#talk to your cells

[hermitcraft-shifter]

Joe's rant about the beauty of Hermitcraft being that it's unplanned and therefore more genuine/impactful because the Hermits' real reactions can be used as fuel to entertain... Like, paraphrasing here, but—

"When you're an artist in a collaboration, you're opening yourself up to opportunities to be upset. […] You should want us to really be feeling things; that's what makes Hermitcraft art."

—and going on to use Scar blowing up Doc's tunnel machine last season and the whole wood permit ordeal with Doc this season as examples...

I'm not saying I'm surprised at how mature they are (because they're an adult who has been at this for years and literally a single parent), but sometimes you just get hit with the reality that these content creators are, you know, mature adults who can take care of themselves. It's a nice reality check when there's so much content infantilizing and defending them, especially with how their 'characters' can range from very defined— Ren and Grian pulling story arcs and bits out of nowhere —to not defined at all —Joe who has spoken very recently about how they don't define what is 'canon' or 'lore' because that'll question aspects of their personal life in uncomfortable ways.

This pairs nicely with yesterday's stream about Joe talking about how we learn through public humiliation (after getting the definition of nether wrong) and that, paraphrasing again, "literally my entire life has been getting humiliated for being ignorant. If I thought that was a bad thing, I wouldn't be streaming".

Like, damn. They chose this. They knew what they were getting into, and they continue to choose this to the point they make it their gimmick. (Ex. The stream thumbnails literally being 'laugh at me'.)

There's definitely a thin line Joe treads with self-deprecation, but people have been using humour to cope for decades. Low self-esteem and negative self-image not included. You recognized you messed up, and rather than getting stuck on it, you use humour as a way— a tool in your arsenal —to move on.

You make mistakes and move on.

#thats my content creator #joehillssays #joehills #joe hills #hermitcraft #hermitblr #your honour we found the brain cell #hearing joe talk about how badly the hermits fumble is very humanizing #your honour they have no idea what theyre doing but thats what they signed up for and they like it that way #hearing joe joke with someone about how much of a nightmare it is to plan w/ mumbo or the absolute mess of empires... #thats the joe hills difference

[20dollarlolita]

Quick reminder that you're allowed to have fun.

Back when I cosplayed, I put a ton of effort into cosplays. I did a ton of research, fabric sourcing, learning new construction techniques, trying to get everything to look good and be the perfect thing that I wanted it to be. I wanted to win awards. I wanted to be the very best, like no one ever was.

I got into cosplay because I was in a Twilight cosplay group. We would get together, to go Ross Dress for Less, buy new outfits, get together, go to the park or to the mall, and pretend to be vampires. One of the people in the group had a camera and took pictures, and that was what we did. We didn't make any really good cosplays or any really good photos, but I had so much fun going into the park in the rain wearing a sleeveless dress and pretending that I wasn't freezing, while our Bella cosplayer got to be the only person in a jacket and had to pretend she was miserable.

We weren't a good cosplay group, objectively speaking. We never won awards. We weren't interviewed by blogs. We weren't ever the group that everyone wanted to take pictures of at the convention. I got into doing more cosplay, but a lot of people in that group didn't cosplay outside of that group. A lot of them never cosplayed again, once we all went to college and stopped going to the mall and taking tons of pictures in the food court.

(For everyone who wants to imagine this, this was 2008 and cell phones didn't have cameras that could be dumped onto your computer, so there was several high schoolers pretending to be vampires and one person with a full DSLR with a 300mm zoom lens following them around like the whole grous wasn't a total ball of chaos).

And, you know what? We had fun. It's okay to do things just because it's fun.

With so many professionals posting information on the internet about how they do their craft, it's an amazing time to get into a lot of hobbies. Instead of hoarding information, a ton of hobbyists and professionals alike share their work and techniques and tools freely online. Anyone who wants to can learn how to use the same tools and do the same techniques. I applaud every professional who is taking the time to make resources so that new people can learn how to do things and join in their profession or hobby. Everyone who makes a roller skate tutorial on instagram, everyone who makes an instructable on using a soldering iron, everyone who posted a tiktok about the best way to melt cheese over rice, all those long and pretentious youtube videos about picking the best whiskey to go with the best cigars, videos explaining the bizarreness of Edwardian table manners, you all are amazing. You're sharing this information and enabling new people to learn about something that's important to you. This is really cool. I love you.

