#suddenly im anxious

[jventureart]

i just love them

#cuteness aggression is real #i just want to squish them lovingly #kakagai #gaikaka #kkg #maito gai #might guy #hatake kakashi #kakashi hatake #thanks for looking friends #naruto #nart #jvart #naruto fanart #idk why im suddenly so anxious to post art lmao #but im being brave & posting now :) #ive been holding onto these for like 2 months #i threw in the colored carrying one yesterday tho #and then naturally i fiddled with the other ones lmao

[promptsforyourwhumpfic]

Got my bachelors degree today. 

I struggled with pretty severe anxiety throughout university, but I managed to pull through. 

So for those of you who may be in the same boat as I was: being handed your certificate is worth it. Even when you want to quit/feel like you’re not good enough... your graduation is your chance to prove yourself wrong and show your resilience. 

Today I managed to prove past me wrong, and prove to my current self that I can make it. 

Because once that certificate is in your hands, all the bad times are left behind, and all of the good are carried with you. 

Better times are ahead. Stick it out, at least for a little while.

(And if you can’t: regardless of the reason I have a huge amount of respect for you for giving it a go. As they say: you don’t know until you try, and there is a world of opportunity despite the doom and gloom)

#sorry for suddenly getting deep lol #i'm just having some feelings #also this isn't me bragging #genuinely im just one of many that have graduated #and despite my pride I'm still anxious

[pseudophan]

i'm supposed to go out to eat at a restaurant two days in a row and i'm so scared dnp are gonna upload early because i WILL be a little bitch baby about it

#it's my granddad's 80th bday today and my mum was like you can stay home if u want LMAO #bless her. i get too much leeway for my dnp insanity #the hack is to want to kill urself btw suddenly everything else is fine #but ugh i'll go i want to i just don't want dnp to surprise with an early video #fully bringing my laptop though im too anxious not to #and then tomorrow im going out with Old Colleagues #from my brief job era #but it shouldddd be fine like im gonna go home as early as i can

[ttaibhse]

i feel like i do generally pretty well at seeming normal and functional on the surface so people maybe like don't believe me that i find certain things as difficult as i do find them. or i might be just making this up in my mind out of paranoia lol. or i may also be overestimating how normal i appear and maybe i do actually come off like a complete freak

#i just feel like i coast most of the time so then if something does come up that i can't handle people think i'm exaggerating or lying #btw i dont know who i mean by 'people' in this scenario #the general amorphous concept of people #but i feel like i seem normal enough most of the time that if i then suddenly pull out like 'i cant cope with this its making me too anxiou #it seems like it comes out of left field #BECAUSE it seems that way to me in my own perception of myself lol #i'm people.... i'm the people im referring to all along...

[starstaiined]

i live to spread the jackienat agenda, you don't even understand the amount of backstory and headcanons i envision for them

#listen listen listen the unexpected close duo no one fucking understands #nat has seen jackie at her worst. she's seen jackie at points even shauna hasn't #she's seen Pathetic JackieTM (the genuine honest anxious kid overburdened by expectations that almost never comes out) #and her bleeding heart suddenly Understands a hell of a lot more about jackie taylor #she looks out for jackie. more than that she never spills those secrets. she knows how much image means to jackie #and that's the kind of kindness and solidarity that lets jackie breathe easy. and opens the door to mutual vulnerability #i have the whole scene in my head for the first time and how it unfolds from there #which is why when the wilderness comes it wretches them apart so violently #suddenly shit is different #jackie is so worried and focused on shauna she burns the only other bridge she has #nat being the one to put jackies nonws to rest #im in ruins #wails #yellowjackets #jackie taylor #natalie scatorccio #jackienat

[paralien]

The worst thing in the entire world isn't waiting for a planned Talk™; It's having waited for A Talk™ for days and then less than 24hrs before it, the person who planned it asks if you can do a rain check and take it another day

#Im going to tear my skin off. #I'd put away all of tmrw to having my heart (most likely) shattered and now its been delayed to tuesday so now i have to just #pretend monday is a normal day and not the day i thought i was going to (figuratively) die #Feel kind of bad for only replying to all of his texts w just. one liners. no emojis. but im just. so emotionally tired #hes been ignoring me for 2 months. and now he suddenly wants to have a talk and i bet i already know what hes going to say #which isnt going to be “hey ive been worse than awful” which he has been #but instead he'll most likely just say hey sorry i need to work on myswlf and also im moving away and like #i swear i wasnt ignoring you bc i thought abt u while we didnt see eachother for 2 months #and then completely ignore the elepahnt in the room which is that he cant just say. hey im not ready for a relationship. but then: #flirt with me. kiss me. constantly cuddle w me. initiate sex. and then ignore me for 2 whole months and pretend any of that was ok or normal #im just. tired and anxious and feeling so pessimistic. like theres no way up from here

