#the mind's power over the body

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#i walked into a situation today where my mom was effectively already dead. effectively bc her body was and is still alive. still breathing #painful groaning purrs. but her mind was gone yesterday. my dad said he showed her a picture of the mountains i took that day and told her #i loved her and she smiled. thats what he said. maybe he was just being nice. or maybe thats the last time she thought of me. i dunno. but #the human body is an incredible thing. shes got a heart still powering a broken body. too full of tumors to function anymore. stomach #streched like a pregnant mother. it happed really fast and now its happening very slow #im somehow probably better off than the rest of them. i only got here for the aftermath of a downslide. my daily life will b least effected #i only really saw her twice a year living so far away and she didnt text much. didnt call often. so life wont change much ill just kno shes #not there. which is sad. but theres nothing to b done abt it. life goes on. it hasnt been all bad tho. its nice to talk to my family abt her #how incredible she was. bc she was. wish her mom wasnt here tho. she doesn't deserve to b here. my mom wouldnt want her here. she didnt want #her here. but anyway. i wish her body would just let her go now. so we can sleep. so this can be over. so she can rest #but even like this shes stubborn and resilient. they say it could go on for days but i hope not. may the universe let her rest shes gotta b #so tired after 10 years of this. but i have no regrets. she knew how i felt abt her. and i dont think she had regrets either. she did so #much up to the very end. went out on a high note without the burdon of knowing it was coming #i dunno. its just such a strange experience to watch the empty shell of your mother sleeping like a gurgling baby #unrelated

[wereh0gz]

No but like actually. I'm still thinking abt that new form sonic takes on at the very end of final horizon. Calling it cyber sonic but idk if that's the official name if it even has one

I'm still thinking abt it. Like when sonic is flying up to the end and going in for the kill he flies in a very sporadic pattern. Like he zips in a couple different directions at first before going straight for the end

And when we get a closeup he's lunging at it with his teeth bared like an animal. His teeth are noticeably sharper than in normal form too

It's so. Interesting. Like he's there for only a short period of time and yet there's quite a bit of personality there. I can't stop thinking abt it

#ramblings #sonic frontiers spoilers #making inferences on what his personality would be like in that form based on what little we see of him #rotating him in my mind #i think in a scenario where he'd be allowed to be in that form for longer he'd be feral #there is so much going on in his mind at all times and too much energy in his body #he's just zipping around everywhere causing mass destruction unintentionally #bc he just cannot control it. it's like his body will explode if he doesn't keep moving #it hurts. bad. but he can't communicate that. or much of anything really. he's too overwhelmed with power #he just growls and screams #and when it's finally over he just. crashes. passes out cold #kinda like how he passed out right after defeating the end. tho the longer he's in that form the longer and harder he crashes #that's the image i have in my head anyway #idk if anyone else has thought abt it this much lmao

[craycraybluejay]

people think i'm "rude" for being too blunt/too honest but if i took some kind of uncontrollable truth-telling serum i would be actually suicide-inducingly horrible to be around. i'm honest but trust that i take care to be much more polite, fair, and controlled at most times than I want to. you could not take 5 minutes of me blurting out everything that goes on in my brain in gruesome detail, especially pertaining to You specifically. kindness and courtesy are neither a weakness nor proof of some inherent purity. they are a bore of a chore. and while it is an incredibly irritating chore it is required in order to exist (less) hassled by society.

