#the same college as me next year

[doctorsiren]

every time I mention Ace Attorney around my (defense lawyer) father, he asks if I’ll be going to law school now

the best bit was me telling him that if I did that, I would be fulfilling the Phoenix Wright prophecy because I’d be dropping my art degree to pursue law

#doctorsiren #not art #siren speaks #ace attorney #I go to the same college that he went to law school at and the view from my dorm is literally the law school #see if I wasn’t trying to be an artist #I *would* be going into law or criminology #I did mock trial all throughout high school #went to state for courtroom art all 4 years #i feel like Phoenix defo would have done courtroom art for mock trial when he was in high school #I’m just projecting because I know how the California Mock Trial Association works (I’m from California) #it’s pretty interesting to me that it took me until after my freshman year in COLLEGE to get into AA #when I did law stuff all throughout high school #maybe it was better than I didn’t get into back then HAHA #I feel like I can appreciate it more as an 18/19 year old sophomore in college than I could’ve as an 13/14 year old freshman in high school #also I made a joke that if I don’t get into my program this next year when i apply then I’ll go to law school instead haha

[sailforvalinor]

Val Is Pretty Sure She Might Be Losing Her Mind, more at 11

#okay so y’all. do you happen to remember Alcott Boy? the guy I had a crush on from school last year (or really the whole time I’ve been in #college honestly) who had Opinions on Little Women #yeah him. anyway I thought I was over my crush on him but GUESS WHAT it’s back and worse than ever #like I only have one class with him that’s once a week but guys guys I feel like I’m LOSING MY MIND like. I’ve never felt the urge to #actually go up to a guy and say ‘hey do you wanna go out with me?’!! like I would never actually do that but the urge is most definitely #there??? and it’s not even that he’s cute (although I mean I think he’s cute) but he’s really really intelligent and funny and very notably #always willing to bring up his faith in class discussions (and this isn’t really the campus for that) and I’ve always admired him for that #(this is also the boy that looked at something I wrote in fiction class and said ‘that’s it that’s what love is supposed to be like!!’ LIKE #) and I genuinely don’t know what to do #like should I be concerned that I feel this strongly so soon after The Boy?? should I be concerned that this might just be limerance??? #my roommate has been offering to talk to him for me and ask if he’s single and is it insane that I’m actually considering it??? #like if I’m going to now is the ideal time—I’ve already had my class with him this week and spring break is next week #and I’m certain he would never make me feel bad if he didn’t feel the same. but if he did wouldn’t he have said something by now? I don’t #know I don’t know I don’t knooowww #but I graduate in two months and I don’t want to regret it for the rest of my life

[mauxanhduong]

head in hands pacing around my room muttering to myself. i’m not in the right place for a relationship right now !!!!

#i’ve been texting this guy and he’s incredibly sweet but i’m just like. i don’t have time for this i’m sorry you seem nice though 😭😭 #AUGH!!!!!!!!!!!! you know. #he’s majoring in the same thing as me next year but we’ll be at different colleges but he’s smart and really knowledgeable and !!!! #rolls around on the ground. get over it !!!! #xuân says stuff

[itspileofgoodthings]

Years ago, I asked you what the different alternate universe Maria’s were doing with their lives. Are the answers still the same?

OOOOOOF yes.

but now I’m in the period where I have to face that I do not, in fact, have multiple lives so I have to figure out what I’m doing with my one wild and precious life and the sort of (for me, at least) ease of following a particular school-related completion course that wasn’t too hard to commit to or finish has come to an end and I am at a crossroads where it’s just like—you could choose. And on some level, in the next few years, you need to. Low-key terrifying and I hate it.

