#that triggered me and i had a panic attack

[avis-writeshq]

Fic authors self rec! When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to at least five other writers. Let’s spread the self-love 💗

AHHH thank you so much for sending this <33 i hope these fics make someone as happy as i felt when writing them 🫶

01 — SPARKS FLY

summary: "drop everything now, meet me in the pouring rain."/"kiss me on the sidewalk, take away the pain." The first time you meet Spencer Reid, you swore that you could feel the sparks fly. You figured that it would be unreasonable to ever consider him to be anything more than a friend, and in a moment of selflessness you tell yourself that you are perfectly fine in that position. As time goes on, the line between romantic and platonic love begins to blur indefinitely. But it would be ridiculous to think that the resident genius would feel anything for you... right?

pairing: spencer reid x bau!fem!reader genre: best friends to lovers, fluff, hurt/comfort, angst, slow burn, mutual pining, happy ending warnings: rated 16+ for canonical criminal minds trauma, drugs/relapsing, torture, therapy, panic attacks/night terrors, guns, death, ‼️always read each fic's individual warnings for triggers‼️ wc (total): 36k

02 — TRAIN RIDES

PART ONE | PART TWO

summary: Spencer Reid prides himself in his routine. Wake up at half-past six. Leave his apartment at a quarter past seven. Get onto the seven thirty train. Arrive at Quantico at eight forty five. He has a plentiful of reasons as to why he does it; it’s efficient, it gets him to the office early, it works. But the biggest reason is the girl that always sits in the seat a few rows across from him, headphones on and always reading a book. 

pairing: spencer reid x fem!reader genre: strangers to lovers, rated G for mutual pining and second hand embarrassment. no use of (Y/N). warnings: fluff, boy band spencer reid (caution, hot!). i tried to write in Spencer’s pov, and with that comes a lot of rambling. i like to think that his mind is running 100 miles an hour, so i tried to write in a style that could implicate that wc (total): 5.2k

03 — GLUE SONG

summary: “but you’re here, and so i love you.” in which spencer realises that he wants to spend the rest of his life with you.

pairing: s5!spencer reid x fem!reader genre: established relationship, fluff warnings: spencer in a knee brace (tell me why that’s attractive. why does he look good at his worst. face card never declines), he’s genuinely obsessed with you, not proof read oops a/n: thank you so much anon !!!! i’m so sorry it took so long to post; i kept changing and editing it hahaha i hope you enjoy it !! wc: 1.05k

04 — WHEN HE DEFENDS YOU FROM A MISOGYNIST

pairing: aaron hotchner x bau!fem!reader genre: established relationship, aaron is a little (a lot) upset warnings: misogynistic moron >:( reader wears a skirt, if you get the reference ily wc: 631

05 — DETENTION

pairing: damian wayne x fem!reader warnings: rated 16+ for mature themes, coarse language, and mutual pining, guns, stalking, kidnapping, s3xual assault, blood, psychopathic tendencies (not by reader or damian), arson, prayer talk wc: 6k

lots of spencer reid but also a couple of different characters :)) i hope you enjoy these because i had so much fun writing these !! thank you again @ssahotchnerr for sending this to me ahhh !!

#spencer reid x reader #spencer reid #spencer reid x reader fluff #criminal minds #aaron hotchner x reader #aaron hotchner #dc comics #dc comics x reader #damian wayne x reader #damian wayne

[undf-stuff]

AM I NOT WORTH IT ? - Miguel O'Hara

0. Who are you ? Part 2

For a time, you collaborated with Miguel, and despite your lack of powers, you made yourself invaluable to the Spider Society. Although you weren't a Spider-Woman, over the years spent stitching up your brother's wounds and listening attentively to his tales of adventure and experience, you gradually acquired a deep understanding of the Spider-Man universe. You were as helpful as possible in his adventures as his "Girl in the Chair". After his disappearance, when your world collapsed, you had no one to turn to but him.

Mentions of : nightmare, panic attack, lost (tell me if I miss something important ヽ(･ω･｡ヽ) )

The taglist is open feel free to join ヽ(*´∀`)ﾉ

Part 0.1

Darkness surrounded you and you couldn't make out your surroundings, you walked endlessly, not knowing where you were going, feeling as if you were standing still.

