#thanks for rejecting you-know-who

[hopefullystillliving]

You ever get lulled into a false sense of security during the first two thirds of a kid's movie that's good with a serious plot but mostly a pretty fun time, only to have the entire final third tear your heart out, chew it up and spit it out, crush it into even finer paste beneath its heel, and add the fine powder your ribs have been turned into by the sledgehammer it whammed you with as a seasoning?

Anyway Nimona was great, 10/10 would recommend, I was crying on and off for what probably totaled 20 minutes of tears.

#hopeful rambling #nimona #cw graphic #i think that's probably the right tag for that description #anyway yes im a little late to the train but i was waiting until i could watch it with my dearest #my takeaway is that they should put a content warning on it for trans people especially bc you will feel punched in the face #that allegory sure can trans. #i think i related to it in a different way than most people #bc being genderqueer yeah nimona going im not a girl im just myself hit home but im not *trans* #so i think i actually ended up projecting onto balistar as someone who deeply loves a trans person (different ways obviously) #being told 'yes you can rejoin the society you betrayed you aren't like *her* you arent a monster everything can go back to what it was #you can be one of the good guys if you reject the freaks' #but they betrayed you first and the good guys aren't good and how things were is worse actually than saying i love you i see you im with you #to the freaks and the monsters who will accept who you are unlike the society that never will always keeping you to an impossible standard #of never being yourself #so yeah the religious/societal prejudice trauma was very felt at some points #and i grieved for nimona not because she was me but because she was my dearest and she was a friend #and she was a thousand people i will never know who decided it was better to die as yourself than be killed as someone you aren't #and didn't have a person to say im sorry. i see you. #anyway. yeah im still crying. altered my brain chemistry is mild i think it rearranged my organs punched a hole in my chest and i thanked it #nimona spoilers

[mattodore]

...okay so the b&a of this edit looks a lot less impressive than i thought it would

#i sunk like five hours into this edit all together i think... how......... like where did all that time go......... #well. skdfjnhdkjfhksdgghdfjknghkjndfkhdfkjhdknjfgh #river dipping #ts4 #theodore doe #matthias evanoff #a burning house to live in #echthroi #ykw is so funny..................... i already have three other screenshots i want to edit 🧍 #i just really love the way their sims look when they're in their thirties and the lighting in this room is so gorgeous #BUT! i'm gonna save that for later. rn i'm just gonna scroll and post some drafted reblogs and then read #i seriously used like all of my free time yesterday messing around in photoshop......... today i'm just gonna do next to nothing #<- person who knows they're incapable of not looking at their ocs every few hours <- i am definitely going to end up in photoshop again #anyway............................ good morning!!!!!!!! <333 i'm so happy i finally answered that ask last night like!! i'm really trying #to be more timely with my responses to people!! that said... i'm definitely behind on my activity again #and i still have mentions i wanted to reply to from last month. eek. #listen........................... Avoidant personality disorder (AVPD) is a mental health condition that involves chronic feelings of #inadequacy and extreme sensitivity to criticism. People with AVPD would like to interact with others #but they tend to avoid social interactions due to their intense fear of rejection. #thank you cleveland clinic definition of avpd <3

[ran-orimoto]

Sometimes I watch this episode and I sit on it, on this scene in particular , think about it so hard because its simplicity holds such a … Subtly tragical tone I ended up catching on my second rewatch (of thousand). And, you know, on my third rewatch it kinda started hurting.

Looking back at the whole season and the way Junpei and Izumi have been written in their arcs and their resolution, I think Junpei eventually remains the loneliest of the lonely between them and it just sucks how Izumi got to open about her solitude to him, then she got support from everyone else and truly felt included in a family, whereas Junpei just had to put up with his struggles on his own, fighting against his own shadow throwing mean truths at him.

This scene in particular is really harsh on him and in my opinion it kinda needed a sort of continuation in the form of a parallelism. Junpei and Izumi are the Frontier relationship that got most amount of those, especially in the bridge from ep 4 to this episode. They got a very linear development always making it clear how they are different sides of the same coin, how they are a mirror to each other and can grow up thanks to looking at the most uncomfortable masks of themselves through each other. So, it’s absolutely a shame the writers allowed Izumi to get away with that.

