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#that would basically be 'self recognition through the other'
ammomancer · 2 years
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i like the part in knightfall where bane is smacking bruce around and he gets knocked into the robin memorial and it shatters and bruce is sitting there getting beaten within an inch of his life and hes like "aw shitd i just remembered my son is dead :("
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soulessjourney · 2 months
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T'ill I Go Blind
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Paring: Astarion x fem!DurgTavReader
Word count: 2.2k
Summary: When Gortash reveals details about your past relationship, Astarion refuses to entertain any of it.
Warnings: OOC Astarion, angst, mentions of truama, mentions of death, jelous Astarion, Gortash, fluff, Humor, Astarion of course making a few out of pocket comments, Scared Astarion
A/N: It's basically cannon at this point that Gortash and the Durge are exes or had something going on, so enjoy my depiction of just how their first meeting after so long would be like.
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Who would have thought that you would find yourself standing in Baldur’s Gate, face-to-face with Gortash, who gazes at you with surprising tenderness? "Well, isn't it my favorite assassin? It has been too long since we indulged in each other's presence," he remarks. You raise a quizzical brow as your arms fold over your chest, leaning against the protective metal.
"Ah, yes. How could I forget? You lack the memories of what we once shared. A shame, truly. Your father never was one for the ideals of... affection." You resist the urge to let your jaw drop at his words, while Wyll stifles a laugh beside you.
"I'm sorry, but you're telling me you and Tav had some sort of connection?" he asks, looking between both of you. Beside you, Karlach goes stiff, and you reach out through your connected minds, assuring her that you have no clue about the nonsense the man is spouting. Upon your words, she visibly relaxes, folding her arms and shifting to stand a step in front of you, ready to protect you from the person she once trusted if need be.
"We did, in fact, have a connection, and that connection was the reason why your friend now has no memory of who she is," Gortash states, a frown appearing on his lips. "Her father felt threatened by the idea that his perfect assassin was falling for someone, so why not punish those who fell into forbidden love." From beside you, a sudden gag sounds, and Astarion clears his throat.
"I do apologize, but that had to be the most sickening thing I've ever heard, and I don't mean the fact that her father stripped away her memories." It's hard to suppress a laugh at Astarion's words, especially since you can feel the jealousy radiating off of him. Astarion is what you'd call a cat; he thrives when affection is given on his terms, but he is quite territorial with things that belong to him. In this case, you are that thing—mind, body, and soul. You are his human, and he would rather tear the world to shreds than give you up.
Reaching back, your fingers gently brush against him, and he seizes the opportunity to interlace his fingers with yours. A sense of safety and confidence washes over you as his hand firmly holds yours. Gortash, observant of the interaction, advances toward both of you, prompting a tenseness in your body.
"I see you've found a replacement, Little Flower," he remarks. The use of that nickname freezes you, causing your body to stiffen as memories flood your mind. Flashbacks of your younger self and Gortash flow through your consciousness. Despite the rugged and worn-down appearance, Gortash possessed qualities that rendered him remarkably handsome. In the recollection, you both stood in the middle of a flower field, having sneaked off after some convincing. He delicately placed a flower in your hair, affectionately uttering the same nickname.
Gortash notices the recognition in your eyes, prompting him to smile at Astarion. "Seems she remembers that exchange very well. The kiss we shared sealed our promise to one another. Yes, you two are quite...adorable, but let her stay where she belongs. It won't be long until your little romance disappears when her memories return."
Astarion vibrates with anger, and all you can do is squeeze his hand, offering silent reassurance. Gortash attempts to provoke him in a way he knows best, wanting to witness the dissolution of the bond you share. However, Astarion surprises everyone. Instead of reacting impulsively, he closes his eyes, takes a few deep breaths, and regulates the tightness of his grip around your hand. He's wrestling with the urge to draw his knife and thrust it into Gortash's chest.
Your chest swells with pride at how far Astarion has come from the first encounter when he held a dagger to your throat. "I'll never let her go, not until she tells me to. And when she does, I'll do everything in my power to protect her from a distance because she doesn't deserve to revert to the life she once lived. Not when she's worked so hard to build herself a new life. Not when she's almost killed herself fighting the demons that claw at her, begging to escape."
A snort escapes Gortash as he listens to Astarion's words. "To think someone as powerful as you settled for that," he spits, redirecting his gaze toward you. "Have your fun, Little Flower, but as much as I would love to bring up the past and the memories we share, I have other matters to discuss with you," Gortash states, pacing around the room. "Your sister is stirring up trouble and making things difficult. Her newfound thirst for power after you left is creating tension in my city." You know precisely who he is referring to. In your few encounters with Orin, she made it clear that you both shared the same father.
"What Orin does is none of my concern. If she's hell-bent on trying to take something I don't even want, then let her. I don't know what kind of life I lived before this, but I don't want any part of it. I was given a second chance to finally live, and I won't be ruining that over some family drama," you shrug. You notice Karlach adopting a look of approval at your words. Seeing Gortash again is tough for her, especially now that you know you apparently had some kind of relationship before waking up on the ship.
Gortash sighs, pinching the bridge of his nose, and nods. "Yes, yes, I quite understand what you are saying. You're breaking free from those torturous chains, but your family matters affect the lives of those in Baldur's Gate. I don't care if you are sweeping your matters under the rug, but I want you to kill her. Take out Orin and bring me her stone, and when you do, I'll assist you in defeating the Elder Brain." Something about his words is taunting, making you question the truth of his alliance with you. Almost as if sensing your doubt, he leans against the table behind him.
"I do not wish to fool you; I don't stand for the loss of innocent lives. Orin is out of control, and the brain will wreak havoc if given the chance. If we can control the brain, we can destroy it."
Your mind races as you consider the situation. Releasing a defeated sigh, you clench your jaw, allowing your face to fall into a blank stare. "Fine, I'll kill her." The sound of your group protesting fills the room, echoing off the walls. Gortash only smiles at your words, letting his eyes lock onto yours as your friends attempt to talk some sense into you. After a few minutes, Gortash dismisses you and leaves the room.
Your companions follow behind you, attempting to get your attention before Karlach finally speaks up. "Tav, stop walking away. You know what he did to me and the hell I've lived through. Accepting his offer is a betrayal to me, so you better explain. If you don't, then I have no choice but not to trust you or to stay in the group." Her words hit you hard. She was like your sister, a reason for you to live.
"I'm playing him at his own game. We saw the power these stones had over the brain when we fought Thorm, meaning he had plans for them when he got them all to himself. Trust me, Karlach, I don't trust him either, but we need to take advantage of this. He could be the key to leading us right to the brain so we can destroy it, so I can save all of us," you whisper, looking up at your friend.
Karlach meets your eyes, searching them as if trying to detect any lies in your words. So, you open your mind to her, letting her read your intention with Gortash. Silence fills the area around your group as they wait for Karlach's response. "I trust you," she finally says, sending you a bright smile. You let out a breath of relief at her words as Astarion walks up beside you. You could feel how tense he felt, and you immediately knew something was wrong.
Things between the group had gotten tense after you entered Baldur's Gate. You felt the urge calling to you more than ever before; Astarion was only steps away from having to see Cazador again, and Karlach finally had to come face to face with the person she trusted her life with and who stabbed her in the back. Sending him a look, he nods slightly before looking away. It was a silent communication that you two would be talking when you got back to camp, and you could only hope this wouldn't end in a fight between you two.
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Upon your arrival, you couldn't help but notice how Astarion immediately headed toward a shaded area. Jaheira spoke quietly to you about matters that needed attention in the city, but your gaze remained fixed on your lover. Jaheira fell silent before laughing quietly, drawing your attention back to her. "You two are quite fond of one another. Go to him; you've been worried about him since the walk back," she said, patting your arm soothingly. Nodding in gratitude, you walked towards Astarion.
He sat on the ground, gazing up at the sky, with rays of sunshine warming his face through the leaves. Stopping behind him, you were unsure of how to initiate the conversation between the two of you. "Star," you said, your voice carried by the slight breeze swirling around you. You sensed him tense, knowing that the forthcoming discussion would likely be tense as well.
With his back to you, he leaned his arms on his knees, shifting his gaze ahead. "So, you were the one involved with the absolute and why we're like this," he stated. Your heart dropped as you looked down. Indeed, you were. Your memories flooded back when you entered Wyrm’s Crossing, remembering who you were, who your father was, and what he wanted you to carry out.