It doesn't feel right, there is something wrong. Something is missing. Someone? Miles? Miles! Where is he!?

“Miles ? MILES ?! WHERE ARE YOU ?” You shouted in this place. All you got was an echo.

As you continued on your way, it was then that you saw his back, far away from you. You tried to call out to him, but you couldn't speak.

“You...left...me.”

No, no what do you mean I didn’t let you.

“It’s...your...fault.”

Is it? I tried to save you. I… I was there. I ran to you.

“You...killed...me” he said facing you.

But it wasn’t your brother as you knew him. He had been eaten away by the acid, holes were visible and some even went through the skin, his leg was twisted at a strange angle, and he was limping as he walked towards you. With each of his accusations, the ground shook, making you lose a little more balance.

You tried to scream, but nothing came out of your mouth. You tried again, screaming as hard as you could, but no sound came out. You held your throat tightly as you felt your vocal chords vibrate, but you couldn't make a sound.

No, no, no, this can't be real, this isn't happening. I've never left you! You're wrong!

"YOU LEFT ME" "He said, rushing toward you with arms twisted by rot."

You found yourself gasping for air ,as you open your eyes, desperately trying to regain control as panic tightened its grip. The once steady rhythm of a beeping sound became erratic and accelerated, causing convulsions throughout your body and intensifying your sense of panic.

Feeling the urge to get up and leave whatever had triggered your euphoric state, you felt several hands quickly mobilize to restrain you. In a burst of energy, you tried to stand up, letting out a stream of incomprehensible words, only to be met by another individual redoubling his efforts to restrain you. In the midst of the chaos, a sharp sensation pierced you, as if you were sinking into unconsciousness.

"Miles…" you whispered faintly before slipping under once again.

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Waking up once again, you heard voices talking close to you, but were unable to perceive any discussion. Trying to rub your eye, you felt ties on your arms and legs, which frightened you and you quickly started to panic again. The incessant noise of the cardiogram interrupted the discussion of the two people who ran to you to calm you down.

A man in a bathrobe moved to your right, but held back, not wanting to panic you any further, while a woman you recognized as the one who had calmed you down the night of the accident, moved to your left touching your arm. You flinched at her touch, afraid of what might happen, but her gentle voice calmed you.

"Take it easy, honey, it'll be all right. Can you tell me your name?

…

I'm Jessica, and he's Peter" the man on your left raised his hand to greet you from a distance with a smile at the mention of his name.

"Hum….Y/N, can you…can you… uncuff me?

Yes of course I'll take care of it!" said Peter hurriyng to untie your arms and legs as Jessica left the room.

"Keep an eye on her, I'll get a doctor.

Don't worry, I'll take care of her like my Mayday".

You watched Peter for a moment and noticed the baby carrier behind him, it must be Mayday's , looking around the room you saw a tablet on your bedside table similar to the one you used at home and tried to come up with a plan to get out of here.

There's no way I'm staying here, I've got to find Miles no matter what.

You turned to Peter and asked for a glass of water, which he gladly accepted.

"I'll do better than that, would you like a SpideyBurger? You must be starving it's our specialty!

Yes, why not!" you replied, smiling and hiding your true intention.

"The cafeteria's a bit far from here, but I'll be as quick as I can", he said, as he sped off, glad to be able to help you.

You waited 10 seconds after he'd left before getting up and taking the tablet to familiarize yourself with it. All you had to do was perform a few manipulations and you'd find yourself in the servers of a so-called "SpideySociety".

Looks like Miles' skepticism about the legality of hacker training is about to be proven wrong. Funny how he wasn't opposed to using those skills to snag the latest trendy pair by hacking the site. Miles, wherever you are, I hope you're safe and sound.

Wandering around the tablet, you found the maps of the area and located yourself on this 3D map, finding the way out, without wasting any more time getting out of the place.

You left the room relieved not to be wearing a hospital gown, but the same clothes you'd had on when leaving home. The corridors looked the same, and didn't end so much in length as in height.

