#spell gets emotional

[solanj]

Desperation

#rogue trader #Theciya von Valancius #Tervantias the Archmachinator #warhammer 40k #rogue trader spoilers #haemonculus #solanj art #this game is doing THINGS to me #I can't really express it without sounding all fake #so I just try to draw stuff #not even really the stuff that hit me the most #just the stuff that I CAN handle #both skill-wise and emotion-wise #hopefully eventually I will be able to draw the OTHER stuff too #also I'll get back to illustrations too at some point #I swear #for now just bear with me please #also do I need to spell out which companion she chooses to get back there #or is it obvious enough at this point? ^^"

[actual-changeling]

no i am not done with the breakup scene yet. it haunts me during the day and it haunts my dreams, soon i will be able to replay it in my head on command. today's obsession: tell me you said no

firstly, i think it's important to point out just how deep the miscommunication runs here. aziraphale is excited, outright giddy about the news he is delivering, and he expects crowley to be just as happy about them.

after all, he thinks he is giving crowley what he has always wanted - they can go off together, he can be an angel again, which to zira equals being on the good side. the side of *light*. he remembers crowley's creation, remembers how in awe and happy he was with it, and thinks that is what he is offering.

aziraphale's expressions during this scene are probably gonna be their own post, but long story short he switches between excited and confused like a broken light switch, unable to decide which one to settle on.

crowley, well, crowley is angry. angry and confused and completely caught off guard because aziraphale is shaking the very foundation of what crowley currently thinks to be their relationship. the horror dawns on him pretty early, but he tries to fight it off, tries to convince himself that no, aziraphale wouldn't. he wouldn't agree to that, he KNOWS me. he knows i don't want to go back, he knows both sides are equally bad.

tell me you said no. tell me i wasn't wrong about you, about us. tell me i didn't misjudge our entire relationship. tell me the last millennia were worth something, anything.

tell me you said no.

if you rewatch the scene, you will notice that crowley never breaks eye contact, he stares aziraphale down the entire time. unless it was literally blink and you will miss it, i am pretty sure he does not even blink. not once. aziraphale on the other hand is looking everywhere but at him, his gaze flicks around just as much as his expression. crowley tries again, one last time. tells him you know they will both destroy this planet, humanity, us. it doesn't matter which side wins, the result will be the same. we KNOW that. we SAW that. we stopped it from happening.

aziraphale does not answer.

he does not have to. crowley can read him well enough to know exactly what he responded, and even if he couldn't - he knew from the beginning. he just cannot believe the answer. he still can't.

it's one of his fatal flaws, isn't it, believing in aziraphale and in them against every rule and threat the universe throws at them.

now to get to the part that breaks my heart.

crowley repeats himself again, not breaking eye contact while aziraphale tries to avoid his gaze.

tell me you said no.

he still hopes. after that entire conversation, he still hopes.

when the silence stays unbroken he steps towards him, asking one. last. time.

angel tell me you said no.

this. this frame. this is when the realization hits him full force, the truth he has been trying to talk and rationalize his way out of. he has been begging aziraphale to tell him that he did not betray him, them.

everything he has been fighting for the last six thousand years, all the thoughts telling him he is worth less than aziraphale because he fell, because he is a demon, evil, on the wrong side. everything he has been unlearning, accepting that he can be kind, he can be good. accepting that aziraphale cares about him, fuck, maybe even loves him.

crowley thought aziraphale is the one being that sees him, truly sees him, which is why he offers himself without his glasses - his last layer of protection.

he betrayed us. he has never been with me, we have never been on our side, not when he chooses heaven over the fragile, peaceful existence they have carved out for themselves. he took care of the bookshop, allowed zira to take his bentley, cleaned up and tidied and prepared it for his return, for the both of them. just to get all of it thrown into his face, to have it degraded as not good enough. to have HIMSELF degraded as not good enough.

and after all that. after that realization, the pain, the break in what he thought was their reality.

after aziraphale telling him that he plans on leaving earth and wants crowley to be someone he is.

