My love for her and my lust for ciggarettes both are toxic, yet i want every bit of it.
-Yash
41 notes
·
View notes
sink anchor down to Davy,
borrow time from his pearls
diving off those cliffs
at the paper-edge of the world
build a castle underwater
to run away from the sun
hoping and holding -
will this love be enough?
29 notes
·
View notes
Paying Penance to Residual Worth
Isn't there more time?
We began to spread apart the darkness,
and, for whatever reason, it left us silenced
in a hopeless trance of messiness
distanced from nocturnal remembrance,
those odd reverberating dreams, scuttled to the core -
we make out with less than we did
bringing solace along with our pride, a price to pay
nothing ever came for free and
a delusion we doubled down on made sense (at the time)
Once was never enough to prime the value
of our circuitry, certainly the choice was mine all along,
alone to face the fractured cold of eternity.
Lifting out the bones from the fragile grave,
this will be the last time I'll say goodbye.
11 notes
·
View notes
He had one of his dreams that night, and cried in his sleep for a long time, and Wendy held him tight.
J.M. Barrie, Peter and Wendy
121 notes
·
View notes
Your Wormy Shell
No, of course I would still love you
if you were a worm.
I’d put you in a pot of soil
and fill it with whatever it is worms
like to eat.
But you wouldn’t be able to talk to me,
so what is it that you could love?
If not my body, my humour, our conversations,
then what is there left?
I suppose the memory of who it is inside
your wormy shell.
But what if you never had that memory and what
if you met me when I was a worm and you were
just out walking and I was there on the
concrete writhing around.
Fine, if you were a worm, I would think
you were a worm,
maybe at best a nice looking worm but
I wouldn't love you.
94 notes
·
View notes
Even if I couldn't have you,
my subconscious found ways
to write you into existence.
- G.L. Angelone
11 notes
·
View notes
Memories
memories flash by so quickly
rather the time dissipates,
until it's gone and stained
in places you had long forgotten;
distant and mundane
you can almost touch it
but it fades away,
right in the grasps
of things that betray;
a love learned the hard way
like finding an old photo
in a shoebox
scented with cologne
a 4x6 canvas
painted with memory;
emotion captured vacantly
photos become memoirs
felt like a scar
a permanent reminder
always remembered;
but never felt fully there
letters become mail
never sent
with words never said
and lipstick marks
faded and pale;
But beneath the envelope
the words are there,
they're all written
memories that could have been
memories that were;
ones that are happening
filling in the blanks
with risks we didn't take
memories we never made
and times that never stayed;
like a burned out star
we treasure keepsakes
for tears to stain
blurring the memories
and written letterings
learning one thing;
time is worth everything
----------------------------------
regrets are never promising
46 notes
·
View notes
Labyrinth
When do we feel alive?
Is it the wind during a late night drive?
Or some warm breeze on a field?
Maybe swaying in yours room all night,
Incase everything's gonna be alright.
Seeking your soul to calm down,
Cause the verity is not so brown.
If the rhythm of euphoria stops,
Go to the labyrinth and never come back.
-Me(T)
43 notes
·
View notes
TITLE - The brain's dismal game
Your tears feel red
They didn't do as they said
But, neither did you
That stays true
《🥀》
What a terrible brain I am darling
Filled with posions and tonics daring;
Daring you, to down a vial or two
What more harm could they do?
《🧠》
No more than you do to yourself
So go on, empty the shelf
Drink resentment, and get drunk of fear!
You lose everyone eventually, dear
《⏰️》
To death; it's manners countless
Your soul, torn by cutlass
Relationships rot, the decay by silence
Mere speaking feels like violence
《🩸》
It makes you run and hide
To feel as though it is acid, you've cried
You fear the masks that take their faces
You have clawed at their embraces
《⚔️》
The snakes of your mind run amok
The tulips here, rot without giving a fuck
No good is a rotting garden mind
It was something they didn't want to find
《🚷》
Dare to face it or not, afterall
It is nothing new for you to fall
It seems they will never listen nor wait
You have only worn their patience too late
《🪭》
You're just being selfish again, kid
The heart now owes me, we bid
《🫀》
2 notes
·
View notes
I'm moving out.
I'm moving out and then I'm moving in.
I've got a car packed full of stuff
and I feel constipated with all the things.
Does pscyho-somatic grimace mean anything to you?
The last time I ate, was midnight.
6am and I'm at it again.
I think it was spaghetti. I forget.
I forget that my body exists. And I insist
on going and going, and never stopping.
I make it seem like I'm pausing, but there isn't enough stopping
in the pausing. the sweet melting under.
It's exhausting to go on and on without the _____.
The clause in the sentence is this.
+++
Active and passive. Active and passive. ride it and find it. but don't get blind to it. Sometimes I share, and sometimes I stare. I stare because I don't believe. It's exhausting to fix it. It's exhausting to predict it.
I just want to flow.
I don't know. But I also know that I gotta give it a go. You have to own the instant and decide what you want to do when you dance. If you make a statement you need to know what you want to say. if you also just tryna scribble and see that's also a way that it can be.
on the flip side scribbling and seeing means also still being rooting in some sort of meaning. An intention. a devotion or something. an idea, or a concept to work on. plug in and give it what you got. choose to go there. the cypher space is different.
++++
I feel like there is this weird unspoken wall.
between me and all the yt peepo in the room.
Not tryna draw lines here, but I'm here, and you're there.
I be sayin' it. but it's like crickets. fck this.
What the hell ya'll staring at?
++++
Something is sitting on my lungs.
++++
I really really need space. I really really really need space.
++++
I don't know if I want to live with you. But I'm moving in with you. I also think I want to live with you so I'm moving in with you. I need to save money and you want to support me, so I'm moving in with you. I love you, and you love me, so I'm moving in with you. Look at all this dirty laundry. So why am I doing this again?
++++
I will never take a working drain for granted again.
let it flow
let it flow.
7 notes
·
View notes
care is a word that will never be used lightly, nor correctly.
4 notes
·
View notes
Waiting for that day when my inner child will say you did enough and iam proud of you!
-Yash
32 notes
·
View notes
new love springs within his eyes
like raindrops, flutter down
and softly settle in the room
as new life is crowned
12 notes
·
View notes
Chisel
How do you chisel out a fraction of hope
which tool do you use for the tough bits
how do you whittle down til you're fixed
and which wood do you fashion your truth with?
7 notes
·
View notes
in this pocket. for a moment of time.
i love my mother. she never hurt me.
i love my dad, who never screamed.
i love my brothers, the first who never made me bleed
the second who never made me cry.
i love my sisters, one who never broke my heart
another who never sold me for cheap.
~~ vilate
9 notes
·
View notes
i’ll always love my angel❤️ - - #poetry #poem #poems #poet #writersofinstagram #write #writer #writing #bookstagram #wattpad #exerptfromabookillneverwrite #words #wordporn #spilledwords #spilledink #spilledpoetry #heartbreak #hearache #relationship #love (at 𝘊𝘓𝘖𝘜𝘋𝘚) https://www.instagram.com/p/Ck6V5_JPKIr/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=
8 notes
·
View notes