#the problem with that is my migraines make me dizzy and i get ringing in my ears and spots in my vision

[akindplace]

🔅 I’ve been really struggling lately because I’ve had vertigo for four weeks, and at first I thought it was sort of just the result of me coming back from vacation — that has now suddenly spiraled into potentially having Ménière’s disease and losing my hearing. It’s been affecting my ability to do much of anything, all the medications I can take are immensely sedative so it gets in the way of me just trying to function especially at work. And while I’ve been trying to work with my job and handle accommodations but not push myself, I can’t help but feel guilty that I can’t be present at work with my cognitive functions really hindered by being so dizzy and disoriented by that it’s affecting ring me financially too. It’s been going on for so long that it’s stressing me out, I’ve been bouncing back and forth between doctors trying to get answers and help, but I’m not getting much relief. At this point I’m just exhausted and scared, stressed out and I’m certain it’s contributing a ton to be feeling depressed and anxious… any forms of encouragement or just a kindness would be really nice right now.

I have had so many problems with vertigo because I have refractory migraines and EDS, I know it's not the same, but I know it's awful and very debilitating. The medication does drag a person down because of the side effects of drowsiness. Honestly, I can't imagine how scary it must be right now for you, but I can relate to the feeling of suddenly getting sick and discovering a new disease. I hope you can find good professionals in the area you need help with and that your healthcare goes well. I can't lie, learning to deal with an illness that starts restraining your day to day life can induce a lot of anxiety, but please don't feel bad for resting, taking medication and asking people for help. Go to as many doctors as you need, don't settle for a bad treatment and if people give you shit about your illness, walk away from them. You deserve to feel good, to feel better even if you can't find something that works 100% of the time. Even feeling a little better at days does wonders for your body, for your anxiety, for the activities you wanna perform. My biggest advice is always to go with your body and not against it, to learn to pay attention to it, and when it asks for rest/sleep/medication please give it to yourself. It will help you physically and emotionally in ways that might feel obvious but so rewarding. You do have to adapt to new conditions, but it is important that you do, you can't refuse to listen to what you need, it only makes the symptoms worse and it causes havoc in your emotional health. If you need that nap, take it, even if you feel like you haven't done anything (you are doing something - you are recharging, you are doing self-care, you are loving yourself, you are recovering - and doing all these things are very important). Please don't push yourself too hard, ask for help from the people around you, don't be ashamed of feeling vulnerable. Everyone is fighting some scary shit too, and you don't have to hide your discomfort to make others comfortable or push yourself to burn out just because other people do so. Take care ♥️

[posallys]

today has been a whole ass rollercoaster i want to scream and sleep

#i can't #the amount of people who have pissed me off in the last 4 hours is ridiculous #i can't tell if i just have a migraine from stupid people and also wiplash or if it's a concussion from practice #the problem with that is my migraines make me dizzy and i get ringing in my ears and spots in my vision #but those are also concussion signs so i love that for me #anyway #taylor rants

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From AFLW to roller derby, experts say its time to take concussion in women's sport seriously

When the Crows chase their third AFLW premiership on Saturday, captain Chelsea Randall will be watching from the sidelines.

A concussion from a collision during last week's preliminary final left her ruled out of the match.

It's a bitter sweet way to end a season — but as Sarah McCarthy knows, a concussion can have much longer consequences

In 2016, Sarah was the jammer for her Sydney roller derby team, skating at high speed in the league's Grand Final, aiming to get past the opposition and score points.

Risks of contact sport

Sarah McCarthy received a knock to the head during a roller derby match.

"I was a few feet in front of the pack, looking over my shoulder," she tells ABC RN's Sporty.

As she skated, a competitor's elbow hit Sarah's neck and jaw hard and she crashed to the ground.

She doesn't remember if she passed out or not, but recalls feeling briefly sick.

She got up, sat out for awhile, but later re-joined the bout, feeling reasonably ok.

It was Sarah's second concussion that week, having had an earlier blow at training.

The next few months passed in a blur of sickness, dizziness and ringing ears.

"I could barely make it past lunch time without falling asleep. My head felt like it was in a vice 24 hours a day," she says.

What was worse, says Sarah, was the memory loss, heightened emotions, and constant haze in her mind as she struggled to manage a big work project.

Sarah's experience is not out of the ordinary. Experts say sportswomen are at higher risk of concussion than male athletes, and the effects of concussion in women tend to be more severe.

Sarah still lives with the ongoing after effects of her concussion even today.

Almost five years on, Sarah continues to live with the implications of Post Concussion Syndrome.

"I struggled verbally, and I still do now if I have a poor night's sleep," Sarah says.

"It's almost like I'm sitting on a chair in a room with a curtain around me and all of my vocabulary is just beyond the curtain. And I can't reach it or I use the wrong words. I forget people's name all the time," she says.

"I'm fatigued every day. I still can't exercise. I can't handle stress, I can't handle light, I can't handle sounds."

What happens when you're concussed?

Dr Adrian Cohen, an emergency and trauma physician who researches concussion prevention, says concussion is not as simple as was once thought.

He says concussion results in less blood flow to the brain.

This means brain cells, called neurons, don't get enough oxygen and glucose. They also suffer a "structural deformity".

Basically, Dr Cohen says, the brain has a "metabolic crisis" and neurons stop working properly.

Why is concussion more common in women?

We don't have enough data on the size of the problem, Dr Cohen says.

But research and scrutiny of concussion in women in sport is growing — largely in the wake of developments in elite men's sport such as the AFL and NFL.

"Doctors like myself who work in this area are definitely seeing it more often and we're seeing it with more severity," Dr Cohen says.

He says women sustain more concussions than men in high-impact sports such as rugby league, rugby union and Australian rules football. Women also take longer to recover.

One possibility is that women may be more likely to report concussion.

But Dr Cohen says there are complex physiological factors at play.

"There are structural differences between men and women's brains," he says.

"They actually have a slightly faster metabolism than male brains, and they have slightly greater oxygen flow to the head.

"The cells themselves can be thought of as being slightly hungrier. So in the context of an injury that disrupts the supply of glucose and oxygen, it can help explain why they suffer more damage."

He also says women are joining high impact sports without years of tackle training and have had less opportunity to build up the strong neck muscles crucial in protecting against impact.

Dr Cohen says these factors are not an argument for reducing women's participation in contact sport — the benefits, he says, far outweigh the risks — but he is urging for new ways to minimise those risks.

"We have to outlaw illegal play that causes damage, we have to get people off the field when they have an injury, we have to recognise concussion," he says.

He is part of a team developing a new device which he says can quickly and accurately assess a player for concussion.

"Instead of just asking somebody whether they're okay, and putting [them] through a 10 minute test, which seems fundamentally flawed at the moment, we have got to put this in the field of objectivity."

Concussion and migranes

Dr Rowena Mobbs, a Macquarie University neurologist who researches and treats the effects of concussion in sportspeople, says there is truth to suggestions that women experience concussion symptoms more severely.

"But there is this really important overlap of chronic migraine after trauma, and the term for this is post-traumatic headache," she says.

"When we talk about migraine ... they're the same multitude of symptoms that can occur in concussion.

"So you can be dizzy and clouded in your thinking, lethargic and have double vision. And we know that women are at three times the risk of chronic migraine than men."

A woman on roller skates playing roller derby can be seen flying up the court.

Experts say more research is needed into concussion in sportswomen.(Liam Mitchell Photography )

She suggests there could be an association between chronic migraine syndrome and concussion, a kind of double whammy for women.

"It's really a complex area," Dr Mobbs says.

"It's fairly new to research because, unfortunately, there's been so much preferred research in men in sport, and we're only just now approaching female concussion."

In Australia, the Sports Brain Bank works on diseases such as chronic traumatic encephalopathy (CTE) and other brain disorders associated with previous concussions or head impacts.

Dr Cohen says there are several Australian sports women who've pledged to donate their brain to the Sports Brain Bank.

"But in general terms, these women won't have been playing the games for as long, and at as high a level," he says.

He says concussion and its long-term consequences "are a numbers game".

"The more impacts to the head you have, the more likely you are to suffer short, medium and long-term consequences. Therefore, the more likely it is to show up as CTE. But we're going to be seeing it in women unfortunately, in the not too distant future."

Invisible injuries

Concussion rules are changing in Australian football codes — the rules that mandated Randall miss the AFLW grand final were brought in earlier this year.

Dr Mobbs welcomes these new rules, but hopes the conversation in elite sport will extend to how concussion is managed at training and in community sport.

In 2019, the Australian Institute of Sport released an updated set of concussion guidelines to improve player safety and address rising concerns in the community around the links between concussion and CTE, which has been linked to dementia and behavioural problems.

Dr Mobbs wants measures like restricting heading the ball in soccer training to be considered.

"We must look after people's brains," she says.

"We can preserve what we love about the sports, they can still be played hard, but it just means that we've got to all get together and think of ways we can preserve brain health for these players."

