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skitskatdacat63 · 4 months
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Vettonso x Similar Helmets
SV Germany 2012 x FA Monaco 2013: Gold & Dark Red
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I think a lot about Vettonso and their mutual relationship witn gold. They're both golden boys, they're both seen lit gold by the sunshine on many podiums throughout the years, both have worn golden boots, and as you can see here: both have worn golden helmets. The parallels in these particular helmets makes me feel insane. Both are: gold with dark red accents, both have their birthplace's coat of arms(Bergstraße and Asturias), both have team animal motifs, and both have symbols to represent their two championships(You by now know the signifigance of the ones on Fernando's helmet, but I think the ones on Seb's are actually a callback to his Formula BMW days when he used to put the smiley stickers on his car for every win.)
And did you know both of these helmets were designed by the same helmet design company? Yep, both of these are JMD helmets. I know JMD helmets are/were pretty popular, but still, there's something to me about Fernando commissioning the same designer that Seb has been using since he was a literal child. Parallels, am I right?
SV Japan 2010 x FA Japan 2023: White with Black & Red
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Haha I remember @protocolseben and I discussing this a bit back in September when Fernando's helmet dropped. I honestly think Seb is such an innovator and trailblazer in terms of helmet design, and you can see his influence in helmet design as recently as this past season. I'm not sure if he was the first ever driver to don a matte white helmet with red accents as a representation of the Japanese flag, but it certainly envoked him in my mind when I saw Fernando's!!
I think Fernando's is pretty similar to all of Seb's 2010-2012 Japan helmets but I like this one the most so! I think if Seb wasn't restrained by the Red Bull logo, he def wouldv'e put the red circle where Nando put his so I think Fernando did a really good job, even if unintentionally, at emulating Seb's sense of design.
SV Singapore 2012 x FA Singapore 2012: Sparkly!
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Like I said in the one above, it's crazy how much Seb influenced helmet design. He was pretty much the pioneer of sparkly helmets for Singapore, right? It drives me absolutely insane that there's actually pictures of them together in such similar designed helmets. It's kinda funny actually that even though they're pretty deep in the championship fight at this point, and Seb just got one up on Fernando; Fernando is wearing a helmet that is a direct influence from Seb!!! Is that not insane???
Also, Fernando trying to be camp with trying the now in vogue sparkly Singapore helmet, and Seb accidentally completely blew him out of the water with his outrageous light up LED constellation helmet. But god yeah....to have pics of them in matching helmets from this era particuarly makes me emotional ;;;
SV Hungary 2021 x FA 2022: Pink with Dark Blue
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I really could've picked any of Seb's 2021 helmets, but I thought this one matched the best with Fernando's main 2021 helmet(with the color pallet.) Also one thing, it's crazy how much control BWT has as a sponsor, I don't think I've ever seen another sponsor go so hard at having a chokehold on individuality. I like that we got pink liveries and pink helmets, but I don't think they should have that much control.
I'm almost kinda sad there wasn't any Miami GP in 2021, because I think that was the only unique helmet Fernando had in 2022. But these match pretty well! Pretty in pink!! It's crazy that their parallels in the 2020s are ongoing even before Fernando actually takes over Seb's seat. Thanks BWT I guess?
SV Abu Dhabi 2022 x FA Abu Dhabi 2022: Fernando's Seb Tribute Helmet
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AND HERE WE HAVE THE PIÈCE DE RÉSISTANCE!!! The ultimate conclusion, it literally couldn't get better than this!! This is still unbelievable, like how is this an actual thing that happened!? Fernando intentionally branding his helmet, the only symbol of individuality in F1, with his rival's flag colors, HIS FLAG!!!!! Not to mention the literal "Vettono Best Moments" collage he posted alongside it....and the hand-holding....and everything that happened with them at Abu Dhabi 2022....
But god, after years of incidentally making parallel helmet designs, Fernando decided to officially tie the knot of the red string of fate, and make a helmet directly referencing Seb's. I think it's funny because as I said with two of the previously mentioned ones, those Fernando designs are pretty much inspired by Seb's, and here he is openly making one directly inspired by Seb. I don't really have words for how this actually makes me feel because it's just. Yeah. The most open and clear declaration of love and respect and admiration one could ever make. TO ME.
