#tbf my response was kinda immature too

[finloaf]

ok theres a lot of games where i LOVE the gameplay/lore but i hate the Big Fans or the powergamers, and damned if warhammer isnt one of those things.

but yknow what? i wish i still had the picture somewhere, but this dude tried to powergame by playing outside the spirit of the rules (in a manner of speaking anyways) and not putting down any units. his opponent just so happened to know the rules better (afaik, if u place ur pieces last, ur opponent gets the first turn) AND HE DEPLOYS ONE UNIT OF SCOUTS ACROSS THE WHOLE EDGE OF THE BOARD, MAKING HIM WIN BY DEFAULT. i hate some nerds but i love that shit SO much. like YES get their ass for trying to break the rules!!! MONARCH SHIT!!!!!!!

same with that fucker that crammed his magic deck full of "on the 4th turn this card is out, you lose" and then had like 4-8 other cards that let him GIVE IT TO HIS OPPONENT. thats not breaking the rules, and you have to get a veeery specific setup to pull it off, so its not unfair! plus its counterable, any "block that play" instant would be able to stop it and fuck that guy over! its creative in a fun way and not a miserable way. u dont lose to that and go "damn that was fucking miserable" u go "ay thats clever! i should try and counter that somehow" and i think thats the mentality games should bring out in ppl, not just "ig im not good enough to play with my friends here"

#u play my way or not at all #no fun zone #permatap #return to owners hand #like. thats the shit one of my best friends does #i know its just how he has fun #but. the whole mindset is so annoying #thats why i love my magic deck so much #probably 15-18 cards have or as a side effect and its just meant to be annoying and kinda delay their #its a categorically bad deck #anyways powergaming annoys me in casual settings #its different if youre making a deck for a competitive scene #WHOLE different scenario #but this was like. a home party night #why do u need to do that for a friendly game!!!! #tbf my response was kinda immature too #like i am. probably 30% at fault #but i was already picking those out bc i thought they would be fun to play with anyways! #like i was having fun making a funky blue deck anyways! i just added maybe 10 instants/enchantments to mess with him #sorry in order for u to have fun u need to constantly be winning and minmaxing ur experience! i just wanted to have a time with my pal #anyways. tag rant over that fucker was doin the same shit on my mc server last night and i was on the verge of kicking him off #no need to mald when everyone else is just vibing

[kokokichichi]

i actually like dream, but the way he acts sometimes genuinely sends up red flags. especially with george. like, he can get so defensive/annoyed that he starts being cruel and dismissive. it's very off putting. i just feel like, emotionally, he's very immature. i mean tbf, he's still really young and is def under a lot of pressure/stress with everything that's happened this year, so i'm sure he'll mature eventually. but still. he really needs to learn how to treat people with respect

yeah ur words kinda sum up what i feel rn

i also agree with your defense of him, i just tend to be way more critical of dream because i feel no one else ever is. on mcyt twitter i’ve never seen someone actually say he’s a sore loser or that he literally needs to unclench. a lot of people say his adhd may contribute to some of his more negative behavior but i have something very similar (i don’t really want to delve into it with a bunch of strangers on tumblr lol) and that’s just not how it works. you’re still responsible for your behavior regardless of whether or not you have adhd.

im not going to delve too deep into it because i don’t care enough about dream to analyze all the issues i have with him as a person (which again is just MY opinion and MY thoughts, nothing personal against anyone who actually stans him or whatever) but my dms are open if you ever want to rant lol

[flockofdoves]

looking at photos from college and realizing in all of them i was at Most 19 because i withdrew during spring break 2019 and my birthday wasnt until a couple weeks after so basically ive been somewhat isolated/a shut in for over a year now because its been over a month since i turned 21. literally all of my 20s has been like this and beyond just wanting to be done with this and be a Person again thats also just kind of scary to me like if my brains gonna be more fully developed by 25 the clock is ticking on that (never mind all the concrete stuff the clocks ticking on at 19 i wanted to do in this decade that id still want to i’m just so distant from) i feel like my brain feels very warped and immature for my age and others could probably notice that if i was thrown into regular interaction again. i don’t feel like the person i was at 19 i’ve evolved since then but i don’t necessarily know if i’ve evolved in a good or helpful way when i’ve had over a year of this now. this isn’t me making excuses for myself i want to strive to be the best person i can be and do good to others and be a responsible adult regardless but i’m just worried i was irresponsible and fucked myself over and made myself detached from how to actually grow and be better which would be entirely on me.

(tbf i was in a php program and also still involved with a local org kinda regularly the first couple months before i got too paranoid for that. and in fall i had a job for a bit and tried to go to college in chicago part time for a bit. and i had a job again now before this all got extended outside my control. but none of that really counts on the whole i was still so disconnected compared to any other part of my life so far)

#cpost