#the hardest part was leaving

[pastafossa]

Pet loss below the cut.

Cato was my cat. That's the long and short of it.

From the first night I had him when he curled up against my neck to fall asleep with me, to his final night when he curled up on my chest to try and comfort me, there is not a single day I've been home that I haven't had my kitten chow with me. He was my tiny shadow, always trotting along after me or singing at me from around the house with that long Siamese wail or bringing me scores of socks he hid god knows where (although once he brought me an entire umbrella instead, which he was understandably proud of). He was by my pillow every night cuddled up against my arm, and we fit together like two puzzle pieces, like that little crook in my arm was designed for him, for his exact shape and size. He was with me through my health issues, through high school and college, through moving states, through covid, through tears, through the loss of other pets. He was there as I really learned to write, and there is not a single chapter of TRT that was written without his presence for at least a section of it even if it meant I had to stop editing or writing for a bit and just stare at the words instead because he wanted to be held NOW. And he even managed to hold off the cancer just long enough to walk with me through mom's hospital stay and her return home. I was his person, and he was my soul cat, a piece of me.

I was so torn last night. He was clearly in pain, dehydrated, wobbly, confused and restless, and couldn't get to the litter box. It had been really clear this week the moment was coming, that the cancer was going to take him soon. I'd had this big plan, to have it all happen at home in peace. He hated the vet, hated the stress, but it happened so fast, and I just... knew he couldn't wait for the vet's office to open so she could come here. He'd chosen his time and it was now.

I held him at the emergency vet when they gave him the sedative. I managed to choke out that silly singing tone that always made him happy, as I called him every last nickname he knew: my Cato-wato kitten chow, my Cato kins, my little Mr. meow meow, my sweet happy baby kitty. I made sure all he could see with those big beautiful blue eyes of his was me, as I petted his soft little ears and scratched his neck just the way he liked. And he actually managed to purr for me. He purred as he slipped away and the lights went out, and it was the last sound I ever got to hear from him.

I already miss you so, so much, my sweet old kitty, my Cato kitten chow. I'm sorry it couldn't be at home. But thank you for purring for me. Thank you for spending your journey with me. Thank you for the love you gave me. Thank you for the big meows and the headbonks and perching on my shoulder to interrupt with a breaking news story of Meow Meow. Thank you for the stealing of hundreds of my socks over 16 years and the way you always wanted to sit on me regardless of convenience or your own comfort. Thank you for letting me scoop you up for head smoochies, guarding me from nightmares, and solemnly supervising over 150 chapters of TRT. My soul cat, my baby kitty, my lovebug. I will always love and miss you. And one day I'll see you again.

#tw: pet death #cato the siamese #this is the hardest pet loss i've ever experienced #i didn't want to leave him there. it was so so hard walking out without him #i'll have his ashes in a few weeks and i have plans to get a tattoo of his pawprint but this is going to be rough for a while #he was such a part of my daily life for 16 years and now he's just gone #it's been so long that i don't really remember how i did things without him around #and now even having to feed the other kitties makes me cry because he's not there to meow at me to hurry or trot after me #i miss him

[superherogeniusgirlnextdoor]

I was planning to have the project done before season 2 aired and boy did I fail 🙃

Majority of lines are done, I mostly want to fine tune a couple things on Casey *cough jank hand cough* but if there are any big flaws please let me know. I can’t stress enough how much I am not an animator lmao

#moon girl and devil dinosaur #moon girl #lunella lafayette #devil dinosaur #casey goldberg calderon #fanart #my art #I do think once I’m happy with Casey’s stuff the hardest part is done #this has never felt easy but I guess doable? #but taking a six month hiatus for the NAPLEX doesn’t leave much extra time lol

[bonefall]

why is fernsong on thin ice with dovewing, did ivypool use him to send her messages or something like that

Yeaaaaahhh. I figured it was obvious enough to figure out lmao.

Dovewing really likes Fernsong (who doesn't?) but Ivypool continues to be a petty badger for years. She's changed a lot after the impostor murdered her daughter publicly for codebreaking and suddenly ShadowClan didn't look so crazy to resist him from the very start...

But she treated Dovewing like garbage for years. Always looking for ways to spite her and her 'Friendship' with Tigerheart, and it didn't even stop after she booked it. Dovewing doesn't WANT to fix this.

Sure, this stems from Lionblaze being a really bad parent, playing obvious favorites with Dovepaw and neglecting Ivypaw. But Ivypool would take it out on her. Well into their adulthood. And NOW she wants to reconcile? When Dovewing's finally away from her, and living happily?

Fernsong and Dovewing have a history, making friends with each other before Fern started dating Ivy when he first joined ThunderClan, but he FLOATED the idea of Dove talking to her sister, "you know... Ivypool talks about you," and she shut it down fast.

