#thanks for the asks xx

[rileyslibrary]

can you maybe do something where like, things simon does when he realizes he’s falling for you? :,)

Let me start by saying that I see Simon as someone more accustomed to others falling for him than the other way around. Like, he is the one who tends to be pursued rather than being the pursuer, if you know what I mean? I don’t know why but I feel he doesn’t have to put too much effort into wooing someone (and he probably knows that). A tall, beefy dude with a rugged appearance and that voice of his? The guy has it easy.

Now, what if he’s the one who falls for someone first? Aha! Well, He doesn’t even realise he has feelings for you, but they manifest in other ways, mainly through actions.

Ghost, as your lieutenant, for example, starts assigning you to low-risk missions or insists on accompanying you to ensure you’re safe.

In a more personal context, Simon offers to pick you up from your home so you don’t have to walk or take public transportation. He might even escort you to your car at night to protect you.

He tells you jokes he thinks you’d enjoy. He absolutely loves it when you laugh; he feels defeated when you roll your eyes and even a bit salty when you already know the joke (or fail to “get” it.)

He pays close attention to the details. He remembers your favourite food, how you like your coffee/tea, and your pet’s name. No, he won’t cook for you (yet), but he’s taking mental notes, studying you.

However, he’s not aware of what he’s doing exactly (or why he’s doing it, for that matter). It’s not until the rest of the team notices and insinuates that there’s something more between you two that he comes face to face with his emotions. Emotions he’s not ready to accept yet.

He rejects the idea that he has developed feelings for you and hopes that by suppressing ignoring them, they’ll fade away. But, as my boy Freud once said, “unexpressed emotions never die; they are buried alive and come forth later in uglier ways.”

He begins distancing himself from you. He rebuilds the walls you once torn down and returns to treating you just like everyone else. He had people he loved before, and it’s only brought him pain. His past experiences have left deep scars, and he’s determined not to go through that again. He’s not just doing it just for himself, though; he also wants to protect you from him and the pain.

Him. Pain. What’s the difference?

You, on the other hand, pick up on his behaviour but don’t confront him about it. “You know how the lieutenant is,” they once told you. “Sometimes he’s all jokes, other times he’s just business.” Maybe, you think, he needs his space. So you begin mirroring his actions, pulling away and giving what he seemingly wants.

But he secretly doesn’t want you to do that. Contrary to what he hoped to achieve by distancing himself from you and, therefore, from his feelings for you, he falls even harder.

Once cocky and arrogant, now he’s insecure. He starts projecting his fears onto you, feeling that you’re the one pulling away, even though you’re merely respecting his unspoken need for space.

So he confronts you. He wants an explanation for the change in your demeanour. And you? Well, you tell him the truth; you thought he needed some space. Right?

Who knows. Maybe you were just respectful. Perhaps you were giving him a taste of his own medicine.

It doesn’t matter. What does matter is that he gets it now. Running away from his feelings or those he cares about doesn’t work, just like ignoring his emotions won’t make them disappear. On the contrary, they directly affect both him and you.

Of course, he doesn’t admit it. No, he wouldn’t be caught dead doing that.

Yet, he decides to (re)open up to you, this time gradually, bit by bit, at his own pace. Just for a chance that this calculated, ruthless operator that many perceive him to be can finally transform into a genuinely emotionally invested human being for the first time.

#i won’t tag this cause i don’t know what it is exactly #but i like it #so there you go #thank you for the ask nonny :) xx #the librarian answers

[filibusterfrog]

sorry ive been gone for so longh. its the old man yaoi again

#hi grandma and mum please dont ask me questions about this post thank you xx

[thefrsers]

requested by @ashmarie1687: Jamie + praying over Claire in 2.11 and 7.03

#outlander #outlanderedit #requestsedit #@ashmarie1687 #2.11 #7.03 #jamie fraser #jamiefraseredit #claire fraser #clairefraseredit #jamie x claire #gifs #mine #phewwww this was struggle to make kept redoing it asldkfsf #buuuuut I'm happy with the way it came out #Jamie always making sure to pray for his wife and for her protection and not his will always make me emosh #when he asked to be enough thooooo #that broke me a wee bit cos he doesnt know just how enough he will always be to her :') #anywhoooo this became way too long with too many tags so lemme stfu lolol #THANK YOU for the request xx

[st-alastors-confessional]

Heya just checking if ur asks are open rn?