Sarah McCarthy wishes she'd been stopped from returning to play in the 2016 grand final, and regrets not taking time to immediately rest after the injuries.

She has advice for other people who experience concussion.

"First and foremost, stop everything - stop," she says.

"If you can, stay in a dark room, don't do anything that's too mentally taxing. Don't exercise.

"If I had taken that four to six weeks to rest [and] not have too much mental and emotional stimulation, I think my recovery would have been a lot quicker."

[starlithan]

I Promise

word count:1481 words

Siren Jisung/ Reader (ft. San ATEEZ)

Warnings: slight abuse 

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INTRO

Y/n POV;

“Here you go the keys if you need anything I'll be downstairs okay” the landlord said 

I just moved into my new place at jeju it's not that big but its comfortable plus its near to the sea and let me say very very very cheap, I take the keys and head in my house  “darong-ah I told you those are just drawings of fish not actual fish” i tell my cat who's trying to catch the fish that I drew on the canvas. 

I'd say I'm not much of an art person to begin with. I just like to draw things related to the sea, which is one of the reasons why I moved here. “Okay that's it it's time for us to go to bed, come on” I pick her up and head to my room.

My room was a little big it had a study in the corner a bookshelf in the right corner and bed in the middle I put Darong on the bed “I'll get freshened up okay and don't you dare go back for the fish there just drawings okay” she just dismisses me and looks away “whelp I guess that’s my cue”.

“Darong you asleep?” i say in a low voice cats aren't deep sleepers, i take the towel off of my head and- Ring Ring~ 

My phone starts ringing “where the heck is it” i go outside to find it on the kitchen counter 

Hyunjin

“Hmm what's up Hyunjin”

“Hey what sup you settled yet?” he asks he sounded a bit tired from the other side

“Yes I did what's wrong? You sound a little tired?” 

“Yeah me and Chan just got back to find the house ruined by Kkami… so I'm just cleaning up I guess” I laugh at that I mean Kkami always ruins the house when Hyunjin’s not there but Darong ..noooo she ruins the house infront of me it's like  I hear her saying I don't like this throw it away.

“Give me the phone” Chan says to Hyunjin from the other line

“Y/n what do you think should I beat Felix or not?” the twist in the conversation

What did Felix do now!!?

“Why are you asking me that what did he do now?” I ask getting a little curious at what he did

“What.. did Seungmin not tell you yet?...” okay I think now I'm getting a little worried 

“No…. what's wrong” I ask a little hesitant

“The guys in the hospital”

“What WHY… is he okay”

“You should expect it by now … food poisoning he ate too much brownies” blank I think my mind went blank 

“I'm gonna kill him” that’s all I said, and I hung up on Chan and quickly dialed Felix’s number 

I mean I should have expected it. Felix's love for brownies is beyond this roof and it's not like this is the first time he had to visit the hospital for food poisoning. 

~beep beep~

“Hello”

“Where are you?” i go straight to the point 

“I- I'm home” he says a bit hesitant

“I swear to God Felix if your at the hospital I'm gonna kill you”

“It was just a little brownie. What's wrong with that and you know how much i love it and…”

Buzzing my head starts buzzing i could hear Felix calling out my name and asking if im alright, but the pain i can't see anything clearly 

Deep Breaths, Deep Breaths 

I tell myself I take in deep breaths the buzzing slowly goes away and my sight slowly comes back. I slowly get up from the ground and sit on the nearest sofa, my hands were shaking violently i've been getting these Migraines from about 4 years now, and when i say it's severe its severe my phone rings again

“Felix i'm fine”

“Y/n it's me Felix told me you had a migraine again are you okay?” the voice of my older brother says from the other side of the phone. I stop.

“Minho Im fine its okay it was just a small one im fine you don't need to worry” i tried to sound as okay as i could 

He sighs in relief “Okay good good… you almost gave me a heart attack” he says 

“Im fine im sorry you dont need to worry” i tell him

“It's okay but just call Felix before you go to sleep okay he was really freaked out …. And don't stress okay”

“Okay i'll call him good night” i hung up before he could say anything i just did not wanted him to be worried, i dialed Felix again 

“Y/N ARE YOU OKAY? Im sooooo sorry ill never eat brownies again just don't stress out okay i'm sorry” he says trying to control his tears from the other line 

“I'm okay Felix i'm sorry i got you worried” i say trying to control my laugh he so cute 

“Okay okay you take rest okay” he says sniffing 

“Okay you take your medicines kay” i say 

“Okay promise go to bed and rest okay bye”

“Bye

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Flashback~

“I told you to wash the stairs why didn't you” my step mother yelled at me 

“I had to go to school. I told you, i'll do it after i'm done with my assignments” i told her, her face got so red.

“Don't get smart with me i'll lock you in the basement again” she said her face close to mine her anger radiated this heat off of her, i hate her so much, i do everything and then she takes the credit for all of it, i can't even tell dad, she just makes him so happy i can't take that away from him and Minho he was so hurt after Mom's death that i don't wanna burden him with all my problems.

“I told you, but i think you didn't hear me i have to go study and when im done ill do it” with that i started to head to my room when something hit my head, i started to get dizzy i look behind me, then down on the floor to see the vase broken, after that i pretty much don't remember what happened, everything just blacked out

“She's going to be alright” a voice said, “just please don't give her a lot of stress she has a sewer case of migraines that vase hit her at a very sensitive area its better to avoid things that hurt her”

I slowly opened my eyes to see my dad, and the doctor, Minho was in the corner his eyes puffed up as if he cried “Please come with me Mr. Lee i want to  prescribe her some medicines” the doctor said my father squeezed my hand, smiled at me and followed him outside, when he left the room Minho came close to my bed “Hi” he said with a small smile i wanted to say i'm okay but i couldn't “its okay dont say anything you need rest, i'm just disappointed in myself you used to tell me everything when we were kids and…… why didn't you tell me she was treating you like that?” he asked i just stared at him “Dad found out and its okay shes gone Dad divorced her” he said but he had that sad look on him, i know he was sad that i didn't tell him anything, i wanted to say a lot of things but we just sat there, silently communicating.

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I came out to the beach, the night sky was beautiful, the calm cold air, and the sand beneath my feet, it was such a beautiful moment, i took a look at the sea, sometimes the sea looked so lonely, so lonely that i wanted to go in it and forget everything, i wished that rather than having a migraine  i could have lost my memories, i walked along the sea, with the soothing silence.

*singing*

I could hear someone singing in the distance, my feet started to follow the voice as I got closer the singing became louder, i wouldn't lie the song was beautiful almost hypnotizing, it felt like it was calling me i got near a rock, the sound was definitely coming from here, but what i saw was unbelievable it almost took my breath away, a man half naked with ….. A tail.. A merman, I was looking at a Freaking  Merman, he had black stunning hair with rainbow streaks, a beautiful face, and a red or maybe a maroon tail. It was beautiful, when he noticed me, he got scared and quickly went into the sea.

“Wait!” i said but he was far off gone, this can't be real “i think i took too many sleeping pills” i told myself trying to deny the fact that i just saw a merman, or something.

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[whichwaytowonderlandep]

Evermore | Ch. 1

Pairings: (Yoongi/Reader)

Genre: Romance, Angst

Words: 3,638

Tags: Beauty and The Beast AU, Modern au, eventual smut, drug mentions (sort of)

Series: The Disney Series

Chapter One

Your hand flew out of the sheets, flying across the side of the bed blindly before you finally made contact with the annoying device that had decided to wake you up at the ungodly hour of six in the afternoon. Too early for you. 

You let out a loud groan, feeling slightly buzzed as the hangover from last night comes at you in full force. The sounds of the cars running and the people having fun outside of your apartment building filtered into your small and run down apartment. 

You don’t remember much of last night, having completely checked out of your body as the night progressed, you continued to work the streets until the ungodly hour of three in the morning. 

You get up from your bed, bones cracking as you smack your dry lips together. One of your hands comes up from under the covers as you push your tangled hair out of your face. The warm air coming from the fan in the corner doing little to stop you from sweating like hell while you slept during the day. 

You knew your roommate must’ve been here during the day by the leftover weed smell that continued to linger in the air coming from the kitchen. You ignore it, already having been used to the smell before you move to the bathroom. 

Your eyes instantly meet your unruly hair as you really take a look at yourself, seeing all the makeup from last night still on your face — smudged and not at all pleasant looking. 

You decide to get ready for the night, taking a long cold shower as the knots that had formed under all that stress and that hard as a rock bed wasn’t helping make matters any better. 

The heavy metal music and the sound of cars honking filling in the silence as you got ready in the sluttiest clothing you could find in the shared closet you and your roommate, Olivia had. You had promised her to finally join her tonight, after weeks of asking you finally agreed to join her and maybe make some money on the side while you were at it. 

A tight, black dress that landed too far from your knee but that still left something to the imagination. Your makeup was done heavy — black eyeshadow and eyeliner, as well as dark red lipstick coloring your lips as you made your way out of your apartment… through your window. 

