Sometimes I need to stop, take a step back, and ask myself, "Am I ok?" and the answer is always, "uuhh?????????"
therapy gets so repetative and exhausting. When am i gonna move on from complaining about the same problems actually get to the helping part? And how many therapists is it gonna take before I get there? I'm on number...7??? 8? 9???? and i hate that every single one of them has been like, ~most therapists go through the notes and records of the patients health conditions and past sessions with other therapists, but I don't like to do that here. I like to start clean and fresh with each patient so I can hear it from them. I have your chart and all your info here, but i just wanna hear if from you~. Because im so cool and all the other therapists suck mega penis~ Like stfu and please read my chart for the love of god i dont need to go through hours of sessions of straight miserable traumadumping every single time i get disconnected from a therapist and have to spend 5 months on the waiting list for a new one. And it's so easy to just get dropped by therapists too. I missed 2 appointments ever? gone. Therapist suddenly vanished from the establishment? We can't replace them! find a whole new place! Your new therapist sucks and just tells you to get over it? Give us a month and we'll see if we can find someone else for you. oopsies! your therapist got fired! Nothing we can do about that! Your therapist forced you into a situation that she knew would put you in danger of abuse? It was her job! FUCK. I literally get better therapy from calling 988, crisis lines, or abuse hotlines for 10 minutes and they're free. Might as well just call THEM on a weekly basis since they ACTUALLY FUCKING HELP YOU WHEN YOU ASK FOR FUCKING HELP. They give you advice, comfort, support, coping mechanisms, distractions, suggestions, resources, ideas, communities, etc etc. Seriously. Therapy, in all my years, barely ever does that shit unless you're on the brink of breakdown because "why is nothing working!?" nothing's working because it's literally nothing being put to work. They're putting nothing machines in your brain factory, and when 'NOTHING' is working, no progress gets made.
Honestly. Sometimes, I feel like maybe I'm just really unlucky with my therapists. I be spilling my soul to them and begging for help and they're just like. "Hmmm...that does seem very difficult...What do you think I can do to help you?" and i just...like..."I don't know??? im not really a mental health specialist??? Like you??????" and they fucking laugh and go, "Well, that is true...hmmmmm, let me think...you seem to be doing everything you cannnn...hmmmm" God, i never show it but tht shit pisses me off so bad. The more times i hear "What do you think i can do to help?" and "Hmmmmmmm" and overly fucking drawn out words, the more 'asshole' and ingenuine it sounds. It sounds like mockery. It sounds like they think I'm a toddler trying to figure out how to manuver their first 4 piece puzzle. They sound like when teachers say "I dunno. Can you?" when you ask if you can use the restroom. Like...Do you think I'm fucking around when I say I don't know what to do? Do you think I just ask for help for shits and giggles? Do you think, "I'm feeling suicidal" is just a quirky little catchphrase? Like, fuck. Just listen to one fucking thing I say. I pay you for this. Just fucking listen to me and hear the words coming out of my mouth and process what they actually fucking mean. I fucking have nobody else and I'm paying you to help me not fucking kill myself and you're gonna fucking sit there, eating cereal, talking about how your 'poor husband' was so shy "just like me" that he didn't make the first move on you when you first met, like this session is about comparing my socially crippling mental condition to a common case of the nerves, acting like you're my casual best friend or acting like this is me learning 2 plus fucking 2 in kindergarden math class with god damn counting blocks and you don't wanna give me too many hints that give the answer away. FUCK. OFF. No fucking wonder your other patients cuss you out. I bet they're soooo lucky to have you like you're sooo lucky that im so god damn polite and articulate. You like that im so articulate, huh? You really get what im saying? How about this next one?: QUIT YOUR JOB.
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YES! Them clowning each other in chat absolutely- Scaramouche being an asshole to everyone except player- well kinda an asshole to player but more playful-
Xiao's just going into the chat like "stfu I'm doing work and touching grass like you should be"
And Albedo's just there like I wanna take a nap- he's the one who's on at 3 AM like "I finished my experiment, can anyone listen to me talk about it?"
Childe spamming memes in chat, Zhongli is just supervising while also asking Childe to PayPal him lmao-
Chongyun is sending links to videos about spirits and stuff, Xingqiu is asking people to read a fanfic he worked on and asking Albedo to draw a cover for it-
Kaeya and Diluc are arguing the whole time, Jean is just exhausted as well, Barbara's sending links to K-Pop and J-Pop videos, Xinyan is sending links to her yputube and Spotify playlists that have rock and alternative music
For every meme Childe sends, Rosaria sends a "every day we stray further from god" meme
Signora lurks.. that's it- that's the post-
Add on what you wish lmao-
Also, an extra add on: Scaramouche doesn't use spelling or grammar for shit, he's sitting here like "u fukin dumbass stfu" and Albedo is correcting him every. Single. Time.
Like- "child stfu challenge" "Childe*"
I'M IN LOVE WITH THIS!!!!! Okay i'm gonna pack all the brain juice i have left into this. It's probably gonna be really long so imma put it under the cut. My apologies.
Ofc Scaramouche is an ass (especially when he's chatting in the Fatui Harbingers groupchat) but he can't help being a little nicer when it comes to the player... after he got to know them at least. There's so many idiots around! Better stick to him so they don't steal your last braincells!!! He'll get jealous if you don't give him enough attention. Don't point it out tho cuz he will (try to) ignore you. Also him and Albedo 'arguing' over grammar and spelling? Hell yea!! (Don't be fooled they are good friends surprisingly)
Ngl Xiao's is so good. Imagine he comes online once a blue moon and then tells everyone to touch grass lmfao. Like. Okay man glad to see you're still alive ig. He's gonna be so protective of the player once they get close <3 Bonus points if they play games with him <3
OMG YES BEDO HSHDDHH Albedo asking at ass o'clock in the morning for someone to listen :((( ofc player says yes and he's so !!!!! about it. Passionate rambling over the phone!! And it's so different from his usual calm texting :(((( cute :((( At one point he'll stop asking for his friends to listen and directly tell the player about it <3
Childe is... Well Childe. Dumb flirting, memes (also outdated ones to annoy everyone) and getting teased by friends (Kaeya and Rosaria mostly). He's charming to some (He managed to befriend Zhongli so???) and the most annoying person to others (scaramouche.) But he can be real funny so thats good at least. He will absolutely call the player at 3am to ask them if they wanna go to McDonalds with him. He doesnt care if he wakes them up. Smh.
Zhongli is one of the more... sane people in chat. He's very nice when the player first joins the chat but my god this man texts so slow ๐ฉโ๐ปHe doesnt use his thumbs to type... He does it like parents do with their pointer fingers. He uses complicated words and texts a whole ass block if asked about smth. But he's calm and friendly so it's okay <3 (lets ignore his non-existant meme knowledge tho. "What does this mean?" "Who is this?" Pls stop asking boomer it's a joke <///3) Also Ur right he asks Childe for money and somehow he gets what he wants. Every. Single. Time.
Chongyun not only sends videos, he makes them as well (thanks to Hu Tao and Xingqiu). He is just passionate and wants to educate people :((( He's so excited when people comment on his videos :((( (eventhough it was his friends with secret accounts to encourage him until he got a small following <3). He will get so excited when the player asks him stuff about spirits :)))
You're so right, Xingqiu ofc writes fanfics. He will not be ashamed to throw links to his writing in the main chat with everyone. No one can say anything about it cuz his writing is actually so so good. Him and Albedo bond over the characters in the stories cuz Bedo has to draw them. Pls read his fanfics, he will be happy about it <3 He'll let the player be one of his beta readers <3
Kaeya is another one of the flirts. He's so good at it too. He's pretty active in chat, teasing everyone and joking around. He does respect the player's boundaries tho. He'll DM them when he thinks he took the teasing too far to check in with them. Idk he's super fun to chat with and when you get close to him he calms a little? It's obvious how fond he is of the player imo. Lots of inside jokes and teasing Diluc together <3
On that note... Diluc hopes you don't get too close to Kaeya. (He needs more people on his side /hj). He's usually pretty quiet in chat and texts short answers. Player might think he doesnt like them at first but everyone else can tell he gets attached to them <3 He'll text you in the middle of the night because he's a night owl and feels so guilty if he wakes you :(( He'll appreciate the company and will get flustered when you try to take care of him <3
Jean is the mom friend. Tired, overworked, stressed. Please help her out <//3. She has work to do and also moderate the whole chat. She feels like shes surrounded by a bunch of children. Zhongli helps her a little but he usually gets side-tracked. She'll be endlessly grateful to the player if they help and she'll be sure to text them throughout the day. "Have you eaten?" "Be sure to wear a jacket, it will be cold today" etc. <3
Barbara loves to dance and sing to J-pop/K-pop as well. (Queen has taste <3) She probably has a decent amount of people following her insta, as well as a fanclub. She'll make dance tutorials for the player and always sends them new songs she likes (or thinks the player will like) <3 She's just so sweet to the player all the time.
Xinyan (aka. Barbara's bestie) will always throw song links into main chat. She makes banger music!!! So cool. She's so unapologetically herself you can't help but like her. She's not afraid to stand up for what she thinks is right. She'll make sure the others don't overwhelm you <3 And! She'll let you listen to her songs first <3
Rosaria is so savage. She bullies Childe together with Kaeya lmao. She has good memes and reaction pics for everything! She'll make sure the player doesnt get overwhelmed as well. She's just so chill and doesnt care about other peoples opinions. Girlboss <3
Signora... A lurker indeed. She's laughing to herself about how stupid everyone is and comments on it in her DMs with the player. Her comments are so funny too. She is also very savage and doesnt care about other's opinions. She likes to keep to herself or the Harbingers chat but you're an exception <3 She will spill everyones secrets to you. (how does she know that stuff? No one knows.) Girlboss #2 <3
I think thats all imma add for now. Sorry for adding on so much i couldnt help myself. You have such a huge brainโจ๐ Please do add If you can think of more!!! This is really fun!!
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Random system quotes
Cause we're bored and think they're funny
Roar, dramatically: *Sigh* I just wanna overdose on testosterone...
Jase: IM GOING TO PUT A FORK IN THE FUCKING SOCKET-
Rouge: I SWEAR-
Roar, randomly: aAaaAAAAAAAA
Jase, listening from headspace: tf
Roar: Are you an alter or not???
Tripper: *casually bends the laws of what an "npc" should be able to do but never fronts*
Tripper, laughing and baby babbling: Gabba abbaba plef
Roar: เฒฅโญโฎเฒฅ
Roar: Sun
Roar: SunNnNnnnN
Roar: sUNNN
Sunshine: What!? I'm trying to do my hair!
Roar:
Roar: I want loVeeeEe
Sunshine, stomping into the screening room: Fine, I'll give you love!
Sunshine, kissing roars face all over: There!
Roar:
Roar:
Roar: scREEEEEEEJSKAOXKFKNGKG
Arcane: So that's the new schedule-
Jase, thinking:
Arcane:
Arcane: I can hear you-
The system: *does literally anything*
Roar: aha- no
Jase: Were like Romeo and Juliet
Rouge: Were like Chucky and his body count
A little: Gay rights
The system:
Roar, drawing: (โโขแดโขโ)
Jase, suddenly at the front: bababooey
Jase: *leaves*
Roar:
Roar, Blue, or Arcane: *anything*
Jase: BruUuh
Jase, out of the blue: Youre a bitch
Roar: Thanks..?
Blue & Sun: *cleans room, takes care of body, just generally puts our life back together*
The rest of the system:
Roar: Why do you never front?
Zac: Cause fuck you
Nobody:
Literally nobody:
Sunshine: *busts down the fucking door* I finished watering the flowers (โโขแดโขโ)
Roar: I love you
Jase: *slams door in face*
Honeybee: oh hey, it's just like that one meme
Rouge: if I find out you put your hand in a bear trap again I'm leaving you
Jase: Your loss
Marshall: Why do you hate me
Jonathan: Because
Marshall: Makes sense
Roar: Strange, I don't remember making this entry on our document
Jase, tired of their shit: I wonder why
Roar: I wish they were gay...
Jase: Billie Eilish mood
???: BILLIE EILISH FICTIVE??
Roar, looking at compasses: No wonder they're expensive, they must take a lot of technical work.
Bee: Yeah, it must need a lot of redstone
Roar:
Bee: (โโขแดโขโ)
Jase: Your neurodivergence is showing
Roar, on the verge of a breakdown: STFU
Blue: If a tree falls and nobody's there to hear it-
A little: It fucking dies
Jase (talking about the Sims 4 game): I'm going to make my sim date your sim
Rouge: I'm going to install the extreme violence mod
Jase: *fronting*
Roar, with no context: I took your gender
Monster: *communicates with very threatening vibes only*
Roar: I-
Monster: Bitch
Roar: You can talk :o
Zac: I left Jonathan to take care of the group
Roar: You sure that's a good idea?
Zac: Yeah, why?
*three days later*
Johnathan: I'm starting a country and I demand independence over this part of the brain
Jase: I put my hand in a bear trap again
Sun: Who's even putting them out????
Tripper: Big big!
Roar, picking them up: Yep!
*one week later*
Tripper: Big b- ยฐ^ยฐ
Roar: ยฐ^ยฐ
Tripper: why small?
Roar, on their last bit of sanity: WHY ARE YOU SMALL? HUH?
Roar: PUT ME DOWN
Jase: Let me enjoy this, I'm no longer the shortest adult
Roar: YOUR ABOUT TO BE, ILL BITE YOU'RE FUCKING LEGS OFF
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Akatsuki Show Part 5
Kevin: Welcome baaaaccccckkkkk everyone today we are doing things different. We have decided to partner with Tobi Tea to host and fund these events. Now some of you may have heard of it and some of you may have not. But, either way it's gonna be a blast. Now as I said last time we are switching things up as in switching partners.
Kisame: I think the fuck not
Deidara: Tobi that weasel!
