#the only other issue is that it is impossible to be subtle that thats what im doing i think anyone who saw me meet someone would catch on

[as-i-watch]

in my opinion i think the opla did a very good job of trying to emulate the one piece manga and anime, but there’s a part of the anime that they can’t really convey through the live action. like… i think that the cartooniness of one piece, as well as the occasional emotional moments is what makes one piece one piece, but while the opla was able to get some of it, being a live action, it wasn’t able to convey all of it

it’s still wonderful, and i love it, but i like to compare it to the percy jackson movies. good live actions in their own right (still think opla did it WAY better) but compared to the original, it falls short (percy jackson a lot, opla a tiny bit)

i think the main issue for me is the characterisation. inaki did a very good luffy, but you can clearly see how it’s so inaki luffy instead of luffy luffy. still good, but still different

and i think mackenyu did zoro well, but in my opinion, it doesn’t fit him very well. zoro (while i still love him) isn’t as pretty as mackenyu is. mackenyu is too much of a pretty boy

i actually remember hearing in an interview that mackenyu grew up with anime, and of course one piece. i think he emulates zoro extremely well, and he tries his best to make it anime accurate, but he as a person just doesn't fit perfectly, the vibes are kinda off. still absolutely in love with him though

i think that it shouldn't have skipped so many parts of the original, but of course, it completely makes sense why they did

anyways, like i said, i think that if you don't compare them to each other, it's very good, and i do love how they did it (i'm also so happy that so many people loved the live action that they're actually starting to watch the anime!!)

I just finished episode 3 but i totally agree

My biggest fear when the adaptstion was announced was precisely that, bc one piece is so one of a kind, it can make you smile, it can make you sad, you cry tears of joy and of pain, and the anime takes the time to develope the charecters, the stories and the world, so sometimes the emotions are conveyed in such a subtle but effective way bc they took the time to make sure it did. Not to mention the tone and aesthetic. There's a lot that was gonna be difficult to translate to live action

That said, so far i think they did it great! I think they found a certain balance between the cartoonish and the 'real world' lets call it, and they took advantage very cleverly of cgi and practical effects to achive that too.

I agree the thing that perhaps lacks for me too is the charecters and also the pasing imo. But again, it was impossible to fit the storytelling way of the famously 'too long' anime in a 8 episodes per series format.

I too think Luffy feels the most different, i already talked a bit about that and i think it was just the result of it being a western production plus the complex charecter Luffy is. But Iñaki put so much love into his Luffy, you can feel it, its endearing

I dont have a problem with Mackenyu's Zoro funny enough. Sure, i miss how silly anime Zoro can be (but again, the tone thing) and they tried to make it too purposefully imo. Zoro is not edgy. He is badass and a maniac but he doesnt want to wear only black or cares about pressenting an "attitude". But there's a ray of hope for me (i havent finish the show so it might change my mind), the biggest stupid ass smile when he said he'd cut Helmepo's hair. He can be silly and less serious, so i hope i get to see more of that as he feels more comfortable in the crew.

Nami i like, im waiting for the Arlong park arc to make up my mind bc thats where her true colors shine either way. Really liking her dynamic with Luffy so far tho

Havent seen Sanji yet

And Usopp, i just met him and this might sound mean but this Usopp is too cool. Kinda like what you said for Zoro. I think this Usopp has more confidence in himself than anime/manga Usopp did back then and he is not that much of a coward. The coward part is important bc every time he stood up to fight it meant so much more. But again, is early for me to make up my mind this is just first impressions

But like you said, this is just bc of the comparison, on its own i think they are all doing amazing jobs and, so far for me, the writers managed to pull off something that to me was next to impossible and in a great way too.

Im curious to see how someone that hasnt watched the anime reacts to the mixed tone of live action meets silly cartoonish vibes, i hope its not too of context for a first time watcher

#oof that got long #sorry #ask #ask: opla

[helluvabossrewrite45]

Hello, I just wanna say that your scene rewrites are amazing. Seeing Stars has got to be one of my favourites.

On the topic of Octavia, I agree that Viv and her team missed an opportunity with Via. To me in the context of the narrative, Octavia can be a tragic character that is screwed over by the writing. It is implied that she takes after Stolas with her love of astronomy as their form of bonding. Yet, she slowly watches her father drift away from them and is probably wondering if they—she even matters to him. You’re just watching a parent that you had a close bond to just leave you behind because they found someone else that captivated their interest. On top of the divorce that is currently going on would leave a child feeling doubtful.

I also just never understood why the writers want to keep having her being mad at her dad, even though they say that Stella has clearly been ruining the family, yet it’s his fault? Half the time the writing seesaws on Stella and Via’s dynamic because the only time she does care is when Stolas is there and…I get that could be counted as gaslighting, but the character lacks subtlety that it’s hard to tell when she’s always yelling. More often she doesn’t even care for her with two episodes implying this.

I just in general feel frustrated with this family because either avenue could be interesting if the writers took it seriously enough but they don’t and instead choose spur of the moment scenes that we have to use as jigsaw puzzle with some pieces not fitting because world building barely matters.

Sorry for the ramble. You’re version or fix it is probably one of my top favourites for the characters because I can definitely see the use of the loosely outlined jigsaw puzzle. Have a nice day/evening.

Thank you anon, im glad you like my rewrites

I agree 100% with via, they did the same thing with moxxie to her, that being repeating the same arc again of her being mad at her dad but forgive him in the end. It kind of shows that just like moxxie, they didnt know what to do with her which is a shame because the small details she has are there to be fully explored, but they never explore them. Like her and music, she oftens listens it even at the dinner table and with stellas reaction to the cheating affair, we can peice a puzzle of her doing it as a coping mechanism; escaping her problems through distraction. And with seeing stars main plot is around via running away to see a meteor shower, it would've been perfect to explore that side of her along with more knowledge of the family in general to piece this puzzle their giving (like the relationship with her mom, her uncle, the rest of their family, how they react to the situation, how their currently dealing with it, etc...) through flashbacks (since the whole point would've been that these issues wont go away no matter how much you try to ignore them) And yes, her closeness with her father drifting away is definitely tragic and its sucks that it wasnt futhered explored, especially with the entire goetta situation as a whole since were in season 2 and we dont even know how they reacted to it. It makes me wonder why even give us these pieces to solve properly if its so little that it makes it pretty impossible without theorizing from any vague info we have and thats not how problem solving works.

And yes, its odd that shes only mad at stolas but never to stella. I mean, i get she would be on her moms side because of him cheating but still with how stella is written, you'd think she'd hate her too. In this rewrite, stella would actually be subtle in her abuse to stolas in a way where you can still recognise it but also understand why other (like via) wouldnt. An example of this would be my first post where her and stolas confront each other about the divorce, the quote; '-or did you forget? Like you always do?'. Its meant to showcase her most common tactics, shaming. From her background (that i'll explain further in her own post), she oftens picks up things from her family, which shaming is included. She would shame stolas whenever he makes a mistake or does something she doesnt approve of (like if he wore a suit she didnt like, she would say; 'you know were meeting your family right? You think they want to see their son of royalty in that sort of wear?' or them arguing on how much time via should spend on her astronomy lessons; 'Shes going to be a future you and what, you wanna just, make her lazy, huh?!' (or even 'I didnt think you'd care that less for your own daughter....') See these are what you could recognise as shaming but also understand why people may not consider it so, potentially using excuses like 'oh shes probably right because its royalty/she just cares about looking good enough for her family' or 'oh she just cares for her daughter and her future' (ironically enough, those are kind of what fans AND the show itself use as an excuse for stolas lmao) but just because via doesnt recognise stella's abusive tendencies, doesnt mean she isnt upset with her. She very much is, mainly with stella's aggressiveness as stella developed anger issues throughout her life and didnt have anything to help it. Via hates it whenever stella yells because of course she would be, no one likes angry loud noises! Its just that unlike with stolas, shes not as open with her frustration to her mother because shes genuinely scared of her from that aggression that makes it much more harder to truly express her feelings about her, instead keeping it to herself along with her feelings towards how the rest of the family is reacting to it given that it just feels too much for her to be involved in. So the reason why shes only open on being mad at stolas is despite what he did, he's the only one she feels safe in being mad about (I mean, she does have andrealphus as someone safe to an extent though he's very dismissive of telling her whats going on with the goetias and definetly doesnt take being wrong well like stella so hes not much better) that way, it'd be more understandable and futher peice the puzzle of their family and their dynamic. Family itself is quite complicated because of the nuances it has behind it and i wanna incorporate that to the goetias were their not fully evil but tend to care about their statuses rather then whats right in front of them (that being them as a family) since i think its interesting to explore and wouldve suit stolas, stella and octavia really well.

No need to apologise for rambling, i like getting asks of peoples thoughts/ideas on helluva. Hell look, im rambling too. I hope you enjoy the future rewrites i have in store, have a nice day/evening too

#helluva boss critical #helluva boss critique #helluva boss criticism #helluva critical #helluva criticism #helluva critique #helluva boss rewrite #ask #anon

[keefwho]

January 25 - 2023

1:38 PM

I think I might end up in a similar position as I was when I really came to terms with my anxiety. When I accepted the problem, I found it much harder or maybe impossible to cover up and ignore it like I had in the past. I think thats what made every single day feel like a brutal fight. There was no more escape so the only thing I could do was conquer it. I feel the same way about my self worth right now. Only time will tell if it will actually be like this but I predict it will be. Its okay if it is, I shouldn’t be hiding from my problems. This is still an obscure issue to me so there will be a lot of exploring to do.

I think I’ve become too addicted to doing lewd stuff with others. It’s basically all I want to do anymore, I don’t like doing it alone. The problem is rarely getting the opportunity to. Its not THAT big a deal, just kind of a  bummer. I figure I should stop saving myself almost daily just in case something happens later in the day because I’m making myself too pent up. Thats the only real problem here. 

I also don’t know when it’s appropriate to ask sometimes. I dont wanna be the guy that’s always asking to fuck at the wrong times. I know how it is to have someone try to be giga horny on you when you don’t want it. I’ve been a sexual object before, and not in a good way. My biggest fear in this area is making someone else feel like that. 

4:14 PM

I feel subtle dread. I feel this very often. Its like I have no existence past a couple weeks. Maybe because I have no goals or no clear direction. I think my life overall might be like my drawing pattern. I usually explore new things, commit that new knowledge to everything I’m doing, and I stop exploring for awhile. But what happens is since I’m not taking in new information, I slowly regress in ability. Eventually it gets bad enough that I am forced to experiment again and the cycle starts over. I think my life in general is in the state of regressing and has been for awhile. I’m meant to remember to try new things and introduce new possibilities. I can’t ever start thinking “this is enough” because I’ll stagnate. I need to remind myself that I can always improve. 

I think my first step will be getting my calendar in order. I want to update it with different activities I can do so I don’t have to wonder if I should be doing them now or not. When this month is over I’ll be done with the 30 day Yoga and I’ll schedule a new workout routine. I feel I should also dedicate time to my book again and touch up on the kinds of exercises that could help me through this new problem. 

