#the greatest qpp

[dollopheadsandclotpoles]

#bbc merlin #my polls #merlin #merthur #I know the popular thing is that it’s Arthur #cause Merlin’s the greatest sorcerer to ever live etc etc #but Merlin’s FACE and overall levels of drama when Arthur takes care of him convinces me it has to be merlin #man just wants to be fawned over like yes my husband the king #this applies to qpp merthur too I think #really they’re both the trophy husbands but who’s MORE

[greatsealed]

IN-DEPTH HEADCANONS || STILL ACCEPTING! || @revclver-jesus

revclver-jesus asked: if your muse could pick a song to play at their own funeral, what would it be? ( a very takaya shaped question )

DEFINITELY "Memories of You"-

He'd probably ask for a song he loves listening to on repeat; going off of my li'l headcanon that the entirety of P3's soundtrack is composed of the songs on his MP3 player, any of them could be a pick of his. Of the entire soundtrack, he'd probably lean towards "Burn My Dread (Last Battle)". It's the song that he listened to at the very beginning (of the game), so it's only fitting that he'd go out to it, too. He kind of did during the Nyx fight.

Honestly though, S.E.E.S. could blast his MP3's music through his headphones (as I did when I was a kid, for lack of actual speakers) during his funeral and that'd be enough for him.

#revclverjesus #🌕 || the answer to life's greatest question. (answered.) || 🌕 #🌕 || what matters is how you left a mark. (headcanons.) || 🌕 #{ i too would wanna go out to my own soundtrack adkjsjkadskj } #{ thank you!! >:3 if i had to pick a real song then it'd probably be smth like ''a good song never dies'' (saint motel) for the pure irony #{ a good song doesnt die but minato sure did RIP } #{ ANYWAY hi i still think its so funny that both me and my qpp VIVIDLY remember you + your url fskdgdfs } #{ we love you revolver jesus } #{ also yeah this question is super takaya-core and i love it for that skfjjkfsd }

[floralquafloral]

the Breath of the Wild linkle mod did so much for lesbians

#i would bench press a car for more games like botw with the linkle mod #the combination of fantastic gameplay & polish + female protagonist + lesbians EVERYWHERE is just. unparalleled #like.. all the random NPCs who flirt with link are now wlw #the armour mipha made for link? now it's an explicitly gay tradition #armour traditionally made by zora princesses to propose to their WIVES..... hello?? #and gerudo town becomes gender euphoria paradise #the way the mod completely transforms the vibe of gerudo town is something i could talk a lot about actually #i have probably told my qpp about it like 4 times. it's not only really pleasant but also endlessly fascinating #is anyone curious about that??? let me know i could totally write up another post about it #anyways basically linkle botw mod. greatest mod of all time. the ultimate trans lesbian experience #floralaqua #i'm gonna add some tags i guess because i like attention #breath of the wild #botw #linkle #wlw

[americanphysco]

everytime I see a tiktok screenshot circulating I feel like I have to take a deep breath and mentally prepare myself for the psychic damage I'm about to endure.

#haaaaaate that qpp #app* #levis greatest hits

[nunalastor]

Alastor and Lucifer, once together (however that means for you, romanticly or QPP) think it's funny to pretend they don't know each other and get into fights upon 'meeting'. Charlie thinks it's exhausting, but also sort of funny. They'll be nose to nose like they were at the end of Hell's Greatest Dad, and then they make eye contact for a little too long and just start laughing.

They did this when going after Valentino for what he did to Charlie. The Moth thought he might actually get away while they were fighting over who had the right to 'defend Charlie's honor'. And then they just start cracking up and complimenting each other on their performances and then turn to him in sync.

👀

#hazbin hotel #alastor #radioapple #appleradio #radio apple #apple radio #lucifer morningstar #tbh i love this idea sfm #nunalastor asks #headcanon

[qprconcepts]

qpp that “getting to love you has been the greatest honor of my life” x qpp that “no no no, please do not say it like your life means nothing without me”

#sad shit? #fantasy #qpr positivity #qpr pride #qpp positivity #qpr concepts #queer platonic partner #queer platonic relationship #queerplatonic #qpr #lgbtq #qpp

[qprsmackdown]

q!parrotduo (q!Jaiden and q!Roier from the QSMP) Propaganda:

They raised a kid together and he was the best dragon ever, they've been there for the other at their lowest and even when no one else believed them, they have been through grief and healing together, they would go through Hell for the other.