Indeed they are.

I am currently working through them, so please be patient with me.

Thank you for inquiring, Anon.

St. Alastor

#Anon shares #The Confessional #St Alastors Confessional #hazbin hotel #alastor #hazbin alastor #hazbin hotel alastor #alastor hazbin hotel #so sorry for the lack of confessions being churned out recently #my ass is so time poor #ive read all of your asks though and am queuing them throughout today #there are SO MANY sinners on this site #with one guy (thats me 🥺) #so thanks for understanding yall xx

[narniadreams]

Can I request some Casmund Headcanons... About food? Lol I feel like it would be a very interesting topic cuz of Edmund's sweet tooth and that lol

oh my gosh it's been such a long time since i wrote headcanons, but thank you for asking!! this is such a fun request :3c

edmund and caspian are pretty much the total opposite of each other when it comes to food: edmund is a very picky eater while caspian likes almost everything

edmund associates certain foods with certain times in his life, making him dislike them, especially if they relate to winter (based on this headcanon post)

edmund prefers simple foods that don't require a lot of preparing, cooking, mixing etc.

he loves fruit - yes, especially the sweet ones, like strawberries, grapes, pineapple, clementines etc.

he also really likes dried fruit, such as dates or figs.

while he also enjoys many other foods, like bread, soups, stews, potatoes and such, he usually eats only a little bit of it to keep room for something sweet afterwards - or he puts a heck load of jam on his toast, a lot of sugar and honey in his tea etc etc etc.

caspian will calmly eat whatever and look at edmund devouring multiple slices of cake when they have dinners.

(he does this in front of anyone else too, even at important dinners, edmund needs dessert)

neither of them are very good cooks btw.

edmund has the technical skills but the flavour palette of a child and caspian is way too clumsy to make a proper meal

together they make it work though, if necessary

they like eating what others have made more though (lucy is an expert at baking, especially cookies)

one of their favourite things to do together, as a date, is find a pretty place, preferably in soft grass, and have some simple food together: bread with butter, nuts and fruits and wine.

they will feed each other, sometimes jokingly, but really it gives them butterflies from time to time

sometimes edmund talks about the kind of sweets that he liked in england - even trying to recreate them in narnia, often to no avail.

one of caspians favourite moments is when edmund has leftover food around his mouth (cake icing, liquid from fruit) and clean it away

(yes, sometimes he ''kisses'' it clean)

#thank you for asking!!! #i hope this was kind of what you were looking for #feel free to add anything else of course xx #headcanons #casmund #answered #the-introverted-writer-for-life #mine #;celinetalks

[violetthekiller]

I see some of you mention your jobs or education and I think you are all smart

But TZ make you all dumb as fuck

What part of broke up don't you get!

When it's confirmed,all your blogs are getting ridiculed with good reason😂

i’d rather be dumb as fuck then spend my Saturday being rude and insulting blogs on tumblr.com for no other reason then my own insecurity and desperation for attention

idk that’s just me tho ♥️

#and yes i know im super smart and have a huge juicy brain #thanks for that xx #ask

[otrtbs]

hey hey 💖

idk if this has been asked before but does otrtbs stand for something? i've always wondered

heyo!!!

yes and no!! so ,,,,

back in the day One Direction had a tour called on the road again tour,, which fans would abbreviate to OTRA. so when i was making my ao3 i had the silly idea to name myself after the One Direction tour. and i got as far as typing OTR and then i was like "girl,,, u cannot name urself after a One Direction tour in the year of our lord 2021" or whatever so then i keyboard smashed the TBS part and boom! otrtbs was born.