Its horribly delicate trying to balance mandatory scheduled time and more loose and free time. I think ideally I’d do what I think I needed to de when I felt like it which can be often enough. But in the effort of conserving energy for when I need it, I hold myself back from doing anything unless it’s pre-meditated. But pre-meditated plans don’t always line up with how I feel about it. 

9:08 PM

I think what will start making me feel better about myself is if I simply stop the avoidance. I’ll have to get used to myself eventually. I should catch when I’m trying to ignore my own presence and open up to it. Accept myself like I accepted my feelings. It feels cringe but its a good thing. 

I might try blowing myself on chaturbate again. I really want to be a hoe sometimes and have someone tell me what to do a little bit.

11:38 PM

I’m still not over what’s happened between me and my friend. We used to be inseparable. In my memory it was a good thing but I also remember how much I was allowing myself to be used. I was sacrificing so much and he didn’t realize. I’m still not sure he does. He admitted he saw me primarily as a sexual object but didn’t intend to feel that way and felt bad about it. He also still doesn’t understand how to respect what I’ve been going through. It’s almost like he’s trying to be a parent in an unhelpful way. 

I guess I’m still upset because there was no real conclusion. Things just slowly fell off until now where I can still tell he’s upset about it. I don’t know what good talking would do though. I don’t want things to go back to how they used to be or even close. The truth is that we didn’t have much in common to begin with. We bonded over sex and a few similar friends. Over time I got less horny and fell out with those shared friends so then what did we have? Nothing but a sort of commitment to each other for the sake of staying friends. But we never liked to do any of the same things. And I was always the one that would make the sacrifice by doing things he wanted to do that I hated. And it’s like he never cared that I was obviously miserable or thought I was sad for other reasons. Over time our bond wore down.

I keep remembering all the good times and feelings but I cannot forget all the bad ones. To me they soil the entire experience. I remember specifically trying to avoid him so often without seeming like I was. Or I’d be happy when he had to go away for a weekend. I felt terrible for feeling this way because he was supposed to be my friend. I didn’t realize what we had going on could only be described as toxic. I sort of blame myself for not caring for myself enough like I started doing last year. Putting myself first has been a big factor in our declining friendship. I feel he takes it personally when I decline things we used to do but I’m just trying to take care of myself. 

I don’t know how to let go of all this. In some ways I miss it because of how much we relied on each other. To be honest, it’s kind of like we were dating even though we both agreed we were just friends. I feel guilty that he’s been so upset about it for so long. I feel like his pain is my fault. But I know I can’t blame myself for practicing self care. 

I also feel yucky when I look at any of the art I did of us. It used to be really fun until he got way hornier than me and borderline pressured/guilted me into doing stuff. I’d do it sometimes too because I felt like I was neglecting him. 

I still FEEL like I’m supposed to be there for him. I feel like I’m supposed to be a part of the TDS group. This used to be who I am and I thought something was wrong with me when it stopped being my thing. I know it’s not true but it’s how I’ve felt for so long. It’s hard to move on. 

[soaringsearingphoenix]

From now on when i meet new people i will wait until they say their name, then introduce myself by the same name.

This serves several purposes. First, it will dramatically reduce the number of names I have to remember, because people will greet me by their name. Second, if they introduce me to their friends I'll know exactly what our connection is because new people will greet me by the name of the friend who introduced us, so it will help me draw clear connections between the people I know. Third, I won't ever have to actually give a name to people, so my friends can't say my name aloud around strangers.

It might get confusing for my friends and acquaintances when everyone knows me by a diferent name but that's their problem not mine

#also i imagine it would make people uncomfortable to picture dating me because its rare that people wanna date someone with their own name #as far as i am aware at least that seems to be a deterrent because it would get confusing to other people i guess #so thats also a major plus #the only actual problem for me in particular is that i have a lot of friends whose names tend to change #and i think i would have to come up with a system i use in that scenario #because while i dont feel bad sharing someones name it WOULD feel wrong to be like 'oh you chose this? you spent a lot of time on it? YOINK' #and i ALSO dont want someone to have to hear their deadname all the time when im around #so as long as i can think of a solution to that circumstance then this is a foolproof plan #the only other issue is that it is impossible to be subtle that thats what im doing i think anyone who saw me meet someone would catch on #but being part of society is a performance art already you might as well just really commit to it #do somethingn ridiculous and tell people its to Challenge Their Perceptions of connection or identity or something #i mean Who We Are already changes so much around different people anyways #i figure if anything this better reflects my relationships with other people #like i think it would say about what i want to say about me #which is that as much as i want people to appreciate me for my actions and creations and stuff #i also just want them to relate to me and on some level i try to make that happen by reflecting back my favorite of their qualities #like its not a think i plan to do its just that im gonna look for things we have in common #and then thats what im likely to bring up in conversation and mostly exclude things we dont have in common #unless the things we dont have in common make us fundamentally incompatible or i dont like u. i doubt thats the case for anyone reading this #especially this far into the tags #anyways i do have a lot of names already this is just what im already like taken to a logical extreme #its like having a different nickname on all my discord servers but irl its great #(thats what inspired it is realizing how many of my discord servers have some sort of dnd character or nickname associated) #(its a good system it tells me who knows me why)

[duskdragonxiii]

dusky in what ways do you think therapy would help q4?

I'll be honest i dont know the exact benefits of therapy ive only had counselling a couple of times bc it was free and i was on the brink but i do have so many many thoughts DJSKLBF

Every character in vanguard has thier own issues and while some of them are nuanced some of them are really really obvious

Aichi is very clearly depressed it's not even subtle and as someone who's been through situations that make Aichi's story relatable I think therapy is something he really needs but I've stressed before that Aichi even goes through relapses and such. Vanguard is what's helping him through it its the closest he's getting to therapy. Maybe it's from being bullied in school but Aichi has serious self esteem issues and the core of Vanguard is imagining yourself as the best version of yourself- It's really not a subtle message. Kai brought him into the world of Vanguard and it completely changed his life. Slowly but surely. Even his family note how happy he becomes after getting into vanguard and meeting Kai again. The development on aichis part is really slow but in fairness depression is just like that.

Misaki canonically has PTSD after the death of her parents (this was more severe in V series but at the same time it felt really brushed over which is a real shame) and similar to Aichi was depressed and had little interest in anything before being dragged kicking and screaming into a game she was so scared of. Once again Vanguard is the key to getting through- not over- her issues and she's far happier with her life now.

Kamui is easy to overlook bc he's younger and isn't as clearly distressed as the rest of the team but I think he has serious social issues. He's a popular kid among his peers and he thrives on enthusiasm but he's also vulnerable in his own way. He's intimidated by change and finds it hard to understand other people I think. He has a hard time feeling he belongs with people. One of those people who has so many friends but rarely lets any of them close. He found where he belongs in Q4 and thats why when he finds Kai hard to deal with he finds is especially hard. It's really hard to say what Kamui's issues are tbh but I don't doubt therapy would benefit him too. (I hc he has adhd and dyslexia but that's more of a me thing) Kai in particular has serious issues with running and hiding from his problems. He acts all cool in order to push people away. Obviously he's already fucked up from his parents death and the first person who got him to open up after that was of course Ren (and Tetsu) unfortunately as a result he didn't realize how high a pedestal he was putting Ren on that it absolutely shattered him when Ren turned out to not be the person he had been in his imagination (Don't give me any of that he changed bc of psyqualia thing, that's a metaphor and you know it and you're missing the whole point) and instead of trying to accept Ren as he was he ran away. This is addressed again in the Psyqualia Aichi arc when Aichi starts to get lost in his own power- giving Kai the painful reminder when once again someone he's connecting to might not be the flawless and innocent person he imagined them to be. The difference is, Aichi brought him close to a whole lot of other people and Aichi himself made him realize that he can't keep running and that's what brings him to his senses and able to face it.

Not Q4 but relevant; Ren has abandonment issues probably due to his shitty parents (although this is only really established in V series where things are quite different but i still think that's the case in the og) so when Kai didn't approve of his new self and worst of all walked away without even saying goodbye it sent him over the edge and he became the nasty and aggressive cardfighter we know him as in season 1- all because he wants Kai to come back to him. He has a single minded OBSESSION with Kai that's really not healthy- and while after season 1 he starts to get better he never truely lets go.

Kai and Ren could BOTH get over their issues if they would just talk about it but unfortunately they both have issues with communication that make it impossible- hence why cardfight is so important to them now. with thier imagination and putting thier true selves in this game it gives them something in common and a way to communicate through all the issues they have with eachother and at the end of LM though it's been really slow its clear that they ARE healing. It may sound silly, but Kai making an off comment about how he doesn't like the way Ren is dressed is a BIG thing for him. I could analyse this moment till the cows come home because its the first time Kai manages to express himself with words, clumsy as it is. What "I don't like the old you" really means below the surface is I know and accept that you have changed. And Ren's playful response being "Then you like me as i am now?" while he is being playful that in itself means I'm still not the person you want me to be I will never be that again but I'm happy that you can finally see me as I am. It's really important to me....

Anyway Sorry for this ramble i really feel strongly about cfv LOL welcome to my KaiRen agenda--

#answer time #THIS IS SO LONG IM SO SORRY #i have to rewatch cfv bc honestly i dont remember much abt kamui and im so sad bc i love him

[smugraccoon137]

Supergirl Season 2 episode 8 Medusa review part 2

If your curious part 1 was just my breakdown of Kara and Mon-els relationship that got way too long. But as always SPOILERS AND GAY THOUGHTS AHEAD

Me and kel get so excited when Lenas in an episode. Like practically giddy. I can’t help smiling when shes on screen honestly. And yes Katie McGrath is beautiful, but beyond that such a pretty smile and lovely voice. I’m sure ratings started to spike when she joined the cast. Okay enough about pretty girls on to the review 

Tipsy fucking Alex though guys I can’t get over this mess of a person. 

Alex: if I have to come out to my mom then I choose to do it drunk

Kara: no your not *yoinks beer*

Alex: wait no my coming out juice

Kara Danvers sneaky sneaker extraordinaire can totally interview Lena and find out Cadmus things without anyone knowing. The confidence this goofball has is top tier

Underrated relationship: Alex and Winn though. I really really love Winn and honestly Alex is such big sister energy to both him and Kara. 

wow Lenas pretty in the interview scene. A touch of auburn hair from the sunlight really makes this shot and we never get to see her with her hair down. Fan service honestly, or maybe she heard a certain beef cake reporter was gonna come by and wanted to dazzel her.

Lena: hair up is for business. Hair down is for flirting friendship time with Kara

Poor baby thinks she falls short nooooo. Your doing your best godamn your only like 25 jesus. Kara give her a hug she needs love and affection

Kara thinks shes being so sneaky in this interview. Such a golden retriever, bad at sneakin. As soon as she toes the line Lena catches on and kicks her out. Really good acting in the scene, the subtle change in expression to show Lenas guard raising. Good job Katie.

