#the real actual definition kind even!

[heartorbit]

can i get a magical girl set please

#project sekai #pjsk #prsk #emu otori #proseka #otori emu #im just going to start drawing ever set i want ti beg for. i wahted phantom thief wxs but inlove what we gor bc mizukitheworld so im good #phantom of the opera is p close to that. the mask even... actually i steal set dieas from rev/star becaude come on. theyre kind of real. #we need swan lake set and nutcracker set and little prince and e #and i want them all to be wxs because i am a wretched little beast. PLEAK #the set with all 5 little pink guys slready went to a diner theme and its the cutest set ever. but. magical girls... #dream place minori the cutest csrd set forever definitely comes close but Still. can i get a mixed even magical girl set pretty pleade #can it go to the april fools sunny smile sentai. wheres my mafuemu mixed event. PLEASE #it was so funny to me i also tried to draw tsukaser but the . level of effort compared to how i drew emu is SO. SO FOUL. EVEN I FELT BAD.

[fortyfive-forty]

i've been ruminating a lot on it because i think i'm bad at putting my thoughts into words but i need y'all to understand that while there are absolutely a lot of Not Good Things about the finals being held in saudi arabia for three years...the way people seem to treat is as morally black and white is shortsighted and unhelpful.

realistically the players traveling there will be protected. it may be uncomfortable, it's certainly not ideal, but they will travel there for a few weeks, play their tennis, then leave. there are a lot of women, a lot of queer people who actually live in saudi arabia who cannot just leave, who are actually subjected to laws and social climates...and to me it just seems very disrespectful to that actual lived experience, for everybody to sort of turn their noses up and get on their high horses. of course, if the players wish to opt out, that is their choice, but that is their choice to make. that's their judgement. not ours.

and then, what about a tournament like miami? florida is literally experiencing one of the worst active regressions that i've seen in the us (granted i'm young). things like critical race theory and lgbtq+ ed are being removed from curriculums, rights for trans youth, trans healthcare, etc. are going backwards. abortion rights? gun violence? and yes i know that the laws and climate in saudi arabia are different gravy, i understand that, but my point is, no one would ever DREAM of arguing against hosting a tournament in miami despite all of these issues. and we can extend this to a lot of other tournaments! i mean, all the outrage about fifa hosting a world cup in qatar, but we don't have any of these sentiments about doha? i've seen other people bring up that the finals were hosted in singapore when gay marriage was still illegal there. we've already talked about italy's fascist prime minister. and i could go on and on and on about the war crimes of countries like the us or the uk - is the us not participating actively in genocide right now? where is the standard? if you argue against hosting the finals in saudi arabia for the reason of human rights, to me it seems you have to uphold that standard for the location you do land on. and i can guarantee, you will not find a single country in the world with clean hands.

i want to be clear i am not arguing that hosting the finals in saudi arabia is a good thing, especially for three years, especially because it's definitely going there because of money, and not for any of the "good" reasons i think some people want us to believe about "improving the region" (which is very weirdly white savior-esque anyway). i don't really have an official "conclusion" to this discussion.

what i am arguing is that i think a lot of the protests against saudi arabiahosting the finals are more an example of implicit anti-arab bias and islamophobia, rather than genuine discussion. key word implicit: i don't think most people are purposefully trying to be anti-arab/islamophobic. or at least, i'd like to believe nobody is. but i also think, particularly in the west, there is already so much of this xenophobic sentiment ingrained. and this is why i think it's really really REALLY important to check ourselves when we talk about it instead of just jumping straight to the human rights conversation without a second thought.

i'll say it plainly: i don't think the finals should be held in saudi arabia. but for me, it has more to do with sportswashing, with the dangers of the way money is thrown around in sports, and because i think it's more evidence that the wta doesn't care about player welfare but rather about making a profit (what else is new). human rights are absolutely a concern of mine, but how is it fair to hold saudi arabia to a standard that we don't seem to care about for literally anybody else?

literally look at the us's ugly ugly history, past and present, and tell me why we deserve to host a tennis tournament.

#long post #idk. this is not even all my thoughts #this is long and confusing and convoluted and i'm sorry #but i need y'all to understand it's not as easy as just saying 'oh we can't host it there' #'oh the players should boycott' #it's more complicated than that #and again i'm not really arguing one way or another #i do have my own opinion but i'm not positing that as The Right Choice #i'm definitely open to a lot more discussion on it #because i know i don't have the full perspective either #but i'm tired of seeing takes talking about how 'evil' it is to host the finals there #the way that it's happened and my suspected reasons for it (money)? yeah that's fucked up! #but just the fact that it will be hosted there...hold your horses. slow your roll #saudi arabia is like. a real country with people who actually live there and experience their own regime #god forbid they get to watch some tennis #and again. i just don't think you can ever really talk about these kinds of things and not bring up #the way countries like the us ALWAYS go unchecked #also like. gay marriage wasn't legal federally in the us until 2015. so. were do we go from here

[ichthyorelationships]

only just processed that luca added the flames to the colander helmet...implicitly b/c of alberto’s “also i added flames” dream vespa design alteration...