Sasori: I hate him
Hidan: Damn Tobi really do us like that.
Kakuzu: He's getting the money isn't he? Besides he said he'll give half to me.
Hidan: Oh how lucky for you
Kevin: If you guys look on the board you will see you and your new partner names.
Sasori: How did boss allow this
Deidara: I don't know
The board
Hidan is now with Kisame.
Deidara is now with Kakuzu
Sasori is now with Konan.
Pain is now with Itachi.
Hidan: Damn
Sasori: Hey what about Zetsu?
Kevin: He's Tobi's Co Host
Pain: That son of a bitch
Kakuzu: Never trust plants
Kevin: Now go and have fun guys.
Tobi: Yeah guys
Deidara: Don't talk to us Tobi
Tobi: :c
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At the hideout with Hidan and Kisame.
Hidan: I can't believe Tobi would do this to us!
Kisame: I mean he is succeeding shouldn't we be proud?
Hidan: No we shouldn't that ass hat practically sold us!
Kisame: Well the past is past. How about some tea and donuts?
Hidan: Your even more of a stick in the mud then Kakuzu
Kisame: Am not
Hidan: Then watch Gravity Falls with me
Kisame: Fine
After binge watching the whole ass show.
Hidan: GODDAMNIT BILL WHY DID YOU LOSE I WAS ROOTING FOR YOU! YOU LOST TO TWO DAMN KIDS AND TWO CRUSTY OLD MEN.
Kisame: If Bill didn't let his pride and his want for vengeance get in the way he might have won. When he had them he could have just as easily killed them and took whatever it was he wanted from the uncles.
Hidan: I guess your right but, damnit Bill. The bad guys always lose or turn good or some plot armor shit
Kisame: I think it was an amazing show.
Hidan: Really?
Kisame: Yes the characters were all interesting even the villains and minor ones, the buildup to the end is neat, and it kinda teaches you something about life.
Hidan: But, what gets o my damn nerves is Mabel. She says Dipper is selfish when all he has done is sacrifice for her. Like damn kid give him a break your worried about friends and he's worried about life as you know it.
Kisame: Yes she is a bit annoying. Who's your favorite chracter?
Hidan: Bill duh. He seems all nice and stuff but, before you know it it's too late. Notice what all is victims have in common? Desperation? All of them were so desperate to achieve something they would do anything to get it. He takes advantage of their weaknesses and exploits them. It's amazing he's so damn smart. And ya know what else is funny? Bill being a dream demon can only go into people's minds with the consent of people. He may be evil and shit but, without those people he wouldn't have gotten far. He brings out their flaws and weaknesses therefore they can't really blame him for it. I love him because he's such a complex character. (Not me making a whole speech on this nope)
Kisame: Wow your pretty smart to notice it too
Hidan: Heh thanks
Kisame: I get what your saying about Mabel but, she is a kid and kids are more likely to make more selfish choices then adults. But, when it come to character development she hasn't developed much like Dipper or Stanley. But, it's funny because when Bill brings it up about Dipper having to constantly having to sacrifice for Mabel that seems to be the main reason fans hate her. It's almost as if Bill is manipulating the audience watching as well.
Hidan: Woah that's some fourth wall breaking. Am I right author? Making us talk about Gravity Falls?
(I'm sorry back to the real story I just wanted to rant how good this show was)
Hidan: This wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be
Kisame: Yeah this was really fun
Hidan: Perhaps we can watch another one next later?
Kisame: Yeah
Leon walks in
Hidan yeets him out.
Kisame: Thank god
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Kevin: They seem to be doing just fine. Let's check in on Deidara and Kakuzu.
Tobi: SENNPAAAAII
Greg: Team Bill
Jorge: I don't care what anyone says Mabel hella annoying
Rianna: But, Kisame did say she was just a kid. I like the way Kisame thinks new favorite.
Sofia: Bill is amazing regardless
Jorge: But Dipper is big brain
Sofia: Not too big brain to be easily manipulated by a flying dorito. The whole damn family fell for it
Rianna: It's just human nature we are easy to manipulate.
Greg: He's a smart flying dorito
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Deidara: ....
Kakuzu: ....
Deidara: So...
Kakuzu: What do we do? Sit here all day? And say so?
Deidara: I don't know what do you and Hidan usually do?
Kakuzu: Fight each other, argue, listen to drama.
Deidara: Your nothing like Sasori other then the argue part.
Kakuzu: I'm flattered
Deidara: You got any vide games?
Kakuzu: Yeah I have a gameboy
Deidara: Damn your a boomer
Kakuzu: -_- You wanna play or not
Several hours later
Deidara: Damn your good at this
Kakuzu: I play it when Hidan isn't bothering me it's been awhile so I'm a but rusty.
Deidara: I see
Leon struts in the room.
Leon: Hello darlings I am here to ask you some questions
Deidara: Dramatic much?
Leon: Hun you shouldn't talk
Deidara: What's that suppose to mean?
Leon ignores him.
Leon: So Kakuzu how do you like the new teammate switch?
Deidara: I exist too ya know
Leon: Oh I know I just wish you didn't
Deidara: Now your asking for it
Leon: What are you going to do? Blow me up like you did yourself?
Deidara starts to get up but, Kakuzu grabs him and pulls him back.
Kakuzu: Ignore him he's just trying trying rile you up
Deidara: Well it's working
Leon: Guess your nothing without your boy toy huh?
Deidara glares at him.
Kakuzu: Stop messing with him Leon and just ask the damn questions so you can go
Leon: Alright alright. Kakuzu what kind of relationship do you have with Hidan?
Kakuzu: We are only friends
Leon: Really because you seems to always be at each others necks
Kakuzu: Just take the answer
Leon: And I'm guessing you and Sasori are only friends too Deidara?
Deidara: Yes
Leon: Hmph of course why would I even ask he wouldn't be interested in someone like you
Deidara stiffens and looks away.
Kakuzu: Leon if you want to keep your arms attached I suggest not talking to him that way
Leon stiffens but, regains his posture.
Leon: Ok time for me to take my leave.
Leon walks away as fast as fuck.
Deidara: Thanks Kakuzu
Kakuzu: No problem kid
Deidara: Ok boomer
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Kevin: Damn Leon is grinding and not in a god way
Tobi: How dare he talk to my senpai that way!
Zetsu: Next up we have Sasori and Konan
Tobi: Ew Sasori
Kevin: Damn Tobi
Tobi: Shut up Tom
Kevin: My name
Tobi: Tobi doesn't care
Jorge: I hate Leon
Rianna: For real
Greg: Damn even Rianna hates him.
Sofia: But, Kakuzu and Deidara are wholesome af
Greg: Mhm
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Sasori: I hope Deidara is ok
Konan: Don't worry Kakuzu won't let hurt him or anyone else. He doesn't want to deal with you
Sasori: He better not
Konan: Stop worrying Sasori come and sit with me
Sasori sits down.
Konan: You know this a great opportunity to get to know you better.
Sasori: Yeah defiantly
Konan: So what kind of books do you like?
Sasori: Romance, Mystery, Psychological, and Thriller
Konan: Oh Sasori I never took you as the romance type. (Please don't look at this wrong she's only being nice. Like an older sister)
Sasori blushes a little.
Konan: So do you like tea?
Sasori: Who doesn't?
Konan giggles.
They talk for awhile.
Konan: So do you have a crush?
Sasori: No what is this a sleepover?
Konan: No just me being nosy
Sasori: What do you have one?
Konan: Yes
Sasori: Is it Kakuzu?
Konan: No he's too in love with money
Sasori: Deidara?
Konan: He's yours
Sasori rolls his eyes.
Sasori: Is it Itachi?
Konan: He's handsome but, he's too attached to Kisame.
Sasori: Me?
Konan: That's cute
Sasori: Ouch. Pain?
Konan nods and laughs.
Sasori: I knew it
Konan: Yeah
Sasori: So when are you gonna tell him?
Konan: When are you gonna tell Deidara?
Sasori: Touche
Leon: Hello lovebirds
They both jump.
Leon: So we talking about crushes? Wanna know my mine Konan?
Konan: Get out
Leon: Moody much
Sasori: Didn't you just interview Deidara and Kakuzu?
Leon: Yes and your bf is mad
Sasori: What did you do?
Leon: Nothing
Konan: L e a v e
Leon: Tough crowd
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Tobi: Senpai won't see this right
Kevin: Nope
Tobi: Good because Sasori better back off Senpai is miiiinnnneee.
Kevin: Heh ok
Rianna: Sasori cute
Jorge: He's like 35
Sofia: Love is strange
Greg: Just like your taste in anime
Sofia: Stfu
Zetsu: Last but, not least we have Itachi and Pain.
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Itachi and Pain have been sitting in silence for awhile until Leon came in.
Leon: Hello there boys care if I join you?
Pain: ...
Leon: Ok so what have you two been doing?
Itachi: Minding our own business
Leon: Feisty
Pain: What questions do you have for us?
Leon: So you two are single huh? Maybe we could I don't know go out?
Itachi: No
Pain: I'd rather go out with Hidan then you
Leon: Damn that was low
Pain: You were disrespectful to Konan
Leon: Not my fault she was being a cockblock
Itachi puts him in an genjutsu.
After dah genjutsu
Leon: Fuck you both Leon
Leon stomps off.
Pain: He was annoying
Itachi: Mhm
Itachi: Don't see how anyone could be mean to Konan
Pain: Yeah she's sweet I hope she's fine with Sasori
Itachi: Tch Sasori wouldn't hurt her
Pain: Yeah your right.
Goes back to silence.
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Kevin: That was...interesting
Tobi: Leon can go suck a lemon
Zetsu: Amen
Jorge: Omg Konan is so wholesome
Sofia: Pain is ma boi
Rianna: I'm just glad Leon got what he deserved
Greg: Mhm
Kevin: And that's all folks
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Uhh warning VENT!!! Talks about self harm and shit... also religious bullshit and gender bullshit??? Like I'm really trans and also Catholicism really fucked me up so if ur uncomfy with that just... skip this post. Also if ur Christian and can't handle seeing ur shit defaced then skip this post. Also if ur gonna clown on this post as "cringe atheism" then fuck you because I'm literally coping with pain lol
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Anways now that the disclaimer is over... here comes the real shit.
I... have been going through a LOT lately, jesus christ. I was HAPPY today, yknow? I thought I was gonna be happy the whole day.
I was dancing today. That's how happy I was. For the first time in like... a whole year... I was really so happy. I thought I was gonna cry. But then I got home. And well,,,, I did cry. But not from happiness. I just got my math grade back. A fucking 49 percent. MY AVERAGE RIGHT NOW IS A 57 PERCENT. I MIGHT FAIL MATH 20. I MIGHT HAVE TO RETAKE IT. oh my god I'm such a failure I cant do anything ever i try SO fucking hard but honestly??? I cant fucking do this. I can't, I'm not mentally capable. "Just work harder"... BITCH I AM WORKING AS HARD AS I CAN. I AM SPENDING HOURS AND HOURS OF MY LIFE STUDYING AND PRACTICING. I'm starting to think that how hard i try doesn't even fucking matter because I'm STUPID and all i know how to do is PAINT SHIT!!!! NOBODY CARES ABOUT ART!!!! IF I FAIL THIS CLASS I MIGHT NOT BE ABLE TO HAVE A HOUSE IN THE FUTURE!!!! A HOUSE!!!!!
I dont even want to be a fucking orthodontist. Okay??? I wanna do what I love: painting. But NOOOO. I have to get a "respectable" job that will "pay me enough money to live". WHY SHOULD I HAVE TO MAKE MONEY TO LIVE??? WTF??? THATS LITERALLY SO FUCKED UP. everyone deserves to live (unless they like murdered someone? I guess? Idk) BUT LIKE I DIDNT KILL NO ONE SO WHATS ALL THIS BS ABOUT WORKING TO LIVE???? WTF??? I rly gotta do all this shit I hate, all this shit I'm mentally incapable of doing... so i can have a house. Fuck this. Yknow with my average at a 57... I might fail this class even if I get a really good grade on my next quiz. Can you fucking believe it??? I'm literally so fucking stupid I cant even pass a dumb fucking math class god i hate myself. I cant fail this class. I've NEVER failed a class. Almost failed... but never HAD TO RETAKE A CLASS. that's the ultimate failure. I think my parents would hate me if I failed this.
And on top of that... I'm really struggling with uhhh, dysphoria and body image... and it's so fucking horrible man I want to rip all my skin off I want to suffocate god I want to KILL him I want to MAKE HIM SUFFER. I want to gouge his eyes out and force him to eat them. WHY WOULD HE MAKE ME LIKE THIS????? WHY????? WHATS THE POINT IN MAKING A CHILD SUFFER SO MUCH???
What did I ever do that was so wrong I deserved all this punishment???
Well FUCK YOU and fuck your stupid book and FUCK THESE STUPID FUCKING SAINTS. WASNT THERE SUPPOSED TO BE A WHOLEASS ANGEL WATCHING OVER ME?? PROTECTING ME??? WHERE THE FUCK IS THAT BITCH NOW?? WHERE WAS THAT BITCH WHEN... when I was being bullied? When I literally wanted to kill myself?
Where was that guardian angel when I kept making THE SAME MISTAKE over and over again and I KNEW it was wrong but I kept doing it anyways because it was the only way I could feel like soemone cared about me????
I bet that angel motherufcker KNEW they didnt care. DID THE ANGEL EVER ONCE HELP ME??? NOOOO. all those times I was bruised and broken... all those times...
Man, I was just a kid. I was SO fucking young. And I would come like a lamb to the slaughter and kneel. I would pray... ask for guidance. I would pray the rosary too, I would read the bible and try my very best to understand it, I would go to church and volunteer at church and do my best to be a Good Boy and never sin. I did EVERYTHING right. I literally fasted at some point, like a religious fast. I was devoted...
