#the angrier i become

[sammygender]

YALL ARE NOT SERIOUS PEOPLE no way i’m looking at the tumblr tag for spn 7x03 aka the sam centric flashback episode dealing with his childhood trauma and how he feels like he’s a freak and everyone is just posting about DEAN. dean and his stupid fucking pie. dean winchester used to be my guy! genuinely! s2-3 i truly thought i was a deangirl! But you people (plus this show atp lmfao) are making me hate him😭

#he was cute witn his silly pie. and i care for him and understand he’s grieving cas and thinks he’s about to lose sam and is therefore copin #Awfully and doing things like resorting to black and white john winchester embedded monster racism to do so #But thing is i’m actually getting pretty fucking sick of him coping awfully #he never learns he never grows he just gets angrier. he’s incapable of seeing sammy as someone whose decisions can be respected despite the #fact sam literally SAVED THE WORLD by SACRIFICING HIMSELF. #he just sits around and drinks and tries to become his father and avoid becoming his father in equal amounts #he’s actually awful!! sam goes off to do a case something totally justified (tho sure he could’ve asked) and dean fucking punches him in the #face… and somehow it just Doesn’t feel haha funny because its forceful and it’s serious and this is like the 3rd time he’s done this shit #and it’s also in the same ep where we see sams fraught relationship w john (Bc Duh) which is paralleled to the relationship amy has with her #mom where her mom fucking hits her. like. #dean winchester!!! when i find you!!!!!!!! stop recreating ur trauma!!!!!!!! stop taking shit out on sam :( #he cares sooooooooo deeply and it affects every fucking thing he does that’s why he’s so awful and why he cant cope #But guess what the same can be said about john winchezter the same can be said about a LOT of people. doesn’t excuse anything dean. GET YOUR #SHIT TOGETHER. #i love dean he’s vividly compelling to me. But. :/ #oliver talks #sam winchester

[craycraybluejay]

i miss them.. they made me feel so excited and hurt and scared and things.. i fucking hate them its been years and i miss this stupid motherfucker suddenly again

#all the degrading and control god take me back #the cruel indifference #do all dreams have to end? #i dont know if ill ever feel so indulged again #so allowed to be feral. animal. nothing but instinct and sensation #it was complete chaos and it was 'morally corrupt' but by god it kept me so happy and satisfied #i dont think ive felt anything but fleeting (minutes) joy since it was over i didnt have that crutch anymore #i was right. it left me untethered. #untethered much like a balloon i will float float float away #and im still angry still impulsive and pain seeking and hungry #whenever i felt i was going to explode out of my skin i had an outlet #without one i get physically sick with it with all the energy and feeling and impulse #its like my whole body is wrapped in live wire #worse was that i trusted them and it wasnt just a clean cut and dry its over #it was ugly and fucking awful and completely caught me off guard #i still have the memories saved i could go and look #i shouldnt. not tonight. not this impulse #i will become so much angrier it isnt worth the pleasure

[leaflnthewind]

Not to anyone in particular but again Lex should always be an omega. Look at that man he would love to be an alpha so much he would be the worst kind of insufferable do you want to give him that satisfaction? I sure don't!

#my main reason for making lex an omega is bc he would hate it and i love making him suffer #also when you use omegaverse as a political commentary it just gets better like #you have a boy who was born poor and had to work his ass off and make deals with shady people and kill to get where he is #and when he was this close to become the most powerful man on earth here it comes from the skies an alien to take that position #in my mind it just works better with lex as an omega you know. he managed to get past that but he can't get past alien gods #also in my mind kryptonians aren't alphas or omegas since they're an alien species #which makes lex even angrier #anyways just thinking thoughts #lex luthor #dc comics #omegaverse

[smores100]

hey.

so. haven't been around for quite some time, mostly due to my health issues (the usual + muscle aches and joint pains, i'm having a great time), but also in part due to The Situation. it's hard to care about anything with everything that's been going on, it all seems so pointless and meaningless, i'm living in a completely different universe from everyone else here. wish i could be that privileged, but alas. it's also hard being around here, and on other social media platforms for that matter, and seeing the raging antisemitism and sheer hate everywhere. i haven't checked my dash in almost 2 months, haven't checked specific blogs like i used to either, and have no plans on doing so anytime soon. i know what i'll find, i don't want it.

