#still a few days before i pull the whole plug into my bath or actuallt jusy pverdoese on pills but like

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#i can see more than ever now why my friend killed himself #and why i am responsible for his death because if i was in his life maybe i could have talked him out of it #i am responsible for someones murder and i might have to do the same to meet with him and apologize and right all the wrongs that are here #i have to die i won’t but i have to there’s no use for me for anyone besides growth so if i die i’ll be accomplishing something good #like i won’t kill muself lol. i’m lying in bed there’s #still a few days before i pull the whole plug into my bath or actuallt jusy pverdoese on pills but like #i killed a guy and that’s so cool. i’m responsible for someone’s death and i wish i would die and atone it all by being erased from this #stupid earth completely. everyone deserves not having me in their life and having me be dead and not there #everyone would do so much better if i were dead and i think that i should follow in sawyers footsteps. anyways. i’m not kmsing #i’m just going to sleep very sad and disturbed #goodnight. i hate the world but love you all as much as i hate myself and wasyhhu that was corny so just kms and whatever #whining