#the friend who got me to read these recently picked up the audiobook for it

[inkskinned]

i got rickrolled today but it didn't work because i have adblocker installed, so youtube just told me i violated the terms of service. yesterday i was trying to edit a picture as a joke for my girlfriend, and google made me check a box to prove i'm human because i wasn't "searching normally".

it isn't just that capitalism is killing fun and whimsy, it is that any element of entertainment or joy is being fed upon by this mosquito body, one that will suck you dry at any vulnerability.

do you want to meet new friends in your city? download this app, visit our website, sign up for our email list. pay for this class on making a terrarium, on candlemaking, on cooking. it will be 90 dollars a session. you can go to group fitness, but only under our specific gym membership. solve the puzzle, sign up for our puzzle-of-the-month-club. what is a club if not just a paid opportunity - you are all paying for the same thing, which makes you a community.

but you're like me, i know it - you're careful, you try the library meetings and the stuff at the local school and all of that. the problem is that you kind of want really specific opportunities that used to exist. you are so grateful for libraries and the publicly-funded things: they are, however, an exception - and everything they have, they've fought tooth-and-nail to protect. you read a headline about how in many other states, libraries have virtually nothing left.

do you want to meet up with your friends afterwards? gift your friends the discord app. you can choose to go to a cafe (buy a coffee, at least), a bar (money, alcohol) or you can all stay in and catch a movie (streaming) or you can all stay in bed (rent. don't get me started) and scream (noise complaint. ticket at least).

you want to read a new book, but the book has to have 124 buzzwords from tiktok readers that are, like, weirdly horny. you can purchase this audiobook on audible! your podcast isn't on spotify, it's on its own server, pay for a different site. fuck, at least you're supporting artists you like. the art museum just raised their ticket price. once, they had a temporary exhibit that acknowledged that ~85% of their permanent art galleries were from cis white men, and that they had thousands of works by women (even famous women, like frida! georgia o'keefe!) just rotting in their basement. that exhibit lasted for 3 months and then they put everything away again.

walmart proudly supports this strip of land by the street! here are some flowers with wilting leaves. its employees have to pay out-of-pocket for their uniforms. my friend once got fined by the city because she organized a community pick-up of the riverfront, which was technically private property.

no, you cannot afford to take that dance class, neither can i. by the way - i'm a teacher. i'm absolutely not saying "educators shouldn't be paid fairly." i'm saying that when i taught classes, renting a studio went from 20 bucks an hour to 180 in the span of 6 months. no significant changes to the studio were made, except they now list the place as updated and friendly. the heat still doesn't work in the building. i have literally never seen the landlord who ignores my emails. recently they've been renting it out at night as an "unusual nightclub; a once-in-a-lifetime close-knit party." they spent some of those 180 dollars on LEDs and called it renovating. the high heels they invite in have been ruining the marley.

do you want to experience the old internet? do you want to play flash games or get back the temporary joy of club penguin? you can, you just need to pay for it. i have a weird, neurodivergent obsession with occasionally checking in to watch the downfall and NFT-ification of neopets. if i'm honest with you all - i never got into webkins, my family didn't have the money to buy me a pointless elephant. people forget that "being poor" can mean literally "if i buy you that toy, i can't afford rent."

you and i don't have time to make good food, and we don't have the budget for it. we are not gonna be able to host dinner parties, we're not made of money, kid. do you want some kind of 3rd space? a space that isn't home or work or school? you could try being online, but - what places actually exist for you? tiktok counts as social media because you see other people on it, not because they actually talk to you.

there was a local winter tradition of sledding down the hill at my school. kids would use pizza boxes and jackets and whatever worked, howling and laughing. back in september, they made a big announcement that this time, rules were changing, and everyone must pay 10 dollars to participate. when im not scared shitless, i kind of appreciate the environmental irony - it hasn't gone below 40. so much for snow & joyriding.

i saw a bulletin for a local dogwalking group and, nervous about making a good first impression, showed up early. the first guy there grimaced at me. "sorry," he said. "there's a 30-dollar buy-in fee." i thought he was joking. wait. for what? the group doesn't offer anything except friendship and people with whom to walk around the city.

he didn't know the answer. just shrugged at me. "you know," he said. "these days, everything costs money."

#spilled ink #warm up #“why did u tag it warm up” bc i wrote it off the cuff while drinkin coffee lol #btw the 30 dollar buy in for the dog walking is bc they pay the organizer a small pittance so she can #run fb ads and stuff and like she does put in a lot of work i don't mind paying her #but that's exactly what im fucking talking about like. #ppl can't afford to volunteer their time anymore and we all understand it!!! everything costs money for everyone! #like we didn't have to use to say ''do you mind paying me back for the stuff we ate'' #we used to be able to afford to feed our friends once in a while!!!

[seananmcguire]

Hello!! I recently reread EHaDW (...and proceeded to reread Down Among and Sugar Skies) this week, and since my library has the audiobook, I've put the book on to play for my dad when we cook together since that's kinda our tradition, and he's loving it as much as I did! Heck, even my brother, who was just existing in the same space when we started, is invested. They just recently got to the first.... mystery (I am trying to be vague for your followers who haven't read the book yet XD) and are furious with me for not warning them LMAO. It's been wonderful together recently. I cannot wait to get my brother to read Down Among too. My brother is trans and has contamination ocd, so not only is it great for him to see representation in media through kade, but we have both quite literally never seen an OCD character in media who wasn't vilified or made into a pity-party. When I first read wayward children, I didn't quite pick it up, but after reading it when my brother's ocd got worse and then diagnosed, it jumped out to me and i was excited, because it was so well done. And then I checked your blog and found out I was right - jack DOES have ocd!! (And so do you, which is cool. My brother is always excited to find creators with shared experiences with him).

And your book was the first time I'd seen Asexuality actually named in media rather than implied or left to my headcanoning. If you can tell from my profile picture, I am aroace, and Nancy will forever hold a special place in my heart. I also just adored her relationship with Kade. Actually, I loved Kade in general. He is so sweet and kind, big brotherly and funny, and I am also just so proud of him weirdly, for how he is growing into a man to be proud of and his aunt's right-hand-man. I think he is my favorite character, lol. (Followed by Jack and Nancy and Christopher). Just, thank you so much for this series. It means a lot to my brother and I.

One of my mutuals reblogged a post from you and when I saw your url I lost my shit skhdbs did not expect you to be on tumblr but I am very happy! I have been stalking your blog for the last like, hour, so sorry for the notifications. Also, I was a post from like 2019 discussing a movie/tv adaptation; is there anything more going on about that?

Sorry for the long wall of text. I just wanted to let you know how much this series means to me. (I've just put in a request with my library to get the rest of wayward children in, since atm we only have the three books I mentioned, and then I am going bookshop hunting with my best friend to try and find hardcopy versions. I already have the ebook copy of EHaDW). So yeah. just thank you <3

Walls of text are fine! I'm not fast or always good at answering them, but they don't bother me.

The Wayward Children movie is currently moving forward at Paramount, and I remain really hopeful that it's going to get made.

[worldssmallestghost]

Pendragon and being an adult.

So, I've been making a lot of Pendragon Adventures posts while I'm here. I found the series when I was in middle school. I started with the first book and got hooked pretty quickly. I've always been a sucker for, well, for lack of better terms, isekai stuff.