Real quick Lena why is your office so ugly? How do you keep it clean? You spend 99% of your days in this place and its whiter than a hospital room. I hate it. Why is your desk an oval? and why does it have a hole in it? Kara cant eat you out in secret anymore damn. 

OOHHHhhhh noooo the fucking gas bomb in the bar what the fuck. EVERYBODIES DEAD JESUS WHAT WAS THAT

Poor Mon-el. What happened at the bar was fucked up, and he feels like its fault when its obviously not.

Love that he and Kara are having bro time playing some Monopoly. Oh no not Kara asking if he likes her. Honestly thought these two had good chemistry in this scene. Im a sucker for dumbass not understanding certain words and phrases. So Kara having to reiterate her questions and finally being like “You don’t want to mate with me do you?” was super fun. Omegaverse vibes mfs. Although I am confused by mon-els reaction “I mean have you seen the kind of women I’ve been attracting?” I honestly don’t know what this means.

Kara internal reaction though: Oh thank god

Wow Kara really just has no regard for her own life, huh? she just opens the door and possibly contaminates herself. It’s good to want to help people, but love you gotta care about yourself too

Good reveal with the fortress of solitude. Oof Kara gonna feel like its her fault all those aliens died and mon-els sick. They do a really good job of showing Karas relationship with her parents through their holograms. She wants so badly to see them again, to talk to them. And she can, but not really. They just aren’t real.

Lena cattily to her mother: im used to celebrating holiday weekends alone at my desk

me to Kara: please invite her to thanksgiving

Okay so Lena being adopted is another interesting parallel to Kara. Also the fact that both Kara and Lena fall into there families shadows, and are left behhind or forgotten. Really interesting how Lena and Karas relationship is so similar to Clark and Lex’s for obvious purposes. Though the CW queer coding the fuck out of their relationship in Smallville really only adds to Supercorp fever. Its always been Homoerotic subtext Harold!

Me watching Lena and Lillian trade verbal blows: Wow ya’lls relationship is fucked up. Lex and Lionelle would spar and fence but you two are on another level jesus

oooooof that last line. 

Lena: I know your lying

Lillian: and how could you possibly know that?

Lena: because you told me you loved me. And we both know thats not true

Who wrote this jesus fuck my heart. The PAIN.

Bonus thought Lena thinks Karas smart. Goofball beefcake sneaky sneakster who doesnt know the difference between flirting and friendship is smart she thinks. I love these idiots

Wow Kara just doesn’t wait huh? Oh cadmus is going to be at LCorp? Not on my watch. Lena’s there. I know this because I tune into her heart beat just to check on her cus she likes to work late. Don’t worry Alex it’s for friendship reasons.

That LCorp security guard got princess carried for .2 seconds. Best moment of his life.

God its like dark out. Lenas working on a holiday weekend into the night. I hate this, give her friends.

Lena looks so scared when Kara gets thrown into the giant LCorp sign

And then hurt Kara looking up at her with dread.

Kara internal: fuck don’t come out now. I came here to save you

God I love the protectiveness. Its *chefs kiss*. Hank throwing the beam at Lena and Kara even in her hurt state throwing herself in front of it. Sometimes self sacrifice is gay. But how Lena looks at her after wards like “I can’t believe I’m alive. I can’t believe she chose to save me”. Met with a gruff “Get out of here!”. mm yes this is my kind of content. Fight for me.

I was robbed an aftercare scene but I doubt it will be the last time. (*COUGHS* the “im leaving” phone call *COUGHS*)

Talking about the virus Eliza: what about Lena Luthor?

Kara: What about her?! (super defensive is also a super power maam)

Winn: Luthors can be pretty good actors

Kara: No, I looked into LENAS EYES. She doesn’t know anything about cadmus or her mother

J’onzz: Would you stake Mon-els life on that?

well I guess that really puts Lena and Mon-el right next to each other in priorities huh? Which one is more important? 

Wow Lena totally has a crush on Supergirl after that. Flustered dork. 

Lena: *laughs nervously* you know that doors not really an entrance

Kara: *upsettit stone face pupper*

Lena: :,) 

Okay but the way Lena just says “Anything” all breathless and helpful when Kara says she needs her help. Shes crushin hard

Kara tells Lena her mother is in charge of Cadmus. 

Lena: >:(

Annnd the crush is dead. That did not last long. Really love that Lena has such a different relationship with Kara vs Supergirl though, good dynamic having her reactions so different. Which I believe actually relates as a Clark and Lois parallel? Seeing as how Lois has two separate relationships with Clark and Superman. 

OOf the way Lenas throat bobs with genuine sadness because who she thought Supergirl was is wrong. Shes just like the rest of them. Thinks Lena is just another crazy Luthor. It hurts

Kara: I know what its like to be disillusioned by our parents, but Im a pretty good judge of character, and you are not like your mother. She is cold and dangerous. And you are too good and too smart to follow in her path. Be your own Hero.

Wow just what a good line. They are capable of some things here and there arent they? Melissa's delivery on this is excellent. And the way Katie McGrath is able to show such depth of sadness and bitterness even from a shot of her BACK is really cool. Great acting in this scene in particular. And I can see why the “desperation to be good” is such a highlighted part of these two relationship. Its the one thing in common between Lena and Supergirl, the place where they can meet in the middle. And the way Lena looks after her as she leaves! AHHH thats the good shit, the pining

Okay big Mon-el scene in coming so if you dont want to hear my ranting skip over this part. 

Funny how as soon as Kara has this big impactful scene with Lena full of tension and emotion the writers were like: shit we almost forgot Mon-els dying. 

Kara: *staring sadly back into Lenas office kind of wanting to go back in*

Writers: *cough cough* KARA He’s DYINGGGG

Kara: Oh shit right. Mon-el Oh no. My *looks at poorly written handwriting on her palm* romantic interest?

Wow Mon-el looks like shit, poor guy. Someone swaddle this pillow princess and get him some soup.

Heres a question. Kara is visibly upset that Mon-el is dying. Is it because she’s sad that the guy shes likes is dying. Because her friend is dying? Because her father created the virus thats killing him (what the writers want us to think)? Or because no matter what Kara does the people she loves keep falling through the cracks and shes helpless to stop it?

Her parents. Clark. Her adoptive father. Now Lena. Now Mon-el. Why can’t she ever do anything? Why is it always her fault? This poor kid has some deep seeded abandonment issues

Mon-el: you know you look beautiful with the weight of all these worlds on your shoulders.

I do remember my reaction here, cus I thought this was a weird line. A line that was obviously meant to be romantic and complimentary, but it felt unsettled in my stomach. Coming back and watching the scene it sits even more uncomfortably there. He obviously means well, but this line is kind of just shitty. Its a very selfish and unthoughtful thing to say to someone. 

Kara’s entire fucking life has revolved around other people and making sure they are happy and taken care of. But having “failed” at such a young age to do the impossible things asked of her (carrying on Kryptons legacy, raising Clark) she overcompensates. Any normal person would just make their life revolve around their family and friends, not healthy but it works. But Kara feels responsibility over an entire world of lost people and lives. So the amount she overcompensates is ungodly. She does have the weight of worlds on her shoulders. This is not a joke or hyperbole. Its just her life. And thats so fucking shitty. And to have someone actually see that and acknowledge it. To make it a reality so to speak. Then to have them say “yeah you look good like this” while you’re a shaking Atlas being crushed. It is just a little too much isn’t it? That pain to have someone see you finally, and then completely miss the point. For them to go “oh wow your so strong. your so brave” instead of “let me help you. you shouldn’t have to do this at all, forget by yourself. But now I am here”. 

I imagine this was the scene that crowned my darling himbo boy Mon-Hell? Which is so unfortunate. I hope Im wrong, but I feel that his character might just end up a big missed opportunity

I want everyone to know that me and Kel screamed through the entire enxt few seconds of the scene. We knew the kiss was coming from how they were building it up. But god was it painful, especially for it to be delivered after a line like THAT. But yeah very loud angry screaming

Also not to be that bitch but Kara and Mon-els scene was a total of 1:53 RT, and Kara and Lenas ran at a 1:57 RT. Just sayin...

No Lena don’t be evil thats too sexy...

Okay but the way that Lena just tricks Lillian is so good. Shes so clever. And added bonus she makes her ask for her help, which is nice actually. Lillian's obvious vice is weakness and that is often shown in embarrassment. A woman like this asking for help borders that line of weakness and its nice to see on such a dislikable character. Lena didn’t just get what she wanted she got a point over her mother.

Lena looks good in the purple coat. Repeat she is pretty

Love the mental chess game between Lena and Lillian. Lena offering help right off the bat and giving her the isotope free of charge. And then Lillian making Lena launch the virus to prove herself. Good stuff.

Kara appears: don’t do it Lena!

Lena: why not? im a luthor

Okay so obviously Lena switched the Isotope and the Virus won’t work. But thats what makes this line so perfect. Throwing it back in Supergirls face. Like “Yeah, Im a luthor. And Ill show you what im capable of.” But instead of mass death and destruction Lena saves the day. She saved thousands of lives, and its because shes a Luthor that she was able to do that. Really nice way to full circle that 

Wow Lillian really just starts booking it without Lena, huh? bitch

I really love the scene of the virus falling all around National City. The choice of an orangish snow falling was a really really good one. Paired with some excellent music for the mid season finale.

Its sad but I do love Hank just being ready and at peace with death. Im sure he misses his wife and daughters. 

Okay but Lena calling the cops is tea. Send your mom to jail honey. 

So we’re really not gonna talk about how Lena saved everyones asses? Like don’t you think Supergirl would want to talk to the woman that A) kind of tricked her, and B) saved National City. Thats just what makes sense??? But no we’re going to ignore that the DEO is a kind of shit at their job sometimes. And that the woman that they were accusing of having a part to play in all the xenophobic shit is the one who did their job. BY HER SELF. 

Okay rant over. This was a long one review dear god. Really really good episode though. I enjoyed rewatching all the scenes even if it was a mixed bag of feelings. Thanks for reading hope you enjoyed all the screaming!