i was gonna stay quiet like i ususally do, especially since i genuinely don't have energy for anything rn, but it's been 2 months and i've been biting my tongue and screaming and crying into my pillow daily and i just need to get some of it out before i implode. there's only so much ignorance and hate that one person can take before snapping, so. here i am.

i have so much i want to say, i've written a million posts in my mind in the past 2 months, but i'm too Tired to actually write them down, and it'll just be one big messy ramble anyway, so i'm just gonna reblog a couple of other people's posts and make do with that. just a couple, don't worry, i know these are issues most either want to avoid dealing with or the opinions shared in those posts are a complete 180 degrees from what's trendy to believe in today. but i have to share it anyway. for 2 months i've been terrified, frustrated, bitter, angry and absolutely heartbroken, but there's one thing i haven't been, and that is ashamed. i'm proud of who i am. i'm proud of my people and their spirit. you will never understand what it's been like for us, what it still is like for us, but let me just say this: they wanted to break us, they wanted to break our spirit. they failed. we've never been more united. they just made us stronger.

so i'm gonna reblog some stuff so i can get it out of my system and move on. at worst i hope you just ignore and scroll past it; at best i hope you keep an open mind and maybe for the first time read things from a different pov instead of just the one sided propaganda everyone is continuously exposed to. maybe you'll see it isn't all black and white, maybe you'll see there are nuances you're not even aware of, maybe you'll realize you've been fed a lot of misinformation, half truths and even lies over the years. maybe. if you have questions or want to have a mature and civil conversation about it, feel free to msg me and i'll try and reply when my health allows me to, i'm open to discussion. if you want to unfollow me after this, feel free to do so. i'm not gonna force my truth on anyone, but i'm also not gonna change who i am for anyone either.

and on a more personal note, i wanna say thank you again for the msgs i've received last time and haven't replied to (due to health, Situation etc), and for the ones i've gotten since (will get to those soon i hope). i do feel the need to say this tho - i did have a peek or two at my dash and on twitter earlier on and saw some things. i was in a super sensitive state at the time and it was pretty disheartening ngl. it's hard nowadays, with all the hate going on and public opinion being what it is, to know whether or not you're still welcome in these spaces, whether or not people still like you and care about you, or if you've officially become persona non grata. most days it feels like the latter tbh. i just don't know where i stand. i said i'm not gonna force myself on anyone and i'm not, so if you're still ok with me…i guess the ball's in your court? 🌻

thanks for reading. thanks for sticking around, to those who decide to do so. take care y'all. never again is now. am yisrael chai. 💙

#y'all are lucky i wrote this post and the tags on the following posts yesterday morning #bc after what was revealed yesterday and what happened this morning i'm a million times angrier and more bitter #i have never felt this magnitude of heartbreak and rage before #it was never like this before october 7 but with every day that passes i get angrier and angrier and cry more and more #every now and then i just want to set the world on fire #i cannot believe what has become of humanity. we don't deserve nice things. #and this is the mindset i have to live with in my condition??? i need positivity and light but there are barely any to be found anymore #fuck everything #anyway #it ended up being a bit more than a couple of posts bc i have a whole lot of feelings i had to get out #so if you don't wanna see anything about this you can blacklist the tag 'jumblr' #tbh i'll be lucky if i have any followers left after this lol but oh well it is what it is a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do etc etc #at least i will always have the pornbots to keep me company....<3 #jumblr #personal

[kvetchinglyneurotic]

Just popping in to say I read the new chapter of The Hedgehog’s dilemma and WOOH. WOOOOOOOOH. WOOOH BOY, I thought Roy was gonna kill Ted. Like woahh my god. That was so cathartically satisfying to have Roy completely read what was happening in the room and put his foot down like that. I am so very excited for the next chapter—even though my heart is just BREAKING for Jamie, gosh

Anyways- LOVING IT!

