#that would have been far worse

[asharaxofstarfall]

can't believe i'm saying this but as a woman in westoros, alicent was completely in her rights to want her son on the throne over rhaenyra. as a noblewoman, she was promised two things in life: safety for her children and a son that could inherit. she was stated by otto to be the most gorgeous girl at court, she comes from a wealthy family with lots of influence and her father is hand to the king. she could have married pretty much anyone but she got stuck with viserys instead. marrying an heir from any of the other seven great houses would have afforded her children with better rights than being with him. am i saying that aegon should have been king instead of rhaenyra because he was a boy? no, of course not. but imagine your children literally being robbed of their birthright and left with absolutely nothing from their father who severely neglects them and abuses you. he didn't even bother to make aegon heir to dragonstone, which imo would have helped a lot.

#first born son of the king and left with nothing #aegon literally being treated as an insignificant third son #alicent hightower #house of the dragon #hotd #pro alicent hightower #and she still supported rhaenyras claim until she couldn't!! #like #idk man most people would have acted the exact same in that situation #or been far worse

[uncanny-tranny]

I think it can be true that certain lifestyle changes can help with pain and disability, but people really overplay how those changes will affect people's lives.

I've found that exercise has helped my back pain - I have had chronic back pain that PT didn't touch, but exercise has helped. However, what hasn't changed is what exasperates that pain, and when my pain is especially exasperated, it doesn't matter how much I exercise, I'll be in my bed trying so hard to get out, and I'll be seeing white. So, yes, exercise helped me, but it did not save me. That's an example of what I mean.

It's fine to give (solicited!!) advice to people about how to manage things like this. But I'm begging people to be realistic about this. Lifestyle changes can only do so much, and disabilities are - surprise! - disabling.

#disability #i just hate how people turn lifestyle advice into (again) thought-terminating clichés #because i DO all the things i'm ~supposed~ to do and it didn't save me... #...that tells me that it isn't this magical cure people think their advice is #i used my back pain as an example ofc and i'm not saying i have it bad or worse than anybody else #but my pain used to be so much worse and i'm glad it's gotten to the point... #...where i only experience bad days only so often where before it was multiple times per week... #...like as a kid my back pain would keep me up and almost make me cry and PT didn't help me whatsoever #i'm probably about the most active i've been in my life so far and i still have pain because i have a historical precdence for it #this is why i never will judge people for choosing not to make the '~proper~' lifestyle changes that ~help~ with their disability/ies #it isn't a contradiction that i am 'fit' and i'm in the market for a cane (maybe) #(i've been looking around because i want help getting up when i have an 'episode' of pain)

[wyllsravengard]

i love and miss baldurs gate so much but every time i remember how the fandom and writing team treats wyll i simply dont want to think about it anymore. like i shouldnt be surprised because this is a dnd video game but it's crazy how far people are willing to go to pretend all of it is not racism. wyll is too boring and yet halsin (who is even more boring mind you) gets more attention then him in fan content, same with rolan and dammon and all other side characters in the game. he's never in anything promotional and it's pretty clear at this point the writers are Not Going to fix it. i love wyll so much i literally want to eat him alive but the wave of frustration i experience every Single Time i think of bg3 does not feel good

#like. rdr2 fandom is a rockstar game and certainly they are not absolved from racism #but because its been years since release the fandom is smaller and it is so far less common #but additionally the base game for the most part handles its racism very well #and this is me. Mean Hater Bitch. saying this and rockstar who focuses on satire #so many people are just so blatantly racist to wyll and they go so far as to HARASS people who talk about him #and this is not like esp shocking. anime fandom is also horrendous about this! #but in a game and in a fandom that CLAIMS to promote diversity as it has queer characters you would think there would be more. idk. #actual care and perception put into their one black lead. i know i talk about it Everyday but its like. so bad like worse than i have seen #in recent years for video game fandoms like. christ alive #z.gen #larian critical

[mochiwrites]

