#stupid emotional obsessive little me

[snixx]

okay new rule if I spend more than two days obsessing over someone and waiting for them to tell me what’s wrong and questioning myself over them I’m banned from reaching out to them first for the next week I need some way to stop god

#vagueposting the shit out of tumblr dot com #stupid emotional obsessive little me #I’m just going to give her indefinite space #I’m tired of doing all the work

[fruityfourgalore]

after nancy calling him bullshit and basically ghosting him, modern-day steve would have played olivia rodrigo's "enough for you" on repeat from his bedroom floor

#honestly he would have had the album on repeat as he drank so many beers #if he had neighbors they would have probably called in a wellness check #steve harrington #stranger things #joe keery #st #leave me alone i am in my feels #TRIED TO BE EVERYTHING THAT YOU LIKED #JUST FOR YOU TO SAY YOU'RE NOT THE COMPLIMENT TYPE #STUPID EMOTIONAL OBSESSIVE LITTLE ME #NOW I DONT WANT YOUR SYMPATHY I JUST WANT MYSELF BACK #DONT YOU THINK I LOVED YOU TOO MUCH TO BE DISCARDED

[speaknowworldtour]

I have it in my head that gracie abrams hasn’t announced australian tour dates yet because she’s opening for taylor here

#stupid emotional obsessive little me

[craycraybluejay]

yeah yeah you hate me I'm an evil disgusting perverted manwhore we have each other blocked everywhere blah blah but I know you still jerk off to me and I know it makes you hate yourself a bit because you don't have the strength to accept the darker parts of your desire. but you can't help yourself and I take pleasure in the knowledge.

#this pussy makes homosexual men hate themselves !! #this tdick makes you want to kill yourself !! #this wretched and desirous personality has captivated you so !! #pussy change your life like im god~ they always fall in love not my fault~ #im never pickin up when they call~ #<- song lyrics #you want to fuck me so bad it makes you act stupid !! #im genuinely not mad people are generally going to end up hating themselves too much to be chill #but i am having a wild laugh bc this mf who told me i'm a gross freak also told me that he has sex dreams about me regularly #like yeah ok faggot #watch this loser text me in like a year apologizing for being a judgy little bitch begging me to respond LMFAO #thank u next hoe !! #idk its extra liberating to not only decide to be more choosy but also to know they obsessed #how's the vanilla boyfriend taste? can he get you off 7 times in a row? does he make you feel free and hedonistic? #anyway yeah im just being mean here bc its a mood boost i would not say this shit to anyone lmao #trust me bro i am literally the last person to cross the line when i get emotional (usually excited sometimes angry or horny) #ok no im a little prone to excitedly infodumping for 8 hrs but i try not to offend people #making enemies for no reason is a terrible idea

[ghstslut]

my skills include: being soft, spending the day on the verge of tears but lacking the ability to ever cry, staying up way too late

#i am so obsessed w/ taking my little sitting on the floor mirror selfies i just think they're so cute #also love my inability to cry it's a blessing and curse #(blessing bc i literally hate crying it makes me feel so weak and stupid and gross #curse bc i have no healthy way to let out negative emotions so they get bottled up and build up until i can't deal w/ it anymore) #ANYWAY #i should seriously sleep so real gn time besties <3 #me #bi girls #cute girls #soft girls #babygirl #curvy girls #cute #baby #brat #ok to rb

[artheresy]

I have not forgotten the draft regarding "How I would write Clouds Leave No Trace", it still lingers its still there

Im still thinking about how my least favorite parts are Yanqing's characterization, The way the world around Jingliu treats her like she's normal when clearly she's not, The way there's such an effort into putting Yingxing and Dan Feng on the same level of guilt for every single thing that it makes Blade's desire for revenge feel nonsensical and out of no where when he has good reason for it, The way that they don't do more to play up the HCQ's dynamic especially in the normal areas thus making caring about their tragedy a struggle if you haven't done all the "prerequisite reading" (even tho the quest should make the players care more and want to read instead of requiring the opposite), The way that they literally mention Bailu and Blade crossed paths but never show us that scene DESPITE all of the importance placed upon Baiheng and Yingxing's friendship, Did I mention My Massive Problems with my boy Yanqing's characterization in this quest versus what we see of how he's affected both before and after it?