But, to everyone who is consuming this media that has been created, and find it intimidating, you're not alone. Someone with a functioning studio who is doing a makeup tutorial in a 4K camera with a high quality ring light and a $89 foundation brush, even sharing their technique freely, can make you feel like you won't have good makeup skills until you also have a ring light and a nice brush. You wanted to build a model of an airplane and looked up a tutorial, and this guy makes it look really easy but he has a double-action airbrush and a fume hood, so you feel like you're not ready to make this model because you don't have the right gear.

I know that this intimidation factor is not something that content creators making tutorials want to be there. I make tutorials and I don't want to intimidate people with a big list of tools and techniques, but I'm sure there's people who wanted to get into lolita fashion and found that my blog was more intimidating than helpful.

So I'm not here to tell content creators to stop making tutorials. The open sharing of information is one of the coolest things about the internet, and I don't want that to change.

But I do want to say something to the person who has watched 160 cake decorating videos in the past week and wanting to try it themselves. I want to say that to someone who has gone through 18 years of jfashion blog archives and wants to build an EGL coordinate. I want to say something to people who've built up an elaborate fictional world and amazing characters in their heads and who wants to share it with someone.

It's okay to do a thing without getting into the hobby. You're allowed to make one cake and decide that it's not for you. You're allowed to take the face off a Monster High doll and not like the process of putting on a new one. You're allowed to assemble one EGL outfit and not want to make a full closet of pieces. You're allowed to write down your story and give it to a friend without ever submitting it to a publisher. You're allowed to paint your DND minis with Apple Barrel acrylics and toothpicks. You're allowed to put on your eyeshadow with the little sponge stick that comes with the $9 palette you got at CVS.

Getting into wood carving is cool, but carving one spoon and then never picking it back up again isn't a failure at getting into a hobby. You made a spoon! That's so cool! You didn't fail to make a spoon just because you didn't make a second one. Building one coordinate and wearing it over and over for conventions and photoshoots isn't a failure to wear the fashion, even if you don't make a whole wardrobe with multiple looks. You can buy a $12 guitar at a yard sale and just play Wonderwall on it on Omegle and have more fun than someone who is dedicated to learning a full set and play professionally in front of people. You can knit a single scarf, hammer together a single planter box, DM a single session of D&D, and then not do it ever again. That's creation, not failure.

And you don't need to research everything and follow tutorials and get it right. You're allowed to experiment and have fun and do it wrong, and you're allowed to guess about the right way to do something. You're allowed to bring your outside perspective into something and try a technique. You're allowed to take experience you have from something and try to cross-apply it to something else. That's two of the ways that new techniques are made! And you're allowed to do something and not like it! You're allowed to do it wrong! You're allowed to give up halfway through and say you'll finish it later, and then never finish it later! You're allowed to bullshit your way through things.

You're allowed to not be serious about things. Throwing a Bridgerton party is probably really fun, but so it putting on cardboard top hats from the dollar store while holding shot glasses over your eyes like monocles and shouting "GOOOOOOOD HEEAAAAAVENS, LAAAAARYYYY," in an exaggerated tone while everyone drinks Old Crow and vows to never buy Swisher Sweets ever again. You're allowed to do things that objectively aren't good, don't showcase skills, don't create something impressive. You're allowed to do these things because they're fun, or because you think they might be fun.

Maybe you like it. Maybe you don't. But you don't need to commit to doing things like the professionals in order to find legitimacy in a thing you attempt. Your attempt is legitimate. Go try the thing.

And if you don't like it, your attempt was still legitimate. Good job trying the thing.

#for those of you who were too young to remember #there was a period of time where cell phones had cameras but you couldn't get the pictures off the phone and onto your computer #verizon would charge you 25 cents per picture to email a picture to your computer #kids these days don't know how lucky they are #also don't start smoking cigars just because it looks cool on youtube #haven't you all seen pinochio and shit? #alcohol cw #tobacco cw #20dollarlolita pep talks

[captainsaltypear]

Warden made a bad decision by putting these two in the same cell.