“Don’t talk like you know!”

Izumi, you just don’t know anything about him.

Still, the most bittersweet and, again, extremely tragical detail is that back then, Junpei didn’t even know he was as lonely as her, either. He just lies down on the grass, staring at her while letting her viciously vent at him. He’s concerned about her outburst, but doesn’t really realize he’s as miserable as her, if not even more miserable, because tell me if it’s not just sad to be a kid believing to have thousand of friends around him, be totally blind about the greyness your life is actually dominated by. He can’t acknowledge the reason why he followed Izumi on the train in a first place was connected to how lonely he felt she was. As lonely as him.

You can laugh about this statement of mine but, seriously, they pulled a sort of Mr Gatsby character here.

On a brighter note, though, I also like wondering if what Izumi says in the very first drama isn’t a hint about how she eventually understood that as well. “You have got lot on your mind but like keeping it all inside”. Maybe, just maybe, she also came to feeling all the stuff he concealed behind his magical tricks.

Honestly, how depressing Junpei’s backstory is. We just got to see a little of it and it still hit home.

#junpei shibayama #izumi orimoto #junzumi #digimon frontier #junpei #izumi #you know the more Joseph made me notice these things the more I started realizing years ago I would have hated him #I feel Junpei’s story so deeply #all the consequences such a life had on him are so realistic it makes me suffer #the way the writers just built him in the subtlest way as possible is so annoying #I feel like they always treated Izumi much better but despite flashbacks over flashbacks she just fell flat #she could have been a story of so much more and yet it just stays there to me #oh yes Izumi rejected the girl who wanted to go to the toilet together #INSTEAD JUNPEI???? #I will recall the rain scene and my heart will fall????? #I’m so down for what these two could have been so thank you Frontier for having given me a past time #analyses #gifs

[good-beanswrites]

Hello! Are you still doing requests for the drabble game? (If not it's still okay!!)

I've been browsing the milgram tags and I keep seeing your drabbles here and there and I've been so in love with each and single one of them. You characterize them in a way that feels so canon I wish it was actually real. Your stories are such a delight to read!

I'd like to request Lies + Kazui and Yuno, or Kazui with anyone really. He's been a liar through and through and I'd like him to talk with someone about it, and Yuno's the only other prisoner who can truly understand him. Especially with Kazui's trial going on and him leaning guilty, he would be more antsy than usual. (But if there's another scenario you'd like that's totally fine as well ^^) Thanks!

Aww thank you so much, I'm so glad you enjoyed! :D And thank you for the request, these two are so interesting !! I imagine that Kazui can tell from the voices he hears that he's leaning guilty, or at least very close in the middle. Here's him and Yuno, following an instinctual lie that she just can't leave alone...

“I’m doing fine,” Kazui said, perfectly accustomed to lying about himself. He was used to putting on a smile when his insides were yanked into knots. He was used to ignoring signs under the surface for the sake of others. There was one thing he wasn’t prepared for, though, and that was Yuno Kashiki.

“Mmm, no you’re not.” She said matter-of-factly. She braided her hair in a complex pattern, hardly even looking at Kazui. Instead, her eyes stayed fixed on the tiny handheld mirror she’d propped up on the table in front of her.

It wasn’t the first time she’d caught him in one of his lies. She’d been merciful in the past, allowing the group to laugh it off and move on. Now, in private, she seemed much less forgiving. She wasn’t the only one in an unforgiving mood (which, conveniently, brought him back to the root of the problem.)

“What are you doing with your hair?” He peered over from behind. “It looks nice -- what’s the occasion?”

Her voice lilted as she said, “oh, well I’m so glad you asked! I’m celebrating the day that prisoner number seven tried and failed to hide his true feelings from me after I asked him oh-so politely how he was doing!” 

He returned her smile with a pained one. “I’m not hiding anything. I’m doing as well as any other prisoner. Better than most, for that matter.”