idk. it's truly annoying to spend much effort and energy on all of everything alone. and after accepting no help will come your way, no ackmowledgement or reward for your work comes either. and not only. instead comes punishment. punishment for the grave sin of not being good enough at pretending like i love small talk and not being good enough at kissing ass and not being good enough at neither keeping my head down and doing nothing nor making waves. not being good enough no matter which way you turn, what weight you pull, how much pain you opt to ignore in favour of pushing onward. there is no prize, no safe space, there is only the anger in the meaningless and base fight to survive. hatred, death, despair, the deep wells of agony. and within it all a part of you screams itself hoarse and then quiet to break the dam. at such high capacity, it doesnt matter of its toxic sludge or just water. "just water" kills everything in its path. tsunamis, typhoons, tropical storms, rainstorms, deadly hail... a little bit builds up and in the right place it can be cried out, or redirected, or simply evaporate in the warm, kind, invigorating rays of the sun. but what then if there is no place for that kind of thing. you are the river above a city and you grow and you grow and come the next storm you may just flatten it all to nothing with everyone inside. the dam allows no space to move or grow smaller. you grow so big you don't know if it's even a river anymore. what you are is some strange unnatural body with a riptide so intense it rivals the wildest ocean tides.

i remember the time i almost got swallowed by a storm riptide clearly. it took just a touch of the water and i am being pulled by a force stronger than anything i have felt before or again, something wild and so much bigger. a storm that no longer wants or has any purpose or even one clear cause... without reason, it doesn't *want* to destroy ships and tug people to their crushed deaths. no. it just-- will. it will do that. it has no will but it will kill you. it will destroy everything. what a beautiful terror. but why in me. tugging tugging tugging. sometimes i wish my weak little kid body got seized by the riptide and that i could not break free at all. that would be an epic death.

#rambles #someone promised me a visit to a rage room!!!! they must deliver!!!!!! #i must admit i do look down on the one that rages like a traumatized little bitch-- dog #at every little thing #the one who-- in the real world-- is too angry and stupid even to shut its mouth when it kills itself #here i am with all this anger you put inside me and its enough to genuinely want to wipe our planet dead #and here i am calmly listening to you air your pathetic grievances while i think of smashing your skull in with this hammer #and you. you... like a little baby given power. #and here i fucking am taking it and trying so hard to maintain. as if it wouldnt be such a relief to just let go #as if i havent envied you for your senseless retarded pursuit of being so unapologetically terrible to people #as if i wouldnt do anything to trade our minds and places and be the stupid eternal toddler #people think the things i occasionally say or do are anger. it is not #how many switches will you flip and buttons will you push until you choose the wrongest one yet #how much longer must i withstand this pressure with my hands under me and my teeth pressed firmly together #how many more times do i have to stop in the middle of acting on instinct. instinct to survive and fight #instinct that will destroy indiscriminately. #if its like this for long enough... do you think water can become fire? youve heard of hell freezing over but have you heard of earth #becoming hell? #again i cant sleep. the energy is suffocating. i need to be held tightly and to tussle till my body gives out #no i need to feel bones crack under me.

[jaijaitbinks]

Another AU idea:

Genos and Saitama never meet before joining the Hero Association. Genos joined shortly after it had started—he was sought out by the H.A. and, realizing he could use the benefits they provided to find the Mad Cyborg as well as fighting for justice in general, he agreed. Saitama joins after about 2 ½ because he happened to hear other heroes talking about the H.A., asked about it, and decided to join. Why he joined?

It's because he's a massive Demon Cyborg fan.

Ever since he found out who he was, he though he was the coolest hero ever. Sure, the guy was younger than him, but goddamn, he was badass as fuck! With his Machine Gun Blows and his Incineration Cannons- he was just so amazing. And he inspires Saitama. There's not much content of him out there, the guy isn't on social media much (he only posts things once every few weeks, if that), he doesn't do photoshoots or signings or interviews. He's just a hero wanting to be a hero. And fuck, does that speak to Saitama’s soul.

So Saitama joins. He does his heroing things. Incidents like the Deep Sea King encounter and the Meteor incident happen, but Saitama and Genos aren't together for it. So rumors spread like wildfire, and because Genos isn't there to dispute any of it... he believes it when he hears them. And he hates Caped Baldy for it.

Faking heroic deeds, stealing credit, causing hundreds of millions of yen in damages? Just who the hell let him join the Hero Association?

