#story ill never write

[icantforgetteddybear]

A beautiful boy once told me saying love you is just habit, to say I love you is to mean it, and I’ve never forgotten that …

#story ill never write #thing i never say #prose

[thepinkwriterr]

I've never been loved loudly and that's the problem. There's always been brevity, hesitation in the love welded for me. I give away all of me like strips of stray bark from decaying trunk in the hopes I see an ounce of return. If I gave myself two inches of my efforts divided, I'd burst open with flower and song, I think.

So please don't hold back. I have big, wide heart bursting with more love than I'd ever know what to do with. I'll love you and you'll always know. But I get so wrapped up in offering my weight threefold in gold that I don't spare any for myself. So please, don't hide your love away from me. I need it more than you realize.

-- Letter to My future husband (I'd be a fool not to love you)

#writing #story ill never write

[vhstown]

reminder that ppl who make stuff on the internet for free don't actually owe you anything at all like ... as sad as it is that ur fav comic / fanfic hasn't updated in god knows how long that person has a life 😭 can we not harass people and be compassionate and patient and understanding thanx

#like ive read fics that will never ever update again and #thats just too bad! oh well! ill live! #can we stop treating people like content machines this is not my story animated please #people have work school health + mental health issues etc etc #harrassing someone to update makes them demotivated to do exactly that... believe it or not... #and the quality of whatever it is might be worse because it is rushed #you do not simply pull the comic or fanfic out of your asscheeks you have to think unfortunately 😭 and draft and redraft and edit #and then hate it for a bit and redraft and you get the point! #try write something yourself. try finish a 200k word series. thats like a whole novel 😭 put those words to use instead of in sum1s comments #soz for the rant im meant to be doing homework erm! #vee chats #vee rants

[dovesick]

bryan the werewolf-wolf can’t keep a job. it all goes fine until the full moon, then something changes inside him. he goes into work at the pizza place, and can’t stop himself from devouring every slice. when his colleagues try to stop him, they become the new side dish loool (hexoween 7: curse of the full moon)

#anthro art #furry art #horror art #furry horror #wolf furry #werewolf furry #cw bl00d #hexoween #i wanted to write the story in the caption this time #a couple of my friends didn’t understand the comic lol #so i feel like it should be explained #it was hard to think of what to do for this prompt #also bc i’ve been ill all week yayyyy #eyestrain #it’s a corny story i know i know loool #i was never meant to write book blurbs

[freakbullet]

when deltarune first came out I bought the OST. I didn't absorb the titles that much because I was basically just listening to the whole thing on repeat. so I'd completely forgotten the name of a certain track, and when I was reminded of it the other day, it hit me like a ton of bricks.

I've never really had a home that truly felt like home, for all sorts of bad reasons. but I find comfort in fantasy, especially undertale and deltarune.

2015 was one of the worst years of my life. when it started, despite struggles with PTSD and depression and more of that ilk, I was physically healthy. when the year ended, I'd nearly died - I'd been in and out of hospitals for months while doctors tried to figure out exactly what the hell was wrong with me.

the hopelessness of learning I had an illness I'd have to live with for the rest of my life, on top of the despair I already wrestled with - it was too much. I decided the only way out was to end it all.

but then I played undertale. there's nothing I can say that would ever do that experience justice, but if you know, you know. the point is, I'm still here. despite everything, it's still me. and that's not a coincidence.

so when I saw that this one beautiful, nostalgic track that wraps me up like a warm blanket every time I hear it, that reminds me of the friends, the family, I first made in these games all those years ago, is called, "You Can Always Come Home"… man, I lost it.

Toby once said about Toriel: "Your mom loves you." maybe it's silly, but I never had a mom who loved me, until her. so thanks, Toby. it means so much more to me than you could ever know, that I can always come home to my friends and family, and my mom. who loves me.

#just getting out some feelings #i dont mean for this to sound like a sob story either. im okay dont worry #i just never talk about this and wanted to get it off my chest #ive said in the past that undertale saved my life and i wasnt being hyperbolic lol #also dw this doesnt mean i replay undertale often. i try to leave them with their happy ending #there are other ways i can go home and see them. through music or fanart or videos. or deltarune :p yknow #suicide mention #illness mention #freak speak #if i forgot to tag something triggering please let me know #also /waves at people whose asks i havent answered yet. i havent forgotten you im just low on spoons <3 #wow i had to edit this big time. #why god do i get so CRINGEY any time i try to write something serious. man i am not quitting my day job any time soon

[lost-in-time-marie]

It was a grey and overcast afternoon, as I sat outside breathing the cool, humid air, ripe with the heavy rain soon to come, and I thought to myself, there is still pain in my heart, but for the first time, I feel like I can live with it.

~K.