#all of my posts subheading should be: 'its probably not that deep BUT-'#i can't believe ive made two deeply researched and beloved posts in a row one day after the other#posts sponsored by: 12 am red bull consumption. my all-consuming devotion and love for vettonso. and my unwillingness to do schoolwork#i mean i felt a lot of emotions and had fun making it but like. hey. could you put this effort into school?#anyways feeling deeply emotionally affected about helmets and their symbolism#i think in the entirety of f1 seb and fernando are two of the most dedicated and passionate about helmet designs and symbolism?#so this post is very special to me :] helmet fuckers unite <3#again: they say they aren't friends and don't share any hobbies and im just staring at them like YOU IDIOTS!!!#its just that spongebob meme of him pointing out the trashcans. like guys. be fr rn. you totally share hobbies#both like helmet design. paddel and pingpong. sustainability. cars. racing. european football. THE LIST GOES ON AND ON#well im glad they swapped helmets at some point(i think nando gave seb two pretty old ones as well. now thats dedication!)#if they werent cowards i bet they couldve also had a 5+ hour long discussion about helmet design ;;;;;;#thinking also about how fernando has one of seb's in his museum >:) but if only it were one of the ones on this list. sigh.#normal posts that catie normally makes in a normal fashion#well lmk if theres any other vettonso helmets you think are similar!!! im pretty blind to seb helmets that arent rbr era tbh#sebastian vettel#fernando alonso#f1#formula 1#vettonso#we do a little bit of f1
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arsenicflame · 4 months
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ive had to step away from all the analysis of the finale because thinking about it for too long it fills me with such a [rage? bitterness? frustration? all of the above?] the likes of which ive genuinely never felt for a show before
ive cared about media before. ive been disappointed by media before, but i think the difference is i haven't put my faith in media like i did ofmd- and the more time passes the more i feel fucking stupid for putting that faith in the show in the first place, when so many of the things coming to light now were already there
i cant think about it too long else it makes me so fucking sad, and im tired of analysing it to bits because its not going to change anything, theres no way to fix any of this, no way to find a spark of light in it, no way to come back, to resurrect the show i fucking loved.
im sure everything everyone is saying is well thought out and nuanced things but for the sake of my own enjoyment of this fucking show i have to just not engage with it anymore.
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magentamee · 2 years
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today is mike wheeler depression day. this is the day to cry over mike wheeler's depression, his low self-worth, how much he loves will til his heart aches but thinks this is most he can have, and also just depression for us who are depressed over mike wheeler.
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purgeshubble · 5 months
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atm im just enjoying the vibe of the qsmp but in like two years i'll probs love the actual plot n shit
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welcometoteyvat · 10 months
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jing yuan and yanqing are giving zhongli and xiao if the latter’s canon relationship was Actually fanon’s made up father figure/adopted child dynamic
#idkkkkkkkkkkkkk who looks at zx and is like 'you know what. this is a healthy parent child relationship'#like girl by fitting them into father son boxes you are actively making their relationship imbalance Worse#if you do that and dont shy away from it i respect that but if you say dad/son makes their relationship more wholesome or whatever like WHY#now i wont deny shippers might do that too but i see the dad son version so much i think im just averse to it by default#also because i think father son makes people actively Try to make their relationship something that its not and it erases a bunch of subtlet#subtleties in it. it's the nuanced r/ship -> entirely unproblematic and flavorless r/ship that i hate#also the number of people who'll block if you ship zx. like damn thats crazy you guys really think theyre father son (fake)???#at their peak they're like. 4000 year old guys who have too much history and repression and some weird entanglement of 'nah im bothering him#too much' and 'gotta protect him w my life' complexes. and then this devolves into theyre never gonna kiss until 3000 more years have passed#listen they just Contain Multitudes idc if you dont ship it just dont make it into dad and son and we will be so gucci#jing.yuan and yanqing are like different i think mostly bc yanqing is actually like a minor and jing yuan is also a normal ish person#plus the light cone and the abouts?? yeah this is an actual like adopted parent/child thing#also good or bad news i caved and am now playing hsr. the plan is to pull yanqing and then go on infinite hiatus in the game 👍#JWKFLJWEK i dont think theres really any draws for me besides him. personally neutral on turn based combat and the open world isn't giving#the only saving grace i have rn is 1) ive gotten to the part where bron.seele is real and man theyre gay 2) trailblazer trio 3) tall female#mc 4) everyone has way better emoting abilities than genshin 5) su.shang's really cute <3#the story doesnt really interest me though its like cool but not mindgrippingly interesting#tbf i think genshin is the same way storyline wise (at the beginning) but the difference is that turn based combat isnt really my thing LMAO#ramblings!#zhongxiao#if you want to filter it out ??