They are canonically platonic partners, Jaiden is Aroace and Roier has a husband (outside of the QPR) and had a wonderful son (egg), Bobby. Even when they were lawyers on opposing sides of a court case, afterwards they complimented each other on how they did during the case. On top of that, Jaiden threatened Roier's husband Cellbit before their marriage, telling him that if he hurt Roier she would hunt him down, and telling him to be honest to Roier. They are the greatest <3

they had a kid together and lived together and even after bobby died they’ve stayed the bestest of friends ☹️ roier even got married but jaiden is still so important to him and they both care for each other so much and roier’s husband sees her as equally part of their family too

they adopted a kid together because of an event and they didnt have to go hard as they did. after the kid died, they STILL were together. then roier married another guy BUT all jaiden did was threaten him bc all she wants is for roier to be happy.

i dont even go here but this qpr is literally canon. jaiden is an aroace queen and also these two raised a son together like come on bro

Q! and cc!Jaiden is aroace and q!roier is queer. They were selected to be a pair to raise a child who they named Bobby. Jaiden moved into roier's home, had their beds next to each other, they raised bobby together, went on adventures together. Jaiden and roier loved each other and called each other family. When people asked if they were together they both said no but they were partners. Jaiden was extremely supportive of roier's cross dressing and him working at a strip club. Roier helped her practice her fighting skills. When roier became romantically interested in another character nothing between them changed and Jaiden threatened the other character to never hurt roier. Bobby died and they mourned and Jaiden moved away but they were still very close and visit each other often and roier keeps an eye on her interactions with a federation worker called cucurucho to make sure it doesn't hurt her. They are literally the perfect example of a qpr; living together, expressing their love for each other, raising a child together but never being romantically involved and being such a unit together and everyone on the island knows it and loves them too.

its like halfway canon that theyre in a QPR, they raise a child together and sleep next to each other and are basically life partners. jaiden supports roiers other relationships, and they actually support and communicate with each other and its great

They raised a child together, Roier's in game romantic husband loves Jaiden almost as much Roier does

you don't understand your honor they're everything to me. they're basically canon. they raised a kid together, lived in the same house, slept in the same bed, and trusted each other with everything. Someone once asked if they were together romantically and their answers were 'family' and 'partners' and often times they're just called 'platonic life partners'. They trust each other first no matter what they are RIDE or DIE qpp bitrans and aroace

oh my gdodddd dude oh my goddddd oh my godddddd oh my lord oh my LORRRDDDDDD they got randomly paired together to raise a child and had hardly interacted before that and immediatley became besties and there is so much respect and patience and trust in their relationship even after the loss of their child they are eachothers confidants they always want the best for eachother they are everything to me im craszy ANIMATIONS FAMILY 4EVER

they raised a child together they live together Jaiden's aroace and supports her partner's drag stripping career she was at his wedding

they raised a child together. jaiden is aroace and roier was kinda a whore before he got married (not to jaiden though) but they are besties and they care for each other very much. when their son bobby died they were each other's rock. i barely watch the livestreams but i see the liveblogging and its just so so obvious they care for each other and are ride or die PLEASE LET THEM IN AND WIN

they were the best parents to their little egg, Bobby, and are just so silly goofy together. They hype each other up SO MUCH.

Just these two lol not much for me to say but lots of platonic love to give

roier is gay and married to a man and jaiden's aroace but they are still partners!!! they're family they're a couple but they're not dating or romantically interested in each other. everyone in-canon acknowledges their relationship as equally as important as a romantic one, even roier's husband.

They LITERALLY lived together and slept in the same bed and raised a child together and one of them is played by an aroace person! The ccs never implied or explicitly said there was anything romantic between their characters, but the characters are still incredibly close with one another, even when Roier had his own romantic arc with another character!