#like evidence afterwards that someone was paying real attention even when at the time the other party felt ignored / tuned out....So sweet. #which also my audhd life experiences like. if i learn anyone ever absorbed anything i said it's like oh whoa living large lmao #anyways the point is it only occurred to me the other day lol. like i'd noticed the flames but just didn't piece anything else together #i Love how many like. threads & details you Can piece together like that but are just kind of quietly in the bg otherwise #and fun how everything luca needs for the race is definitely like Somewhere Underwater...colander fell in the sea...bike by the sunken boat #god knows what color situation i fumbled my way into here. so the classic spin of just like Also there's more stripped down versions #who knows if i'll like do more of a full color approach version. they can't stop you. nor stop you from just posting lineart #or stop me from going off the walls w/their tail lengths lol #luca #luberto #lucalberto #😚😚😚 #fish freckles you are everything to me... #eta not me forgetting to save the [solid bg color]less pngs as transparent....i was up all night #didn't help w/the color selecting that i'm bad at anytime lol #ok hopefully now they're actually transparent #smhhh now i've realized i forgot a little line to indicate webbing betwixt alberto's fingers there #not as big a deal as how i ALMOST forgot to include any of their arm/leg fins. i'll fix it if i do the [full coloring] deal lol. imagine it #yet another eta: occurs to me i could've made alberto purpler & the bg blue. well;

[sysig]

String you up, tie you down (Patreon)

#Doodles #The Stanley Parable #TSP #Stanley #The Narrator #I realized I never actually gave any kind of visual representation of how Sinister's arm got that way #Since it was a dream initially he was just ''always like that'' so I never bothered lol #Plus I never even posted those original dream doodles over here lol it was on my alt - so many reasons! #It's weird to see his arm unburned and bruised with the wire on it #It would still eventually start to hurt! It's very tight on him so it cuts off his circulation even without all the external damage #Not enough to cause lasting damage - how much do the resets reset? Does his blood un-flow? #But definitely enough to cause discolouration on his skin #Not enough to completely numb his arm tho just so it's like forever pin-pricks lol #Sometimes the skin goes numb from being burned or hit tho - the Narrator has no real way of knowing what Stanley's feeling so he just #Keeps running him into things lol #It's not Exactly sadism on purpose - he does genuinely forget! Especially the longer it goes on because Stanley stops reacting #And then also the thing of how much does the Narrator remember from each reset as well lol - some things! But not everything #So eventually it just settles into ''That's just what Stanley's arm is like'' - much like how I feel about it! Lol #But sometimes he does hurt him on purpose - think the lead-up to the Museum ending or the Mariella ending #The example given here is the first time he burns Stanley's arm for refusing to get the Art ending lol #Maybe he does hate babies you don't know #Poor Sinister :( He's always at the whims of the Narrator but now he's got a whole arm's worth of extra control on him! #Got a bad vibe from the very beginning and he was right

[brittlebutch]

Desperately trying to make sense of Alex's motivations in Season Two and you know, I do eventually have to wonder if maybe Alex wasn't actually lying in the majority of those tapes.

Like, we tend to assume that Alex's motivations have been a consistent throughline since the college years, but do we actually know that that's the case? Do we know for sure that Alex was acting in deliberate, calculated ways in 2006; or could it be that he's telling the Truth on those olds tapes when he says he's blacking out and can't remember what's happening to anyone? After all, if we're assuming that Season 2 Alex's motivations are the exact same as his motives in Season 3, then it doesn't make any sense at all that he spend months working with Jay to try to find Amy; Season 3 Alex would have attempted to kill Jay like, on sight just to get things over with as quickly as possible and contain the spread of contamination as best as he could.

But, maybe, if Alex really had been separated from Amy after the events of the 04-04-10 tape, and if he really doesn't know where she is, then maybe that could make things start to make more sense. Maybe he really had been watching Jay's channel, and seeing Jay start going through the same things he went through in college without things devolving into violence and disappearances, and wondered if things maybe could play out differently this time. Maybe he really did send that tape to Jay to ask him for help, maybe he really was just trying to find Amy.