"As angry as I want to be with you, I can't. I know what it's like to feel trapped under a command without being able to escape. I mean, look at what Cazador made me do. I want to be angry, but I just can't," he continued, and your shoulders dropped as you listened to his words. "But that's not why I'm questioning things. Not us; I could never question us. What I'm questioning is what will happen when you fully regain your memory. You and Gortash obviously have something, or rather had something. He talked to you like he was seeing his lover all over again. He looked at you like he was undressing you, ready to show our group of lovely friends that you still belong to him."
There it was—the feeling of your heart shattering in your chest as you listened to his words. He was terrified of losing you, and you had no idea how to reassure him that you're his.
Moving to stand in front of him, you drop to your knees and gently grasp his face in your hands. Opening and closing your mouth, no words escape you. Lost in his eyes—those crimson-red orbs that appear scared and broken—a part of you feels angry, angry at yourself and angry at Gortash for dredging up a past you have no memory of, a past you never want to revisit.
“I meant it when I told you that you mean a lot to me, Star,” you finally say, brushing your thumbs against his cheek. “You’re my entire world. You stayed by my side when the urge wracked my body, when I attempted to take your life that night. You didn’t judge me when it got so bad I caved and harmed an innocent person. You held me and told me that I could beat those urges. You saved me, Astarion, and I will not be leaving you.” His tears begin to pool under the pad of your thumb as you speak.
“Losing my memory was my second chance at life, and then I met you. You gave me something worth living for. Hells, all of our friends did, and I refuse to go back to that life I once lived. I don’t want to be a killer, and I don’t want to be his daughter. I want to be my own person. I want to be able to make my own decisions and control my own body and mind. So, my little Star, I won’t be going anywhere because my home is right here by your side.”
You can tell your words have moved him in some way as he is now fully sobbing. Pulling him to you, you let his head fall onto your chest as you allow him to fall apart in your arms. The fear that plagued him during your meeting with Gortash finally leaves him as he deflates in your embrace. Soon, his sobs quieten, and you both lie under the tree, his arms wrapped tightly around you, almost as if he fears you will disappear if he lets go. In that moment, a peaceful and intimate moment, three words are finally shared between you two. In that moment, you vow to destroy Cazador and show him what true power is. In that moment, the urge claws at your insides, begging to be unleashed, and soon enough, you will let it take over your very being.
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cathkaesque · 1 year
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I know the UK is (rightly) seen as TERF island but it’s so close to being a very good place for trans people. Employment protections and rights to single sex spaces have been enshrined in law for at least 12 years with the Equality Act. SRS, gamete storage and HRT, and healthcare for trans minors, is covered through the NHS, and it would take very little in the way of changes to make this much more accessible (imo GPs should be given the power to diagnose gender dysphoria in the same manner as they diagnose other mental illnesses like depression (which they throw prozac at like its candy, something far more risky than HRT) and for GPs to be trained on trans health care and to refer trans patients to endricinologists when a trans patient requests this - this has basically been my experience why I finally got a GP who advocated for me. There are policies in place that allow GPs to do what she did if GPs know about them. GICs are ultimately a referral service staffed by professional gatekeepers which exist only to decide whether trans people should access care provided by different bodies). Basically all documentation asides from birth ceritificates (which is governed by the Gender Recognition Act and  you need for very little) can be changed via a self declared deed poll.
I think when this is taken into account, what the transphobes are doing becomes much more apparent. Rather than crusading against the introduction of scary new legislation, they are actually agitating against existing rights that have been on the books for a very long time.
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I am once again having a thought™ and I just went on a full-on rant to a friend, thought I'd share my thoughts with y'all to see if anyone agrees.
Yes, it's about Hadesgame Patrochilles, buckle up.
Currently reading the Iliad, I noticed that not only are Achilles and Patroclus extremely well-written in Hades (that we're all aware of, I think), but also that there are many many layers to their relationship and the one they have with Zagreus.
First thing that hit me while reading the og Patrochilles and how they're written is how drastically different they are in Hades compared to their original alive selves. They're basically each the complete opposite of what they were when they were alive: Achilles, once prideful, arrogant and impulsive, once his rage was appeased, now became wise, patient, calm, an actually good mentor to Zagreus, in whom he must see a lot of his younger self. Patroclus, on the other hand, once famously gentle and kind, became bitter and dismissive. That can easily be explained by the fact that decades and decades alone after death can drastically change someone. Achilles, so guilty about what his pride did to Patroclus, matured and became wiser; and Patroclus, because of years alone abandoned, lost his faith in the glory of war (and in Achilles).
They basically became the opposite of what they were when they were alive, because of years of loneliness and longing and reflecting on this war they were a part of.
BUT THAT'S NOT ALL GUYS. When you dig a bit (mostly by chatting with Achilles and listening to Patroclus ramble to himself), you learn that what made them mostly change, aside from the circumstances of their deaths, is their longing for each other, and that despite all that change, they both retain the ONE TRAIT that caused their deaths.
Achilles, even in death, remains unbelievably stubborn, unshakable in his decisions (or in this case, his decision to stay away from Patroclus so that he can rest in Elysium) until Patroclus (through Zagreus) manages to shake him out of it.
And Patroclus, ever so bitter and depressed Patroclus, remains deeply kind and generous. He broods there in his glade, but when Zagreus shows up, polite, just passing by, in need of help, Patroclus offers him what little he has to keep going.
It drives me insane to see that after dying, Patroclus is the one who became impulsive and ready to 'risk it all', because he simply has nothing left to lose. Meanwhile, Achilles, so scarred by Patroclus' death (caused by him and his hubris and his pride), is terrified of risking anything, because the one thing he has left to lose is Patroclus' place in Elysium, and he simply can't bring himself to understand that Patroclus wants to be by his side anywhere rather than alone up there.
And they could have never reconciled without Zagreus' intervention. Because somehow, Zagreus is a mirror of both of them, in his own way.
And because on top of being impusilve and stubborn (like Achilles) as well as kind and caring (like Patroclus), Zagreus is the one guy down here, the only one who fights against his fate with all his goddamn might.
Because he wants to see his mother. He wants to find his place in this world. He wants to be acknowledged and respected. So he fights, against the Fates themselves (by just being alive, he does, I'll remind), against Hades, to get what he wants. Achilles and Patroclus both succumbed to their own destinies in the worst way. Of course it would resonate with them.
Maybe I'm thinking too hard about this. But there are so many parallels to draw here! Think about Achilles, who practically raised Zagreus, instructed him in myths, history, combat and arms. Seeing this kid, a prince, gifted for combat, craving for recognition and respect? That would ring a bell. And Zagreus is already a dual kind of person, he's the red eye and the green eye, he's the Olympian and the goddess with a mortal father. He's rage and fierceness (Achilles) and he's kindness and generosity (Patroclus).
And Zagreus hates the status quo. In his own life, and in the one of others. He does this for multiple people in Hades (Sisyphus, Orpheus and Eurydice, Hypnos and Thanatos, Nyx and Chaos...), he just can't stand people suffering when he knows there is something that could be done. He rattles the house and wreaks havoc in his father's well-ordered world, because he knows damn well he's the only one with enough balls to do it.
The thing is that if Zagreus had never intervened, Achilles and Patroclus would never have seen each other. Achilles took the first step toward redemption by giving up his place in Elysium (his glory, his pride, what he fought so hard for) so that Patroclus could stay there instead, as a way of apologizing for what he did to him and atone for his mistakes; but after that, he was left frozen in his own guilt, refusing to try and think of a way to see Patroclus again. And Pat, well... He's given up. Like how he gave up on reasoning with Achilles back in Troy. So he just waits there, even he doesn't know what for. It takes this bisexual disaster of a god to barge in and shake things up, until Patroclus finally reached out to Achilles, gives him that message (risk it all), the last push Achilles needed to finally move.
So yeah I just think they're neat-
This concludes my thought™.
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emelinstriker · 6 months
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You say third brand, I’m not sure if it was mentioned before or if it’s a spoiler (I’m going through the blog and only saw it being mentioned once and only seeing the chest design)…. What exactly is the branding in the Esau? How badly does it hurt them? :(
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I was waiting for someone to ask about their brands fhfgnhfg-
It's not much of a spoiler, it's more of an identification thing. And no worries, it doesn't hurt anymore. But it did hurt a lot when they got those. They did get marked with eternal branding iron, after all. :D
Basically, the biggest and first brandmark on their backs stands for "Servant". I guess also technically slave for some, but being a servant would be the generally nicer term. Quite a few have this mark within the palace, so it's not uncommon.