They raised a son together platonically, Roier is married and he and Jaiden’s relationship is treated with the same amount of gravitas and weight as Roier’s relationship with his husband. They’re mutually supportive and care about each other so deeply. They’ve been through the loss of their son together and have continued to wholeheartedly mutually support and protect each other.

BOBBY THEIR LITTLE EGG THEY

canonically a family unit but not in the nuclear way (they both parent a child, but they are not in a romantic relationship nor a couple, nor did either of them create this child). this platonic relationship is treated equally to one of the character's romantic relationships and is not seen as 'less' than the romantic one. it is expressed multiple times throughout the series how important this platonic relationship is.

They co-parented their adopted kid together for a while and were acknowledged by pretty much everyone as the best parents, and now that Roier is married, his husband treats him and jaiden with just as much respect as she does their marriage,,,, which means a lot to me personally <3

roier literally considers his relationship with jaiden (who is aroace) to be equal to that of his relationship with his husband. his husband also treats jaiden n roiers relationship as equal to his and roiers!! plus jaiden and roier raised a son together and slept next to each other and were often mistaken for being husband and wife bc of how affectionate they were but its completely platonic! also when roiers husband, cellbit, was being an asshole pre engagement, jaiden talked with roier about how she thinks he deserves better and threatened cellbit if he hurt roier. i have many feelings about them but most of them are like just stick figure gore images

qpr of all time. i dont even watch qsmp but theyre so sillies. they raised a kid (egg) together. jaiden is acearo

Roier is a very gay hypersexual man and Jaiden is AceAro!! They refer to eachother as partners and raised an (egg)child together. Theyre besties theyre ride or die they trust eachother above anyone else etc etc

Q!JAIDEN CALLED Q!ROIER HER PARTNER SEVERAL TIMES!!! SHES AROACE AND HES MARRIED AND ALSO THEY RAISED A CHILD TOGETHER AND LIVED TOGETHER (<- i am feral)

They have said they love each other and it wasn’t romantic. One of them is played by and aroace person, one of them isn’t and the character still has a relationship outside of the romantic/platonic binary while still having both romantic and platonic relationships.

They have directly referred themselves as platonic partners multiple time throughout their time together. Despite the fact that Q!Roier is married to another character, his relationship with Q!Jaiden is never dismissed and is held at the same importance as his romantic relationship.

Literally call each other partner and family. Raised a egg son for a while (rip Bobby) Jaiden helped set him up with Cellbit! (They’re married now)

#propaganda #qparrotduo propaganda #this is how i decided to do it #mod cycad

[dragon-giggles]

Guys look what my wonderful qpp got me!!!!!

I remember making a post a long while back about how I wanted a Fozzie plushie, and now thanks to Vicky, who is awesome and lovely, and the greatest being to ever exist, I have him!

AND JUST LOOK AT HIM HE'S SO DOPEY LOOKING, I LOVE IT

#Love you Vicky!!! #Prepare yourself btw I'm still working on getting your wonderful gift! #Fozzie Bear #The Muppets

[copepods]

if youre still doing ask game nsh :) i think missed him

Sexuality Headcanon: pan :)

Gender Headcanon: bigender, this dude loves to be a girl sometimes

A ship I have with said character: ill talk about lilypad some more! ive said before that moon is aro and theyd be in a qpp.. i think he would send messengers with silly messages and gifts to her just for the hell of it. also i think nsh was moon's first close friend and was the first iterator to be built near her in the local group :)

A BROTP I have with said character: nsh and hunter, i think their relationship is very complex and nsh wasn't ever the greatest parent. i think he struggles to relate to and empathize with creatures that are so much smaller than him. he tries with hunter but he never quite gets it

A NOTP I have with said character: ehh dont really have one

A random headcanon: i like to think that nsh has a great capability for cruelty. in my mind he's actually very similar to five pebbles in a lot of ways; NSH also has that "ends justify the means" worldview a lot of the time, although his ends usually involve helping the people around him. i also think he can be impatient and quick to anger. his lack of patience is what led to hunter developing rot :)

General Opinion over said character: i like him!!!! i think hes my 3rd fav after moon and pebs. i think he has a lot of potential to be really complex and interesting

#i like thinking about him hes silly #asks #ekiloria #rain world

[cowboylikedean]

the nicest thing that happened to you this year?