She returned to her task. “That’s a pretty low bar.”

“Heh, I guess.”

“So? What’s eating at you?”

“Just annoying young women who can’t leave an old man alone…” 

He thought they could leave it at that. Yuno disagreed. 

“Come on, it’s just us. Be honest.”

After a pause, he furrowed his brow. “Why?” 

Yuno wasn’t the nosy type. She could have probably gone through all three trials without knowing a single thing about the others’ sins. She’d been even more solitary this trial, forgoing the usual gossip and conversation. For some reason, she seemed unmovable on this request.

She caught his gaze through the mirror. He could only see one of her eyes, but from her angle she probably saw most of his face. “Because it hurts, to lie.”

It did. It had hurt for years. Even when his act became second nature, when the words flowed easily and his body moved without pause, the truth was still somewhere deep inside trying to eat him alive. Here in Milgram, he continued to feel its ache. Now, on top of the same old lies, he was trying to play the part of the calm and collected adult. Yuno was right about the bar being low -- the prisoners were in a sorry state. He had to be strong for them. She herself wasn’t doing well; despite the airs she put up, she was struggling just as much. (She wasn’t the only one who could pick up on someone else’s well-worn mask.)

So he couldn’t be honest and falter in front of her, either. Aware that his silence would be equally telling, he asked, “are you speaking from experience?”

“I’m not letting you change the subject,” Yuno pursed her lips, “but I’ll never miss an opportunity to talk about myself.”

She shifted in her chair, now turning away from the mirror to look at Kazui. He was taken aback with how smoothly the confessions spilled from her. “Yes, I know firsthand what it’s like. I know how much it hurts to lie to someone who loves you. I know what it’s like to wait until the last moment to say something, realizing it’s too late, and you’re screwed. I’ve had to cover up my pain in front of others, pretend like it’s all fun and games when it’s clearly not. And most of all, I know what it’s like to be caught in the middle of the warden’s judgment.”

“I don’t know what you mean.” He did. 

Being named guilty is the worst fate for a lot of reasons. The thought of being forgiven, though, felt worse. There was no winning. Just another thing to claw at him from the inside out.

“It hurts, Kazui. I know you feel it. I realized how much all that secrecy tore me apart inside, so I came completely clean to the warden during my interrogation. I thought maybe it could help you, too.”

His expression softened. As much as Yuno wanted to be independent of this whole situation, there was always a part of her that wanted to treat others right. Seeing her intentions were pure, he felt himself relax under her gaze. 

“Telling them the truth… and being forgiven afterwards… will it help this ache, then?” He placed a hand on his chest. It was easier to direct his questions at her, but it was clear he was curious about his own fate. “Do you feel at peace now? Can you forgive yourself?” 

She turned back around. Her eye watched him from the mirror once more. 

“Yes,” she told him, and Kazui knew he wasn’t the only liar here.

#milgram #kazui mukuhara #yuno kashiki #ahh thank you sm! you guys are so kind ;-; and YES i really love yuno and theyd have such interesting interactions... #its cool that shes a liar who completely opened up in milgram while kazui doubled down on his secrets since arriving #with every drabble im like DAMN these two prisoners are exactly the same 😅 #i know we're not sure on yunos story but its easy to piece together she and kazui were pretending to love someone they didnt #and after opening up about the truth (gay) (baby) they were wholly rejected #i also think its sweet that they both stay pretty distant but still look out for the others #yunos shown to be caring despite her isolation and kazui accepts his role as the protector #i was half referencing that one timeline convo where she calls him out about his taste in women #but im sure its happened more than that lol #and yeah i really Hope this verdict helps yuno forgive herself but given the story so far i cant be sure ;--; #sorry i always leave an extra rant in the tags asdfsdfds #i hope you enjoyed!! #drabbles

[daz4i]

I'm gonna let you in on a badly kept secret. most of my dazai analysis is truly just me projecting. but being decent enough at bullshitting to make it sound convincing so ppl usually end up agreeing with my takes