Honestly though? I think it was the same mistake I make over and over again, except not with a real person.
And you have me NOTHING. GO GIRL, GIVE US NOTHING!!!!!!! I literally used to self-punish for the sins I couldnt bring myself to confess. At my communion, there was one sin I didn't tell because I knew it was unforgivable. I still hate myself for that. But man, I used to try and do all sorts of things to somehow cleanse myself of it. I figured THAT whole ordeal was why I was constantly being tortured.
But I was stupid and I am stupid and that makes NO SENSE because if the thing I'm being punished for happened when I was a child, WHY DID THE PUNISHMENT BEGIN AT MY BIRTH????
They used to tell me that god handcrafted every part of me specifically for some sort of grand reason.
Why.
Really? This bitch really "handcrafted" me just so I could cry and cut myself nearly every night??? Fuck that. Like why would you make me this way. It hurts more than you can IMAGINE. The only reason I'm not dead yet is because of ME, MY strength, not any of the bullshit YOU gave me. I hate when people say "oh, god made u so hardworking" or "oh, god made you so passionate/hopeful/full of love/fiery/whatever" LIKE STFU BITCH THAT WAS NOT SKYDADDY THAT WAS ME!!!
you wanna know what he made me?
dysphoric, ugly af, yeah.... but the worst part?
He made me feel.
That doesn't sound bad, right? Well it's the worst thing on the list. It is my downfall, my Achilles heel or whatever. This emotions shit??? It RUINED my life. My whole life I was cursed with a fucking monster inside me. I kept trying to tell everyone that it wasnt me!!! I kept telling them that it felt like I was being possessed. But adults are SHIT. I hate adults. I want to kill them all. They failed me and their god failed me. None of them every listened to me. All they knew how to do was punish, punish, punish.
It's like giving an allergic kid some peanuts and then getting angry at them for going into anaphylactic shock or whatever. Nobody ever thought "hey, why don't we stop giving the kid peanuts?"
ALL THE ADULTS AROUND ME ACT LIKE CHILDREN AND THEY ALWAYS HAVE ACTED LIKE CHILDREN FUCK ADULTS
Anwyays that's how I ended up with all these unresolved issues,.... emotion is a tough one, like I literally dont have the ability to control my emotions at all, I can try and like, repress them but I cant make myself actually feel less.
My emotion hurts more than anyone else's and nobody ever understood that. I would tell them that it hurts, it PHYSICALLY HURTS, and they would say I just wanted attention. I would tell them I literally couldnt control what my body said and did, I would tell them I felt like A PUPPET ON STRINGS and no one believed me. Fuck them.
Healthy coping mechanisms? I literally self ship with Snape to cope. I literally self ship with characters my brain made up and put in my dreams to cope. I used to hurt myself so much trying to feel loved and cared about irl. Fiction is so much better. I sound like a loser but its TRUE. The sort of thing I need, the sort of love I need is like... a parent. You can't go looking for a parent in a romantic partner, it fucks everything up and you end up... well, let's just say it proabbly wasnt the most legal thing, but I wasnt thinking strisght at all I mean dude I was So fucked in my head when I did all that...whatever...anyways so thank u for fiction!!! I love fiction. Want to kill someone? Draw it. Then you'll feel much better!!! And you dont go to jail!!!
Well the pics here... idk, it was really calming to do this. It's new, painting over religious shit. I was gonna do the whole bible but I already burnt that shit so.... and I was going to cut but I'm trying really hard to stay clean... like really hard. It's so weird and like, addicting, once I hit styro I don't want to stop, but also it kinda transfers the emotional pain to physical pain, making it way easier to deal with. I just can't keep doing that because I KNOW it's bad and look I thoguht I was clean for a whole year but then I fucked up and WOW, GUESS WHAT MADE ME RELAPSE??? MATH CLASS!!!!
Whatever anyways here are my wonderful works of art I made while crying and cursing god (like I'm so pissed at all this catholic bs I believed in him again just to swear at him lol)
.... but imagine for a moment, a better world. One in whcih these saints whose images I've defaced are actually good people... a world in which they SEE ME AND THEY HEAR ME... and I go unpunished.... and I am embraced by someone who UNDERSTANDS.
I think I would cry.
Too bad that world doesnt exist and I just made it up to try and feel a bit better. Whatever, whatever. I painted the things, they're gonna dry. I work hard, I'm gonna do good on my quiz, I hope. I just have to be making it through, that's all it is, work work work without a break but I can proabbly do it. I'm really slipping I admit like the mental health is slipping it's getting worse like I havent had a "fuck I am afab" moment in such a long time so yeah...
Anwyays I feel so much better now that I did my little art project yknow???
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hEY BABY
im back at it again with
JJBA (VA) Purge AU (3)
yeeee this is the one abt the relationship scenarios ;)))
part 1 | part 2
i highly recommend checking out the previous parts first, if not this might be kinda hard to follow
between me and my 1.5 braincells we're trying really hard y'all so pls go easy on us show some support ;_;
OKAY
(oh yea a heads-up no ships are decided yet so treat all these relationship scenarios as hcs (yea imma make AUs inside an AU lmfao))
tw: (1 mention of) homophobia, referenced past abuse, bullying (??)
1. fugio
the first scenario that popped into my head is that Fugo and Giorno go to the same university (for some reason Gio's parents can afford to send him there, idk he probably got financial aid or sth, and then after he killed them (๐ณ awkwardddd) he's probably using their life insurance in fear of it running out). and Fugo doesn't really care for Gio bc he's a rich boye and he has his qualityโข๏ธ elite friend circle so why bother himself w a nobody. but in reality all of Fugo's friends are either only on a social level (u know those ppl who you're friends w but u won't necessarily have deep convos w them or choose to hang out w them n stuff), or they're fake and only hang out w him bc of his wealth & status, or bc their rich parents are friends. plus (im referring to the anime backstory here), after the scandal w that professor who sexually harassed him, many ppl secretly hate him and talk shit abt him behind his back due to homophobia.
but anyway, Fugo's plotting against all those biches :) so where does Giorno come in? Gio, being this innocent poor boy who doesn't have a home to go back to, lives on dorm. and let's just say Fugo does too bc he doesn't have the best relationship w his demanding parents, so he was overjoyed when he finally talked them into letting him move from home into the dorms instead. (side note he prolly doesn't Purge his parents bc he needs their money.) so Gio and Fugo know of each other, but not acquaintances or anything.
and then
one day when Fugo's either
running into trouble with some authority figure at school again
just minding his own business and planning his Purge targets
Gio walks in on him, and he's either like
"omg Fugo r u ok do u need help what happened"
"omg Fugo idk what happened between u and ur targets but Purging ain't good, pls reconsider"
and Fugo, having the short-ass fuse that he does (plus probably having his pride wounded and just general mistrust of the ppl around him spurring him on):
"stfu u know nothing about me, but now you've seen this i guess it wouldn't hurt to kill you too"
"stfu u know nothing about me, ur probably one of those happy asshats that have no need for Purges, reconsider?? haha the only thing i'll reconsider is if i'll add u to my kill list" (bc if Gio reports him or sth, Fugo & his fam can get into trouble, since his targets are probably rich and/or influential ppl, but it isn't Purge time yet, so it can be considered malicious intent and/or attempted murder i guess, and so anyone who has any beef w the Fugo fam can bring them down) (i know nothing abt law don't come for me)
and then Gio is like "fuck dis shit im out" and he skrts tf out of there, but sadly Fugo ain't lying ๐ the day of the Purge comes, and Giorno was just trying to barricade himself inside his dorm room when suddenly, Fugo pulls an FBI OPEN UP and breaks inside using all his high-tech weaponry n stuff (i'll share my hcs for chara design later!!). Gio is freaking out so he jumps out the window into the streets, even risking going outside during Purge just so he can get away, but oh ๐
ฑ๏ธoy is Fugo stressed tonight. and he literally hunts Gio down and almost kills him
uNTIL!!!ยก!
2. abbacchio & giorno:
(SORRY I JUST LOVE DADBACCHIO & GIORSON SO MUCH)
Abbacchio is tasked w hunting down a certain rogue criminal, so he's la-di-da cruising thru Naples to get to Bucci's house, when suddenly this fucking kid comes running up to him with his hair and clothes all messed up and tears running down his face, and is like "pls help me sir i beg u i just need somewhere to hide pls i don't want to do this i don't want to die" and Abba's like "fuq??" but then he hears manic laughter and chainsaws revving and shit, and the kid sniveling all over his crispโข๏ธ Purge suit looks like he can explode with fear at any moment (and plus Abba understands that nobody would ever run up to another person for help during Purge like this, unless it's really their last option), so he sighs, "fine. get behind me."
the kid drops to his knees and Abba can't help but think "aaahhhh fucking dead weight", but he said he'd help, so that's what he's gonna do. now ANOTHER kid rounds the corner but he barely looks sane, he seems almost possessed by something. *fighting ensues* but being a professional cop Abba knocks the kid out cold w a few swift moves, and when he drops to the ground that crazy expression finally leaves his face. he's already wasted too much time, so Abba turns to Kid 1 and is like "go back home brat and dont get into trouble again", but Kid 1 is still a trembling mess on the ground, and he says "i don't have any home to go back to."
subconscious Abba's like "well that's between you and god" but he knows he's basically this kid's god now (besides, there can't possibly be a god that would let things like Purges happen), so he's like, "fine. get in the car and DON'T get in my way" but THEN Kid 1 points to the passed-out demon child, "but we can't leave him here"
A: "he was gonna KILL you!!"
K1: "i know but he didn't mean it, he was just not thinking straight"
A: "Purges ain't where ppl think str8 kid, besides if he didn't really wanna Purge he wouldn't have geared himself up that well"
K1: โbut heโs not a bad person. please, if we leave him out here in this state heโll be killed for sure.โ
at this point Abbacchio can't understand wtf Kid 1 is thinking, but for the first time in years he finds some of the humanity he was hoping to regain in Purge, so he's like "fine. haul him into the backseat. but you're sitting with him bc i got my shit in the front. and if he wakes up you're dealing w it this time. cool?"
Kid 1 nods, and surprisingly he has enough strength to shove Kid 2 into the backseat & get in after him. Abba is trying to decide what he wanna do w these kids, when his phone suddenly beeps, and in comes a new message from his superiors, "yo dawg u gotta hurry up and kill that Bucciarati guy, we'd better not catch u slacking" and he's like "yo Kid 1, can u fight?"
"uh, a bit. why?"
"well, that's what you're gonna do for me in return for my protection."
anywhooooo i imagine that later on, Fugo wakes up like "ugh wtf hello concussions????" and he sees Gio standing over him, and he snaps into defensive mode, sitting up and shoving Gio away and everything. but then he sees that Gio's hands are empty, save for maybe a bottle of water and a towel, and somehow Fugo's own wounds are all cleaned and bandaged, and he groans:
"dude, what the fuck are you doing? did i pass out? did you find help?"
G: "you got hit over the head pretty hard, don't move so suddenly."
F: "haha yea thanks i can feel that myself, anyway wtf were you doing?"
G: "uhhhhh... abbacchio patched you up but your face was really grimy so he told me to clean you up, and maybe give you some water?"
F: "no. i mean like what the fuck were you doing????? braincells hello?? kill me! i should be dead!!! is Purge over?? did the sirens go off before you can finish me?"
he suddenly notices how Gio just recoils and sits there with his eyes squeezed shut as Fugo shouts at him and flings his arms around. but he's seen how Gio defended himself against him, so he knows this guy can fight and is no stranger to Purges. this is the first mystery his 152 IQ has encountered in a long time, so Fugo reaches out to get Gio's attention, but then Gio jumps and slaps his hand away so hard Fugo feels his bruised brain jar. he pulls back immediately, holding his hands up, palms forward, finally kind of able to pierce together what's going on inside the blond's mind:
"sorry. wasn't gonna attack you. just... wasn't sure if you were listening to me, so i tried to get your attention."
"i was."
"okay. sorry." Fugo tries, but Gio is already standing up and leaving, glassy green eyes looking anywhere but at him. "wait! Giorโ ugh??"
he almost faceplants the ground again. where's my stupid-ass helmet???? i need to be on balance mode stat. but then Fugo feels two arms helping him up, and he looks up to see Gio, frowning in distaste but still supporting him all the same. he feels bad for asking (as if he hasn't bothered this poor guy enough): "uh, so, what exactly happened while i was passed out?"
oh, honey...
a lot :)
BUT PLOT SPOILERS SO THIS ENDS HERE!!!!!! xD
ya know i might actually go w fugio after all :00 but if i do end up writing this, it will span over 12 hours / 1 Purge only, so even if there are ships they'll probably only be implied, instead of madly into each other by the end of everything :P
to be contโdโฆ ๐๐ช perhaps with other relationship hcs :0 or chara design?? who knows. suggestions?
feel free to drop any questions you have, or just scream to me in the cmts in general!! iโm happy to answer anything, from chara motives to backstory clarification, or anything else!! ik up to now these posts have just been walls of texts, so :โD thanks for reading thooooo ๐
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Screw it. If you're anti via vaccine, you are a brainwashed moron, and I no longer trust your opinion on anything technical.
"I wanna be sure about what I put in my body" (whiny Karen voice)
Yeah? You horse paste, boot licking mother fucker?
You soda drinking, fast food eating, tylenol popping, airplane riding, car driving, diet asperatame loving, microwave food consuming piece of shit? Your body a temple now??? You check the ingredients and warnings on those? Or did you make fun of California for labeling everything a carcinogen, saying "well everything causes cancer, hur hur"?
Did you say we can throw pollution anywhere as long as we dont see it and pump as much greenhouses gases into the air as we want, saying climate change aint real despite even oil companies own scientist said FUCK back in the 70s, ya fucking sheeple?
Or did you listen to some talk radio host getting six figures or more to spoon feed your barely educated, science and research paper failing brain?
