#t; Let Me Try Again

[missgrelle]

every time i make a kuromeme i put them in a post in my drafts and i think theyve been in there long enough bc that whatsapp meme is already "old"

#also i feel like i've seen someone make that undertaker one but i also literally cannot remember so sorry if i stole someones joke #If i have stolen this joke please forgive me lets kiss instead #kuroshitsuji #black butler #grelle sutcliff #william t spears #sebastian michaelis #undertaker kuroshitsuji #must i tag all the characters. ronalds in there somewhere. good enough #ludger kuroshitsuji #sascha kuroshitsuji #One day ill actually post a fic or try my hand at fanart again but for now all i can provide are jokes. like a jester

[theinfinitedivides]

not KBS finally posting the footage from the 2011 TVXQ! comeback performance of KYHD in the Tokyo Dome right after the DB5K split like why the ever loving F*CK were they holding this hostage

#tvxq #dbsk #i was trying to figure out why watching this was making me emotional for whatever reason and then i read the comments #and everything made sense. explains why all the BIGEASTs and Cassies the camera zoomed in on were crying buckets like #sh*t a couple months ago they weren't even sure if they'd ever have this again #they really said 'let's see if they make it to 20 years and then we'll clear the vault' smh

[chinzhilla]

Let me be the first kiss in your new memory.

#the quasi shitpost showed up in the tags immediately but of course this has stayed hidden :) #so let's try again :)) #never let me go #never let me go the series #asianlgbtqdramas #thai drama #bl edit #bledit #nlmgedit #palmnueng #m: nlmg #p: palmnueng #t: gifset #* #*nlmg

[fortes-fortuna-iogurtum]

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#trying /really really hard/ not to let the overuse of terms such as 'secular' bug me here at school #but honestly I'm starting to get annoyed with it :') #ugh dear Lord I am trying SO HARD not to be argumentative and annoying and avoid my real problems in life by being snarky and unteachable #but it is HARD SOMETIMES LOL #bc I really want to argue #I really need the energy release it provides #even when I don't really care about the subject being argued about #college complaining #I think I'm using a different tag by accident every time lol #I'm trying so hard to grow up and put away childish things but I'm feeling so worn out. the problems aren't fixed. #and venting on tumblr isn't fixing it but I don't want to ask to schedule another appointment with my councilor bc I know it costs a lot #and I don't want to burden anyone here at school with my problems. that's self-seeking isn't it? and it's not fair to expect other people t #fix my problems. #I should turn to Christ alone since He should be enough for me. right? #I don't know and I hope I'm not being rude or blasphemous but I'm tired some of the depression/anxiety symptoms are showing up again #and I don't want to go back to shaking in fear and not being able to get out of bed for days in a row

[kanene-yaaay]

K e l

#I want #to write about him #so much #so. much #i want it to be a tickle fic because he deserves to be taken care and #for someone to try to make him happy just as much as he tries to make everyone around him happy #But I know me. if I start to write it will be a hurt/comfort fic w plenty of angst and plenty of comfort #let's just hope I will be able to put some tickles and giggles on it BAJBSHWGW #once again I am LOOKING at the character that is always smiling but have some *angst* deep inside #b r u h #kanene being kanene #HIM AND SUNNY HAS SUCH A GOOD DYNAMIC BUT HIM AND HERO ARE SUCH A GOOD BROS TOO I CAN'T #loud sobbing loud sobbing #t h e m #i can't take it anymore I am on the floor #i am so normal about him I swear

[befuddled-calico-whump]

I just wanna see what Vic looks like

I haven't drawn his face at all unfortunately 😅

I have commissioned @emmettverse for art of him and Sahota though! (about 12 years prior to T$$, when they first met) I'll post that here when it's complete :D

As for descriptions, he's in his late 50s, but in very good shape, with dark hair that goes about halfway to his shoulders, and a close-cropped beard, both with gray in them. He's white but fairly tan, with dark eyes, and is around 6'2

#I'll try to draw him again eventually 😅 #the first few times i tried i just *couldn't* for some reason #but maybe by now he'll let me #if he has a face claim it's pierce brosnan #t$$ ask #dragonfireridge