crowley swallows his tears and he steps back, keeps his glasses off and continues with his confession anyway. his voice breaks several times throughout it, he is on the verge of crying. i will probably make a separate post about all that but once again, tldr he suppresses tears throughout his entire speech.

i want to spend eternity with you and he cannot say it because he knows he would break on eternity and start crying. somehow, crowley still hopes that maybe this will change his mind, this will make him realize that he needs to stay here, stay with me.

crowley hopes and hopes and hopes and aziraphale finally meets his gaze and all he responds is nothing lasts forever.

no, i don't suppose it does.

still, what is left but to keep hoping that maybe one day, they will be an us, even if it isn't forever. even if it's just one day, one kiss, one second of being held and kissed back.

crowley keeps hoping and that, to me, is the most painful part of it all.

#alex talks good omens #good omens #good omens season 2 #good omens 2 spoilers #ineffable husbands #aziraphale #crowley #aziracrow #aziraphale x crowley #good omens meta #this got so much longer than i intended for it to be rip #i feel like it is important to mention that these posts are not planned in the slightest #i look at some screencaps experience emotions and then write a stream of consciousness #i hope it has enough of a red thread that people can follow though #any spelling mistakes and the like are because i do not proof read my tumblr posts #you get my unfiltered brain vomit

[mortalfortaxpurposes]

gray / handwritten immortals lyrics

#something something HEALING #watch me get emotional over what is probably a spelling mistake #fall out boy #my post

[omgeto]

WAIT WAIT. you and geto both cheating on your partners with each other and while one of yall are finally getting ready to leave the partner, the other doesn’t. they can’t. they won’t.

geto suguru show's up at your house, his heart pounding, his mind racing. he pauses before he knocks on your door, 'did I really just end things with my girlfriend' he thinks to himself. he can't forget that sad look on his now ex girlfriends face when he dumped her. but that was overpowered by his excitement of finally getting to be with you, with no complications, no sneaking around.

but when you finally open the door, half your body stood behind it as you talk in a hushed tone, he could feel something's off. his confidence continues to dim the more the pity in your eyes increases and just before geto can even confront you on what you did — what you didn't do. he hears the voice of the one person he thought he didn't have to think about anymore.

"babe, who's at the door," your husband calls, the husband you've had for years, the husband you've been cheating on, the husband that you told geto to not worry about, the one that you said you were going to leave.

"oh it's just a nobody," you call back to him, and your words strike geto since they were true and he could see that now. to you, he'd always be a nobody, you were never going to leave your husband. before you had a chance to apologise, to properly explain, geto turns on his heel, feeling tears spring to his eyes, and he storms down you street using all his will power to not turn and look back at you.

#there #this is all I got #SINCE I LIKE FLUFFY ENDINGS #SINCE OOOOF FULL ANGST IM TOO EMOTIONAL #BUT YOURE GETTING MY JUICES GOING #IF THERES SPELLING MISTAKES IGNORE ITS 7:30 AM AND THIS IS A SHITPOST #★ — emptalkshit!

[fia-bonkginya]

Wrayne doesn’t bother finishing her sentence. She can hear the transmission cut out, and she knows that Cerrit can’t hear her anymore. So she takes a moment, just one, to close her eyes and breathe, before Kir speaks up, his voice much quieter than usual.

“Mom? Why’d you stop talking?”

She swallows, opens her eyes, and looks at her children. Kir’s eyes are wide, frightened and confused, and Maya is still clutching that strange orb like it holds the answers to all of life’s problems, and maybe it does. “Sometimes,” Wrayne says, “when there’s powerful magic where you are, it can stop other kinds of magic from working. Your father is in a place with a lot of magic right now, and that magic got so strong that it broke his sending stone.”

Kir nods, and Wrayne can see Maya’s eyes narrow a bit as she processes that, trying to decide if she believes it. And Wrayne isn’t lying- that is a simplified version of the truth, or at least what she believes the truth is. “Do you think he’s really coming home?” Maya asks, voice small, hands still tight around the orb.