But then, instead of actually being helpful, Jay makes it extremely clear that he's a lot more interested in stalking Alex than he is in finding Amy. Alex asked for help, and instead there's a bunch of masked dudes on Jay's heels that keep attacking him, Jay is breaking into his house, stealing his things, leading the Operator right to him all over again, keeps trying to get other people (namely: Jessica -- if Alex is being honest when he says that his call reassuring her that Amy had been found was an effort to make Sure she stayed away from everything that was happening) involved; and instead of anything getting better, instead of anyone finding Amy, things are just getting worse all over again.

It's not until after the incident at the tunnel that things seem to start rapidly devolving. Rather than a calculated attempt to finally follow through with his need to curb the spread of contamination, this is very clearly an outburst of rage and terror. Alex's "I told you not to follow me" line in conjunction with Jay speculating that Alex didn't know who that guy was, to me, pretty firmly seems to speak to Alex having mistaken that stranger for Jay. From his point of view, Alex knows that Jay and totheark know where he live, have broken in before, he suspects that Jay stole a key to make it easier to get into his house, and he's been followed on the daily for months -- Alex is sitting at the tunnel because he doesn't know where else he can go without being constantly surveilled, hunted, and assaulted. And instead of getting a moment by himself to breathe, Jay followed him out there all over again (it feels like Alex looks directly at the camera in Jay's footage of him from this day; he knew for a fact that Jay was there), and then to make matters worse now 'Jay' won't even keep his distance anymore.

So Alex lashes out. And it's not until afterwards that he looks down and finally recognizes that this wasn't Jay -- it was someone completely innocent. Things have finally reached the low point he was at in college all over again; maybe even worse this time. If Alex doesn't remember attacking anyone in college, but he was at least partially conscious of it this time, then things have reached an entirely new rock bottom, they've reached an absolute point of no return.

He has no idea what happened to Amy, and he's spent months trying to find her with no hint of where she could be; he doesn't know where Jay actually is or what additional trouble he could be causing at this point; he does know that now innocent people are getting caught in the crossfire (in regards to the stranger in the tunnel, and also Jessica now that Jay has her phone number, and the untold number of people Jay got involved when he started posting videos to the Marble Hornets channel); things are spiraling out of control and there's no one left to ask for help. The situation isn't getting better, it's getting worse; things aren't getting easier to handle, they're just getting more out of hand; the negative impact is spreading and who knows how much further it can still go?

So, Alex decides to go scorched earth. He disfigures the body with the rock either to hide evidence or to make sure the guy would actually stay dead and not just get back up to start his own cycle of contamination in a few years. He tries to give Jay one last chance to back off, and Jay instead admits he's been talking to Jessica, acts obstinate and lies about not having Alex's spare key, and then breaks into Alex's house a second time (minimum). If Alex doesn't stop him now, who will? Alex met with Jay planning to kill the others, and then himself, so he could put a stop to this once and for all and keep things from getting any worse than they already were.

Maybe it makes a lot more sense if, rather than being a strangely incomprehensible detour on what should have been a straight path, the events of Season Two were the breaking point that put Alex on that path to begin with.

#N posts stuff #idk!!! I've been thinking a lot lately about the tendency to take Characters at Face Value; when they tell us things we tend to #automatically believe them despite what evidence we might have to the contrary. & like when it comes to deciphering what #went down during the college film project it's mostly totheark that posits that Alex was Definitely Lying and Definitely Acting on Purpose #(even Jay is largely ambivalent - wondering which way it leans and basically saying it could go either way) #but. do we KNOW that they know that? Do we Know that they're Right when they claim that? Or are they just Assuming based off #of their own rage and animosity towards Alex due to what happened? Do we Know for Sure that Alex Was Lying in s1? #i don't know if we do!! And so without Knowing that for sure; how can we speak to Alex's motivations in season one OR season two? #now TO BE CLEAR: I am not saying this in an attempt to claim that Alex is somehow completely innocent of all guilt and that like. #Jay is the 'Real Antagonist' of the series - not at all my intention. this is just More of my usual 'look. Everyone in this series is #all kinds of Morally Grey; no recurring character in this series is free of guilt they ALL have unique fatal flaws & trends towards #antagonism that makes things worse and dooms them all' shtick - a la 'everyone Thinks they're doing the Right Thing but No One Is' #BUT i Am wondering if this Does help to like. clear up some of the ambiguity/uncertainty of Season Two - and even Season One - and #lets the series as a whole read a little bit clearer? idk i know that Jay does Claim to think that Alex was bullshitting him #the whole time & was Actually planning on tying up loose ends the whole time but AGAIN it doesn't make Sense he'd wait so long #idk - Am i making sense? does any of this track? i'm trying to figure it out; i am open to comments on the subject to help #i haven't rewatched season 3 yet today and so maybe there's stuff in there that contradicts this whole theory lmao but i'm taking a break #and just posting this anyway; we'll see what happens lol #marble hornets #mh lb