#what i lack in actual reading comprehension and analysis abilities i make up for in charisma and fake confidence #ahdjfllhh or maybe my projections just fit! maybe i accidentally do make good analysis! or at least offer alternative readings! #anyway i was thinking abt his relationship with pain again. and i started writing an essay in my head #before realizing I'm basically describing my own relationship with it. and that my experiences are not universal esp in regards to that #but just bc they're not universal doesn't mean they're nonexistent! who's to say dazai doesn't have them as well 😩 #fr tho i think with a character like him that hides a lot of himself and his true feelings. insisting on one 'canon' reading is dumb #the whole point is you view him through your own personal experience. imo. that's what he'd want too #the emptiness inside him is meant to be filled by his audience. whether inside the story or outside it. i think. #that's why he is one thing around fyodor and another around atsushi and i see him one way and you see him in another one #and all these readings are right and all these versions are still him. you don't know what's inside the donut after all #but again :) even this part could be just me projecting :) but see how nicely i bullshitted through it to make it sound deep? #(<- being sincere but hiding it with irony as to not get rejected. as one does) (<- admits it bc who tf would get this far into my tags) #(but thank you if you did ily) (also shoutout to anyone who ever validated my unhinged analysis/projection mwah)

[snowlilly]

Have heard recently that Frostleaf is the worst character because even Durin does her work, but Frostleaf does nothing for a 4*. Couldn’t believe that because she looks nice?? Visually at least. Is it true?

Worst sounds greatly exaggerated, but given the opinions I've seen on other operators, not surprising. The main issue is that almost every other Lord has either multi targeting, arts damage, removing the ranged attack penalty, or even all at once. They're generally a high burst damage class to make shit deader than dead. Frostleaf doesn't do that.

She's focused on slowing her enemies, which you usually leave to your Decel Binders instead. But arts damage is not always better than physical damage, and her status as a melee unit and her unique range can allow her to hit enemies Decel Binders can't. Personally, I prefer her S1 over S2, giving her both steady damage and continously slowing her enemies.

What I value more than dishing out the highest numbers is whether an operator can do something unique that makes me pick them over similar choices. Frostleaf got enough of that, as the only other Lord who can slow as of now is a 6★.

And yeah, she's pretty cool.

#reject meta. use your blorbos #I know who the worst operator is. it's not her #I won't say who it is until they appear in my askbox though #there are 250+ operators. good luck #arknights #frostleaf #thank you for asking!

[femgoddess-hecate]

What makes me going insane (well this is the tip of the iceberg) is that trans people genuinely cant see that they are just perpetuating consumerist ideals to feel "identified" with the sex they are claiming to be. This is in response to the barbie post you just reblogged. Like this guy is getting mad about people liking barbie and its so obvious that he feels like barbies ARE an integral lil girl thing but what about actual females who hated them?? When i was growing up i truly detested them and how they were pushed on myself and the other girls around me and my family would send them to me every hear even though they knew i HATED them and i would play baseball with them until they broke apart into pieces. Like what now yall?? Does that mean i also missed out on iMpoRTaNt GiRlhOoD ?? Fucking weird shit to gotcha people on twitter. Sorry for the rant !!

You're all good rant anytime!

I do agree with you though. It's not just consumerism (though that is a huge part) but perpetuating sexist stereotypes as well.

Like this guy's head is so far up his own ass that he can't see Barbie as being anything but for girls. Like he's using this discourse as a shield to the fact that he never got affirmed by getting barbies as a kid bc surprise, he's male and likely wouldn't have.

And like you said, many little girls didn't like or want barbies or princess dresses or baby dolls or the play kitchen. Or if we were given stuff like that we made do and played how we wanted.

But I think the takeaway here is he's jealous of that too. Even being able to reject barbies wasn't something he could experience. He's hiding his disdain and envy behind a shield of consumerism as the problem and an incessant need to feel superior. If people coddle him and agree that owning barbies is tied to girlhood and subsequently to that made-up image of the spoiled rich girl who bullied people, he wins.

I think I too would like to know what he thinks of that girl who would be either rich or poor or somewhere in the middle, who rejected stereotypically feminine toys or clothes. I personally think he'd be envious again of the ability to reject that, or because we know tras subscribe so heavily to the existence of gender roles, perhaps like you said, it's the thought that something was missed out on, or that femininity wasn't performed correctly.