Thank you!! The difference between how Roy and Ted respond to Jamie's situation with his dad is so interesting to me and up until around mid-season 3, I was convinced it would be part of Ted's character arc — the idea that hurt people hurt people, and sometimes that hurt takes the form of giving well-meaning but ultimately deeply harmful advice because you're too mired in your own trauma to actually understand the reality of the other person's situation. So when I watched season 2, I interpreted Roy's complete lack of patience for Phoebe's dad ("he's a piece of shit") and him subsequently being the one to comfort Jamie at Wembley as the writers essentially signalling to the audience that he's able to approach the situation from a much more functional angle than Ted, and that Ted would eventually process his trauma enough to develop a more nuanced view of when his whole forgiveness and second chances thing is and is not useful. But then that didn't happen, so I figured if canon doesn't give you the character arc you want, homemade is fine.

#fic: the hedgehog's dilemma #ted lasso fanfic #ted lasso #roy kent #jamie tartt #mirror universe version of this fic where roy murders ted and it suddenly becomes a thriller/murder mystery 4 chapters in #but it is interesting that as far as we know roy never canonically learns about ted's consistently terrible advice #i feel like he wouldn't take it well which would probably undermine the narrative ultimately coming down on ted's side in 3x11 #obviously i didn't like the whole “you should forgive him” thing #but i'm actually angrier about “lots of great people have tough parents” or whatever he said in 2x02 #i distinctly remember my first thought being that there is no situation on this planet that would compel me to say that to another person #especially not if i knew the parent in question was abusive but also just like. in general #anyway tag rant over #thank you for the ask! #kvetch oc #asks

[ethanhuntfemmefatale]

idk if this is even worth talking about cause all my followers are smart and sexy and would never say cage should have died at the end of edge of tomorrow (2014) so I’m not convincing anyone. But my mind keeps going around and around like a hamster in a wheel or like (I imagine) Tom cruise in any room and if I make posts like offerings maybe it will calm the beast. Anyway the idea of Cage sacrificing himself would be a fitting ending for a much less interesting movie, based in a reading that sees his arc as “selfish coward->selfless hero” which if anyone sees his arc like that I would advise that they watch the movie again and pay attention. Cage explicitly Does Not Get Better through the movie if anything he gets Worse he just becomes the kind of person capable of saving the world. Which is kinda the opposite of a “good” principled person. One of the things that makes EoT great is that it doesn’t valorize violence and it doesn’t valorize death. Rita’s passive acceptance and even restless desire for her own death is—literally the entire point of the movie is to combat that. Why does it matter what happens to me? And Cage’s answer is essentially: it shouldn’t, it would be easier if it didn’t, but it does. Cage’s life MATTERS! Not to him, but to the movie! His death is not an acceptable cost for a happy ending! Also he doesn’t go from a guy who doesn’t want to die to a guy willing to make the ultimate sacrifice, he goes from a guy who doesn’t want to die to a guy who kind of does, someone for whom life isn’t a priority anymore because death has no meaning and life is a horror show. Him dying is not an act of moral good it’s not an act of heroism it’s the war winning.

#yesterday I saw a thing on yt where apparently people thought he should have died. and it makes cartoon steam come out of my ears #the redemption through death trope makes me angrier than any other trope I think. to my memory I have never ever seen it done well #the ending is PERFECT. he has to become inhuman to survive and his survival happens against his will but he does survive. #and the fulfillment of his arc is not his death or his survival it's the moment he sees that rita is alive & safe. #it’s perfect. #edge of tomorrow #bill cage

[yardsards]

was alador less *actively* shitty than odalia? sure. is he more likely to see the error of his ways and actually change? yeah, probably.

but good heavens, if i have to see one more portrayal of him as some innocent victim of his mean scary wife i am going to start eating my own eyeballs!

he's not afraid of her!!! he has disagreed with her onscreen with no fear! when he's complicit in her mistreatment of their kids, it's because he either doesn't care enough to intervene or is okay with (or even AGREES WITH) what she's doing!

if he "stands up to" her, it won't be because he grew a backbone. it'll be because he grew a heart.