The nicest thing that happened to me this year…………… Wow, that’s a long story. 

The short of it is… I fell in love. I started the year with one partner, and I end the year with 2. 

The longer version is really sweet. See… Years ago, I had this friend. He was everything to me… like really… My whole world in a person. I loved him so so SOOOO so sO much. We lived together on and off for four years from 2014-2018. About halfway through that time, I caught some feelings. Not crazy feelings, but I did want a QPP with him. Basically, I wanted exactly the relationship we already had but with commitment and labels. I never told him. Well, I have now…. lol But I never told him back then. 

Anyway, there’s a long story that you’d have to come off anon to hear, but basically, he ended up in a relationship with someone who was, by his own admission, not a nice person. This guy sucked. Awful person who honestly, I’d rather not speak of publicly.. Anyway the two of them left town and when they did, that awful guy wrote a really long mean post about me which my friend liked. 

This broke my heart into a billion pieces. For the next 5 years, I cried and pined. I missed my friend. He was a part of my heart I knew I’d never get back. 

Until I did. The day after my birthday, this friend apologized to me. The greatest birthday present of all time! And then he told me he moved back to town!!! Even better!!!! We hung out, and instantly we were us again. 

So I got my friend back!! Except this came with all the feelings I had before. But this time, something was different. They were stronger, for starters.. and then the scariest thing is I thought they might be……… returned. So in the month of September, I went back and forth in my head about telling him and what to do about the fact that like….. I really wanted to be his partner, and I was pretty sure that he wanted to be mine. That the relationship structure I had in my head would be welcome. 

And then October happened. We saw the Eras movie together on October 13, and something clicked. And I’ll leave personal details out because honestly, they’re not for public consumption… But essentially, we spent the month of October evolving our relationship. We went from friends, to an undefined queerplatonic thing… in November, we added definition. We confirmed this had become a partnership, then we did labels… and somewhere in there the unthinkable happened and I, romance repulsed aromantic extraordinaire, ended up with romantic feelings. We dropped the platonic part of our labels. 

And so the nicest thing that happened to me this year is that I ended up in the first truly fulfilling romantic relationship of my life with someone I spent the last 5 years missing with my whole soul. And that's the guy I've been callling sweetheart the past few months!! What a joy, right???

#sweetheart #personal #my love!!!

[bustyasianbeautiespod]

“Aziraphale and Crowley are in love and Maggie and Nina are not.”

SAY THAT!!!

lit er al ly... like i don't expect them to be the greatest love story of our time and all the times before and all the times hereafter (a/c takes that role) but i want to at least believe they could go on a full two-hour date and enjoy themselves and currently i am not getting that! like at least they talked more than anathema and newt but at least anathema and newt were like. conceptually interesting dykwim? like, alternate secondary pairings i would actually give a shit about

anathema and nina. anathema ends s1 w a lot going on regarding free will and having to figure out what to do next w her life so she's already interesting to begin with. nina seems like a decisive person who has the career aspect of her life together so that'd be helpful. anathema would also be fresh off a newt breakup so understands feeling trapped within a relationship by obligation and perhaps thinking of lindsay as a shitty prophecy book would help nina disentangle herself emotionally from all that! and i think despite the memory weirdness she and aziraphale or crowley would reconnect somehow so that's how they meet. also i want anathema doing witch stuff in the coffeeshop AND if she decides to get some more phds after s1 this is a perfect place to work. it's their time to be besties with benefits! also if neilman understood my aromantic lesbian anathema agenda, wouldn't it be interesting to have a story where a/c are trying to get them together romantically when that's just not something anathema would ever want and also talk about the ways qpps and other forms of relationships are read as romance by the untrained heaven eye but it's how the ppl within the relationship define it that matters?

the actual nuns maggie service and nina sosanya played in s1. yes i know maggie's character died but honestly adam could've brought her back bc her death is his birth's fault. she wakes up 11 years later disoriented and scared and the purpose of her life has been thwarted! she picks herself up and reconnects with her family and an inherited record shop. she sees mary hodges across the street running a cafe after her job training facility got shut down and both of them stop in their tracks. were they friends at all? did mary ever wonder what became of maggie's character after she ran from the order? both of them represent jumbled pasts they want to put behind them but maybe this is the opportunity they need to process and swap stories!

idk literally anyone else

- Crystal :)

#asks

[lightblueminecraftorchid]

Vent post below the cut about being aroace and amatanormativity. Yes I’m okay nothing happened im just mopey.

