#that will never be what she wants

[squidsmeister]

dungeon meshi is my favorite road-trip comedy film

#dungeon meshi #my art #laios thorden #senshi #marcille #chilchuck #chilchack #izatsumi #laois #laius thorden #sorry guys I don’t know which spelling is correct here #chilchucks car is a beat up beige Honda civic #laois never got a license because even though he’s actually a good driver he just never cared enough to do it #plus he wants to travel in some wacky way. like on a five person tandem bicycle or some shit #marcille never got a license because just fucking look at her #plus she gets motion sick in cars. she just would #senshi walks everywhere and has no need for cars #izatsumi just learned what a car was two days ago and she’s pissed that chilchuck doesn’t have a lambo #chilchuck doesn’t have time for any of this. he has to get his daughter to soccer practice at 5

[inkskinned]

at some point it's just like. do they even fucking like the thing they're asking AI to make? "oh we'll just use AI for all the scripts" "we'll just use AI for art" "no worries AI can write this book" "oh, AI could easily design this"

like... it's so clear they've never stood in the middle of an art museum and felt like crying, looking at a piece that somehow cuts into your marrow even though the artist and you are separated by space and time. they've never looked at a poem - once, twice, three times - just because the words feel like a fired gun, something too-close, clanging behind your eyes. they've never gotten to the end of the movie and had to arrive, blinking, back into their body, laughing a little because they were holding their breath without realizing.

"oh AI can mimic style" "AI can mimic emotion" "AI can mimic you and your job is almost gone, kid."

... how do i explain to you - you can make AI that does a perfect job of imitating me. you could disseminate it through the entire world and make so much money, using my works and my ideas and my everything.

and i'd still keep writing.

i don't know there's a word for it. in high school, we become aware that the way we feel about our artform is a cliche - it's like breathing. over and over, artists all feel the same thing. "i write because i need to" and "my music is how i speak" and "i make art because it's either that or i stop existing." it is such a common experience, the violence and immediacy we mean behind it is like breathing to me - comes out like a useless understatement. it's a cliche because we all feel it, not because the experience isn't actually persistent. so many of us have this ... fluttering urgency behind our ribs.

i'm not doing it for the money. for a star on the ground in some city i've never visited. i am doing it because when i was seven i started taking notebooks with me on walks. i am doing it because in second grade i wrote a poem and stood up in front of my whole class to read it out while i shook with nerves. i am doing it because i spent high school scribbling all my feelings down. i am doing it for the 16 year old me and the 18 year old me and the today-me, how we can never put the pen down. you can take me down to a subatomic layer, eviscerate me - and never find the source of it; it is of me. when i was 19 i named this blog inkskinned because i was dramatic and lonely and it felt like the only thing that was actually permanently-true about me was that this is what is inside of me, that the words come up over everything, coat everything, bloom their little twilight arias into every nook and corner and alley

"we're gonna replace you". that is okay. you think that i am writing to fill a space. that someone said JOB OPENING: Writer Needed, and i wrote to answer. you think one raindrop replaces another, and i think they're both just falling. you think art has a place, that is simply arrives on walls when it is needed, that is only ever on demand, perfect, easily requested. you see "audience spending" and "marketability" and "multi-line merch opportunity"

and i see a kid drowning. i am writing to make her a boat. i am writing because what used to be a river raft has long become a fully-rigged ship. i am writing because you can fucking rip this out of my cold dead clammy hands and i will still come back as a ghost and i will still be penning poems about it.

it isn't even love. the word we use the most i think is "passion". devotion, obsession, necessity. my favorite little fact about the magic of artists - "abracadabra" means i create as i speak. we make because it sluices out of us. because we look down and our hands are somehow already busy. because it was the first thing we knew and it is our backbone and heartbreak and everything. because we have given up well-paying jobs and a "real life" and the approval of our parents. we create because - the cliche again. it's like breathing. we create because we must.

you create because you're greedy.