#ahwm #markiplier #yancy #iswm #warden murderslaughter #a heist with markiplier #scheeze art #pear post #THIS HAS BEEN IN MY DRAFTS FOR A GOOD Y E A R NOW OH MY GOSH #GUESS WHO JUST REWATCHED AHWM AGAIN #THIS IS FOR YOU YANCY SIMPS #I WILL FEED YALL #the warden overhears the guards talking about the racket coming from yancy and the viewer's cell #the warden hears a ruckus coming from yancy and the viewer's cell at night and calls yancy into his office like 'yall gotta stop fighting' #and yancy's like 'who said we were fighting sir?' #he doesn't get paid enough for this #(prozd voice) OH THEY FU- #also THANK YOU STATIC FOR THE CAPTION BLESS YOUR SOUL

[sirmanmister]

Frostbite

A little gory/exaggerated but I actually like this a lot :D

I like the idea of the freeze being REALLY rough on the sole survivor, and there’s physical trauma involved that they have to deal with past the mental trauma of waking up 200 years in the future.

Damien gets pretty bad barotrauma from being frozen for 150 years, wakes up to see Shaun get taken, then freezes again pretty much immediately afterwards. It’s not like he could fully thaw in those 2 minutes it took Kellogg to open Nora’s door. So now Damien is deaf in his left ear, and he has trouble keeping his hands warm :)

Closeup under the cut

#it should be known Damien’s frostbite doesn’t actually advance to this I just wanted to dramatize it lmfao #cuz this is late stage with tissue death #but that takes a bit and he’d start warming up basically the moment he’s out of his pod #also technically Damien should have fucked up balance with his ear fucked like that #but I don’t care. artistic liberty lmao #I could ramble SO MUCH about semi-sciency stuff I HC about the freeze #like the potential for it to just. fuck with all your cells #it won’t mutate you like radiation or anything but it could still kill a LOT #sole survivor with IBS because their gut biome was eradicated LMFAO #sole survivor that gets vitiligo/their hair starts growing in stark white because the melanin producers all died #literally I could talk abt it so much. don’t quote me on the science tho I’m not actually smart #anyway real tags #fallout 4 #fallout #fallout 4 fanart #fallout fanart #digital art #male sole survivor #sole survivor #cryogenic freezing #blood #blood tw #frostbite #fallout 4 headcanons #serenade draws #Damien tag

[countess-of-edessa]

can yall pray for my elderly neighbors? we were very close to them in my childhood but they haven’t left their house in several years. my mom talks to the wife on the phone every few weeks but she says she cant use a computer anymore because the 5G gives her a rash and they refuse to leave the house. so.

#they have adult kids and grandkids but they all live far and were like come get your mom???? #she says just having her husband's cell phone in his pocket in the next room gives her a rash which. #and there’s nothing more we can do than just have my mom keep talking to them to hear they’re okay

[puppyeared]

When you backread through a fun conversation you had with someone for hours an angel gets its wings

#I was talking to my brother about Norman doors and I had fun in my UX class and he was telling me about demon cores and the trolley problem #in his class. AND I remembered to take my meds today so I can feel every cell in my body. i can feel the neurons rubbing together #and yesterday I infodumped about the specialists bullseye chart to crow and how it ties with witch hat atelier #WHICH I MANAGED TOGET THEM TK READ IM SO HAPPY. I MAKE SQUEALING GUINEA PIG NOISES EVERY TIME THEY TELL ME WHAT THEYVE READ SO FAR. AHH #i might not even be scratching the surface with witch hat there are so many themes i could not possibly fathom or go over my heasd #and thats what makes it so exciting there are so many spaces in between that you can fill with your thoughts and i. i #waves my hands around manically #for anyone interested in my insane ramblings. the bullseye chart is from are we all scientific experts now by harry collins #in my own words its basically saying everything we know about anything is a game of broken telephone #and it discusses how information gets lost in translation between experts and laymen including things that arent in control #one of the main points was how things that happen between experts are complicated including debates and findings #that you can only really understand thru research and experience in that field and cant be smoothly shared without it being reworded #and risking some of those key points. or even concepts that are hard to understand that cant be shared at all #like if you tried to tell me about how DNA works using words scientists are familiar with but i am NOT- i risk missing concepts that i need #to understand to know how it works on the level you understand. or i risk having it reworded and understanding it but not on that level #AND IT DOES TIE TO WITCH HAT THE WITCH AND NORMAL FOLK COMMUNITIES I PROMISE. ITS SO INTERESTING #anyway i spent hours reading back thru that conversation and i might as well admit it goes for almost every fun conversation i have #and it might be the 20mg of adderall in my body but i am in such a state of peace and love i have to verbalize it. ahh #yapping