It’s not that your door didn’t work well, it was the people behind said door that you were wanting to avoid. Your rent was due soon and your front door neighbor had this thing about grabbing your ass every time he saw you. So, climbing out of a three story apartment window and into your fire escape seemed like the safer choice of the two at the moment. 

You make your way down the street, heels clicking loudly as your hips sway side to side. The dirty streets of the city were filled with late night party goers, drug addicts looking to score and ladies of the night looking to make a quick buck. Your smile flirts with the man you pass, throwing small waves at the ones who almost break their neck to get a glimpse of your ass. You break out in a giggle as one of them trips over his friends.  

Your hair bounces on your shoulders as you quickly make it down the street, catching sight of your friend’s bright purple hair. “Oli!” You shout her name as you stand a few meters away from her, waving your arms around as you try to get her attention from the other side of the street.

Olivia Alvarez was an old friend from the days before you became a college drop out — her following you right along. What mostly attracted you to her was her loud as fuck personality and her will to give less fucks in any situation. “I’ll talk to you later baby, my girl is here.” She pats the guy on the ass, startling him slightly before moving to wrap her hands around you as you ran towards her. 

“I haven’t seen you since yesterday!” You exclaim, hugging her tightly. You let go of her as you wrap a hand around her shoulders. “Where have you been, buddy?” 

“Oh you know…” Oli wiggles her eyebrows, making an action zip her lips and throwing the key away. “A lady never reveals her conquests.” She whips her hair around as she wraps her arm around your waist. Her height making it possible for her to lay her head on your shoulder with no problems — leading the both of you to stand at the corner of the street. 

“Manny was looking for you again last night” you say, watching her smile quickly disappear from her lips. “Told him you left the country… again.” 

“Yeah, well next time you see him, tell him that I died.” Oli ‘s heavy Argentinian accent coming out as memories of him come to mind. “And that my body was cremated, that you scatter my ashes into the ocean so that I may find my way back home and blah blah blah” 

You chuckle at her dramatic ways, finally separating from her as the catcalling around the two of you becomes even more noticeable. “You’ll be fine, just avoid him for a couple of more days and he’ll get bored… eventually.” 

“So what are we doing tonight?” You change the subject quickly, trying to keep the mood a happier one. 

“We are going to hit a couple of clubs, meet some new friends and have the best fucking time if our lives” Oli counts each one of them on her fingers, reaching into her jacket’s pocket and pulling a small plastic bag of different colored pills. 

Your smile only wavers slightly as she pulls two of them out, offering one of them to you before shoving the other one into her mouth. 

You eye the one in your hand, not sure how taking random drugs is going to get you through the night without making a plethora of horrible decisions. It would sure as hell make it a whole lot easier. “Come on (Y/N)” Oli says in a mocking manner, “Live a little!” 

You smile, a slight grimace on your lips before taking the pill into your mouth. 

Right, (Y/N)... it’s time to live a little. — you think to yourself, already regretting what was going to happen tonight. 

//

Min Yoongi couldn’t be even more than happy to get the hell out of that party. If it could even be called a party. His fingers twirl around the emerald ring on his left hand. His face showing no emotion as he took another long sip of his watered down tequila — he had no plans on getting drunk tonight, but as the night went on he was going to quickly change his mind. His black hair crazily moving to the California breeze as he leans on the glass railing overlooking the bright city lights. 

All he wanted to do was to go back to his hotel room and take a nice long and well deserved nap. But no, he had to stay here in the middle of a city where he knew absolutely nobody. Where he was only asked by his company to appear for appearances sake. 

“Hey grumpy!” A loud voice startles him as a taller body crashes into his. Hoseok’s blinding smile moves to the corner of his eyes, a hard pat on his back. “What the hell are you doing out here when the girls are all inside?” 

He would have almost forgotten about Hoseok’s presence if it wasn’t for the way he would constantly come outside and check up on him every couple of minutes. 

“You’re missing out, man!” Hoseok continues as Yoongi gives him an uninterested glare before moving his gaze back to the city. “Why don’t you just come back inside, I might even have the right girl for you.” THe younger man chuckles. 

“Not interested” Yoongi grumbles, already knowing where this was going. He had seen it all before, the parties, the glamour, the celebrities — hell, he has lived in the spotlight most of his life and there was nothing he had grown to hate more. He drinks what was left in his glass, hoping that the younger male would finally take the hint. Unfortunately, that was still not the case. 

“Oh stop being such a grump! I know you used to like to party!” Hoseok whines as he leans over the railing, trying to get Yoongi to meet his eyes. “I want my best bro back” 

“You know, I’m doing just fine with this bottle for myself” Yoongi points to the bottle sitting on the ground beside him. “I was also having a great ass time, so why not let me continue doing that?” With a grim smile, Yoongi looks back at the scenery in front of him. 

Hoseok gives him one last smile before wrapping his arm around the giggling girl beside him. He had always known Yoongi to be the biggest grump he had ever met — nothing mean that he said was ever taken to heart. Hoseok, even after everything they’ve been through, would still consider him one of his best friends. 

Hoseok lets out a deep sigh as he realizes the older man isn’t really in the mood to party so he reluctantly takes his keys out of his jacket, placing them on the flat railing before taking his leave.”Don’t scratch it” Hoseok yells back before disappearing from the patio and into the lively atmosphere. 

Yoongi takes one look at them, his tongue pushing against his cheek as he places the bottle on the metal railing with a thunk, grabbing onto the keys before he makes his way down and through the backyard — possibly avoiding every person he possibly could. 

His mind was slightly buzzed from the alcohol, nose red from the cold and his body feeling only slightly heavy, and yet, nothing was stopping him from climbing into the front seat of Hoseok’s car and pulling off into the dark road. 

// 

You’re extremely sweaty, a little bit hot and definitely feeling like you might pass out any second. At the same time... you felt euphoric, high on life and you would admit a little bit horny. Olivia and you had found yourself gaining free entry to one of the nearby clubs, stepping onto the dance floor as soon as the two of you arrived. You had some idea of what Oli might have given you, making a note to ask her tomorrow if she had any more. 

The strobing lights made you dizzy and the vibrations coming from the surrounding speakers were beginning to give you a heavy migraine. You stop dancing as you feel someone pull at your hand, looking back with your fuzzy vision you see Olivia’s wild hair in your present view.  You could hear her saying something, although it sounded like nothing but gibberish to you. 

You don’t know what she said, but your hazy mind was able to put two and two together as you saw her smirk at you before turning around and grabbing onto some random guy’s arm. She has found a client for tonight and from here on out you were flying solo. 

You’re no longer paying attention to her as you see her making her way out of the club, instead your eyes start scanning the rest of the barely lit club. As a high-end escort, Olivia knew the clubs where all the rich, married and very lonely trophy husbands and CEOs liked to hang out and relax. It was her hunting ground. 

The men in her life didn’t last very long but from the moment they met her, they could only assume they were done for. Once she had her claws on him she wouldn’t let them go until she got bored or she got a large sum of money from them. Olivia gets bored very easily. 

You hadn’t been okay with the idea when she had first suggested you joined her while she worked, knowing rent was due next week and you barely had enough food to last you the next few days. So, you took her up on her offer. To let her teach you her ways of manipulation. 

You lick at your dry lips, feeling lost and alone as you no longer have someone familiar around you. You push your hair back as you step off to the side, your body starting to feel sore as you move towards the crowded bar. You try to find an empty spot, looking as the poor bartender gets pulled in all directions — the idea that you would possibly get a drunk any time soon is long gone as you unwrap your jacket from your waist and head towards the exit. 

The fresh air hits you with full force as your body cools down. You could still hear the loud music thumping from inside the club as you move through the empty alleyway. Your mind is still a little fuzzy as you put on your jacket, getting the last of your cigarettes from the inside of your jacket. 

You stumble out of the alleyway, fighting to make your lighter work as the wind starts to pick up as you step onto the street. You groan out loud, shaking the lighter in your hands as if that would make it magically work. “Stupid thing better work, I just bought it last week!” ‘

You weren’t really paying attention as you kept on walking, the migraine you had back at the club making its presence known. You were not looking at your surroundings, or at the empty and wet street as your boots slap against the puddles and you were certainly not aware of the very bright lights coming down the road at a very alarming speed. 

Yoongi looks up at the road, the bright red jacket shining as the headlights of the car he was driving hit you. His foot slams down on the brakes, his heart beating a mile a minute before the care fortunately stops only inches from your body. He did not need a criminal record. 

 Your startled eyes meet his as you drop your lighter to the cold, wet asphalt with a clink. It would be a lie if you said that you didn’t almost pee your pants. After the initial shock wears off, you feel relieved and then, you feel only anger. It could be the drugs talking or it could be the alcohol that made you act way out of character. 