#asks #otrtbs origins #anyway thank u to my first love One Direction for the partial name inspo. xx

[bubblesandtingles]

Do you like it when someone says “excuse me” after a burp? Why or why not? Is it cute or sexy? Favorite situation?

i really had to think on this one. a good question!

this video from gainingbunny is one of the hottest things i've ever seen. she needs the relief, her belly's soooo big and tight. and she still has the wherewithal to tease the camera with cheeky "excuse me"s. It drives me crazy!!!

or maybe we're out together and someone lets out a teasing burp. it was just meant for me but it's loud enough for the people around us to hear too. in that situation "excuse me" would be necessary, our grossness is just for us.

i love the idea of a burper being proud of their burps and using "excuse me" to express that pride. Like that's the only way to express their astonishment.

#burp kink #thanks for asking xx

[valyrfia]

look as bad as it feels being a past dnf shipper. its the past. come on dont shame anyone we all are trying to fucking forget alright 😭😭

As someone who knows what "the spreadsheet" means.....we are cursed to live with our past forever I'm afraid. This is our penance. We carry this burden forwards.

#so mad because “i burn you?” “you melt me” is actually such a sick line #ok but seriously i hate those creeps so i don't want anyone thinking i support them in any way shape or form THANK YOU this has been a psa #silly asks #asks #anon #dnf stands for did not finish i know no other meaning xx

[harri-etvane]

Love the fanfic asks, so 🧩, 🪲, 🏜️, ❄️, 🔪, 🍬, 🍄, 🥤, 🛼 and 🕯️

🧩 ⇢ what will make you click away from a fanfiction immediately?

If its a pairing / trope I don't like or if the fic is just a huge wall o' text it puts me off.

🪲 ⇢ add 50 words to your current wip and share the paragraph here.

(this won't see the light of day cos it's so self indulgent lmao but here)

"Come here."

Volodymyr turns to Maksym, fiddling with the cuffs of his shirt.

"Your tie is crooked," his voice is soft, steady; reaching out without being given permission - adjusting the patterned silk tie gently.

"Feels... strange.." Vova's voice is rough, for once not from tiredness - it's nerves.

🏜️ ⇢ what’s your favourite type of comment to receive on your work?

I am FERAL for any sort of feedback, genuinely. Even just a comment with emojis and I'll be happy! I adore comments where people pick out particular lines or themes though. I just.. love hearing what people liked tbh, how it made them feel, what it made them think of. (If you've read my stuff anon - I'd adore it if you told me what you enjoyed!)

❄️ ⇢ what’s your dream theme/plot for a fic, and who would write it best?

Oooo. Now that's a question. Dream plot at the moment is just something lovely and soft and gentle with Vova & Olena in the Carpathains. Preferably because that's what's happening IRL.

🔪 ⇢ what’s the weirdest topic you researched for a writing project?

I've amassed a Pinterest board full of self-defence / Thai boxing diagrams lately.

🍬 ⇢ post an unpopular opinion about a popular fandom character

Can't think of one off the top of my head atm!

🍄 ⇢ share a head canon for one of your favourite ships or pairings

I have a silly little head canon that probably at some point, Maks has carried Vova to bed when he's been terribly stubborn and / or fallen asleep at his desk.

🥤 ⇢ recommend an author or fanfic you love

I LOVE @is-this-working Compromised - currently in progress; an amazing 100k words of Maks/Vova goodness. Tackles lots of difficult things with grace, fantastic characterisation of everyone, all round amazing.

🛼 ⇢ describe your latest wip with five emojis

I've done my two main WIPs at the moment and I've nothing else really on the go as I've been feeling really uninspired lately; but have a couple of emojis for the next bit of Lost in the Light!

🟡🤟🏼👕☺️🌻

🕯️ ⇢ on a scale from 1 to 10, how much do you enjoy editing? why is that? 

