#stupid idiot brain being idiot

[moldy-cheese-being]

this is how i see house & Wilson's unresolved feelings

house: absolutely in love with wilson but doesn't realize it at all

wilson: either hopelessly in love with house and is painfully aware, or hopelessly in love and knows his feelings are more than platonic but refuses to examine them

#no one asked 4 this but i need it out of my brain #this might be like a general consensus but still lol #house md #gregory house #james wilson #hilson #stupid little idiots in love but being stupid little idiots

[pridemother-scribbles]

Some sketches from the year because oops I haven’t posted in months

These two dummies live in my brain rent free

#world of warcraft #kaldorei #draenei #almaeth #vaard #dumb idiots being stupid and doing things #my art #who needs context for any of these #sorry for ghosting with my art #moved house and all that been very busy and stressed #so i havent actually drawn like even a little bit at all over the past few months #hopefully that'll change because i want to get these two out of my brain #rotating around like rotisserie chickens

[kunstkombi]

Sappy ReiMobRei Marriage ... 'ficlet' (?)

Reigen & Mob "marry" in a small circle of friends and family, the one's who they trust, who accept them.

When they have their kiss, soft and tender, all the bouquets start to flourish. Every last closed bud blooms open within a few quick seconds.

Some of the guests think it's a planned stunt, there's cheers and applause. Ritsu thinks it's tacky, must've been on Reigens insistence.

But Reigen himself is confused for a moment. And when Mob reacts slightly embarrassed & apologizes and it dawns on him that it was simply his feelings overflowing, Reigen can't hold back his own either. He's so touched he doesn't even try to find an excuse for the tears. He just takes Mob's face into his hands & kisses him more & Mob puts his own on Reigen's kissing back & there's hiccuped laughs between their lips.

This just hasn't happened in years. Mob is well in his 20s by now & hasn't had issues controlling his emotions or powers in a very long time. This is a thing of their past, of all their overwhelming first times.

Well, it is the first time they marry.

And in this moment, if this is how much Mob loves him back, Reigen can sincerely believe it will also be their last.

#reimob #mobrei #mp100 #mob psycho 100 #I'm sincerely embarrassed by my feelings for them... #I've been used to 15 years of emotionally stunted psychopaths & other tragic/stupid/both gays #and even with mp100 the whole fucking premise of the show is Mob being shit at dealing with his feelings #but damn is it new that by the end of it these two idiots have actually become better at dealing with them. wow. such innovation #guess my brain takes it as a free pass to dump all the fluffy things my other ships miss onto them and turn it up to 100% fluff

[1pcii]

one piece modern au mentions zoro is bad at math or actually genuinly stupid/unintelligent 143 dead 657 injured

#like theres a difference between poking fun at him for being directionally challanged or looking at books more than reading them #or generally being more brawns than brains. and going 'dumb stupid idiot' idk #it just bothers me alot #especially making a point about him being bad at MATH??? disproven by canon but go off ig #idk maybe its just me since i personally see him as nd but it rubs me the wrong way went ppl straight up insult him #psii.txt #text #fanfic #roronoa zoro #also proabably dosnt help i relate to some of his worst traits but for largely more medical reasons. like boy they- #-talking about a 2d anime dude dont take it so personally 😭

[oysterself]

revoking everyones she/her privileges cause im getting real tired of cisgenders always calling me it and its pissing me off every time i hear it from anyone now

#meowing #literally was at the pharmacy earlier ordering a refill for my testosterone and the girl had to go ask another guy abt it or whatever and #he was like ask the patient what she wants to do its her choice (i didnt have enough refills on my prescription to get my normal amount) #like i guess youre not really wrong but take a hint dumb fuck if im ordering testosterone why would u immediately refer to me with she/her #atp it just always feels malicious like seriously can you guys not. at least ask for my prns like i dont like being asked feels like #im getting clocked but maybe break out the brain cells and stop being a fucking idiot FUCK I HATE CISGENDER PEOPLE YOU PEOPLE ARE SO STUPID

[bookishfeylin]

“Hmm,” he said, not stepping away. “What about the ringing of bluebells? Or a ribbon of sunshine? Or a garland of moonlight?” He grinned wickedly.