“Are you fucking kidding me?! You almost ran me over!” You angrily yelled as you slam your hands against the hood of the very expensive-looking car. Hair falling all over your face as you try to take through the tinted windows, trying to get a look at the culprit’s face. You stumble around, your boots not helping out the matter. 

You didn’t have to wait long before the man stepped out of the vehicle, anger apparent on his face as he made his way to the front of the car. “You didn’t scratch it, did you?” He ignores you as his eyes scan the hood, looking for any kind of scratches. “Are you serious right now? You could’ve killed me and you’re worried about your fucking car?!” 

He lets out a sigh of relief as he makes his motives there are no scratches on the car. “Key word, almost.” he mumbles, not sparing you a glance as he gets back in his car. 

“Uh, no you dipshit. I could have died.” You continue on, following him to his window —smacking your hands on it as you try to get his attention again. It seems as if you succeeded as he rolls the window down all the way. 

“Please don’t touch the window, I don’t want it to get filthy” The man says as he looks at you up and down with nothing but a bored expression plastered on his face. 

“Way to be rude, asshole” You mumble, leaning against the car. Your head leaning towards the window as you try to maintain your balance— your stomach starts to feel kind of funny, but the feeling of anger is still surpassing anything else that you could possibly be feeling. 

“I could be splattered in front of your car and you only car if your precious car doesn’t have a scratch on it.” You continue mumble, “It’s exactly how people like you are ruining our country!” There it is again, that funny feeling in your stomach. 

“You mean drug-addicted prostitutes like you aren’t?” Yoongi finally looks your way, an eyebrow raises as he gives you a skeptical look. He knew he was judging you without even knowing you but he was stressed enough as it is and you were the closest thing he could take his frustrations on you. Some stranger he might never get to see again. 

He can tell by the way your eyes widen and your mouth opens in a little gasp that he had offended you, he could feel guilt bubbling up in his chest as he realizes that he offended you deeply. He doesn’t let you see he feels that way as his face and demeanor becomes cold again— pushing the button to close his window, cutting your words as you continue cursing him out. 

You continue to tap on the window as you hear the sound of a revving engine. The rude motherfucker thinks he can get away with anything just because he has money. The  migraine and the feeling  you had in your stomach is something that you can no longer keep pushing down and as you throw up the little food you had managed to eat that day onto the side of his very slick and very clean car you knew that you had fucked up. You smirk as he parks the car once more, wiping at your lips. You take a step back as you watch him angrily get out of the car with eyebrows furrowed and disgust clearly showing on his face. 

You don’t get to live in the moment for long as your vision becomes blurry and your eyes catch only the glimpse of the headlights as your world becomes dark and you hit the ground with a loud thud. 

Yoongi instantly turns around, his eyes searching for your body before he finds you passed out in the middle of the road. “For fuck’s sake…” He mumbles angrily to himself.  For once, he was glad that he got lost on a road with little to no traffic at all. He takes one more look at the vomit on the ground, feeling queasy at the sight of it. He skips over it, careful to not get it on his very expensive shoes as he squats down next to your body. 

“Hey, stupid...Wake up.” Yoongi says as he nudges your shoulder, hearing soft snores coming from under a mountain of hair. He pushes you fully on your back, your hair falling back onto the wet concrete as he sees the peaceful look on your face -- along with some of the vomit still present on your chin. “Why does shit like this always happen to me?” Yoongi has an inquisitive look on his face as he looks around his surroundings, the cold air making his breath visible in front of him as he notices no one around the surrounding area. He could easily leave you right where you were, get in his car and just get the hell out of there. Another part of him is telling him to at least move you to the sidewalk, to the ‘nice’ and ‘comfortable looking garbage so that you at least don’t get used as a speed bump. 

And yet, something in his consciousness tells him that he was human not too long ago and while you were rude to him… he couldn’t just leave you to rot in the middle of nowhere. He had no idea where you had appeared from and as he gently patted the pockets of your jacket he could tell you didn’t have a cellphone or anything he could call your loved ones with. He could always call the police, but he’s sure he wouldn’t be able to explain the scene in front of him or how long they would take to actually get there. 

“Mom…” He hears you mumble in your deep sleep. 

“Hey..Wake up. You can’t stay here…” Yoongi tries one more time and as you offer no more words, he finally makes up his mind. He unbuttons his silk jacket, moving to place it on your legs before he moves his arms beneath your knees and your shoulders. “Damn, could you be any heavier?” He complains, adjusting you as best he could in your arms before moving back towards his vehicle. He struggles with opening the back door as he tries to not drop you, he ends up using his leg as he hooks his foot onto the handle and struggles to open it. Succeeding after a few minutes, finally placing you into the back seat. He steps away, making sure all of your limbs were inside the car before he slams the door—  hoping that it would wake you up and you could go on your merry way, but as he watches your unmoving body still sleeping in his back seat he knows that it was a futile attempt. 

“Fucking…..” He grumbles in annoyance as he skips over the vomit on the asphalt, getting into his car and driving off. 

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Sonus Complete

What Is Sonus Complete?

These days people are suffering from a number of psychological rather than physiological diseases. And tinnitus is one of the largest growing neurological issues. It targets ears and brains altogether.

Do you suffer from continuous ringing in your ear? Are you frustrated with sleepless nights and migraines? Have you lost all your hopes with your chronic tinnitus? Then you can try Sonus Complete. This is one of the safest tinnitus supplements in the market.

Sonus Complete is a dietary supplement that provenly claims to treat tinnitus. This dietary supplement is safe to consume and doesn’t cause any damage to the brain whatsoever. The formula is completely natural and it works on the root cause of tinnitus.

Sonus Complete Ingredients

Below is the list of incredible ingredients that makes Sonus Complete so effective:

Hawthorn Berry

Hibiscus

Olive Leaves

Niacin

Garlic

Vitamin B12 & B6

Buchu Leaves

Green Tea

Juniper Berry

Uva Ursi or Bearberry

Vitamin C

Hawthorn Berry – The Hawthorn berry is a tiny fruit that can be found in Asia, Europe, and North America. This herb is used to treat various diseases including blood pressure, heart failure, high cholesterol, congestive heart failure, chest pain, just to name a few.

Using this ingredient in this formula was apparent because of the multiple benefits associated with the herb. According to several studies, this miraculous berry helps to easily pump the blood when the heart contracts.

The blood vessels get widened and the nerve signals transmission fastens. This initial action causes the nervous system to easily work. It also helps with panic attacks.

Hibiscus – Hibiscus can also be termed as the coolant for the brain. It helps to tone down the tinnitus when taken along with the Hawthorn berry. The pigment found in the hibiscus flower is known as cyanidin. It is bound to maintain healthy cholesterol.

Other than that, healthy fluid retention is also achieved by using hibiscus as a medicine. In short, hibiscus works directly on cardiovascular health which helps to easily supply blood to the brain.

Olive Leaves – There are multiple properties of olive leaves in general but for the brain, it acts as a protective nutrient. Olive leaves are known as a neuroprotective herb. There is a special place for olive leaves in the Mediterranean diet due to its chronic disease-fighting properties.

The olive plant is being used for centuries. Whether its oil, leaves or fruit, olive tends to be beneficial for many ailments. Oleuropein is the main extract found in olive leaves that helps to protect the human brain from Parkinson’s and Alzheimer’s disease. Then why not tinnitus?

This potentially powerful ingredient of Sonus Complete prevents damage in neurons. The brain will function effortlessly when olive leaf extract does its wonders. In addition to brain protection, it also helps with any infection that may be troubling a tinnitus patient.

Niacin or B3 –Niacin is the powerhouse for the human body. It helps to empower the functionality of every body part. Niacin is the other name of vitamin B3. It is essential to consume Niacin to have healthy brain cells. Due to the calming effects of Niacin, it helps to calm down the brain.

The wonderful vitamin B3 can also improve memory. It helps to soothe down the brain and also indulges in promoting sound sleep. All in all, vitamin B3 is the perfect resource for a healthy body.

Garlic – The sulfur-rich garlic is known for its various anti-inflammatory and antioxidant properties. It helps to regenerate the brain cells that are damaged by environmental stress.

Vitamin B12 & B6 – B vitamins are linked to promoting the function of the brain to a great extent. The human brain has approx. 70% of water. Being a water-soluble vitamin, it can easily target problematic area in the brain.

Vitamin B6 helps to reduce depression symptoms and allows a tinnitus patient to have a breath of fresh air. Vitamin B12, on the other hand, helps to regenerate the brain cells and is effective in many brain disorders.

Buchu Leaves – The wondrous buchu leaves help to eliminate toxins from the brain and acts as a stimulant to heal tinnitus quickly. It directly works on the area of tinnitus inside the ear.

Green Tea – Green tea is known for its rejuvenating properties. It helps to regenerate the cells inside the body and is often used to flush out the toxins. When taken along with other herbs, it will double the overall effect. Thus, there will be more clarity in the brain cells.