Youre not just dumb as what comes out of Trump's mouth and ass (hard to tell the difference). But youre selfish too.
Lick public stalls and cough in your grandmothers face, you conceited fuckin corn dog.
Don't quote me percents or say "it's just old people, likely to die, hur hur". Yeah. You know who is SUPER fucking likely to die? Soldiers. And y'all at least have the decency to pretend to give a shit when even "just" one or a handful die overseas. Stfu, or admit you're thinking the same way as someone who wants to round up all the old and weak, unhealthy people and shoot em or drop them in a pit Sparta style.
You're ignorant. And vile. And self ABSORBED my GOD the world doesnt revolve around you or America this is happening world wide, and they dont bitch about conspiracies as much as our brain dead population.
You violate every known morality code that calls on you to love other people, and God or any diety except the pestilence ones, would be ashamed of you.
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Don't Let This Be The End
what is it you love doing the most & why?ย sleeping because it feels amazing + carefree
how do you cope with sadness? music, food, friends, movies, alone time
what was the last thing you listened to & how did it make you feel? Nothing Natural by Lush. made me wanna smoke some weed & rock the fuck out
what advice would you give off the top of your head right now? just go for it, yolo!
where does one find peace & meaning? or where do you? all you need is already within you
if you could change one thing in the world right now, what would it be? being broke
what is your favorite quality in a person? sense of humor & what kinda music they're into
what is it you desire most? money & assssssss
would you rather have a large amount of wealth, but have a chronic illness for the rest of your life with it; or have a low-income, but with immaculate health for the rest of your life? rich & sick, can't take it with you
define happiness? not feeling like shit
what is your greatest fear(s)? heights, others driving me around, speed, spiders, bees, death, failure
if you were given $1000 right now, what would you use it on? sushi or bbq. buy some band merch, pay some bills
top 3 travel destinations & why? vegas, miami, nyc
if you could instantly learn any language in the world, what would it be? spanish + german
what do you want to accomplish before dying? making a sextape, moving out, having hella money, getting tatted up
whoโs your past & present role model? Why? Mr. Ass, The Rock, Marilyn Manson, Billy Corgan, Scott Weiland
if you could have one superpower, what would it be? unlimited money or the ability to teleport. i'd never be late again
what was your favorite childhood memory? the 90's :( music on mtv, rock on the radio, not paying bills or having responsibilities, no dryspells, the simplicity of life in the 1990โฒs, the toys, music, fashion, tv shows, movies, the vmaโs on mtv, the grammyโs
what would you like to do in Paradise the most? fuck
what strikes you most, beauty or brains? when girls are knowledgeable or passionate about something, that's fuckin' hot. so both
speed & adrenaline, or quiet & serene? quiet + stfu
favorite animal? cats!
what is the best gift someone got you? pussy, nudes, money
when was the last time you had the most fun? when i was getting that good good & i was giving her that good good
when was the last time you cried? when me & my ex broke up in 2011
what do you struggle with the most? life, things i hate about myself & everyone else
favorite food? sushi
if you could start your own business, what would it be? porn
any unique talents or skills? i can burp on command & remember the dumbest pop culture shit
the person youโd love to meet on tumblr? ;)
are you as you portray yourself to be on here? always me 24\7 365
your biggest pet peeve? rude people, needy people, people who don't clean up after themselves or ask for shit instead of doing it themselves, shitty drivers, the friend zone
the family member you are closest to? madre
the last time you said i love you & to whom? family or friends
if you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? weight or height
are you more of a giver? or more of a taker? give give give & all these motherfuckers do is take take take
rain or shine? rain, it's so sexy + romantic
do you love your life? Or no? If you love it, what do you love most about it? If you donโt, what do you not like most about it, and what do you think you can do to change that? eh could be better. if i won the lottery i'd love the fuck outta my life
what would be the last words youโd want to say to your loved ones if you could? what a long strange trip it's been
who is your favorite speaker(s)? Barack Obama, Simon Miller from WhatCultureWWE, Marilyn Manson, The Rock
how do you define love? caring for, respecting, adoring, admiring someone\something
what do you pray most for? money + more sex
any spiritual advice for those struggling? tap that ass
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Drag๐drag๐งโโ๏ธde๐body๐คbag ๐ผ dump๐ตit๐ฑin๐บdeโก๏ธriverโ๏ธbut๐คซyou๐keep๐the๐ฟliver๐ง
I๐ฟcan๐
hear๐Daniel ๐จ๐ปwalking๐ถdownโฌ๏ธthe ๐พstreet๐ฃtap๐ฃtap๐ฃtap๐ฃtap๐ฃlisten๐toโ๏ธhis๐จ๐ปfeet ๐
โจdaddy๐ค daddyy๐บhurryyy๐ตi๐saw ๐ฝsomething๐ขscerryyy๐ปdaddy๐จi ๐think๐ง thereโs๐งa๐spider๐ทon๐my๐ฅfloor๐ข
Where๐oh๐where๐ธis๐คฉour๐little๐บNinaโจwhere๐has๐our๐ฉ๐ปโNina โค๏ธgoneโBรถล๐ป๐๐
ษษol๐ษษol๐ษษol๐ษษol๐ษษol๐ ษษol๐ษษol๐ษษol๐ษษol๐ษษol๐ ษษol๐ษษol๐ษษol๐ษษol๐ษษol๐ ษษol๐ษษol๐ษษol๐ษษol๐ษษol๐
shake๐ณthe๐blanket๐shakeโ ๏ธthe๐ฆblanket๐คturn๐theโblanket๐ดoooover๐๐๐๐
if i ๐ die๐ฉโ ๏ธdonโt๐
โโ๏ธโcry๐ข๐ญjust๐look๐upโฌ๏ธtoโ๏ธthe sky๐
and say๐ฌGรรD๐Bลธฤ๐FรลฤฎลHฤ๐
attentionโผ๏ธattention๐
๐ผone1๏ธโฃtwo2๏ธโฃthree3๏ธโฃare๐ฟyouโจreadyโ๏ธลธรPPรร๐รคfjekos๐isโ
๏ธthe๐nameโ๏ธof๐myโ๏ธSchoolโช๏ธ
spinch ๐ฟ spinch ๐ฟ spinch ๐ฟ spinch ๐ฟspinch ๐ฟ spinch ๐ฟ spinch ๐ฟ spinch ๐ฟspinch ๐ฟ spinch ๐ฟ spinch ๐ฟ spinch ๐ฟspinch ๐ฟ spinch ๐ฟ spinch ๐ฟ
If๐ค i๐ฑโโ๏ธSaw๐ that๐ damn๐ก thing๐ซ inโ๏ธ My๐ living ๐ room๐ Iโd ๐ฑโโ๏ธ Stomp ๐ฃ onโฌ๏ธ It๐ฉ untilโฐ it๐
was๐ a๐
ฐ๏ธ Small๐ฆ brown๐
stain๐คฃ๐คฃ๐คฃ
are๐ปyou๐๐คare๐กyou๐๐คcoming๐to๐งthe๐คtrรฉ๐ฒthey๐ณstrung๐upโฌ๏ธA๐ฎman๐จtheyโจsay๐ฃwho๐murdered๐ชthree๐จโ๐ฉโ๐ฆ
How it chews to gum five feelsโจ Gum Gum๐๐ Sense your stimulate๐ณ๐ฉ
โจkรดลrรฆpฤฏkรฅโจ
๐๐bungee๐ฌgum๐คฉ๐คชhasโจthe๐ฏ๐properties๐ซ๐ญof๐ปbothโrubberโญand๐งgum๐ฌ
๐๐พ๐ฎโจ๐ฑ๐พ๐ช๐งโโ๏ธ๐น๐ฒ๐ช๐ธ๐ป๐น๐ฒ๐ช๐ธ๐ฟ๐ซ๐ฎ๐ฒ๐บ๐ฏ๐ฎ๐ท๐ฐ๐คฉ๐๐ฒ๐ช๐ธ๐ผ๐๐ฒ๐ช๐ธ๐ฃ
have๐คyou๐ever๐been๐กsnaked๐by๐a๐คจ friend๐งthen๐ชjust๐พfor ๐คฆthe๐ฃ๏ธclout๐they'll๐do๐ฃit๐again๐
i๐ฑcUt๐ณmY๐คกfInGeR๐oN๐mY๐mOmS๐
rInG๐ฟi ๐
hOpE๐iโ๐ผcAn๐sTilL๐dAnCe๐ฃ
itโs๐jesusโ๏ธsay๐ฃhello๐jesusโ๏ธBฬทฬฬปOฬธฬอฬคออฬฐAฬทอฬฬนHฬธฬ
ฬฬฅฬผฬฅฬงHฬถฬฬฏอ yeah๐, city๐ฌ! Sity won๐
, shity too๐, city treee๐ฒ, city for๐, city fye๐ฅ, I never stanky bye๐๐ฟโโ๏ธ! Yeah๐ผ heyyyyy! ๐ซ
Farting ๐จ is๐ถ so๐โโ๏ธ funny๐คฃreleasing ๐ flatulence ๐ค is๐ definitely ๐คช humourous ๐ it โฒ releases๐ง endorphins๐
in๐คค my๐ brain๐ง this๐ฑ making๐คญmeโ๏ธlaugh๐คฃ
THIS ๐ SCHOOL ๐ IS ๐ MINE ๐ก I ๐ฟ AM โจ THE ๐ KING ๐ KOKICHI ๐ญ OUMAโช๏ธ
I๐will๐จ๐ฝโโ๏ธsacrificeโ๏ธmyโ๏ธown๐ฅlifeโฐ๏ธfor๐Pakistan๐ต๐ฐ๐๐ซ
chicken ๐ wing chicken ๐๐ฃ wing hotdog and baloney chicken ๐ and ๐ macaroni chillin โโ with ๐ my ๐๐ homies ๐พ
๐
โโ๏ธ Frick meat lovers ๐
โโ๏ธ๐ก๐ซ All my homies ๐ฏโโ๏ธ eat the grass ๐ฉ from the central plains ๐๐๐ฟ๐ฑ
I ๐ put ๐ my ๐ ๐ค ๐ซ๐ง right ๐ฟ๐ ๐ foot ๐๐ฃ in ๐ช๐ and ๐ฒ ๐จ๐คท take my right โ โ
foot ๐ out ๐
ฑ๐ค ๐ then ๐๐ฑ ๐ฅ put ๐ฅ๐ป my ๐ง ๐๐ผ left ๐ ๐๐ foot in and ๐ฟโ shake ๐ค๐ค ๐ค it ๐ฏ๐ฉ all ๐ฅ๐ฏ ๐ฏ about. ๐ฆ๐ฆ
Imagine ๐ญ๐ก your ๐ card ๐ณ declines โ๐ at ๐ the ๐๐ฆ tattoo ๐๐จโ๐จ shop ๐ฌ and โ๐ฝ they bust ๐ฃ๐ out ๐ฏ the ๐ sand โฑ paper.. ๐ณ๐คฆ
Rawr๐ฒ๐ x3๐ nuzzles how are you๐๐ pounces on you๐ youโre๐ so๐ warm๐ค๐ o3o๐ notices๐ฏ you have a bulge๐ o:๐ฏ๐ฎ someoneโs happy๐ ;)๐๐ nuzzles your necky wecky๐๐~ murr~ hehehe๐ rubbies๐๐ค your bulgy๐ wolgy youโre๐ so big๐ฏ๐ฎ :oooo rubbies๐๐ค more on your bulgy๐ wolgy it๐ซ doesnโt stop๐ growing ยท///ยท ๐kisses๐๐ yo
I ๐คdidn't ๐ fuck ๐คฌ my ๐ฝ cat. I ๐ธ didn't ๐ cum ๐ฆ on ๐ณ my ๐cat. ๐ป I ๐ง didn't ๐ put ๐ธ my ๐ dick ๐ anywhere ๐งโโ๏ธ near ๐บ my cat. ๐ฝ I've โ never ๐ก done ๐๐ anything ๐ weird ๐งโโ๏ธ to ๐จ my ๐
cat. ๐ธ
๐ฝcome๐ฝtoday๐ฝand๐ฝget๐ฝsome๐ฝCฬทอฬฬญอฬฬฑoฬทอฬฬอฬบอฬปฬอrฬตฬฬฬฬฬขฬขฬฒฬอnฬตอฬกฬงฬนฬฅอ๐ฝor๐ฝwe๐ฝwill๐ฝsacrifice๐ฝyour๐ฝnฬดอออฬฬชฬกeฬตฬอฬจฬ ฬฬฃwฬทฬอฬงอbฬดฬฬอฬฃฬณoฬทฬฝฬฏออrฬทฬอฬกอฬฆฬฏnฬทฬฬฆ
myโจvรขฤรฎรฑรฅ๐is๐ฆnamed๐ฟลลลร ลรฐ๐and๐ฌtheres๐นnothing๐ผyou๐๐ฝcan๐๏ธdo๐about๐งโโ๏ธit
bษฤ
ลรโจbษฤ
ลร๐bษฤ
ลรโญ๏ธbษฤ
ลร๐ฃbษฤ
ลร๐ณbษฤ
ลร๐bษฤ
ลรโbษฤ
ลรโฝ๏ธbษฤ
ลรโbษฤ
ลร๐ฅbษฤ
ลร๐ฒ
Ever ๐see ๐ฑ me ๐ fighting ๐๐พin ๐a ๐ฏForest๐ฒwithโ๐พa ๐ grizzly๐ปBear? ๐HELP ๐THE๐BEAR๐ฏ
ำจะฆฮฮฮฮ ๐ฟ ฮ ฮ ฮ ฮ ฮ ๐ฟ ำจะฆฮฮฮฮ ๐ฟ ฮ ฮ ฮ ฮ ฮ ๐ฟ ำจะฆฮฮฮฮ ๐ฟ ฮ ฮ ฮ ฮ ฮ ๐ฟ
oh ๐ฎ geez ๐ what ๐ a ๐งโโ๏ธsteep ๐ hill ๐ i๐ sure ๐ค hope ๐๐ผ i ๐ฑ dont ๐ซ drop ๐จ my ๐คญ beans ๐ฅซ woah ๐คฏ aragahha ๐ my โ ๏ธ beannns ๐ซ
I ๐ was ๐คก a ๐คจ girl ๐ฉ inโจa ๐ village๐doin๐คalright ๐ณ then ๐ต i ๐น became ๐ a ๐งโโ๏ธ princess ๐ overnight ๐ด
the ๐ name ๐ game ๐ฉ JUDY๐พ judy๐ถ judy๐bo ๐ถ budy ๐ต boanna ๐
fanna๐fo๐fudy๐fe๐
๐ฝโโโโ๐ฝโโโโ๐ฝโโโโโฟโโโโ๐ฝโ
โโโโโ๐ฝโโโโโ๐ฝโโโโโ๐ฝโโโโโ
โโ๐ฝโฐโโโโโ
โโ๐ฝโโโ๐ฝโ
โโโโโ๐ฝโโโโโ๐ฝโโฐโโโโ๐ฝโ
โโฟโโ
โโโ๐ฝโโโโโ๐ฝ โ
โโโโ
โโ๐ฝ
sรครงr๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝfรฏฤรซ๐นsรคฤrรฎfฤฏฤรฉ๐นsรกฤrฤฏfรฎฤรฉ๐นsร ฤrรฌfรฎรงรซ๐น sรขฤrรฌfรฏฤรช๐นsรขรงrฤซfรฏรงรซ๐นsรขฤrรฌfฤฏฤรช๐นsรครงrรฎfฤฏฤฤ๐น
yรฆw ๐ yรฃรชw โจ yร รกw ๐ป yaw ๐ yรฃฤw ๐ฟ yรฅฤw ๐ฌ yฤ
ฤw ๐
yรฆ ๐ฟ
this๐is๐ฟthe๐best๐คชburrito๐ฏiโve๐คฉeverโฆ๏ธeaten๐yum๐yum๐ฟyum๐ข
I ๐ณ donโt ๐ see๐ how ๐ you ๐ฝ can๐คฆโโ๏ธhate ๐ from๐งโโ๏ธmy โจ side๐ of ๐ค the๐ club๐น you ๐ฃ cant๐
even ๐
get ๐ด๐ฝin ๐ ๐โโ๏ธ
รฟoรบ tรกkรซ thฤ mลn๐รฟรธลซ๐takรช thฤ ลกรผล๐yลu tรคkรจ ๐พโ๐พ๐๐ฆt๊งฤบ๐๐โจthรคt sรจะต๐ข๊ lรฏkรจ ๐ณ๐ขแ ๐นรฦฏ ลtฮแนใฐ๏ธรฏ๐ฉ ๐สส ฦฏแฎ รกn ๏ฝ๊ง๐ล๐รฦฏอแน๐ แตญล๐ แนแฅฒิิแฅฒ๐แนแนแฅฒิิa
Hi, ๐ค you're on a rock ๐ฟ floating in space. ๐ pretty cool, ๐๐ huh? ๐โ some of it's water. ๐คฝโโ๏ธ fuck it. ๐ฎ actually, most of it's water ๐ฆ โฒ i ๐ can't even ๐ get ๐ from here ๐ to there without buying ๐ a boat. โดโ it's sad. ๐ i'm sad. ๐๐ญ I miss you.
