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#technically it ends on thursday but i’ve exempted both of the exams for that day
mars-ipan · 3 years
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damn i like... kinda wanna cry
#marzivents#finals week starts tomorrow and that’s gonna be the last week of school#technically it ends on thursday but i’ve exempted both of the exams for that day#so i’m done after school on wednesday#and like.... i’ve spent an entire year at my house. a whole year of my adolescence#more technically but i still chunk time in terms of public school years#my whole life i was looking forward to this specific school year too.#and now it’s gone. and it can be argued that it was one of the wordt years of my life so far#of course even in hell there was warmth. it may have been horrid but i’m coming out stronger- i know it#and my family is trying to help me look out for myself#but. i lost so much. i lost an incredible amount and i’m extremely lucky it wasn’t more.#i’ve lost a year and a half of my childhood. it’s sent me into a depressive spiral that i’m trying to climb out of now#i was supposed to be doing so much more but. things changed.#and i can’t be blamed for things changing. i truly did do my part to keep things safer#but regardless i. i had a year- the year i spent my whole childhood looking forward to- ripped from my grasp#i guess i’m grieving that loss now that i have the time to.#i’m gonna survive but i’m sure as hell not unscathed.#i uh. if anyone actually read all this then... thanks i guess?#this post was more for me to speak into a void but like#i appreciate you hearing me regardless.#go send someone some love. tell them you care about them. try to make them smile#i’d ask for cheering up myself but i don’t wanna be selfish. so there’s no pressure but i would appreciate it though#so instead i’ll ask you to go make someone else happy#have a nice day.
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