I spent the next few years chasing the books down, being there when books nine and 10 were released. So, if I was a teen when I read these books, why am I talking about them now, as a thirty something year old? I've grown to read more adult series, I've begun even writing my own dark fantasy novel. Why am I here?

I was in a dark place during 2020, but who wasn't? I didn't have much going for me aside from a job that had only one perk; being able to listen to audiobooks while performing my menial tasks. I decided, after finishing A Song of Ice and Fire, that I'd move onto something more light-hearted. In hindsight, yeah, maybe as an adult reading a book meant to deliver darker themes to kids was a bit of a weird decision.

I started listening and begun to pick up on themes I hadn't in my youth. Sure as a teen, I noticed the themes of hardship and found family and friendship pushing through even the darkest times.

But as an adult during these... Quite frankly, uncertain times...

Book six is what made me think. The themes of fascism and disease and humanity's stubbornness in the face of what's right, being blinded by hatred...

I envy my younger self for not being able to identify with those messages. With finding them to just be fantasy elements made to raise the stakes in the story.

I finished Raven Rise recently. I'm on Soldiers of Halla currently.

Ravinia is real, to an extent. Not literally, Halla and Alexander Naymeer and the travelers and Saint Dane aren't real. But the fanaticism? The very real levels of approaching fascism that humanity is speeding towards, despite the fact that some people who *lived through that* are still alive?

God.

I wrote earlier about learning to appreciate Soldiers of Halla's ending. As a teen, I hated it. I hated the idea that Bobby would throw away his friends and memories. I hated that everything had just gone "the way it was supposed to be". I wrote about how as an adult who's gone through some really hard times in my life, I can see why Bobby would throw all that away. Throw his trauma away. He lost a lot, but gained peace. Something I, an adult with stress and trauma disorders, wish I could do.

"Hobey ho" has stuck in my mind all these years as a triumphant "I CAN DO THIS!" hail Mary. As dorky as it sounds, on my wedding day, I had planned to say it in my vows to the person I love more than life itself, someone who has never read these books. Nobody in the room besides me ever had. I wanted to take this next challenge in my life on with the same enthusiasm as an over-energetic aquaneer about to take on a space fascist.

It brings me back to a time I was more care-free, where my biggest problems were if the girl I liked wanted to say she liked me back. While also reminding me of a grim future lurking around the corner, and that there are good people out there who just want the human species to make the right choices.

Once I'm finished book ten, I'm gong to listen to them all again in a row and then leave the series for a while. Until I feel I've reached another turning point in my life worthy of looking back at Bobby Pendragon's struggles through space and time.

I'll ride down the flume again someday and face whatever comes next with two words in my heart.

Hobey ho.

#pendragon adventures #bobby pendragon #pendragon #dj machale #books #A stupidly long essay that nobody will ever read but I want to get this off my chest

[emotionallychargedtowel]

9 People You’d Like to Know More

tagged by @wen-kexing-apologist and @thewayofsubtext  <3

Tumblr keeps eating every draft of this post that I write, argh! 

Last Song I Listened To

When I started writing this, I was being lazy and letting the YouTube algorithm pick songs for me and I was listening to this song, Unfucktheworld by Angel Olsen. I've been exchanging song recommendations with a friend for a while now and I guess she has gotten to know me pretty well because this is way up my alley.

But then another song came on--We Ride by Brave Girls (a.k.a. BB Girls)--and that became the new last song I listened to. It's another song that a friend recommended to me. This time it was a friend I've been emailing with back and forth about East Asian pop music. He's a big fan of City Pop, a genre that came out of Japan in the 80s, and he sent me a list of some recent kpop songs that are influenced by/reminiscent of City Pop, including this one. I took to it right away, and it was a big hit with my daughter. 

Currently Watching

I Told Sunset About You - I’m just one episode in to this one and I can already tell it’s going to hit me where it hurts. I took a break due to family visits and related stuff but I’m fixing to dive back in. 

Moonlight Chicken - I got stalled out on this one just as it was getting good, thanks to some life stuff. I need to pick it back up!

Star Trek: Discovery - I’m a big Star Trek fan and recently rewatched everything from TNG through Voyager, but I hadn’t kept up with any of the newest series in years. I’m so glad I decided to start Discovery because it is shaping up to be one of my favorite Star Trek series. There are a lot of reasons for this. Really great LGBT+ representation is a factor. This is also is the first Star Trek series that has inspired more actor crushes in me than DS9. Michelle Yeoh in a corset! Tig Notaro as a cranky engineer! I’m dying over here. 

Minato's Laundromat season 2 - I was looking forward to this as soon as it was announced, but with the usual anxiety that comes with a second season of a BL. I wasn’t 100% sure about the direction of the season at first, but now it’s settling in with some really interesting themes. 

Reservation Dogs - I wasn’t entirely sure about this show when I first started watching during the first season. But not only did it grow on me, it has also been getting better and better. The latest episode, which focused in part on an abusive government-sponsored boarding school (of the sort designed to rob Indigenous kids of their culture), was one of the best of the series so far. 

Edited to add: I forgot about Kamen Rider Geats! My family has been catching up on it and we're almost caught up just in time for the finale. I'm liking it a lot more than I thought I would when I watched the first few episodes, but not as much as my partner (who said he thinks it's one of his favorite Kamen Rider series he's seen). I'm really impressed with the cast, though. I'd especially like to see the actors who play Keiwa and Buffa in more things in the future.

Currently Reading

I’ve been listening to the audiobook version of The Method: How the Twentieth Century Learned to Act by Isaac Butler for a while now, but I’m having an annoying situation where it keeps getting returned to the library even though I’ve renewed it. I could just start another book, but I don’t want to! This one is really interesting. 

The vast majority of people spend a significant amount of their time watching (non-documentary) movies and TV series, which involves watching actors engage in this specific art form. And we have opinions about what constitutes good or bad acting. Yet most of us know so little about how acting is done, what kinds of theories underpin acting practice, how actors prepare for roles and scenes. I wanted to not only find out more about that, but also dig a little deeper into the differences between approaches and how they’ve branched off and clashed and so forth. 

So far I’ve gotten a lot of good background and plenty to think about, even though I’m just getting to the point where the Method/System/whateveryoucallit is starting to take on in the US. I’m guessing it’s going to get even more relevant from there.

Current Obsession

I’m always obsessing about lots of things so I’m probably never going to be able to identify just one. Some currents ones are:

waiting for Utsukushii Kare: Eternal to be available with English subtitles somewhere, somehow

foraging blackberries, making jelly out of them, and baking biscuits to go with the jelly

waiting for it to be fall already because I hate sweating and I love wearing layers

finding my Animal Crossing character some decent glasses

thinking about possible BL/Jane Austen parallels for tumblr posts

finishing a post about psychological aspects of Utsukushii Kare that I’ve been writing off and on for months and that has gotten so long it will probably have to be split up into 3-4 posts

Serge Lutens Jeux de Peau perfume (my beloved)

I didn't tag anyone. It makes me anxious and I think pretty much everyone I know on here has been tagged! Except @porridgefeast, who's welcome to do it if she feels like it but (of course) no pressure.