[softdeb]

Do you know who I could have been in this world?

HIS DARK MATERIALS 2.05 “The Scholar” (2020)

#dailytvsource #fantasyedit #dailytvgifs #hdmedit #hdmsource #tvgifs #marisa coulter #gifs #mrs coulter #carlo boreal #his dark materials #do i despise boreal (yes) #am i facinated by how thinly veiled marisa's facade around him is (also yes) #like bro IF YOU USED ONE BRAIN CELL #SHE'S SCREAMING OUT TO BE SEEN #i would sell a limb for (1) more maryisa scene #ruth's face!!! #the way she talks about acting for film vs stage #and how the camera can read your thoughts #no one is thinking them louder than her

[decarbry]

Is there anything you could say to yabureme to get him seriously distressed immediately?

images moments before disaster

#boku no hero academia fanart #eraser head #nomu aizawa #Yabureme Aizawa AU #shouta aizawa #it's mic talking btw #I took this a bit literally and chose an actual comic moment from way in the future #so... #Yabureme Spoilers #the first morning Yabureme wakes up in Tartarus (second capture) after intake and he's alone in his cell with Mic #who tries to (gently) explain to him why his eye hurts more than it did before #pal... my dude... my amnesia husband.... Dabi literally destroyed your eye and it had to come out I'm sorry #and Yabureme immediately realizes that he can no longer protect Shigaraki at full capacity #even though it's arguable that that part of his life is over... the programming won't let him acknowledge it yet #so he panics #and reacts badly #tw eye strain #but basically the short answer to this question is... implying that he can't fulfill his duty #it's not even a conscious distress but a... survival one? #like. your whole self realizing that your purpose cannot be fulfilled before your brain does. so your body reacts faster #panic attacks? lashing out? yeah... #first session of therapy starts a few days after this incident SKDFGKSDFG

[stop-breaking-my-heart-telltale]

if dorian didn't show up, do you think louis would have shot minnie?

I do. I know some people think either he wouldn't have or he would've missed so that's why the writers had him shoot Dorian instead, but mmmmmm no, I don't personally think so. I like to think that if he had taken the shot, his shaky hands would've caused him to shoot her fatally.

Mostly because I'm already so normal about the fact that of the Ericson crew, Marlon and Louis are the only ones with a body count. Well, that we know of, but shown to us in the game, at least. Plus, we know it's Louis' first kill.

Like yeah, Clementine and AJ become part of the crew and they have bigger body counts, and if we're counting indirect kills caused by actions, then Tenn has a count... and I guess everyone has blood on their hands for blowing up the boat... but I'm talking about killed directly with a weapon like....... I lied, I'm not normal about that at all, Louis and Marlon are the ones who have killed someone in Louis' route. I'm also not normal about the fact that Louis kills Dorian and then even as he's clearly in shock, he tries to go with Clementine to get AJ, and then later on when they talk about it, he says it feels like bile but not quite and he's glad he has it in him to do it.... listen, listen, listen... I'm obsessed with that.

Anyway, so if Louis shot Minerva, I think he would've accidentally killed her and can you imagine? He's already enough of a mess after killing the woman who pinned him down and tried to cut his finger off [or succeeded] but he knew Minerva, they were friends before the twins were taken. Even Violet couldn't kill her even though that would've been the smarter thing to do, and we know thanks to meta knowledge that killing her would've saved lives, but Violet couldn't, and I don't think Louis would intentionally either.