Oh and of course, to mention Jing Yuan not really feeling like he has as much significance being in this quest despite being apart of the HCQ and Jingliu's disciple because yet again, they especially don't do enough to develop on screen (but also not enough in the readable text too) his connections to the rest of the HCQ (which in general if you ask me, makes it a lot harder to be that sad at the moments they clearly want us to feel sad for him over the HCQ)

I could go on and on about the problems of Hyv not fully giving the audience a reason to care for the HCQ's tragedy by the way they are barely shown on screen, shoving it all in readables and character stories and relic lore. Even their legends get barely any screen time to build up to when we hear about the fall out.

Also again, not kidding about Jingliu and the world's perception around her. She is described solely in the beginning as bringing a chill to the room, but she's clearly very intimidating, if you ask me she seems very clearly unstable as well and yet when they waltz around in a populated area with no attention getting drawn to them or suspicion or anything. I also call Massive Bullshit on Bailu being like "Wow but she seems so normal and kind, there's nothing about her at all that could make me think she's marastruck 😲!!" When if you ask me, that whole scene could have been used in a much more meaningful way to make a connection between Bailu and her resemblance to Baiheng Specifically in a way I will further elaborate on in my full post about it BUT YEAH Jingliu deserved so much better with this quest, so so much better

And even just small details get me like Jingliu leaving first from Scalegorge Waterscale, then Jing Yuan, Yanqing and Ren leaving? Like if you ask me, let Jingliu leave with Jing Yuan and Yanqing like they're escorting her (idc about any "She was already turning herself in!" There are a number of reasons to be cautious, not solely of her, and keep her in their view) and then talk to and have Ren leave last.

I am still thinking about it, that post still haunts me daily, I have grown to like the quest but my problems with it are so strong and so clear that it's like AHA I CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT IT

#I have so many opinions on this quest #And a clear vision in my mind #I still don't know why it exists in its own little bubble #Why is Yanqing acting so odd in this quest but then goes right back to his normal consistent point of character regarding his failures afte #Also even with the argument of it being Jinglius biased words #Having NO mention of Dan Feng while talking about Yingxing's fate at all is wild and weird #Not even a “His stupidity and loyalty to you got him turned into a monster” kind of thing #Where it doesn't even have to be explicitly all the fault on Dan Feng but treating it like he wasn't at all involved in that transformation #It's crazy to me #But yeah uh #I bet if I wasn't obsessed with Blade and the HCQ #To the point of going through the readables and little quests with any mentions of them and their character stories #That I wouldn't be as emotional as I was during Clouds Leave No Trace because they really don't do enough to give reasons to care #The reason I cried for Blade when I played it is bc I read VotU knew what Baiheng meant to him & the ChrStr to know what they meant to him #The game should do more to tell us those kinds of things upfront if they want us to be more likely to have the reaction they seek #ALSO #NOT ENOUGH FLASHBACKS #SERIOUSLY ADD SOME MORE !!! #Even just snippets and add little lines and moments or views of the past overlaid on the prescent? #Hsr #Honkai star rail #Jingliu #Baiheng #Dan heng #Dan feng #Yanqing #Jing yuan #Yingxing #Hsr blade #high cloud quintet

[xhanisai]

I do kind of feel a bit spoilt with how the fandom pre-pandemic would share my work easily (fics getting hundreds and even thousands of notes on tumblr and on AO3 immediately and arts getting thousands of notes too). Back then, my work was so eUGH compared to the work I create now which is so much more polished and well thought out.

And now? It’s such a struggle for my art to reach even a hundred notes on this app alone and my fics take a long time to accumulate some attention on ao3. At first I thought it was because my creations have gotten WORSE lol but then I realised it’s been happening to all my friends too online.

Kinda sad tbh.

