#sorry i’m angry right now

[seeminglyseph]

I think it matters a lot that a) everyone who has seeming offered to help Karna has done so *after* she needed it. And b) was in some way using her and therefore needed her.

In the eyes of a child, if you weren’t there when she needed you, and can’t even help yourself, what good are you to her?

#seph watches the ravening war #the ravening war #d20 the ravening war #karna solara #dimension 20 #dimension 20 spoilers #the ravening war spoilers #I just have so many Karna feelings right now #I’m sorry I don’t mean to just ramble endlessly #I’m not just trying to get attention but I do giggle like a small bashful child if I do catch the eye aabria #I was not anticipating the first time and I’m not sure if I’m supposed to acknowledge it or not? hello if you read this I’m flattered #mostly I’m just going giddy over an angry literally rotting and starving warlock assassin #the idea of rotting befor she ripened is turning me literally feral #‘be careful with that one love [she] will do what it takes to survive’ #is a lyric that ends up describing some of my all time favourite characters #though not actually the guy it’s about… Oop. #scavengers and survivors and damaged children with hungry eyes who learn how to be whoever you need #just to stay alive one more day to make it long enough #to outrun you so they can outrun the bear #the kid who learned that you can’t count on anyone so be everyone

[fujii-draws]

OKAY! Chatot rant in tags below! Read at your own discretion.

#okay starting from the beginning of where ppl usually dislike him. apple woods chapter. #he doesn’t give hero/partner the CHANCE to explain themselves despite them being relatively good recruits up until that point. #and that legit might be my only gripe with that chapter bc!!! stories need conflict! I LIKE the conflict in apple woods!!! #hero and partner being punished so something they didn’t do! #the misunderstanding! how team skull (Skuntank) actually outplays the main duo with a clever yet rotten trick. I LOVE that it segways into- #one of the more sweeter scenes of guild members looking out for eachother. I LIKE APPLE WOODS CONFLICT. #but chatot just. not giving them a chance. is so dumb. #I’d personally fix this by having a lil montage of hero/partner fucking up on jobs. A LOT. and chatot giving them a pass every time. #and let the perfect apple incident BE the one where he puts his foot down and doesn’t listen to them. bc he’d given them loads of chances. #and doesn’t want to hear any excuse. #but yeah. I legit dont mind him during that chapter except for that really stupid and frustrating moment. #NOW. CHAPTER 17. #UGGGGHHH WHERE DO I BEGIN #Him not believing hero and Partner about Grovyle and the future being in ruin? FINE. ACTUALLY GOOD. BC CHATOT WOULD BE SKEPTIC. #IT FITS HIS CHARACTER!! #BUT WHAT DOES SUCK. IS HIM GOING ‘Dusknoir isn’t the bad guy. he didn’t do anything wrong’ #WHEN HE LITERALLY KIDNAPPED HERO AND PARTNER RIGHT I N F R O N T OF HIM. #(​NO LITERALLY. HIS CHARACTER IS IN THE FRONT ROW WHEN IT HAPPENED.) #and him. having the GALL to tell hero and partner they must’ve been ‘seeing things’ and downplaying the HELL they went through. #despite them being missing for hours/days. his own guild recruits. and his angry sprite showing up. #like. I think that’s when I genuinely despised him. #that and him going ‘OH I BELIEVED YOU THE WHOLE TIME HEEHOO :)’ shit was so fucking annoying. #just playing it off as a joke the second the guild started to believe hero and partner. #IMAGINE IF HE W A S ACTUALLY TESTING THE GUILD’S TRUST. SHOWCASING HIM AS THE MORE RESPONSIBLE AND RESPECTFUL RIGHT HAND OF THE GUILD. #and yes. Brine cave he saves hero and partner. but at that point I just didn’t care anymore. #he fucked those two over so much. that I didn’t care what ‘valiant’ sacrifice he had. #and he grills Team Skull for what they did OFF SCREEN. they couldn’t even give us THAT. #<<< THAT or him outright saying sorry would’ve been nice. IKIK his ‘actions’ or whatever but. #eughh again this is all imo. I’m not trying to make people hate him or change their mind. #I’ll get into positives in the second post cause I’m running out of tags

[a-small-writer-in-a-big-world]

So things have gotten bad again.

I’m not getting into any details but I don’t write anymore, I’ve barely sat down to write in last couple weeks which is pretty reminiscent of the last time I completely stopped writing for other reasons. And while I know there’s no pressure for me to get stuff done and post things it still sucks having a blog here and not doing anything with it, and to know people are waiting for something.

Probably going to take another break. Going to figure out if writing is still worth it or not and possibly figure out what I’m going to do with this blog if I choose to completely stop writing again.