#9 people meme thing #uncharacteristic self disclosure #not that I mind self-disclosure but it doesn't come up that often with the stuff I do here #angel olsen #brave girls #bb girls #isaac butler #The Method: How the Twentieth Century Learned to Act #blackberries #biscuits #serge lutens #jeux de peau #go utsukushii kare fansubbers go I believe in you #itsay #moonlight chicken #star trek discovery #reservation dogs #minato's laundromat 2 #minato shouji coin laundry 2

[silently--here]

this or that

thanks for tagging me @luxuriousmalfoy :)

Hardcover or Paperback?

I hate hardcovers, I brought one specifically for the cover but otherwise I always get paperbacks. If I do end up with a hardcover then the dustjacket comes off because they get in the way of reading

Bookstore or Library?

Neither, majority of my books come from second hand charity shops which I guess comes under bookstore, libraries are good and it's always good to support them but I love to be able to keep and annotate my books and not have to return them

Bookmark or Receipt?

Often it's a receipt or random scrap of paper, sometimes I do end up dogearing pages. I think I have a book mark or two somewhere but honestly it's not that important to me to use an actual bookmark

Standalone or Series?

I prefer standalones or small series with like 2 to 4 books and not like hundreds of books that seem to just get repetitive after a while and should've stopped a good 50 books back. I like series where they could technically be stand alone books without needing the knowledge of the previous books

Nonfiction or Fiction?

Honestly both, I do prefer fiction though

Thriller or Fantasy?

Fantasy I suppose but really I love all sorts of genres and tropes in books. My taste in books is different to my taste in fan fic though which is something I always find funny, I'm much more picky with my fanfic reads

Under 300 Pages or Over?

Over, I like a big fat book lmao

Children’s or YA?

YA all the way

Friends to Lovers or Enemies to Lovers?

Both are great and it really depends on my mood, I cant pick either one or the other

Read in Bed or Read on the Couch?

I read anywhere but also like zelda, I listen to audiobooks often though not in the car but walking the dog

Read at Night or Read in the Morning?

Well it depends on what time I have but most of my reading happens in the evening and sometimes into the night if it's just that good a book that I can't put it down

Keep Pristine or Markup?

Markup but I've only recently within the past two years started doing so but I get it, I really get the hype of annotating now. Though I don't do it pretty like with sticky notes and highlighters, it's just me and my trusty biro

Cracked Spine or Dogear?

I think both show just how loved a book is but I've got to say when I get a new book which isn't often I do like to break it in a bit by cracking the spine slightly

I tag anyone who sees this and wants to partake

[gracelikesfries]

Tag ppl you wanna know betteeer

Tagged by: @dudettastone, a person I don't know at all actually, I don't know why you tagged me in this

Last song: "Not Strong Enough" by boygenius. I was listening to a playlist for one of my DND characters on my way home, and that song was written for Sunny Regalo exclusively.

Favorite Color: Earthy greens! Darker than the pic below is good too.

Currently Watching: Twin Peaks: The Return; currently I'm 13/18ths of the way there. I also started watching Adventure Time recently, and I was watching LOST this summer but got distracted. I'm thinking about doing a Succession re-watch soon.

Last Movie: I'm trying to watch every Wes Anderson movie in order by renting them from my local library, and I'm more than halfway done! So, my most recent in that regard is Moonrise Kingdom, which was quite fun. Non-Wes, I watched the Favourite recently and holy shit, that's an absolutely incredible film.

Currently Reading:

Non-fiction - I'm currently reading On Lies, Secrets, and Silence, which is a book of prose by incredible lesbian Adrienne Rich. I'm studying for my gender comprehensive next week, so as some last minute prep, I've been reading through a bunch of articles by sociologists who study gender as a macro-level social structure; I've worked through Cecilia Ridgeway and Joan Acker, and will hopefully start reading some more Barbara Risman tonight. I'm also have some works from Raewyn Connell lined up to read on hegemonic masculinity and patriarchy, and I'm very excited to give that another glance.

Fiction - Just finished a re-read of Harrow the Ninth this afternoon! Gonna start a Nona re-read, hopefully on audiobook. I have been very slowly making my way through A Feast for Crows, which honestly has been a great book to pick up and put down. I also have a copy of The Bluest Eye checked out from the library, but I don't think I'll get to it before it's due :(

Sweet/spicy/savory: Sweet, with savory as a close second. Unfortunately, I am a bitch with spice.

Relationship status: You know how in middle school, you used to change your Facebook relationship status to "it's complicated" when you wanted people to gossip about you and think you were interesting? I'm there, except if anyone talks about me I'll start crying

Current Obsessions: I'm finally setting down from an obsession with The Last Of Us that comes and goes; I'm sure it will be back when I sit down and finally play the second game. Some of my friends are reading The Locked Tomb series, so Harrow brainrot has returned in full force. I'm in the middle of a continual Sufjan Stevens obsession, and am slowly making my way through all of his music; I just got his new record on Vinyl! I'm hoping some of my crafting obsessions come back, I miss it, and desperately need to finish crocheting a blanket. Overall, my brain is in exam mode, unfortunately.

Last googled: "Earthy Greens." Y'all aren't being honest - you saying you had that picture of a color on your computer? (Also, "when are PA bar results released" and "obama soup tumblr")

Currently working on: Passing my comprehensive exam (on GENDER of all things) and not failing out of graduate school. I'm doing great, of course. Also, eating consistently. Also, being a better friend :)

okay I'm tagging @lily-patent-pending because we have been active mutuals for a hot sec but I don't know you and would love to be friends :) also @criticalrolo (@criticalrolo-main) because you like stuff like this where you can talk about DND, and people will actually read yours hahaha

[huggingtentacles]

Feeling melancholic right now, I'm not responsible for my actions.

Please don't read this as complaining or asking for pity or anything, it is not. We're strangers who crossed paths on our weird-ass journey and I'm just explaining how I got here near the bonfire. You listen and I disappear, and then tell your friends you've met an angel (or a devil, whatever). M'kay?

People have told me, especially recently, that I am, well, A Lot. I speak loudly, I have strong opinions and little filter. It's easy to make me laugh and cry, and I also swear a lot in all three languages I know. I feel my feelings really intensely, and I wanted to tell you that it is kind of sorta by choice. I am this intense by choice, completely aware that I am Very Annoying to some people. It is a sacrifice I am willing to make though.

Some might've already picked it up by know but I do not have the nicest parents. I got yelled at and emotionally abused nearly daily throughout my formative years and it impacted me in a lot of ways. I think I started noticing this when I started highschool. In a new environment I managed to make a few close friends and I noticed that I am kinda different. The way I like to describe myself back then is numb. My way to deal with abuse was to shut up (speaking up was just prolonging the abuse) and do what I'm being told. Turn off all emotions and wait for it to be over. It's pretty effective, it allowed me to de-escalate the situations without wasting my emotional energy.

I thought, for the longest time, that I had figured it out. Like "wow huggingtentacles you are so mature, you are so good at suppressing your emotions. Now you can also be an emotional support for others in the time of need! Sometimes we all need a person who doesn't cry when shit happens, someone who keeps a cool head, you know?" That was my thought process at least.