The medium and second brandmark is on their chests and stands for their titles as their Master's "Champion"s. The champion title is like the VIP rank of servants, which does include more direct responsibilities, such as being a bodyguard, personal servant and all that. In return, Champions do get so much more attention and recognition though. They also got more perms and can be put in charge of soldiers like generals. Only a handful of the Master's most trusted have this mark.
*And lastly, the third brandmark is a lot smaller and is basically only available to those who are worthy of being in the Master's chambers. It stands for "Toy". I'm not gonna go into details cuz the position of that one is already telling of how NSFW that shit can become. But there's only very few selected ones with the third mark. This mark specifically is usually treated like a sacred symbol however, so the boys don't like showing it to anyone except their beloved Master.
(*Update from 12/3/23: Due to the recent drama that happened, the third mark is now no longer being considered part of the canon as of today. People can still go the NSFW route with characters regardless. Nothing is being affected by this change other than the characters' designs.)
It's not required to always show either of the marks, but they do come with benefits within the palace. Wukong actually tends to prefer showing his champion mark for the respect he gets; Macaque on the other hand doesn't deem it necessary as he doesn't need the crowd's approval if his Master loves him.
Fun fact: There was actually the idea of having the Reader trail their fingers along at least Wukong's brandmark during the Obedience one-shot, but then decided against it cuz I wanted to let that happen another time. So instead he just got headpets like a good boi.
But generally speaking, literally anyone with the champion marks are very much obsessed with their Master and they love it when their Master places attention onto those marks. c:
Another fun fact: Each symbol is actually a letter from my self-made alphabet font/language I use in basically everything for years. Like, especially now with those mysterious members from the group pulling on the strings... Ehe~
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azure-cherie · 2 years
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𝓐𝓼𝓽𝓮𝓻𝓸𝓲𝓭 𝓐𝓷𝓰𝓮𝓵 11911 𝓲𝓷 𝓱𝓸𝓾𝓼𝓮𝓼
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This asteroid is an indicator of one's spirit guides and where it sits in your chart represents which aspects would your spirit guides help you the most for growth in the field.
You're recommended to use whole signs and you can see for your Tropical and Sidereal measurements as well.
I am not a professional astrologer so take what resonates, enjoy 💕
1st house :
Being confident in oneself, healing traumas , sometimes due to past life traumas one suffers body pain , cuts , marks etc , your guides would help you to let go of that , they could help you in helping to understand yourself more , indications of something wrong going in your life or shift from your actual path would be shown by changes in your physical body . They will make you comfortable with living as a human and the basic art of surviving.
2nd house :
Your guides will help you in acquiring things , improving finances , Making you understand the value of material gains as balanced to your spiritual gains , they will help you in improving your self esteem , could reward you through gifts , you could be a medium for channeling messages for others too . They will help you to get the best version of your personality. Will help you in art too.
3rd house :
Your guides will help you with learning, communication, intelligence, you might be blessed with clair cognizance, they will help you in studies , gaining ideas through writing and poetry , might give you oracular abilities, local travels might help you in connecting more to your guides , could help in throat chakra healing . Could help in business professions , media sector and paparazzi sector too.
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4th house :
Your guides will help you in feeling secure , maybe in the past you felt abandoned, they will make you understand that no matter what you have your guides, will help you in healing your relationship with your mom . Like someone hugging you because you have been through so much, they will help you in your housing as you settle on your own in future.
5th house :
Your guides will help you in feeling creative , self expression, will help you in acquiring leisurely pursuits and luxury in your life , could help you with sports and anything to do with play as well , kinda about being active . They might communicate to you through kids , alternatively you might have youthful guides . They would help you in the time of your child birth as well.
6th house :
Your guides will help you in clearing your debts , feeling motivated , postive , maintaing routines, will help you in healing your illnesses , charity work is recommended for you , you might connect to your guides as you serve different people , it's your guides blessing you when the person whom you help says "god bless you my child" , you will clear your bad karma and achieve good karmas.
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7th house :
Your guides will help you in forming meaningful and long relationships with people, in business deals , and help you in showing resources to aid your career . They will help you in finding someone to love , in your marriage too , will lead you to do the betterment of your spouse , will help you to be a good lover .
8th house:
Your guides will definitely help you with intense changes and transformations , in the art of tantra, witchcraft . Would help you get inheritance and gifts , will help you in connecting more to your sexual side and aid in awakening your kundalini, as the placement suggests to reincarnation, you might have a guide that has worked with you since your past life.
9th house :
Your guides will help you with spirituality, higher education, you could have god's as your spirit guides , you could get philosophy lessons from your guides , you will connect to your guides as you go for long distance travels , they will help you in learning ethics , foreign culture , will be your lucky charm.
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10th house :
Your guides will help you in your career path , goals and recognition, resolve any issues related to your job situation, will be your light in the darkest of times , they might connect to you through superiors . They will help you in establishing routines and will reward you if you work hard for your goals.
11th house :
Your guides will help you with networking finding a lot of friends, in revolutions, big changes , will help you through your rise to fame as well, healing your past wounds , will communicate to you through random people you meet , you could have the ability of prediction and would make good astrologers and readers , you could gain information through your devices as well.
12 th house :
Your guides might connect to you through your dreams, they will help you in getting closer to your spiritual aspects, you might have a lot of psychic abilities you haven't tapped in they will help you through it , they will help you gain enlightenment motivation and healing and also heal you after a major loss if any .
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That's all thank you for reading 💗
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thetallkiwi2 · 1 year
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Astrology Observations
aThese observations are from my experience with people and they may not resonate with you. Take it with a grain of salt.
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😌 If you have your pluto in your 4th house, that could possibly mean that you may get into power struggles and other plutonian themes from your mom’s side of the family. Not just her. Most likely the females as well. 
🤬Attention Taurus placements: you have Uranus conjunct your placements. This time Uranus is asking you to accept change and think/act/be outside the box! Balance out that possessiveness towards your usual...thought process, emotional process, whatever Uranus is touching. Don’t be too much like your sister sign Scorpio now. 
🤪Same thing can be applied to other fixed placements as Uranus will be SQUARING your placements.  I like to think that this can be a blessing or a challenge. Either blessed in excess or blessed with the opportunity to gain something or develop something. 
🧠 Saturn in Gemini generation, so the gen z people. Get ready, Saturn is making a preliminary saturnian test via transit saturn squaring natal saturn. Learn to take accountability in that area and practice grounding yourself there. Saturn wants you to work through fears, concerns, and most of all make sure that you’re aware that you have the power within you to go towards your desires. Here I would say try to incorporate more piscean themes wherever saturn is. For example, I have my saturn in Gemini squaring Saturn in pisces. Saturn is in my 4th house. My interpretation is to really practice balancing my spirituality and my logic...basically get grounded. That way, I know what to take accountability for in healing my family lineage. It is possible that one of my family’s generational cycles is the lack of grounding having unstable emotions. This aspect will teach me to grow up even more. It is never a bad thing, but don’t get whiney over it because it is ultimately for your betterment of life.
💞 I assume that a good number of us have Netflix. If you have, I recommend the series Manifest. This series has had me h o o k e d. Not to mention that I looked up the actors birth charts. I have taken a liking to Melissa Roxburgh, who plays Michaela Stone, and she has interesting placements. She has a Scorpio Mercury and you can just see that all throughout her investigations. Not to mention that her Aquarius venus stands out as well in the series. Aquarius is the humanitarian and if her role in the movie doesn’t get as humanitarian as that, then I don’t even know. I have a feeling that she is a pisces ascendant. Of course you know how it goes with this ascendant: you can  recognize them by their ethereal eyes. Ms. Melissa has such beautiful siren eyes. 
💔Alright, alright, alright...I am just gonna say this. The Pluto in Capricorn generation exists now. That’s not bad. However, to those who have their Chiron in Capricorn, let’s take a step back and breathe...because I know that we’re probably gonna have some sort of tension with this generation. Pluto conjunct chiron in terms of synastry, the pluto person will hit the chiron person’s deep spot, whatever that may be. *exhales dramatically*.
😭 But having chiron in Capricorn in the 10th house is such a difficult placement because everyone will see your pain. You may feel like you’re skipped, or you will never get recognition, which may lead you to doing a tremendous amount of things to get people to notice and give you recognition. Be careful right there because you may do too much for one, two...how do I put this...people will be intimidated by that and they will attack. Finally you got recognition, but not the type you want. That can feed into your self-esteem problems and lead to a vicious cycle.
🤨 I was thinking about how...lilith is currently in Leo, transiting my 6th house. I am so sorry but I did think of masturbating as an option to include in my routine. I mean I heard it’s healthy to do it at least 3 times a week...I actually read this from a medical journal that is deep into the depths of Google. Lol.