High Lord of Prythian indeed. High Lord of Foolery was more like it.

nothing just thinking of this cute feylin scene in TAR where feyre calls him high lord of foolery 🥰

Bro I forgot about thissssss

Let them be stupid and goofy with each other Sarah!!!

#Canon goofy!Feylin confirmed ok #Now any Oneshot I write of either of them being goofy and idiotic and having 0 brain cells I can say is 100% in character #Tamlin: *being an idiot and jumping out a window* #Feyre: *staring at a camera like she’s on the office* how did my life come to this why is he so stupid #Ask #anon #feylin #feyre x tamlin #tamlin x feyre #feyre archeron #tamlin #acotar

[running-in-the-dark]

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#nooo youtube is so evil #I've been so damn good about not watching any interviews with [name redacted cuz I still don't want to mention it] #and this goddamn stupid evil website autoplays an interview. that has nothing to do with what I was watching before!!! #fuck I don't want to keep watching but his stupid face is right there! I can't stop 😒 #he's so unbelievably irritating and I want to punch him so so bad but also he is so stupidly hot #I'm so glad he doesn't always wear his glasses because fuck I just. can't. why so cute. why. stupid stupid idiot man #literally he makes me so angry but I just. 🥵 #he should be forced to wear a paper bag over his head at all times so I don't have to listen to him #screaming crying kicking punching because I'm being forced to watch this against my will (by my own brain) #yeah yeah it's christian kane obviously we all know this #truly the most irritating person on earth. but fuck I want him. #fuuuuck no he's already said like two things that made me go aww... that's so sweet and sad though 🥺 no no no he can't pull this shit on #me I know that he sucks I don't want to like him!! I'm not going to! #but he said a sad thing about his childhood though 🥺🥺 I'm weak I want to hug him now oh NO #I hope he says something gross again soon so I can remember that he sucks 😭 #stupid idiot idiot idiot #(he really won't shut up will he. sure talks a lot. shut your mouth boy.) #(pretty mouth though. pretty pretty pretty.) #ck

[feline-evil]

I mean really nothings ever gonna beat sitting there playing guitar hero on ps2 and hearing Iron Man for the first time and turning to someone sitting on the sofa with you and thinking you're the shit for managing to sing 'i am iron man, can i suck my own dick yes i can' to the tune to make someone laugh and then failing miserably to play the song on medium difficulty. Thems were the times or days or whatever. We were so blissfully fucking stupid.

#jay talkin #i don't miss being a kid or any age under 25 rlly cuz life SUCKED and brainshit was ROUGH #but i miss the era yknow i miss being fuuuuucking stupid i miss shithead stupid boy hangouts #miss simple shit. miss being stupid enough to think i was cool for that miss the simple pleasures of being a rocks for brains dude #yes i cld revisit this headspace by just getting drunk or maybe even high but listen. IM OLD ENOUGH THAT I FEEL IT THE NEXT DAY #i dont spring back like i used to. i gotta think abt eating my veggies n staying healthy nowadays #im not gonna say ohhh i miss having no troubles other than if i cld play guitar hero bc fuck did i have troubles lmao #i was a haunted fucking kid but like. i miss being a stupid idiot goofball w other people #miss not using my brain miss hanging out n being fucking dumb. wanna do that as an adult more

[shopcat]

this might sound a bit dumb and out of no where but hmmm. how do i say this... there are a lot of posts and a general consensus about quote unquote media literacy on tumblr and how we feel about it, as well as the things that go hand in hand with all that (discussion of mischaracterisation, symbolism, analysis, etc) and i think people (generally) need to be more open about their thoughts or findings and less i don't know... harsh isn't the word but like, just less assumptive that people are inherently out to be willfully ignorant when it comes to dissecting media thematically or discussing characterisation & the narrative, esp things where the outside factor of the consumer/creator changes things drastically if you do or do not know or experience something (and therefore would have no reason to be like, somehow maliciously interpreting something). i guess?