Juniper Berry – The antioxidant present in juniper berry will help to eliminate toxins from the brain cells. It helps to digest other nutrients in the Sonus Complete supplement. Therefore, the other nutrients will reach the brain swiftly.

Uva Ursi or Bearberry – Along with the green tea, the Uva Ursi will assist to remove toxins from the brain quite effectively. The infection in the ear will be easily cleared through the antiseptic action of bearberry.

Vitamin C – The removed toxins will remain at bay after vitamin C will come into action. It will protect the brain and ear cells to form further infection and toxins.

How Sonus Complete Works to Eliminate Tinnitus For Good

Sonus Complete has 100% original ingredients that are guaranteed to work directly on tinnitus causes. It is better than any other bogus treatment in the market because the supplement has a rare blend of herbs.

Tinnitus often targets aged people. But it can target almost everyone living anywhere. Whether you’re someone who has moderate tinnitus or having trouble in doing day-to-day tasks. The Sonus Complete has each and every useful ingredient to heal the brain from within.

It works by calming the brain first and then works on removing the toxins out of the body. This action is really important because at first, your body becomes prone to the diseases then catches all of them one by one.

The pill not only works on the symptoms of tinnitus but directly acts on the root cause. Whether it is stress or a prolonged hearing problem. However, it is not a magic pill that works once and for all. The ideal period to consume this dietary supplement is at least a month.

A patient has to regularly intake the supplements to let the natural ingredients do their wonders. The dosage is 2 supplements a day. At first, the symptoms will start to fade. For example, constant noise will reduce, dizziness will be reduced, and the brain will tend to catch clarity.

After a few weeks, the Sonus Complete will substantially reduce the entire symptoms. A person with tinnitus will feel overall energetic. There will be absolutely no sign of fatigue or migraine. And the best of all, there will be no ringing sound.

Above all these actions, Sonus Complete will also help in hearing loss. Not only this, but the supplement also helps to improve the functioning of the brain. It reduces the risk of memory disorder and other potentially harmful diseases.

The continuous intake of Sonus Complete has been found to be effective to heal the neurological system. The risk of memory loss and brain disorders significantly decreases by using this supplement for 2-6 months.

Anti-Tinnitus Benefits of Sonus Complete

It helps to restore memory.

Eliminates the ringing sounds which otherwise known as tinnitus, a serious medical condition.

Reduces the risk of further damage to the brain cells.

Rejuvenates the brain cells.

Promotes sound sleep.

The pain that comes along with tinnitus gets eliminated, no matter how long the suffering has been.

Helpful in aging brain diseases like dementia, Parkinson’s, Alzheimer’s, amnesia, and more.

No more anxiety attacks.

The Sonus Complete completely eliminates panic attacks as well.

Sound mind and healthy body.

Price And Money-Back Guarantee And Refund Policy

What If The Sonus Complete Is Not Your Dream Supplement?

The company has got you covered. Even if there is a slightest of dissatisfaction to you while you’re on this supplement, you can get a full refund within 60 days. The payment and refund system are pretty clean. So, there is no risk involved.

It sounds like a win-win deal for the patients. You’ve got nothing to lose. One bottle costs $69 and that too is offered at a discount if you order in bulk . Above this, you’re also covered in a 60-day moneyback guarantee. If anything is not in your favor, you can request a refund which is given promptly. What a tinnitus sufferer could ask for?

Are There Any Side Effects To The Sonus Complete?

The magical tinnitus supplement doesn’t have any side effects as per the claim is concerned. But some of the ingredients can be harmful if taken in large quantities.

Make sure you go through the entire ingredient list before buying the product to find out if you’re allergic to any of them.

Some of the side effects may include:

Nausea

Upset stomach

Frequent urination

Customers Reviews

Jason C. ~ I was suffering for more than 5 years. I lost all hopes until I found this little bottle of relief. To my surprise, within a week it started to work. My ringing was reduced to a significant level.

My wife was happy to see that I can finally sleep peacefully. It is a life-changing experience for me. If you too want this happiness, don’t think twice!

Riya Peters ~ I was skeptical at first. But the ingredients used were natural so I thought why don’t give it a try. My tinnitus was chronic so nothing happened in the first week. As time passed, I started sleeping peacefully. For the first time, I slept more than 7 hours straight.

Everyone was surprised to see me. I am so happy to finally find something that WORKS! You should definitely try it guys.

Laila D. ~ I am a doctor and it sometimes bothers me to work in night shifts. This constant buzz inside my head keeps pissing me off. I decided to find a natural solution and this came right in front of my eyes.

The result is unbelievable and there is almost no side effect. I am thoroughly impressed and extremely happy. Recommending to my patients as well. Thank you!

Gregory Z. ~ I am way more energetic than I was before using this amazing supplement. I feel more attentive in my class. I ended up buying the entire combo of 3 and planning to consume it for a few more months. Jesus Christ, it works!

Camila P. ~ My mind is blown completely! I have never been so healthy my entire life. My friend suggested to me to buy the bottle of Sonus Complete. In 2 months, I kissed my tinnitus a goodbye. I never imagined I would be writing a review for a product that I bought online skeptically. Go for it people!

Gregory Peters ~ I developed social anxiety disorder because of the tinnitus. I could not meet people or interact with anyone outside of my family. Then one of my relatives suggested me to buy this pill. A hopeless patient I was thought this is just another blah.

But Sonus Complete proved me wrong. I was able to stop taking my old treatments and sleeping pills within one month. After one month my ringing went down to 60%. I am grateful!

Conclusion – The Final Verdict

To wrap-up, the Sonus Complete actually helps to eradicate tinnitus completely. It has all-natural ingredients that are found in rare herbs and plants. The researcher of this supplement used this to cure his tinnitus first.

Doctors were involved to create the formula of the supplement and it has been used on more than 47000 tinnitus patients to date. You’re completely in safe hands to try out to see whether this works for you or not. By any chance, if it doesn’t work, you can apply for a complete refund under 60 days.

This treatment is way more effective because there are no surgery or costly doctor appointments involved. We recommend every tinnitus patient no matter if the ringing is moderate to high, to try this supplement once.

That being said, there are no side effects to use this pill. You can surely go for something that is backed with research and filled with natural herbs. Give your brain a new life and get rid of that irritating ringing in your ear.

[fuck-customers]

Long post ahead, tldr at bottom

So I’m at an office job now. Reception at a small lifestyle clinic, really small, like 3 employees including myself. 

It’s usually pretty chill, nice and cushy compared to my previous jobs so when it’s not it hits you like a freight train.

Woman comes in for an appointment, has 2 kids - one 7 year old and one toddler, maybe 2? Proceeds to ignore them her entire appointment. I’m not a fan of babysitting but it’s pretty slow and the elder girl is unfailingly polite (if perhaps a bit handsy with things she shouldn’t be but I don’t blame her for that. I had to pick the bathroom lock after she had unwittingly locked it from the inside then closed it to display her good manners when she left and Nobody was happy that day because it took an hour to get into since the failsafe mechanism was, apparently, broken) and a joy to hang out with. However, I DO have a job to do, and that takes priority.

So she asks to colour. I brought my personal highlighters to work because they’re pretty dang good ones, and they’re pretty colours also, so I give her these highlighters and a couple pages of blank paper. Toddler sees and wants to join in! No problem, right? Elder sister is monitoring, I think, and I return to my duties. Big mistake.

I look up 2 minutes later to see that the toddler has EATEN my highlighter!! 

SHIT. I panic, I get the baby some water. That can’t be healthy after all! Me and her sister make toddler drink it all up. I have no medical training, I’m just admin! Okay, crisis averted I think. Baby is still alive, not puking or sick though she doesn’t look impressed by the taste (understandable). I return to my duties.

Big sister returns to her colouring.

Toddler wants to colour. Big sister doesn’t let her. Toddler begins. To fucking. SCREAM.

I have very sensitive ears and I’m prone to overstimulation on top of that. And since growing up I had a ton of ear infections (the doctors worried I may actually go deaf because of how nasty and chronic they were, luckily I didn’t), nothing saps my stamina or gets me grumpier quicker than an ear ache. And this child. This fucking child. Caterwauls at an increasingly high decibel. 10 minutes in her mother starts to yell at the kids from the office her appointment is being held in, but otherwise doesn’t do much to settle her damn child, peeks her head out once or twice but that’s it. Big sister, clearly used to this, is unflappable and continues colouring. I am clueless. I have no children, and don’t fancy getting yelled at for attempting to console one that isn’t mine without permission.

20 minutes later. Appointment is still going, child is still screaming, mom is yelling at her older kid to settle her toddler intermittently, and my ears are ringing.

Finally it wraps up. They leave, kid still screaming. Mom’s embarrassed that her kid ate my highlighter but otherwise seems unbothered. Silence descends and everybody is incredibly ruffled but the day goes on. At ground zero, I have an ear ache to kill all ear aches, the pain descending into my jaw, neck, and temples, and a developing migraine. And to add insult to injury, my personal highlighter, a lovely shade of nearly pastel blue, is chewed right through and unsalvageable so goes into the trash. I’m a big grouch for the rest of the day, because I don’t have advil on me, and I’m a bit dizzy to boot. Reinforces my personal vow to not have children, I definitely wouldn’t cut muster if that’s all it takes to do me in.