😇Mercury trine Neptune natal aspect is honestly an underrated, blessed superior aspect in my opinion. While yes, this is an aspect that may represent having cloudy judgement at times, you legitimately have your angels, and whoever you worship on speed dial, so to speak. People with this aspect can be very intuitive and great at visualizing. If other placements support it in the chart, the native will be the type of person to literally make their dreams become a reality through hard work or access to resources that helps them materialize their desires. 
❄️Degrees still somewhat remain underrated. Take a look at the degrees and notice if you have anything interesting. I have a lot of Cancer degrees spread throughout my chart, but like...a couple of water placements themselves. My ascendant is at 4 degrees, my moon at 28, Saturn also at 28 degrees, Neptune at 08 degrees, and then I also have some fire degrees, 13 specifically on my Midheaven and Pluto. My uranus is the only Earth degree (14, a Taurus degree), my mercury is at 12 degrees..etc, etc. You see what I am saying? All those water degrees make sense as to why I do have strong emotions. Those few fire degrees add intensity and passion in the mix as well. I always wondered why people say that I have an intense presence--I’m just out there, without even having to be.
🤷🏾‍♀️ I have asteroid Bella square as my ascendant...and I don’t know what that means. I assume maybe one cannot really see their own beauty like other people?? Can someone help me out with that?
🐂 People who have Aries in their 12th house may be loud and portray Martian aspects, but they’re unaware of it. 
🌎 For the Apple users, I recommend the app Planetaro. The app will tell you what the ruling planet is for the day and for the hour. At the time I am doing this, it is currently Jupiter hour and it ends in...4 minutes. Next up is Mars hour, then sun, etc. For Android users I recommend the app “Planetary Times.” Pretty much the Android version of Planetaro.
👨‍👩‍👧‍👦 Having moon conjunct Venus is a sweet aspect but it’s so tiring to have because you can’t help but be nice. This is the aspect of “killing them with kindness.” It hurts even more if you don’t have boundaries or whatnot in place because people will really use you and take advantage of you.
📖 I just realized that I have my Lilith (Aries) sextile my north node (Gemini). I had to sit down and think for a little bit. I thought to myself that “I’m supposed to integrate Lilith themes into my north node? I’m supposed to use my sexuality, my bitchiness, my snap, crackle, and pop attitude in this life??? Well sheeeessshh.” 
💁🏾‍♀️ No I am in a dilemma because my birth chart literally screams Regina George. This girl is intelligent yet manipulative, always getting her way. She is a bitch, but she is also well-known in school. She does go by the nickname Queen Bee. I can see it so much and I don’t like that (but I doooo).
🧖🏾‍♀️ One thing I found interesting is that both of my parents have air venuses! My mom is a gemini venus (RIP because the dating advice she gives me is literally crap AND she always tries to ruin me and my s/o’s privacy) and my dad is a libra venus. That’s funny because they were just flings and then boom...I’M ALIVEEE. (The chaos)
💀 I noticed that people with Mercury Inconjunct Mars tend to be very direct. Like unnecessarily brutally honest people. I am not here for it. I’m sorry but no one asked to be read to filth.
📣Mercury Square ascendant can apply to above aspect as well.
I think that is it now. I am on a roll. Next up is an analysis of my parents birth charts! I think this should be quite interesting as I noticed that they have some aspects that I have in my chart and to be honest, I kinda eny my dad’s birth chart a bit because the beauty in it. 
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femmefatalevibe · 7 months
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hello, gorgeous. im starting college soon and im on my way to become a femme fatale, so i have two questions for you
1. how can i incorporate the femme fatale way of being into academia?
2. what things/brands are affordable for a college student? i’d love to wear high-quality clothes like the ones you recommend, but i can’t afford them. are there any other products/services that i could add to my routine for a cheap price?
thank you so much in advance xx
Hi love! Congratulations on starting this new chapter of your life <3
Here are my thoughts:
1. how can i incorporate the femme fatale way of being into academia?
Understand the importance and power of:
Knowing how to learn, study, and get in the practice of regularly acquiring new information
Understanding how to work through concepts, set goals, and clearly communicate your thoughts to better articulate a concept or build a case/argument
Becoming a better writer, reader, and remaining focused/prioritized when it comes to your tasks and to-do list
Learning how to absorb information and apply this knowledge to different situations/areas of life through these acquired skill sets/methodology
Developing important self-presentation skills through presentations, written/verbal communication/networking
Refining your aptitude for pattern recognition, gaining more insight into human nature/what makes people tick, and learning how to persuade/seduce others through your words/insights
2. what things/brands are affordable for a college student? i’d love to wear high-quality clothes like the ones you recommend, but i can’t afford them. are there any other products/services that i could add to my routine for a cheap price?
Totally get it! Budgets are particularly tight for many college students.
For a service option, I would say I recommend Rent The Runway (I believe it's around $100/month for 10ish items rotated throughout the month).
For more affordable alternatives, I would say your best bet is to dig deep into the sale sections of department stores/The Outnet and similar e-commerce sites by utilizing all the filters you need (budget, size, colors, item type, etc.).
If you're searching for more affordable brands generally, I would say some of the highest quality affordable brands available are:
Express: The "Body Contour" line has amazing basics and I love their Editor High-Waisted Flare Trousers (these might be too professional for what you need right now), but I've heard they have very solid denim and shirting options, too!
Oak & Fort (I prefer them to Everlane/Abercrombie TBH)
Quince (for washable silks, cashmere and basics for $40-$70)
4th & Reckless (a lot of their items are on sale for $25-$50!)
Because of Alice (Outlet) – mostly under $70
Pixie Market (sale items are often around $50-70)
Banana Republic (especially the sale section)
Everlane/Abercrombie have their gems – some of the trouser/outerwear quality is iffy, though
Lioness/DISSH
Frankie Shop (in-house brand – on sale it's similar to Mango prices)
Maniere de Voir (mostly under/around $100, TOP quality for the price)
Shoprumored
Mango/COS (better than other fast fashion choices, IMO)
Hope this helps xx
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arceespinkgun · 11 months
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Thoughts About Jazz
My current read of Jazz in G1-adjacent continuities is that he makes friends easily and is a fun-loving, open-minded, supportive guy everyone loves and admires... but that he really struggles with opening up. Now that I've seen him in so many different series, it's really become clear to me that while he is so kind to everyone and is such a good friend, basically all of his relationships with others boil down to "the person he works with" or "the person he has fun with" or some combination of the two. Even dynamics like the one between Jazz and Optimus, which you'd think would be more specific since Optimus is his leader and Jazz a sort of advisor or right hand, come across to me as respectful yet almost distant.
From the outset I thought Jazz just doesn't "rank" friendships, like maybe he practices one form of relationship anarchy and sees each one as beautiful and unique in their own way, in-keeping with how he is so excited about so many different aspects of Earth's dances and music genres. And I think that seems like what he'd want to do. But now that I've seen him more, it sort of seems like he's really failing to do that, and instead practicing... I don't know, relationship conformity? By keeping everyone at arm's length? Which is sad because everyone really cares about him! For most of his dynamics with other characters, I can describe each of them in like, a sentence!
It's been shown that when Jazz is given the chance to open up emotionally, he chooses not to take it. He can also extremely minimize even horrific suffering he's been through:
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In a way, how avoidant Jazz is regarding vulnerability is a bit like Ultra Magnus always passing up care or recognition due to his low self-esteem and dutiful nature, but it's almost... more than that? Like, at least it's clear when Ultra Magnus IS suffering even when he doesn't think he deserves help. I think Jazz's cheerful personality and the fact that he excels at so many things disguises issues like this well, and that's really interesting and sad to me.
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theauspolchronicles · 7 months
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I know you’re not indigenous so this might be incorrect to ask but I’m interested in your perspective anyway; what’s your opinion on the black sovereignty movement and those who see the voice as a form of assimilation?
There's multiple things to unpack about the topics mentioned - some I do have comments on, some I don't. I'm not really the person to ask about perspective on the black sovereignty movement (I believe they also call it Blak sovereignty) but I can at least mention a few things about the idea of sovereignty, the Voice, and how those two separate ideas interact with Parliament.