like i get it and i absolutely understand and also hate when people seem to go out of their way to say all the wrong things and stubbornly cling onto things that are WRONG, and confronting someone's opinion and it being SO wrong that you can comfortably think of a rebuttal is ultimately very satisfying and scratches a certain itch and can lead to a lot of thoughtful discussion despite being essentially a big "get a look at THIS guy". but i do think there is a vast difference between like, a) someone masquerading behind being knowing buzzwords and being able to say the right words in the right order, b) someone who isn't familiar with certain concepts and DOESN'T know the right words to say but is happily open to learning, and c) someone using the guise of talking about "media literacy" to be ignorant, bigoted or willfully misinterpreting something in a biased way who refuses to concede if confronted or goes out of their way to pick arguments. whilst the first two aren't malicious, both could turn out to be, just like the last category tends to be rejects of the first two who dug their heels in about it.

whilst there is a DIFFERENCE if someone was being say bigoted and prejudiced with hateful intent, not being "media literate" is not actually a moral failing as much as it is made out to be in moments of sweeping generalisation, and i think punishing people for not knowing how to hold thoughtful discussion is obviously cruel and dumb and unnecessarily othering. you don't want people to learn things out of a sense of shame or guilt. i know it's not the INTENT, and i don't like, interpret even 99% of discussion about this whole thing that way, but that doesn't change that discussing people very broadly who just Don't Know something is always going to leave the 1% of a LOT of harshness thrown against someone who doesn't deserve that. even if they're the stupidest twitterina known to man or something.

media literacy itself is not inherent and it is HARD, as much as people try to pretend it isn't. personally i am someone who has always and probably always WILL struggle to understand complex themes and often do need someone else to guide me towards thinking a certain way, thinking in these ways don't come naturally to me as much as i try my best to and i often think the "wrong" thing as my natural conclusion. and every Damn time that happens i see someone going "if you didn't realise this you're a fucking idiot" like woah man 😭 calm down. i dunno i feel like people just forget that this stuff is something you have to train like a muscle, esp things like vocabulary or a more complex academic way of speaking, and to some of us that is always going to be inherently inaccessible or it's going to take twice as long for us to grasp, for whatever reason. i just wish people were more fair is all.

#🐾 #esp and i think i'm qualified to say this when it's someone who comes from a very isolated niche of online fandom or whatever. any online #community. who is used to being in that space with likeminded people and then loses their absolute shit when they're confronted with how #the average person thinks. like ohhhh my god calm down it is not that dramatic ever #as much as i like going to war about characterisation or something like that you don't need to be calling people evil and braindead and #stupid bc they didn't Politically Analyse a children's cartoon in great depth #😭😭😭 #anyway ... #i think this is in a roundabout way connected to that one post going around i reblogged #abt media literacy being taught in highschool and people just not paying attention #and i still think that's like unfair as a position to hold bc Again i DIDNT go to high school as in i did Not Attend it #the breadth of my knowledge ends after year 7 #and that's just me. like yeah some people ARE idiots and ignorant and pretend Again like their brains welded shut #but people generally are always open to learning and a lot of people very much Like thoughtful discussion about the arts #and thematic analysis of their favourite shows so they can describe why they like them properly beyond ''i just like it'' #and just really really broadly cutting them all off declaring them hopeless and indirectly declaring yourself smarter than them forever #is ultimately unhelpful. and fucking rude. if they've done or said nothing wrong at least #and even if they did think something wrong like damn that's happened to everyone please.. it happens all the time #there is just this inherent condescending way some people talk that gets on my damn nerves

[creativebrainrot]

*valley girl voice* its likee soo fucking craazyy that having CPTSD, means that I like, have it.

gaymers fucking help me im experiencing shrimptoms of my mentol smeeness

#chatter #i am violently upset that having cptsd and waking up from a. trauma nightmare (?). #primes me for being Easily Stressed and then- get this #people in hotels yell sometimes. from other rooms. and oh brother that dont help #so now im Fucking Tired. which upsets me deeply. #my brain made stupid idiot noises in my sleep adn THIS TIME FOR SOMEREASON i remember them and then peopl yell and now i need beddybye time #???????????????????????????????? #fuck off??????????????????????? theres shit i want and need to do #venting

[mummer]

wow you think making comic book movies is comparable in any way to creating fucking nuclear weapons? You must be some kinda genius of posting..