When they meet for the first time, it's due to a battle with Mosquito Girl. Genos was fighting her, got his ass kicked, Saitama saw, defeated her, the whole shebang. Saitama saw his favorite hero of all time about to die and saved him, so he's reeling, even if he doesn't show it. (His emotions are dulled, and even more so because of the non-stop hate he's been given for the last few months and having no emotional support).

But Genos? His disdain for Saitama is fucking with his head. Cuz how did he do that? And why was Caped Baldy here to begin with? Was he trying to steal credit again? But he just saved his life. What's going on? What just happened? Did he weaken the monster girl and he stepped in for the final blow or was Caped Baldy really strong?

Eventually his hate wins out and he snaps at Saitama. Tells him his "plan" to steal credit for popularity and rank-climbing won't work, how it's disgusting that he does that. He tells him that saving him won't win him favors or respect from anyone.

And as he goes on and on, Saitama's wide and glittery eyes go dull and flat. Genos almost stops talking when he notices, but he's beaten to that when Saitama suddenly asks if he's okay again. When Genos says yes, the bald man turns and walks away. Genos feels a small pang of guilt for a reason he can't place, but he shakes it off and waits to get taken to Kuseno's lab for repairs. He thinks about the interaction (if it could even be called that) the entire way there and throughout the entire repair.

#the rest of the story is just Genos crossing paths with Saitama over and over #and while Saitama tries to come to terms with the fact the hero he admires hates him #Genos is observing him and gradually learning over time that not only is he misunderstood #but that Saitama truly is powerful #in body and mind #especially with his ability to keep fight and pushing despite being despised by almost the entire world #and slowly Genos grows to admire him too #opm #one punch man #saitama #genos #saigenos #genosai #opm au #one punch man au #au

[gn4wz-0n-b0n3z]

i thuink i migh t be a bub fictokin

#BOY GET OUT!!!!!!! GO BACK TO LETTING PIGGY STEP ALL OVER YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #also im still confused on Extravagant (the rainwing. i named him finally) why is he gone. when and how did i lose my connection with him #idk how to describe my experience as otherkin myself but instead of the characters being dead or smth like that and In My Mind/Body #it feels like theyre still alive but just get more connected to me in passing #as if its like we're from diff universes?? so i think Extravagant somehow lost his ability to get more connected 2 my body #like lost the Thing or actually DIED or smth. which is probably likely w/ how long dragons typically live frm what ik so. rip Extravagant. #matthew.txt #its like?? its weird saying this but its like a flesh mecha i fucking guess. boy use that weird item or power to get connected. #so when the character like dies or smth they just. leave forever. no return. #am i allowed to make up lore/theories for how i think my kintypes get connected to me in the first place

[soldier-poet-king]

Spent so long trying to separate my brain from the vague and undefined essence of My Being to survive the Mental Illness that I basically re-enacted Gnosticism 2.0 and not to be like, that's why my OCD emerged later than my more common flavoured generalized anxiety& chronic depression Brainrot, but it definitely Did Not Help. And now that I am (sometimes) at peace with my mind and given that I am no longer spending every waking moment trying to stay alive I have time to reflect on the lasting body-mind-soul division that I've created for myself and like. It fuckin sucks. I hate the body. I hate that I hate the body and being an incarnate creature. But also. It's so bad wrong awful. And tbh I still hate the mind a lot many days too!