its ๐ gluten ๐ก free ๐ฐ ion ๐คฌ care ๐ค if its ๐ free ๐ swear ๐ on ur ๐ฑโโ๏ธfucking ๐๐๐๐๐๐ โธโธ if you ๐ค wanna fight ๐คฌ we๐ gon ๐fight ๐๐ฝyou ๐ฆ tryna ๐ be ๐ on worldstar โญ๏ธ what โ๏ธ you โ gonna ๐น record ๐คณ it ๐ yea ๐ผ i got๐ถโโ๏ธ my ๐ dollar ๐ต store ๐ฌ camera ๐ธ *on* โ
๐๐๐ผ๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐พ๐๐๐ ๐ผ ๐๐๐๐๐ผ๐๐๐๐๐๐ โจโจthe ๐ผ fuck ๐คฌ do ๐ you ๐ฟ want โ๏ธim โญ๏ธ the ๐ถโโ๏ธ motherfuckin๐MฬธฬอฬฬฆอฬฬฬณฬผอฬฑอฬฎอฬฑฬฬฐฬฒAฬดฬพฬฬฬออฬฬอออฬฬพอฬฎฬงฬซฬผฬขฬฬณฬญฬฉอฬชฬNฬดฬอฬพฬฟออฬฬฬฬซฬญอฬนAฬตฬฟฬออฬฬออ อ ฬออฬฅGฬดออฬ
ฬอฬอ
ฬฬญฬญฬบอฬฃฬญฬบEฬทอ ออRฬถอฬอออโ๏ธโ๏ธat the ๐ข bread ๐ store โ๐ฝ๐๐๐ผ๐ฟ tell ๐ค him ๐ฃ to take ๐ the ๐พ motherfuckin ๐คก gluten ๐ท ๐ค๐ช๐ฉ ๐
โโ๏ธ ๐๐๐ ๐ฝ๐๐๐ผ๐ฟ ๐ฅ imma ๐ง need ๐ค you ๐ถ to shut ๐ that ๐ช bullshit ๐ up ๐ chief ๐โโ๏ธ we ๐ฌ cant ๐
take ๐ shit out ๐พ the ๐ท bread ๐ whyโ put ๐ฟ it in ๐คฒ in ๐ the ๐
first 1๏ธโฃ place๐ช i ๐งโ๐จ know ๐ง yall ๐ข ๐จ๐ข๐ค๐ ๐๐ฃ ๐ฌ that ๐ ๐ฅ๐๐๐ ๐
A๐ duck walked๐ค๐ณ๐ฝ upโช๏ธ to๐ต a๐ lemonade stand And๐ he๐ฎ said๐ฐ๐ธ๐ผ to๐ฐ the man,๐๐ป running๐ the๐๐ฟ๐ฟ๐ stand "Hey! (Bum๐ต๐ผ bum๐ bum)๐ฆ Got๐ any๐๐ grapes?" The๐ฆ๐ปโ๏ธ๐ฒ๐ผ manโซ said "No๐ช we๐ just๐ฅ sell๐ฃ lemonade. But๐จโ๐จโ๐ฆโ๐ฆ๐ it's cold And๐ง๐พ๐ฃ it's๐ fresh And๐ณ๐๐ฟ๐๐พ it's all home-made.๐๐ฝ๐ Can๐ I get๐ฅ๐
you Glass?" The duck said, "I'll๐ฃ pass". Then๐๐ป he waddled๐ต๐ป away. (Waddle๐ waddle) 'Til๐ข๐ the๐๐ป๐๐
๐ฟ very๐ nextโ๏ธ day. (Bum bum bum๐ณ๐พ๐ bum๐ฎ๐ฟ๐ ba-bada-dum)๐๐ฎ๐ฝ
Shawtyโs๐โจlike๐๐aโ๏ธ๐โจmelody๐๐๐ ๐ชThat๐ซ I ๐can't ๐keep ๐ตout ๐Got ๐me โจsingin' โก๏ธlikeโก๏ธ ๐ฅNa na na na ๐ฅeveryday๐ช It's๐ like โ๏ธmy ๐ซiPod โ๏ธstuck ๐on ๐ค replay, ๐คคreplay-ay-ay-ay๐ฆ Shawty's๐คค like ๐คa ๐คmelody ๐ปin ๐ฝmy ๐คฒhead๐ง That ๐คI ๐ขcan't ๐keep ๐out๐ Got ๐คme ๐singin' ๐like๐
Na na na na ๐everyday๐ โIt's ๐like ๐ชmy ๐ฑiPod ๐stuck ๐on ๐replay, ๐คDeluga ๐คHeights (replay) ๐คHey โ๐พover ๐and ๐คover ๐o_O ||if ๐I'm ๐tipsy๐ฐ or โป๏ธsober๐ฏ I ๐got โค๏ธlil' ๐momma๐ on ๐rewindโฃ๏ธlike the โค๏ธdeck ๐ฅin ๐ปmy ๐บRover ๐พOn ๐my ๐คmind, ๐ฟshawtyโ fine, ๐ฏmeditate ๐คher ๐ฉ like ๐งโโ๏ธ ๐คSo ๐คdown ๐คon ๐ตthe ๐line ๐คmake ๐me ๐want ๐๐พa ๐cold ๐นsoda๐บ ๐ปHey ๐ฝbaby ๐คกbe ๐คคmy ๐radio ๐ป ๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝHear๐you โจ everywhere ๐I ๐go ๐Music ๐ฉโโค๏ธโ๐จin ๐my ๐head๐คช ๐คจKnow ๐your ๐คชmelody ๐คฉin ๐every ๐ญnote๐ Girl ๐you ๐incredible๐ ๐คชMake ๐คฉyourself ๐ฟavailable๐Na na na na๐คช ๐That ๐ถtune ๐so ๐exceptionalโบ๏ธ ๐Smexy ๐like ๐a ๐piano ๐ธgive ๐ฅyou โ๏ธmy ๐ฉ๐ฟโโ hands ๐if โ๐พyou're ๐ready๐ โจWe ๐can ๐make ๐plans๐ get๐ฟ body ๐stand๐ if โ๐พyou let โ๏ธme๐ฉ Girl I'm aโฆ๐ณ
Shawty ๐ had ๐ them ๐ฏ apple ๐ bottom ๐ฝ jeans ๐ boots ๐ข with *๏ธโฃ the ๐ fur ๐ (with *๏ธโฃ the ๐ fur ๐) got ๐ฒ the ๐ whole ๐ club ๐ looking ๐ at โฎ๏ธ her ๐ she ๐ hit ๐ the ๐ floor ๐ฝ (she ๐ hit ๐ the ๐ floor ๐ฝ) next ๐ thing โ๏ธ you ๐ค shawty ๐ got ๐ฃ low ๐ฝ low ๐ฝ low ๐ฝ low ๐ฝ low ๐ฝ low ๐ฝ low ๐ฝlow ๐ฝ them ๐ฆฎ baggy ๐ sweatpants ๐ฉณ and โ the ๐โ๐จ Reeboks ๐ with โ the ๐ถ straps โฉ๏ธ (with โ the ๐ถ straps โฉ๏ธ) she ๐ turned ๐around โฉ๏ธ and ๐ gave โ๏ธ that ๐ big ๐ฅตbooty ๐ a ๐ถ smack โจ she ๐ hit ๐ the ๐ floor ๐ฝ (she ๐ hit ๐ the ๐ floor ๐ฝ) next ๐ thing โ๏ธ you ๐ค shawty ๐ got ๐ฃ low ๐ฝ low ๐ฝ low ๐ฝ low ๐ฝ low ๐ฝ low ๐ฝ low ๐ฝlow ๐ฝ
Today ๐
my 12 ๐ฃ๐ year ๐
old ๐ด son ๐ฆ and I ๐ฅ walked ๐ถ into harvard ๐ฉโ๐ to sign ๐ง him ๐ด up โ for college ๐๐. The dean rudly asked โ what a 12 ๐ฃ๐ year ๐ old ๐ด was doing signing ๐ up โฌ for such a prestigious ๐๐ institute like ๐ harvard ๐ฉโ๐. My son ๐โโ๏ธ took ๐ซ of to reveal ๐ก his ๐คฆ Rick ๐จ๐ปโ๐ฌ and Morty ๐ก๐ต shirt ๐ and proclaimed "Well ๐๐๐ป๐๐ฟ you ๐ see ๐ sir ๐ค I ๐ watch ๐ Rick ๐ฅ and Morty ๐ก๐ต". A look ๐ of confusion โ๐ค came ๐ฆ over ๐ณ๐๐ฆ the deans face ๐ and I ๐ have never ๐ซ been so proud ๐ค. The dean quickly โก made ๐ sure ๐ฏ to appologize to my son ๐ฆ but ๐๐๐ it was too late ๐ค, the police ๐ฎโโ๏ธ rushed ๐โโ๏ธ in and dragged him ๐จ๐พ out. My son ๐ฆ passed ๐ all ๐ his ๐คฆ classes ๐ with 4.0s and graduated ๐ top ๐ of his ๐คฆ class ๐ in the first ๐ฅ day ๐
of college ๐๐ฑ๐.