Probably a 4? I don't like editing because it means I have to reread my work in a focused enough way that I'll probably end up hating it. There's been a lot of things that I've binned off because editing has made me second guess everything

#Thanks for asking xx

[knucklestheenchilada]

Hi it’s me I’m asking abt the radiation girls bc EVERY TIME I see that wristwatch factory post I’m so confused bc I don’t know what to google to get answers pls infodump on me

Beans you have no idea how happy this has made me, cw that I'm adding pictures that may be unsettling to some viewers also this is very long, like reaaaally long

TLWR: The Radium Girls died horrific deaths due to painting watches with radium paint and the corporation responsible tried to cover it up. This tragedy helped to form OSHA

Okay so! The Radium Girls (i wrote radiation in the tag by accident whoops) where factory workers who painted clock hands and instrument dials with radium luminescent paint around 1920. 100 years ago! Neat!

So, this was back when radium and by extension radiation had just been discovered. Back then radiation was thought to be able to cure cancer, it was in make-up, toothpaste, fancy spa water, even butter. Radioactive tonics were being sold as a miracle cure snake oil. It was even called Liquid Sunshine with espresso like effects. And what can radium do my dear Beans? (besides kill you) It can glow.

Radium luminescent paint made clocks readable in the dark, which was a big deal when digital clocks and non-toxic-glow-in-the-dark stickers didn't exist. In WW1 soldiers needed to be able to see their clocks for maneuvers that needed precise timing in the dark/in trenches without being spotted by the opposing side (at the time wrist watches were seen as a lady thing until the war)

One of the factories that made those watches opened in orange NJ in 1916 called the US Radium Corporation (USRC). They hired about 70 women, the recorded youngest 14, to paint watches for the military with the paint. It was actually considered a fancy job, as it paid three times as much as a regular factory job at the time and the women were listed as artists in their town’s directory. They soon were called radium girls and they were 5% of female workers in the US. An estimated 4000 workers were hired by corporations in the US and Canada between 1917 and 1926. Working in one of these factories was a big deal

Radium paint powder is super pretty and after work, the ladies would sprinkle it on themselves and dance in it. They would wear their favorite dresses to work so they could get some of the paint/powder on them so they could glow all the time. Because how cool is the dame that's shining like an emerald in the dancehall when no one else is? The radium dust, since its dust, was in the air itself - so these women were breathing it in constantly, sometimes they would rub it on their teeth as a joke and they would paint their nails with it so they could glow as well. They started getting called ghost girls because when they'd walk home in the dark, they'd be glowing like a ghost. When they would blow their noses the tissue would glow

How do you paint those tiny bits of watches that need to glow? With a very tiny paint brush Beans! The technique they were taught to get these teeny tiny numbers on wristwatches (which sometimes were only 3.5 centimeters wide) was called lip pointing. After painting each number the woman pit the tip of the paintbrush between their lips to make it a fine point. With every digit, the girl swallowed a little bit of radium.

The women started to experiencing side effects of unknowingly feeding themselves radium pretty quickly in the early 20’s, including: chronic exhaustion, tooth and jaw pains, and stillborn births. 22 year old Molly Magia had to quit her job at the radium factory because of the aching pain in her limbs that was so agonizing eventually she was unable to walk. She had been wrongly diagnosed with rheumatism and was prescribed just aspirin at first. Soon, she lost most of her teeth and in their place were agonizing ulcers would grow. The entirety of her lower jaw and the roof of her mouth and even some of the bones her ears were said to be one large abscess. Her entire lower jawbone had become so brittle that her doctor removed it by just lifting it out

Her jawbone was riddled with teeny holes and this is because the body treats radium as calcium substitute but instead of strengthening the bones like calcium, radium kills off the bone tissue. The women weren't yet aware of the culprit, of course, that's because the specialist who had begun to ‘help’ them was Dr. Frederick Flynn of Columbia University

After declaring there was unquestionably nothing wrong with them, he turned out not to be a licensed physician but a toxicologist working for the very radium factory that the women worked for the USRC and the man who was introduced as his colleague was actually a vice president of the Corp. The USRC also paid off local doctors and dentists to tell the women that they were sufferings from syphilis and eventually that was their cause of death, which was shameful to the family

When the girls started dying from their radium poisoning, the first was Maggie on September 12th, 1922. She was 24 (that’s my age). The cause of death was listed as syphilis. 18 year old Grace started to work as a dial painter on April 10th, 1917, just 4 days after the US joined WW1. By the time Maggie died, Grace was having trouble with her jaw and suffering pains in her feet and so were other workers