Hope you guys understand, I’ll see you guys in a couple days or so

#sorry #I’m not in the best mood #things aren’t great #and I’m just overall very bitter and angry right now

[magicicephoenix]

i need to go pound joey drew into a pulp RIGHT NOW

#diction dump #joey drew #batim #HIS SPEECH AT TBE END OF BATDR MAKES ME JDLABRLELWL #SCREAMINF AT TVE SCREEN #JUST SHUT!! UPP!!! #okay i’m normal now. i hate him so much #he praises audrey about being his first creation of life when the ink demon is literally RIGHT THERE. #like. do you want to be good or not?? of course bendy kills you! you’re being an asshole! you suck!! #oh my godd i need to fling him around a room ragdoll style. crush him into smithereens. rrrgrghh #he comes across so disingenuous.. like. i don’t care if audrey’s your precious shining moonlight. she’s also The One Who Came Out Right. #meanwhile The One Who Came Out Wrong is SEETHING with hatred for you! do you not see the consequences of your words?! #“i know you’re in there” like the ink demon isn’t sentient?? like audrey’s just stuck someWHERE not with someONE? #and bendy’s so so angry. of course he is! his creator (well. a copy of him) is saying TO HIS FACE that he’s just a monster. a mistake. #that he’s NOTHING. and most infuriatingly that this stupid OTHER who had the privilege of coming out right is EVERYTHING! #why does she get that? why did she get so lucky? where was all this compassion when it was him? why did he never feel this love? #and so he lashes out. obviously. all he’s ever been is a monster because all he’s ever been TAUGHT is how to be a monster #and who taught him that? who forced him into that? that’s right. the biggest monster around. #so i’m sorry if i don’t find your little speech to be heartfelt joey. you’re a long way away from saying anything truly GOOD. #phew. okay. needed to get that off my chest.

[camgoloud]

you ever just. become overwhelmed by a sudden out-of-nowhere wave of tenderness and affection and longing for reconnection directed towards someone to whom you no longer speak for Very Good Reasons

#‘out of nowhere’ she says like she hasn’t been doing a lot of reading/thinking recently about various tragic messy breakups #and the later regrets of the parties involved #anyway. tell me not to text her #it’s been over two years since the last time we talked… absolutely no reason to break that streak now. lord give me strength #she was really fucking mean to me! like objectively intentionally unwarrantedly cruel! it ruined an entire year of my life #and fundamentally changed me as a person on a deep level! there’s a lot of things i used to like about myself that i don’t think i’m ever #going to get back #and yet every once in a while we have to do the whole ‘maybe i could make things right’ song and dance 😔 #the thing is most of the time i’m not even really angry with her anymore like enough time has passed since all the shit went down that #really i just sort of look at her behavior and feel sad. both because of the impact on me but also because of the ‘that’s really how you #felt you needed to act towards someone who cared about you? you couldn’t have just expressed your feelings in an honest and productive way #instead of just lashing out in the cruelest possible way and ruining the entire relationship beyond hope of repair?’ #and i feel bad and sorry that it went that way and honestly i kind of pity her and hope she’s gotten some of her shit worked out #so i’m not like. actively pissed off at her anymore. but also i can’t think about her without thinking about the worst year of my life so 🙃 #i don’t actually feel that trying to reopen that door would be very healthy for me at least #we did try a Reconciliation of sorts a couple of months after the initial falling-out and while it was kind of helpful for me in that she #like. apologized lmao. and affirmed that i wasn’t crazy and she did in fact On Purpose say the most hurtful things she possibly could have #said to me given the information she had at her disposal. and that i really had not done anything to her that could warrant that. etc. #it also left a sour enough taste in my mouth that i just don’t see a future where the two of us spending time together is enjoyable for me #and yet… the regret will always live inside me i think. maybe if i were a stronger person… #caseyposting

[romanticwealth]

TikTok when they realize that intrusive thoughts are actually intrusive and not some quirky little trait

seriously, this is so fucking annoying as someone who has intrusive thoughts

#mentally unstable #small rant #short rant #angry rant #intrusive thoughts #angry vent #tiktok is fucking insane #tiktok is a ticking timebomb on the mental and physical health of the next generation #tiktok #tiktok is a disease #can’t begin to count how many times I’ve seen bitches romanticize intrusive thoughts #it’s not fun. at all. #fucking tired of this shit #I’m like really angry right now sorry guys

[itspileofgoodthings]

Porfiry telling Raskolnikov that at least he was honest and in one bound took the furthest leap to put his theory to the test of actual action——