Number๐ข 1๏ธโฃ5๏ธโฃ: ๐
ฑ๏ธurger๐ Ki๐๐คด foot๐ฃ lettuce๐ฅ. The last๐ฅ thing you'd๐ want in๐ your๐ ๐
ฑ๏ธurger๐ Ki๐๐คด ๐
ฑ๏ธurger๐ is someone's๐ค foot๐ฃ fu๐us๐คข๐คฎ. ๐
ฑ๏ธut๐ as๐ it turnsโฉ๏ธ out, that might ๐
ฑ๏ธe what you๐ get. A 4๏ธโฃchanner๐๐ค uploaded a ๐
ฟ๏ธhoto๐ท๐ธ ๐
ฐ๏ธnonymously๐คโ to the site showcasing his๐น feet๐ฃ in๐ a ๐
ฟ๏ธlastic bin๐ฎ of lettuce๐ฅ๐คฎ. With the statement๐ฃ: "This๐ is the lettuce๐ฅ you๐ eat ๐
ฐ๏ธt ๐
ฑ๏ธurger๐ Ki๐๐คด."๐ฑ๐ฑ ๐
ฐ๏ธdmittedly, he๐น had shoes๐ฃ๐ on. But๐ that's even๐คญ worse๐ฑ๐ท. The ๐
ฟ๏ธost went live at 1๏ธโฃ1๏ธโฃ:3๏ธโฃ8๏ธโฃ PM on July๐๐ 1๏ธโฃ6๏ธโฃ, and a mere 2๏ธโฃ0๏ธโฃ minutes๐ค later, the ๐
ฑ๏ธurger๐ Ki๐๐คด in๐ questionโ was ๐
ฐ๏ธlerted๐ to the rogue๐ค employee๐ค. At least, I๐ hope he's๐น rogue. How๐จ did it๐ค happen๐ง๐ง? Well, the ๐
ฑ๏ธK๐๐คด employee๐ค hadn't๐ซ removedโ the Exif data๐ค from the uploaded photo๐ท๐ธ, which suggested๐ the culprit๐ค was somewhere in๐ Mayfield Heights, Ohio๐บ๐ธ. This was ๐
ฐ๏ธt 1๏ธโฃ1๏ธโฃ:4๏ธโฃ7๏ธโฃ. 3๏ธโฃ minutes later๐ at 1๏ธโฃ1๏ธโฃ:5๏ธโฃ0๏ธโฃ, the ๐
ฑ๏ธurger๐ Ki๐๐คด branch๐ณ address๐ญ๐ was ๐
ฟ๏ธosted with wishes๐ of happy๐๐ unemployment๐จ๐ฐ. 5๏ธโฃ minutes later๐, the news stati๐ was contacted๐ฃ๐ ๐
ฑ๏ธy ๐
ฐ๏ธnother 4๏ธโฃchanner๐ค๐. And 3๏ธโฃ minutes๐ later, at 1๏ธโฃ1๏ธโฃ:5๏ธโฃ8๏ธโฃ, a link was ๐
ฟ๏ธosted: ๐
ฑ๏ธK's๐๐คด "Tell us ๐out us" online๐ forum. The foot๐ฃ ๐
ฟ๏ธhoto๐ท๐ธ, otherwise known as๐ exhibit ๐
ฐ๏ธ, was ๐
ฐ๏ธttached. Cleveland๐บ๐ธ Scene Maga๐บ๐ธzine contacted๐ฃโ๏ธ the ๐
ฑ๏ธK๐๐คด in๐ question๐คโ the nextโฉ day๐. When questioned๐คโ๐ง, the breakfast๐๐ฝ shift manager๐ง said "Oh, I๐ know๐ฑ who๐ค that is. He's๐น getti๐ fired๐ฅ๐ซ๐ฅ." Mystery๐ง solved๐, ๐
ฑ๏ธy 4๏ธโฃchan๐๐ฅ. Now we๐ฅ can๐ข all go ๐ to2๏ธโฃ eati๐๐ฝ our fast๐โโ๏ธ๐จ food๐๐๐ฅค in๐ ๐
ฟ๏ธeaceโฎ๏ธ๐๐๐๐.
im ๐ not gonna ๐ป show ๐๐บ you ๐ค ๐ค the ๐๐ท facts ๐ ๐ and ๐๐ ๐ฐ the ๐โ ๐ฝ evidence ๐ฐ ๐จ๐ beacuse im ๐ ๐๐ 29 fucking โ๐ก ๐ฎ years ๐
๐
old ๐ and ๐ป ๐ฌ in ๐๐ฅ not โ ๐ค gonna โ sit down โฌ๐ and โ๐ ๐ฐ make ๐ฐ ๐ a video โ๐น ๐น๐ธ with ๐๐ ๐ฉ๐ซ screenshots exposing ๐ ๐ my bullies ๐๐ ๐๐ these ๐ด ๐๐ are ๐พ ๐๐ผ bullies these ๐คค are ๐ฟ highschool fucking ๐ bullies and ๐ ๐๐ก they ๐ฅ ๐ wanna ๐โค come at ๐๐ธ ๐
me โ ๐ฉโ and ๐๐ ๐
ฑ๐ผ say ๐
๐ โ your โฌ
๐๐ 29 years ๐
old how ๐โ your ๐๐ป ๐ acting fuck ๐ค๐ฆ ๐ you ๐ your ๐ ๐ in ๐ ใฝ your ๐ฉ fucking ๐๐ 30s almost ๐ฒ ๐๐ฒ all ๐ฏ of ๐ฆ๐ ๐ค you ๐ค ๐๐ attacking โ โ me ๐ฟ๐ญ ๐ and ๐๐ต ๐ญ im ๐ ๐ not โ๐ซ saying ๐ฃ๐ก a fucking ๐ work ๐ข ๐จ to ๐
๐ฆ anybody and ๐ ๐๐ your ๐ฏ๐ going to ๐ฆ ๐๐ฐ say ๐ค ๐ฟ im ๐ ๐๐ป panting myself ๐ช ๐ฉ๐ฑ as the ๐๐ ๐โ victim and ๐๐ฆ im ๐๐ trying ๐ to ask ๐ค๐ฉ ๐ฅ๐ for ๐ฐ๐จ attention i ๐๐ have ๐๐ ๐ค๐ฐ not ๐ซ๐
said ๐ ๐ a ๐๐ fucking ๐๐ ๐ word ๐๐ โ publicly until ๐ฆ ๐
ฑ another ๐ฏ๐ฃ video ๐ฅ ๐น was โ ๐ฏ๐ made ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ about me ๐ฉ๐ค the ๐ ๐
ฑ๐ week ๐
โ๐ฑ i was ๐๐ ๐ putting ๐ฏ๐ฏ out ๐ฐโถ ๐ผ๐ my ๐จ fucking EP you ๐๐ฌ ๐ญ๐ง wanna โค ๐ป๐ฟ ghost ๐ป๐ป ๐ป๐ป the ๐ธ internet ๐๐ป for ๐๐ five ๐ fucking โก months ๐ฝ and โ im ๐ promoting โ my ๐ฉ ๐ project โ like ๐โค ๐ crazy and ๐๐ โ๐ your ๐ โ gonna ๐๐
ฑ ๐ฅ put ๐ my ๐จ name ๐ in your fucking ๐ฎ๐ซ ๐๐ thumbnail bringing up โคโ a ๐
ฐ๐ฐ ๐ fucking ๐ โก dramatic lie ๐ฌโ โ๐ฑ a hate ๐ฏ๐ฏ campaign that ๐ฆ ๐ช you fucking started ๐ ๐ 5 ๐ช ๐ months โ๐ ๐๐ฝ you ๐ป๐ dont ๐ก๐
๐ post ๐พ๐ ๐๐ but ๐คค ๐๐ im ๐๐
ฑ posting a ๐ฐโ ๐ฐ project โฌโฌ
โฌ
โฌ and ๐๐ you ๐ค๐
ฑ have ๐ช๐ ๐ to say ๐ฃ๐ฃ
You ๐ useless ๐ฉ๐ป piece ๐ฟ of shit ๐ฉ. You ๐ absolute ๐ฏ waste ๐ต of space โญโซ and air ๐ฌ. You ๐ uneducated, ignorant ๐, idiotic ๐ dumb ๐คช swine ๐ฝ๐, youโre an absolute ๐ฏ embarrassment ๐ฃ to humanity ๐ด and all ๐ค life ๐ as a whole ๐ณ. The magnitude ๐ of your ๐ failure ๐๐ฝ just now is so indescribably massive ๐ that one โ๐ป hundred ๐ฏ years ๐
into the future ๐จ๐ผ your ๐๐ฟ name ๐ท will be used โฆ as moniker of evil ๐ for heretics. Even ๐ if all ๐ช of humanity ๐ด put ๐ together ๐ฎโโ๏ธ๐ their collective intelligence ๐ง there is no ๐ซ conceivable way โ they could have thought ๐ค up โ a way โ to fuck ๐คฌ up โฌ on the unimaginable scale โ you ๐๐ป just did
How ๐คท๐ป ba-a-a-ad ๐คก๐บ๐น can ๐ข I ๐๐๐๐ be? ๐๐I'm ๐๐ปโโ๏ธjust๐คท๐ปdoin'๐๐ปโโ๏ธwhat comes โ๏ธ๐โจ๐๐ถ๐๐๐๐ถ๐๐๐โจ๐โ๏ธHow๐๐ปโโ๏ธba-a-a-ad๐คก๐บ๐นcan๐ขI ๐๐คกbe? ๐๐ I'm๐๐ปโโ๏ธjust ๐คท๐ปfollowing๐โก๏ธโก๏ธmy โก๏ธโก๏ธ๐ ๐น๐๐๐๐พ๐๐ ๐ How๐คท๐ปba-a-a-ad๐คก๐บ๐นcan๐ขI๐๐ฟbe? ๐๐ I'm๐๐ปโโ๏ธjust๐คท๐ปdoin'๐๐ปโโ๏ธwhat comes โ๏ธ๐โจ ๐๐ถ๐๐๐๐ถ๐๐๐ โจ๐โ๏ธ How๐คท๐ปba-a-a-ad ๐คก๐บ๐น can๐ขI๐๐นbe? ๐๐How ๐คท๐ป๐๐ปโโ๏ธbad๐ฅต๐บ๐๐ปโโ๏ธcan๐ข๐๐ปโโ๏ธI ๐๐ปโโ๏ธpossibly๐๐ปโโ๏ธbe?๐๐ปโโ๏ธ๐๐Well, ๐คท๐ป there's a principal ๐กโณof nature ๐๐๐(principal of nature) ๐ฃ๐ฅ๐๐ปโโ๏ธ๐๐ปโโ๏ธ๐๐ปThat almost๐every ๐ถ๐ฑ๐ญ๐ฎ creature๐น๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ธ knows๐ก๐กCalled survival๐๐ป๐คธ๐ปโโ๏ธof the fittest๐ช๐ป๐ช๐พ (survival of the fittest) ๐ฃ๐ฅ๐๐ปโโ๏ธ ๐๐ปโโ๏ธ๐๐ปAnd checkโ
it โก๏ธthis is how it goes๐ถ๐ป๐ถ๐ปโโ๏ธThe animal๐๐๐that eats๐gotta๐คผ scratch๐๏ธand ๐bite ๐ฆand๐ชpunch๐คผAnd the๐ท๐จanimal๐ฅ๐ฆ that doesn't, well the ๐ผ๐ฆanimal๐ฆ๐that doesn't, winds๐ up๐โฌ๏ธSomeone else's ๐๐ปโโ๏ธ๐๐ฝโโ๏ธ๐๐ฟโโ๏ธ๐๐ป๐๐ผ๐๐ฝ๐๐พโโ๏ธlu-๐lu-๐ฅlu-๐ฎlu-๐ฅชlunch!๐ฑ(Munch Munch Munch Munch Munch๐๐
๐) ๐ฃ๐ฅ๐๐ปโโ๏ธ๐๐ปโโ๏ธ๐๐ปI'm just saying'...๐๐ปโโ๏ธ
๐ฝ๐ฑ๐ฎ๐ป๐ฎ๐ผ๐a ๐๐ฃ๐ถ๐ป๐ป๐๐ฃ๐ถ๐ป๐ป๐คฃ ๏ฝ๏ฝ๏ฝ๏ฝโจรฏแน
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๊๊ช๊๐นso ๐คไนใฉไธใ๐ฃ bฬฬศฬศฬnฬฬgฬฬ๐แฅ๊ชษษ๊ช๊ช๐ฅฝbอeอeอzอ ๐แบััั๐ษีดฯฯฯ ๐ฟโฌUโคโคโโแถ๐ฟwith๐โญแนณโจโจโญแธแธโบ๐ฅbอฆอฏuอฆอฏzอฆอฏzอฆอฏbอฆอฏeอฆอฏeอฆอฏ๐is ๐bหหuหหsหหyหห๐ฐwith ๐ง mอeอ๐ฝแฒแพแฌแฌแบ๐ as ๐a เชธเฌเธเธฯ ะชเซฏเซฏ๐ฏ can ๐โโ๏ธbe๐ง๐ป wฬคฬฎeฬคฬฎrฬคฬฎeฬคฬฎ๐ฆทฮฒUSฮจ๐ดbฬพuฬพzฬพzฬพiฬพnฬพgฬพ๐คwith ๐คกbโ uโ zโ zโ bโ eโ eโ ๐บ tอฬบhอฬบeอฬบ๐แนงโบโต๐!โaอlอwอaอyอsอ๐ฆsออกhออกiออกnออกiออกnออกgออก๐จโ๐ฆณ๐ธ๐
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I ๐ don't ๐ซ๐ know ๐ญ what ๐ I ๐ฐ๐ฐ was ๐๐ thinking ๐ค Leaving ๐ช๐ my ๐จ๐ญ child ๐พ behind ๐โข Now ๐
๐
I suffer ๐ฑ๐ค the ๐๐ curse โ Knowing ๐ญ๐ค now ๐ญ๐ค I ๐ค am blind With all ๐ฉ๐ฉ this anger, ๐ก guilt and sadness Coming ๐ป๐ to ๐ท haunt me ๐ธ forever ๐ I can't ๐ซ wait for the cliff ๐ฆ at ๐ฝ the end of ๐ฆ the ๐ฆ๐ river Is ๐ค this revenge I am seeking Or seeking someone ๐ฅ๐ค to ๐ฆ avenge me Stuck in ใฝ๐ my ๐ป own ๐๐ป paradox I ๐๐จ wanna โ set โฟ myself free Maybe I ๐ should ๐ chase and ๐ find ๐ฆ Before they'll ๐ง try ๐ to ๐ฆ stop โ it ๐ฏ It won't be ๐๐ long before ๐๐ I'll ๐ฉ become ๐ฝ a ๐ puppet It's been ๐ฅ so long ๐จ Since I last have seen ๐ my โ son ๐ฆ Lost to ๐ฐ this monster ๐น To ๐
the ๐ man โ behind the slaughter Since you've been ๐น gone ๐ ๐ก I've been ๐๐ฆ singing this ๐ฟ stupid song ๐ต๐ค So I ๐จ could ๐โ ponder The ๐ซ sanity of ๐ฆ๐ด your mother I ๐๐ wish ๐ข๐ข I ๐ฏ๐ lived in ๐ the ๐๐ present With the ๐ซ๐ gift ๐ of ๐๐ค my ๐๐ค past mistakes But the ๐ future ๐ keeps luring in โค๐ like ๐๐ a pack of snakes Your ๐๐ sweet ๐ฌ little ๐ญ eyes ๐๐ Your ๐จ๐ little ๐ฝ smile, โญ๐ is ๐ฆ all I ๐ป remember Those fuzzy memories mess with ๐ my temper Justification is killing me But killing ๐ช isn't justified What happened ๐ค๐ค to ๐ฏโ my ๐ son, โ๐ฆ I'm terrified ๐ฒ๐ฒ It ๐ณ lingers in ๐ my ๐ฉ๐ช mind And ๐ฐ๐ the ๐ป thought ๐ค๐ค keeps on getting ๐ฆ bigger I'm ๐ป sorry my ๐ฌ sweet ๐ฌ baby ๐ฆ๐ถ I ๐โ wish I've ๐พ๐ญ been there ๐ฆโ It's ๐ ๐ been โ๐ so ๐ฎ long ๐๐ Since ๐ฆ๐ฆ I ๐ค๐ last ๐โ have ๐ seen ๐๐ my ๐ค son ๐ป๐ฆ Lost ๐ to ๐ฆ this monster ๐น๐น To ๐ the ๐๐ man ๐ behind โฉ the ๐๐ slaughter Since ๐ฆ๐ฆ you've been ๐คค๐ gone ๐ญ I've ๐ been ๐ singing ๐ฉ this ๐ stupid song ๐ต๐ต So I could ๐ซ ponder The sanity of your mother
What the ๐
พ๐ช fuck ๐๐ did ๐ผ you ๐๐ just ๐ fucking ๐ปโ say ๐ฃ๐ about โจ๐ฆ me, you ๐ง๐ฆ little ๐๐ซ bitch? ๐ฉโ I'll ๐ต๐คข have you know ๐ I ๐ฌโ graduated ๐ฏ top ๐๐ผ of my ๐ฅ๐ class ๐ฅ๐ in ๐ข the ๐ Navy Seals, and I've been ๐ฅ๐ซ involved in โณ numerous secret raids ๐๐ค on Al-Quaeda, ๐๐
พ and ๐ฐ๐ I ๐ฐ๐ have ๐ over ๐โ 300 confirmed kills. โ I am trained ๐ป๐ป in gorilla warfare ๐ฃ and I'm ๐ซ the ๐ฑ top ๐๐ผ sniper in the ๐ฉ entire ๐๐ผ US armed forces. ๐ You are ๐ nothing to ๐
ฑ๐ me but just ๐ another ๐ target. I ๐๐ฃ will ๐
ฑ๐ฐ wipe ๐คค you ๐ค๐ the ๐ fuck ๐ป out ๐ป with ๐๐ precision the ๐ซ๐ซ likes of which ๐ has ๐ never ๐ค been ๐ท๐ seen ๐ before โฌ
๐ฐ on ๐คค this ๐ Earth, ๐๐ mark โ my ๐ฏ๐ถ fucking โก๐ words. You โโค think ๐ ๐ค you ๐ can ๐ฆ get away with ๐ฉ๐ saying ๐ฌ๐ฃ that shit ๐๐ป to โ๐
ฑ me over the Internet? ๐ Think again, fucker. โก As ๐๐ we ๐ผ๐ค speak I ๐๐ am contacting ๐๐ my ๐ฝ secret ๐ฑ๐ฑ network of spies across ๐ the ๐ USA ๐ and ๐ฅ your ๐๐ IP is ๐๐ฆ being traced ๐ right โค now ๐ so ๐ด you better ๐ค๐ prepare ๐ for the ๐๐ storm, maggot. The storm ๐ that ๐๐ wipes out the ๐๐ฅ pathetic ๐๐ little ๐ฉ thing you call ๐ฑ your life. You're ๐ fucking ๐ฏ dead, ๐ฅ๐ kid. ๐๐ถ I ๐๐ can ๐ฆ be anywhere, anytime, ๐๐ต and โ๐ซ I ๐ can ๐ซ๐ซ kill ๐ป๐ซ you ๐๐ in โฌ
๐ over ๐ณ๐ seven hundred ways, and that's ๐ just with ๐๐ my ๐๐ bare hands. ๐ Not ๐โ only ๐ค am ๐ฆ๐ฆ I ๐ถ extensively trained ๐จ๐ป in ๐๐ unarmed combat, ๐ก but I ๐ฉ๐ have ๐ access ๐ to the ๐ entire ๐๐ arsenal of ๐จ the ๐๐ United States ๐ Marine Corps and ๐ก๐ I will ๐ฆ use it to its full ๐ต๐ extent to wipe your ๐ป๐ miserable ass ๐๐ off ๐ก๐ the ๐ face of ๐ฆโค the continent, ๐ค you ๐จ๐ little ๐ shit. ๐๐ If ๐คฅ only you could have known ๐ซ what ๐ง unholy ๐ retribution your ๐ little ๐ผ "clever" comment was about ๐ฉโญ to โ bring โกโฌ
down โฌ upon you, maybe ๐ฟ you โ would have ๐ held โ your ๐๐ fucking ๐ฏ tongue. ๐
But ๐ผ you couldn't, you didn't, ๐ and ๐ฏ now ๐
๐ซ you're paying the price, you ๐๐ goddamn idiot. I ๐๐
ฑ will ๐ shit ๐ fury ๐ก๐ก all over you ๐ค๐ and ๐ฐ you will ๐ drown in it. You're ๐๐ค fucking dead, kiddo. ๐ฅ๐ฒ