#eliot posts #toh #the owl house #alador blight #odalia blight #i kinda like him as a character and i think he has the potential to become good #but i am BEGGING yinz to learn to see nuance! #i am taking this fandom by the shoulders and shaking them #he! is! not! innocent!!! he was and possibly still is a bad father!!! #(this post sounds angrier than it actually is. ive just been sounding extra bitchy lately for no good reason and idk why???) #update: this post was made before clouds on the horizon #i was Incorrect

[papasmistakeria]

Malcolm Reed: My toxic trait is that I truly believe I could win in a fight against anybody if I was mad enough. You might have the strength and size but I have pure, unfiltered rage

#star trek #star trek enterprise #star trek ent #st enterprise #malcolm reed #incorrect quote #source: tumblr #malcolm is small as hell but he's also like very strong cause he's pent up anger in human form #this is literally him during the fight with hayes #yeah hayes is a bigger guy but malcolm is angrier so who's the real winner here exactly #he's literally a wolverine (the animal i mean). he's so small but pure rage fuels him to become the most dangerous person on the ship #papas mistakeria special

[llycaons]

its so funny whenever a fic has wwx fondly think abt jc growing up in the time he was gone. 'growing up' is actually the exact opposite of the trajectory his character arc went on

#whats the worsld for someone becoming worse in every possible way #more immature #more violent #more short-tempered #more prone to outbursts #more vengeful. angrier and more lonely and more miserable #more cut off from the memory of someone he loved. more isolated #more bitter. you get the picture #he did become more confident on the surface I guess but he is still miserably insecure #he had one non-family friend in CR and postres hes got nobody. well his nephew I guess #he showed more courage and compassion and selflessness as a 16 yr old than as a 35 yr old.... #ficblogging

[caprindo]

people don’t like the barbie movie, and that’s okay, but people who justify it because it’s “basic feminism” or “everyone already knows this” and then go online to laugh at angry reviews from men are kinda showing their asses because it seems like they are either 1) incredibly out of touch with the population’s knowledge of “basic feminism,” or 2) convinced that people who *aren’t* As Holy As Me are Irrevocably Evil, which is sorta reactionary

Like, the movie starts out with a blunt statement that the problems original barbie set out to solve *still* aren’t solved, and that many people still feel safer with barbie in the world. Sure, barbie is a corporate product whose production is owned by people who literally couldn’t care about whether they were selling a feminist or patriarchal product, and Mattel only approved the movie because it’s ultimately favorable to their product (even if not them personally), but they literally address that in the movie. Like, for a group of people who are #intellectuals who #care about art and more importantly #care about women, it seems an awful lot like they’re bashing something that’s ultimately a harmless power fantasy for women that speaks directly to the struggles of both modern women and past generations whose movements still haven’t completely succeeded, because it isn’t the immediate establishment of queer communism without metaphor or preamble.

Ultimately, this is complaining that the Queer Theory Website’s population of Very Online Minorities doesn’t have a strong grasp on majorityfolk’s perspectives, but I’m still uncomfortable watching people break out the pitchforks for why Barbie Wasn’t Feminist Enough. Wanting something better isn’t a bad thing, and being frustrated the world hasn’t caught up with you doesn’t make you evil. Shaming folk for taking a step towards your opinions or exposing themselves to media supporting you (even shittily) does hurt you and the people you care about though.

It’s the whole bodyshaming celebrities thing again. Your witty post isn’t going to make Greta Gerwig make better movies, and it’s not going to make Barbie save the planet, or whatever. It is going to make the guy who felt seen in ken, the woman who felt seen when barbie talked about the male gaze, or anyone who felt safe and happy in the opening Barbieland scenes repress that part of themselves.