Speaking of Violet, if Louis killed Minerva, I hate to think about what that would've done to Vi. I think she might've actually left at that point, like what was planned before it got changed to her being burned. I don't think she would've attacked Louis over it, though, like yeah she attacked Clementine in the cell but Louis? I don't know, but I don't think so just because it's Louis and he'd be a mess about it anyway.

Though if he did kill her, it would be a neat parallel to draw... y'know, because Louis forgave AJ for killing Marlon even though he was pissed and heartbroken, and Violet was annoyed with him the entire time... but could she ever forgive Louis for killing Minerva? Y'know? We already have a similar parallel with AJ shooting Tenn, but still.

If Clementine killed Minerva in that moment, though, then I could see Violet attacking her since in her eyes, Clem proved her right.

So yeah, I get why they added the Dorian kill to his route. It adds another compelling element to Louis as a character, but we also need Minerva alive for episode 4; Louis can't kill her, he can't miss, and he's not going to stay with her because we need Violet to stay on the boat and him to be on shore for all routes.

#asks #twdg louis #twdg minerva #twdg clementine #twdg violet #twdg marlon #twdg tenn #honestly whenever i see someone say louis is the boring option i'm just like '.......that's your opinion but also how can you say that??' #then again i'm sure other people look at me saying violentine just isn't for me and they say the same thing so y'know... i can't talk haha #also time is such a weird thing because i look at the entire cell scene in louis' route and like... i'm not even mad about violet anymore #like yeah i still don't believe she was brainwashed like i'm sorry y'all only believe that because kent said something about it #not because there's all this evidence toward it in game like vi being pissed at clementine makes sense she doesn't need to be brainwashed #for it to work like her being vulnerable and easily manipulated into submission makes perfect sense especially with minerva there #it's like everyone was pissed that she attacked clementine and people needed a way to excuse it so it's not violet's fault when like... #that's literally what makes it interesting like calm down it's okay if violet is pissed and scared and behaves accordingly #also my controversial opinion of the day that i'll hide here in the tags so maybe people won't find it sksksk but #I personally find the concept of vinerva and the doomed tragedy of it more compelling than anything violentine did #like i'll defend violentine and i do believe it's an important and good ship it's just not my personal favorite #anyway but then the whole thing with lilly and minerva is so good and louis screaming FUCK YOU at minerva?? amazing love it so good #i love when the soft character who never chooses violence is so pissed off that all that anger they have boils to the surface and it's raw #like... he's SO mad he's SO furious he's SOOO UPSET like he wasn't even like this when marlon died or anything like he hit his limit #and then shooting dorian through the mouth while an accident is just well done i love it and i love his reaction of mortification #and apologizing and YET he still tries to go with clementine he's trembling and can barely string together a sentence but he wants to go #he wants to help her he wants to save aj THAT is the gut reaction he has after everything that just went down #'louis isn't loyal or good for clem because of the vote' babe tell me you don't understand any nuance of louis' character without telling m #it's fine IT'S FINE you don't have to agree and i just have to remind myself that it's fine not everyone likes louis we're okay #this drives me crazy in the best way like y'know what? i love the cells scene in louis' route all of it even the stuff i used to rant about #even the stuff that used to piss me off now i'm just like 'no wait past cj was dumb she wasn't looking at it this way aaaaaaaa' sksksks #that was my tag ted talk about the cell scene thank you

[i-spilled-my-soup]

could you draw plague!will?

i dont know what plague dude is supposed to look like or how he's supposed to work so you get biology and chemistry flashcards instead

#eyestrain #soup ask #will solace #plague will #soup art #will is this shade of blue now #no more gray green pthalo its ultramarine time baby #i owe it to nicohate for making me appreciate ultramarine blue i used to dislike it #im thinking it takes a lot of work to make a deadly virus #but what if he can just make you super susceptible by weakening ur immune system #problem is i dont know how you would do that #scary stuff ahead #talk about death and stuff #scared me so warning for me #could pull some good old biology and denature all your proteins #prions are scary he could likely manage something like that #if he can control cell tissue he could burst an artery #or cause a clot that would lodge and block blood supply to the brain resulting in a stroke #could he give someone sickle cell disease? #maybe he could just take ur platelets and no wound is gonna ever close over #interesting thought food

