#the ANGST potential in this headcanon is sending me tele

[reeeyachi]

hi. dropping in ur and ysabel's asks to drop a random thought/hc: togashi couldve easily kept something interesting from us by not showing us the apology scene. Like, say, Killua confessing his feelings in the heat of the moment, to reassure Gon. Gon wanting to comment on this, but Killua interrupting to say that he has to take care of his sisters for now. and Gon understanding and not pressing the matter, letting Killua go for now, even though he loves him too.

i finally got around to answering this ask. i’m so sorry it took so long. my brain was just super fried and unable to process ani stuff this week kfjdsklfjldf

togashi not showing us how gon and killua met again after gon woke up from coma will always be a mystery to me. i don’t know, i personally think that it should be an important element to the plot, or just the flow of the story. because it’s gon and killua meeting AFTER everything that had happened. there should be some kind of heartfelt moment, right? some kind of dramatic reunion shit because after all the build up between the two of them leading to the final scene with pitou, there should be some closure, right? but sensei just decided NOT to show us. why would he do that?

i personally feel like it’s because he didn’t intend for them to have closure at that point. because he has plans for it in the future.

this headcanon KILLS ME because i strongly think this might have happened. if not, they might have had a conversation on how they felt about the situation, about what happened, the words said and left unsaid. gon wouldn’t just say “sorry” and pout. and killua wouldn’t just say “okay” and smile it off.

they MUST have had a conversation about their feelings, dude!

just observe their dynamic before they separated. killua’s already on teasing mode and gon’s already throwing tantrums like nothing happened. would this happen if they never got the chance to get things off their chest? i don’t know, i want to believe that they have. SOMEHOW.

but WHAT IF, gon was unable to respond to what killua had said. or what if killua told him “No, Gon, you don’t need to give me an answer. I’ll be fine” after a long, long pause. what if gon DID want to say something but was holding back because killua already sounded confident and happy with his decision. BUT WHAT IF gon told killua what he feels while apologizing after all, but killua knows that they would walk different paths from then on and just said “You’ll be okay, Gon.” and gon just couldn’t do anything about it. he couldn’t hold on to killua longer than he wished. he couldn’t insist what he wants for the both of them.

this is sad, but, at that point, i headcanon gon seeing himself as darkness, and he couldn’t just lure killua into that -- not when he looked like he found his own light.

the possibilities of that one MISSING SCENE are ENDLESS

#the ANGST potential in this headcanon is sending me tele #im so sorry if i answered this way uwu #i just have #feelings #and emotions #over that ONE MISSING SCENE #like a lot of emotions #ANYWAY THANK YOU FOR SENDING THIS it fueled my angst muse #killugon #killua #gon #hxh #hxh headcanons #asks #ily for sending this and im so sorry if it took so long to answer!! ><