#like. when I started college it was like. okay well now finish it and then I did. and then it was like well you need training for a job #so I did my two year master program in teaching and then I just did that. #and then it was like ‘get job’ and then increasingly ‘adjust to job’ and I did both of those things #but all of those were in the grand scheme of things easy choices #because they also came with clear opportunities that felt like signs #I got the job right after I finished the program! I got into college and was offered a (small) scholarship #even the transition from college to grad school felt easy. I didn’t even know for sure that I wanted to be a teacher #but it was a sensible gamble and it was the same college and I got offered a writing job at the same time that gave me work experience #and it all just fell into place #and even the first four years of teaching where I had to sort of actively battle to get better and adjust to it all #have just run out! The road of easy choices have run out. And I for one hate that so much #and on some level I am content to wait for whatever the next easy choice is. To wait until the signs align again #but tbh I don’t think I am being allowed to do that again #This is just. Different #anyway this is a lot thank you for asking Stacy aksksjjehe

[showrunnerihardlyknowher]

As the first math anon (the one with the failed exam), I really do appreciate you writing out a response for me. I will sincerely take your advice and tips to heart.

I hope it helps, anon!! If there's any specific parts giving you trouble (except geometry bestie sorry) I'm happy to try and help break it down!

#ask #anon #i will never forget being in middle school while my dad went back to college for some certificate thingy #and by chance we happened to be at the same level algebra for our math class #and on the same lesson #so i asked him for help with my homework one night and he was like 'yeah i got you we just learned that watch THIS' and showed me how #next day i got it back and i was like **so that was fucking wrong** #my dad says that was the day he knew he'd never be able to help me with my current schoolwork again it was too above his paygrade #did we all have that childhood experience of our dads angrily yelling/repeating a math question at us because we didn't know the answer #but also like 2 years ago my nephew asked me for help with his online math class and ofc it was geometry #i spent like 30 min working out one problem and i was like 'okay i am confident THIS is the answer (:' #and my answer wasn't even one of the 4 multiple choices lmao #listen boy you live in the golden age of the internet where you can just google the solution okay i had WORK for it at your age so #stop asking me about the angle of a cylinder or whatever

[virtual-hug]

#kinda same hat but. thems the two that are sticking out to me :] #i think i'll enjoy college a lot more as a mature student #by next year i mean september 2024 #🫂🫂🫂

[ereborne]

Snippet from 'lay-on-the-floor-and-scream dot excel' please ❤❤❤

As you might have guessed from the title, this is my 'good data management solves the Clone Wars' AU! Work had me pretty agitated when I put it together, so it's more canon-divergent than originally intended, but hopefully it still holds up.

I started off thinking that the clones, coming from Kamino, would be pretty used to keeping extensive documentation on themselves/each other.  Multiple sets of books, even—the sanitized ones they show the longnecks, the informal tracking of things nobody else cares about, the multiply-encrypted ones with the honest data about how their siblings are doing—as automated and redundant as possible, and while yeah it would be difficult to maintain during wartime, they are 1) the best-trained military minds and logisticians in existence and 2) absolutely not going to pay less attention to their siblings when they’re in more danger. 

For this fic also I focused in on a worldbuilding thing that I actually thought was true a million years ago before I’d ever gotten into any Star Wars nonsense, which is that Lightside users are a sort of filtering system for the Force.  That the Dark was an agent or consequence of some sort of metaphysical entropy—the constant descriptions of it as cold and oppressive really reinforced that one for me—and Force-sensitives would dedicate themselves to opposing it on behalf of the universe.  So they’d be agents and sources of the Light, not only directly combating Darksiders (and more prosaically evil people) but also through meditation (and to some degree intrinsic aura) functioning as something like metaphysical space-heaters.  I was thinking of them kinda through a D&D lens, like galactic paladin-monks.  It made sense to me. 

Under this system, then, not only would things feel cold and depressing around a Sith, but the world would be warmer and more comforting around a Jedi.  To, say, a statistically significant degree.  You see where I’m going with this—what if there was a sweet little chart that proved, mathematically and objectively, that puppy piles around the Jedi general improve the quality of life/life expectancy of everyone involved? 