#delete later #i know that X amount of likes or notes on work doesn't necessarily mean that it's great quality #but i like seeing and knowing that people out there on the internet are enjoying what i put out #and i want more people to see what i can do if that makes sense? #my mentality is a little fucked right now because in the past i created mainly for me and i enjoyed what i did to an extent #but now i'm at that stupid stage where i hate everything i draw and get bored of my own writing and i don't like that #so validation online sort of helps with that mentality to go away #i can't keep up with internet art trends to get the attention on my work that i want that is not a realistic and healthy way of life #and i refuse to touch any salt or negativity in the ml fandom just to get the hivemind to find my work #my most popular work on ao3 is only popular because of lila karma and that makes me so mad because i write 100000x better than that LMAO #but people just wanna see a 14 yr old italian nightmare girl get expelled from school over and over again and i'm just tired af of it #as for art with twitter it's a bit of a russian roulette #you don't know what will be a banger and what won't unless you pay special attention or have a decent following or are always grinding #i don't think my art is for tumblr #i do appreciate the few people who always love and reblog it but i've always known from the start that my art isn't what would be popular #on this hellsite #oh well it is what it is #also don't worry i'm never gonna stop drawing nor am i ever gonna stop writing those two are literally my only outlets of my life #and the only way i can get emotions and feelings out of my body without exploding #and i am still madly in love with ML and will always be obsessed with it #i just miss how the prepandemic fandom would interact with my work and let me know what they thought and all the asks they sent about the #aus i created #it was a good period on this hellsite for me

[hotgirlstiles]

enough for you by olivia rodrigo..... she can't keep getting away with writing songs about stiles stilinski!!! oh my god!

#txt #i am once again so sick to my fucking tummy.... #stupid emotional obsessive little me.. oh jesjschrisg

[tidekissed]

SORRY I NEED TO COMPOSE MYSELF IM ACTUALLY VERY EMOTIONAL ABOUT THIS.

#tidepool chats #I CANNOT BELIEVE #WE R GETTING A NOTHER #THAT GAME NURTURED MY CURIOUS LITTLE MIND AND GAVE ME SO MUCH KNOWLEDGE AND FUN #growing up obsessed with the ocean and being stuck in a landlocked place #that was just. how i learned #and it soothed me greatly as well #and now. after FOURTEEN YEARS #when i'm FINALLY about to get my stupid little degree in the very thing it inspired me to study #it reemerges. #im ]. very emotional about this

[kinyeee]

There was a time in my live, when I would come across posts about how some person LOVE their idols. I thought there is no way they really love, love this person, they don't even met once and they don't about their existence. How can you love someone you don't really know personally?

Then I got into KP fandom and "met" Bible... Now I can say I do love him a lot even though we never met, I've never seen him with my own eyes. There was never any actor, idol any famous human being I could say I have a crush on. Until now.

Like what the heck. How can I feel so strong emotions towards someone I didn't met? Is this an empaths thing? Am I projecting my own fantasies about them?

Recently this feelings are messing with my head and I don't know if this is normal. I haven't felt this sort of connection with any known person I liked and was a fan of.

#i dont understand it #its stupid #but i need to understand my feelings to be able to live normally #but everytime i see this man in my instagram or here i just cant #i can say its a crush #but ugh #how is this possible #i want to meet him have a conversation #talk a little #the worst thing is that i deep down know i wont be able to do that #and why it hurts so much #i feel like an insane person that is obsessed #im stupid #maybe there are some suppressed emotions that are inside me and want the get and choose my only weak point #the stuff that is occupying my head for last few months #toughts at 4 am #ive cried and feel worse and better at the same time #i wonder if anyone read my struggles #leave 🖤 if you did

[jrwiyuri]

I like how each little group of characters had a moment this episode. All of them made me almost cry for different reasons but they were all so great’nn

#stupid snake talk #and honestly despite how like obsessed sm of the fandom is on rue/hob (and don’t get me wrong I am too) #the little scene between the fucking cousins?? that fucked me UP bro I felt SO emotional #binx & andhera’s did too but not in a ‘omg this is romantic’ way but in a ‘oMg :((( this is so NICE..’ #like love and romance slay but like.. family and friendship and whatever #IDK!! #i did love rue/hob tho fr if it wasn’t currently 1 am I would’ve screamed ^_^_^_^ #but I also!! #there’s just so much #god #i just think the cousins need to be talked about more tbh I need to reblog 50 billion posts about them just cause they are so silly and slay

[priestfrommidnightmass]

not to get emotional over an olivia rodrigo song but these lyrics are literally ripping me apart rn

#like that’s for ME!!!! #this is pairing nicely with my devastating depression abt my past lately #olivia😭😭😭 only bitch who gets me #literally stupid emotional obsessive little me

[bunny584]

OBSESSED: NANAMI

A/N: So sorry this is getting reposted. Tumblr got glitch-y and it went away. Hopefully the second read around is just as enjoyable!!