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1st I have to say this b4 I repeat the post from fb. This is a place where I can speak my mind freely without judgement, speak my peace even. Which is exactly what im gonna do so prepare for a read. So think what u want idc, but the last thing I wanna do is tick some1 I know off cause on some level there's a mutual appreciation & respect regardless of my impression. And anyone that reads this isn't obligated to understand my opinion & I dont expect u to. With my brain its my thought process to let information out of my head so I can put things aside, observe & absorb more lol. Writing is another tool or coping mechanism for my anxieties & other psych ailments, treatment for my mental health depends on it & other hobbies in other words, especially during shutdown, something to focus on. Heck even youtube is recommended by my doctor if it keeps me happy lol. But because ill be working again, I may not have time to do alot of things I like sadly..idk i just wouldnt want to be burnt out & focus on more important things. I have a high respect for anyone working around people during this time & it must worrisome for u too, means I have to keep on my toes as well soon..its a scary world out there for an introvert but I was killin it in NY too. It was just a slow steady process with all the limitations & moving my life up there wasn't easy to begin with but I pulled through & did it all...only for it to be taken away.
So, I'm an Irish, German, Canadian,British Mut from tucson. Maternal & paternal immidiate families lineage mixed made me, including my NY blood from my bio dad. The rest is all over Europe but u get the idea. Tucson may be where i was born & my 1st home without a father & raised not knowing (were mardi gras babies btw ๐)
But NY is & will forever be my 2nd home i dont care what any1 says, I felt I belonged there. Its the other half of me quite literally.Theres a memory that's really been bugging me. Last day b4 i left it, a bald eagle flew across my path in the sky no joke going NE & I was departing back to the SW. I chose the eagle years ago cause I identify with it. including the background symbolism in different phases of my life that included them lol, but to actually see one was just amazing.
They symbolize strength+freedom in general despite it standing for the country from sea to shining sea lol. Also Braviary was always in my pokemon team besides pikachu since its gen came out lol. I've always been strong, whether some believe it to be true or not is their problem, only I know the things I've gone through. Point is different ends of the spectrum its always been with me throughout in some way & im glad i got to share it with someone that gave me the freedom I needed.
But yea I experienced what its like to be there & got to know that part of me even if I didn't find him & maybe didnt care...I feel I was meant to be there. I was in touch with my roots, lower Temps & above sea level rather than high temps & below sea level ๐คฃ I loved everything about my time up there. It'll always be a part of me, & I hope to see it again. But I digress.
But in regards to the relationship itself, emphasizing on what i said b4. Just as it i got "settled" in it was gone & I had no clue what was happening without my knowledge, the whole plan to bring me back, all of it, the whole chain of events that unfolded the way it did starting with leaving a marriage in the 1st place to be with him i mean come on lol. Chasing a dream that didn't play out the way we had hoped. I took leap of faith & I ended up starting over twice in 1 year with no benefit of the doubt. I still have my ny health insurance for the rest of the yr, I have to add it to my list to apply again in az. Ive been wearing the wrong prescription glasses for 6 months under quarantine & they're just now getting to stage 4 of opening lol. Just understand how frustrating that actually is for someone like me & u totally get it ๐
U want to take care of business but sometimes you're limited & gotta work around it. had all that covered there & then was told I settled, wrong thing to say & its no wonder I didn't blow up in his face right there & then ๐. But I have retraint & can control myself. Though it was out of my hands the new relationship didn't have to go sour, been just as long if not more, could've actually thrived given the proper balance with room to grow. Idk, Sometimes I honestly don't think anyone believed in me. I mean I have no debt, no record, no kids, im a clean slate type of girl lol. Yes I did end up feeling unappreciated, underestimated, a bit neglected, insecure about my body, ashamed for being myself, & I shouldn't have to feel that way at all & if that happens there obviously something off. I just didnt know what it is he wanted & needed, i wanted to help & be a good partner to this dude but why is it bad to ask the same in return? I shouldn't have to drastically change myself to fit someones standard i know, but...i needed the old him back, I missed the old us & wanted to get back to that.. Was always so closed off & probably ended up in his own head who knows, maybe there was guilt for some of the things he did & didnt want to hurt me anymore, spare my feelings any more than it did b4 it was too late.idk whatever the excuse i still don't know what triggered it all to fail so easily & i don't think i ever will. But ending up with the conclusion that I was the problem, its narcissistic to even believe that & i won't accept it. Not when he can't confront his own issuse & put blame onto himself too.. it was a low blow & literally felt like my heart was pierced at the sound of it. If im to blame its the other way around as well. My point of view wasn't acknowledged so this is my take & experiences of happened so plz dont hate me for speaking my truth.
But yea I can tell when somethings not right & feel strong empathy for others emotions. I knew something was different, there were signs everywhere since the mistrust started & during the last half of that time with him I questioned everything but sat in my own headspace as well as he did just thinking about it. If anything we failed eachother, the blame is on us both but idk what else i could've done to get through to him. That's the stubbornness, he wouldn't budge. Despite how things went down..Leaves me to think, what was the point of having me there in the 1st place, to not follow through with our shared hopes & dreams but instead spiral into such resentment for me that the interest faded. But at the at the same time...even if it ended early for him, I didn't give up & I fought to keep us okay which it was for the most part. Hindsight is 20/20, it definitely wasn't negative all the time. In fact things were great between us & acted like goofballs together, that right there is a friend despite if the stronger feelings weren't mutual. Nobody with hate in their heart acts like that, he was good, the best, cheered me up when I was down, shared interests & did things for eachother. But that alone makes me question what was truth & what was fiction sometimes ever since the trust between us started to fade. Am I in the right to feel what im feeling right now? Im angry & upset yes very, but the kindness he had throughout..he did care in his own way...which makes things so much harder.
Tripadoodle if some way you're listening, I hope u know now where im coming from. For your own benefit & quest to be a better man like you always wanted...actually try. Head my advice. Making yourself better shouldn't be put on a womans shoulders to do for u without her getting lifted in return...its alot of weight to handle for 1 person to carry lol. Get off your ass & build on yourself, learn from everything that happened & become better for yourself & the sake of others, Because it starts with u. Go to church if possible or watch them, it really does help. Even from across the country I still want u to do just as good & help u as a friend. You promised we could remain friends & im holding my end of the bargain whether u like it or not lol it was your idea during the ride here. All I wanted in the end was to not lose u in my life completely...but i should be patient i know.. Theres more space, im not contacting u directly & respecting that, eventually ill stfu lol but I feel I need this rn. I should hate u,but I cant hate u, I do still care, u had that affect on me so much that I can't really listen to others when they say ur a douchbag lol, u were still my rock the whole time even if u didn't feel the same after a while & u did help me alot as well. I see the good in people & u are good, with well balanced snarkiness & humorous sass to boot. light a fire under ur own ass & ull be okay lol. Never stopped believing in u. Ive seen what you can do, you're very smart & know your sh*t, u will go far lol. And as a friend I'd lend u my strength if I could but the most I can do is pray for things like safety/protection, healing, forgiveness, guidance, etc. Leave it to God if u feel compelled to. Give zanabell a hug for me.
God i talk way too much ๐
No im not doing any of this for attention, I want my voice to be heard as well as a possible learning experience if it had that effect on anyone. The things we learn build character & help us understand a little more about ourselves. Probably shouldn't share cuz its nobody's business, yea ive thought of that too.. But its a blog lol, Tumblr allowed it to be that space, opinions and rants are allowed & encouraged. Nothing wrong with that ๐คทโโ๏ธ so who gives a crap.