Such a chart could also indicate a general getting closer to a Fall (Krell more cleanly than Anakin, since Anakin’s baseline will be skewed after the Tusken massacre, and conflated by Obi-Wan and Ahsoka’s recurring presences) or various other ongoing issues in a battalion (Corrie Guard, my beloveds) but we have to start by convincing our ascetic galactic paladin-monks of the efficacy of wartime cuddles. 

Cody hums faintly, and still does not continue.  Obi-Wan has years of practice and does not need the Force to tell him to be patient, that if he pushes Cody now he might miss his chance to hear something important.  The Force tells him anyway.  “General.”  Cody begins again.  “You know the kark you make up so you don’t have to directly answer a direct question?”  Obi-Wan narrows his eyes.  This conversation could be about many things.  The Force tells him yes.  It is unhelpful.  It seems he takes too long to answer, and Cody continues on, delivering further defamatory accusations in his polite semi-formal voice.  “As when you refuse mandatory post-mission checkups, and Helix hunts you down and asks if whatever put the holes in your robes put any matching holes in you, and instead of telling him what he certainly knows, you spin a charming tale about some other poor sap who possibly got shot but is probably fine regardless, no need for any medics who may or may not exist to get involved?” The Force says yes.  Obi-Wan does not roll his eyes, because he is a master of the jedi order and also of himself.  “I’m familiar with the rhetorical construction of a hypothetical situation, yes.”  He replies primly.  “Good.  I’d like to discuss a situation with you, sir, with the understanding that everything I describe is purely hypothetical.”

(also as you can see this is a very fun Cody for me to write, because he and all the rest of the 212th have gone their entire wartime experience with Obi-Wan layering peace/comfort/reassurance over them like a mantle, so he’s a lot more comfortable speaking his mind and I get to lean into my favorite codywan bitch4bitch relationship dynamic from the jump)

#asks #zahnie #fun fact when I started this fic (over a year ago) I was in the middle of a supremely awkward transition period at my new job #and I did actually have a layonthefloorandscream.xlsx file that I was using in a desperate attempt to map my new responsibilities #the whole college was in flux and no one knew who was supposed to be doing which of the many tasks that needed to be done #and no one ever knew either who the latest person to do any given thing was so that they could train the next #and we kept finding out the day after something was due that no one had done it at all #and indeed eventually the day did come that I lay on the floor and scream but then I got up again and made a chart about it #and then the weekend after I made a fic about it! #the excel file still exists btw. things have improved so it's been renamed to sitonthestairsandrant but it's the same file #there's a column now to track how likely someone is to solve their own problems if I just trick them into using me as a rubber duck for it #it's a pretty promising metric. ultimately very encouraging for everyone involved

[realcowboysdrinkjuice]

barely anyone follows me so this will get zero notes but i do not care i am so excited and need to share this somewhere

I GOT MY FIRST COLLEGE ACCEPTANCE LETTER!!!!! FOR THE UK!!!!! SO NO MATTER WHAT THE OTHERS SAY I HAVE A YES!!! AND IM SO EXCITED HOLY SHIT!!!! ITS ALL I WANTED!!!!!!

and i was so fucking scared especially with covid making my gap year long and making everything scarier but i did it and no matter what happens i have a place to go and things are finally moving forward again and holy fuvk i’m going to study illustration overseas like i wanted to before shit went BAD because OOF CLASS OF 2021 NOT A GOOD YEAR especially not a good year in the united states of america where they didnt do jack all to try and prevent it DEAR GOD !!!! bUT OH MY GOD!!!!!!!

usually i’d yell to my family but everyone is asleep oops because it’s almost 6 am my sleep schedule is WRECKED RN so nobody is awake and i did. text anyway cause it was big enough to do it anyways but i was still just yelling into the void so i’m yelling into the void here too