[usareiis]

Lost my original post of this from the other day but I genuinely don't understand how Black Butler discourse ever shifted into the does Sebastian ~really~ like Ciel or is Ciel just dinner line of conversation that is pervasive as it is because Sebastian is the one that has absorbed his whole existence into Ciel's. Sebastian's face is what Ciel wants Sebastian's whole purpose is doing things for Ciel Sebastian's every hell of a butler yes my lord speech is about how he's Ciel's and Ciel is the one going around saying shit like whatever Sebastian is just my pawn 💅

#like sjdjdkdd?????? #it's not that i don't think ciel loves sebastian per se bc. well. i don't think he'd ever process it in terms like that no matter what... #...kind of relationship they have bc the most important thing to him is getting him to do tasks like a dog and proving he will over and over #which is why sebastian does it all so overkill #but the most acknowledgement you ever get that ciel likes sebastian is stuff like idk the fucking book of atlantic you did good today #or if we're feeling really crazy the you were the only demon there line #like the dynamic has gotten way skewed in fandom away from the actual text #and i know why but it's still annoying bc i am not even saying this in a shippy way bc i don't give a fuck about ships #but they're so crazy entwined and in completely incomparable inhuman situations that it literally has no merit on this story to sit and... #...definitely piece together how this relationship works with real life normie standards like it literally is going to fit into no box of... #...what we think of as friends or siblings or parents or partners bc no victorian guy on the face of the earth has a real pet demon. #it's so boring you're missing the bigger picture that they're everything to each other and completely stuck together forever #does x mean y mean z? (least problematic answer only) they're stuck together! forever! #and no one has demons in real life it's all comparable to real life nothing #other than the asthma that's real #anyway. it's like fandom has made up a version of this story in their heads that is so devoid of anything that makes the story the story #twitter is like another planet for this i am mostly talking about twitter where i have been looking for news about the anime and oh boy #i have said this before but sebastian doesn't have a grip on human relationships bc he's not one and ciel doesn't give a fuck #but like this post started with and strayed from. well. sebastian isn't even trying to act like he's indifferent. ciel actually is. #and we're all missing several funny bits from that just trying to fit everything into a box #we could have more interesting conversations if we got past the same three people have been having for 20 years #kuroshitsuji #my kuro posts

[unproduciblesmackdown]

also the Biggest Eternalest Moods

#cagey things unite #not a lot is more distilledly; viscerally Autistacity Moments than mordecai in stressed mode italicized Please Don't Touch Me #the striking verisimilitude. let's squop; boys #truly beautiful again that these two have met over brunch & politely declined to interact w/each other in the least. reasonable #real recognition of ''don't bother this person at all Or straightup start shooting'' approach #fun; enriching; perhaps informative to juxtapose these two as well.... #for one thing you could count ''did you kill your dad'' handshake b/w them #if you suppose that [mordecai is most driven by grief for atlas] as a ''that was his dad'' kind of situation #sounds like he was off to a terrible start as one if it was predicated by tossing mordecai into the crucible of Learn By Doing hitmannery #but like ''oh perfect you already know your lines'' type [terrible fatherhood? realism points] #though not like we know what mordecai's definite actual dad was like. don't want to insult him. just that he died & all #and maybe also a younger sibling too....noted a Family Photo ft. his mom with a baby in addition to his other younger sisters #and the picture taken by whom. likely as anything his dad then.... #personally i lean towards [mordecai kind of in love w/atlas] but many things fulfill the Aggrieved By His Death peak relevant situation #lackadaisy #and i do have that marigold bowling team post fr lol. just have to like; make it #autistic cagey things unite even harder

[soldier-poet-king]

I will not argue about religion online I will not argue about religion online I will not argue about religion online🤡