Thank you for sending this! It was really interesting to think about.

#thank you for your ask! #i think the concepts in that post are really interesting #and knowing a tim made those comments opens up a lot of intrigue for me #like where does it stem from knowing what we know about males and their entitlement #and like you said where does it put girls in his mind who reject that stereotypical toy

[iloveyouitisruiningmylife]

i hate the way he makes me fight for things i don't even believe in or want or like

#now he's not fucking booking the tickets because he's mad at sis for rejecting the ladka they went to see #fuck him it was literally a one week vacation and not a single days rest #and he's so fucking psychopathic god he told her to leave her job and stay here with him and see #as many guys until she finds the one she's 'compatible' with #bc that's why she rejected that guy bc they weren't compatible #he makes me sick god i want to run away #how can someone be so self centered self obsessed only care about yourself and not your fucking daughters? #i don't even want to go to that fuckass office or tuitions but i have to because HE FORCED ME TO DO THIS COURSE and now im close to #the finish line so i have to do it and it's literally impossible to live in this house and not be financially independent bc then #this fucking person who calls himself a dad will force u to marry someone you don't know #thank god sis has good job now i fully told her ki zyada natak kare toh plane book karo aur chale jao #ab nahi toh kab kyu sunna hai ye sab isliye puri life thodi na itni mehnat ki hai #khud incompatible insaan se shaadi kar ke ghut ghut ke jee rahe hai aur itni bhi decency nahi hai ki atleast mere bacche ke saath same fate #na ho #thak gayi hu ladke ab bas ghar jana hai aur nahi ho raha

[unproduciblesmackdown]

also to go "wow this is just like in pentiment" about absolutely anything and/or "wow this is just like iphigenia crash land falls on the neon shell that was once her heart (a rave fable)" about absolutely anything further:

the Narratives within crash land falls where like, in the end iphigenia being Given the story of both "this is going to happen anyways" and "so why don't you see it as a noble sacrifice to accept." the situation happening to Create a story that she was killed, so her father must be tragic, and sympathetic. that iphigenia does take on that Narrative of taking on the Noble Willing Sacrifice, and it kills her, but she also would have been killed anyways, as everyone also knows. that we even get a bit of pentimentesque [other characters observe & assess things] like, the fresa girls as a chorus, and one at the end like yeah She Was No Saint, i saw everything, but being cut off by The News that's like yeah looks like iphigenia was killed, that seguing into her father saying yeah she was killed, god's will was done, She's A Saint now. seguing to the emcee who introduced the play, but that superceded by achilles, and that superceded with iphigenia's extasis monologue as the end of the play. that whether iphigenia's a saint or not, she dies. that [the whole play] tells us as much, like, this isn't a What If kind of retelling where she escapes her fate, this is a retelling examining itself like, she Will die because the story's preset, so what to do with this as the story that has to take her there, what to do with this as iphigenia who has to go there

that iphigenia takes on another narrative in addition to the one offered by like, violeta as guide and oracle telling her she has to die (As A Noble Sacrifice), that again (as per iphigenia in aulis being like uh hey daughter. let's go to aulis so you can uh marry achilles (it is to be sacrificed)) achilles is this bait, but it's only in the ending that there's any Story about being with achilles, and when iphigenia goes to the mercenary soldier who she knows will kill her, she's the one telling him what to tell her about where she's going and why, i want you to tell me achilles is waiting for me....and she still dies, because This Is The Story. as also applied to the reality, iphigenia as another dead and missing girl following & preceding many; any disappeared deaths when consumed as disposable & replaceable, not given part of any narrative about it. while also iphigenia only gets a chorus of fresa girls from there being crosses put on the factory wall with their names, with one girl even remarking like hey they spelled my name right for once. but at the same time they're also like, both mere Apparitions but also like standins for people who are simply alive. real [shades]esque kind of, i suppose, but like they're not Sanctified for dying either, they'll comment on iphigenia but not with any like, divine knowledge, just as this out of place rich girl. whether iphigenia's A Saint or Not A Saint, she's still dead either way. she wants to be a fresa girl, they maybe want to be her, but everyone's doomed anyways thanks to way larger forces and the Stories that have been told and will be told again