#anyway bryn ur post is SO right and u are as always. correct #i just didnt wanna hijack it w rambles #but yeah.theee mental illness has done a number on me in many ways #but yeah the uh. body. we hate to see it. hate to have it. #smtn smthn tmg hebrews 11.40 i will get my perfect body back someday #if not by faith then by the sword im going to be restored. vibe. of it qll #also in the sparrow 2 emiliom talks abt this. and why he cant just get over what happened to him physically #because it was also a repeated assault of his soul #like yeah theres a lot of dynamics there re. divine abandonment and assault. but hes basically right #viz. my own hm horrible terrible no good very bad existence #sometimes i am terrified of eternity not for the usual reasons (im always terrified for those reasons its the ocd and existentialism) #but also for the like. physical resurrection??? in my religion??? fuck no. i DONT want that #i have to be stuck in this stupid ass form forever? #i cant even *** to get out of it ITS FOREVER #i want. to be a genderless shapeless benevolent void. maybe i can take on physical form when i want need #like the angels. i dont want THIS #anyway yeah yeah I'm trying but it just keeps getting harder #nothing fits right or looks right and im at the mercy of genetics giving me a body i dont want #and I cant even just sweat it out in agony bc oh boy look! youve now developed chronic joint pain TOO #if i cant look like i do in my mind i might as well be strong and powerful #but oh no. bitch is gonna get SO many physical ailments too #I DON'T WANNA DIE BUT I DONT WANNA LIVE LIKE THIS #franposting #brought to u by. button up shirt didnt sit right today. hips too thick for anything. have a whole extra goddam organ in my stomach #which i hate and do not want or need #etc etc etc

[drawnecromancy]

i accidentally ended up with another catboy yesterday.

#technically a reskin of a catboy from 2019. #'what if nyatsumi but superhero instead of cyberpunk' #who is nyatsumi you ask. it's a weird little freak who will claw your face off and i love it a lot #the superhero's name is Hige #i should run it by my partner but if i'm goog enough at using dictionaries it means Whiskers. #not his real name of course thats his super-thing name (they do not align with heroes nor villains they r a secret third thing) #they r different ppl a little bit and they have different powers #Nyatsumi CAN see in the dark like a cat. and has actual claws and a cat tail and ears. 'how' cyberpunk body modifications. #it's a mischievous little guy #Hige's powers are teleporting around and reading minds and they hate that second one. #they will come to your house #knock over all ur glasses #and then vanish #they have a stronger moral sense than Nyatsumi but i think the two would get along honestly

[zincbot]

earthbending is just... the best

#look ever since my earliest baby days of fandom. renting ninjago dvd from the library. #earth has been the coolest element to have control over (to me) #it just feels so primal and connected to the body in such a powerful sick way #and when i watched atla as a kid obviously i wanted to be an earthbender so so bad #the scene where toph invents metalbending by grabbing and PULLING the cage open and it warps under her fingers #that's the physicality in an elemental control power that i crave #so bolin being my favourite character in lok was a given but i love watching him bend so much esp cause his style is pretty unique #for an earthbender #he's very light on his feet and not nearly as grounded but WHEN HE BENDS LAVA OUGH that's physical as hell #especially the scene where he first learns he can do it it's one of my favourite scenes in korra #ANYWAY. shoutout to the geokinesis guide i secretly printed out as a kid cause i thought i could learn to move rocks with my mind #if i really applied myself-

[yeonban]

i'M VIBRATING ON MY SEAT. This is EXACTLY the topic of a meta I wanted to write about on how Soma's upbringing severely affected how dear the Date became to him after his family's deaths and sudden reign to power

#muse: date soma. #There's so much here. His upbringing as a military man above a person. Him being SPECIAL and revered as such. #Him having lost all the members of his family in one fell swoop during the war. Him having SEEN his brother's disfigured body. #Him having been thrust into THE position of power while having no guidance on how to make sure his clan will survive the famine #And also a twist I liked: him having to betray Tatsuomi SPECIFICALLY in order to take care of the Date & keep his own people alive #at a time when band competitiveness and incredibly scarce resources were at an all time high #I can't get Soma's pained face out of my mind. LOOK AT HIM WHEN HE SAYS HE'LL KILL EVEN TATSUOMI IF IT'LL SAVE THE DATE #And also the thing is? The end goal of everything the 4 primary bands do is to crown an emperor. They ARE all in competition for that #so whether they want to or not; if they want to maintain the tradition (which I already mentioned is insanely important to Soma) #they'd eventually have to kiII each other or merge their clans for there to be one leader over all bands anyway.