Up untill like a few years ago when I started finally making friends and such. I was finally hanging out with people and I notices that I was just kinda dull all the time. Like everyone would be laughing and look pretty happy, and I was happy as well, I felt the feeling, but like, restrained myself from expressing them. It kinda hit me in the moment. And a few days later, during our literature class, we start discussing a book about a family slowly falling apart. It's pretty grim and "makes a point about society" or whatever and somewhere during my speech on this book I just. Kinda started crying? I didn't expect it myself, I got so overwhelmed because of how close to home a line in the book hit. I think it was a piece of dialogue that I word-for-word recognised from my mother.

Fastforward to the bathroom after the class, I'm standing there kinda confused because I haven't cried in *literally years* at that point. It was so strange to experience emotions like this. I cried again that evening when I went to sleep, and then I cried while listening to another audiobook. After that I watched a really emotional movie with my friend, where I also cried. I kinda got a reputation of a really emotional person.

It wasn't all crying though. I started to heal from the numbness in general. I started laughing again, and at some point I've just decided that I Don't Wanna Feel Numb Anymore. I want to feel emotions, and I want to feel them as intensely as possible. I wanted to live, not just survive.

Yes, being numb is being stable, yes. That's what the Universe wants, really. Mother nature wants stability in all things. Everything that exists is moving towards complete stability, where everything is the same all the time. I say Fuck The Universe. I say I will be as loud, angry, happy, excited, scared and horny as humanly possible.

If things don't go my way, I'll probably reach this eternal stability one day, it's called death. Until that point, I am going to Live So Fucking Hard. I am going to love my friends So Much they're gonna think I want to marry them all the time (which I do btw). I am going to hate my enemies So Hard that they're gonna hear boss music when they approach me. I am going to be SO HORNY you guys can't even fucking imagine. I am going to be Normal about fictional characters so hard they'll think I'm the origin of the So Normal meme. No matter how shit everything is going to be, I am not going back to being numb until I am actually, Physically, Eternally numb aka Really Fucking Dead. That's a threat.

Fuck you I'm not proof-reading this. Blue post button clicked.

You sit there at the bonfire processing what I've just said. I finish cooking my food on the bonfire and I eat it in a really gross manner with my hands, and you better believe I'm really really fucking enjoying it.

#shitpost #huggingtentacles lore #like actually huggingtentacles lore for real #i am telling you my backstory as a part of my character arc

[sensoryseekinganakin]

🌈🦋🌻🎈🎙️💌

🌈is there a fic that you worked *really fucking hard on* that no one would ever know? maybe a scene/theme you struggled with?

Chapter 7 of You Have Got An Open Mouth, And I Have Got An Open Wound... 😭 no one on earth is ever going to understand how long it took me to write that stupid hair cutting part. That was the most frustrating work of fiction that I've ever willingly written.

🦋what are you most insecure about when you post a fic?

I'm very rarely insecure about posting a fic because I'm very difficult to embarrass in any public way. I worry sometimes about starting controversy, but having really good friends who understand me helps me not worry about that. I get a little bit insecure or nervous when I know that something I'm very passionate about is about to be read as silly, but only in certain specific cases and probably not the ones anyone would expect.

🌻what makes you want to give up on writing? what makes you keep going?

I haven't ever truly wanted to give up before because I know I'll always come back. Taking breaks is okay! I get discouraged sometimes when the intentions or themes of what I write are misunderstood, but I will always keep writing, even if it's temporarily only in private.

🎈describe your style as a writer; is it fixed? does it change?

I think my style changes a lot, but people who have read what I write are probably better at gauging this than I am -- I just write it and I don't have any purposeful style. I will say that my prose has changed drastically between when I first started writing obikin and now, and my works from more recent years are very differently organized and written from my much earlier writing that isn't on Ao3. I think that my word choice and figurative language have also built on themselves over time and the more I write the stronger those become. What does everyone else think?

🎙️which one of your fics would you like someone to make a pod-fic of?

I would LOOOOVE a podfic of the first chapter of Does It Hurt You? Do You Like It? Can you imagine? With sound effects??? I think about this a lot.

No One Asks Me for Dances Because I Only Know How to Flail could be an interesting audiobook and God Am could make really fun audio porn (sorry for choosing a non-Star Wars option). All of these are titled after song lyrics, so the intro/background music is already chosen!

💌share something with us about an up-and-coming work (WIP) that has you excited!

I'm excited about the palpakin fic that I teased in an ask game thing a couple months ago, which I'm still working on and close to finished with. It's short, but everything takes me a long time lately. I'm also excited to proceed with Does It Hurt You? Do You Like It? once I pick up steam again. Recently I was inspired to write more Wintergirls fanfiction, which I started, but I'm not sure if it will go anywhere.

Here's the playlist that I've been writing my palpakin fic to (https://open.spotify.com/playlist/404qAv3CjhVOUcCjSkEeha?si=2c7d5ffb0dc34c5f)! I'm probably going to title it after lyrics from Beauty School by Deftones.

#mwah #ask #ask game

[mangacat201]

𝐓𝐀𝐆 (𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐄) 𝐏𝐄𝐎𝐏𝐋𝐄 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐖𝐀𝐍𝐓 𝐓𝐎 𝐆𝐄𝐓 𝐓𝐎 𝐊𝐍𝐎𝐖 𝐁𝐄𝐓𝐓𝐄𝐑

Got tagged by @hedgewyse whom I was very happy to get to know better via this tag game, thanks a lot! Sorry it took so long to respond, I needed to get on tumblr on the laptop where I can actually type up text and I had a lot of things going on this past week that kept me LOL.

Favourite colour: Blue.

No explanation, not particular reason why, it’s just always been blue. All shades from deep purple to almost white. But I have a special place in my heart for the word ‘turquoise’, which I feel is just so the most. 

Currently reading: Oh good gosh, my open doc reading list is so long, I will constrain myself to the most recent things...

“(Love is)The second oldest profession” The 9-1-1 Buck/Eddie pornstar!AU I knew I needed but kept for a special occasion

I’m also reading “Achtsam Morden” a national German bestseller and the first actual like physical book I’ve picked up in probably four years. It’s hilarious and murdery and perfect

I’m listening to “Blood & Paper” by Kevin Hearne (whom I recently got to meet at a book signing event when he was visiting here and a friend asked me to spontaneously tag along - best decision in ages) Love the audiobook version read by Luke Daniels, he’s a whizz with the accents.

“Hide the drums (there’s fire in the sky)” latest installment of the Magical Marriage Ribbons-Verse, the Untamed Mega Saga, for which the author starandrea has been posting a chapter every day since May 31st 2020, so 805 consecutive days as of now without missing ONE. It boggles the mind. (I’ve started reading when the verse was ... oh I think about three parts in, I haven’t missed one too since then)

Last song: “The Greatest Show on Earth” - Nightwish, it’s my soundtrack for my daily yoga practice (no I am in fact not joking), so it doesn’t really count last leisure listening was the soundtrack of ‘Robin Hood - Das Musical’

Last series: Ooofff... ok, so many balls in the air at the same time. I’m watching “The Sandman” of course, as you do and loving it. Also “Extraordinary Attorney Woo” which is THE MOST(tm). Recently finished my rewatch and catch-up of “Manifest” and rewatched a couple of episodes of The Devil Judge with a friend who just started and that I got into it, remembering why I can’t be normal about those boys (and how delightful it is to rewatch with someone experiencing sth for the first time). Of course went down the magnificent and batshit crazy rabbithole that is Kinnporsche. Also, “Tomorrow” which is definitely my fav K-Drama of 2022.