[alligaytorswamp]

spine issues

#consider this pt 3 to my handy dandy saga #i was supposed to go to a doc on wednesday but somehow suddenly there was a whole doc available today in a different place #anyways i got all to anxious about this whole thing so now i dont remember half if it #the doc was goofy.. but at my expense... which sucked.. :) #anyways he said it's my spine .. neck.. neck part of spine idk #and it's oh so typical and normal and not so bad in my case #got scans of my bones yeaaaa #a woman at the reception was a total hs bully trope girliepop that did not make mood better #i lost a lil thing that closes my piercing bc i had to take everything i got off my ears for the scan and naturally my hands were shaking #and now im home and i have no idea if im making any sense #conclusion: my spine is not very good. gotta receive the scans. he gonna look at them. prolly bully me AGAIN #(did not feel good in my overly anxious state) #and then um.. i think the point is just to exercise and shit #yippie i am not dying like my brain was assuming this entire time <3 #i am just bad at sitting and also spend too much time at my puter (boo!!!) #adry.txt

[skrunksthatwunk]

just put my snake in his newly refurbished enclosure and he's doing laps <333

#i love him sm #he's the one i have anxious pet neglect dreams about and im just glad i finally put his new shit in #lotsa thick aspen to dig in and a bigger water bowl bc hes a grown man and a new hide etc etc #my beautiful beautiful boyyyyy #well the anxious pet neglect dreams aren't About him so much as they started when i got him #they usually involve me suddenly getting like 8 new pets that i dont have the spoons or knowledge for so im always letting them down #not my favorite experiences not my most pleasant dreams #but he's zoomin!!!! hes been pretty stationary lately and i think some of thats him getting older but i think the new stuff'll help make him #more comfy regardless #plus the water bowl's big enough that he can soak in it now if he wants :3 #he'll probably go back to just kinda sittin soon bc he's getting near a shed #poor guy cant see all that well rn and thats never a fun time to take him outta the tank. i feel bad :( #ooh he's up in the hammock hehe #thats the last thing he hasnt checked out yry #he likes that thing but its suction cups arent great #omg hes so sillyyyyy hehehhehe #baby man. baby. boyo

[sugarcarnation]

nothing makes me quite as nervous as having to go to a place i’ve never been to

#not even in an im anxious because it’s a new place/situation/whatever kinda way #like that also happens #but way worse is suddenly being convinced you’ll never even find it and you’ll just get lost #and probably everyone else is watching you fail at finding the entrance #having a normal one 👍

[ghosts-of-love]

not to be mentally ill but today when i went for a walk in a nature reserve i was climbing a hill and it was cold but so so sunny and everything looked beautiful and i saw so many cool things and i stood there and was like damn what's this feeling in my chest and why am i smiling so much?? my guy,, it's called fucking happiness. i was just present and content in the moment and couldn't contain myself so kept doing the silly arm shake thing i do and grinning at everything and then was like woah what's this feeling. fuckin, happiness dude.

#think the arm shake thing might be stimming (??) i referred to it as pogging and was informed that i've been using that word incorrectly #but yeah stimming ig #the arm shakes!! we all know them... #anyway do you ever get the feeling that other people experience happiness differently to you? #idk last week i was v depressed and now ive had a couple days in a row where ive been giggling with people and ive been cuddled and kissed #and today i took myself off on a walk and i was so so happy and then as i was walking back to my car #i had the gut wrenching feeling that i needed to text my parents that i'd been outside and had a good day and saw multiple cool animals #and that i loved them. because i suddenly got really worried that i would die on the way home and no one would know i'd been really happy?? #even though id literally sent my bestie loads of photos and texts and a literal voice note while staring at a robin lol #anyway and then i was floored by the realisation that i carely deeply about whether i died or not #because i was pmsing last week and that is a terrible time for me and i end up being kind of passively suicidal ig #so to have such a big change in the space of a week was a huge shock #these tags are sooo incoherent and span so many emotions #i promise i've had a really lovely day. i just am anxious all the time and depressed sometimes #in a way that is harder to predict now my periods have stopped. #im realising this is the kind of stuff that should probably go in my diary but i've got this far with the tags that i can't be asked. #if anyone is still reading #you do not have to respond to this or like it in any way. i promise lol

[xannerz]

we had no idea one of our friends was afraid of drops and stuff for theme park rides, and after fussing about it back and forth in line, he finally agreed to join our first time on the rise of the resistance and he held my hand for like half the exp LMAO

#a canadian couple overheard him being anxious about it in line and the husband was like 'you'll be okay big guy' lmao #we were like 'wooo! :D' and then suddenly i feel him grab my hand with the most strained grin on his face #im not into sw but the ride was so cool! felt like we were riding on roombas though kept laughing about it #and we all liked it!! im so glad he decided to give it a shot #one of our other friends couldnt make it bc she's due in a few mo so we got her and the bébé matching sweaters w a mickey plush c: #xangoeswah

[guideaus]