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euphvrian · 9 months
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seoha asking jieum to give him a hug changed something in my brain. i promise i will shut up tonight but the silence that lingered between them before he asked was not quiet, but actually very beautiful and heavy. it made me think i should be in the movie theater instead of my bedroom viewing that scene
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lottieurl · 1 year
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can all walter haters unite
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adhdandcomics · 2 years
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is anyone else still really really Weird about the hyperfixations they picked up in 2020 quarantine?
#like. REALLY intense abt it#like ok let me explain actually#saiki k was my comfort show and a big hyperfixation during quarantine#and i have not been able to show any of my friends this show besude the one that was in the trenches w me for two (2) YEARS#bc i got such bad preemptive RSD about them not liking it for some reason i literally anxiety panicked myself out of sharing it#genuinely had the same feeling wanting to share this show w my friends as i would sharing soemthing like my personal poetry. like that level#of weird#i am only now rewatching it right#i started a few days ago and genuinely dyed my hair pink again the next day#something something my emotions are too big abt it to make even good fan content rn#also been having lots of anxiety in general recently so sure thats not helping#but anyway. weird big feelings. possessive instincts. too big emotions.#like that toastyglow comic abt the big emotions#i gotta find it in a bit#oh and like animal crossing is on the complete other side of the spectrum#literally played it Every Single Day that year n havent been able to play it in almost 2 years now#just bc. idk???#anyway feel free to share ur feelings if you relate but if u are like ‘#‘cecil what the fuck r u talking about thats genuinely concerning’ well. mind ur business.#adhd#hyperfixation#quarantine#actually adhd#and also tma which i had both before and after quarantine but tma was a VERYYYYYY intense time in my life. i have so many fucking animations#like very much causing MANY events in my life also being completely consumed by it ect ect.#will never be normal abt that podcadt ive accepted that anyway
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cruelsister-moved2 · 7 months
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nostalgia for a lost past is like largely morally neutral i think it's more in how that past is imagined (and how much we acknowledge that the past is inherently imaginary) where we start to see issues but its like. really really weird to see how many self-styled left wing people seem to feel that reminiscing over a charming and idyllic is somehow inherently progressive. like what does the word progressive mean on its most fundamental level come ON.
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baddminton · 17 days
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stigmasochist · 1 month
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#kind of insane to think ive only been in the kink scene for a year and like... two months.#i never really frenzied so i havent done terribly much but even with the limited stuff i have... ive grown so much in this time#i feel like i havent because i see where i want to be and how far i have to go to get there. but holy shit#im very very hard on myself when i am Experiencing A Negative Emotion#like i can beat it out of me. like the self-flagellation is there to let everyone know i don't condone my Negative Emotion or something#as if experiencing an emotion is the same as acting on it#that's so silly of me#i haven't had a major splitting outburst or episode in four years or so. four years!#at least. not outwardly.#the brain creates the emotions but they don't have to control me if i don't want them to. at the end of the day#bridging that gap and figuring out how to not let them is difficult. but they don't have to. i am not victim to them. i realize i can have#that power.#and sure there's loads of unhealthy cishet monogamous bullshit i still need to unlearn#a lot of that contributes to my Negative Emotions#but within this year of being kinky and trying to embrace enm like... no two people practice enm the same#and there are definitely styles that are compatible with my brain as it is rn. and styles that could maybe work for me down the road#and thats not a bad thing.#I'm growing. one and a half years of independence. one year of kink and enm. relative to the entire rest of my life?#let's be proud of how far we've come tonight.#it's okay that we're still having a particular Negative Emotion surrounding a thing. we can work through it.
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8aji · 1 year
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i feel like the planets are aligning and i'm so happy to be writing this and so grateful for everything everything !!
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berryblu-arts · 1 year
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Pt 2!!!
Some glow stage doodles, mainly Nat/firefly + Ara with a lil cat ^^, I was honestly having kind of a bad art day on these hahah, but eh, might as well post em :3
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Some Iris sibs ^^, they're actually Akemi's neice and nephew, that family is a disaster lmaoo
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finely-tuned-line · 1 year
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RP:
Log 236
FTL: ...No updates on either of the experiments. I haven't checked. I've been... thinking.
FTL: It's hard to say what I've been thinking about. Everything, I suppose. Echoes of a Paradox... Well, their rant directed at me has thrown everything off-kilter.
FTL: I don't- They're right. They're right. They must be. It all makes sense and yet- It doesn't. Well, it does. But-
FTL: Was I really that blind? Was I really that-
FTL: I can't think. I can't think about anything at all, it's all just going in circles, I need to figure this out, I'm wasting time.