but there's also the moment right before the final section wherein, before she's having to say what she wants within the bounds of [she has to die], there's achilles asking "you still want me" and iphigenia answering with "i want everything" and her vision for, like, getting to be alive actually, i'm on the gulf where the sea is gray, and no one wants a piece of me....the whole inciting event here where iphigenia wants to evade her fate however she can, exiting the bounds of her life, the physical bounds and the family unit and walking away from the rank of status / class / wealth, trying for [have her body for herself] and what the body wants, the sensuous indulgences of (a rave fable), let's hear some more about the roman state like "we don't like the examination and challenge and upending of class and convention in a bacchanalia, so only do the official versions we permit;" the Threat of people's desires for themselves, when that's going to be counter to those in power who'd want these people to be resources at their disposal; the burden on the disempowered to suffer [the only way out is through] with the Additional pain & loss that has to be taken on in pursuit of their autonomy, while also of course suffering for the autonomy they lack, that restricted and controlled and mitigated versions of what you might want are deigned to be provided or permitted so that you have Something, but that everyone's actual undeniable personhood will always be spilling past those bounds, the potential power of transgressive pleasure when one's wellbeing and autonomous choices are counter to the power structures that have to constantly try to suppress and preclude this. achilles just as bait, doomed to die like iphigenia is also still doomed, sex was never going to save everyone and the [recognizing connection as these two parallel people / We're The Same] with your lover here is not going to save everyone but it still makes more things possible for them both; iphigenia does know what she wants, and gets some of it because she wants it, same with achilles in turn, while it can't save anyone from their fates still. but it can mean something even if it doesn't transcend, like even a fleeting night of insignificant dancing that doesn't change anything can mean something, and we all die, but that doesn't mean it's Nothing to be killed any more than it's Nothing to have your desires or choices one way or another to be wrung out of your life before you are

anyways, the stories. the Looking and Presenting here. achilles and iphigenia first encountering each other as images put together and presented by someone else for their own purposes. the presence of what's seen through film/camera/recording versus in person; the potential power relations and even violence in framing, presenting, and the intended looking and assessing. repeated language about eyes/looks that burn, while also that connection between iphigenia and achilles, and their finding the least room in what they do have of their lives for more of their own wants and selves and something genuine and not predetermined, is also connected to eyes and looking and being seen and light and burning. while they're also connected to the protection and possibility of night and darkness, getting to exist and be Without being lit up or seen; that with the power that's still in play, it's never like, well then you should have nothing / no reason to hide; the penultimate moment in the play with achilles being one that's in person and fades into darkness, rather than coming in from the light of a projection / video onscreen as the introduction....iphigenia needing to be guided through a crossroads to even get to achilles in person; violeta giving the Advice and Story and Tradition to pray to eleggua, as iphigenia does before getting to encounter achilles for real, who also doesn't get to break out of a role or a fate in full in any way, but their tragedies are like, pointing towards [autonomy, imagine it] in both the ways they manage to find a little bit of it for themselves, in no small part for simply recognizing each other as in the same boat here, and in the ways they still don't have it and still can't get it

and anyways it's also inevitably saying like, telling a story?? this Play is a told story!! looking? assessing? interpreting? you're doing that in the course of experiencing it! and it's really so fucking true.