I finished vol 1 of How Do We Relationship? And it felt kinda weird. I have a habit of comparing things I like to things I don't, and this feels like the opposite of skip and loafer to me 🤔

#personal #the premise is two ppl rushing into a relationship casually w/o thinking #one girl is very shy shes insecure timid and anxious. she suddenly puts herself into situations where she has her 'firsts' #aka drinking/being in her first gay relationship/and having sex #and the other girl has self esteem issues but is still very open concerning her actions. shes loud and jumps into things #she got w the other girl bc she thought she was hot and she gets increasingly frustrated the longer she has to wait for sex #theres a bit where the one girls friends mock the other girl calling her a pain in the ass for chickening out before sex #and im like hmmm idk abt this..! #if i had known her longer than 1 vol i feel i probably wouldve gasped lol

[ducktollers]

imma keep it real with u guys idk how im gonna stand the anxiety this semester . and i must stand it i have no choice

#grin and bear it. i am so TIRED of grinning and bearing it #actually im not grinning . im glaring to stop my eyes from watering or staring at my hands fidgeting while i bear it #university is just like. i dont belong here. i shouldnt be here. ur all so passionate abt this and i didnt even do the reading. #im too scared to make eye contact or talk . and then i get sad and insecure abt always being the odd one out. while i glare at the floor #every semester i say my name and lie and say sheher pronouns and it makes me taste bile. and i cant stop sweating. and i hate it here. #someone has to sit right next to me and suddenly my breath probably stinks. i probably stink. my skin looks so bad. my hair looks so bad. #and i stare at my lap and see my big ass thighs and im like Oh yeah im a woman. thanks i hate it. if i dont wear a binder i feel sick #if i do wear a binder i cant breathe and cant stop sweating #im tense all day. my whole body hurts. im too anxious to eat. i should bc my stomach will growl.if i eat my stomach will gurgle loud anyway. #i need to get out of here. im so close to the end. ive been dying inside for years. ive never been anything but a student. im terrified. #🙂 #u know. its like that #x

[pawsitivevibe]

gosh I'm so sick of people ready to give up on their sports dogs after a few years.

Like my best agility dog didn't give a single fuck about what I wanted or doing stuff with me until she was 8 years old. And you're ready to give up on a 3 year old dog? C'mon. These are also pretty much always the people who are just completely unwilling to TRY a different sport that maybe their dog would enjoy more. "Oh he won't do agility but he really likes swimming and retrieving but NO I DO AGILITY I won't even consider that he'd like dock diving." Or they won't even consider that they need to take a step back from whatever sport, and work on more relationship building, stress relief, confidence building, basic obedience, etc etc. Sometimes you just gotta go out and do something else for a change of pace or to learn valuable skills you can take back to the other sport. Gosh Haley became a completely different dog after I took her to rally classes at 6. She was confident, focused, less frustrated, and way less anxious. All that transferred back into the agility ring and made her a Damn Good Dog when previously she'd been barky, jumpy, easily frustrated.

It's all about the young dogs and doing it now now now. Tbh this is why I love that so many of my students are senior dogs. Don't have to deal with the stupid pressure sporty people put on their baby dogs.

#there's this one lady specifically who just will not accept any advice or training help or whatever and it's really sad because that dog #could be so good but she's ruining it #Im sorry your bc is so anxious but man does she light up when you throw rhe frisbee and suddenly not care about anyone else staring at her #HMMM maybe there's something there

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

I had a dream that it was moving day and I hadn't packed anything, my parents were in the city to help me move and I wasn't prepared at all, and it didn't inspire me to work on cleaning and packing but it did make me super anxious so. That's something.

#it was more terrifying than most of rhe nightmares ive had tbh #(in the dream) i was out relaxing at a park in the nice weather and my parents suddenly appeared and asked if i was ready to go #and i was so confused because its march and im moving in may. but in the dream it was suddenly may #so i like rushed back to my apartment and was trying to get my shit together but im super not prepared to move right now #i woke up fucking hyperventilating because i was so anxious at the thought of not being prepared to move lol #in my defense. that happened last time i moved kind of #i was moving by myself. and the day i had to move i wasnt fully packed and i had to get rid of a lot #it was an hours long endeavor and it really sucked to try and get my stuff together #that was actually such a bad dream. moving is going to suck because I'm moving with a dog a rabbit and two rats #and then all of my shit. and a lot of my sibling's shit. and then driving it eighten hours #eighteen hours with four pets and all of our stuff. and its just me and my dad for those eighteen hours. im gonna die #fuck i have to get packed. im moving in oess than two months. that time sneaks up on you #and then suddenly its moving day and you havent packed anything and its taking hours longer than expected #i think i have trauma from my last move tbh

[dekarios]

i wish elden ring music wasnt so scary

#fray.txt #im just standing here and then SUDDENLY #i remember when i first played i took the sudden increases in spook in the music as sign of enemies cuz it sounded like smth had triggered #so i was ALWAYS on edge and anxious LKSDFJSDKFDS