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#delete later #hi I need to scream into the void again #that ask couldn’t have come at a worse time jfc #I am. tired man #socialization is hard #burnout is kicking my ass #I can’t connect with people #at this point I just want to waddle around to different friend groups and ask to be adopted /srs #but I would feel guilty if I did so I just don’t #but I really want to #would anyone even want to drag me into their group #;-; #between the month I’ve had and the day today has been #and that ask I’m just #*lays on the floor* #I want to stop existing thanks #I’m sad and lonely and no matter how hard I try to fix that nothing works #I’m so close to just giving up man #2024 has been pure shit so far #and I hate it

[moongothic]

God I wish I could remember what Oda once said about mothers in One Piece... I can't remember if it was about Luffy's mother in particular or moms in general, but he essentially joked about how you'd have to be A Really Horrible Mother to allow your child to go off and become a pirate (dangerous business no loving mother would allow)

And just... My vague memory of that comment is living in my head right now, because truly, if Crocodile somehow is Luffy's mom, truly nothing would make him a worse mom than

Literally trying to murder his child and beating him to near death multiple times the first time they actually meet

Going so far to stop being a mom that he became a dad instead

#Moon posting #Honestly I can't help but to feel that if the theory is true I don't think Crocodile has any positive feelings about Luffy #Like I don't think he'd see Luffy as his child or. Anything #Like the vibe I get is that Luffy to him would be nothing more than something from a past life he wants nothing to do with #And a past version of himself he wants buried dead and forgotten #Like think about masculinity- both in general but also in the terms of OP's story #The way some cishet men react to the mere concept of Trans Croco and the way they're ready to dismiss him as a ''real man'' #Like. Fragile Masculinity makes it so that if you aren't performing your manliness at 1000% at all times you aren't manly #That's why it's fragile. It's all or nothing. And so if Crocodile was FtM many would see him as just the F. They'd just ignore the ''tM'' #Crocodile did not seem like he wanted to be associated with Iva-chan or any of the newkama AT ALL #If he is trans then he is fully stealth. He does not want to be outed. He does not want to have his manhood questioned. #His past could instantly be used to turn him into a laughing stock. He'd have to deal with transphobic attacks and misogyny #So if he just wants to live his life in peace then he could just see his past as a potential threat to his future #Anything about who he might've been could be used against him #That includes the husband he divorced. That includes the child he abandoned. #They aren't anything to Crocodile but something he wants nothing to do with. #And he's willing to go so far as to kill that child to tie up any loose ends #Which sounds horrible but he did attempt to kill millions with a massive bomb so like #Yeah. Sir Crocodile ain't winning Dad of the Year award anytime soon. He does not give a shit about his son. #Crocodile looked at Shinji Evangelion and figured he could have a worse father-son relationship. And he's winning that contest #Of course this reading is absolute bonkers and I doubt Oda could write a trans character with this kind of nuance #It just makes sense to me alright #And I have brainworms #And if I'm being realistic I only think there's a 30% chance the Crocodad theory is actually canon #Trans Croco in general get's a 70% because. You don't give this guy some Secret Beef with the Magic HRT Person like that #Again I just think it'd be fucking funny if he was Luffy's dad #It is 6 am I am not proof reading any of this shit

[volfoss]

actually yeah im making a quick poll on this. for anyone who has been around long enough to remember when i made my massive clamp readathon situation (in which i read every single one of the works they put out) be everyones problem. hi. im doing it again but much worse now. reading about 400 volumes (and more if i can find more) of tezuka osamu's work. i am just curious on the general consensus of if i should upload thoughts as i read each one (ie: one post being like i finished kimba/jungle kingdom, heres my thoughts) or just have a MASSIVE post of hey. read them all heres my thoughts (as i did with clamp. which is when i found out tumblr had a max text limit)