What kind of person could walk down such corridors upside down? Could it be Spi-

Suddenly, you heard voices coming from behind you, and cutting your thoughts short, you began to run, still examining your position on the 3D map. Bumping into someone with a cart full of medical supplies, the voices heard your excuses and, realizing your presence, ran after you, not recognizing you as one of their own. with your attire.

"Hey you stop here !"

You arrived in a hall even more crowded than these hospital corridors and ran even faster, desperately seeking a way out of this strange building. Corridors perched several meters above the ground towered over you, and only now did you notice that you weren't on the ground, but on one of these high corridors. You couldn't contemplate the surroundings any longer as the same voices from earlier drew even closer, attracting the attention of the people around you.

Tapping again on the tablet, you were able to change the space around you, and the corridor began to rise even higher, catching whoever was on top of it off guard and sending them flying several metres, while others clung as best they could to their supports and advanced towards you, wary of your next move to stop you assuming you were an enemy.

Gee, I hope they're okay…but I really need to find Miles.

You fumbled with the tablet again, and obstacles came between you and the people in front of you, giving you an advantage to get away as quickly as possible. You ran without stopping, wanting only to find your brother, when a red thread caught you and drew you into yet another corridor hidden in the shadows. You wanted to scream, but a hand was placed over your mouth, preventing you from making a sound to attract more people. You heard several footsteps and air currents passing in the corridor where you were before silence fell.

The man who had grabbed you removed his hand, but neither of you spoke, taking benefit from the silence all you could do was stare at him: he was masked, like most of the other people chasing you, but you hadn't taken the time to observe them, in the panic of this new place and the anxiety of finding your brother. His mask was blue with red details forming the expressions on his face, and you could tell he was angry or worried by the frown on his face. You also noticed that he was tall, very tall, much taller than anyone you'd ever met and much more muscular? But you realized something else too. Those details on that mask, those people from earlier on the ceiling, his costume similar to your brother's.

Could it be a Spiderman? …but how could it be? Would there be others? Where am I?

Lost in your thoughts, you dropped the tablet from your hands, which surprised both of you. He picked it up, and before you could ask any questions, he gently took your arm and asked you to follow him. You were a little reluctant, but being alone in an unfamiliar place, you needed answers to your questions to better save your brother, who must be out there somewhere. You walked for a short while before he stopped and grabbed you by the waist. You didn't have time to protest as he jumped without much effort to a high corridor you'd never have noticed or reached without him.

Arriving at a door, he typed in a code before letting you in and closing it behind him. You could admire the large room and see several pieces of information about several people you didn't recognize at first like The Rhino, The Pwroler, Kingpin, Dr Octavius and many more but so different from your memories, only one of them stand out of the pack : the Scorpion.

Wanting to ask for more information, you turned towards the mysterious man but didn't see him. You spun around, thinking you'd missed him, but then you heard a noise coming from higher up… Raising your head, you saw a platform lowered to your level, with this mysterious man on it in front of a computer, typing away without understanding what he was doing.

"Who are you and what am I doing here? Where's Miles? I've got to find him! Do you have any information about the Scorpions? How did he escape? How did I get here? How did YOU get there that night? Who the hell are you? And where's my brother?" you asked as you approached him, desperate to find your brother without knowing what had happened to him.

The man, whose back was previously to you, interrupts your questions by turning towards you. Leaning back against his desk, arms crossed, you realize his mask was absent, revealing the face of this previously unknown individual. He was undeniably handsome, his caramel complexion matched his midnight-blue suit perfectly, his unruly hair seemed irresistibly soft, but it was his eyes that captivated you most: a striking, gorgeous blood-red, you'd never seen anything like it before, but in the peculiarity of his eyes, you detected a weariness in his gaze, despite the determination that lurked there.

"My name is Miguel O'Hara. You've entered my dimension, and I regret to inform you, there's no path back to your world." He says in a serious tone, but with the most beautiful voice you could have imagined for his face.

It took you a moment to realize the seriousness of his words.

What does he mean by "my dimension"?

"What the...?"