#YOU ARE SO FUCKING STUPIIIDDDDDD #terminally author obsessed readings are sooooooo fun they dont make me want to blow my brains out every day #Yeah this guy thought… Yeah… Im gonna tweet this #whyyy do you think directors are incapable of actually grappling with historical events and that they haveee to make it about their own #stupid movies. is it because you as a person have no interest in this extremely disturbing event? #because this just makes. NO sense as a reading at all (i havent seen it but come on dude lol) #dont film twitter guys get tired of being stupid idiots about everything

[blujayonthewing]

you know. it is genuinely insane that we've somehow ended up in a culture that treats the human body as inextricably tied to sex and therefore filled with sin, and also, if it's not very beautiful, unspeakably gross and a crime to inflict the sight of upon others, and then this same culture turns around and says 'okay if you wanna go swimming you gotta get pretty much naked :)'

#lookin up swimsuit refs and like. how did we collectively get so fucking weird about bodies and also land on swimsuits that look like that #like! it's no wonder people get so anxious about going to the beach!! #your body is a SIN and also-- statistically speaking-- probably also DISGUSTING TO BEHOLD. enjoy swimsuit shopping idiot #I... have a weird glitch in my brain that turns off body self consciousness if I'm swimming #which is great news because I definitely fall under 'your body is hideous and making other people see it is Bad of you' by modern standards #but a lot of people... a LOT of people. A LOT of people. feel uncomfortable about being seen in revealing and formfitting non-clothes #and no fucking wonder!! a woman in a bikini is basically naked and there's nothing that comes under scrutiny like a woman's body #we're forced into this stupid awful catch-22 of social pressures and norms that we didn't even ASK FOR #how did this HAPPEN!! it's fucking EVIL

[thisgodwontforgiveyou]

making nemesis a big stupid thang still feels lame to me

#its very marvel movie brained its like well hes not Scary if hes not Big but ur playing a third person game so the scale is lost #and it just makes him look like a big bumbling asshole #vs original nemesis being so scary bc he could be in literally any tiny ass room jill can fit in cus hes barely taller #also the fact that he gets beat up by her just doesnt work when she has to drive cars into him and shit #like i get it le epic re7 reference or wahtever but it just really really highlights how much nemesis is shitty mr x #esp when giving mr x a relaly human appearance with normal clothes made him feel more like a normal guy #despite him being a stupid idiot zombie who cant think and nemesis being like an actual normal human in there #well. a weird little bug that is as smart as human in there

[texanredrose]

There is nothing quite like reading someone butcher their language of choice and then get mad and defensive when other people don’t understand what they intended.

#I'm not reblogging the post because honestly it's so stupid it makes my brain hurt #and I am not going to help it break containment #but sometimes if a bunch of people 'hey wait' you #yeah you're the problem buddy be more clear with your wording #it's a post buddy you can qc it before you show it to people #it doesn't help the person's username is probably the most pretentious thing about the post #like nah fam you aren't the only sane one being ignored #you're an idiot who needs to learn how to communicate