[deityofhearts]

ya know it’s honestly funny and weirdly comforting when my friends call me a fake gremlin or green tea bitch because like despite that they still love me and like having me around

#deity dialogue #idk like I’m the past I’ve struggled a lot with like ‘performative positivity’ where I wouldn’t ever let myself be anything other than peppy #24/7 even when it was exhausting and I wasn’t happy #and then irl I deal a lot with being treated like an idiot and infantalized and so I’ve in an attempt to make myself feel better #started to lean into it like sure make whatever assumptions you want about me I’ll find a way to benefit from you treating me like this #I’ll pretend to be an uwu sweet angel if that pleases you or whatever. #but like it’s also nice because like around my friends and loved ones I can have actual emotions other than happiness 24/7 #that being said I still talk like an elementary school teacher I cannot change this I’m sorry #that’s not fake I just talk Like That I know I use and excessive amount of exclamation points and question marks this won’t change lmao #I also like to think I’m somewhat peppy and social? sure my social skills suck ass and I’m terrified of everyone ever #but I also love to talk to people and hear from people I’m just kinda at a point where I struggle to even reach out first to most people any #more. it feels like if I try to maintain contact or reach out first that I’m overstepping and should be killed in sight lmao #so again sorry if y’all don’t hear from me much or at all it’s not anything y’all did I just struggle a lot and idk how to not T-T #I have to hope that someday it’ll get easier #rn the main thing helping is the reassurance and patience from ny beloved friends <3 I love my friends sm #the tags r all over the place sorry I’m half asleep

[braskide]

outofcharacter. happy 22nd final fantasy x anniversary!!!! ! !! !! please think about her today.

i will be revamping my guidelines and whatnot because i miss interacting with the dashboard and writing her — i have resumed writing yuna over discord with friends lately so i wanted to go look for my old mutuals, so if i found you and you’re reading this don’t forget you’re here forever.

apropos of what i just mentioned i also want to reach out with new muses, thank you for being here!! ! you can [ like ] this post and i’ll come drop her in your askbox.

#outofcharacter. #if they aren't planning a remake for the 25th year anniversary .. ... #anyways ; #seeing that i established this blog in 2013 in my old guidelines gave me a headache.. . . #what do you mean i've been in this hell for 10 years . h u h #i miss my old mutuals ! !!!! #but i'm so thankful i'm following all these new writers too !! !! #i need to make my dashboard look more alive again cause . .. #all the ones i interacted with are inactive / moved blogs.. . #if you see this and you moved blogs pl ea t he let me know.. . #anyways again !!! !! thank you for being here while i was inactive !! !!!! #i miss my wife !! ! perceive her !!! !! #i will go and drop richard siken poetry lines in your muses' askbox don't even try me. #edit ; #i recognize tunglr rp has changed a lot over the years i've been away so i will try to adjust and make mobile friendly guidelines ! #& whatnot necessary for interacting more 🌸 #just bear with me while i figure it all out again .. . ...

[fereldanwench]

Always fascinated when I see people assume Goro fans dislike River's romance because he's a cop, while simultaneously loving that Goro is a corporate shill or whatever, when literally no Goro fan I have ever interacted with dislikes River or his romance because he's a cop.

#t: wench.txt #i've written about this at length elsewhere so I'm not gonna do it again here but this just always gets under my skin #river's romance doesn't work for me for a lot of reasons #like i'm not into domestic shit with kids or having awkward family dinners with a dude i barely know #i found him very pushy when valerie was trying to let him down gently #the good cop in a corrupt system thing is actually the most interesting thing about him #but the game just kinda drops that #ugh

[levil0vesyou]

Having a post get popular enough to be independently reblogged by someone you follow but aren't mutuals with is. Wild