[quietwingsinthesky]

I just think Sam should have missed Lucifer more post-s5. Cage torture an optional addition to the dynamic. What I needed was for Sam to be like 120% more obsessed over the fact that he was never going to be Lucifer’s vessel again and to be angry with himself that he could ever miss that and be unable to stop himself from still wanting it.

#in my mind this is simultaneously soulmates (derogatory) and soulmates (affectionate) #post-possession lucifer should have left a hole in Sam #and unlike dean. who feels empty and tries to fill it up knowing it won’t be enough. Sam should have sat with that emptiness #made it an integral part of his being. martyred himself over it. #he will never be whole again but wholeness was a sin he can’t be redeemed for #(he still wants it. he still wants to feel that again. power or completeness or just not being alone in his body anymore. #he should miss lucifer!!! #repo man my beloved Sam should Want! to talk! to any version of lucifer he can get!!! #until it finally sinks in that if it isn’t the real thing it will never fix that yawning chasm in him.) #anyway. thoughts for the day #lucifer should be the same way btw he should be just as obsessed with Sam as he was in s5 #worse actually. way worse. #he got shoved back into hell AND Sam got taken from him #lucifer should be sick with the need to get to Sam again and Keep Him. #(like physically. they should both be varyingly unwell when separated and only get better when in each other’s radius. which makes it WORSE #but also just. generally there is a horrible desire to be one again that existed in s5 #but post actually sharing a body is so much stronger. #and Sam will resist it as much as he can because he is Sam and has Guilt #but Lucifer would not!) #guess I’ll add the actually important tags now instead of rambling #let’s see #spn #supernatural #samifer #Lucifer/Sam #because I am Me. all Lucifer & Sam things I write should be viewed thru the lens of I think this is gay. #Sam winchester #Lucifer spn

[feanorianethicsdepartment]

Yea! Fae elves are the best. Elves that look vaguely human shaped but could never be mistaken for humans, elves who are uncanny in their voices, in their movements, who can move on all fours and mimic bird cries perfectly…

-@outofangband

elves never quite look right standing up straight. their fingers and toes are long and prehensile, designed to pick through dense dark forests rather than run across the plains, and their bodies twist and curve to a degree almost impossible in humans. their speaking voices will occasionally hit notes just outside of human hearing, they can go completely still and silent in a fraction of a second, and they're never entirely comfortable out in broad daylight, no sheltering trees between them and the sun

if you look at them from the right angle, they move a lot like orcs

(@outofangband)

#ask #outofangband #elves #orcs #my terrible headcanons #still beating the ol' 'elves and orcs are a lot more like each other than either side would care to admit' drum #to be clear this is more 'the orcs are still elves' than 'elves are just orcs' #orcs move like disabled humans not because disability is a mark of the marring #it's because their bodies just don't move like human ones #and elves move in a very similar way for the same reason #also NOCTURNAL ELVES NOCTURNAL ELVES NOCTURNAL ELVES FOREVER #elvish societies sleep during the day and are active at night change my mind #calaquendi are basically the only elves you'll see going out in the sun without parasols or sunglasses or whatever #it's a tree-radiation-supersoldier thing #even so their vision is... a little substandard #constant sunlight exposure when the sensible thing to do is to wrap a dark cloth over your eyes and navigate by hearing will do that #... though their ridiculous healing powers do compensate for that a little. fuckin' valar

[paradisecas]

yes im still thinking about the script. it’s already kinda bonkers that both of them—namely adam—are fine with the visible power dynamic of one of them not being handcuffed while the other is; adam’s been betrayed enough that if they didn’t trust each other to the extent that they do, he should be wary of michael having this power of him. but the script shows that michael’s okay with it too, that even in his lowest moment he’s not worried about his vessel having a freedom he doesn’t. i wish they kept the second part in because while it’s already perfectly clear how much they care for each other, this demonstrates just how much they do, just how much they truly and wholly trust each other.