#lit #writing #poetry #prose #spilledink #spilled ink #excerpts from my life #spilled thoughts #excerpt from a book i'll never finish #spilled writing #excerpt from a story i'll never write #excerpt from a book i’ll never write #excerpts from my heart #excerpt from my diary #excerpts from my mind #excerpts from my writing #excerpts from my journal #excerpts #depressing shit #mental illness #mental health #toxic relationship #relationship #codependency #love #~K. #rambles #ramblings #excerpt from a book i'll never write #writers on tumblr

[xannerz]

its always surreal to me to see people praise s2 of centaurworld. s2 was so spectacularly bombastic and aimless and it ended in this awkward forgettable fizzle.

i feel like a dick saying it b/c i really do love the show lmao. or, at least half of it lmao (/stares at tnwk). gf and i've been thinking about rewatching it just to write out our thoughts on why s2 was such a poor follow-up to s1 - from the tone to the setup to all the worldbuilding the narrative had to offer in between the (far more) memorable songs of s1. idk. it's sad because cw really had the bones of a cult classic, but idek if you can call it that.

ive seen a few posts commenting on its lack of popularity, and i feel like it certainly deserves more, b/c i do feel like it's a novel idea made w/ love, but the shift btwn s1 and s2 wasnt just in the plot. there was a full-on *fracture* in the quality and direction and i'm still scratching my head over it. more than i should be, probably. but, it's just a bummer.

#centaurworld #centaurworld critical #<- a tag i never thought i'd use lol #ok EDIT: fuck it im tagging this maybe there are others who'll also see their own viewing experiences in this post too #dont mind me rambling #but i got an ask on my thoughts abt cw a long time ago (hi!! i still have it 😭) and ive been wanting to write a detailed response since. #debating tagging this since the fandom's already p small and i dont wanna bump the tag with negativity #even if it is (what i feel is) p fair criticism. but idk people are sensitive and conflate it w hate idk idk #ive seen thinly-veiled hate posts in the t*ngled the series tags and it's always bothered me. #bc you can tell op just like hates xyz character or the show entirely and its like can you just come out and say it LMFAOO #but i genuinely like cw. i so so very much do. so i get bummed out! gf and some other friends and i were so excited for s2 and #when it rolled out ep by ep we were like 'it'll get better right? right?' #also tempted to just draw more cw fanart in general bc the t t s fandom is slow and if half the people dont have each other blocked #theres simply 0 overlap in fave chars or interpretations so lmao #im going back to work i just feel sour LMAO #also adding that i think a lot of people conflate a story eliciting an emotional reaction from you = its good #but ill revisit that and all these thoughts again eventually in another post. we'll see. #and i STILL want a nwk tattoo lmao. or at least an elkie. gf and i love elk bc of this guy! the impact that he has! #xangoeswah

[chronicallydragons]

There are just so many books I want to read and shows I want to watch and stories I want to write and pictures I want to draw and crafts I want to make and treats I want to bake but I CAN’T DO IT ALL AT THE SAME TIME

#This feels like a tragedy #I’ve been trying to follow more authors on Instagram so I can learn how to market my own book and MY TBR IS NEVER GOING TO RECOVER #There are so many good books out there #and movies and TV shows #and podcasts!! #and I want to write!! #***I*** have stories to tell! #BUT THERE’S NOT ENOUGH TIME #AND I DON’T HAVE THAT MANY SPOONS #HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO CHOOSE WHICH ONE TO DO RIGHT NOW #chronic illness #disability #spoonie #chronic fatigue

[oury-boros]

anyway i think rob & david were right about jez & mark staying together out of a satisfying hatred for each other (paraphrasing: theyre living with the only person they hate more than themselves and subsisting on the knowledge that theyre not as bad as That guy). i also think they love each other its not mutually exclusive

#they live together forever in mutually assured torment :) theyre each others Ones and its terrible :) #one day ill write a thesis abt peep show and The One. im obsessed with it #never seen another show rip so whole heartedly into amatonormativity via sitcom tragedy #i dream of making something like Weddings!!! one of the short stories in my thesis is a jeeves parody that is really just me desperate to #capture the beauty of Weddings #peep show #jeremy usbourne #mark corrigan

[squuote]

oc kinda day *blasts you with oc sketches

#ocs #original character #polaris tag #scribbles #crows art #ohh polaris ily. sorry ill probably never write ur story #thinking about collector made me remember my own star based ocs hehe #still dont know if these are her final colors >_> still messing with it

[icantforgetteddybear]

I forget what it was like to be in love with your best friend until my mind betrays me with a memory of you …

#prose #story ill never write #thing i never say

[raytm]

i'm feeling a bit silly goofy like i might add gallagher

#am i joking. #you will never know. #anyways. #now that im done with the story *kisses tobias for finishing the fight for me * #i can get back to my usual posting ( ill rb some memes and write tomorrow / tonight depending on if the gym kills me ) #ooc.