#anyway that’s all now i’ll go back to not making my own posts ever #my post #i’m so fucking happy i opened my email cause ever since i applied in june i developed a subconscious habit of just opening my email and #refreshing it whenever i run out of things to do #so i just occasionally idly refresh my inbox without even thinking #and i did the same like thirty minutes ago not expecting anything cause i wasn’t even thinking #and i was like huh. an email from zoom. that’s annoying and oH MY GOD WHAT IS UNDERNEATH IT #but i know it’s imposter syndrome but i was genuinely so fucking terrified id get five nos and be stuck #because you can’t apply again on the website till the next school year #so if i got five nos i genuinely wouldn’t be able to apply again for the full year #and i already will be 21 when i start which feels fucked even though i know logically that’s okay like calm down aging isn’t bad it’s okay #it’s okay and it’s understandable there was a fucking pandemic ofc the gap year went off #still wild that my sister started college a year before me cause it’s her first year this year and my first will be next year #but yeah #but i know it was the imposter syndrome but i was still so fuckin scared #so getting my first response and it being a yes genuinely brought me to tears #i should have kept writing the post this is all just the same flavor as the post was just in the tags instead

[neolxzr]

ive been doing a deep dive into undertale youtube videos that i watched when i was like 12 or 13 this is crazy. i was so autistic about this

#cryn rambles #still kinda am. i wrote an essay about undertale my first semester of college for english class #AND i got an A on it. im still the same #one of these days ill do an undertale cosplay again. for 13 year old me #i cant get out of the hole #im stuck watching youtube videos for like the next hour at least

[mzannthropy]

People commenting under Barbie trailer on Instagram were complaining that Ryan Gosling was too old to play Ken. Is Ken supposed to be of certain age? Or is it true, and I'm not crazy, and these kids really do have a weird thing about age?

#barbie 2023 #ryan gosling #ageism #this obsession with how old everyone is #obsession over age gaps of 5 years #obsession over being a millennial or gen z #calling every adult they disagree with a 'boomer' or a 'karen' #also ryan gosling is same age as me. there's only a couple of weeks age difference between us! #same thing with that sam claflin post #shitstain commented how weird it is that some of his costars are 10 yrs younger #lol like sam is 11 yrs older than camila but still much younger than leo whom she dated... #do these kids realise that once they get out into the real world #they'll have to work with people of all ages? #do they think workplaces are like college classes? #they'll have to sit a desk next to a person who's close to retiring and will have a breakdown from it #funny how a crowd that feel so superior about themselves over being 'woke' can be this nasty #mypost

[wormsdyke]

if i drop out of college i may lose the opportunity to make friends with other people in similar age and interest groups VS i'm already not making friends in college so it's not like i'm missing out on much. FIGHT

#goddddd i am so miserable. things will be ok eventually but right now god they suck #i made it to class today and im so dissapointed in myself bc ive been here for 4 years so ive seen a lot of the same people and i still don #know them and they dont know me. i wish i knew how to make and maintain friendships better #also i know that friendships don't stop when college stops its just the fear talking #but i sure am afraid! #today is the first time ive left my apartment in like 1.5 weeks ive been so fatigued. i dont know how im supposed to do this #but i also dont know how im supposed to tell my mom i might drop out :( #anyways anyways anyways #i have a meeting with a coach from my uni disability services later and i might ask about it then. i feel like theyre gonna discourage me #which is fair but like im not looking for encouragement so much as resources #like if i DO drop what should i do next #orating!

[asiancatboy]

so

#a couple of weeks back i was talking to my therapist abt my trip back to my college town & how being there made me realise how much #i had changed. and how i can see that in the way i was able to navigate a space that held so much anxiety for me without any problems #maybe not completely without. but it was different. more clear #they brought attention to the fact that i'm visiting my friends again next month and it could feel the same #i've been thinking abt that ever since & idk how to feel abt it #nervous? excited? a little embarrassed over old memories and i think mostly surprised to be in this position #where i've committed to friendships for years & actually have the opportunity to grow with & be seen by #and i mean actually offline & in the flesh like damn ok why did u have to bring that up now i feel the most vulnerable i have ever felt #😭

[bitegore]

this is going to sound strange, but does anyone have any resources for like. how to go from being unable to think about the future to being able to think about the future

context being: i'm still unable to convince myself i'll live past 25 (i am 21, that's getting close lmao) nor that next year is a thing that exists. i would like to stop doing that on account of it's very annoying to have to scramble to get things done at last minute every single time because i just can't bring myself to remember that the future will someday be the present and i can just. plan ahead.