#every time someones like ''AI will replace u" im like. u will have to fucking KILL ME #there is no replacement here bc i am not filling a position. i am just writing #and the writing is what i need to be doing #writeblr #this probably doesn't make sense bc its sooo frustrating i rarely speak it the way i want to #edited for the typo wrote it and then was late to a meeting lol #i love u people who mention my typos genuinely bc i don't always catch them!!!! :) it is doing me a genuine favor!!! #my friend says i should tell you ''thank you beta editors'' but i don't know what that means #i made her promise it isn't a wolf fanfiction thing. so if it IS a wolf thing she is DEAD to me (just kidding i love her) #hey PS PS PS ??? if ur reading this thinking what it's saying is ''i am financially capable of losing this'' ur reading it wrong #i write for free. i always have. i have worked 5-7 jobs at once to make ends meet. #i did not grow up with access or money. i did not grow up with connections or like some kind of excuse #i grew up and worked my fucking ASS OFF. and i STILL!!! wrote!!! on the side!!! because i didn't know how not to!!! #i do not write for money!!!! i write because i fuckken NEED TO #i could be in the fucking desert i could be in the fuckken tundra i could be in total darkness #and i would still be writing pretentious angsty poetry about it #im not in any way saying it's a good thing. i'm not in any way implying that they're NOT tryna kill us #i'm saying. you could take away our jobs and we could go hungry and we could suffer #and from that suffering (if i know us) we'd still fuckin make art. #i would LOVE to be able to make money doing this! i never have been able to. but i don't NEED to. i will find a way to make my life work #even if it means being miserable #but i will not give up this thing. for the whole world.

[anna-scribbles]

last one i promise(<—lie)

#let’s as a society think more about why adrien wanted to go to school #and what. perhaps. he thought school was #i think the way chloe describes it she really is just a beautiful rich girl with too much time on her hands #and no one at school is treating her accordingly. #abby got so mad at me today because she thinks it’s too cringe that i keep taking about adrien liking ohshc #which is like. how are you gonna know me my whole life and then be disappointed when i’m cringe. #i’ve never hidden who i am. it’s cringe all the way down #anyway #ml #my art #miraculous ladybug #adrien agreste #chloe bourgeois #ohshc #wait i am gonna tag this thirteen actually. just go with me #thirteen

[rileyclaw]

bunch of silly doodles of these guys from the past week or so

#sorry but i have a lot of love and the only way i know how to show it is to put these kids in situations. horrifying OR silly. #especially silly bc im silly and it's what i want to see. #watch my art style change subtly each time bc i can never commit #the owl house #toh #emerald trio #gus porter #willow park #hunter noceda #hunter toh #my art #my fav is the one where shes chasing them up the steps #fanart #the owl house season 3

[sofiaruelle]

❄️☃️The SDV Girlies in their winter garb!☃️❄️

One side how i interpreted their lil avatars and then the other side is just me playing dress up lmao.

“Bois when?” Dunno. 🤷🏽‍♀️ I will if anyone donates screenshots.

#stardew valley #stardew valley 1.6 #stardew valley winter #stardew valley maru #stardew valley haley #stardew valley penny #stardew valley leah #stardew valley emily #stardew valley abigail #sdv maru #sdv haley #sdv penny #sdv leah #sdv emily #sdv abigail #i was sweating drawing this #the ph is having a fucking heatwave at 40*C / 104*C #and i’m not even living in the city where its definitely worse!!! #my pinterest algorithm probably thinks i’m insane for searching up winter outfits #penny looking lightly dressed for winter in her 2nd lewk but she’s dressed in several layers in dresses and skirts #i just wanted to show a lil bit of the layered neckline #ngl my fave lewk has to be emily! #she probably made her whole ensamble from scratch #abgail probably goes around lightly dressed #‘cold never bothered her anyway’ -elsa #haley going from cocnut girl to cold girl aesthetic #also i based maru’s outfit in this really cool chinese obre puffer jacket + 90s pastel tracksuit #with leah… what can i say gay in primary colors #thank you to henarikat for sending me a screenshot of their avatars!!!!!! #and also for being a beta for Haley and Penny’s looks hahaha

[puppyeared]