#reading the whole of it like okay well i'm different forever now then #tearing a wall down about it like yeah it's extremely chill thanks #iphigenia crash land falls on the neon shell that was once her heart (a rave fable) #what a Narrative can change; what it can't.... #those already with the power to do whatever they felt like in the first place just able to create whatever story of events supports that #those whose lives are restricted by that power having to struggle to find any narratives that provide some comfort maybe #whilest perhaps it's the stories that provide an accurate reflection on the pain & suffering in one's reality that are more threatening Lol #like hey i hope that that bacchanalia isn't satiriz....paused to look up ''if satire is based on satyr i'll mclose it lmfao'' #Apparently it's not Really; but the latin form was indeed influenced by the greek satyr (for the theatre of it all) on the Mistaken notion #that that Was an influence. so; anyways i hope that bacchanalia isn't satirizing norms & conventions & providing a space to transgress #wherein we can see the Constructed and Enforced nature of things like class such that it can be deconstructed & deenforced #you'd Better not be questioning these conventions by commenting on them even indirectly; playfully; or via imitation.... #that achilles can only have this genuine final closeness with iphigenia after voicing & sharing ''i'm dying soon too btw (:'' #while iphigenia able to voice what she wants from life is only happening with the context that she'll die & she won't have this #she knows she wants [and nobody wants a piece of me] b/c of knowing that they do; and they'll take it.... #their navigating their connection via also rejecting / superseding Their Image(tm). i want to kill the tabloid girl that envelops your skin #i will sink & get rid of every inch of me. that at the end of their scenes of actually interacting it's iphigenia reassuring achilles #who's like [but you wouldn't want Me] [everyone only wants a piece of me] [you'll forget me] vs i will destroy your celebrity; there will #be no one left to adore but me....unmaking oneself in the face of being defined & doomed Already; by the past.... #breaking into pieces crash land falling. if you existed once ever that exists forever. the pieces all around & as the foundation #making one's way back around to ''wow just like in pentiment'' again lol....endless things to say all around #as well as when anytime you have something to say you have about a trillion words in the effort to do so #the narrative that matters to you but doesn't save your life still giving you More life while you still have it.... #and what gives a little more life than that. and a little more than that

[willowser]

STOPPPP THAT BAKUGO POST MADE ME CRY AND WOW THAT WAS NICELY WRIITENEJJDDF

audbsiwbakq bro 🥺 i made MYSELF cry 🥺 i just pictured him standing in a tiny kitchen with the first love of his little life 🥺 and they're just two normal lovebirds, figuring out who will take the car today, bc they can only afford one, or the show they both start watching together, even if bkg swears he hates it 🥺 AND THEN HE HAS TO LEAVE IT ALL BEHIND TO CHASE HIS DREAMS, THIS LIFE THAT WAS CHOSEN FOR HIM WHEN HIS QUIRK FIRST APPEARED 🥺😭

#head in hands #bye #bc the thing with bkg and love is all about security !!!! #him knowing this person cares about him too !! him-him and not who his quirk makes him !!! #and feeling safe enough to put his heart in their hands !! #allowing himself to be vulnerable without fear of rejection !!! #AND THEN HE HAS TO LET IT GO WAAHHH #and it's almost worse that it's not due to any terrible awful ugly reason #it's just...life #in two different directions #and you both have to live with that #i'm done goodbye #BUT THANK YOU FOR COMPLIMENTING MY WRITING #✿ ask willow

[whimsicmimic]

once again thinking about my post-trimax legato somehow miraculously survives despite everything au and vashgato agenda aka The Worlds Most Miserable Roadtrip