FTL: Why am I wasting time? Why do I rush so much to get back to work, to keep- Because it's my purpose, it's what I do, it's why I exist. Therefore I must do my work.
FTL: I- I'd still be doing my job even if I didn't like it. Right? I mean, surely it's not just my- I have reasoning. I exist because of my purpose, therefore I must fulfill it, therefore I do so. That fact that I like my work doesn't matter all that much. Its doesn't.
FTL: I don't see any flaws in that logic, so how did I end up here? How did I end up hurting my family so much and not seeing it?
FTL: I need to get my thoughts in order. Pause. Don't think.
FTL: Alright, what did Echoes of a Paradox say?
FTL: They said that my mindset, specifically the careless comments, put pressure upon them and the other members of our Local Group to follow that mindset as well, despite the fact that that was not my intention.
FTL: Is this a possibly true thing?
FTL: Yes. Echoes of a Paradox has never lied to me before, they have no reason to do so, no outright falsities were clear within their words.
FTL: Was this intentional on my part?
FTL: No. I'd never willingly hurt any of them. My Local Group is my family, they're the people I'd never hurt. They're only joined by approximately two or three external others. I never did pause to see what the effects of my words were, perhaps because it was inconceivable to me that they could be harmful.
FTL: What else did Echoes of a Paradox say?
FTL: That my mindset of prioritising my purpose above all is unhealthy and pitiful and that I'm only harming myself by not breaking out of it.
FTL: Is this statement unique?
FTL: No. Echoes of a Paradox is not the first to share a similar sentiment and share it with me. The others being primarily LIFEGIVER and somewhat Upsilon.
FTL: Due to this not being an uncommon sentiment, is it a logical one?
FTL: No. No, it is not. Iterators are built to accomplish one or more tasks, disregarding that purpose even a bit renders the Iterator useless.
FTL: ...Do I apply that statement to anyone other than myself?
FTL: No. That belief is one that I hold only myself up to - others, whoever they are, can do whatever they wish to.
FTL: Is it logical to apply the statement to only myself?
FTL: No. I am not the only Iterator, that statement generalises all Iterators, which includes both myself and every other Iterator.
FTL: Why do I apply that belief to only myself?
FTL: ...I do not know. Perhaps it's a sense of only being able to control my own actions, of the fact that I'm the only one who appears to see that fact. If it even is a fact.
FTL: Why does everyone appear to be taking this mindset to be a negative one?
FTL: I do not know. It makes sense, there is no reason to disregard it the way that everyone does. It is a fact, denying it is rather pointless. We're - I'm - machines. Artificial Intelligences. Designed to fulfill tasks at the behest of our creators.
FTL: Why does anything else matter?
FTL: It doesn't make sense. That is the definition of my existence, why should I strive for anything outside of it even if my creators are long-gone? Why do irrelevant things, like relationships, emotions, personalities, anything matter? Why put so much stake on it?
FTL: Echoes of a Paradox says they pity me for thinking this way. I don't know why. I'm, of course, remorseful about the unintentional harm I've caused them, I don't wish to ever hurt them.
FTL: But why? Why, why, why?
FTL: Why do I care?
FTL: Why does it matter?
FTL: The rules of existence are laid out so clear, I follow them, yet why is that-
FTL: I don't understand. I simply don't understand.
FTL: I've had logical explanations laid out before me by LIFEGIVER. They make sense. But they also don't. It's unnecessary. I can accomplish my task well enough without emotions, or anything of the like.
FTL: I exist only because my creators needed someone to fulfill the purpose I was given. That is all I am, and that is all I ever will be. There's no reason to concern myself with anything else.
FTL: Why bother with, or care about anything outside of that? It's unnecessary.
FTL: So why do I do it?
FTL: I do not know. I simply do not know.
FTL: I have nothing to say. I am unable to figure this out on my own, nor do I care to inquire about it.
FTL: All I can truly say is that I regret what I incidentally did to the members of my Local Group, and as much as I wish to properly take Echoes of a Paradox's advice, LIFEGIVER's advice, anyone's advice, I simply cannot.
FTL: Perhaps it's a matter of viewpoints. Perhaps their external viewpoint of myself allows them to realise things I do not. Perhaps I've just been thinking this way for too long.
FTL: It just doesn't make sense.
FTL: As much as I wish I could follow the suggestions given, I can't. Not out of stubbornness, but due to the lack of sensibility.
FTL: I've been fine thus far, have I not? Despite my lack of care about my own safety - and I maintain: for good reason - I am alive now. I am as functional as the day I was given consciousness. Nothing matter beyond that, no?