#supergirl #supercorp #supergirl review #episode review #supergirl episode review #cw #supergays #kara #kara danvers #kara zor el #mon-el #Mike mathews #lena luthor #lena #season 2 #season 2 episode review #text #textpost #sneaky sneakster #clever lady in a purple coat #sick puppy dog says some questionable things #gay thoughts #too many to count #wanna do a supercorp parallel essay at some point #maybe after ive watched more #Hope everyones enjoying the reviews #Kel always proof reads for me #get you a man that screams with you when the forced love interest is about to kiss the main character

[snakeningel]

not to be starting homestuck race disk horse in 2019 but yknow what? I Will.

being an asian fan in the hs fandom is kinda, not great actually. in fact, it not only feels like we’re not here at all, that we’re erased, but its honestly? downright harmful. people treat the trivialization and fetishization of your culture to be,,, like a Big Joak. yall joke about weebs like these people havent been literally grooming and abusing asian girls, like we havent been made fun of enough for Their actions, like we aren't already viewed as the strange punchlines to jokes that still seem somehow acceptable. its somehow funny to joke about how you hate every sign of asian culture that shows up throughout the comics, like how dirk’s kotatsu was dumb and pretentious as if people in japan dont literally live with one and use it every single day!

even asian-coding in characters get swept away in favour of other headcanons. even the megidos, who are as close to canonically asian as they possibly can be in a medium like homestuck, are often drawn white or something completely different altogether. the stridlondes are also heavily asian-coded, and the fans who do pick up on that, who finally feel comforted by someone like them as protagonists? they often just.. give up on that, because they see so little representation in the fandom. (theres only like one popular artist i know of that draws the strilondes asian? but like, hats off to u pal, youre fighting the good fight). also, it seems strange, to be represented so little considering almost 3 billion people on earth is asian, which is, Quite A Lot to be not represented a lot. dont get me wrong, i adore the outpouring of more diverse art of the kids, but a hard truth to swallow is that pocs being weebs/fetishizing asian culture, is just as harmful as white people doing the same. there is a world of difference between japanese dirk, trying to interface with his lost culture by clinging to the most performative and popular parts of it, than another dirk, appropriating people’s cultures because he thinks its funny or interesting based off a show he watched once. i love how people are like "wow the striders like anime and care about traditions and use japanese words and overall just seem like diaspora kids" and the conclusion they draw from that is "clearly,, they cannot be asian" bc a non-asian person being interested in those things is better than an asian person whose interested in their own culture i guess??

in fact, a lot of these narratives are so much more interesting once theyre looked at through their coded lenses!

Dave’s struggle with coming to terms with his emotions strikes such an interesting chord when the striders’ concept of irony and never showing their emotions Correspond so well to the idea of honour/face, where youre not supposed to show that youre Ever Sad or anything that isnt a positive emotion because it shows that youre a Failure and You Failed and that makes you a Bad Person, which is exactly what dave struggles with because hes So Guilty about it, which ties to the guilt and shame a lot of asian people feel about not being able to live up to impossible standards set by their parents, which is another theme we see reflected in all four strilondes. 

rose’s strained relations with her mother are mirrored in so many of our second-generation lives and makes so much more cultural sense when looked at that way. the weird distance you hold from your parents, where you cant look each other in the eyes anymore, because every interaction feels more like a business transaction. you hand in your good grades and praise from teachers, talking about how mature you are, and they return with some present or gift that you don't really want. you dont know anything about them, and they dont know anything about you, Not the person you Actually Are, anyways. but there is a yearning, to be close, to know eachother, but you only feel it in return when its too late. as well as her Obsession to be mature, to be smart and adult-like because thats what shes praised for, because you Need to be academically the best always and that means reading dictionaries until the sun goes down, repeating each word until they are engraved into your mind. always finding competition, subtle or not, because if you are not the winner, what are you?  dirk’s wild performative love of japanese culture (which also, in turn, lead to non-asian fans literally trashing it like it was a funny joke to call someone’s culture lame and stupid) seems like ‘ironic’ weebism, but its also being Exactly the type of over-the-too performative reclaiming of our culture that so many asian diaspora kids do when they’re teens! they feel bad about pushing away their culture as youth, but they’re not quite mature enough to actually care about the rich history and ‘boring’ parts, so they cling to pop culture, to social media and something so much more easily consumable, like anime. which is not even to mention the idea of him trying desperately to connect to a culture that he has never grown up in, but still belonged to by consuming mass amounts of media, being Such an immigrant story. as well as his massive competitive streak and need to make other people as good as he is (but not better), is the type of internalized pressure that a lot of asian kids feel as well. 

and all the stridlondes have various anxieties about not performing well enough, of not living up to a standard that they have set for themselves, feeling like even a single step back or even one mistake is a catastrophic failure that’s branded to you for life. Which is just as much of a mental health thing as it is like,,, an asian thing

this is getting really long so im cutting myself off here but please if you want to hear more about my Thoughts and Hot Takes feel free to shoot me an ask. 

in conclusion: please treat asian people better hs fandom i literally beg you. like,, im Not tryna make waves but,, asian erasure in fandom is a huge issue and no one ever talks abt it!! dont trivialize, fetishize and erase cultures blease  big thanks to @ernikerr and @wyndryga for encouraging me to go Off and helping to write this.

anyone please feel free to rb but non-asian people please watch your mouth

#homestuck #dirk strider #dave strider #rose lalonde #roxy lalonde #strilondes #asian american #hs #pesterquest #hiveswap #aradia megido #damara megido #homestuck 2 #text post #jae rambles #hs meta #homestuck meta

[tua-hottakes]

I’m sorry but I feel like vanya has the most white favoritism💀 five is a murderer, yeah, but he only kills when he feels like he has to, although I’m not saying it’s justified. Vanya was literally killing because she pissed😭 someone HONKED in front of her and and she killed them😭 and pogo😭(no hate to vanya tho, I like her)

Ok first things first: "only kills when he feels like he has to" ?? I feel like I have to kill about 10 times a day lmaoo, doesnt mean its ok to do it. Five murders intentionally, Vanya kills when she loses control. I think this is a significant difference to make, if entirely irrelevant to the issue of white favoritism.

//im sorry i kinda went off the answer to your ask is bolded under the line//

The way I understand the term white favoritism here (correct me if I’m wrong English is my second language) is the writers/producers or fans treating a white character better than they would a character of colour. We see it in white characters receiving more screentime, more complex and thought out storylines as well as better development both in canon and in fan works. We also see it, as others have pointed out, fan reactions such as Lila getting dragged for being a brown girl version of Five.

However, where fans are concerned, I think it gets a little more complex than “Person A doesnt like this poc character, but likes that white character, this is racism”. See, fandom likes to think they are gods that take canon and play with it as if it’s a piece of clay, but tua is an extremely well-crafted visual media, these characters have a lot to them, their presentation, the way they are written, and their development dictate the audience’s response. Most of the responsibility with avoiding something as subtle as white favoritism, imo, falls on the show’s creators; you cannot expect/rely on people having good enough analytical skills to recognise both the creators bias and /possibly/ their own.

Do you think that Robert Sheehan’s wardrobe choices are accidental? Or the fact that teenagers are in love with Aidan Gallagher? Both characters are designed to be attractive to certain demographics (LGBTQ+ community/ horny kids that dont have a one direction(those two do overlap)). The issue here isnt so much about which character does the worse thing and is forgiven by fandom. The issue comes down to the fact that fans are more willing to empathize with characters that are better written (to be likable) and better presented. Not nicer or more moral.

The whole Point of the show is that there aren’t objectively good or bad people, but if there were, all of the sibling would fall into the bad category. That’s why it’s a good show, it makes you empathize with people who do awful things. That being said, Vanya is a well-written character, but she’s literally the Big Bad of season 1 and a red herring big bad in s2. Shes way too central to the plot to not be given the required attention. But in terms of fan-reception ( and this is a very difficult to say for certain, as it’s impossible to measure) I have noticed that people tend to not care for her as much? When i say she’s a “smoll bean”, ya gotta notice the irony, I am fully aware she murdered people (although how much of that was her fault is up for a Very Long Discussion), she was by no means a likable character until s2 where she got to date Sissy (and i think this was also very intentional of the writers).

So, to get back to the point of your ask: Although there is always some racial bias behind every creative decision, I don't think shes that big of an example of favoritism on the side of the creators here, she needs to be a compelling character to perform her function, but at no point do i think, “man, Vanya is just so perfect, what a wonderful person, truly a model human being i want more of her and only her.” And this might just be my experience, but i haven't noticed her being much of a fan-favourite. In fact, I think she’s the second least liked character after Luther. People argue a lot about if she shoud be forgiven, she’s definitely not viewed in entirely positive light. The people who love her, mostly find the positives in her relationship with Sissy and the wlw representation. Which is a neat trick that Steve pulled, ngl, he got us there, he really knows his demographic(oh boy but thats another long topic right there). I don’t see much fan content about her on her own? Idk I could be wrong or too desensitized.

#tua hot takes #tua discourse #vanya hargreeves #i dont have the energy to edit this post hope it makes sense #i dont like thinking about social issues in relation to shows cuz it depresses me #this is my escape from reality id rather pretend i do not see racism/sexism/homophobia #esp in tua because i think they are a lot better than most shows when it comes to representation #but also brushing stuff like this off with a joke got me called racist in the past so #this is not satire im being serious for a moment sorry #i may not know enough about the issue to comment #but since people keep asking im sharing my opinion

[razielxiii]

I need to vent about something personal and this is basically the only place where im pretty much invisible since tumblrs dead and barely any IRL friends follow me here.

I think i have osdd-1a

Ive always always ALWAYS since ealry childhood had issues with my identity. Wether its my physical identity or like "who" i am as a person or who i want to be. Ive had years and years of dissociative symptoms. Some extreme and some mild. And im prone to mood swings. And when i was a kid my family would get scared and call me possessed. Ive felt an uncontrollable urge to do certain things i didnt intend to do in at least three incidents that i can remember, where i couldnt control my body or words. And in two of those instances i felt like i wasnt myself anymore but someone else entirely. Theres voices sometimes, but they're my voice, just intrusive. Theres other stuff too but i just thought this was all me. Like thats just my weird depressive symptoms and i just had a very long term fascination with the concept of identity. But it just feels like it cant be a coincidence.

On the flip side i feel like im completely making it all up. Like its near impossible. I dont have enough trauma or i dont have enough symptoms. I havent really met any "alters" so they cant be real. Etc. I still kinda am convinced im just making this up for...attention? Pity? Idk.

And i think its osdd1a and not 1b or DID bc well i havent really met any alters so i dont know if theyre distinct from me. And i havent switched that i know of, so theres amnesia (if i do have this disorder). That rules out DID and 1b.

But theres so little out there on the internet about 1a bc its so rare and if u do have it its so subtle and hard to diagnose. So i cant really compare experiences or validate my worries? Idk. I still feel like im making it up. Im scared to go to my therapist about this. What if she just dismisses it? What if she can prove im faking? What is she can prove its real? Each scenario is so scary for different reasons. Idk. If anyones reading this, any advice?

