 4 story #rl story #myrlgameplay #cw addiction #cw pregnancy

[pretty0nly1fsk1nny01]

My pickyness when it comes to food does WONDERS when it comes to ⭐️ving. Like, im not even trying to ⭐️ve. I just dont want to eat what my mom cooked. Theres like no snacks at my house. So i cant eat anythin else. I mostly only prefer chocolates or sweet stuff anyway. Like i dont even like chips or popcorn anymore. I buy stuff sometimes but they dont last 4ever. And i dont like spending alot of money on junkies so 🤷‍♀️ thank you brain for not liking anything. Idk why i suddenly got soo picky. Like a few yrs ago i would eat what my mom gave me albeit little. After developing an ed i ate only white rice and greek yogurt. And maybe an apple. That stopped after recovering. Ive relapsed now its just not as extreme yk?

#@n0r3xia #@na tips #@na trigger #@na vent #@nor3×14 #ana meal #analog #th1gh g@p #th1n$pø #th1nsp1ration #ana trigger #ana buddie #ana speaks #@na motivation #an0r3c1a #an0rec1a #th1nspø #ed no sheeran #tw ana diary #tw ed but not sheeran #th1nnsp0 #tw ana trigger #st@rv1ng #st@rve #⭐️rving #sk1nsp0 #b0n3sp0

[charliesgoodboy]

Honestly sometimes I just relapse the she with he and it makes it at least a bit better

But I’d rather have a cock than a pussy

Sorry not sorry🤷‍♀️

BAAHFJFFHTFGHJHFGJ REAL I CANT

[j3llyof1sh]

Tw in tags

Just my usual, being lonely and getting attached to someone way too quickly 🤷‍♀️ hopefully soon I'll get to post normally instead of all this sad stuff (╥_╥)

I have genuinely been miserable lately, like my mental health is just bad. Idk what to do, I wanna talk about it on my blog but I don't want to reveal the reason as to why I'm having such a horrible time rn lol

I've also relapsed pretty badly. My thighs are cut up, and I've been eating less and less. I've been starving myself to the point it physically hurts xd

I just need some attention bro, tell me you love me and need or smthn 💀💀

#tw #tw ed rant #tw self destructive behavior #vent #tw vent #hhhhhhhh #painnnnn

[silvyysthings]

New Timmy post was not from 2020. He was rake thin and had much longer hair taken 2 weeks pre divorce announcement with staged pap photos in Cabo. He is clearly older in new photo and slightly bigger and if we are honest not looking his best. He’s posted new photos for a reason. All these games are getting tiring and how is it a connection to her because he’s in water? Wasn’t latest DM info is she’s over the pre scheduled bearding contract with Timmy, it’s “cooled off” and she wants Travis back! Lol. And didn’t she go from Hawaii like life and style said to now Italy? Also the boys have been both MIA and yet the exact same day Timmy posts which could be old we get not one but two sightings on DM of Armie and like last time somebody is putting him down by saying “it was jarring hearing his voice”? Oh fuck off to whichever PR person wrote that. Why because after nearly having his life destroyed for years allegedly with the help of his nasty ex and others he’s still standing and talking? And how dare fans make up rumors Armie or Eric must have relapsed without proof. Disgusting. And to the salivating anti who is shit stirring saying this is Timmy and kj coming out privately in their own way. Please. What about the million plus regular updates, games ,car dates articles and DM blinds from both sides has ever made this arrangement seem private and not for public consumption?

🤷‍♀️thank you for your thoughts, I have already expressed mine with the prev anon

#timothée chalamet #anon ask

[goldtippedfeathers]

see, sometimes i confuse myself. because i say starve, but im doing high res (i’m talking, healthy wl numbers lmao). i say th1nsp0, but i don’t like the obvious bones and unhealthy ones. i say ed, but i’m lowkey going about it in a really healthy way, just with a flare or ✨ interesting motivational choices ✨

like, my ugw isn’t even that low. i don’t feel utterly disgust and despair over my weight or food. i honestly could turn around right now and live happily and healthily, and that’s okay to me. i’m not really fueled by self hatred or anything like that. a bitch just wants to lose weight lmao

BUT, i also say ed because i know i have a history of one. i know how it consumed my life. i know how hard it was to recover and be where i am today (or i guess a month ago since im back here lmao). i feel like it’s not really an ed or not that serious because i’m purposefully avoiding all the things that made it unsustainable and horrific the first time around. but, it’s still that same presence in my head nonetheless. she’s still kicking, only i have more authority over her than she over me.

idk. i don’t feel the need to be sick or anything like that, but it’s like i use this community as a spark of motivation to keep my ed slightly active so i can achieve my goals. whether you call that harm reduction or a full blown relapse… you tell me chief because idk 🤷‍♀️

[countchoculasnightmare]

Me: huh, why am I so sad lately and constantly feel like crying?

Also me: *relapsed into ed, undersleeps and overworks *

Me: it's a mystery, guess I'm gonna have to ask psych to up my meds 🤷‍♀️

[souvlakiandcocaine]

Wait what should Rues mom have done differently then? I thought she was a good mom- she clearly cares/loves her a lot, provided a good home, and tried to help her best she could...did I miss something?? Lol

calling ur daughter mental after allowing doctors to load her up on psychiatric drugs since elementary school, hitting her multiple times, failing to notice her relapsing for months under ur own roof, basing ur assessment of her as a person on her sobriety, then telling her she’s selfish and given the choice you’d rather save her sister are not the markers of a good parent imo idk what to tell u 🤷‍♀️

#my txt #I’ll probably get ppl telling me I’ve never dealt w addiction in the family for this #cause it’s like their only argument #euphoria

[faithhopeloveandtherapy]

Are you cold because of weather or do you think you may be starting to relapse? I know you've mentioned temperature regulation as something that gets screwy when you're not eating enough. No judgment meant, just concern

Thanks for your concern ☺️ You’re right on the temperature regulation thing, but also I’m not relapsing. It was just a cold spell in the weather. H was also wearing extra layers to bed. Ironically the weather is a bit milder now and last night I woke up because I was too hot! I think that’s hormonal 🤷‍♀️