#even if the freedom or power is just being able to move freely. it says a lot! #GOD it drives me insane #everyone is soo afraid of michael #but adams sitting their handcuffed and ARGUING with him not even a little scared #*there ugh #and then michael. i know he has other things on his mind. but he’s fine with adam having power over him RIGHT after his whole worldview is #shattered. #AND adam is Pushing him to make a CHOICE #the power adam has over him in that moment is sm more than symbolic. he’s not just uncuffed. he knows and he understands and he tells #michael in one word. you have to do something. what’s it gonna be? #but also if i think too hard about michael making a projection in the first place i go even more bananas #because. shouldnt adam be the projection? let michael have the body? #but nope!!!! michael who EVERYONE IS SCARED OF is perfectly fine pulling himself away from control just so his vessel/husband can eat #or Be. or talk to his brothers. #i need to lay down #mine #midam

[olessan]

I love the fact that I can work as hard as I can manage with a broken tooth and a dying tooth (one on each side, I've been chewing on the cavity for a year) and I still cannot save even $10 towards getting dental treatment (2 impacted wisdom teeth, + tooth broken off under the gum, + bad cavity) because I barely make enough to cover my food and board and the insane energy bill

#I'm just ranting don't mind me it's fine I am continuing to exist as usual I may delete this later bc it's a bit of a bummer to read #I prefer to keep my blogging to fun or otherwise nonserious content because it's supposed to be for decompression no real world drama here #I got into a 3 hour body language study and earned $50 so I spent that as fun money on a couple games during the Steam sale just to #take a break from the constant cycle of getting paid and then immediately saying goodbye to all but about 15 cents #(well it was 1 game Slime Rancher 2 and then 2 expansion packs one for Planet Zoo and another for Cities Skylines long play hours mileage) #I've tried to budget to buy small things like a fan or a toothbrush maybe (mine is 8yrs old and doesn't charge sometimes) but NOPE #let alone stashing away over $2000 for the amount of treatment I need given tooth extractions are $200-$500 each #I use about $50 of groceries a week ($30 USD) sometimes up to $80 if I need to buy some extra toiletries or bonuses like ham/falafel/bread #our last quarterly power bill was $1900 FOR NO REASON even for a winter one #olessan oration #the work I have is HIT/mturk type work which pays amazingly well and I am so grateful because I can't work in a traditional environment due #my inability to sleep/wake on anyone else's schedule and need for engaging work but it also means each worker is basically a contract worke #picking their own hours which is VERY HARD to stick to for me since I may also have ADHD-i but that diagnosis also costs like $2000 in Aus #so I'm doing my best fucking lmao #I have a set minimum hours I want to keep up to and move to full time but I am so exhausted by the constant background noise of #the tooth problems that I burn out very quickly #like the tooth ache isn't that bad #the tooth is actively dying but the pain isn't unbearable it just shits me off at all times #it's bearable most of the time and doesn't affect my sleep unless the temp is cold or something #it's been bad this week tho so I've gone through almost all my ibuprofen managing it #the tooth that broke off broke off earlier in the year and the gum has mostly healed over and the dead root is concealed inside my gums now #that stopped being painful in mid 2021 but when it died it was pretty bad it did stop me sleeping for a couple weeks #Christmas 2021 involved me contemplating ripping the tooth out myself lmao #the nerve eventually died seemingly without an abscess #unless I DID have an abscess but that seems extremely unlikely because abscesses are SEVERE AND HORRIBLE AND LIFE THREATENING #sometimes I can feel the tooth ligament wiggling on its own or I like flex it by accident it's so weird bc the tooth is gone so #the ligament is still holding onto the root but with way less weight #anyway I am eating my mac n cheese n veg with the side that has the missing tooth because the cavity tooth has a big bruise along the gumli #gumline which may be from overzealous brushing (I fill the tooth will temporarily filling putty and it needs to be cleaned well when the #putty falls out)