#franposting #rae your response already sort of undercut ops intent #but also FUCK THAT POST FOR REAL #1) u are doctrinially incorrect. 1x a year minimum. recommended during pennintential seasons #get off my ass every week bullshit #that's not how it works mortal sin is NOT so common as that and this is how yall give ppl scruples and complexes #and religious trauma #also like. just fuck off in general if u have that kind of attitude #trads my nemesis (EXCEPT U RAE) #(she is very polite. she gets to stay :) #but anyway yeah now im so fuckin angry #everytime i think ive reached some sort of tentative peace with the church #or at least. a cease fire. a begruding tolerance of my coreligionists #i am forcibly reminded that so many of them suck #ALSO HISTORICALLY??? WEEKLY CONFESSION??? WTF ARE YALL ON. CRACK???? #we went 2 millenia without it. get ur reactionary american trad bullshit out my face #if u are reading this and being like. oh fran i am going to argue with u and correct u. consider. dont. #dont do that. i will not change my mind on this. it is one of the few articles of faith i am definitely sure on #and im actually IN THE RIGHT this isnt even my heterodox pseudo heretic ass #this is literal doctrine yall are just brainrotted by usamerican catholic trad culture #tldr thank u rae for ur response but i must take my rage further and scream bc i hate that rhetoric sm

[wild-at-mind]

In all seriousness, when I was in my 20s I spent way too much time reading tumblr and trying to figure out the right opinions to have on everything. It was pretty soul destroying now that I look back.

#although the people i consider my people (leftists and the left leaning) are always turning on people for slight disagreements #so i guess it was self preservation in a way #luckily i basically never posted back then only read #the truth is a lot of the disagreeing and fucking infighting on the left is internet sickness #and a lot of people who seem to know what they are talking about on here are actually talking out of their ass- seriously. #they don't need to know what they are talking about because everyone reading knows even less #my criteria for which leftists i respect is 'can they handle a slight disagreement with someone broadly on their side- #do they engage in good faith or do they mock and belittle?' #and i understand anyone on here with over a certain amount of folllowers who talks about politics will get bait and bad faith asks and stuf #i'm not saying you have to engage with bait in good faith! #just the real stuff. #i kind of regret this now but i engaged on a post that was using the word liberal in the coloquial (meaningless) tumblr way #that was when someone i followed (unfollowed now) apologised to the op of the post for my dumb idiocy- i was like ohhhhh #and then the op of the post responded to me like 'i'm using the true definition of liberal! which is: [really confusing explanation]' #the truth is there is no one definition because the left and right use it differently #when the right says liberal in a derogatory way they don't mean 'not those further left people though! they are really respectable + cool' #nah they mean the further left also #the point is the term liberal has no set meaning- it changes with context and no one bothers providing the context #i will stop now this is too rambly even for me

[jorvikzelda]

honestly every single day I wonder how I didn't realise earlier how gay I am. like yeah yeah I know the answer is repression and severe deep rooted internalised lesbophobia but how the actual fuck did I manage to repress that hard? that's got to have been enough hard work that it like, qualifies for being put on my CV

#anyway I've been finding more and more peace in myself lately #tomorrow marks a month since I cut my hair (right now it's probably a month almost on the minute since I booked the appointment actually) #and it feels... kind of unbelievable how much has happened internally for me in that month #I'm getting a little bit emotional about it now actually #everything just. feels so much more right. so much more peaceful. so much more real. so much more OKAY #it's an unimaginable spot to be in #like even now #also just... my mental health has tremendously improved from this alone #obviously realising i'm a lesbian didn't fix all my issues magically #but it definitely helped with like self perception and stuff #know the post tone is joking etc but the repression was honestly taking such a fucking toll on me and I didn't even realise #at the same time I know I couldn't have come to terms with it sooner. I think this was the only way it was ever going to go #I haven't been ready before it's as simple as that #z talks #not horse game

[voidfragments]

donghua qr was a mistake actually bc now i have to see people's opinions about him more than i did before

#ooc #straight up makes me uncomfortable how many people are just like fucking. hooting & hollering & cheering over him getting brutally beaten u #which! i know is ridiculous of me bc he's horrible and awful and as i've said before #if anyone has the right to do that to him it's DEFINITELY hc considering the whole carriage thing #i just... idk i hate that m.xtx established that he's an abuse survivor and then proceeded to beat him up for comedic effect #for the entire rest of the novel #anyways i haven't watched the episode yet but idk how much i'm gonna actually enjoy it tbh #bc of this and also not liking his design #i'm so bummed ngl :( i was waiting for this for YEARS #anyways x2 i think a lot of these takes come from like #newer fans esp donghua-onlys #the kind who rlly only care about the main couple #real ones read the novel and picked a side character to get hopelessly attached to #idk if the donghua even touched on his childhood at all considering it was like. 1 paragraph of narration in the novel #do they even know... #do they know that qr is not just an aggressor but also a victim #do they know that his arc is about breaking cycles of abuse #and getting better through being shown compassion

[nerdynikki94]

Honestly? Did I want more from DTAMHD? Yes, I did. I wanted something signifying actual progression for Dennis' character (even just a crumb of genuine growth) , and I sincerely don't think we got that. However... we did get a fascinating insight into the process of his mind. Dennis' level of self-denial is so ironic and profound. He can't acknowledge the inevitability that he's middle-aged.

