#then i found out his father is Kaelish and i was like OOOOHHH he was cast as a mixed actor on PURPOSE! YESSSSSSSSSS

[youremyonlyhope]

I should have known that after finding out that Jesper is mixed the same way I am (Zemeni aka Black mother and Kaelish aka Irish father) that anything about his backstory would hit me very hard.

Did not think I’d cry over it though. Yet here I am.

#six of crows #crooked kingdom #jesper fahey #insert that Rosa gif of 'if anything happened to him i'd kill everyone in this room and then myself' #i already felt that way after watching the show but reading the books... #ahhh my heart someone help i didn't think i'd cry but i kinda felt it coming on so i took a break for a second #put some stuff away then picked up the book again and cried a little anyway #ahhhhh #also and maybe i'll go more into this when i make another 5000+ word review of this series like i did shadow and bone #as a mixed person i know we have a lot of privilege in film and tv so reading the books and seeing that Jesper is described as dark #i was like 'i love Kit but maybe this role should have gone to a black person who isn't mixed or at least not as light skinned' #Kit's not light skinned he's medium skinned but he's not dark like jesper was initially described in the books #(we see this all the time when mixed people are cast as fully black characters like Amandla in Rue in the Hunger Games) #(were they a perfect Rue? yes. were they half picked because of colorism and they're not dark? also yes.) #then i found out his father is Kaelish and i was like OOOOHHH he was cast as a mixed actor on PURPOSE! YESSSSSSSSSS #so i'm glad him being mixed is an actual part of his character and not just another example of colorism in hollywood #and that also means i can fiercely identify with Jesper and cry over his mom and dad's beautiful relationship #and on that note if something bad happens to jesper i am now going to riot. i am already spoiled about something horrible #(and a stupid youtube comment even told me the chapter it happens in so thanks for that) but i've heard no spoilers of jesper #I just realized I misgendered Amandla in my earlier tags. they use they/them #I’ll edit those tags once I get home since on my phone it will be too hard #ok that’s been fixed