So, Aboriginal people are already under the jurisdiction of the current constitution and participate in the laws of this country and the mechanics and authority of Parliament. Lidia Thorpe, as a prominent person in that movement, to be a Senator has sworn an oath of allegiance to a foreign monarch she hates - that doesn't de-legitimise her goals and desire to remove than monarch from power and her participation in Parliament doesn't cede sovereignty solely to the Crown that empowers it but instead Thorpe recognises that Parliament is the law making authority in Australia and therefore the only effective place to reform the system she abhors. Similarly, the Voice doesn't undermine those goals - just Thorpe has argued that the Voice isn't useful to those goals, or not as important as a treaty (which is a legally binding agreement that has force instead of advisory abilities).
The Uluru Statement from the Heart says the Voice will make it so that Aboriginal people's "ancient sovereignty can shine through as a fuller expression of Australia’s nationhood." This is a spiritual concept, not the same as a legal concept, as sovereignty under international law cannot be ceded except by EXPLICIT AND CLEAR MUTUAL AGREEMENT BY BOTH PARTIES.
So, while some see the Voice as a spiritual recognition of Aboriginal sovereignty by ensuring a constitutional protection for the ability to be included in discussions on matters affecting them - it doesn't actually address the legal recognition of Aboriginal sovereignty. Basically: the Voice literally CAN'T undermine Aboriginal sovereignty from a legal perspective. It just can't. It can't be implied. It can't be inferred. It doesn't mention it in the text of the amendment. It's not actually about sovereignty in a legal sense - but does at least recognise in a mechanical way that Aboriginal people's right to self determination can be facilitated through an advisory body.
Aboriginal sovereignty was never ceded. There has never been an explicit mutual agreement between the European colonisers and Indigenous people of this land to address that. The Voice isn't that either. A treaty COULD be that - but the contents of a treaty are specific to that treaty. So the Blak sovereignty movement can call for a treaty not to cede anything, but to have the Crown formally recognise and agree to maintaining, protecting, or even elevating that Aboriginal sovereignty. They understand that the Voice's references to sovereignty are only spiritual - they want something more concrete and tangible, like a treaty.
A treaty is a binding legal agreement - so you can see why some would argue that's more useful or more of a priority than the Voice. The Uluru Statement from the Heart called for both a Voice and treaty (and truth telling commission) so I don't see them as competing goals. They're not mutually exclusive and don't undermine each other. But people have different perspectives, experiences, and goals, as is normal in society. Like I answered this mostly just to make sure people didn't think the Voice was ceding sovereignty - but as I mentioned in my answer some people already know it won't and have different issues with it so the same information can still lead to different perspectives and ideas.
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the-sprog · 1 year
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"so.... You're not the same person?"
"No," he really hopes they'll attribute his racing heartbeat and sweating face to nervousness and anxiety, and not because he's blatantly lying through his teeth.
"Who is he then?" He's sure that if he could see his face, Batman would be raising an eyebrow.
Or maybe not, maybe he's just as expressionless without his mask.
"Well..." Ok, Billy. You can do this. You've lied to police officers for harder things to hide. You have the excuse of magic this time. You can do it. "I guess you could say he's... My dad...?" That's surely not going to come back to bite him in the ass anytime soon.
Fuck Batman and fuck his face recognition software.
"You don't sound too sure yourself." Dammit Supes, you're supposed to be on his side, not poking holes in his story!
"It's kinda complicated. It's magic bullshit." He can feel the judgemental stares at his swearing, but he's freaking out too much to care about what the Justice League thinks of his politeness.
"Basically," he continues, not giving them the chance of asking questions again, "think about it this way. He's the one with the powers, and- and nothing actually happens to me if he gets hurt." Ok, technical truth. He can do this.
"So do you... Like... Switch places then?"
"Yes, that's exactly what happens." He thanks Superman mentally.
"What happens to you then?"
"Uuuhmmm." THINK THINK THINK. "It's like- well, basically... Only one of us can exist on any give plane of existence." Are those words too big for an 11 years old to know? Possibly. But he does learn a thing or two by being Marvel and constantly being surrounded by adults who spoke like they came out of a dictionary.
Or a court case.
"So you go... Where?" 'Flash if you don't stop asking questions,' Billy mentally threatens, 'I will make sure there is no food for you at the Watchtower or so help me Gods. I'll become the biggest annoyance you've ever had the displasure of dealing with'
"The Rock of Eternity." Probably his best lie yet.
"And it's.... Safe for you in the... Rock?" Diana, you beautiful, wonderful woman. Why would you do this to him?
Billy nods. "Yes, only we can go there. Well, and people we allow inside. But we don't do that." And Freddy doesn't count.
Neither does Darla.
And Mary.
And Pedro.
Eugene.
None of the rest of his family counts, let's leave it at that.
"As long as the Champion of Magic is there to protect it, it's the safest place one could be in"
'If you strong enough to resist the temptations of the embodiment of the Seven Deadly Sins, that is' he didn't say. He thought it, though.
Gosh he hopes Martian Man Hunter hasn't been reading his mind this whole time.
That would be awkward, to say the least.
"But why are you two like this- what happened?" Well Flash is not going to eat in the tower for a good while.
Billy fidgets. One last lie. Can he 'technically the truth' his way out of this one?
"Well... Marvel is not... Really my dad. He's more like...." C'mon words, c'mon. "His ghost or-or his... His legacy! Yeah. And a few years ago- there's a Wizard involved. We got the blessings of the Gods and- I don't actually know the details." Mostly because the details don't actually exists.
But they don't need to know that.
The other heroes share a glace.
He knows they're not happy about the whole situation. He doesn't even want to imagine what they'd say if they knew he was lying.
Vaguely, he remembers about a conversation Robin and Superboy had. Something that Nightwing and Hood brought on. Something about Batman and his tendency of pulling children under his wing.
Suddenly, Billy becomes self conscious of the holes in his clothes, the dirt-stained jeans, his hair that he clearly cut himself, the bruises and scrapes under the fabric that the other heroes can't even see.
He must really look like something alright.
"Can we talk to the Captain, kid?" He's surprised that throughout all of this none of them had even asked his name.
"Yeah, sure." He yells the magic word, with a passing thought of not having well calculated having to pose as two separate people in their eyes now.
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pianistbynight · 4 months
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What are your top study strategies with piano? I'm a self-taught pianist that most started because of my love for your lie in April and how music moved people so I am always trying to improve!!!
hi! first of all, i'm sorry this took a while, i wanted to make sure i had as complete a list as possible without being too overwhelming! also not sure what level you're at, so i'm going to assume you're just starting out and you're looking to play classical music. 🙂 also this is more of a "do as i say, not as i do" bc i really struggle to do some of these consistently 🙈
try to learn some basic music theory as soon as you can. just enough to be able to read sheet music (how to read treble and bass clefs, accidentals, time signatures, basic rhythm, and key signatures) if you haven't already. that's something i regret not doing at the beginning bc the vast majority of music and all of classical music are written in sheet music and you get so much more info from it than you can from the best of synthesia videos. beyond that, knowing music theory -> pattern recognition, so it can help with sight reading and memorization. this is the youtube series i learned the basics from. it's pretty comprehensive although i find he's sometimes hard to hear and goes off on a tangent. at the very least, you can use it as a guide for what to type into the search box to get a more concise explanation as there are lots online!
familiarize yourself with the basic technical exercises (scales, arpeggios, triads, etc.) in every key bc those patterns and fingerings appear all the time in classical music.
practice sight reading. (yes, i know it hurts the brain, it hurts mine too, but it will really really speed up the learning process when learning new repertoire so we can focus on the more fun aspects of music! 😆😅)
practice every day! and not just moving your fingers, your mind needs to be present and your ears need to be listening (e.g. are you playing with the right dynamics? are you moving in a way that will get the right tone? how is your posture?). sometimes it's a lot to be thinking about as you're playing, so it helps to record yourself and listen back. once you feel yourself losing focus or making the same mistakes over and over again, maybe it's time to take a little break bc practice makes permanent and you don't wanna injure yourself 🙂
on that note, playing an instrument is kind of like playing a sport in that you need to make sure you use proper form so you don't injure yourself (using bigger muscle groups like your arm and gravity rather than forcing the sound through blocky fingers)! if you play on a digital, the keys will generally be lighter than on an acoustic (highly recommend trying to play on both to compare!), so making a conscious effort to play the way you would be forced to on an acoustic is all the more important.
i hope this helps! my ask box is always open if you have any more questions or just wanna talk music 🎶💗 i'm really excited for you! expressing yourself through music and sharing it with others is so fulfilling 😊
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sundeathh · 10 months
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hi!! i really love your writing style so much omgg, could i request something where reader (who is aizawa’s s/o) is being mind controlled maybe by a villains quirk idk it’s up to you HAHHAHA and they’re basically just forced to fight aizawa? the ending is up to you!
i’m so sorry if this sounds weird or doesn’t make sense at all 😭😭
Hahah, your request is not weird at all, I actually loved it a lot! Sorry for the looong delay, my schedule have been full lately and I am crazy about perfection. So, I hope you enjoy it!