#osdd #osdd1a #osdd1b #did #dissociation

[madisonrooney]

hi it's your secret santa! first of all HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! i hope you have a wonderful day! how are you celebrating, if you are at all? safely, i hope! either way i hope you manage to find a way to have a great day full of love!! consider my christmas gift a belated birthday gift as well lol. anyway i loved reading your last answer, it was so thoughtful and sweet. i realized after reading that i barely know anything about dove lol so follow up q: what about dove makes you love her so much?

sorry for the late response! the last couple days have been v busy and ive been super tired and dissociative on top of it so i made a point to save this bc i wanted to give it my full attention!

first of all thank you!! i was going to do a virtual meet and greet with one of my favs from jersey boys but he got confused about timezones so we rescheduled but were doing it next week! then i went to a virtual walt disney family museum panel, had pizza for dinner and watched some liv and maddie, my mom made a cookie cake that we ate while watching the grinch musical, and then some friends and i watched the jersey boys movie together over skype!

im so glad you enjoyed reading my last answer! and oof thats another loaded question (i love it tho)

- like i said when first talking about what drew me to her and liv and maddie, a big thing is just how much passion and love she puts into her characters. ofc she puts passion into every character she plays, but its the passion she puts into characters like liv, maddie, and mal that means the most to me. that goes back to the fact that ive dealt with a lot of negativity directed towards me for enjoying disney channel, and then you have dove out here saying “yah im a teenager/twenty-something who not only respects what theyre doing on disney channel, but puts my all into it” not to mention she even won an emmy for playing liv and maddie in season 4! i hope that passion and talent has started to change the conversation about disney channel, and tbh i think it has at least a bit.  ofc, none of this is to say other people her age acting on disney channel arent talented and passionate, but idk, something about her has always stood out to me. i find her to be more animated and expressive than most. it can be hard for me to read emotions in live action movies and shows, so thats been really important for me. not to mention she was not only playing the lead but TWO lead characters on a four season show with distinct personalities but also subtle similarities. AND the main character in the biggest DCOM franchise in years for 5 years running now. PLUS the fact that there was a period where those were both happening at the same time. she was only 16 when she started all this and hadnt even had any big roles prior to it!! she had a lot of responsibility so it was amazing to see her not only pull it off, but excel at it.

- i just love like....her aesthetic?? shes always seemed to be a very old soul to me, into old jazz music and poetry and stuff like that. its just very charming. and for her to have that aesthetic on top of being a disney channel actress is a fascinating juxtaposition.

- this is kind of sappy and it gets tiring to hear it said over and over again but that doesnt mean it isnt true: i love how transparent she is about her struggles with mental health issues, trauma, and such. she has been for a long time but even more so over the last year or two. no shade to anyone else, but a lot of actors dont really give you a look into their personal lives, they just share and promote their product. im not saying theres anything wrong with that, its good to know what youre comfortable sharing, ive just felt all the more close to her with her being as open as she is, especially as someone who has gone through trauma myself, albeit different from hers.

- kind of connected to that, i love how important spreading kindness, positivity, and love is to her. thats another thing thats been said a million times but still, its very important to me.

for example. she’ll randomly tweet things like “i love you” a lot. im one to always think of the thought process that goes on behind whatever someone posts, texts, etc., bc personally i put a lot of a thought into pretty much anything i say or do before i put it out there publicly, probably bc of my social anxiety. even tho its a simple statement and takes her a couple seconds to post, she still had to have the thought “i want to remind my fans that theyre loved” or something along those lines. and she has this thought FREQUENTLY. to just randomly get a notification every few days or weeks or so of her saying something like that is just very heartwarming to me.

the reason i connected with miley so much when she helped me through my initial trauma was bc it felt like even if no one loved me, she loves her fans, thus she loves me. thus the person i love and admire the most loves me. even if its only one person, it can be enough. it was for me at the time. i feel that same way with dove. when she came into my life, i didn’t feel as unloved, but her love was still helpful to me.

- of course i need to specifically talk about her kindness in person too. dont get me wrong (ive been saying that a lot havent i lol), i totally and completely loved her long before i met her, but naturally, i love her 10x more after the experiences ive had getting to know her in person.

i could go ONNNNNNN about the experiences ive had with her, and i have lol, and if you already heard me ramble about this in the server i apologize, but the most important thing ive taken away from every encounter ive had with her is this: she always goes the extra mile. she always goes out of her way to make people feel special. what i mean by that is she could say/do HALF as much as she has when meeting me and i would still leave over the moon feeling loved. you can tell she does this in excess bc she really truly means it and cares about people like me, she doesnt have any kind of ulterior motive and isnt just going through the motions doing whats asked of her, she simply cares about me and the rest of her fans. some examples - the first time we met, i was sobbing (lol) and she hugged me for a really long time, rocking me back and forth, brushing my hair with her thumb, calling me sweetheart and honey. she even started to tear up a bit herself. - a couple months later, i went to my first liv and maddie taping. i was preparing to reintroduce myself (i looked a little different bc id been cosplaying as maddie the first time i met her) and ofc when preparing myself, i fantasized pretty heavily as i usually do and pictured myself showing her the pic of us on my phone, her gasping, jumping out of her chair screaming, and hugging me, thinking that was probably way more than i was gonna get. that is EXACTLY what happened. then she went on to tell me how my costume made her whole weekend. things like this would continue to happen where i would set the bar impossibly high and not only would she meet it but she’d exceed it. - our usual interaction from there on would start with her face lighting up when she saw me, her calling me some kind of cute name like love or baby, and then hugging me without me even having to initiate it. - when i saw her in mamma mia, i didnt know when id be seeing her again afterwards after pretty consistently getting to see her for 2 years, so i wanted to make sure we got some kind of closure. at the stage door, i reminded her how much she meant to me and just expected like an “aww i love you too” or something back, but she said “you are an angel in my life” and i will never forget that. obvs, i havent told her ALL the details about what she and her characters mean to me but like...she can tell. she can tell if im in a homemade maddie costume sobbing into her arms that theres something there, and shes VERY appreciative of that. - i thankfully got to see her at a meet and greet a few months later and every time i thought i should get going cuz i didnt want to hold the line up, she would just open her arms for another hug. speaking of being appreciative, she even said “thank you for being such a supportive fan.” as i left, i turned around to say one last goodbye. i made sure she wasnt with the next fan yet and yelled out “bye!” and she yelled back “I LOVE YOU!!” and blew me a kiss. again, its the little things. - i saw her at a small panel in new york a few months after that. she walked in the room when the lights were down as they were playing a clip, she quietly waved hi to everyone, then saw me and loudly whispered HI BABY!!! and stopped on her way to the stage to give me a hug. (then she looked at me from the stage and asked which way i thought she should cross her legs for the interview lol) - sometimes when she sees im next in line, shell give me a knowing smile or whisper “hi baby!!” or something like that. she saw me in the crowd after clueless and seemed to make a point to come to me last bc she knew wed be talking for a while, which we did. she even told me she’d seen me in the audience, asking if i was in the front on the left, which i was.

even all that is still just scratching the surface. weve “known” each other for 5 years now and every time i think she’s done the most she can do, she outdoes herself again. not to mention when im at these events, i see her treat all the fans she meets with all of that kindness too. naturally all of this has made me love her all the more.

- finally, lets just be honest here..........................shes REALLY fucking hot.

#gcwca secret santa #Anonymous

[tgai-spock]

Lines of ice from rolling waves and subtle villains

When the news comes

Chapter 1 

The news was enough to behead a full grown man, and as a boy of fifteen, it was enough to behead him. His training faulted, his mouth opens ready to snarl, his eyes meet his fathers and he resumes his composure.

“Mother, I do not understand what you are telling me” he said across the dinner table. Amanda smiled as she dipped her bread into her soup.

“Your Father and I are very busy recently. Our current peace treaty negotiations will need help from both of us, and they take place more than a months travel from here. We highly suspect our negotiations will last some time. You must go to a boarding school on earth.”

“I’m vulcan.”

“Well a few things had given it away” Amanda shakes her head with a smile.

“Father I am old enough to stay at home and attend school by myself, I do not need to go to a school on earth. If I do it will ruin my education.” Spock said. He could see it in his Samekh’s eyes, he agreed with him. A sharp look from Amanda.

“We have left you alone for a couple of months before” Sarek said carefully.

“And I, and my studies were well” Spock said.

“You put three boys into hospital.” Sarek said.

“It was self defence” Spock said angrily.

“Which I don’t agree with” Sarek said.

“Then you would have a dead son, but maybe that’s what you want.”

“Spock” Amanda shouts, and he jumps, between the two Spock often found his mother to be the less emotional “that is not the issue. The issue is something happened.” Spock looked from right to left, finding his Father now eyeing only his food.

“Honey” she reaches across and takes his wrist “if you get into a fight, if you get into a lot of trouble here while we’re away I’m not certain there’s anyone here to help you. They may put an end to a fight in progress if they see it, or if you come bleeding to their door, but other than that you just don’t get the help here any one else does.”

“What other help could I need?”

“If you tell someone a group of vulcans is plotting to kill you I want you to be taken seriously. I cannot leave with peace of mind knowing last time I did you were almost murdered, and before that you had tried to ask for help. I can’t see anything to stop that happening again.”

“They were in the hospital for several months, they would have to be highly unwise to try again” Spock mumbled.

“Spock, there’s just no telling, it could be others it could be more. If you go to earth, most people will not be as strong as you, and you will be able to ask for help, you will be believed.”

“Or they will see me as an alien I so obviously am and try to kill me on sight.”

“No, this is a school that holds it’s diversity above all else, they have zero tolerance for any discrimination, and they have already had several other hybrid people attend. Although there was apparently some adjustment needed for their species socially speaking they rated it very well.”

“What kind of hybrids?”

“Orion mixes, and even andorians mixes.”

“Is that it?”

“They have several gorn too.”

“Can’t orison’s hypnotise humans with their smell?”

“Thats hardly their fault. Can’t you control humans with your mind?”

“Thats not really a trait of every vulcan.”

“What?” Sarek says puzzled “whilst you are a strong telepath, there will be no telepathic communication between you and other pupils, and certainly no mind melds.”

“Thanks.”

“Sarek, dear I was comparing and unfair ability Spock had mentioned of the orion’s, some of who have grown up completely on earth.”

“Oh, I see.” Sarek nodded.

“Father, what about my education? It took me a long time to get my grades up, who knows the kind of damage this could do.”

Sarek looks him in the eye “I have observed the school in question, it will not let your grades down, you will not have a learning pod but the classrooms are relatively small, and the culture you will be able to pick up on while attending will be almost impossible for you to pick up else where. There are also a number of safety protocols that, given the worst case scenario, will keep even you safe.”

“What if I punch a human in the face and kill them.” Spock says blandly.

“Spock! Don’t do that. It’ll be fine, and if things are bad, you can just live with your cousins on earth.” Amanda said “I have spent a long time thinking this through and this, sounds better for you. You may academically speaking do well here, but you are always in fights. I guarantee you will not get into as many on earth.”

“A bold claim.” He says.

“Well it doesn’t matter” Amanda says “you will go and that is final.”

“If I get stabbed at the new school too?”

“You will live with your cousins, or I will book you transport to our location” Amanda said “and you can spend the whole year on my ship while we are on peace treaty talks.”

Spock sighed stabbing his food “what about I-chaya.”

“You can bring him.” Sarek said.

Spock frowned looking up “to a school?”

“Indeed” Sarek said “many of their pupils their have pets.”

“What kind of school is this?”

[Chapter 2]

#spock #Amanda Grayson #Sarek #star trek #Star trek tos #loifrwasv #linesoficefromrollingwavesandsubtlevillains1

[hemlockyy]

And The Saga Continues

By saga I mean me supervising this 'fake RbbSbb' account on twitter because I want to.

also Im going to separate the posts by day, if anything else happens I'll retweet and add it on this one. Tommorow its a separate post.