C/W: Breeding, Mature. 18+

“You’d make such a beautiful mother.”

Nanami comes up behind you, snaking his arms around your waist. He travels up your torso to cup your tender, swollen mounds spilling over his favorite tank top.

“Ken,” you whine and wince back into him.

You’re so focused on chopping vegetables, you let him grope you. No use fighting it. If you slapped his hands away they’d be back in less than a second. Magnets to your perfect frame.

You’re ovulating.

He knows it like clock work.

You become docile. With puffy, tender breasts. And so emotional. Tears flow at a harsh breeze, much less anything else. Forgetful. Flustered. You hang off of him like perfectly cooked Lamb off a bone.

You’re ovulating. His cock is hard nearly 24 hours a day when you’re supple like this.

“Oh goddamit,” the knife comes down, loud and shrill on the marble island.

Nanami bites back a grin, he knows whatever it is is inconsequential.

“What is it, my love?” His hands trail down to your stomach. Cock beating against his thigh thinking about how pretty it’ll look swollen with his seed.

You dive your face into your hands. Crystal tears flowing from your eyes through the slim spaces of your elegant fingers. Sparkling against the Diamond engagement ring. He pulls you in tighter, unashamed of his erection now digging into your back.

“I-I forgot, I forgot the stupid basil at the store and now dinner is ruined.” More sobs. You melt back into his arms. Absolutely devastated.

“Ahhh, yes. So ruined.” His gentle teasing opens the flood gates.

The Pacific Ocean flows out of you and he’s even more fond. More turned on.

“Ken!” You scold him, turn around and dive into the crook of his neck. All in one fair motion.

“I was trying to be a good fiancé. I wanted to make this perfect. And I can’t even I can’t —“

“Shhh.” Nanami lifts you onto him. You wrap your legs around his waist. Drenching his work shirt in diamond tears.

His back hits the couch, and you’ve calmed to just baby sniffles with his constant rubbing.

“Let me take care of it.” He rasps out. Not even trying to hide his strain. You nod and bring the back of your hand to your puffy eyes.

And this is why he wants to fill you with his cum. Keep you pregnant. Soft, open. Tender hearted. Your kids would be born from the purest love.

It’s a daydream that exists on cinematic repeat in his mind. How he could change the shape of your beautiful body. Round your hips. Swell your feminine torso. Fill your breasts with nourishment for the little one you create together. It makes his cock leak and twitch and lead pipe hard. At work. At the gym. While eating. When you’re like this. Like this. He feels like an animal. Insatiable. You bring out the most primal parts of him. To provide. Protect.

Procreate.

He dreams about you staying at home, nurturing your little family. Coming home to you nourishing the baby with your gorgeous, plump…

God.

He’d drop his pants and push his cock past your pretty lips at the same time. Feed you while you’re feeding the love child he put in you.

Your sugary, soft gasp tethers him to reality. Eyes fixed on his restrained dick, begging for release.

“Kento, you’re so…” your dulcet voice trails off and you palm his length through his pants.

Nanami hisses. Unashamed of the growing stain of his precum seeping through his khaki work slacks. Not the first time.

“Let me make you a mother, baby.” His voice grazes the shell of your ear and you shudder into him.

“Ken.”

So “stern” but you keep petting his dick in the way that drives him insane. “We can’t because I think I—“

“You’re ovulating.” He finishes your thought with a buck of his hips into your hand. Greedy for more touch. More warmth.

Fine, fine. You’ve already compromised with him to stop taking the birth control and track naturally. He won’t push it. Watching how your hormones ebb and flow within your body is a privilege, so he won’t push.

For now.

“Let’s get takeout, baby.”

(PART II)

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