(That means she walked away, cutting the whole reunion short. She really did discover the power of Just Leaving and has been using it like a superpower)

He hasn't dared try again, since that moment. He knows very well he won't get a second chance, and Dovewing is his friend. He doesn't want to ruin it. She's forgiven him, but hasn't forgotten.

I think Dovewing has a reputation of being really sensitive, according to ThunderClan cats. And, she kinda is? But it's because she was so patient for years with them. She feels like if she gives an inch, they'll take a mile, and reacts accordingly.

...it's why the deafness isn't ALWAYS a bad thing, in Dovewing's mind. Sometimes she really appreciates it. She doesn't have to listen to her dad bark for her to get back here, or Bumblestripe break out into a sob, or whatever stage of denial Ivypool's circled back around to. If she does, it's quiet.

It's SO much easier to walk away now.

#That's the hardest part about leaving. It doesn't feel like a win in that moment. #It feels like you're being mean and selfish. #It gets better. I promise it gets better. But it doesn't always feel good right away and that's okay #You still made the right choice. #lmao this reminds me of something really sweet I learned from my great grandma #She used to say to my parent 'You always gotta have mad money. I don't leave home without mad money' #Mad money being (the equivalent of) 25 bucks. 20 for a taxi and 5 for a bag of chips. #Just tucked into your pocket or purse or whatever. #It makes me smile when I stash a bit of mad money someplace haha. It stays alive in me. #tw toxic family #tw abuse #better bones au #BB!Dovewing #BB!Fernsong #I do have a lot of characters in BB who do reconcile but Dove's not one of them. #She gave them enough chances. She's done being responsible for their happiness. #lovewing dovewing

[beyondplusultra]

...if you say goodbye today, i’d ask you to be true,

#p5 #shuake #akeshu #goro akechi #akira kurusu #ren amamiya #cause the hardest part of this. is leaving you. #Cancer - My Chemical Romance #LETS PRETEND THE FIRST UPLOAD DIDNT HAVE A GLARING ERROR #my art #art 2022

[waketoearth]

orange blood .. the qr code works!

#enhypenet #malegroupsnet #enhypen #heetual #danablr #in love with these tickety labely posters atm yk i had to omg #hardest part was font picking don't look too close im sick of myself one day vivaldi will leave my font arsenal but that day.. has not yet #arrived.......... #qr code works too yeah i ate here idk guys was hungry asf.. runtime does not include the extra sweet venom sorry #turned into a star wars babe in my time away if anyone even cares revenge of the sith goes crazy i just need to finish the recent trilogy #but holy shit i get it now guys it took me years but i understand the star wars hype ANAKIN 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭����😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #z.gfx #z.enhypen

[warlenys]

right after house tells wilson "i need you, okay? i want you to be around as long as possible, because i don't know what i'm gonna do without you" wilson tells him "my dying is about me". imagine you tell a man you've loved for decades that you don't know what your life would be without him, and in response he tells you that his dying has nothing to do with you. your life is his, but his dying is not yours. your life is him. his death is not you. then imagine. next scene. he says he needs you to tell him that you love him. i would've killed myself then and there

#i love how awful wilson is in holding on #he's abusing the only thing he has control over #he's lashing out like house does #self destructive over fear of love #the hardest part of this is leaving you #so i'll let you leave me. instead #sure #ok #suicide mention #house md #hilson #+

[swiftcast-selene]

Day 10: Free day

"wake up, sleepyhead! we're almost home." "what? noo... i want to keep adventuring!" "what, and miss dinner?"

#miqomarch 2024 #miqomarch #ffxiv miqo'te #seeker of the sun #miqo'te #final fantasy 14 #negi was a veery very sickly child #being the smaller of two twins he had a very difficult time with. well most things #but the hardest part of it all was seeing how often Arkie would leave the tribe and how he wasn't able to follow #with o'kovhi training to become a tia and his sister leaving him behind he felt very lonely for a long time #when he found Selene it helped a lot but he still missed her very much #so often she'd go out of her way to bring him back trinkets... books to read... and sometimes she'd bring him along! #not too far at first since he was still getting used to having. like. a working body #but a little day adventure never hurt anyone... right?

[lokiusly]

Miss minutes play “Cancer” by My Chemical Romance.