If you're intrested to see the first bit (two separate days in a post, one in which I found and then kept retweeting what happened after weeks (?) of not checking on it) (! I do reccomend reading the previous one)

so if you're intrested look up the tag #Fake-RbbSbb in my account.

-

Sooooo as expected our buddy changed his bio to 11, which supports my speculation that it was (obviously) a countdown to Louis' show.

nothing new on the following/pfp/header etc...

They did tweet some things, but I'll touch on that later, first off the likes: It seems they are continuously trying to raise attention towards Rbb (and Rbb only???) being back in two weeks by sending anonymous statements in peoples CCs.

Also they liked this HIV support tweet- and I found that sweet so im also adding it in, because aweareness is key.

aswell as replying back with their usual variation of two emojis:

No sign of Android anywhere, just WebApp™.

Now onto the tweets:

Just like with the 12 they posted yesterday, today they posted an 11. And I got curious to know where abouts they were setting the time to:

If whatever I triod to do here is too complicated (even I dont understand it lmao) basically:

In LA posting time would've been 23:29

In London posting time would've been: 07:29

so if they wanted to (and im speculating this because I did not check) update it on midnight lets say (or close to), then logically the tweet would've come from LA.

Now this thing which then tells us there will be a pattern of when they'll update the countdown

The thing I found weird right, is that they're doing a countdown (supposedly) to Louis' show. So why update on LA time?

Next thing they posted was this:

'Well Meet at the end of the Road' at a first glance you'd guess they're talking about the countdown.

But oh to know who Rudolph Valentino was...

I'll put some intresting quotes I found of him here, you can skip all of this if you want, I'll do a short resume at the end of the indented.

"He was a sex symbol of the 1920s, who was known in Hollywood as the Latin Lover (a title invented for him by Hollywood moguls), The Great Lover, or simply Valentino.[1] His premature death at the age of 31 caused mass hysteria among his fans and further propelled his status as a cultural film icon."

"The Four Horsemen of the Apocalypse was released in 1921 and became a commercial and critical success" + "For his follow-up film, they forced him into a bit part in a B-film called Uncharted Seas.(1921)" + "Rambova, Mathis, Ivano, and Valentino began work on the Alla Nazimova film Camille.(1921)" + "Valentino's final film for Metro was the Mathis-penned 'The Conquering Power.(1921) "

thats 4 movies in a year!! Talk about overworked- (depending on how long they were)

"After quitting Metro, Valentino took up with Famous Players-Lasky, forerunner of the present-day Paramount Pictures, a studio known for films that were more commercially focused."

"Jesse L. Lasky intended to capitalize on the star power of Valentino, and cast him in a role that solidified his reputation as the "Latin lover"

"In The Sheik (1921), Valentino played the starring role of Sheik Ahmed Ben Hassan. The film was a major success and defined not only his career but his image and legacy."

"Famous Players produced four more feature-length films over the next 15 months" + "His leading role in Moran of the Lady Letty(1922) was of a typical Douglas Fairbanks nature" + "Valentino starred alongside Gloria Swanson in Beyond the Rocks(1922)" + "Valentino began work on another Mathis-penned film, Blood and Sand(1922)" + "During his forced break from Rambova, the pair began working separately on the Mathis-penned The Young Rajah(1922)"

15 months 4 movies. and again I will stress the 'capitalize the star power' over there.

Seems too familiar tbh.

"Missing Rambova, Valentino returned to New York after the release of The Young Rajah. They were spotted and followed by reporters constantly."

*cough* *cough* "spotted"

"During this time, Valentino began to contemplate not returning to Famous Players, although Jesse Lasky already had his next picture, The Spanish Cavalier, in preparation. After speaking with Rambova and his lawyer Arthur Butler Graham, Valentino declared a 'one-man strike' against Famous Players.[31]"

About the lawsuit:

"He was also upset over the broken promise of filming Blood and Sand in Spain, and the failure to shoot the next proposed film in either Spain or at least New York. Valentino had hoped while filming in Europe he could see his family, whom he had not seen in 10 years.[27]"

"In September 1922, he refused to accept paychecks from Famous Players until the dispute was solved, although he owed them money" + "Famous Players, in turn, filed suit against him.[33]"

"Valentino did not back down,[33] and Famous Players realized how much they stood to lose." + "the studio tried to settle by upping his salary" + "Variety erroneously announced the salary increase as a "new contract" before news of the lawsuit was released, and Valentino angrily rejected the offer.[31]"

"Valentino went on to claim that artistic control was more of an issue than the money." + "Famous Players made their own public statements deeming him more trouble than he was worth (the divorce, bigamy trials, debts) and that he was temperamental, almost diva-like. They claimed to have done all they could and that they had made him a real star.[33]

"Other studios began courting him." + "However, Famous Players exercised its option to extend his contract, preventing him from accepting any employment other than with the studio." + "Valentino filed an appeal, a portion of which was granted. Although he was still not allowed to work as an actor, he could accept other types of employment.[33]"

Return To The Movies

"Valentino returned to the United States in reply to an offer from Ritz-Carlton Pictures (working through Famous Players)" + "Rambova negotiated a two-picture deal with Famous Players and four pictures for Ritz-Carlton.[37] He accepted, turning down an offer to film an Italian production of Quo Vadis in Italy"

PERSONAL LIFE!!!!

"Valentino once told gossip columnist Louella Parsons that: "The women I love don't love me. The others don't matter". He claims that despite his success as a sex symbol that in his personal love life he never achieved happiness.[62]"

"Valentino impulsively married actress Jean Acker, who was involved with actresses Grace Darmond and Alla Nazimova. Acker became involved with Valentino in part to remove herself from the lesbian love triangle, quickly regretted the marriage, and locked Valentino out of their room on their wedding night."

"From the time he died in 1926 until the 1960s, Valentino's sexuality was not generally questioned in print.[67][68] At least four books, including the notoriously libelous Hollywood Babylon, suggested that he may have been gay despite his marriage to Rambova.[69][70][71][72][73] For some, the marriages to Acker and Rambova, as well as the relationship with Pola Negri, add to the suspicion that Valentino was gay and that these were "lavender marriages."

"Such books gave rise to claims that Valentino had a relationship with Ramón Novarro, despite Novarro stating they barely knew each other." + "These books also gave rise to claims that he may have had relationships with both roommates Paul Ivano and Douglas Gerrad, as well as Norman Kerry, and openly gay French theatre director and poet Jacques Hébertot." + "However, Ivano maintained that it was untrue and both he and Valentino were heterosexual.[24] Biographers Emily Leider and Allan Ellenberger generally agree that he was most likely straight"

like every historian would say: "they were just good friends"

"further supposed evidence that Valentino was gay; documents in the estate of the late author Samuel Steward indicated that Valentino and Steward were sexual partners.[77] However, evidence found in Steward's claim was subsequently found to be false, as Valentino was in New York on the date Steward claimed a sexual encounter occurred in Ohio."

- Via Wikipedia

These are the few quotes from his wekipedia page in which I literally gaped at...

So in short:

Sex Symbol who was an Actor

Got his image enhanced and exploited by his manager.

Constanly Overworked

Relationships used for PR (?)

Thought about leaving his management which led to a 'one man strike' and a lawsuit.

The lawsuit started off because of finantial reasons, but it was revealed it was more because of fucking creative freedom.

Management tried to reason with him, he didn't back down. And they continued to do so before an article of the 'lawsuit' was made public, he didn't accept any.

Management tried to paint Valentino as 'ungrateful' and that they were the reason he was a star.

When other people tried to get Valentino to work with/for them, his management stopped him by "threatening to extend the contract" (?) which prevented him from acting.

His sexuality was never really questioned due to the many relationships with woman he had (one which literally was a lesbian)

Lavender Marriages / PR marriages

After his death, speculation that he dated many men came up.

One even said they did the dEEd, but its impossible because they were both in separate countries duh, right? RIGhT????

The way we can literally compare this with Harry's situation (and maybe Louis' aswell!!!) is literally hurting my mind.

Also adding that @eyupdaisy is helping me a lot, kuddos to her aswell. She found this:

If you search the actual name of the post 'We will meet at the end of the trail' on google, this picture comes up

Which the HT account made a very lovely and subtle connection to it a few days ago

Guess well have to start lowkey monitoring them too? Or maybe just what they interact with the Mr.R acc...

wait- max images reached ;-;

[lgbtpolitics]

Do you think comparing two different types of oppression is bad? Not like ranking them but explaining say homophobia to a straight woman by relating it to her experiences of sexism. I just see a lot of people saying its bad but I don't get why.

I don't personally think its inherently bad, it just depends how you go about it. I think primarily people understand each other by trying to relate their experiences. I certainly don't think thats a bad instinct. As you said it can help people see what is happening with a different group if they can see what is happening to their own group. It can also work the other way (probably less common) I know this guy who, when I met him was convinced that racism just wasnt a big deal (he was a person of colour) he just thought it only existed in tiny fringe groups and just had no baring on life. But, as he got to know me, and we studied physics so theres a fair amount of sexism, and he could see the differences in how people treated me vs him and the other guys in ways which were not overtly like "I hate women", and me and him talked about these things a lot, and that kind of helped him understand how he had experienced racism in more subtle ways, and how it does impact on peoples lives, including his that he hadn't necessarily picked up on because its always been a part of his life. So yeah, systems of oppression are similar to each other in a lot of ways and I dont think we need some kind of blanket ban on comparing them.

Having said that, I think there are two things we should be careful with. The first is assuming different systems of oppression always work the same, and the same rules should always apply. You see a lot of people saying like "If you wouldnt say it about x group dont say it about y group" which is like... yeah I get where you're coming from but its not necessarily always right. An example of which is I saw the other day someone asking why it is acceptable for black men to talk specifically about racism from white women, but if a white woman talked about sexism specifically from black men that would be racist. And it make me pause, and actually although the tone of the question seemed in bad faith, i dont think asking yourself and others these questions is a bad thing really. But the answer to that is that sexism and racism aren't the same. White women and white men do, generally speaking, express racism in different ways, so it merits talking about. Whereas black men, to my knowledge, do not express sexism in distinctly different ways to white men. So theres really no reason to aim criticisms of sexism at black men in general, other than a racially motivated sentiment. And I think its important that we keep in mind that there are differences, and you cant always just apply the same rules.

The second thing I think we should be mindful of is moving from comparing oppression, to leveraging oppression. So like, you should support equality for people with no strings attached. If they themselves are problematic, centre the actual problem in criticisms of them. This is similar to what I was saying about that daft comic: its not aimed at promoting empathy for other causes by explaining a connection with homophobia, its making out that the root problem is the caring about gay rights in itself. Its saying dont care about being accepted for being lgbt until every other issue is solved.