Their legs broke underneath them (literally), their spines collapsed, and soon more were dying. The USRC denied any responsibility for the deaths for almost two years but when their bottom line was threatened by the shrinking sales due to the rumors that were spreading about the dangers of radium in 1924, they commissioned an expert to look into the rumored link between the dial painting profession and the women's deaths

The independent study confirmed the link between the radium and the women's illnesses but instead of accepting the findings and making the changes that had been suggested, the USRC paid for new studies that published the opposite conclusion. They also lied to the Department of Labor which had begun investigating about the verdict of the original report. In 1925, a doctor named Harrison Martland developed tests that proved once and for all that radium had poisoned the women

Martlin discovered that when radium was used internally essentially honeycombed the woman's bones. In 1925, Grace’s spine was basically crushed and she had to wear a steel back brace. She decided to sue the USRC but she spent two years searching for a lawyer who was willing to help her. She said, ‘It is not for myself I care; I am thinking more of the hundreds of girls to whom this may serve as an example.’

Other women's legs were shortened and they spontaneously fractured, sometimes the moment a woman realized she even had radium poisoning was when she caught sight of herself in a mirror in the middle of the night. The radium had embedded itself in their bones and had caused them to glow from the inside out

By then doctor Martin had also found that the poisoning was fatal as there was no way to remove the radium from their bodies. Grace was finally able to find a lawyer named Raymond Berry who along with Grace and four fellow workers Catherine Schaub, Edna Hussman, Quinta McDonald, and Albina Latrice accepted their case in 1927. They were seeking $250,000 in damages which is about 3.4 million today.

The USRC wanted to delay the trial as much as possible with the hope that all the women in the case would die before the outcome would be reached, so they kept calling these long recesses for months and months

By the time that women finally appeared in court to testify in January of 1928, none of them were able to raise their arms to take the oath #

The case was finally settled in the woman's favor in 1928 and it became a milestone of occupational hazard law and raised the profile of rad poisoning just as Grace had wanted. By 1927, more than fifty women had died as a direct result of radium paint poisoning. Despite denials of any fault by the USRC after the lawsuit they and other factories that dealt with radium laced paint changed the working conditions. They banned the lip pointing and they gave them protection protective clothing to minimize exposure and after these simple changes were instituted (which actually had been suggested and ignored years before by that independent study)

More women rightly sued which the radium companies appealed several times but in 1939, the Supreme Court rejected the last appeal. The survivors received compensation and the death certificates of the women who’s had been put as syphilis were changed to radium poisoning

Maggie's body was disinterred. Her bones were glowing.

The Radium Girls case was one of the first in which an employer was made responsible for the health of the company's employees and it led to regulations that saved lives and ultimately to the establishment of OSHA. Before OSHA was set up, 14,000 people died on the job every year. Today it's just over 4500 (which is still a fucking lot). The women also left a legacy for science that's been termed invaluable as it revealed the dangers of radium, so thankfully people stopped using it

Marie SkłodowskaCurie's notes from the 1890s are still considered too dangerous to handle without protection due to the high levels of radioactivity and are stored in lead line boxes. She died of aplastic anemia in 1934 resulting from long term ionizing radiation exposure

[the radium girls: the dark story of America shining women by Kate Moore was the main source for this post, some name’s may have been spelt slightly wrong and for that Bee (that’s me) is sorry]

#long post #radiation #the radium girls #fallout #kinda #im okay with this one getting rebloged gang #some of this was also from mfm #i just wrote an essay please share it and be proud of me #thanks for asking beans xx #cw mutilation #asks for bee #history #babeeeee

[sunburn-hellrazer]

what IS hemopunk. like the definition

xX_ bOy aM i glad you askEd! _Xx

hemopunk is the rejection of the caste system entirely, and is about the intrinsic value we have outside of it. its about searching for our place outside of what is dictated by our blood.

often categorized by being hemoanonymous, generally rebellious, and acting "outside your caste".

this stance is pro mutation, limeblood, and non-hierarchal fuchsias. its also anti transcastism which according to a colleague of mine "often makes light of lowblood issues and conflicts."

xX_ hOpE this answErEd yOur quEstiOns anOn! XuX _Xx

#xx the loner speaks xx #grumblr #hemopunk #homestuck rp #ooc thank you to fluffcandy for help with this explanation!! they're the colleague mentioned ^^ #ooc i coined hemopunk myself and seriously love talking abt it so feel free to ask more!!