#one of these days ill get back to it #its the fucking. anger and hatred and loathing from legato @ vash #because legato and vashs entire dynamic is fucking #legato has lain down on the tracks. and he doesnt want to be saved. he needs vash to be the train that runs him over. #and then he lives. somehow. he missed his chance to die. #he had no reason to live. his one reason to carry on was for a cause he fully intended to die for and then he couldnt even do that #mirrored by vash. who also went into that confrontation with knives fully intending to not make it out #and now the world is saved! knives failed and now hes gone. and thats a whole fucking thing to unpack for everyone #the fucking anger. the grief. the whole fuckin mess of contradictory emotions that happens as a result of abuse from a family member w vash #fucking Everything wrt legato. the devastation of knowing knives is gone + he failed + legato lived + *vash* lived #the slowwwwwww realization over a long long period of time that legato worshipped the ground knives walked on #but knives only ever regarded legato with like. the same way someone might an ant. a bug. maybe a dog. #legato who only ever wanted to be Seen by knives #and knives who never particularly cared for legato beyond his usefulness #legato who begins following vash because its probably what knives would want + there is truly nothing else on this planet for him. #he has no other reason to live #and vash allowing him out of some sense of pity / resignation + being able to see that theres Nothing left for legato #+ probo some sense of obligation too. of heres another person his brother fucked up. which means hes vash’s responsibility to fix #all the while legato resents vash for living when knives isnt here. resents him for failing to kill him. #resents him for being the only other thing that knives actually cared about + who rejected knives when all legato ever wanted #was knives’ attention #and vash who frankly resents legato too. resents the fact that. of all the people who managed to survive. it was legato and not ww #resents all the shit that legato put him through. all the people he killed all the suffering he inflicted #the two of them looking at each other and the fucking. recognition of the self thru the other #and seeing all the shit they hate about themselves in the other #theres also again the shared grief of them both losing someone incredibly important to them both but who was also responsible for some #abuse to Both of them. unpacking it. working through it. moving forward. #learning How to move forward as a Whole when theyre both two deeply traumatized deeply suicidal fucks who no longer have the singular goals #thatve been their sole reason for existing for the past. many. years. and having to find new reasons to keep living #but most of all. i think they should make out sloppy in the desert thank you goodnight

[tommybowefuneralattendee]

ur writing is so incredible thank u for sharing ur talent in something as silly goofy as the smosh fandom

hgtrfgtyu that's so nice! thank you! i got my real "start" writing fanfiction with youtuber rpf so when i said i was going to start writing for smosh, my best friend was literally like "reject modernity, embrace tradition," so one could say that this was inevitable. dust returns to dust or whatever they say. no but really thank you, there are so many wildly talented writers in this fandom, i consider myself lucky to be among them.

#thank you !!!!! i would typically reply w a little good old fashioned self deprecation but i'm trying to stop doing that!! #rejecting the compliment of someone who enjoys your work not only diminishes how you view it yourself but it's kind of rude to the commente #like they honestly enjoy your work why are you saying it's bad like that's an objective take #back on topic your boy has unmedicated adhd so the rambles are unfortunately a chronic illness #(which is a joke i can make bc i'm also chronically ill. please do not think i am taking the piss out of a community i'm not in) #all of this to say this was very nice to read. i can't be objective about my own work so to know that other people enjoy it to this measure #really Fills My Heart #ask answered #anonymous

[fazcinatingblog]

Grundy and Tay teaming up with Chloe molloy at the Sydney magpies.

#aflm #okay I'll go #Sydney love the pies #they want to be pies #it's cute #treloar should join them as well he's a nothing at the bontempelli bottom Bulldogs #jaidyn may as well head up there he's about to have his spot taken lmao #jaidyn walked so that Zac Fisher could run #maybe Trent could head to Sydney as well DO SYDNEY WANT ALL OUR REJECTS #we're just so grateful for Darcy Cameron that we giftwrap Grundy Tay Trent treloar in a nice little bundle #a little note saying thank you #bless #oh do they want trey as well i mean he's headed west but he can always turn around #The west sucks Jesse Hogan knows that #much much better to play footy in Sydney than Perth #no talkback radio no getting recognised in a supermarket no getting papped at a music festival #Grundy would love the anonymity #then again he had anonymity at la Trobe because he did the same (similar???) course as my cousin and she had no idea who Grundy was #sigh #i asked my cousin if she'd seen Brodie Grundy and she's like ?????????? #what's the point #going all the way to Brodie university and doing Brodie university degree and not seeing Brodie

[straightfromthetorturedpoetsdept]

yall ever get a "i was watching the barbie movie and was thinking about us" text? 10 out of 10, do recommend

#i am so biased towards my name honestly #love that i share a name with the most famous doll in america #my exes are dumb as fuck though but i love the ego trip that comes with having to reject these bitches years later #taylor swift and marina taught me how to effectively be the one who got away and i thank them for that #its like i won the breakup babes #over and over and over again <3 #when its confirmed it was never you #idk its just nice to know you left an impact on people i guess #personal #dating chronicles