[unproduciblesmackdown]

ppl will be explaining how a difference is a difference & not a Deviation from a Superior state, & people who are the ones considered Default Normal (superior) will be like "okay....to be polite....i Might say i consider Some aspects of Some people's existence mere 'difference' & not being less than me...." as like hey i'm a Benevolent god. i still actually get to consider you worse & don't have to "humor" anything that challenges my superiority. if you only want everything to fit into the norm then it will all come back to upholding the norm. thinking of people's analysis of their own realities as equally legimate as being like Obscure, Irrelevant, Superficial & then using that reasoning to justify dismissing them. same as worrying that the [Different Lessers (Others(tm))] as Everywhere = a manifestation of the awareness that, yeah, respecting them as equals Does threaten your norm which is smothering everything everywhere. ppl who need to lock in the idea of Borders around personhood like um Yes they're all delineated separate Identities outside any hierarchy & so i think it's relevant to for some reason push back against "ohh so now Everyone's queer" like why not. why couldn't they be. what if they were. what if queerness was everywhere b/c it's ideological not a cordoned off Alternative Identity that is accommodated by focusing on Love(tm) as the new border around whose existence we might begrudgingly accept at arm's length (i.e. being otherwise "normal"! just imagine swapping out the binary gender (or, deep breath, presumed Private Parts) of one partner in an exclusive romantic lifelong nuclear family marriage, & that is Gay / Trans Rights. still gross but maybe we can do it, as long as they don't talk about it or shove it in our faces or even exist for more than one encounter w/us in our lives b/c what are the odds). evergreen laughing at someone suggesting ableist logic might be embedded in language of past & present b/c it's just So little to ask for that it's irrelevant but it's also So much to ask for that of course i'm not gonna do anything more than pass it along like "this is why i don't take ableism seriously" like yeah it's the disabled randos like it's the individual cringe teens(tm) ruining [the cishets would take Gender seriously otherwise!!!] & that's why you won't think about it or do anything about it & continue being comfortable with the norm & resent that actually their Difference is Less & disability is something worse that ppl "excuse" & all these ways that people are & all these things that they do are funny & weird & inexplicable & etc & one can't possibly be cruising along perpetuating a hierarchy with a sense that you're reasonable, well meaning, kind, etc etc & thus Justified, systemic oppression definitely wants to maximize how uncomfortable & arduous it feels to everyone rather than push to make it more streamlined & rewarding to embrace, or at least accept, whatever superiority over others you're afforded

#circled around to lovelessness as a lens there. so long as one was loving. so long as one wasn't consciously malicious #really just mask off about keeping the same perspective of Superiority when conflating disability & ppl ''making excuses'' #same as like e.g. that ppl consider everything an autistic person does as being Bad / Wrong / Worse. (this includes ''unskilled''!!!) #(crushing the Social Skills(tm) framework in talking abt allistic difference in my fist) #such that they think sm1 saying Autistic!! is then something they might be unfairly Beholden to to Put Up With their Wrongness #at special times in special scenarios....rather than like in some contexts you are no more ''right'' than the other party #different groups & cultures whose Norms Standards & Expectations could render You presumed rude thoughtless pushy etc #obvious overlaps to consider re: the Norms of like english speaking as ''universal'' someone noticeably speaking it as nth language? #time to Presume their ideas & contributions are Less. if they had the good brain like you their fluency would render their linguistic #Wrongness in having a diff 1st language invisible thus irrelevant. like the ''ideal'' for disability! as the ''ideal'' for anyone Passing #in any way! queer ppl surely all want to be as proximate to cishet ideals (just as cishet ppl should!) nonwhite ppl to Ideal White #women's rights = Proving they're As Good As men. ladies you're using too many exclamation points!! be Confident be Pushier!! #but ofc nobody actually wants the Others(tm) to be Equal. they're just saying ''it's your innate Wrongness that means you Aren't'' #the ableism logic in everything. men just Are better at xyz. oh we Can abuse autists...into being as proximate to allistic as possible!! #just actually means ''oh we Can abuse autists.'' the ''correctness'' is your Difference ''intruding'' less into allistic existence #force you to be harmed & diminished all day then save your meltdowns for when you're alone & out of the way #ppl's tweets like ''when ppl say 'omg too sensitive ofc i wasn't talking abt disabled ppl!' like yeah no shit b/c you never think of #disabled ppl'' like yeah most people idk aren't making their life's agenda to stop everyone from saying Stupid #but like believe me people organically sense the Vintage R words when you get called Idiot in exactly the same spirit & purpose #i mean that's so rworded as in that's so gay!! cmon!! & it's fine if you don't say either to gay ppl or. or. [insert the office quote] #oh i don't call um 20th c disabled ppl morons it's bad taste!! but b/c i use it Figuratively in the present it's fine it's so Different #fr i can't remember like. an article w/1 matter of fact sentence from a doctor using a [now Just a childish insult!!] as Diagnostic Label #for someone's disability & it still registered like ice water in the face. presumably no ''especial'' Malice just matter of fact! #it wasn't ''idiot'' it may have been ''moron'' fr. the vintage ''factual'' r word is There plain as day #like yeah ofc the ableism gets channeled into alternate language. & then complaints abt that is like UGH CMON!!! #like idk shouldn't you be fine using the R word then too? not really sweating this issue thee most all thee time either but like #it's not sooo funny even if someone seems pressed extensively abt it. not that hard to in fact just not use all these words all the time #ppl will be throwing out their ableism w/o Any labels talking about how Weird Offputting Etc someone acts so you can Tell they're bad.... #and yeah you should think abt that. anytime. the [difference used to categorize ''other'' is Just difference] Is Everywhere All The Time #the idea it can & should be ''contained'' for especial limited specific occasions (when you're feeling Nice!) = upholding the status quo