I think this stems from (and Im about to go on a tangent not directly related to the question so feel free to skip this but), this sentiment of like "We should care more about people who are more oppressed and start from there" and whilst that's a nice sentiment and all, practically it ignores several issues. A) Its basically impossible to determine who is the "most oppressed", in some scenarios there is clearly someone who experiences more oppression but its not some kind of tangible line, like yes working class single mothers are more oppressed than middle class gay couples but, there are also gay working class single mothers, so this kind of "class politics should outweigh homophobia" just doesnt really work B) it assumes there is like no correlation between more acceptance for middle class gay people and more acceptance for working class gay people and I hate that idea with a passion. The sentiment that drives this kind of mentality is effectively that some oppression cancels out other oppression like this idea of gay acceptance doesnt help people financially so its irrelevant to working class people. And as a working class gay woman I do actually take offense to this. Would more acceptance of homosexuality have solved my atrocious education at my underfunded school, my shower that hardly worked, my parents always being at work... Well, no, but it would have helped my constant fear of being discovered to be a lesbian. It might have stopped me from obsessively dating boys and developping no understanding of how to tell if I like someone which I still havent really worked out. It might have helped me to have friends that I felt actually knew me. It might have stopped me from becoming weirdly secretive about stuff that doesnt even matter because I'm just accustomed to lying to people in my life. The inference of believing gay acceptance doesnt help working class gay people is effectively saying "Well shes too working class to experience homophobia, maybe when shes richer she'll care about gay rights". And yeah I do think that is reductive and insulting. I believe people have some kind of good intentions but really it leaves me entirely cold.

[finalfantasyxivwritings]

Prompt #3: Lost

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Lost | adjective

1. unable to find one's way; not knowing one's whereabouts. 2. denoting something that has been taken away or cannot be recovered.

Featuring @samilenjawantal

Note: Though you don't need to read it, this is written in the same continuity as this fic with the reader and Samilen!

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It’s hard not to feel turned around within the thick forest of the Black Shroud. It seems that no matter how familiar you feel you are with the various regions and endless blanket of trees and underbrush, you never quite catch the subtle details needed to have an idea of where you are at any given time. 

In short, getting lost is one of your better skills--if anyone could even call it that. Though hardly purposed you do seem to have a knack for finding yourself in confusing places you can barely guide yourself out of, often requiring no shortage of time, sanity or the aid of others to get you out. 

Thank the gods for Samilen.

You’re not quiet sure yet how long the man has lived within Gridania (it’s a detail you haven’t felt comfortable enough yet to breach), but it’s obvious that the Keeper knows it more than enough to navigate the thick forest with hardly the help of a map. 

While there are many times that he seems nearly to forget that you’re accompanying him on his many botany tasks across the Black Shroud, there’s never been an instance where the two you you had been separated, or at least not in a manner that Samilen hadn’t distinctly told you to stay put for some reason or another--he’s proven to be quite the worrier for most things he thinks you can’t handle, though he did caution correctly about not letting you handle what turned out to be a mildly poisonous flower some suns back.

So suffice to say when you finally do find yourself turned around and utterly alone in the narrow space between several old, thick trees, it comes as quite the shock. You had just seen the Miqo’te a few minutes before--the two of you were following a well-traveled path in the eastern region before your botanical quarry required a little straying, and that had been your undong. In a brief moment of curiosity you had taken your eyes off of his back, just for a singular moment, and suddenly he wasn't there anymore.

The natural noises of the forest seem to covered up any directional indication of where he might be. Left alone and growing fearful, all you can do is stand still and let your mind run with worry--did he wander off without you? What happens if he doesn't find you?

A few minutes past with a similar lack of directional awareness and the fearful thoughts only grow more thick with panic. It seeps into your bones and mind like a cold rain. For a moment the thought crosses that perhaps you could turn around and try to find your way back towards the path, since you might be able to reach town from there and merely wait for Samilen to return--

But even the way back is confusing. The Black Shroud is too mazelike for such simple things, too twisted with greenery and half-forgotten paths that cross over one another; you fear getting even more lost if you try to meander your way back, thereby making it all the harder for your partner to find you. So in turn you're left to stand and hope and wait, trying not to think about how all the little details of the peaceful environment start to feel a tad less peaceful and a little more leering.

At least it's not dark yet--thats the only thing you fear more than getting lost within the ephemeral thickets of the Black Shroud; it didn't get it's name for nothing, you figure, as the blanket of nightfall leaves the forest almost impossible to navigate. Perhaps it's why Samilen so often chooses to take you with him on excursions that are best done during the light of the day--not for his own benefit, but simply to make sure you don't lose your way or find yourself in such a precarious situation.

You're able to find a comfortable spot to sit at least. The exposed, flat part of a tree root proves to be such a spot, leaving you to wait and listen to the soft noises of the forest (of which there are plenty). You've been a partner to the Keeper botanist for several weeks, and he had kept well to the promise of paying you for your aid though you sometimes wondered what manner of aid he pays you for--you're hardly trained in the same field and scarcely know any of the plants in the region. Sometimes you play the part of translator for clients who can't understand his handspeak, and that's fairly worthwhile a duty, but other times...

Well, he pays you for your companionship regardless, and he does pay you quite well. Perhaps it's a situation you're never quite ready or allowed to understand; it's not like you particularly loath the man's company either--he's proven to be a wonderful friend and employer both, even if he so often leaves you wondering quite where you fit, as protective of you as he often is in your standing as an immigrant to Eorzea's lands.

There's a sudden snap of a branch. It's loud and sharp, pulling you out of your thoughts as if ice water had been dumped over your head. Breath catches over your lips as you find yourself upon your feet, body tense and mind rolling over thoughts of panic and dread for what attentions you might have accidentally caught from the inner-city thicket of the forest.

Sprites and bugs are the least you need to worry about. Though unfamiliar with the geography of the East Shroud, you are quite understanding of the creatures that prowl within. Hogs and weevils may be of the many that would give chase, but there is also the constant concern of running into a poacher so especially far from the closest large settlement.

In fact, when you pick out the sound of footsteps, that's the first conclusion your mind clutches to. You've heard about the poachers--aggressive felons who try to hunt the protected game of the forest without a single care to the laws that Gridania and the Twin Adders strictly impose. From how Samilen and others have spoken of them, you're certain that one would sooner use you as a hostage than simply leave you be.

You have little more than a small hatchet that Samilen gave you as a weapon, but you weild it as one all the same; the wooden handle is held so tight against your palms that it almost hurts. The footsteps grow closer and more obviously hyuroid; two feet, pushing through the underbrush in what seems to be a hurry. Fast, faster, closer with every thump of your heart against your chest.

The breath goes cold in your chest when the form finally breaks through the underbrush. A Miqo'te, short, with snow-white hair and dark skin and-

"S-Samilen?"

The name falls from your lips with no shortage of relief in the sound. It's little more than a sigh than else, an echo of the emotion that tangles and kills off each worry and inkling of panic that had settled deep in your thoughts just a few minutes before.

Samilen looks how you feel, and that surprises you more than his appearence relieves you--he looks as equally panicked, golden eyes drawing upon you in a heartbeat and his footsteps hurrying close to you.

'I thought I lost you,' he signs with small, slightly quickened motions. 'Are you alright?'

Though it's now there anymore, you're almost certain in catching the faint imprint of what had been worry pinching between his brows. You know it mostly because the emotion is still in his eyes, shining bright with gold and concern in a way you know he can't hide, and likely doesn't realize he's wearing so clearly. Always the earnest man in word, work and emotion.

"I'm okay," you assure him as much as yourself. "Just lost sight of you is all--you know how easy it is for me to get turned around in some part of the forest."

Though the words are more of a cut to your lacking directional awareness and less so to his attention, Samilen looks worried all the same.

'I promise you'll start to get familiar with it,' he signs again, gentler, his hands spending more time on the words and his ears gently flicking almost with all the same emotional queue as his tail behind him. 'Keep closer to me so you don't get lost again, okay?'

It's obviously something that worries him. You've never really stopped to ask why he stresses so much about the risk, almost to the point of excess, but something tells you that it's an issue far deeper than you merely getting lost. Something that might take a while to understand.

There's a lot to Samilen that you're yet to understand anyway.

You agree to his silent request with a nod.

"I promise I will."

He waits a moment. His eyes flick down to your hips, then back up to your eyes again--its the sortoff look when he was pondering on something. After the Keeper lets out a sigh and seems to come to a decision on his thoughts, he finally extends a hand out to you.

To take in yours.

He doesn't need to form the words with his hands for the message to be clear. Though it catches you by surprise, it doesn't stop your hand from reaching for his in kind. Your fingers intertwine and palms press warm against one another.

Samilen's cheeks look a little darker and his eyes softly avert from yours, but it's so quick that it's hard to catch before he's moving into the thicket, but this time with you gently in tow behind him.

Even in the days after, even when you finally learn some parts of the forest, even when you feel comfortable in its gentle maze of trees and foliage, he still likes to hold your hand.

To keep you from getting lost, of course.

No other reason.

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[1facebookporn-blog]

A Non-Existent Position, apparently

Um , 

“G-D”, Sex, & Government are 3 seperate Things on this end.  That is where the Stalemeate, on the Far end of the bible, is ended , or joined (However way you’er goig . .. ) --- So, 

So far as I can fell, or Tell, - THe Occult? - has more or less been under an Incredible amount of stress since its founding in America.  Its unfortunately seen and survuved a number of wars, Daily entanglements with danger, and all of that .  When it was FOUNDED, its, Goals, were more like asn Onion ... but although everyone really Felt that (Thanks to the careful guidance of the Essays) , no one understood itk , no one could Explain it, so, the “Island-ing”, instead of slowing down, became more and more accelerated and rapid, whereas, the, question (which has long been the Fuel), was nearly Entirely expired in the Mental/Emotional association with the Newst, True center for Death/After-Life studies, In the world. 

So - In American, Technically (we , litterally cannot follow anything else, by decree of Higher Math... - For Instance - Try ordering , with your Mouth, jupiter to , Stop, -- or, Earth for that matter, in , a non-figurative sense .  Impossible unless you’re Dead, and thus, not affecting anything , so, if anything Changes, its only q Dream . ... Fast-Forward PSST WW2, - where we Thought it ended (V-Day_, is where is ENDED.  Now, in the ..... Call it , “Hell” --- .... But , we had a Major issue, with the fact, that the “Pool” of Uranium , got too big and stretched to the Sidewalk.  Now, WHEN THAT HAPPENED - THE PLACE WAS A JEWISH INSTITUTION.  --- But Jews don’t do that .  Jews dont Nab, Jews don’t Steal, Jews arent Forgetful, Jews arent Hurtful, Jews are Mean, and most of all, Jews aren’t Stupid . .... For, 1, the very nat--- anyway . 