This happened around 2 or 3 pm, and my headache and ear ache lasted for the next day and a half.

So yea, I don’t let these kids colour when their mom brings them in anymore. And I keep a better eye on them too.

TLDR a baby brought by a customer eats my personal highlighter, unleashes a sonic attack of increasing decibel level for a half hour because we won’t let her at the remaining highlighters and her mom does nothing to help. It was super effective and I take 50 damage, spend the rest of the work day and day after miserable. The pain. The tinnitus.

#submissions #fuck customers #fuck retail #embarrassing #submission

[xxx-cat-xxx]

Lights and Sounds

Happy 4th of July to all my US followers! I´ve read a bunch of great Tony vs. migraine stories recently and got inspired. Featuring Peter, Happy and Pepper. Tags for lots of pain, some emeto and a tiny bit anxiety.

“Kaboom!” Peter shouts after punching Tony hard into the ribs. “You didn´t see that coming, Mr Stark, did you?”

As a matter of fact, Tony didn´t, and that is part of the problem. The aura that has been obstructing his field of vision since the morning has spread to conceal most of what´s on his left in a white haze, and Peter´s fist has caught him completely off guard. Tony groans tiredly, resisting the urge to cover his aching eyes with a boxing glove.

“Could you stop accompanying each of your actions with graphic comic book expressions, that would be marvellous.” he spits into the kid´s direction.

Peter frowns at him. “Mr Stark, are you al-” but Tony silences him with an unexpected right hook that leaves both of them reeling.

He´d worked on his repulsor upgrades till three in the morning after sending the kid off to bed in the upstate Avengers facility where they are spending the weekend. Then he´d fallen asleep at his work bench just to wake up four hours later to a stiff neck and a pounding headache.

He´d skipped breakfast in favour of a hot shower and a bunch of painkillers that did nothing except making his stomach churn angrily. He knows exaclty that the only wise thing to do would be spending the day in bed, but he´d promised Peter a round of sparring before returning him to his aunt, and Tony Stark would not let something as petty as a migraine stop him from that.

Right now, however, he isn´t so sure how long he can keep up appearances before the kid will notice. Aura and a general feeling of lightheadedness are making his steps unstable and causing him to miss more punches than he lands.

The pain behind his eyes is already blinding, and he knows that the migraine is only in its beginning stages. He wishes that it will wait with kicking in full force until the kid is back at his aunt´s and he is back at his tower, but he doubts the universe will answer his prayers.

Another of Peter´s punches hits him in the stomach, making him bend reflexively, and for a frightening moment he is fighting to keep down the nausea that´s suddenly threatening to take over. God, he shouldn´t have taught the kid so well. When he straightens up, the world is spinning around him. Tony is stubborn, but not stupid. He knows when to make an exit.

“Happy, you take over”, he commands the bodyguard who had been watching their fight stoically, “I need a coffee.”

Tony is proud that he manages to climb out of the ring without toppling over, but the thought of getting to the kitchen is quickly dismissed when the gym starts swaying around him. He all but collapses onto the bench at the side of the room. Sparing a look at the Peter, he decides that the kid is too preoccupied with beating up Happy to notice, so he rests his head in his trembling hands, blocking out the burning lights.

A few hours, he tells himself, just a few hours and then he can shut himself off from the world in his bathroom and die alone. That is, until Pepper will expect him for their date night at six. He groans. Life was so easy back when all his personal commitments seemed to consist of training Dum-E and making a monthly donation to the boy scouts. But then again, whom is he kidding? He wouldn´t go back to that kind of life for anything in the world.

As if on clue, a hand lands on his shoulder. “Mr Stark, are you okay?”, Peter gasps, out of breath and grinning from ear to ear, apparently having won the recent episode with Happy. Tony squints up at him, the light from the artificial bulbs making his synapses protest in pain.

“I´m good, kid. Jeez, you smell like a soccer team´s been trapped in a sauna for a year.” He wrinkles his nose in feigned disgust. “Go, take a shower and make yourself presentable. I promised your super-hot aunt to drop you off by noon.”

“Hey, don´t talk about her like this!” Peter boxes him playfully into the shoulder, and Tony tries not to flinch. “And I beat you today, old man!” he shouts over his shoulder before running off to the changing area.

“I let you beat me”, Tony mumbles back. He takes a deep breath before straightening up and and grabbing the wall for support until the dizziness fades away. That´s gonna be a long day.

----

Tony gets into the driver´s seat before Happy even has a chance to. He hopes that driving will give him an excuse not to talk, and he also knows that he will make the way from upstate New York to Peter´s house twice as fast as Happy.  And, deep inside, he is absolutely aware that the true reason is simply his never-ending ambition to prove himself that he is stronger than a little bit of pain. It's just a migraine, after all. He's had them before, he´s survived all fine, and worse things have happened to him anyways.

Tony is wearing sunglasses although the sky is clouded, but the light still hurts in his eyes, as does about everything in his body right now. Happy dozes off after a few minutes. In the backseat, Peter starts to watch videos on his phone, a comedian talking too loud and too fast. Tony might find it amusing on any other day, but right now the artificial laughter from the audience feels like a hammer being smashed on his head.

“Pete, can you switch off that nonsense?” he demands, trying not to let his voice tremble.

The boy just gives him a look and plugs in headphones. He is uncharacteristically quiet for some time, until he finally asks, “Mr Stark, are you angry at me because of the boxing?”

“What?” Tony is so caught by surprise that he nearly drifts to the other side of the road. “God, what are you thinking, kid?”, he huffs, “I get it I´m kinda a show-off, but I wouldn´t get angry at you just because you land a few hits on a day I got a killer migrai-”

Shit, he wasn´t supposed to say that.

“You´ve got a migraine?” Peter bends closer to the front seat, immediately lowering his voice. “That´s why you were so out of it all day! Is it really bad? Why didn´t you say anything?”

“It´s okay, kid, not a big deal. Happens sometimes.” Tony reassures, trying to smile while swallowing down nausea.

Peter stares at him intensively. “I´m  - I´m so sorry, Mr Stark, I didn´t know. Is there anything I can do?”

“Na, I´m good. Just don´t be mad if I´m not up to fancy conversations today. And keep the volume down.”

Ten minutes later, Tony is sure that driving with a migraine was one of the worst ideas he´s ever had. He´s put the sunblinds down although it rains outside, but he still finds it hard to spot the outline of the road through the haze of pain and aura clouding his eyes. Every heartbeat reverberates like thunder in his ears. His whole body is oversensitive, the bumps in the pavement making him feel like he´s back in the boxing ring taking a beating and doing nothing to calm his rising nausea. God, he didn´t even know it was possible to get carsick while driving.

The stretch of road ahead of them is typically Sunday-morning quiet, until suddenly it isn´t anymore. The car seems to come out of nowhere, and all Tony can do is pull sharply to the emergency lane while the other vehicle´s side mirror rubs over their door with a screeching noise.

“What the hell was that?” Happy half-shouts at him, now wide-awake, “You nearly hit them!”

Tony doesn´t reply, he is busy bringing the car to a standstill with trembling hands. He can feel himself hyperventilating, pain from the migraine mixing with a surge of anxiety when he realizes that he barely avoided an accident. He nearly got Happy and the kid killed. Fuck. The nausea hits him full force, and he all but falls out of the door, bracing himself against the side of the car when he heaves. There´s not much to bring up, considering that he avoided breakfast today, but the stench of liquid and bile splashing on the ground assault his nerves and dials up the pain a few more degrees.

“Just let it out, okay?” The kid has jumped out behind him, hovering at his side. He tries to pat his shoulder, but Tony flinches away. Everything hurts. Holes are being drilled into his skull, but they do nothing to relieve the pressure. Instead it is just increasing with every retch, until he is sure that his head will burst open any moment. He can't see anymore, and he catches himself wishing he would pass out, just to make the pain stop.

When he is done he keeps on panting, not daring to move and cause the nausea to spike up again. For a moment he doesn´t know where he is, dark memories and panic pulling at him with luring fingers. He desperately tries to get himself under control. A hand tugs at his jacket, hesitantly. Someone comes from the other side and pulls him up. Tony´s overly sensible nose recognizes Happy´s aftershave and he nearly gags again.

When his vision clears, Peter and Happy have deposited him in the backseat. "I´m driving now”, the bodyguard states the obvious. Tony is miles from protesting.

----

The rest of the drive is agony. The nausea returns about two seconds after he's back in the car, but he vows to keep it down until the kid is gone. Tony leans his the head against his elbow in a crook of the window. He can feel Peter giving him worried looks from the side, but there's nothing he can do about it right now. Pain is tearing him apart from inside, eating his brain and spitting it out all upside down and scrambled up. He tries to distract himself with citing equations, but he can't remember a single one. For a moment, he´s irrationally afraid that he will never be able to.