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A heartbreaking fight
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One-shot | Request | Masterlist
Pairing: Aizawa × GN!Reader | Words: +2,5k
Fandom: BNHA | MHA | CW: Violence, blood mention, cursing.
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Aizawa stumbled backward, the first rays of dawn casting an ethereal glow on the scene he had before him. He felt the ache deep in his bones, his body weary from hours of tireless patrol. The moon, a pale sentinel in the sky, hung overhead, a silent witness to the battle that had just unfolded.
His breath came in ragged gasps, mingling with the cool morning air. Blood trickled down his nose, staining his trusty scarf. With a weary swipe of the back of his hand, he wiped it away, his gaze never wavering from the figure before him.
The figure moved with an unnatural grace, the darkness of the night still lingering around them. Aizawa squinted, trying to make out their features in the dim light. Shadows danced around them, casting an eerie aura as if the night was reluctant to release its hold.
Despite the exhaustion seeping through his bones, Aizawa remained resolute. His eyes narrowed, determined and focused, as he squared his shoulders. The first rays of dawn illuminated his face, emphasizing the determination etched into his features. He then knew he had to end this, not just for his safety but for the person who stood before him.
As the light of dawn revealed their features, Aizawa's heart clenched with fear and anguish. It was none other than the one they had both shared laughter, tears, and countless moments of happiness with. But now, their eyes were empty, devoid of recognition or warmth. Now controlled by a villain's quirk, reduced to a mere puppet in their hands.
Aizawa's mind raced, desperately searching for a way to end this nightmare without causing any harm to the person he cherished. Every fiber of his being fought against the reality before him, where they were turned against each other. His opponent, a petty villain reveling in their newfound power, knew precisely what they were doing. They understood the psychological torment it inflicted on Aizawa and the one he held dear.
With sadistic glee, the villain taunted him, their voice echoing through the dawn-lit silence. "Get up, Eraserhead," they sneered, their words a cruel distortion of his loved one's voice. The villain's hold over them was a sickening reminder of the danger they both faced.
Aizawa struggled to his feet, his body protesting every movement. He could feel the weight of his injuries, but it was nothing compared to the weight in his heart. He couldn't bring himself to fight back against the person he held dear, even under the villain's control.
He gazed at the marionette-like figure drawing closer, their hand poised to strike. Aizawa's voice trembled with desperation as he pleaded, "Please, stop. Don't do this. Remember who you are. Remember us."
His words hung in the air, filled with love and pain. Aizawa fought to suppress the instinct to flinch away, to protect himself from the inevitable blow. He clung to the hope that his words would reach their true self, buried beneath the villain's influence.
And they did. You stopped inches from his cheek, your fingers hovering over the skin. Your hand was shaking, but whether it was because of your fear or rage, Aizawa could not tell for sure. He had never seen you so angry before. You were never this angry with him before. 
But well, you were not entirely you now.
Aizawa felt a pang of anguish as he looked into your eyes, witnessing the turmoil within. He could see fragments of your true self flickering behind the veil of the villain's control. Desperation welled up inside him, urging him to break through that barrier and reach you.
Tears welled in your eyes, mingling with the confusion and anger stamped across your face. "Are you okay?" you asked, your voice laced with hesitance and concern as your gaze fell upon his bruised face. Aizawa's heart ached at the sound of your voice, now tinged with the lingering remnants of the villain's influence.
"I'll be fine," he managed to say with a half smile, his voice thick with emotion. "But right now, I need you to hold on. Fight this, even if it feels impossible." He stated.
As the villain's grip over you weakened, their frustration and desperation grew evident. So, they tried to manipulate your body again, urging you to attack, but Aizawa intercepted your movement with swift precision. He caught your fist in his hand, exerting just enough pressure to remind you of his presence without causing you harm.
Now in the grip of his capture weapon, you struggled against the restraints, your face contorting with anger. But through the fury, Aizawa saw glimpses of vulnerability, of the person he loved fighting to break free from the shackles of control.
"Stay still. Please," Aizawa pleaded, his voice laced with desperation and tenderness. His gaze bore into your eyes, willing you to hear his words. "I can't bear to see you hurt, not like this. There's still a part of you that cares, that doesn't want to cause harm. Hold onto that, okay?"
A tear slipped down your cheek, mirroring the heartache that Aizawa felt. The sight of your pain only fueled his determination to save you, to help you reclaim your true self from the clutches of the villain's quirk.
"Why would I?" you responded with anger and bitterness evident in your voice. "I don't care about this fucking body." The words cut through the air, tinged with defiance. But beneath the surface, Aizawa could sense the war waging within you, the struggle between your true self and the puppet strings pulling you in different directions.
Aizawa's grip tightened around you, his hands trembling with fear and determination. He couldn't bear the thought of you hating him for what he was about to do, but he knew deep down that it was the only way to protect you from further harm.
"Please don't hate me..." he whispered, his voice raw and filled with anguish. Every fiber of his being screamed against his actions, but he couldn't let his emotions cloud his judgment. Your safety was paramount.
The sight of your bloodied hands, both with his blood and yours, served well as a painful reminder of the violence that had consumed the moment. Aizawa's heart sank. His gaze was fixated on the glassy and unfocused look in your eyes. It was a haunting sight, a terrible contrast to the vibrant spirit he had come to know and love.
The realization that you had lost control – that the person who owned your mind had taken away your autonomy; sent shivers down Aizawa's spine. It terrified him to his core. He couldn't let this continue. He couldn't stand idly by, watching you suffer.
So in that agonizing moment, time seemed to slow down for him. His mind raced with desperate calculations, seeking a solution to free his lover from the clutches of the villain's control. Every fiber of his being rebelled against the notion of causing you harm, but he knew it was a necessary sacrifice to protect you.
He made a split-second choice, his movements swift and determined. With a sudden surge of strength, Aizawa lunged forward, his forehead connecting with yours with a resounding thud; the impact reverberated through his skull, a painful collision of wills. His muscles strained as he willed for that impact to be enough, hoping it would send you to unconsciousness.
As you slumped forward, falling against Aizawa's chest, he held you gently, his hands cradling your body. The alleyway fell into an eerie stillness, broken only by your labored breathing. Aizawa couldn't tear his gaze away from your face, his heart pounding painfully in his chest.
The conflicting emotions within him threatened to consume him entirely. He felt a wave of nausea wash over him, his body trembling with the aftershocks of the adrenaline that had fueled his actions. He found himself questioning his own sanity, wondering how he could ever reconcile the love he held for you with the pain he had just inflicted.
Silent tears traced down his cheeks, blending with the sweat and blood staining his face. He held onto you tightly, vowing to protect you at all costs, even if it meant sacrificing his sanity in the process;
After a few seconds, Aizawa rose slowly, his head pounding and his body aching from the previous ordeal. Determination burned in his eyes as he scanned the area, searching for any sign of the villain. His voice reverberated with anger and defiance as he challenged the unseen foe.
"Show yourself, you coward!" He bellowed into the silence, his voice echoing through the alleyway. "Come out and face me! Or are you too scared to confront me directly?"
The air grew heavy with anticipation, the silence hanging thick in the atmosphere. Aizawa's heart pounded painfully in his chest as he awaited a response, but none came. Instead, he heard the unmistakable sound of footsteps drawing nearer, each step like a ticking time bomb, intensifying the tension in the air.
Aizawa took a few – cautious steps back, his body instinctively preparing for the imminent clash. His arms felt heavy, drained from the previous struggles, but he refused to let fatigue slow him down. The villain was probably exploiting his weakened state, and Aizawa couldn't afford to falter.
As the footsteps approached, Aizawa's muscles grew tense. The sound was eerily light and deliberate as if the villain was using his body for stealth. Aizawa had learned early on that this adversary was highly trained, and he couldn't afford to be caught off guard. He knew all too well the consequences of underestimating an opponent.
Finally, the villain emerged from the shadows, a malicious smile stretching across their face. Aizawa's gaze narrowed, his body coiled like a tightly wound spring. He met the villain's gaze with unwavering determination, refusing to show any signs of fear.
"So, Eraserhead," the man taunted, his voice dripping with sadistic delight, "what do you say we settle this little issue of ours once and for all?"