So -- WW2, in its Blur (WAR always is ,, thtas what makes it Distinctive, and, how it Seems, for a Citizen, that Every-Day, is spent in a state of War .... - Its Exhausting. ) So -- WW2 does its thing, isreal finally happens, Hitler gets his side-story about DNA, and Nuclear-Power, and Nietzsche-Trench (The , 2nd truects cause of ww2, the First was Economy, which , it Always is , by the way . ...) - And all is seemingly Normally lost ---- Except, but for a bare Rumor, that the place is Haunted, plus, that itsw Shit, is sticking out on the Sidewalk, --- But that has happened a Lot of places, at this point, in America, and, no one does anything about it (So thats a big fuck you to the Peanut Gallary. )  Excuses .  So ---- (May I smoke some Cancer-Curing Pot ?) Sooo --- 

Here’s what the deal is with That ---- The, Staus, of Nuclear, i guess asfter the Civil War in the USA, was , Voted to be a Ceiling, as, there Was a clear path, or , MUCH clearer path, of , perhaps, “ ‘Enabling’ The Messiah” (If the Prophecy is True. ...) to, kinda half-childishly, kinda half-deadly, maneuver this Stretch of Ley Lines that reaches Alllll the way from Personal Psychology and Sex (Which, is the Basse. ....) -- to, Religion, which, is , perhaps the LEAST personal thing you can engage in, and yet, people declare it to be the MOST personal thing you can engage in .... Call it “Spirit”, if its doing Good. .....

Now for the Bad :

(Blue X vBaaxter , you Worthless pice of Shit . ) --- There was, A “Narrative” ... that was , say, ‘Running’. ... Now, the Occult, despite its Truly hardest and best Efforts, was Not totally-straight with Logic (Which didn’t exist.) [Logic, at this point, is a Eurpoean-Claimed institution, and, is the Most-Direct FORUM of Communication (Instead of say, Dark-Magic?) from the Clergy to its People.,  It deals with Math, it deals with Clarity ... and that yeilds a Goal, which, Has no... “Internal-Vector” , or, “Decaying Symphony”, or whatever ... Its just , Clear.  

Depending oin the kind of Music you get off on (Metal, for instance ? ) -- anyway --- Not so much important . 

Specifically to The Occult ---  It is as SEPARATE, yet ASSOCIATED, say, “Collective”, of Extremely and Not-Ordinarily TALENTED people, whom, get together, SPECIFICALY, to Study, and Discuss, “Things That Are Not Known”. 

Now, AT THIS POINT --- There is NOT, a “Directly, we are opposite and forever bound-enemies” discussion with teh Catholics (Although we HAD one, called ‘Armageddon INTO The Apocalypse.” .... ) {The Holocause, The SHOAH) -- So .  We didnt.  WE told Hitler, to go Fuck himself, the Hill was in the UNITED STATES, the INSTITUTION was in the United States.  THe , USD, was in the United States ---- EVERYTHING OUTRANKED GERMANY.  Which, after ww1 (When, literally, the German, shalll I say, “Prophet” , “Franz-Ferdinand” was, first off discovered, I guess, ALIVE, in America (Nietzsche,.)  --- -- The Murder of Nietzsche is now lost. ... The - way that it ties up, is, Nietsche takes All his Money (Philosophical-Money) to America {Some say it was Nietzsche’s strong-hand that Stopped the Civil wr ... as, at That point, there was a Reason, to have Fought ... and it was, to , Pull, ALLLLLLL the Philosophical Arguments of the World, into One Place, and Have @)  --- WW2, then, became, Pull ALLLL the RELIGIOUS arguments, Of the World, INTO one Place [Which it did.], and Have @ ----- THAT is why, in a sense, ww2 was Not Resolved.  Why, ww2 continued bleeding and bleeding , asll its Racisim and Blood, Even in the Face of Love of the 60′s, which made a fucking Hurricane-Torando which, essentially Tore the Black-Community (There was no other excuse but Racism.) in Half. ... Then , it Stalled, not Stopped. 

Enter , Me.  I had to, ... according to Some WILD-ASS_Dream , that no one can determine the Orign of, i had to, Connect, the Philosophy, to the Religion, FIRST, in order to RESOLVE , the RELIGION. . .... So--- There was a Treamendous amount of Back & Fourth, LKiterally, Physically, Spiritually --- Yet-- it ALWAYS (With Blue.) got Closer, and Closer , and Closer to its Mark.  Now, In times of War, Strife and Stress Elevates. ... The, RULE, in Subtle-Witchcraft, is, IF YOU CANNOT EXPLAIN IT, YOU CANNOT HOLD ANYONE ELSE TO IT. --- So, the Occult has Sat like an Invisible Ceiling, Atop America, for some time now, snd, Given that its Relatively Untouchable aside from Physicsal Violence, which, Unfortunately at this stage of Religion, is Nothing but Death and Disease, ---- So -- People got angry, ... People got Angrier .... 9-11 happened, came, and went . 

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#(Ive so far taken care of the Sex part #the War part #and the God part --- SEPERATELY ---- How they Mesh #is a matter of Personal-0-Concern #NOT #Public-Policy --- THAT #is the Eneregetic Law #which #at the stage of the game where Words are no longer really Allowed #---- #Well #do your thing .

[8uny]

got a mediocre idea for a horror game while on a 8 hour drive

A first person horror game about road trips that’s practically a parody of Desert Bus. You win by driving to your destination. You lose by dying or not driving to your destination.

You are on a road trip alone travelling an empty interstate highway on the hills of rural America. As night falls, things happen. And they get worse.

Controls are arrow keys/wasd for moving your car, with an FPS like crosshair for point and click interactions with your mouse.

You are pretty much stuck in driver-seat view, but can move your crosshair to turn your head and control acceleration and steering of your car.

You can interact with anything you can normally interact with when you are in a car (excluding things that involve driving). Honk the horn, turn on the radio, adjust the mirror, open a cup holder, roll down a window, open the glove compartment. You can’t interact with things that would obviously be impossible, like turning the side view mirrors when the windows are closed or buckling the seatbelt of the seat behind you.

The radio specifically has three channels for simplicity sake. AM button is a radio host droning on repeat about vague news and traffic patterns. FM button is static. CD button is royalty free smooth jazz loop.

The path you are driving is pretty much linear and constructed in a way to prevent going off the road, but it does not force you to go forward and if you don’t pay attention you can crash into a cliffside. The driving part isn’t meant to be a challenge, it’s just your “task” and the things that happen will try and prevent you from completing your “task.”. If you decide to suddenly stop or crash in some way things happen.

Things that can happen

Things are assigned intensity and action values.

For example, switching the radio station is an action, and can trigger any thing to happen that has an action value of radio. Things can have more then one action value.

Intensity is a number from 1-10 and can encompass a range. A value can be “7″, can be “1-3″, but cant be “2 and 9″. 

Certain actions will generally trigger more intense things to happen. In addition, as night goes on, higher intensity values are favored.

Things can be permanent or temporary

Examples of Things (not exhaustive at all id write more but its awfully long)

You drive by billboard with an ominous message (1-2 intensity, action value is any)

The radio host starts talking about different ways to hide bodies in the same droning voice (4-5 intensity, action value of switching to AM radio or any action while AM radio is on.)

A jump scare of almost hitting a deer (8-10 intensity. Only triggers when radio is off, action value of accelerating the car)

You see a glowing eyes in the rearview mirror and if you move to turn and look, it’s just car headlights. The car quickly passes you a dissapears. (2-4 intensity action value of adjusting mirror)

An exit ramp appears that if you drive on it, leads you pass rotting roadkill and ends up connecting back onto the interstate you were previously. If this triggers a second time, the roadkill is gone but can be seen following you through the mirror and turning around to look behind. If you stop or crash it stops as well. (intensity 6, action value of constant steering for 45 seconds)

A hitchhiker appears with no face. If you stop in front of him  and open your window he will get in and sit in the back for the rest of the game. If you run him over he dies. (Intensity 4, all action values)

You see the hitchhiker cruxified on a billboard or a lamppost. (Intensity 7, action value of running over the hitchhiker, but delays about 2 and a half minutes)

Your car starts screaming (Intensity 9. Action value of honking the horn. This lasts until you manage to crash or break your wheel somehow.

A horrible, spiderlike humanoid creature has appeared on your windshield and tries to claw at you through it. If you stop suddenly after a certain speed it will fly off, or you can ram your hood into a wall or lamppost. Otherwise you die. (Intensity 10, action value of turning your head to look at your windshield after looking behind/out your window)

Crows appear around the area. (Intensity 1-2, action value of interacting with your window)

Gurgling flesh sounds come out of your glove compartment which is filled with tiny naked men (Action value of opening your glove compartment)

You hear loud police sirens. (Intensity 5-7 Action value of driving off road or backwards, taking off your seatbelt, or going >1.5 times the speed limit. It goes away when you fix the issue, but if you do not fix it, nothing else happens)

Road signs are written in an alien language (Intensity 3-4)

A bird poops on your windsheild. (Intensity 1. Can be removed by wiping)

A rock lands on your windshield and cracks (Intensity 6. Cracking is permanent.)

A large carapaced insect catapults on your windsheild and starts burrowing through it. You can use your wiper to remove it but it will leave a permanent hole. If you do no remove it it starts burrowing into you and you die. (Intensity 9-10)

You think you see a rest stop in the distance but its just normal distance away and really small.

A white van with muffled screaming inside and blood dripping out of the trunk drives past.

A list of creatures both normal and abnormal appear behind you and can be seen through mirrors and/or looking behind you that vary in appearance and intensity

An exit that leaves to a “womb level” town. The map is designed in a way so you can only travel down one street and when you exit the town you return to the highway. Crashing into anything causes little destruction, but the fleshy parts of the town bruise. Staying in it for too long causes the car to slowly become more fleshy.

Things that definately must be

Sound is very important, as it tends to be in the horror genre. It’s more important to have very good and scary sounding things then lots of poorly executed things.

Subtle cues and sound based motifs can be used for reoccuring creatures or events or as a way for the player to associate a cue with intensity, to warn them of danger.

Many things that can happen can be purely sound based (see: radio and car horn)

Interactivity with the environment

Anything that makes sense for someone in a car to be able to do should be able to happen. Any way to interact with a thing that is possible should be able to have a specific senario. It shouldn’t be too hard. You’re just in a car. You can even get out of the car, but thats an auto lose and you will insta die someway, gruesomer depending on the time of night.

Smooth transition

Things that happen should be able to connect with the action value that triggered it, but not in a jarring obvious way. Smooth animations is key.

Things im up in the air about

Game can be endless or can be a set limit of time (8 hours to emulate Desert Bus or a more realistic 15 minutes)

If game ends, destination has equal chance of being normal and being something absolutely horrifying.

Road can be proceduraly generated or predetermined.

It’ll be easier to add environment altering events if generated tbh but also i am lazy

Driver can be voiced as a way to interact with environment, be a method of story telling, provide context for intensity level, or facilitate a thing or be an action but might take away from being a self insert horror game rather then a protag’s story.

Replay value. The more possibilities and the shorter runtime, the higher replay value. Since there are different ways to deal with things happening, it does automatically have some value, but if there isnt enough features and the game runs too long and repetitive, it won’t be worth playing again just to see what else happens. Different voiced reactions can also increase value.

Plot. is there a story or a reason for the road trip? or is it just a roadtrip simulator But Scary?

American road trips have a certain aesthetic that i want to capture and would make a cool game. Like that Hell is Real sign in Ohio. and that rest stops are liminal spaces. and the bond you have with the only other car in an empty highway. and the ugly green of road signs. and the sheer amount of cows.

#8uny rants #game design