[liquidstar]

a friend who'd wait :)

#im posting this very late because i was sort of weary of how it came out and ended up messing w it until it was like 4am oops. #and i have plans tmrw so... oh well! i did my best and ill put it out while i can! #and i tried to make the scene match barnard's colors lol #finn's ocs #finn's art #i know i said id do more sillay stuff with the simpler screentone only style but i had a couple more of these in me #and this is the first piece im making thats like an actual part of the story too rather than just setting stuff for fun #i wanna write something to go with it too but for now ill just sort of briefly explain the context in the tags here: #barnard has a pretty bad case of OCD and his compulsions have made it difficult to make friends in the past #he was never outright bullied or anything but people just didnt really have the patience to deal with it #he has compulsions that include stuff like walking through doors until it feels right and needing things to be perfectly aligned #which in group settings has lead to people having to wait for him to finish his rituals and join them #they might find it tolerable at first but eventually they grow impatient and hes just... not invited to stuff anymore #but juno is a newer member of the guild who ends up frequenting the same library. hes also kinda a little weird #and they dont become fast friends or anything but just sort of naturally spend time in the same place #though they never plan meetups they eventually fall into a routine. around the same time theyd just both be at the library #and read next to each other. and maybe talk a bit. and eventually they end up walking back to the guildhall together #since theyre going to the same place after all. and juno always waits for barnard outside the door #eventually barnard asks if this bothers him. juno kinda just tells him 'of course it does' without any malice or anything. just a statement #barnard is surprised and apologizes and juno says not to. but the next day juno doesnt show up at the usual time. #barnard assumes hes committed somekinda more by bringing it up. he ends up staying there late reading to get his mind off it & not ruminate #but when he leaves juno is in fact still waiting for him down the hall (see pic) having collected a bunch of books literally abt ocd #he fell asleep bc barnard stayed later than expected. and hes an eepy guy generally. and also one very bad at expressing himself #but now barnard gets that juno's 'of course it [bothers me]' had the implication of 'but its worth it' which no friend has previously done. #and from the interaction juno was also able to understand that this isn't something barnard just does for the hell of it so. he studies. #and checks a bunch of stuff out because he thinks it could help his friend too (theres ocd workbooks and such- i remember working w them) #and thats the point where they became more ''friends'' than ''pleasant library acquaintances'' #from there on they also do get into juno's problems. whole other bag of worms. but this specific scene is more about bernard from his pov #sorry about when i said briefly explain. i lied </3 #but compared to the whole sequence im picturing its brief so shhh

[forcedhesitation]

*wheeze* slowly, but surely, working on art of them all

#bg3 #myart #wip #I want to make every tav/companion pairing I have a dedicated. fancy piece. #these started with a concept for a wyll drawing that was very...storybook! inspired. #I would have been done all the linework for these two pieces by now had my weekend gone better :/ #I was violently unwell for...about a week and a half? chronic illness bullshit. had started to feel better friday of last week... #...unfortunately fate had it that the weekend ended up being particularly stressful. so the pain returned anew. #it was. somewhat better today. but still not enough for me to really be productive in my free time :( #I will try to complete the linework tomorrow if all goes well. I really would like to start colouring them! #I have delightful colour schemes chosen... #gale/illamin piece has already been sketched in a notebook. once I finish these two- I will begin lining theirs! #illamin's connects to cadence's because they're intertwined like that. but I have yet to finish planning out cadence's piece. #I've gone back and forth on who I should romance with him...the thing with any of the companions is that they are all written to be- #-immensely compatible with each other. so writing a tav FOR a specific companion is a bit hard. often the tav could fit with any of them. #hell. I'm STILL working out details of jantar and corydalis' story & characters. because I can't be normal about this. #that aside- I DO have other. finished pieces...finally. #well. I had some long before... but I didn't want to post them because I wasn't happy with them. #so I went and finished new stuff that I DO like. #4. technically 5 drawings. all horror/horror adjacent in theme. #my extremely detailed hux painting is also NEARLY done. after months upon months of work. #and I continue to slowly chip away at the big scifi themed dbd piece I've had in progress. #I really never run out of things to draw and it's a bit torturous because I never have the time or energy to draw everything...

[tired-twili]

Me trying to exist when I remeber A Plague Tale Requiem exists:

#me listening to the soundtrack bcs I love to feel in pain apperently #The Rage within????? #bro that part of the game actualy broke me??? #UG THIS GAME #i cry everyday knowing ill never write a story as devistating as that #THE MUSIC SLAPS SO HARD #BUT IT MAKES ME CRY #BCS #i miss Hugo #and amecia frrr #a plague tale #a plague tale requiem

[thebiggerbear]

Had to put down one of my fur babies yesterday. My girl. 💔 That was probably one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. Much love and compassion to those of you who have had to do the very same thing.

Honestly, this past month and a half has just been kicking the crap out of me. I know some of you are waiting for updates (ngl that chap 2 for Ghosts took every last thing I had to get it completed) or promised one shots and stories from the WIP list but right now, the truth is I'm an absolute mess. Like a crying, red-eyed, depressed mess.

So currently I'm going to be taking some time for me, implementing some major self-care while I begin to grieve and process these two losses. Thank you for your understanding. ❤️

#story updates #writing updates #personal #ill probably delete this when i come back #2024 has been a heartbreaking year #i want to be a bear and go into hibernation and never come out