[elegyofthemoon]

ok i dont think this is anything related to the watchmaker and all that stuff, but i think its insane that the Family turns traitors into memory zone memes because the concept of the memory zone memes is just that they were created by the true Dreamscape and from the emotions of those within the Dreamscape

this was from the emoscape with Mr McCoy in Dewlight Pavilion, where he was ordered by the Dreammaster to turn his siblings, who were apparently selling information to the IPC about the Family, into memory zone memes, but now i'm wondering just how many people got turned into memory zone memes for being a traitor

I would have said too that maybe the Family - trying to seek out the traitor and the killer of the first Oak Family Head - framed the Watchmaker and possibly turned him into a memory zone meme as well, but the Family is trying to search for the Watchmaker so that's less likely the case. But I just love seeing how fucked up actually the Family can be AND getting more information about the Dreammaster since there really isn't much of anything

#my only thing rn is like 'WHO IS GALLAGHER REALLY' #but i genuinely have no idea alksjdfalkjh #one post i have in mind to do is a timeline of events in penacony history #but i think whats neat is that this is a generational murder case #in dewlight pavilion the 6 nightingale statues you interact with/that spin around #have descriptions that talk about the first family heads within the family #and specifically the one about the bloodhound family head who was loyal and stayed by the oak familys head #as he bled out/got killed #hold on let me see the exact wording #'when the oak family head was betrayed and left to die it was he that accompanied him in his final moments.' #i think itd be fucked up if the dreammaster decided to lock up watchmaker as clockie LAKSDJFHAL #OR LIKE. #idk i feel like itd be weird if they redid the same concept but memory wiped mikhail being misha but that also wouldnt make sense anyways #because that doesnt explain misha's grandfather who is that. #mikhail. sir. i need more information on you. i think youre neat and fun :( #soanyways ! #penacony has not shied itself of its former past #i mean it was clear when they decided to use the jail cells as the main transportation in penacony #but to basically jail 'criminals' into playing parts within their little stageplay of an amusement park #i kept saying 'this is steering towards deadman wonderland vibes' and it. it kinda is LAKSJDHFALKSJ #though. not as gory. but theres MURDER AFOOT #avil plays hsr

[governmentmandatedryujinstan420]

i can't believe i come back momentarily from the dead and it's with more cancerous memes. Two versions bc god had other plans, none which included not having both of these.

#hand jumper #juni chang #ishaan cha #where my juni enjoyers at #did i ever mention i was the qpr ishjun guy i probably should've hung that up in a sign as a warning in advance #i don't f around with these bros they're my little guys they're the scunkledoodles #they're everything and i'll actually fight you on them if i see something egregious or slanderous of them #they're my children they're my little DSM-5 case studies they're my little sillies i keep in the petri dish #whether they beat each other up or talk crap is up to sleepacross tho they my only hope #the fp got me acting up i'm on the delulu cocaina i need to be shot #shot down or shot dead pick one just PLEASE end my suffering #WHO IS THE CELL 3 MENTOR JUST END MY SUFFERING INSTEAD OF HOLDING CELL 3 CRUMBS OVER MY HEAD #AND IF ONLY JUNI IS OVERSEEING THEM OR THEY'RE GOING IN UNSUPERVISED I'LL EXPLODE #STRAIGHT UP. #SHOOT ME DOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOWN #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGHHH #sighs #i could've been simping over that one panel of sayeon like everyone else #not the mirror one or the sayjin flirting kismesis ass vacillating btw #you guys should fp just try it i swear you won't regret it #use the magical powers..... #share the burden......... #i as your personal demon that makes rounds around your head approve of this please #consider throwing some coins or 28 for even more brainrot i'm like dying in a corner and WILL die in a corner waiting for tuesday #also i have testing next week too i think hj is just cursed like that #we love to see it though

[hajihiko]

Seeing as ghost are canon in danganronpa, how do you feel about Junko ghost AUs where she haunts the remnants or first game survivors?