[quaranmine]

actually really grateful that i'm writing the climax of firewatch au during nano month. the climax + ending of any fic is typically the most difficult and i'd normally spend a lot of time worrying about how to do xyz to the point where i'm hung up on scenes for ages. but i'm powered by enough spite and determination to succeed in my self-set challenges that it might power me through writing it anyway

#i get a certain kind of....single minded determination about these challenges for ???? reasons #like how i nearly killed myself successfully completing inktober two years in a row in high school #or been doing this challenge for nine months now? #idk you stick nano in front of me and say 'write every day' i'm gonna be like okay bet over my dead body will i not write every day #so this might power me through the difficult parts of a conclusion xD

[neverendingford]

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#tag talk #as much as I hate to see the social cinema grow as I get new followers. we're at a good and satisfying number. and I like that #also also also. I've introduced a friend to Hannibal (tv show) and he's loving it and I'm so happy cause none of #of my other friends have been able to stomach the body horror. so it's super cool to find someone to hype over it with #another random story that I genuinely can't remember if I said already. got told by a kid in minecraft that he's smiled a lot more around me #which. huge compliment. genuine honor to make people happy and smile and laugh #people don't laugh enough. we don't smile enough. be happy or die. and I'm too powerful to die. been there. haven't done that #cry and then laugh and then punch as hard as you can. #got to visit some of my favorite residents from the nursing home I first worked at. lotta new staff but my three favorite nurses are still #which is nice. I cried when I left that job because even though it crushed my soul I loved my coworkers and most of my residents. #I get why some healthcare workers grind themselves to the bone for the job. you're making such a huge difference in people's lives. #I tried but didn't have the fortitude for it. but it's nice to be able to go back and say hi to the friends I made and see how things are. #anyway. sorry for being weird like.. one or two weeks ago. I think things are settling out again. moving is rough but we're making it work #It's been a lot of Lear again lately. especially while being at my parents house. he doesn't mind being deadnamed as much sooo.... #idk. at least one of us is capable of surviving the dmv and the state medicaid website. heaven knows I can't manage. #trying to stop using him as a crutch for getting things done has just resulted in us not being able to get things done. #but I don't want to be someone else I want to be me. I don't want to be the armor I want to be the human inside. #I don't want to live defensively. pushing everyone away. I can't do that. #anyway. we're back home! and work is on the horizon. hopefully this job works out cause I don't want to have to apply for new jobs. #the hr rep is a man at this store and I immediately got set on edge and our voice dropped as I stepped back. #then we introduced ourselves with the wrong name and he got confused and I just felt stupid about it #but how am I supposed to know which name he's been told. he didn't even use our paperwork name. Anyway that was a disaster #but we're on track and embarrassment is not a setback but a feeling about the way things progress. and it is progress we're making

[roseworth]

wait that post about deathstroke is so hilarious isnt he supposed to be better than bruce 💀

fsjhfasdjfhad yeah lmaoooo dc loves to act like deathstroke is a god amongst men and the greatest fighter ever but. i mean he regularly gets his ass kicked by a team that has TEEN in the name. im tired of dc acting like hes so cool and dangerous. he is just some guy

#disclaimer i only read deathstroke for rose so i havent read all his stuff #but. every time i read stuff with him in it he is getting his ass handed to him #a couple days ago i read an issue where jason got hired to beat him up #and he did it with like no difficulty and the only reason he didnt kill him is because the person that hired him told him not to #side note but jasons appearance in that was so fucking funny #bc he shows up and beats slade into the ground for a bit #then slades friend hits jason with a rocket launcher #then the cops come while hes is unconscious #and instead of leaving jason there slade just. carries him to a helicopter #and his body just kinda lays there #then jason regains consciousness #and goes 'huh slade didnt leave me for the cops' so he starts fighting with slade ??? #and the villain (that hired jason) was like '??? red hood youre supposed to be on MY side' #and jason goes 'contracts over 😜 i changed my mind' #THEN the villain uses mind control powers and makes jason think batman is coming to kill joker #so jason leaves and does not show up again #its literally so funny. i have no idea why they even bothered having jason be there at all