Last movie: Day Shift - Fun and a nice remix of vampire tropes that you don’t really see on top of each other a lot. But it felt more like a set up to a movie trilogy I don’t know if it’s made enough impact into getting, so the premise might have been served better as a mini series? ...The Gray Man, which was solid and enjoyable and absolutely bonkers with how hilarious it was to watch Chris Evans have a ton of fun playing straight up, no holds barred, unredeemable villian. Ryan Gosling can stay... Ana de Armas is queen bee.

Currently working on: My last day of vacation :sob: and of course my WIP/plot bunnie enclosure excel spreadsheet (yes, I do not do things by half until I halfass writing them). Anyway, actual words or plotty thinky thoughts were put into:

- The Devil Judge a/b/o PWP (that has, so far, about 5k of set up and no porn) with a Jung Sunah made them do it scenario and non-traditional dynamics (yeah, idek...)

- Vincenzo Inception fusion - Jang Han Seo wakes up from getting shot to a curious set up of sleeping people around him (really really wanna write this one but the premise is so vast I’m afraid of flaming out again)

- three separate 9-1-1 Buddie fics of varying size and scope that reaches from one’s in love the other isn’t and confessions make things complicated (or do they), the fall out from the truck bombing goes the other way for Buck & the “Eddie deals with his 5B-issues by discovering shibari”!AU (do NOT try this at home-therapy)

- The Untamed - Blades of Glory!AU

pheeeeew. hooookay, wow, that was interesting, hope your learned something about me. I’mma tag some people, but please, feel free to participate at your own leisure. @hattalove, @the-marathon-continues-nip , @iskarieot, @themostglorioushour, @letmetellyouaboutmyfeels , @fondofeveryprickle, @ahhhnorealnamesallowed, @sam-t-a, @b612sunsets

#tag game #get to know me #lol

[bibookmerm]

i am just still processing the last 3 days, lol.

Saturday. Okay, so, there is a specific music video in our museum. everyone loves it. It's on the exhibit floors and you can watch it. when we close for the day, someone usually presses the button to play it while we go through the last floor. It's great. It features a scientist who worked here 20-30 years ago singing about paleontology. On saturday he visited with his family! My coworker who has worked here since those days pointed him out and said "You see that man on the bench? That's (name) from the music video." I was starstruck and she was like "come on, I'll introduce you!" So um, she got his attention, told him my name, and I shook his hand. We didnt want to interrupt his visit much more than that but it made my day just to talk to him for a minute. I got done with work at 4, and the library is open until 5, so I stopped in to browse before going home. I saw they had this book I was thinking of buying at the bookstore but put back. I grabbed that, some Spanish learning resources, and a physical copy of Harrow The Ninth because I'm struggling to follow the audiobook.

Sunday. I had a really chill day. Hardly any guests came to my ticket window so I basically sat and quietly read Camp Damascus all day. On my breaks, my coworkers filled me in on Internet and Artist Drama that I was unaware of. It was fun talking to them.

Monday at work was fine. Interacting with people wears me down pretty fast and it was one of those hard days. After work, I got confused and thought my wife was picking me up when she wasn't. I was stepping on the bus when she messaged me so I went "Oh shoot!" and didn't get on the bus, then I realized my mistake. A guy standing nearby said "Hey cutie pie." and when I didnt respond "Don't be shy." I ran back to work and one of my coworkers was still in the parking lot. Honestly just seeing someone I knew helped me calm down a bit. He asked if I need a ride but I said no because the bus was coming again in 10 minutes. I walked to the stop before my usual one (missed it and had to wait another 15 minutes). No one talked to me, thankfully. Then I went to a new friend's house for the first session of a TTRPG campaign. Everyone seems kind and like they'll be fun to play with. I got snowed on on the way home!

Overall a lot of good things. I've been struggling with anxiety a lot recently so it felt like I got to receive some much needed warmth and moments of beauty. ♡

[server-shell]

I've learnt quite a bit about myself over this past year. One of the biggest lessons being that nobody is ever truly a complete person. Accepting this has helped me a lot as its resulted in me being more lenient with myself, and not putting those around me on pedestals.

I picked up reading this year, and that has easily been one of the best things I've done for myself in recent memory. A few friends have suggested audiobooks if I want to consume faster, but something about finding a coffee shop to sit alone in and read with my headphones on - out of the house and in my own world - is just unrivalled. Though, the staff at my usual one is starting to know me by name (whoops!).

The first book I read - Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance by Robert Pirsig - was actually recommended to me by a classmate, who since finishing it I've reached out to to thank. The recommendation came during a discussion we had while we trekked through a foot of snow after a Philosophy class this past January. I think the conversation stemmed from me asking about a DND home-brew game I'd seen him prepping before the class, but once we got on the topic of this book he gave me such a phenomenal review that I made a stop on my way home to pick up my own copy to read.

Much of that book has stuck with me since reading it, however there are two parts I consistently find myself flipping back to even after finishing the book. The first is on page 22 when the author discusses a leaky faucet in his friends house. The author concludes the faucets dripping must not affect his friends (John and Sylvia), but this is later proven to be false when he sees Sylvia react harsher than necessary in a situation, and realizes the dripping faucets existence - which she'd refused to acknowledge - was impacting her day to day life. John had initially tried to fix the faucet and failed, however his refusal to ask for help when the task proved to be too much for him allowed for the issue to grow into a larger one which then impacted not only himself but those around him as well. This section highlighted to me the importance of tackling issues in ones life as they arise, as had John swallowed his pride and sought help the minor inconvenience would not have existed to act as fuel and harm either himself or those around him down the line.

The second part I consistently return to is on page 55, when the group on their motorcycle journey descends on the prairie. Sylvia remarks how beautiful the scenery is, and John retrieves his camera to take some photos, which he then complains cannot capture the beauty. Specifically, John notes that "As soon as you put a border on it, it's gone". I appreciate this section because it reminds me the importance of living in the moment before trying to capture it. I've taken some amazing photos, but I'll never feel the same looking at them as I did when I captured them.

If I recounted every moment in that book which I appreciated (I've got over 50 individual tabs in the book), I worry I'd plagiarize virtually the entire thing, and probably spoil it for those who haven't read it. That said, looking at all the tabs I placed in that book it's no wonder it impacted me so strongly, and why I've returned to it so often.

Song of the day: I'm Still Standing - Elton John

#Zen #Self care #Pirsig #robert m. pirsig #Reading #book #Coffee #shouting into the void

[ettawritesnstudies]

1 and 23?

who is/are your comfort character(s)?