It is almost literally my favourite narrative take (tight behind found family / they love each other) I am SO about it you have no idea. It's the tastiest I go nuts

#I yell and think loudly about Junko physically haunting the ppl who took her body parts so much and often #Fuyuhiko sees someone right out of the corner of his eye that's supposed to be blind #Even after Nagito gets a cool robot hand sometimes it acts against his will for a second and it feels like .... #Mikan is such a whoof idk if I can even go there. But she might have it worst of all #Like while everyone is haunted they get it the worst #Maybe it's because of them that the entire island is haunted. Bc they kept her alive in a way that cant be undone #If they took in even a little bit of her cells or blood or DNA. Its irreversible and shes just There Now. #Can u imagine??? Ur on an abandoned island or a ship and you dont have the option of leaving. And there is a ghost #Everyone knows it but talking about these things gives them power you know #Maybe that's partially why even the antisocial or private people start sleeping with others in the room #You'd rather wake up to your loudly snoring friend than to a vague silhouette that *might* be someone sitting on the corner of your bed #Sorry I lose it when ppl start to talk horror I dont know what I'm writing #I have an entire fanfic in my head that I might get out sometimes about The Haunting Of Jabberwock Island

[icewindandboringhorror]

sneepy cozy....

#cats #(medical stuff mention for tags) #poasting confortable image of boye for peace and serenity and such forthe #I have little weird episodes sometimes where I get shaky (but like violently like 'would spill a drink if you were holding it beacuse #your hands are moving so much' type shaky) and weird and sick feeling but usually it passes in an hour or less. but last night I just #literally couldnt sleep I was shaking so much and my heartrate was up a ton and wouldn't go down even after like 6 hours plus super nausea #so I went to the hospital and now shall wear a heart monitor for a week. which hopefully it's just some weird drastic low blood sugar #event or something and there's nothing actually going on. ekg + ct scan for blod clots + virus panel + almost all of the blood work seems #normal so... aa....... #Though me being so privacy focused hrggh... I basically have a constantly bluetooth connected device around me #since the monitor comes with a cell phone that is constantly transmitting data to the place. which they said they'll call you #if they see anything weird which is also scary. random phone calls... but definitely better than letting an issue go unadressed lol #the phone is also not meant to be more than 10 feet away from the monitor at any time so I put on this old tactical fishing #vest thing thats like navy green with 100 pockets and im just using one of the giant pocketson the side as a phone holder #my enormous silly vest just to keep one little phone #ANYWAY... because I got up early the morning before and didn't sleep at all and spent nearly all day in waiting rooms and such #I have been awake for like 32 hours striaght. which I'm sure also does not help with an elevated heartrate lol #feeling shrimp emotions or whatever people talk about unlocking at a certain level of stress and sleep deprivation #and also no food or water. after a while they brought me like 3 saltines and some ice water but I basically also haven't eaten since 3am #last night and it's 2pm now.. #thus............ bapy............. baby boye....... he will help ease all ailments with his baby powers... #And no I dont drink energy drinks or anything with caffiene really I'm afraid of all substances on the planet essentially #My body just likes to become shaky and weird randomly even when I'm not conciously anxious about anything/have had no caffiene/etc #and I guess I'm always more nervous about getting anything heart related checked out because of my arm/shoulder/chest area injury stuff #... i literally have constant chest pain all the time. it moves around but i nearly always have some sort of pain or pressure in my chest #so when people are like 'oh well a little weird heartrate is fine but watch out if you have pain!' it's like... i always do lol.. how am I #supposed to tell the Bad Pain apart from the Always Pain when the descriptions of Bad Pain are very very similar #AAAANYway.... hrghh... i wanted to be very productive and finally post drafts and wrok on things today. but alas.. #I can at least post small image of soft boye.. though he recently got into stuff in the bathroom whilst left #alone and knocked things into the toilet.. So perhaps not an innocent and NICE boy.. but still.. a soft one .. beautfile....