Thoughts I am having:

- I do not feel comfortable with the idea of me having a romantic partner

- I don’t even really enjoy the idea of just one best friend I’m dedicated to, like a QPP; I don’t think I have that attraction either

- I like my roommates well enough, but I won’t be in college here forever; I have grad school, and then internship, and then. Being a neuropsychologist. All of those things cannot be at my current college, because they aren’t taking students or employing people in that program.

- I was completely on my own in my current apartment for the first week and I didn’t like it. It was very lonely and I had a lot of anxiety about being alone if something bad happened. I don’t think I want to live alone in the future.

- I absolutely do NOT want to live at home if I can avoid it. I love my family very much but I would honestly rather be alone, with the loneliness and anxiety, than be at home 24/7.

- I also didn’t enjoy living with roommates I wasn’t close friends with. I got lucky in sophomore year that I made fast friends with my roommates, but freshman year sucked, not least because I felt alone even with two other people living in the same 2 bedroom dorm suite.

- It doesn’t help that I’m autistic and ADHD, which doesn’t make me the best roommate in general. I struggle to remember to clean up after myself, I don’t make new friends easily, executive function makes it hard to do chores around the apartment, and I’m not the greatest at communication. Heck, sometimes I just fully forget to shower for a week. I try my best to be a good roommate but like. I’m never not going to be disabled. I’m not going to magically be a great roommate to get people to like me more or to make friends faster.

- So then. I want to live with multiple friends of mine, who understand and accommodate my needs, without being romantically or queerplatonically attracted to any of them, just as roommates who enjoy each other’s company.

- How on earth is *that* gonna happen?

I know I’m borrowing trouble and that it’ll probably work out fine I just feel. Lonely. I’m aroace, and like. There’s no sexual or romantic or queerplatonic attraction at all. It’s just platonic. But to most other people, those other types of attraction matter a lot in who they live with or stay around. And I can’t provide any of that. Obviously amatanormativity is not accurate to human relationships and people can live together and just be good friends and nothing else, but like. Practically. I don’t really have any examples of that happening irl. And I just feel sad about it being a lot harder not to be alone.

#Tay don’t look #I really am okay I just feel sad #I’m probably just on my period and that’s why I’m emotional skdkgkgkkdjsjdj #anyway if u see this post and u are worried it is about you I promise it is not #I am not trying to vague anybody skdkfkdkjajfjf #just processing my feelings on tumblr.com #Letters to myself #<- so I can find this post later #and see what’s changed in the next couple of years #maybe I’ll queue this post seeing as my queue is broken and only posts 1 post a day #and it’s got almost 1000 posts in there #so like. it’ll probably post by the time I graduate and take my gap year. #and I’ll see what’s different then #hopefully it’ll be better

[silenthillmutual]

got tagged for a meme by @slugs-at-midnight :)

Favorite color: i like.......green with a slight bit of blue in it.

Last song: uhmm... i don't remember. i was listening to the behind the bastards podcast last time i was in the car.

Last movie/TV show: i think the last movie i watched was saw v and the last show i watched was futurama

Next on my watch list: i have one episode of midnight mass left to watch please for the love of god can i please get the focus to finish it!!!

Last game: Animal Crossing New Horizons

Sweet/Savory/Spicy: sweet

Relationship status: i have a qpp & we're polyam

Last online search: robot devil voice actor

Current obsession: i've been playing a lot of animal crossing recently but what my brain really wants is some time to replay bloodborne :(

Greatest flaw: i have many but the most relevent atm is that i'm too hard on myself

tagging uhhhhh @yahargulian @sanguinaryrot @twilitfossil @hermitminded @doomednarrative @rottencore and if anyone else wants to do it feel free :3

#icarus.txt

[beyondthetemples-ooc]

I find myself single again, and I find myself thinking too many thoughts to figure out what they Mean for me.