Wrayne kneels down in front of them, puts one hand on Kir’s cheek and the other on Maya’s shoulder. “He promised that he’d try. So we’re going to be patient, and we’re going to trust him, and we’re going to hold onto our hope, alright?”

Both children nod, their eyes shining with tears that she’s sure will be shed in the coming days. 

~~

Later, after both children have fallen into an uneasy sleep, Wrayne grabs a piece of parchment paper and sits down at the kitchen table to do some math.

She writes down her own top speed, and how many miles she can cover in a day before needing to rest. And then she thinks for a second, about how far and fast she could really fly, if there was danger behind her and maybe ahead of her, if she was trying to reach her family before that danger did, and she scribbles out those numbers and writes two more, higher this time. And then she thinks again, about Cerrit’s training, of all his years flying and fighting through the city of Avalir, and she scribbles again, makes them just a little bit higher.

Next, she moves through the home, checking on the children for a moment, making sure that they’re still asleep, until she finds a map of Exandria. She lays it out on the table, and then she draws an X over Domunas, where Cerrit was, and another over her own location. 

And then Wrayne starts drawing a line.

She curves it, over islands and coastlines, knowing that even Cerrit will need to pause to rest. And when she’s done, she measures it, and she goes back to those two numbers that she wrote, and she calculates. 

Three weeks.

Maybe four, if he’s injured or didn’t have time to plan out a route like she did and has to backtrack, or...

Three weeks, maybe four.

Wrayne drops her quill and sits back in her chair, letting out all of the breath in her lungs in a long exhale. Three weeks, maybe four. She doesn’t know what the coming days will look like, doesn’t fully understand yet what the children needed to run from, what Cerrit is trying to run from. But she will hold onto these numbers. They will be her strength, they will give her what she needs to make sure the three of them, her and Maya and Kir, are ready for Cerrit when he returns.

Because he has to return.

Three weeks, maybe four.

She can endure.

#critical role #exu calamity #cr spoilers #critical role calamity #cerrit agrupnin #wrayne agrupnin #cr fic #exandria unlimited #i am . full of emotions. and i had to get some of them out. #cr fandom wiki i hope you were right about how to spell cerrit's wife's name fjdkfjdk #mine

[gottagobackintime]

Ted doing that weird analogy thing isn’t that strange, even in this situation. He always does these things. Talks about something that seems totally irrelevant but that has a core message. You can hate his analogy as much as you want and sure, it was messy. But what he really tried to say was actually really nice and something that you don’t hear that often. “We care.” Because yes, as the players say, they don’t care that Colin is gay. And it IS supportive but at the same time, it IS kind of dismissive. And this is what Ted is trying to say, Colin has faced so much hardship because of who he is and will continue to do so whether or not he comes out to the public. So they should care. Because that’s what true allies should do. They should care. Because not caring could lead to indifference. (Not saying that the team would end up feeling indifferent, they would probably kill to protect Colin tbh.) It's such a small detail to include but I think that it's beautiful. Because it's so true, "We don't not care.". Yes, we don't care that you're queer, you are still you, but we DO care about what you've been going through and will go through. I don't know, I just think that it was a great thing to adress, how seemingly accepting words can be interpreted.

Something else about Ted's clumsy analogy I want to bring up that I find interesting is that they cut to Trent’s reaction when Ted says “because I didn’t care” with air quotes. And Trent is smiling. Because I believe that Trent understands Ted. Sees what he’s trying to say. Trent picks up on what Ted is saying before Ted spells it out for Colin (and the team) and we also get to see Trent’s reaction to that moment. But Trent already knew that’s what he meant. Colin and the team just needed Ted to speak clearly. And perhaps he should have done that from the start, but he got there in the end. But Trent already understood.