Wyrm on a string

#it was supposed to be a tiny doodle but I just kept on yo-ing #I like her colors a lot hehhehehe #I like how they made her dragon design different from the golden trio. like she has a different shaped snout antlers and smaller ears #like I know the devs want us to know hey this is what zelda would look like as a dragon but following the zonai were descendants of gods/ #dragons and zelda is a descendent of the zonai it just feels narratively pleasing to me lol #raurus hair looks similar to the dragons manes with the same undertones and everything. and he has horns where dragon horns would be #makes me wonder if the golden goddesses were incarnated as zonai this time around and they turned into dragons. that would be interesting #I don’t really know if that would make sense bc I’ve never played ss so j don’t have much background on the golden goddesses #totk #tears of the kingdom #totk spoilers #tears of the kindom spoilers #totk zelda #totk light dragon #my art #myart #doodles #loz #loz zelda

[bisexualchaosdemon]

Sometimes, I think about the fact that Wymack is Kevin's dad, and I want to weep. He dedicated his entire life to helping others who had grown up like he had, only to find out that his own son had grown up a caged and abused wreck? That's a level of pain that I can't even fathom.

#wymack being kevin's dad but not knowing and not being able to stop the world from breaking him is so fucking cruel #whats more #wymack got his second chance at life through kayleigh teaching him exy #and she knew his dream of making the foxes #and then she lied to him and ripped away his chance to be the father he never had #i want to weep #aftg #all for the game #david wymack #coach wymack #kevin day

[orkbutch]

Max setting only heated blanket gf

#bg3 #karlach #Shadowheart #bg3 tav #oc: princess #Karlach in the Princess fic is dumb big. small giant. heads and shoulders above every other group member except halsin #Princess also never wears clothes unless she has to because shes knows what she wants. i love her

[pokeberry5]

girl experiences gender euphoria and is immediately slammed by grief

for @litttlittt <3. this was supposed to be a portrait of caroline hill, but litta mentioned tim looking like janet when dressed as caroline and identity issues and angst and things spiraled

something about tim not knowing if he's his mother's child or bruce's or neither's.

figuring out the looks:

i wanted janet to have that poofy 70s hair

#tim drake #dc #bruce wayne #janet drake #sart #i'm picturing this as transfemme tim hence “he” and also compounding issues about bruce treating him as a daughter #which is exactly the gender validation tim wants and needs but isnt sure he deserves #but this also definitely works for trans tim #she gets to process that she looks like her mom!! and her mom will never get to know her daughter #would she have wanted to know her daughter? even though she showered tim with love when she was around #she barely knew her son #gender idk he's a girl 👍 hope that helps #i went down a rabbit hole looking up vintage dior necklaces -- hopefully something martha wayne wouldve worn #-- but dior necklaces are COMPLICATED #i almost drew pearls but i think that wouldve been too cruel to bruce lol #(a decent amount of my art--even when it's not femme tim--gets tagged 'gender' and i dont know what im going but im glad 👍)

[jattendschaton]

Émilie Agreste purposefully giving Adrien an allergy to feathers to make sure her son would never be able to use the peacock miraculous in the future

#miraculous ladybug #emilie agreste #adrien agreste #I'm never quite sure what I think about emilie as a parent #but clearly she was aware of gabriel's obsessive tendencies #and maybe she didnt want him to be able to force adrien #(his son who he can literally control to do anything) #to wield the peacock miraculous #hard to do much miraculous-ing when you're sneezing every two seconds ! #she trusted her husband so little she had to magically prevent him from using his son (in this specific way) #((obviously gabriel has lots of other ways of controlling his son)) #(((but this one particular way—the way that emilie is most familiar with and the way that was ultimately going to kill her— #he cant have that way. she will protect adrien at least from this. at least from what killed her))) #that or it was just for the bit #who knows

[birgittesilverbae]

head empty beatrice following ava and pulling her back in when ava starts to break the kiss only

#warrior nun #ava x beatrice #avatrice #ava silva #sister beatrice #mywn #myedit #something something beatrice allowing herself to take something she wants for once #ava raising her hand slowly in disbelief before touching bea softly like she might disappear like she's something holy #and ava's never been a believer but maybe now she understands what brings a person to worship