#yes it was the sex poll obvs #given the person is a minor i'm very glad they picked answer one lmao #like i do think minors in general are allowed to want and even have sex (with each other obvs) but when it's a minor i personally follow it #would just make me feel pretty weird lmao. like on a personal level ya feel? i mean when u reach an even closer level it becomes not weird #again like my dear friend ness (17yo) who afaik doesn't actually HAVE any sex but occasionally wants to and i support her hot girl summer. #but as stated this person barely knows i exist i just follow his blog (i used they earlier but this was incorrect but tumblr won't let me e #edit the tag 😔) and he's 16yo so seeing him talk about wanting and/or having sex would have been. uncomfortable. like obvs he'd be allowed #to because my personal discomfort is no indication of morality but you get it. like if my big little cousin (she's 15 now by god the years #don't stop coming) were to talk about sex and stuff to me or within earshot i would ummm. throw myself out the window? but like i'd still t #try to be supportive and if push comes to shove then yes i would give her condoms 😔 cuz like if a minor wants sex i will not be able to sto #stop them lmao but i can at least try and make it somewhat safe y'know #actually i remembered i have literally given a 15yo a condom before lmao she's prolly over 20 now but like as the adult dormmate it was alm #almost like a responsibility y'know like what do you want me to DO?? let her get pregnant?? anyway enough tangent lmao #btw all this is also why in the poll i included 'too young' but didn't specify an age cuz that's individual y'know. some people are p late #bloomers (i was one) while others choose to have consensual sex by 14 y'know. not something i like to think about but that doesn't mean it #won't happen ya feel. i mean what am i the american education system? lmao. so some ppl have interpreted being 17 as too young but there's #also folks like this who clearly consider 16 old enough and that's defo ppl's good right. and again i usually don't mind just the fact that #he in particular is someone i already knew made it uncomfy. but anyway yea back on topic it's very interesting in general when your post #gets big enough to independently make it to ur dash thru a non mutual lmao. love the hellsite honestly where else amirite #personal #mine #ok to rb ig #like the actual body of the post anyway. i'd be pretty uncomfy if said person saw my tags on this cuz y'know it's kind vagueing even if it' #not negative but anyway. anyway #*kinda

[sanchoyo]

well talking to my mom went well (I just told her I’m really unsure rn. Her first response was ‘oh well what’s the rush, ur not dating rn are u?’ Which. What does that have to do with gender??? It made me stop and laugh at least lmao). Also she suggested I just keep the clothes in a box or smth for a month or two so that if I change my mind abt dresses and skirts I don’t throw them out and regret it. Which was an awesome suggestion bc quite frankly I’m very emotionally attached to my clothes. A lot of the dresses are real vintage or actually worth a lot too and very unique and…a part of me wants to try and rework them and sew them into either shirts or pants bc they’d fuck severely but 1. I don’t have a sewing machine 2. I…feel weird about modifying such old clothes. It feels kind of bad…like what if I fuck them up bc lack of sewing experience!! I’ve only rly done basic mending (…and I guess that Ichigo cosplay years ago but even that didn’t turn out great bc it was my first project. aaa)

#sanchoyorambles #this post is 90% anxiety oops #also what if I am a dude. and I have to tell my dad. nightmarish #coming out to him was hard enough the first time 😭 it’s so awkwardddd #….I kind of want to look into t but I’m broke and also scared of needles #am I …a guy….?? #I don’t know. we r looking into it. 🫣 #fuck I already didn’t like my name so much so I’ve been playing w the idea of legally changing it for a year or so anyway #I….might be looking at baby names websites #fuck. fuck I just changed my art blog insta YouTube AND neocities to lynnscribbles tho!!!! the fucking work to change everything I swear #rolls around in agony #Lynn is neutral enough maybe 😭 #I knowwww doing it legally cost money tooooo 💀 can things be free for me bc I’m swag. or . #like ofc these are all hypotheticals but umm. hm #🫣……🕴️ #if…I do end up being a guy it’ll still be in a pretty fem way like let’s be real #my level of whimsy won’t change . I will be masc like ken from barbie. or like rococo dandies . etc. still pretty pastel an frilly #…so still gnc…ashsjfkckn #again I’m still not entirely sure I’m just testing things out. in the gender trying room so to speak #I AM confused a bit bc I thought I was a lesbian but really how much I love women is my only tie to lesbianism #so I might think abt that label too which feels bittersweet #I love the flag I have it on several jackets as pins and patches!!! #closest second label might just be queer but I dunno …will need to reflect #if it doesn’t fit anymore after I think on it I’ll Marie Kondo it and thank it for its time before replacing it I guess 😭