Aizawa's lips pressed into a thin line, his silence speaking in volumes. He didn't know the true intentions of this confrontation, but he knew one thing with absolute certainty – if there was any chance for this conflict to end without further bloodshed, it rested in the defeat of this villain.
His eyes flickered briefly towards your unconscious form lying on the ground, a surge of protectiveness flooding his veins. The villain's callous words only fueled Aizawa's determination, igniting an inferno within him. This fight wasn't just about his survival; it was about protecting you.
Meanwhile, the villain eyed his unconscious significant other lying on the ground. "Can't believe you knocked them out so mercilessly…" the villain chuckled, "you should thank your partner for sparing your life. I'll give you some credit, Eraser." 
Aizawa locked eyes with the villain, his gaze unwavering. "You have no idea what mercy is," he hissed through gritted teeth, his voice laced with a potent mix of anger and resolve. "But mark my words: I'll make sure this ends here."
Aizawa's grip on his capture weapon tightened, his knuckles turning white. The villain's words echoed in his mind, fueling the fire of determination that burned within him. He refused to let this adversary's twisted perception of mercy go unchallenged.
The tight street seemed to shrink as the tension reached its peak. Aizawa took a step forward, his movements deliberate and measured. His eyes never wavered from the villain's gaze, the intensity of his focus a testament to his unwavering resolve.
"You think you understand mercy?" Aizawa's voice carried an icy edge, cutting through the dawn air like a blade. "You have no concept of what it means to spare a life. I won't let you taint their memory with your sick version of salvation." Every word dripped with venom, a stark contrast to the calm demeanor Aizawa typically displayed. 
But this was personal now – personal for him and you. The concept of the villain's grip on your mind and your body was unbearable. He would put an end to it, no matter the cost.
Aizawa's muscles tensed further, ready to spring into action. He knew he had to outsmart the villain, turn the tables and reclaim control of the situation. He couldn't afford to hold back any longer.
With a sudden surge of determination, Aizawa lunged forward, his movements swift and precise. He unleashed a barrage of attacks, utilizing his capture weapon with expert precision. The distinct sound of fabric tearing echoed through the buildings, punctuated by the villain's grunts of pain.
But the villain was cunning, adept at evading Aizawa's strikes. They retaliated with calculated moves, each blow aimed to exploit Aizawa's exhaustion and weakened state. It was now a battle of wills, a fight for dominance.
Aizawa refused to let despair creep in. He drew upon his training, his instincts honed through years of experience. He analyzed the villain's patterns, anticipating their every move: each strike became more precise, more determined, as he pressed forward, inch by inch.
As the fight raged on, time seemed to distort. Seconds felt like an eternity. The combat was like a symphony of raw power and unyielding determination. Aizawa's heart pounded in his chest – each beat a reminder of the stakes at hand.
As the battle reached its crescendo, Aizawa's resolve hardened. He channeled every ounce of his being into one final, decisive move. With a resounding thud, the villain crumpled to the pavement: defeated.
Aizawa stood over their fallen form, his chest heaving with exertion. The dawn fell into a heavy silence, broken only by his ragged breaths. He glanced at your unconscious figure, relief flooding his weary soul.
"It ends here," Aizawa whispered – his voice a mixture of exhaustion and triumph. Then, he knelt beside you, his eyes filled with relief and tenderness.
Gently, he cradled your head in his hands, his touch conveying both strength and vulnerability. "No one will ever control you again," Aizawa murmured, his voice filled with unwavering determination. His fingers brushed against your cheek, tracing a soothing path. "I promise."
Those words hung in the air, carrying a weight of sincerity that resonated deep within your unconscious mind. Aizawa's gaze lingered on your peaceful face, his heart aching with the memory of the battle and also; the love he held for you.
With care, the hero scooped you into his arms, holding you close against his chest. He rose slowly, his movements cautious, as if carrying something infinitely precious. His scarf draped around you, offering warmth and protection, as he started to make his way out of the alleyway.
Every step he took was deliberate, focused solely on ensuring your safety. Aizawa's determination radiated from him, his grip on you tightening slightly as if to shield you from any remaining threats.
Silently, Aizawa traversed the moonlit streets, his eyes scanning for any signs of danger as the cold air of the dawn ruffled his dark hair. The weight of the battle still lingered on him, but in his arms, he carried hope and the unwavering promise to keep you out of harm's way.
As he stepped into the main road, Aizawa's gaze flickered skyward. Stars shimmered above, a reminder of the world beyond their current turmoil. He held onto the promise he made to you, the promise to guard you against the shadows that threatened to consume you.
"I'll keep you safe," He whispered, his voice carrying the weight of his unwavering devotion. "No matter what."
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⟢   HALF    HEART,    ALL    SO(U)L    !
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SO(U)L, often stylized as SYOUL by fans, is a fictional seven-member boy group under STRMRUNNER Media—a company created and co-owned by JYP Entertainment and HYBE Corporation—that debuted on DECEMBER 3RD, 2018 with the mini-album Epilogue containing two title songs. prior to their debut, no official information about them had been revealed to the public. the group was formed by a combined number of trainees from both major companies, three from hybe co. and four from jyp entertainment. they quickly became known for their synchronization and stunning live vocals, ranking among the top idol groups in those categories.
however, their story didn’t start there.
originally stepping into the limelight on JANUARY 4TH, 2018, six out of the seven current members would partake in the making and recording of their pre-debut single, Ignorance in Bliss, and released it to the public through both the official hybe labels channel and strmrunner media’s. the song only just managed to pull two million views within the first week of publication but formally introduced the new group as The Soul Project, succeeding in at least getting their name out there. with both companies choosing to not reveal any information about who was to be in the group, and almost acting as if they never existed, the solid fan base they could’ve had dwindled down to just a handful of dedicated people.  
Ignorance in Bliss would make its short rounds on social media for the next month, slowing down gradually, before eventually coming to a complete halt. both fans and the companies had moved on by that point, focusing on their current and upcoming acts. it would continue to only be radio silence from here on out. 
by october, the seven members still had yet to be revealed, but on the 23rd of that month, an article would make its way into the public eye; specifically on twitter. titled The Soul Search and written by someone under the pseudonym Blanc, the author went into detail about the research they had been doing for the past nine months to find any and all information they could about the group. while they clarified that the contents found were all to be taken with a grain of salt, there was no denying the fact that the supposed track details—and most shockingly of all—profiles containing the names, ages, and even some of the members’ faces, had been leaked. 
while strmrunner media made no official comments on the situation, it’s speculated that the group’s debut was moved to be a week earlier than originally planned. hitting the internet on december 3rd with the title tracks Ignorance in Bliss, an overlooked gem, and Back to You, their mini-album instantly became a hit and earned them the recognition they deserved for their earlier efforts and turbulence they faced. the seven would quickly establish their brand as an entirely self-produced group soon after, a way to distance themselves from the management that failed to do anything for them. claiming the titles of all-rounder kings, they’ve gained the reputation for their lyricism, stage presence, and quality concept.
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⟢   THE    BASICS    !
 ⸝⸝   GROUP NAME  :   SO(U)L  /  SYOUL   ( 소울 )
 ⸝⸝   COMPANY  :   STRMRUNNER Media 
 ⸝⸝   PRE-DEBUT DATE  :   January 4th,  2018 
 ⸝⸝   PRE-DEBUT SONG  :   Ignorance in Bliss   ( single )
 ⸝⸝   DEBUT DATE  :   December 3rd,  2018 
 ⸝⸝   DEBUT RELEASE  :   Epilogue   ( mini-album )
 ⸝⸝   DEBUT SONGS  :   Back to You  &  Ignorance in Bliss
 ⸝⸝   MAIN GENRES  :   Alt r&b,  contemp. r&b,  pop-punk 
 ⸝⸝   GREETING  :   “Part of one! We are, SO(U)L!” 
 ⸝⸝   FANDOM NAME  :   Yu  /  Yunies   ( 유 / 유니스 )
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⟢   CONCEPT    THEMES    !
caution : angels,  life & death,  mortality,  reincarnation,  facing reality,  grief,  what it means to be humans.
the strangely bittersweet tale of seven friends who tragically passed away, one not too long after the other. six would reappear in the form of benevolent beings, forced to watch over humanity yet never connect back to it. the last would forever be stuck on earth, soul tethered to the ground, resulting in his constant reincarnation after death.
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⟢   THE    PIECES    OF    SO(U)L    !
since their debut, the members featured in the lineup have not changed and continue to be seven. once mentioned by their leader during an introductory video to the group, the members are officially all-rounders that switch up roles with each comeback. “management were the ones to position us,” he stated, “but please don’t misunderstand, we’re all capable of much more than our labels.”