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Part 0.3

Yayy part 0.2

Okk so first I would like to apologize cuz I feel like I took way to much time to write this anyways I'll start right away the next chapter

Let me know what you all think about it and I'll see you soon

Your faithfully

(◍•ᴗ•◍)♡ ✧*。

Undf-stuff ✧

Taglist : @v-justchilling / @razertail18 /

#miguel spiderverse #miguel o'hara #miles morales brother #spiderman variants #across the spiderverse #spiderman 2099 #spiderman across the spiderverse #spider society #undfstuffwork #female reader x miguel o'hara #miguel o’hara x reader

[featheredadora]

Disabled people shouldn't have to jump through hoops!!

#disability #birblr #bird art #doodles #context here is that I had a really triggering disability assessment this morning #'can you tell me more about what caused your panic attack?' #Not if you don't want me to have a panic attack right now?? #Also maybe don't ask an ex-anorexic 'have you lost weight?' #How is that relevant? #If I was fat or had gained weight would that make me more or less disabled in your eyes?? How is this relevant?? #Sorry for the rant guys it's been a not-so-great morning #If I didn't know better I would have assumed the assessor was purposefully trying to trigger me

[traumasurvivors]

While it doesn’t really bother me, and I just delete the messages, I want to bring attention to this because not everyone is okay with having trauma details dumped into their inbox.

It feels like a common theme on the internet nowadays honestly. And I’m mostly making this post to ask people to be mindful. There are still real people behind these screens. And dumping such details to someone without their consent can be triggering for them, exhausting or any number of things.

Being lonely sucks. Feeling alone is awful. And I’m sorry for that. But please don’t assume that internet strangers are okay with you sending them messages or comments about some trauma details.

#tw animal death #mention in tags #it has triggered me badly once #I lost one of my dogs in a really traumatic way #and came on tumblr to escape #and opened to see a message from someone detailing their dog’s death #and wanting advice #and to know if it was allowed to be traumatic #I have an ask blog for this reason #so I can actively choose to read triggering content #I ended up having a really severe break down and panic attack #and had to be consoled by my partner

[moonilit]

just went through the second part of the AQ and to put it mildly, im not handling these sad Victorian children well

#By not handling it well i mean im crying #LUMINE WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU #You worried about fucking CHILDE but not the actual CHILDREN we got in prison????????????? #Who cares if childe is dead or not freminet the actual child nearly got dissolved like mentos in coke! #Who cares about childe here??? Lynette nearly had her ptsd triggered lyney DEFINITELY got at least a panic attack #THEY ARE AT THE FUCKING PRISON WOMAN GET IT TOGETHER #also why are we having visions about childe ew and why are they fully cinematic?? Who is filming??? #Like childe funny as a meme to observe but don’t actually get him that close don’t test me know ur place #When did we even become that close with childe??? Im sorry what??? #I can’t keep seeing them kids in life threatening situations on trial then this???? #Arlecchino you are on a THIN FUCKING ICE #Im watching you!! Im watching you you better not turn into an abuser by actual standards #*break into genshin codes* stay right were you are sweetie im coming rn im going to get you out of this game into a loving family #Im not handling this well #genshin impact #freminet #lyney #lynette #yes I know im the last human on earth to do the quest leave me alone it been a busy time #Im going to kill anyone that get between me and the safety of these kids CHILDE GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY PLOT YOU ARE MAKING THIS TAKE TIME

[lanaevyssmoved]

ok i feel calmer now so i’m just gonna say it frank. if you believe astarion was turned at 39, and use this as reason to call him a child or childlike or mentally a child, and still romance him and post about lusting over him, i hate you.

#fray.txt #this is so personally triggering to me #but even if it wasn’t i would still think poorly of you #i don’t know if it’s a lack of self awareness or you’re just outing yourself as an unsafe to be around red flag #but i hate you all the same #and i worded it this way as some believe the 39 was an error because with elf lifespans it doesn’t make much sense #this is the most Drama-y i’ve ever gotten but i just had a full scale panic attack over a post i saw about this so. yeah #feels important to say? idk. important to me

[winkwo2]

I'm actually completely devastated my account got terminated!! I had 500 so many moots 😭😭

My account was winko!! You might recognize me from these posts

If you can please rb so I can find my old moots again and if you're an adult 3d blog, please give me a follow and let's be friends!!