It seems to take eternities until they reach Peter´s appartment building to drop him off. Tony gives him a tired thumbs-up and a very weak fake smile from under half-closed lids. “See you tomorrow”,  he croaks, swallowing heavily and hoping that he is not overconfident of his abilitiy to recover until then.

Happy stops at the sidewalk as soon as they are out of Peter´s view, and Tony heaves up air and acid for what seems like years. He can´t muster the energy to stop his former bodyguard when he hears him calling Pepper from his mobile.

When they finally reach the tower, she is waiting downstairs. He hadn't wanted her to know, god, he'd planned on throwing down the heaviest painkillers he can find together with a good amount of booze, getting a few hours of sleep and then showing up halfway presentable to make it through their date night. He didn't want to ruin it, again. But when her blurred form gets bigger through his squinting eyes, he's just incredibly glad to see her.

“Oh, Tony”, she whispers when he stumbles out of the car and into her.

“Come on, I expected a little more enthusiastic reaction. I'm still a very handsome guy who's come all the way to meet you.” he musters, trying not to slur.

"You look terrible", she replies, cool fingers wrapping around is aching neck and pulling it forward till his head rests in the blessedly dark curve above her collarbone. "And you smell like a sewer."

Tony doesn´t care. Pepper smells like home, which is finally something that doesn't make him more nauseous, and he decides that he never wants to move again. He holds her as tight as he can without breaking her. After a while, Pepper carefully leads him inside, taking on more of his weight than he'd like to admit. He allows himself a small moan when she bends to hit the elevator button and his balance is screwed up.

“Sorry for this,” he manages when they reach the bedroom.

“It´s okay, Tony. I´d rather have you here than somewhere in outer space fighting aliens”, she grins, gently lowering him onto the mattress.

Tony is sure he´d prefer any amount of aliens to the agony he is currently in, but he doesn´t say it out aloud. Instead, he shakily removes his pants and jacket while Pepper fetches a glass of water and deposits a trash can next to the bed. He crawls under the sheets and pulls the blanket over his head before she quietly slips in next to him.

“Jus´a few hours,” he mumbles as he curls up against the familiar warmth of her body. “Date night´s still on, gotta movie planned, you can look forward to it.”

“Yeah, of course, Iron Man”, she smirks with a hint of sarcasm. But her voice is all soft when she adds, “I always do.”

#migraine #sickfic #fanfic #tony stark #peter parker #happy hogan #pepper potts #emeto #sick tony #tony!whump #emetophilia

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I wanted to make this post to clear up some things that some of you very passionate taekook and jikook shippers who were upset because one of the asks I responded to made it seem like I was favoring/bashing jikook/taekook — somehow both sides managed to take it badly.

I wanted to apologize to anyone who thought that I was bashing Jimin or trying to portray Jimin and Jungkook’s relationship in a bad light. That really wasn’t my intention, but I did realize that with the way I answered that post anyone who had not read the Jimin and Jungkook relationship reading, Jimin’s Elemental Alignment reading, or any of the group readings it would be difficult, without that context, to catch my point. That was my fault. Honestly, not that many people come onto the blog or find my posts without having already read other readings which is why I tend to answer them as though people already know what I am talking about.

Just to clear things up, I don’t hate Jimin and I sure as fuck do not align myself with people that hate him purely because they are “supporters” of an opposing ship, or hate him for any reason at all really. As a grown adult, I am well past that stage in my life where I find jollies or even the slightest bit of use in hating people, especially people I don’t know personally. I’m beyond that and I encourage people that peruse my blog to also stay beyond that quite often.

I am not an “anti-jikook” shipper or supporter/opposer or whatever. I like all ships. Literally, since the dawn of time (2007) I’ve always been one of those people that liked all the ships in any fandom I’ve been a part of just because I’ve always liked the variations of connections that people seem to pick up on. I am not, however, one of those people that feels the need to show “support” for potentially closeted romantic couples by starting ship wars, constantly trying to “prove” that they are gay, or harassing other people who don’t have the same beliefs/opinions about those relationships between those people. I’m just not.

I have said since the very beginning of this blog that any information I find that I consider to be extremely personal, such as relationship status, sexual orientation, details on mental health, family matters and so on I will not include them in the reading or answer any asks about it directly where things cannot remain vague or completely anonymous. The only time I share that information is if it is already public knowledge, which most of the time, it isn’t.

For the people who think that I am trying to label Jimin and Jungkook’s relationship as toxic, I definitely am not. They have one of the strongest relationships in the group and I’ve said that many times. Where the “toxic” statement came from was the Jikook relationship reading where halfway through it I give an “intermission” to explain that I made a comment while in the midst of the reading saying that their relationship seemed toxic because of how their ENERGY mixed between them. This is that bit from that reading:

“In terms of dynamic, in the energetic sense, Jungkook does seem more submissive because his energy itself seems very easily manipulated or molded. I don’t know if that’s how he is with everyone, or if it’s just with Jimin, I think it might be, but I can’t be too sure.

“[INTERMISSION] So, right at this point I had some sort of fucking energetic overload from Kook. What had happened was, I was just edging in a little bit deeper into Kook’s side of things because the energy did seem off and I was actually trying to see if there was energy manipulation happening here and I even made the comment in my head that their relationship seemed borderline toxic, and that’s when I got fucking slammed. Literally, everything fucking flipped. It was a huge massive FLIP and I got dizzy, I goosebumps in waves all over, I had that static feeling in my fingers, I couldn’t breathe, and then I got this sharp fucking pain in my ear for a split second (that actually happens a lot when I channel for long periods of time, along with migraines), and then my ears were just ringing for two or three minutes.

I had to have me a fucking moment after that shit. Had to do me some breathing exercises, had to look out the window for a bit because FUCK that.

But yeah, Mr. Jeon don’t like his personal energy being tapped past the line of projection. That was my bad, sincerest apologies. Like, genuinely, I did cross a line there and I totally deserved to have my fucking brain melted. Not a problem. Lesson learned. Tread lightly around Kook.

But just to clarify for anyone concerned, there is nothing abusive between Jimin and Jungkook.  I’m sure none of you thought that, but just in case that was what it seemed like, no need to worry. They just have a very odd balance that doesn’t make a lot of sense. It might make sense to them on one of two levels, but it’s just a messy picture for an outsider such as myself.”

That post is here.

I referenced that bit in the answer to that ask and, like I said, without prior knowledge of this bit in that post it would seem like I was literally saying that they have a toxic relationship. That is not the case at all. They’re a huge support system for each other and it does go both ways, without a doubt. In that reading I talked about their “layered” connection — that’s also something to keep in mind.

One of the other things that was taken a bit out of context was when I said that Taehyung and Kook’s relationship is very different than Jimin and Kook’s relationship. It is, but I didn’t mean that in a way where I’m trying to say that one is #REAL and the other is #FAKE. I, again, was talking about their energetic and soul connections. The vibe of those relationships are very different, but they are equal. I talked about it in an ask somewhere about how those two ships are the most prominent because of how the three of them link up with each other energetically. They are equal but different. The dynamic is different.

I really need people to understand that when I talk about people I am usually reading, I am channeling. I am always talking in terms of conscious, subconscious, unconscious, energetic, spirit, and soul connection. I touch on everything, not just the what we get at face-value. That is the point of these readings, it is why I started this blog. I wanted to open people’s mind to consider a broader view of the people they look up to. I did not start this blog to “validate” or “invalidate” ships — that is not my business and that is not my job. 

Apparently, as people love to point out to me, there are plenty of blogs out there that will gladly tell you all about the personal lives of the guys down to the shade of red that their asshole is, but I gotta say, people who so willingly give out personal information have no moral code and no ethics that could keep them shoving shit down your throat for some likes and follows. Just saying.

I connect with Guides and energy cores and guess what, Guides (especially BTS’s Guides) do not hand out personal information about the souls they guide because it is beneath them to do so. It doesn’t matter therefore it is not shared. I, personally, just don’t like to do shit that could hurt someone. I really do not go into these readings with the intention of exposing people or trying to paint people in a bad light. I just want people to expand their view past what is shown and past the image that they have painted of the person I am reading. Plus, I just enjoy doing celebrity readings in general.

If you are new, I do encourage you to read through the BTS readings I’ve done as well as read through this to see what we’ve done with the BTS Soul Map and Soul Body healing as well.

Again, I am sorry to anyone who did interpret what I said as me hating on Jimin or trying to favor a ship or put a ship down. That was really not my intention, but I do see how it got a bit lost in translation and that’s my fault. I will try to be a bit more careful with how I answer questions and I will try to provide more context (links to posts, excerpts, screen caps) when I answer things from now on.