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 ˒ kim ISEUL   1998,  main vocalist,  dancer,  visual  ˒ choi OLIVER   1999,  main dancer,  lead rapper    ˒ kang SEOJUN   1999,  leader,  main rapper,  vocalist, visual  ˒ baek “MARS” hyunwoo   1999,  lead rapper,  vocalist  ˒ gong “KJ” kaijun   2000,  main vocalist,  lead dancer   ˒ yoshinaga “RYO” ryota   2000,  main dancer,  vocalist    ˒ kwak “SEVEN” yunseo   2001,  lead vocalist,  lead dancer,  visual  
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I am finally free. I manifested my dream life down to the smallest details. I feel like a completely different person. I treat myself with the upmost self respect and I value my mental and physical wellness more than anything material. It’s when I got tired of treating myself like a fucking slave to my thoughts and realized that it’s not taking me any further in life, I was able to set myself free and things just started flowing in the direction of my highest dreams. I feel so amazing about everything, everything is just so beautiful, I get to wake up and life such a beautiful, fulfilling, lovely and pure life. If I told to my old self that there wasn’t any problem, that she could live for her own dreams and not live up to others dreams, that she absolutely could live her own ideal life and that isn’t selfish at all, she wouldn’t believe you, she would doubt the fuck out of it. But the new me, I got tired of living the same day every day, thinking the same thoughts, overthinking the same things, living in a cycle of depression and anxiety, I got tired of being my worst enemy and became my own best friend, my own divinity and my own source of all things. When i say I got everything I wanted, I mean everything. I have things that I didn’t even thought I wanted but when I saw it in front of me I knew I did because my subconscious knows everything. It knows all the little and big things I want, and I have all of it and I know there’s even more coming everyday. It’s just never ending joy and awe. I look the way I always wanted to, I dress the way I always wanted to, I have the house I always wanted to, I have the friends I always wanted to, I have the media platforms and recognitions I always wanted to, I have the family dynamic I always wanted to. I have everything that I always wanted to. I am my biggest inspiration, I am my own muse. I live heaven on earth. It’s when I gave up on my manifestations because I couldn’t see any results, and I started focusing on the feeling of having everything I wanted, without being specific because my subconscious/ god knows what it is, it’s when things started happening, and let me tell you it’s was so quick. I never trusted myself, deep down I never really trusted that I could manifest stuff, it’s when I realized I had nothing to lose (I had 0 friends, bad habits, looked like a living corpse, no love interest, basically survival mode) and gave up on this mental slavery that I putted myself through, it’s when I finally met heaven on earth. I am thankful for “giving up”, because giving up proved me that I should never give up on myself, as clingy as it sounds, there’s always a light and the end of the tunnel, you’re just not looking .
I love this so much. I hope everyone reads this because it's so inspiring. I'm truly happy for you, my love!
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Kaiser’s Ego
I’ve been thinking a lot about Kaiser recently, and why I both love and hate him, and why his character rings so true.
This is mega rambling and repetitive probably, so apologies in advance, but I had to get my thoughts down.
I believe that Kaiser’s ego is broken. To explain, first let me share a definition of ego spat out by Google:
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Three phrases stand out to me in relation to Kaiser:
Superiority to others
Self-respect
Personal worth
Kaiser is a character who seems so desperate to cling on to that first thing - superiority to others.
When faced with Isagi, Kaiser immediately works on destroying Isagi’s own personal worth. Kaiser quickly recognises that Isagi has a very similar skill set to him, meaning he has the potential to surpass and even replace Kaiser in his specific spot in the team (that position being the game master, mainly). He has literally made himself the king of this BM team; the director of his very own show; he is in control and occupies the central spot. But the player most likely to dethrone him is Isagi, and because of that, immediately Kaiser knows he must show this threat his rightful place.
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It’s interesting to me that Kaiser so quickly goes into fight or flight mode when faced with Isagi. It’s not just friendly competition; at times, it doesn’t even feel like a healthy rivalry. It’s absolute war - Kaiser is obsessed and unhinged, and deals with Isagi like his personal well-being is under threat.
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I think this might be because it is. This is all speculation but, for Kaiser, it’s not about a love of football. It’s about being the best at something. We’ve yet to see Kaiser’s back story, but I think whatever it entails, he grew up with the mentality that love is conditional. It’s my theory that he had parents or guardians who were only ever present or interested in him when he was able to beat his competition and rise to the top in something. This is both similar and different to Hiori’s backstory. Hiori has parents who are pushy and overly-invested in Hiori’s sporting career. They lavish him with attention; it’s just the wrong sort; it’s pressure. But it fits Kaiser to have had parents who were either absent or disinterested, and for a young Kaiser, it became a fight for attention or recognition. His existence might only have ever been acknowledged when he beat the competition, surpassed expectations, did something exceptional. He had the idea reinforced that to be worthy of anyone’s time or attention, you have to meet certain conditions. You are not just born deserving of anything; the only way to receive it is to fight for it, and to come out on top.
If we look at Kaiser through this lens, so much of his behaviour suddenly makes more sense. He is so aggressive towards those who threaten his position because in his eyes, they’re not just competing for his spot as the best at football; they’re competing for the basic human needs of love and respect. If he is beaten, if he is not literally the best on that field, then he will be shut out by those around him, left unwanted and unworthy of love.
So let’s link back to that last phrase - personal worth. Kaiser’s personal worth is not something that exists in and of itself. Personal worth is not something he naturally has - it is tied to his performance; in this situation, it’s football. Compare this to someone like Isagi, who we saw way back at the start of the manga being welcomed home by supportive parents who showed him love and respect and gave him a warm meal despite the fact that his team lost. Isagi therefore knows he is worthy of these things despite his performance in any sports or school etc. As opposed to Kaiser, who in the same situation, would return home only to be ignored.
As a child, parental love is vital for someone to develop self esteem and personal worth. If Kaiser was made to compete for this, then his whole concept of self esteem and personal worth are linked to what he does, how hard he fights, what he can achieve. As opposed to Isagi, who will have a sense of self esteem and personal worth regardless of his position or performance on the pitch.
Therefore, we can surmise that Kaiser fights for his position as the centre of his team from a place of fear, in contrast with Isagi, who fights from a place of passion and love of the sport. They may appear similar in their grit and determination - their drive to win - but that drive doesn’t come from the same place. Isagi doesn’t view others as dangerous threats to be scared of. He’s not venomous and obsessed the way Kaiser is both on and off the pitch, because after the game ends, he can still walk away from a match with his self - respect and personal worth in tact, ready to fight again, whereas for Kaiser, these things are both made and destroyed on that playing field. He simply cannot afford to lose in a way that is different to Isagi.
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His sense of self worth and self esteem is in tatters beneath this outer illusion of confidence and disdain for those around him. In the above art, he’s watching Isagi, who has his sights focused ahead of him. This is because Isagi is focused on where he’s headed, while Kaiser is obsessed with comparing himself to those around him - this is how he measures his own worth. If he’s not better than all of them, then he’s worthless. He’s surrounded by material displays of importance, love and affection, and yet the football at his feet is battered and barely patched up. Kaiser plays for these displays of love and adoration, because he believes this is the only way to receive them. He’s trying to patch up what’s missing for his battered inner sense of self, just like the patches on his battered football. Compare this to Isagi, who is only surrounded by the basic items he needs to play the sport he loves, with a shiny, fully intact football. Isagi plays simply for his passion for football, not to make up for anything lacking in his life outside of it. Ignore everything else that’s going on in this artwork; focus on the footballs. They represent the egos of these two players who, on the surface, might seem almost identical in their drive to win.
‘Ego is the only weapon that lets you fight back.’
‘The haves and the have-nots.’
Whilst on the surface it may look like Kaiser is all ego, in actuality, it’s the very thing that will be his downfall, because it’s what he lacks compared to Isagi. It’s broken.
This idea of the ‘broken’ or at least very much ‘breakable’ or ‘fragile’ ego of Kaiser’s is repeated on his volume cover:
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His collar and chains appear to be made of very breakable glass, as opposed to other player’s metal. If the chains do represent the idea of the ego, then this imagery for Kaiser fits perfectly.
We can also see why he’s branded himself with that crown - another illusion of importance when inwardly he’s always chasing that feeling of mattering somehow. The blue rose sprouting from it - representing the unobtainable - is symbolic of the fact that Kaiser will never be able to find that feeling of self-worth and importance when he seeks it externally, because it has to come from within him. He has to understand that he is worthy and important simply for existing, not because of anything he does or achieves.
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