#I had like 500 followers #I'm in shambles #I nearly had a panic attack #notprojustusingthetags #notpro4n4 #ed not ed sheeran #tw ed diet #ed bllog #ed not sheeren #tw ana diary #tw ana shit #ana trigger #tw ana fast #ana meal #anorex14 #anorexcya #pro for me not for thee #i want to be weightless

[frecklystars]

i know nobody is online rn to read this but ;-; i gotta get it off my chest i love ken so much he means everything to me he's making me so happy and i've needed him so so so bad. he's brought me comfort when my ptsd has been so fucking unbearable and every time i'm having a crying fit over losing my tf f/os or every time i'm having a flashback i ALWAYS immediately IMMEDIATELY think about him rushing to my side, holding me and saying "hey hey it's okay, i'm here, i'm right here" and it's such a relief because i haven't been able to genuinely wholeheartedly believe any character would be willing to do that for me the entire time i've been struggling this year.

i've never gone so long without comfort from f/os, much less being triggered by the ones who used to comfort me the most. so to have barbie and ken right now is like the biggest wave of relief every single day when i wake up and the hyperfixation is still there. sometimes i will literally close my eyes and sigh in relief when i hear a song and my first thought is sebastian or ken or six or... whomever. i love being in love again. i NEED this. i love waking up and my first thought isn't my trauma most of the time now, it's ken. or it's six. or it's barbie. or it's harley. or it's officer k. or it's... yeah you get it. i needed these characters so fucking badly. every time i see a gifset and get excited over it, i feel a rush of gratitude bc self shipping has always been the glue holding me together. it doesn't feel as intense or strong as the SB musical or TF used to make me feel but i am not picky. not at all. i will take anything and i'm praying this lasts for at LEAST another few weeks please

i may not be at a sense of peace right now and i dont know when i ever will be, it could be years, but im so. so. so. so so so thankful to have these characters right now when i've needed someone so badly for so long. i hope ken knows how much i love him ;-; i hope barbie knows how much she has helped me, has saved me from one of my major triggers and has helped me to love and feel safe around the color pink again. i wish they could see me when i'm not so broken but i'm glad they're here even when i'm at my worst, i'm glad they still love me even when they deserve to see me in a much better light

#it feels so fucking terrible not celebrating my bday with my starlight. i used to buy myself cakes and put his figurine next to them #i mean i still have... a little bit over one week... i cant... let it pass by without him being involved somehow #so i might make a quick vent doodle and queue it for the actual day of my bday #i refuse to not draw myself with him at least once for my special day #its not like we 'broke up' or anything but fuck it feels so bad #he's a literal fucking ptsd trigger. how fucking insane is that #im still in shock. im still in shock over what happened to me like i cant fucking believe it #wearing his necklace makes me cry so i just leave it on my dresser #that shouldnt be normal!!!! #but im hoping that shipping with barbie/ken is going to help me feel like i can reclaim control over my ships #bc my abuser made me feel like... i had no control over my TF ships whatsoever for a solid year #so now that i'm finally free of that toxicity i'm still shakily trying to learn how to ship again #i'll have moments where i'll worry ken will try to hurt me on purpose bc im so used to my abuser telling me how abusive any f/o would be #but then i tell myself 'hey what the fuck. this is MY story. NOBODY would abuse me i dont care WHO they are' #but it's so hard to unlearn several months of abuse 😔 #and even harder to look at a character who i invested so much time and energy and money into #my voice clips. my cameos. all of my steve blum autographs. my art for steve. all of it feels sad and numbing #not just stsc but everyone in any TF universe feels like... a threat and i get panic attacks when i see very specific characters sometimes #its awful. it hurts so bad. i love ken so much. but nothing compares to what i had with my TF comfort characters #but it's okay bc... ken is holding my hand and he might not understand ptsd at all but he can still squeeze me tight #and six HAS c-ptsd he GETS it. and he's there to hold me when my nightmares make me fall apart. he's my rock #vent #ptsd #sorry it's 5am i had a bad nightmare and now i refuse to sleep again #i fucking hate ptsd i fucking hate living like this i rly wish i knew how to cure myself #im exercising im eating and drinking often im sleeping as much as i can #theres only so much i can do #when does it get better?? when the fuck does it get better? im serious. not rhetorical. when does this finally heal #i dont even know if im healing or if im just distracted... but fuck ill take anything