These are pictures of the NY sunrise & AZ sunset. Clouds always get me cuz of the shapes, used to to take pics of them all the time. once saw mario holding a hammer when I was a kid ๐ 3rd & 4th pic is a split rainbow, never seen that b4...either someone found the gold or its deciding whether or not to connect. Probably was connected but I missed it lol. But then I looked behind me after the split 1 disappeared & a double rainbow was forming. Nature can be scary but also beautiful
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dear queerphobic cis men
you can't have it both* ways
you can't simultaneously think
oh being trans is a mental illness
and
oh being trans is a political movement
AND
oh being trans is just whining for attention
pick one
*yes it's three. offer a suitable replacement word or stfu because linguistics are a social construct and if you're smart then you'll know what I mean, and if you're not smart, fuck off
if you're gonna hate us then pick a reason why. this isn't a matter of ~sjw bullshit~ here, I am playing the devil's advocate and giving you the chance to have a platform to vocalize your pov right here and now to have an open debate about things that you're wrong about and that I'm more educated on. I am letting you speak up and put together an essay on the subject. but you need a thesis statement. PICK ONE THESIS. if you want people to actually listen to you and let you exercise your right to freeze peach, you have to articulate your points in an academic formulaic system. and you have to choose one specific path. it's just pure logic.
you see, I'm not offended if you think it's a mental illness. if it's a mental illness then it needs to be treated and in the case of when symptoms become dangerous to themselves and the people around them, and medicated or given therapy, just like any other mental illness. I'm not offended that you think it's a political movement. if it's a political movement then it deserves an equivalent platform to speak its opinion on in an open debate. I'm not offended if you think it's just people wanting attention. that's just wildly incorrect from a sociological, psychological, biological, historical, logical, statistical, and linguistic perspective. give us the opportunity to respond to one cohesive and well-written solid concrete point, so that we can eventually one day reach a compromise that works out well for both of us, WHICH IS WHAT AMERICA WAS FUCKING FOUNDED ON. the founding fathers disagreed on literally everything but they came together and built this country. and since y'all suck the dicks of washington, adams, jefferson, madison, adams jr, franklin, hamilton, hancock, jay, etc so much, BE A MAN and be like them and listen to the ones you disagree with and BE A MAN and agree to disagree and BE A MAN and not a little bitch. after all, being a man is important to you.
(and if you're a transphobic cis woman, well, you're most likely a tradwife, terf, or just some dumb bitch, and you should really stfu and let the intellectuals with agency and brains speak.)
so go unify and put something together that's worthy of our time. make like your heroes and write a report, or at the very least the kind of five paragraph essay you demand from us, to allow a platform. this is russel's teapot. we've been here longer than you. you're the invader. you're the parasite. you're the foreigner. and you gotta play by the rules of the road if you wanna be taken seriously.
otherwise
and revel in your degenerate ignorant disgrace to the human race. you're not above us, you're below 18th century inventors, bankers, lawyers, journalists, doctors, merchants, farmers, and land surveyors turned militia commanders. you're classless, you're pathetic, and you're not worth my time.
"but everyone knows that-" then fucking prove it. do research on the subject from unbiased and trustworthy sources. listen to people from other cultures. listen to people who differ from you. listen. don't speak, don't argue, don't do any more than nod your head and ask clarifying questions when there's a break in conversation. listen, learn, and get educated beyond seventh grade biology, rick & morty quotes, and world war two video games. put in the work. stand by your opinion. defend it. flesh it out.
do the work.
or put up with me rubbing my gay and trans little hands all over everything you love with your
fucking
mouth
shut.
:)
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Acting like a dominant girl on Omegle gets you nowhere.
I'm a cismale and I thought 'Why not act like a woman tonight?' I chose to act like a dominant lesbian and this is the results
!!!EXPLICIT CONTENT WARNING!!!
Stranger: M or f
You: I'm a fucking human. It doesn't matter.
Stranger: Bitch STFU๐
You: I just want a casual chat.
You: Is that too much?
Stranger: No come get sum
Stranger: I'm NOT gay
Stranger: So if this a guy
Stranger: Leave me alone
You: Homophobic, I see.
Stranger: No I'm not
Stranger: That's what I am not
You: You said 'Leave me alone' as if you were afraid of a little homosexuality.
Stranger: I am I don't put myself around that energy
You: So...
Homophobic.
Stranger: Is this a girl if you a girl idc if you say allat but
You: Yeah it is, but what if I'm a lesbian?
Stranger: If you a guy you kinda wierd man
Stranger: That's coo
You: Why would it automatically be weird for a guy to say this, if I may?
Stranger: Wym?
Stranger: Guys shouldn't be talking bout anything gay
You: But girls can?
Stranger: I'm not gay so I don't associate with gay stuff
Stranger: Yes your a girl๐คฉ๐call me whateverrr
You: So you don't support LGBT+ and you shun gay dudes.
That's called Homophobic.
Stranger: But anywayssss๐
Stranger: I'm not homophobic
Stranger: Stop calling me gay girl๐ญ
You: You sure act like it.
You: I'm not calling you gay.
Homophobic is afraid of gays.
Stranger: Ohhhhh
You: Or a hatred for them
Stranger: I don't hate it's just idc to hear bout it
You: And if you do?
Stranger: Wym?
You: You don't care to hear about it.
What happens if you do?
Stranger: Well then I'm tb gay stuff Wich I don't like tbh๐
Stranger: But when a girl tb it it's okay
You: 'tb'?
Stranger: Talking about
Stranger: Wyd tho?
You: Your fragile masculinity is laughable.
You: Would you believe me if I said I'm sucking a dick?
Stranger: Naw
Stranger: Are you
You: No.
Stranger: Why would you ask me then funny af๐คฃ๐คฃ
Stranger: I'm eating sum pussy rn so...
Stranger: ๐คฃ
You: To see if you were as much of a creep as you come-
Yeah... I think I proved my point.
Stranger: I was just kidding calm tf down
Stranger: ๐๐
You: Fragile
Masculinity.
Stranger: Fradgile masculinity?
Stranger: Bitch enough big words we aint in school rn
You: School is for people who want to do something big in life.
All you wanna do is shun me for being smarter than you and shun guys for being gay.
Stranger: No idc if they gay so stop you dumb hoe
You: Then interact with men in the LGBT+ community... 'you dumb hoe'
Stranger: Prolly was sucking dick๐๐
Stranger: Me nooo
Stranger: Your not getting me to do that who you think you is shorty๐ญ๐คฃ๐คฃ
You: What does dick sucking have to do with you talking to a gay dude?
Stranger: I'm not talking to no gayyy dudeee
You: I have a bigger dick than you.
Stranger: Nada
You: Fragile fucking Masculinity
Stranger: Bitch I will fuck the back off you
You: I hope the fuck you do
Stranger: Arch that back hoe
You: You're either
A.) A perv
or B.) Rocking on fragile masculinity.
You have to choose one.
Stranger: You would be beggin for yo life if I eat that pussy how I wanted๐๐
Stranger: I'm not a perv or I'm not gay so...
Stranger: What color hair you got?
You: Fragile Masculinity means your so self conscious about someone being more 'manly' than you so you act tough around ladies to raise your personality points. And lemme tell ya, it aint workin.
It has nothing to do with being gay.
You: Why does that matter?
I'm never having your babies.
Stranger: Wtf that ain't me I was js I am not gay and keep the gay talk away from me but baby ion know where you got allat at butttt...
Stranger: Bitch I don't want you to have my babies
You: Gay talk-
Were you not fucking listening?
Being a man of fragile masculinity means you have self esteem issues about your manliness.
You: Then why ask?
Stranger: Ik what I am and you ain't about to clown me and tell me who I am you clowning fr baby๐คฃ๐คฃ๐ญ
You: If I am a clown, what will you do?
Stranger: I don't
You: You do.
You: You really do.
Stranger: No I don't ouuu I would fuck the life out youuu
You: You do. Saying shit like "I would fuck the life out of you" proves it.
Stranger: But what you wanna tb
You: I wanna talk about your low self-esteem.
Stranger: Bet it up shorty
You: Or is it that your self-esteem is so high that you're afraid of lil' ol' me?
Stranger: And you must have problems about how you feel about yourself to be judging meee.๐
You: I'm living my best life.
Stranger: Who afraid of you bitch becuas I definitely am tf not
Stranger: Yea
You: Calling someone names in an argument really lowers your personality points.
Stranger: IDGAF ๐คฃ
You: Yeah you do.
Stranger: Personality points๐
Stranger: Yo ass is evil I like that๐๐
You: Then again, you were already at zero points, so now you're at negative-go-fuck-yourself points.
You: I take pleasure in reading that you like the evil in me.
Stranger: I get off on that๐๐
You: I bet you masturbate to CBT porn
Stranger: Evil is attractive
Stranger: To me
You: Good thing I'm not gonna ever see you in my life.
Stranger: And you got it written all over youuuu๐ฅบ๐
Stranger: See evil asl I luvvvv it
Stranger: Keep thinking positive baby
You: Good thing I don't 'luvvvv' you.
Stranger: Oh no that is luv not love
Stranger: Different meanings๐
You: Ah, luv is a pervert's version of love.
Stranger: Prostitute ass bitch stop hateing yo ass is insecure
Stranger: Fr๐คฃ
Stranger: Just talk to me girlll๐
You: If I was a prostitute, I wouldn't be on here.
Secondly, you're insecure for thinking that I'm hating on you.
Stranger: Ik you are hahaha
You: I'm laughing so hard...
Stranger: I'm not thinking ik you are
Stranger: Go head laugh it up
You: You really think I'm laughing at your jokes?
I'm laughing at your insecurites.
You: insecurities*
Stranger: Bitch you pissing me off๐
Stranger: No I am not .
You: Good.
If you want me to stop, then talk to a fucking homosexual, you homophobe.
Stranger: Just talk normal
Stranger: Daum
You: This is my normal talk.
Stranger: Why you gotta constantly be tb sum gay or judging realshit girl if that was regular talk you gotta find better things to tb
Stranger: Wyd rn??
You: Talking to a dumbass.
Stranger: Here you go again bitch๐๐I do kinda luv that lil additude
You: I talk about great things, I just get ticked off when guys think they can treat girls like toys for their sex.
You: You think you can belittle me?
Stranger: Lmao and who is doing that??
You: You're really out here... on some fucking crack or something,
Stranger: Who is belittle you I was gon treat you good like fr b4 you started calling me names and judging you little bitch so don't think shit sweet
Stranger: Wasn't even belittle you but I'ma do it now because you brought it up so...
You: I don't care if you hate me. You're a stranger on the internet who is getting mad for some girl on Omegle.com talking shit.
Stranger: I'm not mad
Stranger: Lmaooo
Stranger: You think you getting to me naww
Stranger: Don't trip
You: I wish that were true.
You're struggling with your fragile masculinity, so you hide behind this persona of bravery and cockiness.
Stranger: Your funny tho fr
You: Learn to spell, numbnuts
Stranger: You were struggling with your masculinity who TF says that shit
You: Me.
Stranger: Your the first person I ever heard say that
You: Because no one else is like me.
Stranger: But shorty I wasn't tryna belittle you I wasn't tryna fuck nun of day I was just tryna make sum friends lmao
You: Well this 'shorty' will not be your friend simply because you have a small penis and you're afraid of me.
Stranger: I'm not afraid of you and my dick ain't small!
You: Prove it.
Stranger: How girl
You: Act like a big dick dude and prove you're not afraid.
Stranger: Girl Ik I'm not scared of youu
Stranger: .๐คฃ
Stranger: I thought you ain't want no dick?
You: Prove you're not scared of me.
Also, I said I didn't want YOUR dick.
Stranger: Come grab this mfka then
You: What is there to grab?
Stranger: Slobber it all down๐
Stranger: Ykyk
You: I can't touch something non-existent.
Stranger: Yeah let's go ahead and play this game๐คฃ
Stranger: Girl yk I got dickk
You: Act like it then.
Stranger: Don't even try to act like you dont.
You: Don't have a dick or don't want your micro-penis?
Stranger: I got dick promise ya girl๐
You: Well, stop calling me 'girl', firstly and then I'll consider believing you.
Stranger: What's your name here I'll treat you better
You: It's fucking Bob. I'm not telling you my name.
Stranger: Wow
Stranger: Girl
Stranger: Evil๐ฅฐ๐ฅฐI luvvv it
You: No. Just staying private.
Stranger: It's okay I'm julian
You: You're very trusting.
Stranger: Thx
You: That's not good.
Stranger: You think I'm trustworthy that what you saying
Stranger: You bi polar huh
You: No. I'm saying you trust people too easily.
Also, no. I'm just blunt.
Stranger: I like it fr tho I think you is bi polar you be getting mad at me for no reasonnn
Stranger: Who said I trust?
You: I'm laughing. I'm not mad.
Stranger: I trust no one๐คซ
Stranger: Me too
You: What part of Arizona do you live in?
So I can maim you/
You: .*
Stranger: You in phx
You: Why would I tell you that?
Stranger: No I just don't give 2 fucxks what you gon do kill me?๐๐
Stranger: Aint nobody onnat
You: If that's what it takes to get you to leave this conversation, then yes.
Stranger: If I meet up wit these bitches nun of them gon have me worried nun of them are gon press me
Stranger: .
Stranger: What's your issue nowww๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐คฃ
Stranger: You be having me rolling istg๐คฃ
You: Just give up. You aren't going to win this battle. You're an issue and I'm losing brain cells listening to your grammar and incessant rambling.
Stranger: Bitch come suck my dick
Stranger: Idc
Stranger: Idc
You: No, I don't think I will.
Stranger: Thought you wanted dick?
You: Not yours.
Stranger: All you bitched want my dick๐คซ
You: Your dick is small. I asked you to prove that you even had a penis by acting like it. Are you fucking brainless?
Stranger: I got drug dealer swag baby I can give to fucs what you think bout me
Stranger: ๐
You: Ah, so you give me a reason to get you incarcerated?
Stranger: Bitch we anonymous
You: True, but I have my ways.
Stranger: You don't wanna take it their fr
You: I should probably head out before I become braindead. It wasn't nice talking to you.
Stranger: Like realshit
You: 'Kay, bye~
Stranger: Why you leaving
You: Because you're dumb. Why else?
Stranger: Okay I guess
Stranger: Could've had sum dick girl but...
Stranger: You ain't want nu
You: I'm a lesbian.
You have disconnected
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