#ted lasso #ted lasso spoilers #I also think that Ted gets strangely emotional when he says that he should have supported his friend and been there #so I think that it might be something deeper there that is not about dip or sports #he's looking down and he puts his hand in front of his chest so yeah I think that it's deeper than what the story he tells suggest #I don't know I'm just not upset about Ted's speech because I understood what he was saying #even before he spelled it out #and I mean he apologises when he's called out and he says it in another clearer way #people don't always say things in the right way and I feel like at times they are judged far too harshly #nicole watches stuff

[brainworms-all-night-long]

So shower thoughts gave me the most painful and saddening realization about Tails

He is just so little, like tiny, really really small. Even currently in the cannon when he's around 8 years old. He's just a little guy. So imagine how fucking disgusting and vile a person must be to see this young, innocent looking child and decide they can hit and pick on it. That they can physically and verbally abuse a tiny defenseless fox, just because of an odd genetical mutation.

I sometimes feel bad when I clapp an annoying ass fly and think about the fact that I killed a living being for too long. But people on Westside Island just looked at a poor orphan fox kit that probably couldn't even properly talk yet and went, "oh yea let's beat him and cement it in his head that he's a freak undeserving of love."

It genuinely hurts me to think that anyone slightly older than him could, without much of a problem, just grab him by the scruff of the neck and be free to do basicaly whatever with him. It's not like back than he had any power or strength to stop it, because he was just a weak child bellow the age of four.

And another painful thing was that it wasn't just one person tormenting him. It was a group, almost an entire village. And not a single person thought to step in to save that kit becasue he was concidered a freak. So there was no reason to bother. No reason to care. You either engaged in the bullying or you ignored it.

If it were not for Sonic running around at just the right time, than Tails probably would've went Nine's route of using his talent of inventing as a means of protecting himself. Had it not been for his kid genious either however... I just, fear he would've been beaten to death, possibly never feeling like he deserved to live in the firts place.

All that and he was just.. a little child.

#sonic the hedgehog #like ig mobians have s l i g h t l y differrnt aging than humans #and can probably survive on their own very young #but that still doesnt change the fact that Tails was a baby #like actuall young child when people decided its ok to abuse him because of his extra tail #and I just #mgmfmfm #im in tears #dedass getting emotional over a fictional anthropomorphic flying fox whos name is ''Miles per Hour'' #please please I just #i need to hug #this little guy #please #tails the fox #miles tails prower #tw child abuse #sonic angst #edited cause bs spelling mistakes #silly brainworms

[theexodvs]

Was it going to be an surprise that the guy who nipped my ankles about me moving warm fuzzies, "emotional fulfillment" and other DCOM-tier trash far away from the center of my relationship would also be the same person who's unwilling to commit to his own relationship by marrying his girlfriend?

#Love is a commitment #It is an act of will #One day I hope to vow to my gf that I will cherish her #To have and to hold #in sickness and in health #For rich or for poor #for better or for worse #til death do us part #And MEAN IT #Love #Marriage #Dating #Relationships #Whoever my future wife is there will be some days where things get tough #And if I'm just seeking my own emotional fulfillment or whatever those days will spell divorce for us #But I'm not that way and neither is my gf #Guy's also a candaulist because of course

[queenofapeacefuldawn]

Rudy's favourite nickname for Mini is jaan. It means life, but it's also a reassurance for the daughter of death. A child who's so well-acquainted with her father in one of the worst ways. She's surrounded by death every day— she sees it in her patients, she herself had to protect them from death several times. He could see it wearing down on her, that shadow of death dimming her bright spark of light, so he decided to whisper that nickname. In an unguarded moment, when she laughed freely, hiding a perpetual sadness. She was confused, and she asked her question with a laugh: "Why that nickname? I hope you're aware you sound like every main character of every Bollywood movie,"

He just smiles and buries his face in the crook of her neck, saying, "Well, it's true, you are jaan."

She just snickered, calling him sappy and cringey, but he couldn't help but notice how she brightened every time he called her that. Like a spark turning into a new flame.

#[grips you by the shirt] do you see my vision #ALSO WE DO NOT TALK ABOUT MY SPELLING OF CRINGEY #this one got away from me ngl #i'm supposed to be doing 2 comprehensions rn #but i Do Not have the emotional stability to #so here #you get a weird drabble on why rudy calls mini jaan (he's only called mini jaan in my mind) #my brain went: “haha. what if funny snek boi called his wife 'jaan' bc it cute nickname” #and then my brain went: “wait give it backstory” #mindy

[voltrixz]

Why YOU should go vote for Electro (TSSM) in @cartoon-character-competition​

First off this is like the first time I have managed to get Electro into a competition which is a CRIME in itself already 

You may be familiar with Electro from the usual Spiderman comics or movies but trust me tssm Electro is the best Electro ever.