[churchydragon]

warning for today's Sun and Moon Show episode for implied suicidal thoughts on Eclipse's end, and also a reminder to tag your posts for suicide mentions when discussing it for the comfort and safety of others please!

#sun and moon show #the sun and moon show #I shouldn't have to add the last part but if I had a dollar for every time I saw that while doing my nightly tag browsing #I'd have at least 4 dollars!!! which isn't a good thing!!!!!! tag your stuff please #I know it bothers some people having to tag all of it (gods know it drives me nuts a little) #but I'd rather tag everything properly then accidentally trigger and cause someone to have a panic attack #sun and moon show spoilers #the sun and moon show spoilers #churchy talks #churchy tag rambles

[milimeters-morales]

i have a handful of ppl with DID following me and i tend to unknowingly follow a few so sometimes i’ll see a post that really fits what i’ve gone through and have to deal with now (like nearly 100% accurate) and i get this strange feeling that i’m suddenly walking into a room that was in the middle of a huge discussion and 9/10 times i check the original tags and it’s made by someone with DID i’m like damn we are brothers and sisters and whoever else is there in arms right neow…

#not spiderstuff #like it feels great to relate so much like we really aren’t so different you and i…. meeting someone with did in the psych ward really+ #helped me break that barrier i built for myself when i was young and believing everything th internet said about mentally ill people #like they all treated us the same we were all the dirt they walked on. i would make no progress fighting with someone about if their panic+ #attacks and triggers and DID were real . we literally got triggered over the same things had the same issues #were in there for the same reason he was just a little bit older than me #like what was the point? why would i fight you? we should be fighting that nurse over there together ❤️ #strength in numbers infighting is what they want they literally make jokes about it all the time #but yeah damn 13 year old me really unlearned and learned some shit during my stay. like how you never trust a psychologist

[beskad]

me every day: yes, I understand that I have ptsd. yes, it will frequently disrupt my life in sometimes (seemingly) random ways. sometimes this will necessitate leaving work or disclosing things about myself to a supervisor or friend or bystander because it's freaking them out and THEY are now panicking and often wanting to call me an ambulance. this is just a fact. it's fine. i'm dealing with it. most years are easier than the ones before them. it's fine.

me when my ptsd is actually triggered: what is happening right now. why can't I breathe. why can't I stand up. why do I feel like I'm about to throw up and die. oh, I know!!! I must be having an allergic reaction to something!!!! I'm suddenly coming down with the flu in the span of 3 minutes!!! this is so weird!!!!!!!

#EDIT: talk of PTSD proceed with caution #it's morphed a little over the years lololol #used to present as very obvious and unmistakable panic attacks with crying and hyperventilating #10 years later and it's quieter. 70% of the time the whole world just shrinks to a 1 foot bubble around me and everything goes dark #at least i didn't actually throw up this time around #and i was able to pinpoint the trigger about 2 hours in #once i was able to think again #and it was a song. 30 seconds of a song. #noticed right away that something felt wrong so i hit stop #but it was too late lmao within 5 minutes it was hard to breathe and the room was spinning and within 10 i crawled upstairs and passed out #but yeah like in the moment i often don't understand what's happening #i don't realize until I've passed out and woken up again #i had to lay down on the floor in the backroom of my retail job once and it scared the shit out of everyone #i usually stay somewhat lucid but i rarely realize I'm reacting to a trigger until after I've recovered #which means then I'm laying on a floor woozily insisting I'm fine #and then have the SUPER FUN TIME of having to explain everything after the fact once my brain and body are working again #I have a few long time coworkers who realize I've been triggered before I do lmao #They're like. Bro. You need to sit down. Right fucking now or you're gonna fall #rray.txt

[bittersweetblasphemy]

hey so i really dont appreciate being confronted with graphic depictions of something that i know is a trigger for me. like. i have a dozen tags and key words blocked around this one thing because i know it's my responsibility to curate my own online experience.

but if you're going to post this thing, which is vastly different from your regular content. with absolutely no appropriate tags. is extremely graphic. all for the sake of guilting me into caring about a current event i already care about but have fuckall control over as a poor cripple who lives oceans away. i really don't appreciate it.