[todayisafridaynight]

Oh yeah also to be exact for stream purposes, average playtime from all 60 reviews is 10-12 hours, but total range is 8-15, double for a 100% playthrough. You do have to progress in the side content to progress in the main story (complete x missions/get x points/get to x rank type of deal), and you'll probably want to progress in the side content to level up since it's money-based and that's the fastest way to make money. I'm pretty sure the variance comes from getting sucked into the side content (probably not likely for your playstyle) or having trouble with the bosses at a lower level (they're apparently pretty hard this time).

It also looks like the Infinite Wealth demo is split into two (an adventure mode with the extra cutscenes and another one that's basically the demo we've seen around). Adventure mode Allegedly doesn't have proper saves at the time of writing (this was an annoyance for one reviewer so I assume it's long enough to warrant that), so it's worth taking that into account too. Anyway that's about it lol don't quote me on any of this because my brain just shut off after a certain point <3

OK BET TYSM CHAMP YOURE A LIFESAVER soooooo doing Quick Maths in my brain i might divide the stream up in two if i start playing at 4:30PM and i plan to marathon it.

ill take a break 3:45 - 5:45 saturday morning since that's a part of my regular routine and ill feel weird if i dip on it. I Dont Need Sleep but god forbid i skip out on all That apparently. plus it's a good break period to get exercise in and move around LMAO

going from 4:30PM -> 3:45AM's like.....10~11 hours... so that's about halfway through the game if i get entranced by side content... if we do somehow finish it all in one shot then we can just do the IW stuff after my routine.. epic.. it prob wont be any longer than an hour if that so stream- AUSPICIOUSLY THINKING- should wrap up around 7~9AM saturday.

#snap chats #and then when its all done ill take the longest nap of my life afterwards LMAOOOOO #jk. ill prob sleep for like. a minute. imagine if i did art stream later LMAOOO NONONO maybe sunday.. if im really ill bout it.. #some are wondering Snap Are You Physically Capable Of Doing Thaat and to that i say Yes. Yes I Am. #i didnt grind out buzzsaw mill raids on gaiaonline over night for nothing.. im a Gamer in my soul... a bad one but a gamer nonetheless.. #i did it for ishin i can def do it for gaiden- esp if theres an audience and i have people to chat with #also the Break Time will be a great cut off point for recording so people who can't/don't want to show up for the stream can watch it #see it's all going according to plan..... it's all going swimmingly..... #i like how generous im being with my gaiden time. girl we know im gonna suck and take longer LMAOOO WE AINT DOIN IT IN 8 HOURS #maybe ill 100% gaiden off stream or somn if the side stuff really ropes me in #also im late as balls answering this OOPS my friends came by the dining hall and we all chatted. and apparently im going to aldis tomorrow #DONT KNOW HOW THAT HAPPENED but i needed something from the store #just one thing thats it.... i thought of buying snacks and the sort for gaiden but i aint gon subject people t me eating on stream #ill just go with my wack meal prep idea from before LMAO #anyway SIXTY REVIEWS THATS HEINOUS godspeed brother... thank you for your hard word ill do my best to make your work not go in vain #idk HOW but. i'll try not to be lame and low energy during stream I GUESS THATS ALL I CAN DO #boo about Money Aspect returning BUT ILL BE OPTIMISTIC. i wont let that sour me until i see it #i wonder how long the IW demo will be- what it'll HAVE if people are upset about the lack of saves #again i dont think it'll be terrible long- an hour is my min so id be surprised if it reaches two hours #it'd be epic if i could do all of gaiden before my routine since then i can cleanly divide the stream but we'll see

[beauty-grace-outer-space]

Didn't even make it til 10AM without sobbing at my desk this time.