Like LOOK AT THIS GUY HE FUCKIN ROCKS, HIS DESIGN IS SICK AS HELL!!!!!

and well this guy has been through a lot. He used to be an engineer at Dr Connors lab where they were studying and experimenting on radioactive eels. (probably not a good idea but ok) And well well after a work accident, Electro (previously known as Max) goes from 

to 

and well while his new look is sick as hell, lets just say it makes just trying to function properly really REALLY difficult and after being frustrated about no one being able to help and facing the possibiltity his life may never go back to normal, he runs off fuming. 

And what does one angry man just turned into living walking form of electricity do? Buy coffee of course 

(this is how he looks fully suited up and with a disguise outfit on top btw )(which is why he looks a bit different here) 

Anyways he realizes he cant even drink “a measly cup of coffee” anymore and freaks out, alerting peter parker who chases after him after electro freaks out storms off. 

 So what happens next?

- Peter attacks him thinking he’s a threat (he’s not hes just freaking out and pissed off)

- Realizing his mistake Peter tries to help but Electro now refuses and is ultimately defeated 

- He’s sent to a mental institution to recover and it seems he had but nope as soon as he’s out he’s out for revenge

- He teams up with the sinister six, gaining both a mentor/father figure in Doc Ock (leader of the sinister six)

- Is defeated again and no longer pretends to try to recover at the mental institution when he’s sent back and looses faith in his new mentor 

- Is recruited back into a new Sinister six and recovers that faith again in his  mentor 

- Once again defeated and is abandoned by said mentor figure and almost loses his life if it wasnt for Peter saving him.

- From then on he’s sent to an insane asylum and well I sure wish we knew what happened next

BECAUSE WE DONT BECAUSE TSSM WAS CANCELLED AT SEASON 2 WHEN WE WERE SUPPOSED TO GET AT LEAST LIKE 5 

so yeah not only is Electro’s story tragic, it doesnt even get a PROPER ENDING 

but lets focus on the positives for a bit shall we?

(laying out some images of him, i need you guys to look at him)

like LOOK AT HIM!!!!! he’s got both, the silly expressions and beyond pissed off ones, a true balance, he’s both a bit of goofy loser and cool as hell 

oh and btw he’s trans coded as hell

first off unlike the other villains who dont mind whether you call them from their actual name or villain alias, Electro has a strong distaste over his old name. Angrily calling out people who dont refer to him as Electro. 

Not only that but he’s seen and treated as an outcast. That is until joining the sinister six, a band of outcasts just like him where he’s even eager to join back.

Plus he just radiates trans swag (also a a majority of the tssm fandom has come to a agreement that yeah electro is trans and is in no way cis )

LIKE GO TBOY GO!!!! KILL!!!!!!

Also theres even subtle nod of him even being queer as when he laments on what he wanted to do before the accident, he says “you know i had plans before all this, go back to college, meet someone, have a LIFE” 

You may have noticed he never specifies whether he wants to meet a girl or a guy which like  🏳️‍🌈 ? 

(also in the comics, Electro is canonically bisexual so....)

so yeah I know this site loves the owl house and belos is a good villain and all but he’s a terrible, completely irredeemable, asshole of a person and cmon would you really let electro lose to a guy like that? After all the guy’s been through? 

Plus a win for a electro is a win for trans/queer people all around (has made me cry and sob over his story as I relate to a lot of the aspects in his story personally as a queer/trans person and has made me so so attached to him) (has made me be so proud of being trans and give me hope about officially transitioning someday) (funny enough he actually helps me cope with my gender dysphoria A LOT and he has geniuely helped me so much and he means so so much to me)

So go vote ELECTRO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (do it for me guys pretty please (stares at you with sparkling wide eyes)

#im normal about him btw (writes an entire heartfilled and emotional ramble about him to get people to vote for him in a silly tournament) #BUT YEAH VOTE ELECTRO!!!!!!!!!! #tssm #spectacular spiderman #the spectacular spiderman #voltrix rambles #long post #if theres any spelling mistakes uh ooops!!