(I swear this episode honestly has given me an alt hc, that the show is based in his mind; because logistically, a man of his lifestyle and malnourishment could not commit the feats he is constantly sailing through. TGGB & DTAMHD... back-to-back? What happened to his hand? Did he even sprain it? Or is he just the most dramatic brat in the gang - clearly the latter.)

It is important to note that he didn’t fix the actual problem. He momentarily masked the symptoms, but ignore long-term help with blood pressure medicine is not going to fix the issue, nor is it going to protect him from fucking keeling over in a stressful situation (when he's not in a contained and quiet Doctor's exam room) and his blood pressure spikes.

I'm honestly a little jaded at this point (16 Fucking Seasons of crumbs, y'all), but if one were to continue 'trusting the structure' this episode conveyed a lot.

The B Plot: The pressure cooker. The metaphor parallels the building pressure Dennis quick-tempered bouts of rage. So, to toss out a little 'cat-in-the-wall' conjecture here: The pressure cooker is Dennis, but we all saw him eat that bloody diamond in the end and we all heard Mac's speech about coal turning into diamonds under massive pressure. Dennis' experience is a theory of pressure, he daydreams it all in the span of a minute or so. He's roleplaying with hypothetical obstacles. There's no risk. Maybe Dennis, isn't the pressure cooker, but the coal.

If I were to try and take anything hopeful out of this episode, it would be the way the narrative is showing us that this episode acknowledged that Dennis isn't ready yet. It's not his turn to break. It's going to take real, substantial pressure to get that diamond.

It was a hell of a misdirect (and honestly a little bit of a slap in the face), but if these characters live in the real world, where people are bound by the laws of mortality, then Dennis should have his time.

Genuinely, who fucking knows?

I'm not hating on the episode. We all know this is the trashy dick joke sitcom. I just thought that if Mac & Charlie could have moments of genuine heartbreak, culminating in deep catharsis, that maybe Dennis could have that too.... but no.

Can't wait to see the sunny dudebros miss the point & proclaim Dennis Reynolds - SA victim, traumatized individual with an emotionally tumultuous personality disorder - the new Andrew Tate.

I'm sorry, but yeah. I'm a little miffed. It was all a dream, and everything goes Dennis' way. Y'all I'm fucking tired. This was a great episode for Glenn, but a fucking frustrating episode for Dennis. I may have wanted a little macden, but all I cared about was seeing Dennis face the limitations of his mortality, to see that he's failing his body and his brain. He didn't have to actually take the medicine (I wouldn't expect him to), but Goddammit, everything seems to work out in his delusional favor. So, of course he's going to continue being delusional, and probably only change for the worse.

I'll say it: I wanted a broken Dennis, and we did not get that. He didn't even crack, the unbearble and apparently now canonical Golden God. That episode's title was intended to tease sunnyblr.

Excuse the plethora of tags. I just kept getting more irritated.

#what i take from the episode is further insight to the lengths of Dennis' repression which adds to my fic #iasip s16 #i will say this: i can't dislike this episode solely because of how phenomenal glennjamin's performance was. #I'd say I'm retracting the title of macden 'truther'. I'm still a stan. but this ep made me realize dennis is too coddled by the narrative #with TGGB he's constantly winning. even the game he doesn't stay to watch the end of. his body performing near miracles. wtf #the real reason I'm seriously bothered is the sunny dudebros. they already idolize dennis #this ep has only made it worse because the obvious point of Dennis' actual delusions will go right over their heads. #anybody with a grounded sense of reality can tell you that dennis did not solve a problem #he dreamt up a scenario in some kind of toxic meditation session. he's getting older. and his denial is metastasizing #Dennis' denial isn't sustainable. I'm kind of cutting off my investment in that regard. he's a fucking mess & he's currently being idolized #dennis reynolds #definitely not my favorite episode. not bc of lack of macden. a little bc Den needs limitations. mainly bc 'it was all a dream' is cheap #ranting.excuse me for wanting 1 of my fave characts actually have his poor health.self-destructive coping mechanism/trauma acknowledged #can't believe i was actually afraid i wouldn't be able to write because too much might happen in DTAMHD...! 🤣 #it should've all happened. but instead ended w/him getting charges pressed when he tried to break into ceo's home #ngl. this one hurt. I'm ready for Mac to give up on Dennis. i just wish this fucking show would let him. #excuse me while i go bawl like a baby watching MFHP. because I'm heartbroken that Dennis' BPD makes him push Mac away. #let's just say that realization has been bogging me down in my personal life the last couple of days. & this bummed me out. #Robert McElhenney. I'm outside the studio screaming at you to just let Mac move on & actually meet someone! #I'm not saying he deserves a relationship. but fuck... after 40 yrs of repression can he at least have a fling & fall out of love w/Den? #Dennis won't ever let him meet someone. & he'll never treat Mac like he actually cares about him.bc his own vulnerability terrifies him.😭