#further context is that im having to scramble for housing and may need to do this next year entirely offline #because i forgot to apply for housing at college and dont have a car because i keep not feeling like there's any time left to bother gettin #a drivers license. or fix my bike. #oh *online. i cant learn online well but i cant take another gap year they'll kick me out of college #anyway this is a completely avoidable issue (i couldve just done 'housing renewal' in march and agreed to live in the same place this year #which i liked living in so i shouldve. but i felt like it 'didnt make sense' because i 'didnt know if i was coming back' which i obviously #was) and now it is a big problem #also additional; how to tell your already fed the fuck up with your bullshit family that this is a thing and you also forgot to deal with #it until last week and then didnt tell them #im gonna get yelled at.

[magentagalaxies]

giggling and kicking my feet while i'm lying on my bed like a cliche teenage girl bc bruce's assistant just sent me high-quality recordings of both shows where bruce announced the buddy cole documentary at the rivoli

#first one has paul bellini and kevin mcdonald on stage with him! doesn't mention me by name but i'm just out here like KEVIN!!!! #second one is basically the same as what i already posted but better quality bc that one was just my friend in the audience #and in addition to the higher video quality you can hear scott quietly say some stuff on this version #and it's ridiculous how even tho i'd be confident saying scott and i are friends at this point #(we've talked to each other many times. he clearly likes me. i'm even going to email him later today) #i still watch stuff like this and go oh my god scott thompson knows i exist??? #like you think i'd be over it bc i can turn off the part of me that's starstruck and just be a nice mix of casual and professional #but in my heart i'm still like oh my god this time last year i was sitting in this exact same spot in my room #listening to the exact same song (me on my off hours by mouth congress) #and one year ago i would've been like ''ugh i wish these guys could be my queer comedy mentors but that'll never happen'' #vs this year i'm like ok gotta go be a nerd on tumblr then send some emails to coordinate my next trip to toronto to work on the buddy doc #and next year? who knows! #i'll have done a bunch of work on the buddy doc by then (idk if it'll be fully done but it'll probably be close) #and i'll be preparing for my final semester of college before i can permanently move to toronto in spring 2025

[arthur-r]

genuinely how does someone succeed in college when you’re so terrified of being incorrect or looking stupid that you can’t even say anything to begin with???? i was trying to go into this year brave and everything but i’ve already been laughed at multiple times by a class full of people older and scarier than me and i already feel like i’m being judged and underestimated for so many reasons that i don’t want to give anyone another reason to look at me that way. but it’s gotten to the point (in the less than one week that classes have been in session; maybe it’s always been at the point) where i’m failing to submit assignments because i know that my teacher is going to see it and think i’m stupid, and never listen to me again, and i’m going to lose all the credibility that i’m trying so desperately to hold onto. and i know from a logical standpoint that it’s the teacher’s job to meet people where they’re at and lift them up from there, but honestly is that much even true anymore?? isn’t college about figuring out who has what it takes and who is going to get left behind???? why did i enroll in fucking honors classes of course i can’t do this???? i’m really not feeling well and i stayed in tonight and missed dinner and i miss home and i miss being able to talk to my friends and not be actively ruining my future. i feel like i’m always good until i’m not, and i don’t realize i need help until i’m too far in and by the time i get it, i won’t need it anymore but i’ll have ruined everything back when things were worse. i’m isolating from my roommate (who hates me because he thinks i hate him) and losing every friend i’ve started to make at the same time as i’m losing all the real friendships that i already have. and my roommate is across the room right now as i’m quietly fucking crying. and i want to go home and i want to be safe. and why is everything so unfamiliar and simple and wretchedly complicated.