[kakyogay]

I may have been writing evil things but it's okay because I have a pebbles top scars concept with a spinkle of sunstone and another sunstone one where pebbles gets caught lovingly gazing at suns with a spinkle of gjinka bs

#both have just a tiny bit of suns' issues but it's very tame and only mentioned once or twice in a kinda silly way #like suns has paint that can stay on an iterator puppet created by one of their atrisans but it burns a little #and they forgot they have a high pain tolerance from nearly covering their entire body in ythe stuff #and for the other it just mildly touches on their worries and trouble reading emotions (getting better tho ^^) #they are both very sweet tho and I'd love to at least draw a bit of both because writing hard #also not related at all but I love spelling sprinkle as spinkle it's just so fun to say and very silly #anyways tee hee exclpodes

[erotetica]

(drawing prompt) Perhaps a Sauron?? 🥺❤️

@celebrimbot ik you draw twinkron, I’m sorry for this jack nicholson monstrosity but it’s what’s in my heart

#yk like if jack nicholson tore off some of charelton heston’s choicer features and wore them. yk? #in keeping with my thesis of angband being melkor spreading his arms like ‘look at all these sexy bitches I convinced #’to spiritually body horror themselves’ #after the war of wrath he goes back to the mairon heston look but he still emotes like the motherfucking joker AND TYELPE FUCKS THAT #FULL STOP. SPACE. TAB TAB. #my art #tolkien #lotr #body horror cw #sauron #valar #celebrimbot #oh and after numenor and the un-hot-ening he just looks like firewood. yk when it gets white outside but the core is still burning? #not how you spell charelton heston. also 2 anyone wondering what the fuck is wrong with me google jack nicholson smiling

[cursedfortune]

Possesses sensitive senses, like light sensitivity due to alterations she willed into her body to see better at night.

Decides to tattoo her sternum to keep perpetually open the flow of energy so she can always channel it.

Constantly is seeing peoples faces and their souls.

Gets blinded by certain individuals who possess a great amount of potential or energy.

#mort lifting a shaky thumbs up because she totally thought it through before confidently forging this spell #she can dampen which aspects of a person's energy she sees since she looks at someone and sees their face and their soul all at once #and all the energies that make up a person from emotions to life to entropy to magic or similar sorts #but those latter ones she can just quiet. it's more she can get blinded briefly when someone is a fucking beacon of potential #mort just: haha. wow. neat. you've got a lot going for ya. *slides on sunglasses* #ooc

[inflictswounds]

#♛. arguably the sexiest cleric spell ( ooc ) #As a dm I am intrigued ngl. Almost 5 years of dming omg... Gonna get emotional

[blujayonthewing]

call lightning should be on the ranger spell list because elyss needs and deserves to have it

#actually as long as we're talking about game mechanics that don't exist anyway #I'll just say what I actually want flavorwise which is that call lightning should be a spell water genasi get automatically #I want her emotions to make a raging storm happen. it's what she deserves. I want her to have an avatar state #about me #my OCs #elyss

[princesssarcastia]

.

#sometimes i wonder how much of my existence is insulated by like #my detachment from physical reality? #not in a psychosis way! i do not have any form of psychosis #(am i spelling that right?) #but like. there's so much repression going on #also i don't interact with people very much #and im kind of out of touch with how my emotions sit in my body #and i don't come into physical contact with other human beings #more than like. once every two weeks if not once every two months #idk #obviously a lot of this is just self-inflicted bullshit #but still. i wonder #are other people actually Experiencing things #while i am sitting here with earplugs and a blindfold on #in some kind of sensory deprivation tank #....probably if im getting this kind of introspective #i should go to sleep #alrighty its bedtime now