[hecksupremechips]

Actually cry so goddamn hard when I think about Shinjiro Aragaki healing and being loved and having to learn to be okay with himself and being taken care of

#writing him has just been like. OOOOWOEOEOEOOE i piss tears i cant handle this shit this gay ass shit #i came up with an idea for just like a cute short one shot i wanna do soon and hnnnghh im so emo about it #very healing its like very hard to write some of the shit im gonna be writing cuz basically #some of it is just a little too real man and while i crave the angst and the drama i am just like #AND THEN EVERYONE HOLDS HANDS AND ITS OKAY PLEASE DONT CRY PLEASE #and ive mentioned how shinji has accidentally become nb to me now because i just kinda happened to write him that way without meaning to #and now another thing im noticing is that in my fic hes kinda bpd coded #it definitely wasnt intentional but now im accepting it as truth no one can stop me #i just really need him to be happy its more important to me than anything else man i need it for me #and he needs to be gay with aki they need to kissy and i think its funny cuz even in the parts where shinji is mad at aki and pushing him #away its like. he kinda has it bad lol and its clear he feels no actual hatred towards aki but more just self deprecation because he doesnt #feel good enough and like idk i just think about their respective roles in society like #aki is an honor student star boxer hero very attractive very kind very popular got adopted by a rich family #hes going places you know meanwhile shinji is a drop out who never had a family ever hes homeless hes sketchy hes on drugs #his reputation couldnt be any worse and he just leans into it and feels he has no future and hes worthless garbage #and aki could literally have anyone he wants you know he has an army of girls pining over him but he doesnt want them #HE WANTS SHINJI AND NO ONE ELSE HE SPENDS YEARS CHASING AFTER HIM #and shinji HATES it hes trying so hard to push him away and be the crusty delinquent and make aki see how worthless he really is #but aki just doesnt stop he loves him so much makes me sick SICK #and shinji really loves him back hes like not gonna shut up ever about aki hes like either doing it in a gay ass annoyed way #or hes like ‘haha omg aki is so cute though hes always trying so hard to be tough but hes just so sweet and gentle you know i hope he #doesnt push himself too hard if he got hurt id fall apart hes so silly i hope hes eating good i desire him carnally’ #yeah sorry gamers this is just a pairing i cant be normal about they mean so much to me personally the fate of the world rests upon them

[sysig]

Escort mission (Patreon)

#Doodles #Original #Tala #BunBonBop #Yaaay the Tala in the BBB universe idea finally congealed into a full concept! Love when that happens haha #It's also fun to see two of my cutest lads interact haha ♥ #Bun-Bun can be quite courageous if given the right stimuli! I feel like I've only drawn her being silly or weepy the poor lad haha #She's a good lad! Deserves to be shown for all her many facets haha #I don't think I've ever mentioned her actual age - I mentioned she's pre-pubescent but never an actual number #Partially because their brand also obscures their real age lol ♪ All the BBBs are a year apart but their image is ''triplets'' #They all Shift to be the same apparent age but they're not! Bunny's the middle child both in her family and among the BBBs haha #She's 12 :) And Tala's 7 so she's intimidated by this large child! Even tho Bun's only a couple inches taller than her #Mostly Tala just doesn't do well with strangers and she's in a new environment without her adult attendent - she's very freaked out #Piggybacking off the previous idea of property/person bodily rights and kidnapping - I think it was just such a mixup that happened here #Bunny especially but all the BBBs like plushies so it's not unusual to occasionally find one sitting around forgotten #Or like cleaning up after a shoot - Tala probably just wandered away for a moment and Shifted into her plush form since she's tiny #Much easier to sneak around! But then froze when another person showed up and got carried inside D: Very scary! #She probably shifted back just in time for Bunny to notice her - taking up the rear of the BBBs going to their next appointment #But also Bunny is rather observant! Definitely more than people give her credit for since she can also be a bit spacy ♥ #But she's quite kind and altruistic :) She's a sweet lad! Shifting down to her minimum age (if you recall when Shifting starts presenting!) #Just so she'll look like Tala can help her rather than the other way around ♪ And talking so it's not awkward haha #Oh yeah - last fun fact lol - time Shifters' clothes don't Shift with them so she's swimming in her clothes a little bit lol #The BBBs' clothes are made with Shifting in mind but they do have an upward limit! Or I guess downward limit in this case lol