#twist rambles #i KNOW this is smth most of u do not care about. however comma. im curious what would be better. esp as like... about 50?? i think percent #of these have no translation fan or official. so its smth where i think discussing the plot/characters/art or whatever could be fun :) #but its also like. obviously a lot. for comparison the clamp stuff was abt 90 volumes (half of them being holic and trc). so this is far #worse. i could read all of naruto 5.5 times over in the time this will take me to complete it. so its smth where i do want to like... get #opinions on. either way i dont plan on liveblogging for most of it other than if i find a silly panel (the really good mw panels u will #ALWAYS be famous <- i post them every time i read i think. theyre very good to me). i do however plan on coloring a panel or page from each #series as my OWN personal way of having a physical way of holding onto my memories w it. sorry this is so long and rambly but im gearing up #for this massive project and by god i need to get ppl to read dor.oro. <- my goal or something. please. its very good. #tzkposting #<- all of my posting abt this will/has been under this tag so its not... in the main tags lmao. #sorry for the rambling but. hi. please vote :3 im making a big spreadsheet for stuff bc like... a lot of his stuff is hard to source so onc #im done w that nightmare situation ill probably post that somewhere bc the days of work ive done on all this should be put out there lol #gonna srb this a few times through the day to get like... an idea of what ppl would prefer :)

[catgirljaneway]

everytime i see something about tuvix i am filled with inhumane rage ngl

#trek thoughts #shut the fuck UP about tuvix #i'm unconvinced anyone genuinely cared about him or wanted him to live #my conspiracy theory is that the “janeway bad because she killed tuvix” thing was started by weak little men who didn't like there being #a female captain #i can't prove this but i believe it firmly and i if someone brings up tuvix to me i will kill them with the same amount of hesitation with #which janeway killed tuvix #Read: none #so what if she killed him? if my best friend was fused into a different entity and I had to choose between her or stupid smug little tuvix #creature i'd take the creature out back and shoot it with not a moment to spare #also tuvix is fucking annoying i'm not sorry #he's a smug little bastard and I hate him and want to bite him so bad #i hate him so much and i am a lover at heart it is rare for me to hate but i hate that bastard #star trek captains have done FAR worse than this but will people shut the fuck up about him? NO #he's been dead for years get over it losers #remember when janeway made a deal with the borg? now THAT was fucked up (love her for it tho) if you're going to critizise my wife at least #do it for the actual crimes she comitted #she was right to kill tuvix #but seriously i had heard tons about tuvix before watching the episode and when i finally did i was like ??? this is what people were cryin #about??? thought it would be a bigger deal lmao

[thegreenleavesofspring]

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#You'd think of all times I'd be having stress dreams right now‚ but I'm not actually #In fact usually my dreams are horrible things of dreadful desperate danger and darkness and blood. Losing my children‚ losing other people #who trust me to help and save them. #But they've all been things like “woman is criticizing my soap bottles” (🤨) and “there's a tornado - but it doesn't hit us actually” and #“you missed a phone call btw” #But it's not that I'm not stressed. I am. I am tied up in all sorts of knots over this pending divorce hearing. And the pending CPS case. #<- That's going to court btw. Dallas has had a full year to do the mandatory six weeks counseling and has opted not to finish it‚ so they'r #taking him to court over it to codify that he is not allowed to have anything to do with us. #Fine by me‚ him being legally prevented from having anything to do with us has always been my hope. It'll be a hassle for me having to #*also* appear in court‚ but overall a small price to pay. And it also removes my last theological objections to the divorce; #the unbelieving has chosen to depart indeed. #So! *Good* news. But also not not-stressful. #(My back is *killing* me and it gets worse the closer February 6th looms.) #On the other hand I REFUSE to worry. Because there is No. Way. that God would bring us this far just to abandon us now. #And His fingerprints are *all over* the last two years. #(I am still not precisely 'looking forward' to the court appearances.) #Anyway. Fun stuff‚ fun stuff. #Nattering into the void

[actual-changeling]

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#alex gets personal #no because now that i think about it the funniest fucking part is that this. this. #is the best i have ever been. #and i still wanna off myself every single second of every day. #i don't even have standards at this point #they're not in hell or anywhere they just don't exist. #like i cant believe 'i should be fucking grateful i am not longer terrified of being legit murdered in my sleep by my father' is a sentence #that i can think and actually mean #if it had been any worse id be dead aka it was as horrible as it could have possibly been #if you had given three year old me a way out they would have taken it #do you know how horrifying that is #a toddler. who loves books and is fascinated by animals and would love nothing more than to die #what a life i have huh literally cant believe i made it this far #sorry for the breakdown on main it will happen again