#vent #look i already blocked the person who did it #and sure whatever im the asshole here by not caring enough to stare at something that's extremely triggering #because that's going to magically give me the ability to fix the issue #but im seriously fighting off a major goddamn panic attack rn and i am very not okay #might be quiet for a while #i no longer make any promises about my halloween posts #being bombarded from all sides about political issues i already had filtered so i had ONE place to get way from it #was the reason for my last multi-year hiatus #and this one hit an extremely specific trigger #i hope i can shake it off and be back quick #but fucks sake man what the hell #if you wanna post about something you find important that's great #but please tag #it's not like it was just a general post #i wouldn't be this upset over that #this was a very graphic image with zero warning #not cool

[thethingything]

got reminded that a specific event is coming up that's triggering for us but that we can't really avoid and on the one hand we're better at dealing with it than we used to be but on the other hand it is still a strong reminder of a bunch of abuse we experienced as a teenager

#personal #thoughts #🍬 post #vent post #like we can cope with it and it doesn't usually give us panic attacks anymore #except I just saw it mentioned and immediately felt like shit and got stuck thinking about it and remembering the abuse for uhh #over an hour apparently #and we've had a lot of old trauma resurfacing lately as our brain tries to process stuff I guess #which doesn't give me much confidence in our ability to cope with it this year #also like this was literally just a mention of it. just the name of the event #which happens to be what people tag it as if they do tag it #so filtering may not be that helpful if just being reminded of it happening at all is triggering for us

[beastofwant]

oh I am teetering so close to a Crisis crisis lads

#mad scrawl #I <3 how i havent been able to rly work through my triggers and theyve Worsened if anything #esp bc im burnt out and just. fucked up rn emotionally #my gf is having a housing crisis approach bc of abusive family #and the ww3-ish shit going doing sent me into a full on panic attack unlike anything ive had since i was a kid abt this sort of thing #I like can't stop crying literally and I'm so terrified #this + a lot of other things are just triggering really deep fears and traumas of mine and it's so awful

[ghosttotheparty]

hot take: i fucking hate pranks and i think they’re actually very harmful

#so many pranks are just complete disregard for ppls personal space #and so many more are just potential triggers for dissociation or derealisation #but whenever i say ‘this could be harmful or triggering to a neurodivergent person/someone w sensory issues/etc’ #i ALWAYS get ‘it’s just a prank bro’ #yk that kesha door banging prank that was a trend last year #someone did that to me and it triggered a panic attack that i had in the middle of the hallway in front of three strangers #i had to call my brother #and i still have massive anxiety every time i hear ppl in the hallway outside my apartment #(i live in a different place now bc i hated living there last year) #as in like #pausing what i’m watching or listening to and listening carefully to whoever’s in the hall #as in my heart beating rly fast and my breathing getting unsteady #obviously there are harmless pranks that you can do on friends but i despise so many pranks i see on tik tok and the like #but to (neurotypical) ppl i’m Overreacting

[ejunkiet]

goes to see a play based on a book a friend described as “torture porn”

nearly faints during the first hour after it triggers a panic attack

lesson learned

#ndfglasfjl yes this is about 'a little life' #booked the tickets last year; great seats; a very good production #too intense for me #panic attacks aren't common for me #last was triggered by a bad nosebleed #this one.... 50/50 whether it was the blood or the content #I had read up on the plot before hand! i thought I was prepared?? #was not prepared #we stuck it out until intermission but I had to get some air omg #and then we left and enjoyed the sun and good weather and ramen #james norton acted his heart out but holy sheet