This is less of a recording and more me trying to work out what I'm thinking and feeling. The best way to do that for me is by writing it down.

I've been mulling it over for hours. Almost 24 of them, in fact.

We were together a long time. It was 9 years and 7 months. I thought, shouldn't this hurt more? Shouldn't my whole world be rocked sideways? Shouldn't I feel a loss, a grief, a gaping void; shouldn't ten years of a relationship coming to an end give me at least five years of pain?

I had time to prepare, I think. There was awareness, and then there was concern, and then there was resignation. I think I resigned myself to this a long time ago. Maybe even before it was explicitly spoken, and I think having that time to prepare myself and come to terms with it immensely softened the blow.

I was able to talk with a couple of friends last night, and they helped me understand that it's okay to not have my heart rent to pieces over it.

But I'm still puzzling over why it both hurts, and doesn't.

I did cry. I cried before the news itself broke because I had a feeling long before it was discussed. I cried talking to my mother about it. I've cried long before it happened yesterday, because I knew something was different, something was wrong, but I didn't know how to approach it, to broach it, to voice my concerns, because they were all so frustratingly vague.

And truth be told, I was trying to cling to what was Good. We didn't get to see each other much; I didn't want to take precious time away from Enjoying Ourselves.

But I should have learned by now: My instincts are Good. Whether I want to be or not, I'm Aware of Other Peoples' Emotions. They affect me, I can read the feelings themselves, but I don't get any sort of telepathic confirmation or instinct for WHY people feel the way they do, I just Sense The Sensations. Some empaths get that explanation in tow. Lucky them.

I don't. I only know Why people feel what they feel around me when I've Asked about it. When they Talk about it.

It's so strange to think of myself as a wordsmith, and then look at the conversations that matter most, and look at how rarely I have them. My greatest strength is my words. Why don't I wield them?

Well, after thinking it over, setting aside the easy cop-out ("afraid of conflict", because I'm not), the fact that I didn't know how (there's no script for this), and the inability to separate what I'm feeling from myself versus what I'm feeling from someone else…

At the heart of it, I don't always KNOW what I'm feeling.

One of the things I've always related to NTT!Raven on was the inability to sort my feelings, to "feel my way through" them, to inspect them. I could introspect my reason and motivations and come up with a treasure trove of self-realizations, but to ask myself what I'm feeling emotionally is to dive into the ocean's depths and darkness with only a glowstick. I can't see much at all. I can only explore the smallest increments at a time, and will only ever have the briefest bit illuminated.

So over the past 36 or so hours, I've been wondering: Was love what I was feeling? Romantically inclined love, the stuff of storytales?

I think I was in love. I do now, yes.

And I think I liked it.

See, I had a tag specifically for My Significant Other. And I looked back through it today. Not all of the posts were S.O. exclusive; some of them WERE feelings I had for friends and my QPP and all the members of my found family, too.

But there were also posts weren't. Silly, delightful, mushy, sappy romantic dating-specific feelings that made me smile.

When my feelings are too strong, I can't put them to words. It's another paradox in my being such a self-aware writer. But I would see posts, and they would light up an array of fireworks in me, and I'd reblog them smiling like an idiot. Thinking, specifically, of him.

But here's the thing. I sensed the encroaching distance. The distance dulled my wits, dulled my feelings, sharpened my nerves.

I think, in my own anxiety, when things went dark and silent, when he went dark on me, I feared what it meant.

And, truthfully, I feared to lose him.

I can say with absolute certainty that the fact that he'll still be in my life, even if it's just as a friend (albeit a very good one), was an immense relief to me. I was worried the pulling away meant he'd break Everything off. That I had somehow become unbearable.

But no, just the romance. I don't think I'll be bitter, or angry. Wistful, maybe. Sometimes even mournful. Because this was the first time I've ever felt, with any degree of certainty, that I loved someone romantically.

(Besides, you know, fictional characters. But even then, I only toy with ideas and the occasional fantasy and mostly just channel my feelings through other people in the stories.)

With him, it was all me, my own feelings, me acting on them. And I do think it was all genuine, certainly so from my end.