[running-in-the-dark]

I know I've been particularly incoherent for the past few days (again), and it's so dramatic and ridiculous but it seriously feels like something is punishing me. I just want to like things a normal amount. I just want to like people and characters a normal amount.

I don't want to become so fully obsessed that literally nothing else exists and thinking about anything else feels like my brain is being stabbed with a thousand tiny knives. I don't want to need to find every piece of information I possibly can on whoever it is this time. I don't want to feel like I'm (literally) losing my mind when I see them. I don't want any of this!

I can not believe that I exist as a human being on this stupid planet just to get obsessed with people over and over and over again forever.

#like it's not. fun. it's not 'oh haha I just like this guy a lot :3' no it feels like. dying. #like I said I know it's fucking dramatic I know. but it feels SO BAD #and sometimes SO GOOD because nothing else gives my brain that feeling but god damn it most of the time it's just painful #maybe I should try drugs #probably. #maybe I should start drinking again #that made it bearable #but no that's. stupid #but my god how am I supposed to go through this again and again and again so many times in a row #I don't know how to explain how fucking devastating it is to attach yourself to. some stupid idiot (I'm sorry I don't mean that.). only to #not really care anymore after a couple months #what do you MEAN. I literally love this person with every stupid fibre of my stupid being and now he's just. some guy again?? #I don't know. how. not to do this. it's not a choice! it's not something I DO. it HAPPENS to me. #and it only doesn't happen when I'm so depressed that I want to actively die. #anyway yeah it's about John Larroquette and Dan Fielding and Jenkins and yeah I'm the fucking stupidest fucking dumbass on earth #someone hit me in the head to fix my brain please #and seriously this is not normal. it can not be normal. this is not how normal people feel about stuff. it can't be #I think this is why I don't get fandom culture. and shipping specifically. like. no I'm not. I'm not enjoying these characters. I'm not #watching this show and thinking aww these two should kiss :) #I'm. not there anymore. I don't fucking exist. all I do. is think about this person. I can't stop it. #I am not a person when I don't feel like this. I'm not even real. I'm just whoever I'm obsessed with. I say that so much but that's how it #feels! I'm not real. #so anyway when I say 'haha I'm fine' what I mean is no I'm not someone make my brain work right please #I just. see him and start crying. because it's so overwhelming. #maybe I should find a therapist and hope they speak English and show them this post :) #haha no that's ridiculous I could never mention this to a normal person #guess I'll just keep driving myself to insanity with this crap. #personal