#dialogue was a little preachy sometimes #and I feel like S.Barbie could've gotten angrier with Ken #I wish Allan was more than a reference #it would be cool to see a trans barbie #oh actually I just googled and they did have a trans actress #but it would be cool to see an explicitly trans barbie character #even more lukewarm criticism than above #but seeing the early treatment of kens made me v uncomfortable #and that was sorta the point #but I don't like the idea that kens go back to being interchangeable and disposable hot bods was The Ending #Although you could interpret becoming Ken rather than And Ken is not that #anyways what I'm saying is I need a I am Kenough hoodie

[sageispunk]

how does one find black girl goth shit without the search giving me all yt women in black

#😒 #typed in black girl goth aesthetic and the longer i scroll the angrier i become

[house-of-crows]

I wish all "eat less move more track everything" medical rote responses a very DIE.

#you could just fucking believe me #when I say that I prioritize protein and veg and that the brain RUNS ON CARBS so they are necessary #you could believe me when I tell you that I eat when I am hungry and I stop when I am full #and stop trying to get me to *log my emotions uwu* before and after eating #yknow what my emotions after eating are? FUCK YOU WHY I AM TRACKING THIS #It also just makes me hyper aware of my dissociation and adhd time-blindness which just makes me angrier #because it DISREGULATES THE THING I WAS ALREADY REGULATING by ALLOWING IT TO HAPPEN in controlled amounts #which by the fucking way is good for dissociative disorders LIKE MINE because not shoving the symptoms into a box or ignoring them #HELPS THEM BECOME REGULATED AND LESS NECESSARY FOR MENTAL STABILITY #forcing me to break the pattern does me no good #your *hard data* can be faked anyway stupid ass #I have spent SIX YEARS trying to heal an eating disorder #yknow what you're fucking doing? GIVING ME AN EATING DISORDER #god I wanna slap this woman so fucking badly #I'd like to do more than that if I'm being honest

[caffeinatedopossum]

I feel like I might be becoming an angrier and much worse version of myself

#or perhaps an angrier and better version. its a bit hard to tell #i think im becoming less likable but that doesnt necessarily mean worse imo #idk i just do not feel good

[maealderxb]

we have this argument every year I'm sorry but I can give less of a shit if you or somebody else identities as a bi lesbian especially right now PLEASE can we move the fuck ON already I promise you there are more important things in the world than bi lesbians and people who don't like bi lesbians!!!!

i know I'm being rude here, but god every year at the same time people just yap and yap and like what happened to "lgbtq discourse dni" just fucking. GHHRRRGGHHH!!!! it's not even the discourse that makes me mad it's that people drag it on and on, most of you are full ass adults just block and move on for your own sake jesus

#rant #I will probably get flack but please you have better things to do I promise #I'm begging you do something else #this is to both sides btw #I know we all get angry and huffed up and want to protect our opinions but please. Please please #you're just gonna make yourself angrier #remember that fucking game #we become what we behold by Nicky case? #this is that #I have a huge stick up my ass tonight I'm sorry

[deanwinchesterpregnant]

s1-3 are truly the platonic ideal of supernatural i miss it so much…

#motw to reveal the gothic family horror lore #it’s uninterested in morality but rather depicts actions as how the brothers feel about them #the stakes are SO high. it’s SCARY. there’s no god or angels that can save you #the world is full of monsters yet sam prays every night #trying to outrun this terrifying force #and the love that was there…it doesn’t disappear in the later seasons at all #but it becomes increasingly clear that dean has NO clue how to handle his emotions and he never gets a chance and he just gets angrier #and angrier and I feel the earlier seasons let him and sam get mad and mean and have conflict but #it put them in a spot where ultimately they trusted each other. I MISS THAT #dean selling his souls with absolutely no belief in god btw is insane like #i miss the total lack of deus ex machina #*soul lmao so far as I know dean only has the one

[hyunestrella]

i think my colleagues have a ‘how much can we make solar do before she starts to get pissed off’ scale, or a ‘solar’s mood’ scale in place because as soon as my fave colleague came in he was like “how’s it going?” paused then said “you are so pissed off”

#LMFAOOO he said to me one time ‘your so nice at the beginning of the shift and then as the night goes on you get more and more bitchy.’ #he’s right tho — the angrier/pissed off i get the more of a bitch i become☺️ #[ — stfu sol ! ]