[buqbite]

Old concept sketches for an AU of mine

#Remember how a few weeks ago I was like hey does anyone wanna hear my au idea and then never brought it up again #Yeah basically #this #my art #orv #omniscient readers viewpoint #orv au #idk if thats a tag #whatever #kim dokja #orv kdj #han sooyoung #orv hsy #yoo joonghyuk #orv yjh #yoohankim #yhk #Basically the thought behind the AU was like #I want a no scenario AU where I can basically write heaps of character study while also putting them in mundane ass situations #Like. What would motivate HSY's writing if she didnt have the scenarios #What would kdj be if he was introduced as part of the story rather than his own person (this sentence doesnt make sense ik) #What would yjh be if he started off knowing hes a character and landing in a world where he is the only one whos NOT real/alive #(Inspired by the line where yjh went sth like im the only one alive here)

[entamewitchlulu]

once i was in a creative writing class in college, and in a bit of humor i wrote the line:

"Um," I said, eloquently.

And my teacher was so adamant that I had to remove it because "um is not an eloquent word, so it makes no sense" and i was like my brother in christ it's called Irony

#she was so so adamant about it like. #ma'am. #specifically i did it that way because i wanted to express the fact that the character felt particularly foolish #like their brain being all like 'oh nice job what an eloquent way of putting it dumbass' #but without writing all that out ya know. #but no it was 'wrong' and it had to be removed :/ #creative writing courses have never done a damn thing for me tbh #i know there has got to be a better way to teach it so that it doesn't quash someone's creativity #but i have yet to find one that does so #people are so weird about writing as an art compared to other visual arts :/ #lulu talks

[hychlorions]

a what-if i've been thinking about for forever... trucy knowing the truth before anyone could tell her

#trucy wright #apollo justice #ace attorney #.png #ough ough ough how many times has she helped 'ruin' someone's life... #like what if when she was so desperate to help phoenix get acquitted she gets hit in the face with the realization that #she might just be ruining her new-found brother's life too #so yeah. how would she even bring that up #haha hey polly. remember that time i handed you fake evidence. well did you know i saw your bracelet and remembered my mom had one too. fun #by the way did you know she told me she had two and gave one to her first-born who she lost a long time ago #like do we know how much trucy remembers about their mom. no! that's why i think this could work #ough i've wanted to make this comic for so long but i never knew how to format it #well i drew the first panel as warm-up and then was like. why not go all the way.... #that way i'd be forced to really think about composition

[timetodiverge]

The Bad Batch Season 3 Episode 4 summary:

Memes: The Bad Batch | Ahsoka

#the boss finally lets him do what he wants #to be fair they hurt her puppy so... #I will never get enough of omega ordering him around and him just accepting his fate and doing what she says #the bad batch #tbb #the bad batch season 3 #the bad batch spoilers #tbb spoilers #star wars #tbb omega #tbb crosshair #the bad batch memes

[electoons]

I love the college of winterhold. everyone there is casually deranged and there's like an alarming number of students and staff who threaten you immediately when they meet you. it's always one of the first questlines I do. which makes it even funnier when you get made the arch-mage of the college. I'm level 12 and got through this questline knowing exactly 3 spells. what do you mean you want me to lead the college. this school CANNOT be an accredited institution

#i ask if anyone wants this job and everyone starts whistling and checking their phones #their magic phones. theyre scrolls #mia.txt #tes #skyrim #oh wait no i forgot j'zargo wants the position and actively wishes you were dead so he can be archmage #and nirya as well. you know what maybe its a good thing im the archmage because im never there #i drop in every few weeks for 10 minutes then leave. the place pretty much runs itself right #reddit says “they have a bullying problem” yeah i know i married him #and he's the new archmage's special little princess and he can do whatever he wants forever. call the police about it #dont bring your piddly ass problems to the archmage shes busy girlbossing (committing widescale atrocities) #(update to clarify the princess is enthir. short king scored a 6'5'' orc dommy mommy with the biggest strap in tamriel congratulate him NOW #(huge W for the bisexual mer community) #(L for skyrim as a whole because they were both already insufferable enough on their own)