[the-kipsabian]

#ive had. extremely hard time already processing this year tbh #both old grief and new grief. its just a lot #i know i dont have to do everything immediately. things dont have to get better overnight and most likely they wont #i mean. they havent #just. saw this and it made me think. probably too much but im an emotional mess at all times either way #i would just like things to be different. i know its a lot to ask and its mostly in my hands for myself but.. yeah #its just not easy. and im not dealing with it very well. i dont know #been trying to tell myself the usual. time doesnt heal it changes you. im going through difficult things and thats okay #i just.. i guess i just hoped this year would be different. so far it hasnt been its been worse #i dont know what the point of me posting this is. i just need to vent a little i guess #this is not gonna be an easy week for me and im not looking forward to it. like said grief is a very difficult thing for me #difficult and new. im trying but its hard. i dont know how im gonna make it this year #anyways. sorry #night is an absolute mess on main

[impossible-rat-babies]

the doom posting that comes around whenever a cash shop outfit comes out is deeply obnoxious at this point ngl

#yes there is something to be said about the cash shop model and how a lot of cool outfits are there #and the lack of more fantasy inspired outfits when there has been so much more modern outfits in game lately #and I have been guilty of being upset about this #but man. man people screaming and yelling about how 14 is going down the toilet because of this I’m just like. shut up #go look at the WoW cash shop and tell me how 14 is going into the same trap #you know the special mounts for doing all the EXs in an expansion? #yeah wow would put that in cash shop and be like teehee to have the full set give us 18 dollars #there are much worse and far grubbier systems out there to get your money from you #I dunno man the way people spit vitriol about thjs is like did SE like. kill your mother or something #Owen talks #edit: at the end of the day SE is a company and they are going to try and make more money off of you than just you sub #choosing to engage in that or not is your choice #idk maybe I just have a very short patience with people like this #I just come here whine for two seconds block the people screaming and be on my way

[wildwood-faun]

driving lesson 3 in half an hour!! am all nerves!!

#like i KNOW it's gonna be fine and my teacher is real sweet but so far it feels like my nerves have been getting slowly WORSE #instead of the opposite which you know would have been real helpful #also i took this golden opportunity to try to do something about my cv which never fails to make me feel like shit so well planned there luv #rolling m eyes at myself #life of kit

[homoqueerjewhobbit]

Damn, I wish that anti-Zionist rant my dad yelled at my horrid Israeli elementary school teacher in my dream last night was real.

#I think he'd probably still call himself a Zionist but he's relatively far left and opposed to the war and hates Netanyahu #But we don't really talk about it much #post o' mine #Personal #Ftr record she would have been a bad teacher even if she was an American atheist teaching at a public school #She was just a bad teacher and I hate her #She was so bad for 2nd grade that my parents insisted that the school not place me with her for 3rd grade #But then the 3rd grade Hebrew teacher was so much worse that they requested I go back to the 2nd grade teacher for 4th grade #Adventures in Jewish education as a contrarian with undiagnosed learning disabilities

[maeamian]

IMO, telling congress to pass legislation that averts a strike by imposing a contract rejected by the majority of union members, even if it is somewhat amended to partially cover the demand workers were threatening to strike over, is not a good idea. Averting a strike is not a natural good, it is only good if it is because the strike was averted due to the agreement of the workers with their contract, not because congress stepped in to enforce mediation. The good thing would be to tell your congresspeople to quit it with the scab shit, if the railroad bosses won't avert a strike by agreeing to a fair deal, there's no reason congress should be stealing the worker's leverage by forcing them to work with a substandard contract, and that's what I think your senator's office needs to hear.

#Really disappointed to see so much of the progressive caucus on board with this tbqh #Particularly with the split-bill shenanigans that leave open the very real possibility of the deal going through without sick leave #Because there are not actually 10 movable republicans on anything good #I understand the instinct and have seen the messaging that would lead one to believe otherwise #So like this is not to chide anyone for holding the belief that acts of congress can positively solve this #But I fundamentally disagree with the legislation as it exists #The amendment as far as I can tell is insufficient #'we voted to impose a merely bad contract' just does not seem like the end goal you want to aim for #even against 'it could've been a worse contract' #Union membership already took a vote on if this version of the contract works for them and it doesn't #Why would congress know better?