For those of you that are doing a bit more than sending me asks and PMs with questions or concerns, I ask that you chill the fuck out. This blog has 200 followers and my posts get no more than 20 notes. I’m not a big deal, these readings aren’t a big deal, they are simply something I enjoy doing and I make them for people who enjoy reading them and connect to them. I use this blog to fulfill my purpose and to help people grow and expand on their own through personal readings and group energy/meditation work. I will continue to live and breathe, and I will continue to post readings because it is something that I enjoy doing. Perhaps you should also find something you enjoy doing so that you’re not online so much getting angry over things that don’t affect you in even the slightest way possible. I have plenty of meditation recommendations for you, plus energy cleansing how-to’s which I feel like you might need desperately. >.>

If you don’t like me, my blog, or my work you do not have to be here. You can block me and you can blacklist my blog and then my posts won’t show up for you at all. It’s as simple as that. Again, I don’t think most of the people that read these readings look at them as anything more than entertainment, honestly, so there’s no reason to get all bent out of shape over posts that get 10 - 20 likes from people who don’t really pay any mind to what’s being said. I’m aware that a lot of shippers look to some of these posts in hopes of finding validation for their personal perceptions and views but that’s not what you’re going to get here.

If you have any more questions or concerns about anything that I didn’t touch on please PM me. I would prefer that to sending an ask that way we can have a back and forth conversation in real time and I don’t have to unload a bunch of things into my blog and then we can handle one topic at a time and understand each other better as well.

#jikook #taekook #park jimin #jimin #jeon jungkook #jungkook #kim taehyung #taehyung

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SILHOUETTE

Part 2:

Three Days Before,

He was walking down the streets with a fast pace, wearing a thin jacket and an old jean. She feared to lose him at that base.

Simon was her first love, her favorite human, and certainly the best guy she could ever date in her life. She had to make her decision about their relationship the moment she got accepted in University Of Maryland-College Park, Cyber Security field.

She was ambitious, and he had to go to Kansas anyways. They kept contact the first few months but Lisa ended it at last. They weren’t the typical couple who fights and breaks up, they pretty much remained friends, but nothing was for life.

Vision has started to get blurry before Lisa out of the sudden, hearing sever ringing in her ears and feeling dizzy for couple seconds made her lose balance and stumble on people next to her. Quickly recovering from her vertigo, apologizing to people, she made it to the nearest drugstore she could find on the way.

She grabbed the handle with force fearing she would pass out, and then barged in, slowly approaching the counter. Standing in front of her, was a middle aged man wearing a white blouse, putting his hands on the counter before him and smiling to her. He had black hair with white in it on the sides, with a light white beard and frameless round glasses.

“Hi, how can I help you?” said the pharmacist with a gentle voice.

“Yeah, hi, umm...,” swallowing her saliva. “I have problems sleeping at night for few days now, and I usually feel tired and dizzy all the time, I was wondering if you can give me some sleeping pills.”

“Well any fever?” asked the pharmacist, Lisa shook her head. “Vomiting?” Lisa shook her head again. “Using the toilet frequently?” Lisa shook her head and said “No, I don’t.”

“I see,” mumbled the pharmacist. “Any loss of appetite, or lapses in attention, or anything else?”

“Yes, umm, it happens very often to me,” answered Lisa.

“Are you using any current medicine?”

She heard the sound of the bell on the door behind her announcing that someone was entering the store. Heavy footsteps were making their way toward the counter, stopping right next to her.

“Hello Simon, How are you doing?” said the pharmacist abruptly with a wide smile covering his face.

“Hi Mr. Ronan,”

She turned to see who the guy was. The voice perfectly matching the name, no doubt, the man standing in front of her was the Simon she knows. She stared at him taken by the fact that they were standing this close to each others. They were so close yet she felt like miles and miles away are separating her from her love one.

He turned to face her, putting on a small smile, that she herself replied by one eventually. She turned to Mr. Ronan who was looking at her waiting for her reply to the question that he had asked her.

“Umm, I actually have migraine,”

“Understood,” he said while checking something on the pc in front of him. “Alright let me check our inventory.” And then he turned towards Simon and said, “What do you need?”

“Do you still have that Tylenol you sold me the other time?’ resting his elbows on the counter in front of him, only inches apart from Lisa. “I might use some of it.”

“Careful on that young man, you might get yourself hurt this way,” said Mr. Ronan.

“No worries,” said Simon putting on a smile.

And for few moments, they were by themselves. The awkward atmosphere was hovering around the place making Lisa uncomfortable and anxious. She wanted to steel some glances at his well shaped face and fill her eyes with his gorgeous look. As she did, his eyes caught hers, making her heart pound faster than ever. Awkwardly, she smiled quickly and tried to hide her face fearing her eyes would expose her feelings.

Mr. Ronan returned back with two boxes of medicine in his hand, one was hers and the other was Simon’s.

“Young lady, I would highly recommend this new medicine for you case, twice a day, but you need to force some food into your stomach. Your case is due to a high amount of stress and overwork, so you might want to get some rest and probably take some days off.”

“Well it’s almost over,” said Lisa abruptly confusing the old man. “Work, I mean.”

With a smile, he handed them the medicine. While Lisa reached for her bag to pay the guy, Simon quickly paid for his share and the one of Lisa.

“I got this,” said Simon addressing to Lisa.

“Oh no, I’m good,” said Lisa with a surprise.

“Please I insist,” He said with a warm look on his eyes. Turning to Mr. Ronan he continued, “Later old man.”

That got her chuckle. He used to use the same expression whenever he was leaving. It was funny to see him still using it until this moment. His warm look slid into her heart like smooth liquor sliding down to her tummy.

The bell on the door ringed as he opened the doorway leaving the store. She watched as he turned his back and went outside. A goofy smile was printed on her face as she was thinking of what he did. She was unsure but it made her feel good. Did he recognize her?

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D-Day,

“Honey I’m home,” a voice said.

Simon, unable to react properly, wiped his tears with his palms and turned around to face his fiance. Standing up from the chair, folding his arms across his chest firmly, he said, “Welcome home.”

Judging by his expression, Jane figured he wasn’t in a good mood. She started to approach him heavily.

“What’s wrong? Is everything okay?” she asked.

“You tell me,” he said and turned around the screen of his laptop showing her a video. “Can you explain this?”

Jane’s face turned pale and she frowned. Unable to hold herself up any longer, she let herself sit in the nearest chair she had found.

“Where did you find that?” she asked.

“Does it really matter?” he said with a faint voice. After a moment of silence, he initiated again, “You’re banging your boss now?”

The video that he had shown her was playing a strong proof of her having an affair with her boss. A video that he received not long ago, together with a pile of other documents, from an anonymous source, indicating the amount of evidence he can use to bring justice back on the field.

“I can explain,” she said with a weak voice while standing up from the chair. “That’s not what happened, I promise I promise....”

“Cut the bullshit!” He interrupted her yelling. “Stop lying you pathetic bitch.”

Jane burst into hot tears, covering her mouth with her fingers and sobbing hard.

“You lied to me,” said Simon.

“No, please don’t say that” her voice cracking with emotions.

“Do you have any idea about what you’ve done to me? You crushed me, killed me, you humiliated me you psycho. I had to spend a night in jail because of you.” He sobbed, “And for what? To get more sex? Is it worth it?”

He paused for a little, watching her barely uttering her words as hot tears streamed down her face.

“He wants me to pay for what he did, you know that. And you fell for it,” he said.

“I don’t know about anything, he only asked me to put the phone in the apartment. I had no idea....” she said muttering.

“Oh shut up,” he interrupted looking straight at her face. “Shut up I’m done with your lies.”

Jane burst into tears. Unable to believe her, he felt kind of sorry to see her that way, but he was so angry at her that he pushed these feelings away.

“Matthew Buckman was the only suspect of the death of Anne Kyle, and I was the only witness. At the day that she was murdered, I saw Buckman leaving the house. The house was on flame, the vision was not that clear but I saw him. It was him.”

He paused a little and the said, “He wanted to get rid of me, and he used you as bait. Anne was just like you, someone beautiful, smart. He wanted to have fun with her, and when he wanted it to end and she didn’t, he killed her, and burned down the house to destroy any evidence of their relationship. But I was the only one standing in his way, and he had to get rid of me. He couldn’t afford killing another person so he decided he should frame me instead. Turning the witness into the suspect, boom, the perfect plan.”

“I’m sorry,” said Jane with a weak voice.

“Anne was your friend, and I your fiance.” said Simon. “You have lost us both.”

“No,”

“Get out,”

“Please,”

“Leave,” he shouted.

Jane left, leaving Simon behind torn by his pain. He kept looking at the screen of his laptop, and then picked up his phone and rung a number.

“911 what’s your emergency?” a voice said.

“My name is Simon Walsh, and I have evidence concerning the murder of Jane Kyle,” he said.

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Lisa shut her laptop’s screen down. She grabbed a bowl of ice-cream in her hands and started to eat. Looking from her room’s window to the empty road ahead, she whispered to herself and said.

“Now let the fun begin.”