Currently, I'm obsessed with the dnd podcast Rolling with Difficulty and @comicaurora

If I had to pick 1 specific comfort character from each one I would have to go with VR-LA (pronoucned "veer-la"), a robot wizard with amnesia who's trying to find out what happened to his lost crew and protect his new family. Poor guy got cursed in one of the recent episodes and the effect was very similar to how I deal with social-anxiety and so it was very relatable and I think I've re-listened to those episodes twice or three times in the past week because the minute the crew learned about his affliction, their first priority was finding a way to fix it and I thought that was very sweet and heartwarming and all the players have such a good dynamic and delivery, but especially Kyana reassuring him that the villain is stupid and wrong and she's living semi-immortal proof that things aren't destined to end miserably. I'm lucky to have such wonderful friends irl and we all serve that role of taking turns beating back each other's insecurities with a baseball bat so I've spent the last two days since I got back to school begging them to listen to this podcast so they can catch up and experience it with me. I met them through DnD, I know they would love it, but convincing people to buy into.....(quick math) 72ish hours of podcast is hard.

I DID convince my best friend to read aurora and they binged it in a week and now we send each other screaming reactions to each new page as soon as we get up in the mornings. I really love Erin and can also relate to the pretentious know it all that tries to act aloof but very deeply cares for their friends, and Dainix's barely restrained anger at the System (tm) is a huge mood after having put up with zoom uni academia BS and horrible professors ruling my life for the past three years, and I love Kendal's paragon-ness so so much and this whole last arc has dovetailed so many complicated arcs together so smoothly and the foreshadowing setup-payoff of the most recent plot twist was SO SATISFYING. I started reading this comic when it first started and I'm not very active in fandom spaces but back in 2019 I predicted that twist and I was right but I didn't expect it to go like this and so it's just so perfect in so many ways that make my hyper-analytical writer brain go running away at light speed.

23. how do you feel about chilly weather?

I like it just fine but still wish my dorm would turn on the heat earlier than November in northern PA. Extra darkness in winter makes me want to hibernate and embroider and listen to audiobooks (and dnd podcasts) and not do thermodynamics homework that explains why I need gloves indoors to hold my pencil.

[flashbic]

Anyway I'm finally picking up Eragon book 4 and jfc the length of that thing why

#the friend who got me to read these recently picked up the audiobook for it #so reading it at the same time should be fun #he kept telling me the first 3 books were meh but the last one was great so WE'LL SEE #anyway thank god for the extremely detailed 'previously on Eragon...' summary #bc I'd forgotten a bunch of stuff #karvolf reads Eragon

[childlikemperor]

i think/know its genuinely hard to transition from YA into adult books because of the scarcity of quality recommendations for genre fiction compared to YA but i promise its so worth it so here’s how i got into adult books i actually like after not reading since middle school

listicles are super helpful!

you can always look up things like “best science fiction 2021” or even “books about witches” and look for the ones that have the most interesting synopsis

i find that inserting a specific year helps you not get the same 5 super famous books in any given genre/theme, giving you way more variety to pick from. also, i recommend prioritizing more recent years (say, the past 5ish) so you can be more or less up to date with the recs and market trends

also if you havent read anything since school, dont focus on filtering out the YA recommendations right away at this stage, just find recent-ish stuff you like and have fun! this will help you figure out what you like so you can finetune your recommendations later on

i think the idea that you must stop reading YA all together and only read adult fiction is a big part of why people don’t bother to even seek it out but i promise you dont have to leave it behind completely!!! its all about diversifying your palette!!!

storygraph is your friend!!!

storygraph is a book logging site/app that helps you find books based on quite literally their vibes!! things such as dark, mysterious, adventurous, etc. AND it provides trigger warnings

unlike goodreads, it isnt owned by amazon (dw, it lets you import your entire goodreads library into it so the switch is p seamless)

also you get a bunch of neat little graphs about all the books you mark as read

follow book influencers whose tastes match your own that read adult books often

my general rule of thumb is i need to agree with at least 60% of their opinions on the books ive read to consider us “matched”

(this is where having read at least a couple current-ish books helps give you some perspective on things you like that might show up on the favorites lists of people that have kept up to date with their reading the past few years)

here’s some of my faves: thegr8estangell on tiktok, melreads on youtube and (in portuguese) um bookaholic on youtube

ignore reviews from strangers/people who dont match your tastes

its a recipe for disappointment, i promise!!! especially those big passionate negative reviews at the very top of goodreads? 8 times outta 10 you’re gonna end up enjoying the book for half the things they’re yelling about!

the library is your friend and so are used book stores

for me at least, i had a really hard time with the notion of spending too much on a book i’d end up disliking, so getting books for cheap or even free really helped take the edge off exploring new books

another perk of these avenues is that they often have a lot of what i call “diamond flops” which are great books that either werent or arent currently popular so theyre extra cheap/never on hold (this is how i stumbled upon Tyll and fell in love with it)

if you’re not from a libby having country like me you can do what i did and ask a friend who is for their library card number! in my experience, the app doesnt track across devices so you wont have to worry about judging each others reads

AUDIOBOOKS 100% COUNT AS READING

if you find that you have a hard time focusing, i recommend picking up both the book itself (be it digital or otherwise) and reading it along with the audio. if you find yourself getting bored/antsy easily with just audio you can also try playing it while you play a little mindless phone game (my go to is twodots)

again, the libby app is your friend and so is youtube

#ITS LITERATE GIRL (gn) SUMMER #some current YA authors i enjoy are rory power and kiersten white btw so if you want some recs to start easy

[bookaddict24-7]

REVIEWS OF THE WEEK!

Books I’ve read so far in 2022!

Friend me on Goodreads here to follow my more up to date reading journey for the year!

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73. Disfigured by Amanda Leduc--⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

I first came across this book because a popular booktuber mentioned that the audiobook narration was one of their favourites. While I agree that the book itself is a pretty eye-opening and important read, I thought the narration was honestly just okay. That being said, I think this exploration of fairy tales and their erasure and/or villainization of people with disabilities is quite important. If you are born non-disabled (like I was), then you don't really take notice of how damaging it can be to have a villain in a story that is mainly characterized as someone with a disfigurement or a disability. In this book, Leduc comments on how the ableist ideology of how to cure a villain of their villainy, or a hero who doesn't fit "societal standards" until they are miraculously "cured" needs to be talked about more. I never thought of how these stories could be both a source of escapism and a damaging reminder for young children with disabilities. Thinking about it now, it breaks my heart. I recommend this book for anyone who has always been curious about the effects of fairy tales on our society and our kids. Also, for anyone who wants to learn more about experiences beyond your own on topics that you may have never considered before.

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74. Never Saw Me Coming by Vera Kurian--⭐️⭐️⭐️

I don't generally read a lot of bestsellers when they first come out, but my coworker brought this one to my attention so I put a hold on the audiobook at the library. When it finally came through, I'll admit that I was a little wary. I don't know what I was expecting but it wasn't what I got--not that this is a bad thing, it was just a different experience than what I expected. The murder mystery of it was intriguing and I didn't guess who the murderer was until the very end. I'll be completely honest: while I'm writing this review, I'm wondering if the author also didn't know because there were some unexplained red herrings thrown in here that we never really got any answers for. Anyway, between the cheating, the weird and too easy conclusion that left me wondering if there's a sequel, and the unbelievable results of one of the characters' scheming, this was just okay for me. Was I partially hooked while listening because I wanted answers? Yes. Was I confused about how I felt about the cheating in question? Also yes (with the understanding that both cheaters here are complex human beings that deserve each other). This was okay, even if it was entertaining at times.