[g3othermal3scapism]

wow.. wouldnt it be so crazy… if people were to like send me asks.. for me to like answer or something when i arise from my slumber…. that would be kinda insane

#send me asks pls and thank u xx #g3othermaltext #byler #trobed #doctor who #tenrose #< target audience #ok. slumbering now

[best-phan-video-poll]

Is this secretly dan or phil conducting a user survey/marketing research?

I can neither confirm nor deny these allegations. You will be hearing from my lawyer.

#phan #ask #thanks for the ask xx

[acapelladitty]

🪐, 🦴, 🔪

🪐 ⇢ name three good things going on in your life right now

Work is going well and I still wake up happy in my role.

I'm moving home rn and finally getting my own name on my own damn house.

I'm feeling very pleased with my hobbies and I still love writing and gaming.

🦴 ⇢ is there a piece of media that inspires your writing?

I'm always quick to talk about The Master and Margarita as a source of inspiration for my writing and I think that will hold true until the day I die. I adore the novel and it inspires me in several ways.

🔪 ⇢ what's the weirdest topic you researched for a writing project?

My nsfw search history is a odyssey to filth and debauchery. I've found myself delving into weird filth that can't be healthy lmao.

#ask game #thank u sweetheart xx

[wetcatspellcaster]

Okay, so you said positive reinforcement helps with your writing, so buckle up. "Pieces"-- Literally the level of writing I aspire to be at. It's SO. WELL. DONE. Including the latest chapter and I'm sure the rest will be amazing, too. "Party Favours"-- my number one comfort fic of all time. I go back and reread it CONSTANTLY, any time I need a bit of a pick-me-up. Also the kiss scene in the hallway is THE HOTTEST THING I HAVE EVER READ IN MY LIFE. "Bleeding Heart"/ "An Honest Lie"-- You write Rosalie with so much love that it has made ME love her (so much so that I'm a little like "move over Astarion, she's out of both of our leagues but I know how to treat her right") and I reread chapters all the time. The dialogue alone is top notch. Lastly, I mean, I know NOTHING about Dragon Age or Shadow and Bone but I MUST LEARN so I can read the rest of your stuff. You're so incredibly talented. Every writer has their anxieties and insecurities so it's understandable and obviously valid that you have them too, but *takes you gently by the shoulders* YOU ARE SO GIFTED. And we are all super grateful for you sharing your gift with us. So thank you. So so much!

thank you anon, this message was very kind and the bit about Rosalie made me laugh - nothing like making an OC who stews in self-hate and then watch her get a line of suitors and still be like "I do not see it 😔". (and then going to therapy and my therapist staring at me meaningfully and I simply reply: "I do not see it😔".)

i appreciate the positive reinforcement. I've since realised that I got a little lost after chapter 19 of Pieces, because it was this massive plot point I'd been building up to, and while it had been really scary at the time and I felt a lot of pressure to get it right, the pressure did at least help to guide me forward and give me something to aim for. I've now got to find something new to aim for! While I know what the ending of the fic is, it's back to meandering my way to get there rather than having every single scene hammered down. Idk, I think possibly I am burned out and so things may slow down for a while? But I'm glad of the reminder that people enjoy my writing and I will hopefully have more updates for people soon xx

(also, don't learn about Shadow and Bone, don't do that to yourself, don't let netflix hurt you like that. Dragon Age is however BG3's spiritual predecessor so if you need more fantasy games with romance options you should buy it immediately x)

#asks #anons #lovely words from lovely people #i promise that when i have a sad girl hour on this blog i am not fishing. that is simply one of my Primary Modes of Being. #i am a sad girl extraordinaire! #but thank you for being kind anyway xx