#overachiever to the max #less than an hour at work? Time to SOB! #I fucked up an interaction with my doctor cuz they can't read and I can't pretend to be a sane normal human for two seconds #so I said #Hey the anti anxiety med you prescribed works really well and I do still have several left #but I don't want to be anxious about #like rationing them for fear that I won't get more so can we set it up as a recurring prescription like we had discussed? #and she said “I'm so glad it's working well for you! Happy holidays!” #so I said “Thank you. So if I need a refill do I call or?” #and she said “You can always call our office!” #so I called the office to clarify and immediately burst into tears because I am a disaster who hasn't stopped crying for three days #and they were like “do you... want a refill?” and I blubbered something about just needing to know that I CAN get a refill if/when I need t #so they are going to “Check with the doctor and let me know” #which means that she's going to find out I'm crazy #which probably means she won't give me these again #which means I have 12 to make last for the rest of time because I'm a fucking idiot and broke one trying to half it and it just shattered #because I can't even take pills correctly apparently #also found out yesterday I don't even take BATHS correctly like #jesus christ #can I please for the love of god have one single aspect of my life where I do something right #and am not just a fucked up disaster mess

[icharchivist]

Chikage’s 3rd flair (the usual fanservice minichat one) has him talk about how the Spring troupe is trying to get information out of him, and yet that way he learns more about them and he enjoys getting to know more abut them, and then he turns to Izumi like “do you want to hear more about me? okay. lean me your ear” and then he gets EXTREMELY CLOSE TO THE CAMERA TO REALLY TRANSLATE THAT HE IS WHISPERING DIRECTLY TO HER EAR

and it’s to say how he prefers to eat his curry. he’s CLOWNING ME.

and then he ends up being all teasy because :) yeah it’s still learning about me! and it’s implied Izumi gets pouty because he replies something that a friend of mine translated "Well, there's no need to know in hurry. We'll be getting along for a long time, right?” but google translate translated the “getting along” part as “we’ll be in a long relationship after all”

and i’m

i’m having a moment. 

#i usually kinda skip those and don't try to read them #bc my understanding of Japanese is really on the basis so far #but i skip them by tapping on the screen bc it's faster than reaching for the button skip #and SO SEEING HIM GET THIS CLOSE JUMPSCARED THE HELL OUT OF ME #so i tried to read through the rest and looked at a translator and then asked a friend who is fluent to help me make sure i got it right #and i got quickly the whole 'let me tell you a secret' *invades your personal space* *says something relatively silly* #LIKE it's STILL SOMETHING ABOTU HIM and it's sweet but it was clearly not what people were fishing for and he knows it!! #and I KNEW. I KNEEEEW HE WAS DOING THAT #im. weeps and holds my head into my hands in despair. #it has no right working on me so well i hate it #and once again with his 'we'll have a long relationship so it's fine you'll get to know more in that time' #it adds so much to the fact one of his way to flirt is so much so constantly proposing or acting like they're engaged #and then going 'i'm joking though. or am i. :).' #like geez talk about commitment #and i'm not going to derail myself thinking about man. commitment for a man who had to always be on the move and everything. #like. bites fist. #but yeah anyway i was in public when i was going through this and i almost fucking cried on the spot #and i felt myself turning red like a complete idiot #so fuck this fuck this fuck t- #ichablogging a3jpn

[theinfinitedivides]

i just had to deep clean for around three hours without music bc my cord for my headphones is too short and the Bluetooth connection ran out of battery. i am not God's strongest soldier i don't need my thoughts on 150% volume like this

#and then people kept coming in and talking to me? like hello hi yes i am very obviously cleaning no mother i do not want to hear #about what bullsh*t the Republicans are up to now i am trying to stay sane by singing HARD at 2x speed in my head and it is only #partially working #sufferings. trials and tribulations. temptations even #dear God let this never happen again rip

[mossy-covered-bones]

“Shes here to pick up testosterone”

“It’s typically prescribed to men”

IM TRANSGENDER WHATS NOT CLICKING HERE

#like youd think thered be a second of hesitation when you see what im here for before you she/her me #considering im masc presenting and HERE FOR T #sev rambles #but the second pharmacist was so much nicer to me and let me know they had to get some stuff from my insurance provider first #so ive gotta wait a few more days. ill probably try again next friday to see how thats goin