#I will not kiss you cuz the hardest part of this is leaving you #THAT LYRIC IS LOKIUS CODED #lokius #loki show #loki x mobius #mobius #mcu loki #mobius m mobius #loki laufeyson #mobius and loki #loki spoilers #loki #loki series #wowki #loki season two #mobius mcu

[zoebelladona]

words are being written for this thaluke fic 👁

i'm calling it my fleece quest luke au to keep it short. but the fic will probably be titled lightning in a bottle. the gist of it is luke, not a traitor this time around, goes on the golden fleece quest in a desperate attempt to save thalia

#there's more to it but i'm leaving it at that for now 🤭 #the hardest part has been trying to weave my usual canon seamlessly because i cannot write pjo without my ocs now #also yes hudson and piedad are gonna be luke's quest mates why do you ask <3 #in this au i think luke's quest mates for the golden apple did die. i don't think hudson and piedad went with him #mostly cause i doubt chiron would allow all 3 of them to have a second try at a quest after failing lol #how do i give piedad her scars those are an important part of her design ✍️ #also percy isn't claimed yet in this au. he's just chilling in cabin 11 because there was no lightning thief #percabeth might sneak into the quest because i like shenanigans #i have to reread som to keep writing #.txt #my fic #fic: golden fleece luke #thaluke

[cappycino]

Chapter 6 of 7 Minutes in Hell is up!! In which Dice goes demon hunting https://archiveofourown.org/works/41151864/chapters/126042622 (heed the warnings!)

#devildice #cuphead #thecupheadshow #i had the hardest time with the first part #the rest was *chef's kiss* #also i took a lot of fan interpretation and threw them in because the fandom is also *chef's kiss* #pwease leave a comment if you'd like to see more!

[filet-o-feelings]

Thanks for the tags @hippolotamus @a-noble-dragon @lemonlyman-dotcom @beaiola @ramonaflow 🩵 I actually have words to share today!

He needs snacks, and maybe he can distract himself by re-watching tonight’s episode. A lot happened tonight, and he should be as prepared as possible for a discussion if PB messages him back. He heads into the kitchen, opening and closing cabinet doors, the refrigerator door, the freezer door. He returns to the first cabinet, then another, and back. He has a wide variety of snacks, but can’t settle on anything. Eventually, he pulls a pint of ice cream out of the freezer, grabs a spoon from the drawer, and heads back to the living room, flopping on the couch. The ice cream isn’t exactly what he wants, but he isn’t exactly sure what it is he wants (he thinks maybe the answer here isn’t food) but it’s sweet and mouth numbingly cold, so it will do for now.

No pressure (as always) tagging @stereopticons @treluna4 @statueinthestonetoo @tyfinn @wearpersistencewell @flowertrigger

#seven sentences chosen mostly at random #from the 600+ words I wrote so far today #more than I've written all month #leave it to me to take an entire week off and not write anything until the last day #seven sentence sunday #tumblr secret celeb au #not only did I write words #but I also filled in all the brackets #the fandom has a name and a premise #and the boys have usernames now #that's the hardest part for me so fingers crossed I can keep this momentum going

[antihibikase-archive]

Your uber is here; a peculiar exploration team!

Art trade with @mhizzberry!

#Pokemon #Pokemon Mystery Dungeon #Bounsweet #Stufful #My Art #((I panicked for a bit with Stufful but once I got the head right it was smooth sailing <3)) #((The hardest part for Bounsweet were the little leaves and stem but! That also worked out well <3)) #((And we get matching bows..)) #((The Stufful is peach-colored because I based it off my sona! My sona is a plushie and Mhizzy's is a berry-)) #((-which makes Bounsweet perfect <3)) #((ANYWAY I HOPE YOU LIKE THIS QP take your time with my part of the trade! <3))

[stabbingandorbeingstabbed]

i thought i was probably too busy fighting for my life to take any of my own pics but i guess i DID get these !! not great but they're mine 😭

#we have got to go back im like in the target back room holding back tears lmao #i thought too hard abt how the last words i heard them sing live with my own ears were 'the hardest part of this is leaving you' #feeling fragile !!!

[d1sheclectic]

JALLY AS CANCER BY MCR😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

#CUZ THE HARDEST PART OF THISSSS IS LEAVING YOUUU #im in my jally feels tonight boys #in the TRENCHES #im ill about them #jally #dallas winston #johnny cade #the outsiders #my chemical romance #Spotify

[mysoma]

Tw for: Mexican anger 💥👊💥👊

#Tmnt #tmnt2012 #this headcannon didn't leaved my head #the hardest part was translating it #leonardo hamato #raph #tcest please interact #just in case

[the-valiant-valkyrie]

grrr..... i need.... to write...... LETTERS!!!!!!!! *dozens of objects go hurtling around the room*

#fanmail specifically #this is still about schell but it's also about. other things too. #there's something so terrifyingly permanent about comments. so minuscule yet so public #there's a sea of comments on just about everything. but it feels very public and embarrassing to leave them #but letters are personal. they feel different. they're tangible. #and most importantly. i don't have to look at them after i send them. #it's the relief of acknowledging how much i love something without the burden of showing my heart to the world #i just. dont know what i would say. that's always the hardest part. #if i had a nickle for every piece of fanmail i sent. to video game companies specifically. maybe i would have three nickles right abt now