#im really not feeling well. i want to go home and im not used to that at all #i miss my little sister. i miss my teachers and i miss my friends. im not used to this #what prompted all of this: i was trying to do my linguistics homework and i made it about an hour in coming up with faulty hypotheses #and i realized that far of the way through. that the only dialects i’m fucking familiar with are all fucking variations of north central #‘whoa somebody talks similar in anchorage as they do in taylor’s falls?? it must signify a deep linguistic thread traceable over generations #they’re just both right next to fucking canada???? of course they fucking sound similar???? the fact that i don’t know anyone from the east #or the south and even the people i know in the west are still the same fucking thing we all talk the fucking same #i know village english that’s a little fucking interesting but it’s not like i have any INSIGHT i don’t KNOW anything!!!! #told my french teacher i’m learning latin he asked me if it’s fucking ecclesiastical because once you’re in college it’s just normal i guess #i just feel like. yes i’m here because some part of me stood out from my peers. but in this group of special people?? i’m nothing!!!! #so i’m really struggling. and i want a hug and i wish things were different. i want to be here but i don’t feel like i deserve it #and i’m not going to get anything done if i keep feeling like this #i dont know. i hope everyone is doing well. sorry for the extra stress it’s just really difficult and strange #i hope everyone has a good night - i’m heading to bed soon #me. my post. mine. #friends only #vent cw #delete later #and everyone here speaks fcuking MANDARIN or something and all of a sudden my five years of french feels fucking basic. #kids who have been in advanced programs since birth. the imposter syndrome is fucking PALPABLE!!!! i want to go home and i want to forget #okay i’m done. im done!!!! everything is fine. hope everyone is well

[curioscurio]

I don't know if I really can pick a favorite Undertale song since I love them all but every single boss theme goes so hard... Death by Glamour is definitely up there though. Also this post was supposed to end here but I started infodumping in the tags and reached tag limit AHAHAHA

#i cant listen to Undertale the song because it makes me cry i get so emotional AHAHA #its a special game to me. same with deltarune but undertale came first #being able to experience the undertale to deltarune development in real time has been such a special experience #like when toby fox released chapter one on halloween and i just remember playing it with my friends in college #and then chapter 2 last year #i love finding new secrets in the game and in the code its so fun and i love the characters and everything #and yeah maybe some of the fandom is cringe but god tge normal people about it are so fun to be around and talk with #the fucking orchestral concert !!!!! #also seeing temmie change start streaming on twitch and her own gorgeous game #im just so excited for whatever toby fox does next. i will always be nostalgic for undertale but deltarune is so!! #like i love seeing the new stuff. i love that deltarune is a different game than undertale with new characters. like we get cameos of old #ones and a mysterious connection to the other game but its still its own thing and really is starting to find itself as something uniquely #separate from undertale and earthbound and tobys halloween hack and other pixel games #also unsaid but its funny as all shit #not to mention how the guy puts his whole tobussy into musical motifs #every note and harmony of every song feels intentional like one big song split into different parts #not to idolize the guy like hes still a guy and these games were undoubtedly supported by amazing creators and artists like temmie and patr #patrons #i do highly respect his anonymity though #gosh i try not to be all (foams at the mouth) parasocial relationship whatever with microcelebrities etc etc but i really am just a big fan #for all my shitposting about undertale haha #its the simple things in life. cassie is allowed to be buckwild about undertale and come up with the silliest game theories as a treat #also i just like papyrus . what a guy #sans too #like i obviously goob on him whenever i possibly can but my favorite character is without a doubt papyrus #also since im going insane in these tags can i just say that on youtube The Second Narrator composes some of the most amazing . amazing. #AMAZING orchestral covers of undertale and deltarune music. megalovania is so good but my current fav is his comp of smart race #its like a remix of smart race and berdlys theme and queens stuff but fuck fuck fuck its so good its so good it has ACCORDIAN #the composer adds in little flares of ? idk the music term for it maybe meleodies but theyre new strings of melody in the songs that fit #fit so well imo like they have a specific style that you can hear in every cover