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75. Everyone is Beautiful by Katherine Center--⭐️⭐️⭐️

I've read a few of this author's works and I've deciding to jump into her older stuff because I really have enjoyed her more recent books. While this one wasn't my favourite one by her, I could still see the writing that makes this author so memorable. She writes women who are always trying to discover who they are and essentially remake themselves into the image of themselves that will bring them absolute joy. I definitely saw this with this main character and while I'm not a mom, I felt her frustrations with the life she'd started to live the moment her kids were born. I also felt the tiredness and irritation that came from her when she interacted with her husband. I will admit that the main reason why this is a three star for me is because half the time I didn't really know where this one was going. The story took some turns I was afraid would lead elsewhere--especially because the narrator gives us a pretty ominous warning at the beginning of her transformation. But despite me not knowing where the story was going, I found this to be one of those stories I couldn't stop listening to. I wanted to know what struggles the MC would face next. And I warn you that when you pick this book up, it will seem tedious because it is literally about a woman living her every day life (even as she's working on herself). I think if I had kids while reading this, I would have experienced this story differently. But I enjoyed it for what it was.

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76. Wait for It by Jenn McKinlay--⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️.5

I’m surprised by how much I ended up enjoying this book. It wasn’t mind blowing or anything, but I loved the characters and how the romance came about. I’m a sucker for the grumpy recluse who falls for the artistic kind woman. Also, this is dual perspective and I’m a massive sucker for that in my romances. It isn’t the spiciest read I’ve read, but it also wasn’t a fade to black situation. I’m taking half a star off because I wasn’t a big fan of the anxiety I got from the MC having to deal with the asshole at her work. I think this would be a great summer read!

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77. The Cheerleaders by Kara Thomas--⭐️⭐️⭐️

I'm almost all caught up on this author's work and while I do enjoy her mysteries, I found this one a little bit of a let down. I still enjoyed the mystery and the twists (I saw the main one coming), and that ENDING. Holy, I did NOT see that ending coming. I think I wanted more from this one? For some reason, I thought I would get a story where the murders were being repeated or something like that (hi, I don't read the synopsis before reading a book, remember?), so I was a little disappointed and a wee bit bored when I found that it wasn't going to be that. I've been meaning to read this one for a long time and even though it wasn't a favourite, I'd still recommend it to fans of YA murder mysteries! TW though for an underage sexual relationship and abortion (it happens at the very beginning).

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78. I’m Still Here by Austin Channing Brown--⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

This book was absolutely incredible. I should have known I would enjoy it from the very first sentence: "White people are exhausting." Brown dives into her life growing up in a society that begrudgingly gave her space but didn't acknowledge it. She explores the idea of how white people think that simply giving a black person space at a table should be enough--that asking for understanding and a listening ear when they've said or done something racist is simply too much. If you want to be accepted, you of course have to assimilate. There was one scene that made me laugh out loud and share the quote with various coworkers because I couldn't believe this was a real experience. A white student approached Brown and, while in tears, admitted that they had no idea that slavery was something that had happened on purpose. On one hand, I was surprised and full of laughter at the audacity, but on the other hand, I'm not surprised that this person's education failed them so much. One of the things I loved the most, I think, about I'M STILL HERE is the unapologetic approach that Brown had when speaking on topics like white people touching a black person's hair, the temptation to code switch in order to get along with white peers, and having to form a way of existing with other BIPOC coworkers in order to survive your workplace. She also brings up the micro-aggressions she's met from white people simply because they're not accustomed to either being held accountable by a black boss, and/or a black female boss with a white man's name. Anyway, before I continue rambling, this was absolutely incredible and a super important read. I can't recommend it enough. It's also TINY, so seriously, you can probably read this in a few hours!

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Have you read any of these? Would you recommend them?

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Happy reading!

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[icollectyoursins]

Leone Abbacchio Relationship HCs

🐉 anon asked for: “Abbacchio relationship hcs?? -🐉”

These are just SFW headcanons, so I went a little overboard to compensate for the lack of NSFW although, I’ll no doubt do some in the future. Tried to make these kind of organized so it’s easier to read. This will all be under the cut And, yes, reader is a stand user and can see Moody Blues.

Wanna know what I’m willing to write? Rules here!

Have a character, but no idea? Prompt list here!

Looking for more? Master post here!

WARNINGS: SFW, brief mentions of nightmares, trauma.

Word Count: 2226

General

Abbacchio is a tough cookie to crack when it comes to romance and forms of affection. He just doesn’t think he’s super into it. Until you gently caress his face while he’s falling asleep or maybe it was the time you curled up next to him while watching a movie. Or the time you casually laced your fingers with his while walking down the street. 

Okay, fine, he’s soft, but he would never admit it! Unless he’s been drinking a little too much. Then he’ll tell you how much you mean to him. Or when you’re feeling like shit and super down on yourself.

His nicknames/pet names for you are usually dear, cara/caro (darling/dear), but mostly he just uses your name. He likes the way it sounds! And, honestly, you like the way he says it too.

After you’ve been together for a while, he starts to notice changes in his personality and habits. He’s calmer, doesn’t lash out as much as he used to; he’s less on edge about everything. As well, he noticed that he was drinking less and when he was drinking, it was healthier. It wasn’t long binges in the middle of the night anymore, it was just one or two with friends or for a celebration. He didn’t really realize how much you helped him and how much you meant to him until then. He knew he loved you, of course, but that was really where it clicked in.

You notice the change too. He starts getting more playful in a weird Abbacchio way. It’s small things like poking your side or behind while you’re focused on something. Occasionally, he’ll wrap his arms around your waist from behind and whisper something sweet in your ear that makes you giggle. 

When Abbacchio isn’t reading, he’s listening to someone reading. He frequently listens to podcasts, audiobooks, etc. while doing his chores or driving. He thinks it’s a good way to educate himself on current topics or things he’s just interested in. With his whole past, I don’t think he would be interested in true crime or anything like that. Too triggering for him and with you, he really doesn’t want to fall back into old habits.

Now, he’s not perfect and he’s obviously a very hurt individual, so I think it would take someone with a lot of patience to help him get over some of his trauma (and yes, it is trauma). He has his rough days where he’s angrier and more on edge and this makes him more likely to yell or lash out. If you can avoid this, great, but talk to him about it later when he’s calmed down. He needs someone who is good with tense situations who can either calm him down or be able to walk away from the situation and come back later. That being said, you are not his therapist, you are not anyone’s therapist (unless that’s your job). You are their partner. A partner can help with some, but usually, you’re not trained enough to properly deal with something like this.

Dates

He enjoys taking long walks with you, especially near the water. The water is extremely relaxing to him and you’re relaxing to him, so it’s the best of both worlds. 

Not overly into picnics, but if you offer, he would be more than happy to indulge you by packing a basket with some nice red wine and a charcuterie board with some sandwiches. Sincerely loves the beach and sitting next to you on a blanket, enjoying the sun on the warmer days just makes him feel so human again.

His favourite dates with you are the ones where you two are on the couch at home together watching a movie. He enjoys the closeness, the relaxed state you’re both in and, of course, the popcorn. Eats it plain to be healthier, but when you’re not looking, he’ll add salt and butter to his. But, then one day one of the boyz introduce him to adding chocolatey things to popcorn (like M&M’s) and that’s it. His loose diet is out the window.