[a-f00lish-saint]

Hey- was anyone else confused on the  zombies coming out of basically nowhere’s in SRTT???? Like it was fun and all- (to an extent) but like-.?..why in a saint row game?- like I know I shouldn’t be confused about that part of a game tbh that has cloning,  aliens in the 4th one- and then actually hell- but I can’t help but be a bit confused here man, it was also just an annoying mission to kinda get through, I’m just so confused on it, it felt like it came out of nowhere’s

(This is just me saying I can suspend my disbelief for these games-… if done right and i don’t think the zombies were done right imo)

#this isn’t me hating on SRTT #it was a very fun game imo #I’ll probably replay it quite a lot tbh #I just don’t like the damn zombies that came out of nowhere #they were also really annoying to get through tbh #saints row #saint row the 3rd #SRTT #I have a lot of thoughts on this game #mainly out of love #(also I didn’t play the first or second Saints row game just yet) #(so if there is somehow a reason for the zombies I’m definitely not aware of that #I’ve only played the 3rd & 4th one #I’m just playing the games in backwards order sooooo #I’m not fully yet aware if there is somehow #someway a actual reason for zombies #but honestly- that mission really felt like a fever dream of some kind #like-…also it isn’t difficult or even a real challenge for me to like zombies #I’ve watched TWD over like-…what.?..12 #maybe 15 time by now and I’m 18yo- I love anything zombies but wtf was that mission lmao #if it was a DLC or even a spinoff #or just a game mode i probably would’ve absolutely loved it-..but it wasn’t #this is just me rambling #about a single mission #at least for me it was a single mission

[toytulini]

idk. picky eater rights. im coming to your events and turning my picky bitch nose up at your fancy ass desserts you spent a bajillion hours working over in the kitchen and asking if i can find like a basic ass brownie with no extra flairs or ingredients or steps or whatever the fuck. cry about it. stop trying to feed me

#toy txt post #they gotta have some picky eater bitches be the judges on those food competition shows i stg #sorry for committing the unforgivable sin of my tastebuds didnt enjoy the food you made. it was intended as a personal slight actually #i am trying to offend you for real. yeah. thats definitely whats happening. god/sssss #like god irl if i dont like food you made ill try to be fuckin gracious about it buf dont fucking get mad at me for like. idk. prepping my #own foods you percieve as worth less or whatever the fuck. ppl are so fucking weird about food. #honestly guy on prev post didnt even dislike the cake it sounded like but was just experiencing the human emotion of disappointment #when the little specific joy he was looking forward too was not what he expected. if she had asked him 'do you mind if i make a similar cake #that is not the exact same as the one you asked for? maybe he wouldve been fine cos he wouldnt have been looking forward to that specific #thing. OR maybe he wouldve said if youre not going to make this very specific one im looking forward to then dont bother i dont want you #wasting the time and effort and then she wouldnt have been mad. or maybe she wouldve. ppl do get weird about that kind of thing #maybe saying that wouldve been a crime too. guess that dumb asshole shouldve shut up and eaten his stupid cake and enjoyed it and said #nothing. a recipe for happiness #anyway. hot take ig stop putting nuts in desserts. alllergy havers will prolly thank you but you know who else will thank you? #every day i see takes about food that make me think i really should be more of a picky bitch eater on maim to knock yall pretentious #food fuckers down a peg tbh. every day i resist the urge but god how yall test me. let me be the judge on a cooking show. #weird assholes who are rude abt ppl having allergies or sensory issues: come here. im going to break you #anyway more of us picky bitches who are picky just for like. casual reasons. we should he loud picky bitches on main. if a cook or baker or #whatever can accommodate my picky bitch ass thats difficult to feed for no reason we can be sure they can accommodate allergy havers #and ppl w medical restricted diets. if they can be gracious about me just not vibing w the food then they can def be gracious about more #sensitive reasons. yea i could choke down the food i dont like probably. it wouldnt make me throw up or send me to the hospital. but why #should i? if youre an asshole to me about simply not liking your shit then why the hell would i feel safe disclosing medical info to your #bitch ass? why would i trust you to follow it? and not try to sneak some shit in bc you think you know better about food? #anyway #picky eater rights. let ppl be picky for no apparent reason. cos the ppl who have uwu Good Valid Reasons(tm) dont fucking owe you that #explanation