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aidan "torture doesn't work but it sure is fun" jasper

#he's initially friendly w nat bc he KNOWS trust and friendship will get him answers if nat has them #when nat doesnt have those answers jaspers just like. oh well! #time to pull out your insides while you're conscious and cut of your fingers and inject cancer cells and such #the only other information nat can offer is #''what happens to a vampire if we do this?'' #in the name of science and immortality! yay! #a rental car takes a left down rake street and disappears #have i talked about the ~expanding the human energy & lifespan~ grant reuben march got his hands on #it's a mouthful! you can make it an acronym if it's too much to handle! :-) #ye they want to finetune immortality a lil so they dont end up like the garble itself

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The pushback to the term "cultural Christianity" from atheists is real odd to me because, as someone who has been an atheist since 13, only ever went to church a handful of times never with my own family (made a note never to sleep over at that friends house on a Saturday again bc I HATED church it smelled like shit, was boring, pews are uncomfortable as fuck, and the religious people I knew were all wildly misogynistic and I've never been here for being told I was less of a person for being Born Like This), and generally had no actual connection to Christianity in a meaningful way but still only knows Christian mythology, has been steeped in Christian values I had to untangle, and my religious understandings are still deeply Christian.

Like Ive never paid attention to the bible, church, Jesus, Christian teachings, or whatever but if you asked me about any religion the one I'll reliably know the most about is Christianity. I don't know why atheists are offended by being called culturally Christian because they have bad blood with the religion because like sorry bruh that doesn't mean you're less indoctrinated by Christian values if the culture you grew up in is predominantly Christian. In fact I'd say that religion being this ubiquitous in the culture regardless of anyone's consent to exactly ONE religion being shoved down our throats is reason to team up with other religious folks who ALSO don't like being constantly evangelized to by the culture at large, not a reason to throw a fit because you don't like being tied to a religion that is so ingrained into the culture that shit like "oh my god" and "Jesus Christ" are common expressions of surprise regardless of how atheist you are. Like surely I'm not the only atheist to notice the shocking amount of cultural religious shit that works it's way into my life and speech despite having not set foot in a church since I was like 10, and I can't remember the last time I was in one before that.

Idk man cultural Christianity seems like a pretty damn useful term to describe my relationship with a religion I never fully bought into and then actively rejected as a child yet still hold weird connections to and knowledge of just because Christianity is so baked into the culture I grew up in like it or not. If you want to be mad, be mad at the Christians who stole your freedom from religion from you, not usually religious minorities who discuss cultural Christianity and how it damages them too.

#winters ramblings #like breh i HATE how much christian bullshit ive had to detangle from my life. like the idea of sin and punishment for example #id say a LOOOOOT of discussion regardless of religion leans towards a Christian understanding of the pridon system #prison is basically a recreation of hell on earth where youre supposed to go to burn off your sins in your 10x10 cell #now i gotta say not all Christians buy inti the styke of punishment and sin i know normal well adjusted Christians #but for the most part a HUGE portion of shit comes with a helping of cultural Christianity. but prison is probably the best example #hell any discussion of punishment relies on a distinctly christian flavor of 'atone for your sin or be doomed forever" #repubs bitch about so called cancel culture but thats just how Christians act towards sin lmao they do it too #except they choose shit you didnt ACTIVITY make a choice about like being gay to condem you to hell. #cant be mad that twitter cancels people for small shit like a crap joke if you actively subscribe to the same belief system #and are only mad bc that logic is applied to YOU now. anyway i could do without this logic in activist spaces #or ANY spaces being doomed forever over sin is only one way to do Christianity. like damn can the ones who like #rehabilitation and justice and helping the poor at least be the ones in charge?? #regardless ive never been a Christian and barely have a meaningful connection to the religion. whuch is why i find it rather salient #that i still have this deep connection and knowledge of something i ACTIVELY REJECTED at 13 #do you know HOW MUCH i had to have been indoctrinated into this shit with as LITTLE of a connection to organized religion as i do?? #the fact i have ANY connection at all is kind if fucked honestly it shows you really REALLY do not get to choose #your religious leanings unless youre actively ANOTHER RELIGION BESIDES CHRISTIAN otherwise tough tiddy #you get to be Christian By Default and i don't like it either. but when i see jewish people talking about it #i know EXACTLY what they mean because i dont like my connection to a religion i never believed in and rejected at 13 either #i don't like that my choice to reject Christianity was stolen from me by such a ubiquitously christian culture #im not mad at jews for pointing this out im mad at christians for stealing my freedom of choice