     The microwave beeped in the background while you plopped down, flicking through different disks in your hand. You had picked out a classic, cheesy werewolf horror movie by the time Abbacchio sat down with two bowls in hand. He handed him the movie while sneaking a handful of his popcorn into your mouth.

     “Mmph!” You let out a muffled sound of shock as warm chocolate squished into your hand. You dropped the chocolate into your bowl, looking at the mess you had just made. “What did you put in your bowl?”

     He chucked. “Mn’M’s.”

     “Why?”

     “Narancia told me to.” The DVD was in and starting up just as he was walking back, shaking the couch as he sat down with a grunt. He pulled a tissue out of the box next to him, handing it to you, then he grabbed his bowl, picking out a piece of warm M&M and sucking it into his mouth with a satisfying crunch. He licked his fingers while you cleaned your palm, frustrated with how little it was cleaning up. 

     “Ugh, whatever!” You began licking up the remnants earning you another chuckle from Leone. One of you presses play on the remote and settle into each other. You’re curled up into his arm for most of the movie, head leaning on his collar bone. He occasionally kisses the top of your head or pops a piece of popcorn in your mouth. 

     Soon, the bowls are empty and you’re practically sitting in his lap, holding each other close. He’s so warm, so comfortable. You find yourself starting to nod into sleep. He hums as he feels your breathing slow to a steady rhythm. Yeah, that movie was pretty boring, wasn’t it?

     He chuckles, carefully pulling the blanket from the back of the couch, pulling it around you while he got himself comfortable. There was no way he was getting up from this spot, so he might as well join you.

When Abbacchio is feeling fancy or bougie, he’ll take you out to restaurants or tourist attractions. If anyone tries to swindle you out of something, you can guarantee he’s going to at least insult them in some way or maybe just straight up kick them in the face. Regardless, he’ll protect you.

Affection

When in public, he still likes to keep you close, but tones it down a little bit. Usually, he’s got his hand on your back or you’re holding hands, hovering close to each other. 

He’s very protective and if the gang’s jokes go too far, he’ll let them know. 

In private, he’s obviously more relaxed. He doesn’t need to put on a mask around you, so he just lets it all go. He’ll come up while you’re doing chores and either hug you from behind or spin you around for a kiss before letting you continue whatever it was you were doing with no explanation. 

Very rarely lets you do his makeup, but when he does, he’s a little cheeky about it and kind of anal all at the same time. The easiest way for you to do his make up is sitting in his lap, so already he’s cocky about it, but then you start getting to the eyeliner and he gets picky.

   You perched yourself on Leone’s lap, carefully buffing out a natural-looking eyeshadow with a brush. Occasionally, he would crack open an eye, looking up to see the concentration on your face as you avoided any fall out from the shadow. He squeezed your thighs pleasantly then massaged circles into the soft flesh. You looked into his open eye with a coy smirk before returning to your work.

    You dipped the brush into the pallet again, this time a lighter shade for the inner corner of his eyes. Gently, you pressed the pigment in from the edge of the lid to the corner, then, like before, you buffed it out back into the lid. His hands began to wander, sliding up and down your thighs. You gave him another look, but he wasn’t paying attention this time, eyes closed. You scoffed.

    Finally, you finished, moving onto the eyeliner, picking out a sleek black You started with the outer corner, going for a winged look. Before you were able to press a line in, he grabbed your hand quickly, pushing it back so he could open his eyes.

    “You’re doing it wrong,” he said. You sat back, exasperated.

    “I haven’t even done anything!”

    The two of you got into a small playful argument of “oh, I’ll do it,” “no, I’ll do it.” Until eventually you settled with him doing your makeup in exchange.

    “Thank you, now.” You reached for two shades of lipstick, one purple and one black. “Which one do you want?” He rolled his eyes, grabbing the black as well as a handheld mirror.

    “No, no, no. You get to do your eyeliner, not your lipstick! The lipstick is mine.” You playfully kissed his lips before pulling everything from his hands, earning you a groan from Abbacchio.

Seeing as we’re talking about sitting on his lap! He loves it. Just, any physical touch from you makes him feel so loved, especially when alone at home. He particularly enjoys when you’re pressed up against him while reading a book or watching a movie with his arm around you. Alternatively, he enjoys your legs tossed over his thighs or his over yours.

Around the House

Now, chores. Abbacchio doesn’t like chores. He’ll do them if you ask, but he’s not gonna like it. Least favourite is laundry. He just kind of chucks his clothes on the floor in a pile until you tell him to move it or do it yourself. You can’t tell the difference between his clean clothes and dirty clothes, so you mostly let him deal with it when the pile gets big enough or he runs out of clothes.

Doesn’t hate doing the dishes, so he actually gets stuck with that since you’re doing almost everything else. If you’ve recently had the rest of the Bucci gang over, he’s less inclined to do it. Narancia and Mista both tend to be slobs, so their plates are always nasty, but he does it anyway, just complains a lot later. Nastiness aside, doing the dishes slowly becomes a therapy moment for him. Just his music, a bunch of clean dishes and pure peace.

Much like with dishes, he doesn’t hate vacuuming or dusting and will do it when asked, but doesn’t like it. Honestly, he’s not the best at vacuuming, he always misses corners and forgets to do one place, so you do most of it. 

Look, I’m not saying he’s a slob, he’s not, but he can get a little lazy, especially on his rougher days. That being said, if it’s a special day or he’s feeling a little romantic and has something planned, he’ll do everything. It won’t be perfect, but the sentiment is there. 

Sleeping

He has a very cute snore. It’s not loud or obnoxious, it’s soft and relaxed. Honestly, kind of soothing. That is IF you’re able to hear it. He usually doesn’t sleep until you do, but it’s very precious. 

Prefers being big spoon or ‘the pillow’ where you sleep on some body part of his (his thighs are exceptionally comfy and, of course, his pecs). He usually wraps one arm around you if he can, rubbing his thumb against your shoulder or forearm. 

But, one night, you got in bed late and he was already asleep, so you came up behind him, wrapping your arm around his waist then stroking his stomach softly. He’ll never let you know, but he was awake. That was the day he discovered he loved being a little spoon. He won’t fight if you happen to do it again.

Regardless, Abbacchio is clingy when he sleeps. Not bear hug, but always has an arm around you to make sure you’re there and safe. 

He gets some nightmares, of course. Doesn’t scream, just jolts awake and goes to grab a glass of water, then comes back, so it’s unlikely he’d wake you up from a deep sleep. If you are awake, ask him what he needs. Sometimes he needs you to hold him, other times he needs just some time alone, but remind him you are there for anything. If you’ve already got a glass of water next to his bed, he’s head over heels. So thankful. Might make you breakfast the next morning as a proper thank you.

Stand

What does Moody Blues think? Well, much like its user, it’s very analytical and almost cold when it comes to you, though if Abbacchio is away from you for a little longer than usual, but still in range (like being kept in a meeting too long while you’re in the car waiting) he’ll send his stand to you and help you relax a bit by letting you cuddle “Abbacchio” (the stand copying it’s user), or just let you relax with the stand itself! 

Actually, if he’s busy at home and you’re tired, MB will replay a time where you were cuddling in bed, or on the couch so you can snuggle with someone at least. 

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