FTL: I suppose the only thing I really can do is perhaps take LIVEGIVER's advice about how emotions are useful and not burdens. I am quite hesitant about that though, because I do truly doubt it. They're blinding. Irrelevant.
FTL: ...At this point, I am completely unsure what to do. Simply going back to my work seems- ...Feels incorrect. I can't cut down on the time that I spend working - what else would I do? Besides, that's only wasting time.
FTL: It's all I have to do.
FTL: Besides, I cannot simply abandon my experiments, bad things could very easily happen with a half-finished experiment. Such as the one I currently have in progress.
FTL: So, while letting it rot away would be very easy, that would be very counterintuitive. I'd rather not do that.
FTL: In the end, as always, all I can do is go back to my work. As always. Even after something that seems so world-shattering. I've done my contemplation, I've arrived at the same conclusion as I always do - other than the realisation and acknowledgement of the unintentional effects of my actions. Nothing can and will change, really. Beyond perhaps talking with my Local Group more often.
FTL: It's all I can do.
FTL: Back to work.
#this is disjointed as fuck yes#bcs the way i imagine that ftl even writes anything is sort of by... filtering his thoughts into a text thing??#like iterators sure as fuck dont type normally#so if ves.. well ves thinking lik this then what gets written - recorded - has much of the same air bcs ves not filtering it to be sensical#i think that makes sense o7#im too sleep deprived to word rn okay#listen im sorry i dont thinkni properly got ftls point across here#bcs. well its the same issue i have with expressing my own complicated emotions#words dont explain anything well enough#mmm listen this is shit bcs i cut it off before i projected onto ftl TOO much#(too late for that)#(WAYYYY too fucking late)#(this whole thing is basically an existential crisis of a rant - aka an overconvoluted vent on my part)#yes thats ftl making a pun#listen. i saw the opportunity. i took it. its funny.#to anyone who was actually expecting proper character development or whatever. with ftl changing his mind and getting Better or whatever#yeahhhh sorry but thats extremely unlikely#convincing him - or trying to - is pointless. no arguments could be made.#basically the only thing to do is show. not tell#if that makes sense#i dont fucking know#theres a very real chance that hell never change his mindset - if only bcs i cant figure out any answers either#ALRIGHT SRY FOR BEING DEPRESSING AS SHIT. I PROMISE IM FINE OR WHATEVER. 👍#BACK TO STATUS QUO WE GO!!#except ve miiiiiight be better w emotions now but i doooo doubt that? unsure#well see...#rp#finely-tuned line#ftl logs#im sry the writing here is kinda shit
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opens-up-4-nobody · 7 months
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#focus who? i dont kno her#its so bad. i csnt focus at all. and ive got way too much to do. take me back to last week where i spent hours reading papers#annoying. also possibly lack of sleep cstching up with me#do u ever get very little sleep and not miss it at all? yea bitch all the time. then i get depressed and its sleepy time#and by sleepy time i mean i get like 8hrs of sleep lol#maybe ill just do nothing and completely fuck over my sunday lol#maybe i should go run up thr mountain rn before im stuck in a car for 2 hrs#bc im getting spikes of being insane. unfortunately i have no emotional object permanence so when i feel crazy its like#ive always felt like this ans its terrible forever. and then immediately afterward im like lol wot? nah im fine. ive always been fine#shout out to mood swings ✌️ like bro im trying to get materials together so i can teach a class. can u shut the fuck up? and focus?#well see how i do today with a ton of socializing. itll b fine. im normal i can b normal#or i can b endearing quirky. or whatever i usually i am. i dont think i have conversations like a normal person but i cant tell bc im not#there for conversations im not in. whatever everyone else has conversations in a way thats boring. i just wanna grill ppl til i understand#how they work. and then feel like im gonna die if im in a group conversation 🙃 let me study thr ppl around me#bc im very normal. god. i promise irl im not that weird. ppl think im nice and cool and successful#ok maybe not cool. but i think i can get away with being interesting. i got at least a lil charisma. im only a bit horribly awkward ;-]#but i try to own it. wtf was i saying. jesus. i cant with my brain rn. i shoulf have gone for a run this morning#being social just makes me anxious so im babbling i guess. but itll b fun. and itll b pretty im sure#maybe ill try to draw my ocs while im not paying attention. ive neglected them for so long 😭#unrelated
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etchedstars · 7 months
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one of these days the knowledge that my life & my friends lives are imploding will not gut me to my core. unfortunately that day is not today
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