[mattodore]

anon be honest... are you wearing a wire

#river dipping #sdfhlkdjhkn no but uhhhhhh #am i reading this wrong or are you asking if he's ever beat the shit out of someone kjfnkhjnkjn #because he's someone who frequently flouts the law lmao... like he does not care #and i could talk about all of that easily but when you mention it being specific behavior that hurts people........... #the only thing that comes to mind is has he ever physically harmed someone... #which. like. yeah. multiple people... some way worse than others... #but to go into the ''why'' of some of that would mean i'd have to explain some information about theo i've not mentioned before... #and idk if i want to do that just yet... #because yeah he's been in a lot of fights but the worst thing he's ever done was almost killing someone... and it's bc of theo in a way... #so like... hm. #this isn't me answering you just yet................... i will get back to you on this when my brain is functioning better #just give me some time on this one...... i have to decide what all i want to share and how far back i'm willing to go... #i might walk this back tho... depends. #maybe i'll just be vague abt the why of it all.......... idk. #idk idk will circle back to this i promise #i just gotta think abt it for a while #so give me a bit <3 #also hi again friends and lovers..... i only slept for two hours and feel so ill but let's move on <3 #putting on my i'm so normal cosplay and ignoring that

[mwolf0epsilon]

Silent giggles ring deep in his chest as he presses the palm of his hand tightly over his mouth. It's late. He's not really allowed to be up late, and he delights in this knowledge.

It's not that he indulges in mischief often. Tulpa is nothing if not a good child. Eager to learn, never one to be contrary, and above all else mindful of treating others kindly rather than taking pleasure in being purposefully naughty like some of the other kids in town.

But even he gets his moments of boyish boldness. Even he has the sudden urge to go wandering off on little adventures.

Socked feet tiptoing along as he avoids every creaky floorboard, the groaning steps on the stairs, keeps himself flat to walls and an eye on all hiding places. He smiles behind his hand, keeping himself as quiet as possible.

His many ba'vodu'e have sharp hearing. Always alert. He's learned to sneak past them with relative ease.

It's his father he never manages to creep away from unnoticed. He always knows. He always finds him.

But tonight he hasn't come stalking out of his room yet. Steps quiet enough not to disturb his siblings, but also loud enough to let him know he's on the prowl. His father never admits it, but he gets a thrill out of it too.

Tonight Tulpa thinks he might have won their little game of cat and mouse. The victory tastes sweet in the back of his throat, and the smile on his face threatens to split it in half.

Until he finds his father seated at the kitchen table. Knuckles white around the mug he's clasping far too tightly, half its contents spilled on the tablecloth. Eyes vacant and shiny with shedding tears that leave tracks on his much too pale face. There is this look of indescribable sorrow on his face, as if the world itself has crumpled around him and he's been forced to do nothing more than watch.

He doesn't blink. Doesn't see or hear Tulpa, even as he stands there with nowhere to hide. He doesn't move an inch. His father the statue with an intricate V carved on his face.

Ice prickling his heart and creeping up his spine, Tulpa sneak-runs back down the hall, up the stairs, to his room and into his bed. He clings tightly to a very confused Dog once he's got his bedsheets over the both of them. His heart beat so loud in his own ears that it drowns out the concerned croaking.

The haunted look on his father's face keeps him awake all night.

He doesn't feel mischievous for a very long while after that...

#eps writes #star wars #the clone wars #clone trooper dogma #clone ocs #clone cadet tulpa #dog the frog #sometimes I remember being very little and finding my mom disassociating in the kitchen at 4am #it's still one of the scariest memories I have of my mom made worse by the fact I've now been in her shoes #I think Tulpa would find himself in the same position I did all those years ago because Dogma would definitely hide how much he's hurting #especially when it relates to brothers he's been trying to convince himself that he hates when that's far from the truth #forceful intervention au