And I did like being in a relationship. I liked being That Person to someone else. I loved being That Person for him.

I was happy to make extra effort to make him feel loved, valued, to put the Significant in Significant Other. I wanted to. I stretched my limits, tried new things, stepped out of my comfort zone because he made me want to. I enjoyed that, too.

But I also don't feel any sort of desperation, or even desire, to replace it. I don't want my life to be Married With Kids. For as long as I can remember, when I looked to adulthood, I saw myself living happily alone, or after seeing Teen Titans, living in a home surrounded by friends.

(Funny to be living that dream at long, long last, at age 30…)

But still, Something Hurt.

I worried, was I sad to be losing him as a partner, or to be losing the sense of love?

I think it's both, now. Feeling Loved on that level had left a long time ago. I guess maybe I was just holding onto hope that a spark would reignite. Because I did like it.

I was waiting. I was hoping. But time marched on, and that hope faded farther and farther into the horizon.

I don't know how to stop hoping, really. I can't let myself. I hold tight to the smallest modicum of faith, and while I remain a realist, weighing evidence of what will happen and what is the most likely outcome, I still privately think "Maybe… Maybe."

Until I'm faced with the fact that it is, indeed, over.

Like I was yesterday. Like I am now.

And I don't know what to do with myself. I'm not amidst a wreckage. I'm not floating, lost at sea. I'm not smoldering amidst ashes or beating myself into a pulp over it.

(Maybe, if it had happened six years ago, I would be. I would have blamed myself into oblivion. But we had a good talk over it. I had ample time to prepare, to read the signs, to come to terms with it. I know now that it's not anybody's fault if feelings fade, it just… happens sometimes.)

I'm just… resigned.

I think a friend was right yesterday, that mourning may come later.

Like I said, I don't have desperate hopes and dreams and desires for a romantic relationship.

But it was nice while it lasted.

And if it ever happens again, I wouldn't mind. But by all the gods, is anyone else going to have to work Hard to hold up to how that felt with him.

#rhs personal posts #digital mirrorbooking #Finally wrote a post where I have a reason to turn off reblogs....

[deer-in-headlights-stare]

Happy blorbo blursday!! If I said to your OCs "Home is ( )", how would each of them complete the sentence?

liz: home is community. not family necessarily but a wider community, people she knows well and those she doesnt but still feels connected to. of course, her blood and chosen family are included - her mother, her neighbor/friend + and jing, her qpp, mainly. when people leave or die (like her mother did) she doubts her sense of home, and her connection/identity in relation to that.

cricket: home is a place. somewhere she can take pride in her connection to as a member of the community + citizen (formally and informally, it is a point of pride), as well as the basis for parts of her identity/achievements through that place.

rune: home is a duty. never had the experience of a family/many friends, the only thing they had somewhat close to that was with people who were in charge of them while they were working someplace, but was always clear that they were never anything more than a charge, or duty, someone to be in charge of rather than be with.

asa: home is family. unlike liz, it isn't about a larger group of people, but his direct family (primarily blood family for him, especially in the beginning of the story) - his parents and sister. he, like liz, tends to view himself/his self worth through other people, but the other side of that it is that he also considers it the most familiar (and the easiest/least scary because he already knows what they think of him/what not to do/etc so he doesn't have to look for other places of home, and never risk getting hurt by others) and thus, the greatest sense of 'home'.

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Gilt and Green - Chapter 1/3

Willow Park is no expert on mental health. Or on harboring fugitives. But when a panicked, incoherent Hunter teleports into her bedroom, she knows she'll do anything to keep him safe.

(Yes; the inevitable post-Hollow Mind fic)

[Read it on AO3]

All right, friends! Everybody's doing their own takes on who finds Hunter after the end of Hollow Mind, so here's mine! I'm just going to continue standing in my corner waving my "Willow Park Is The Greatest" flag, so I'm excited to explore how things might go if he ended up with her.

Thanks to my beloved roommate/qpp @astriiformes for his beta-ing services and also helping me come up with names for some of Willow's plants.

Spoilers for Hollow Mind (obviously!) Also general warnings for, y'know, the boy's mental state. Nothing too much darker than the episode but well . . . the episode sure went some places.

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