#Taylor believing a man who is obviously lying to her #like. it’s fascinating to me how they’ll say anything to her and she’ll be like ‘okay let’s go’ #she’s never read Jane Austen and it shows. but that’s okay because she’s the character in an Austen novel #she has no sense of self-preservation she has no common sense when it comes to love #and the reason I have endless patience for that is because she IS different. she is extraordinary. she is WEIRD. she’s so needy #so angry so fragile so stupid so brilliant so completely helpless #like the bolter———I can’t even LOOK at it right now #because you know she was like this since she was 5 and SHE knows it #just so. Different. so strange. I mean she ruled her family with an iron fist from the age of 11 #and her packaging is so basic and she she had so much access to everything anyone could want #so there are none of the usual marks of someone being so Different #but like. people HATED her from day one. you know her own strength of personality was drawing out many people’s hatred or envy #and she’s so helpless in her own personality because she can never change #like thank you aimee? or whatever? heck yeah there was some girl who bullied her and brutalized her on the playground #and you know it devastated Taylor from day one and still does #and it’s just. I don’t know how people can’t see that someone with that extraordinary set of gifts #wouldn’t also suffer in such an extraordinary way #and ways that elicit so much scorn and non-sympathy because people are unsettled and jealous and annoyed by her #because she WILL find a way to win #but isn’t that proof enough that she is the very OPPOSITE OF NORMAL #it’s why people have to be like ‘oh she sold her soul to the devil for this success.’ or whatever the psy-op spy thing is #because there’s no human way to explain her success if she really were as basic/talentless as people say #ugh this is all so incoherent and irritating and I’m so sorry but I just. I cannot explain how protective my heart is of her #and all the many many mistakes she’s made and the prisons she’s made for herself because she’s LIVING the tragedy #of never having denied herself one time/getting everything she wants #and discovering the poison at the bottom of everything she reached for with desperate hands #like. I love her so much and I am so protective of her because she is so helpless and she is getting shot in the face every time #and she feels every blow! #whew I need to turn off reblogs and will probably delete but I just #this album is all of her spilled out and people DO hate to see it because a lot of people hate her!!!!

[sweetheartvalle]

said this on my privtwt before but genuinely twitter culture has ruined humanity. like no one cares about other people anymore, the empathy is lost completely

people claim to care about misinformation and being in the right but when it comes to it, with someone like dream, they just lose that humanity and throw around lies and vile shit to make them look like the ‘good’ ones

cause shocker: just because dream is widely hated for his past mistakes and other things, doesn’t mean he’s less than human. it’s YOU whose mind has become desensitised to this type of behaviour, so you are just being volatile for the sake of it towards people you don’t know personally because you believe it’s the right thing to do. make your own judgements with the evidence given, don’t rely on thousands of people on twitter telling you it’s morally correct to just assume dream is guilty.

dream is not a saint, we all know that, but after everything he’s been through with this endless harassment calling him every name under the sun, the least he deserves from people is to be listened to.

i will never understand these people who think they know more than dream’s own friends about this situation. YOU ARE ON TWITTER FOR FUCK SAKE, a platform that is built on people tweeting anything and everything they can to twist the narrative.

#i’m well aware these people will not bother to know the truth when dream’s vid comes out #it’s all just impossible i cannot imagine how dream feels right now #sorry i’m so angry bc of this whole thing #thoughts by mae #discourse tag #drituation

[ghosts-and-blue-sweaters]

Sometimes I see such horrible takes on Ghostbur that I have to go very still, and stare at the post, and take in every detail of it, and then I take a deep breath and keep scrolling and I cannot scream or do anything I just have to try and forget but I won’t.

#I am so angry right now #I don’t even… how #how do people come to THAT conclusion out of all the things... #it’s not a matter of me and OP having different opinions it’s a matter of THEIR IDEA LITERALLY IS NOT CANON AT ALL #AND ACTUALLY VERY MUCH GOES AGAINST CANON #AND OP ACTS LIKE IT IS CANON #AND ALL THESE OTHER PEOPLE THINK IT IS CANON #SIMPLY- *SCREAMS* #sorry I’m SORRY #just. Ghostbur fills me up with so many emotions man #I get protective #I made this post earlier and had to draft it until I calmed down 😭 #Ghostbur #ghostposting #my post

[heartsofminds]

getting married and having kids is the farthest thing away from my 21 year old mind, but i can’t wait to have my own family and not have to rely on both shitty sides of mine for holidays. obviously know how lucky i am to have them, but don’t love how they talk about me or the migraines they give me over every small detail revolving plans!! because i’m always the liar and the melodramatic one, of course! 🤩

#in other words i’m being a huge baby right now #but there’s nothing worse than your aunt snitching on you to your grandma to tell your dad and getting an angry phone call from him later 🤩 #especially when what happened isn’t even true!!! but they’re the real 'adults' so you’re the one that’s the liar #and also making every big event that happens to you revolve around them of course! #my mom’s fam is even worse so don’t even get me started #but the headache from bawling my eyes out after being demeaned and yelled at by my dad is awful #not having kids for a LONG TIME but i promise i’ll never make them feel the way I am right now! #i really just need to shut up now #sorry for complaining folks #L speaks

[fourth-act]

Ok so this isn’t art or tsp related, but there’s something that I just remembered, but I can’t tell if it’s real or a dream and I can’t think of a good way to look it up that doesn’t get unrelated results.

Rant Explanation under read more (it’s about an Undertale (and Deltarune? Maybe?) au but it’s not a weird one from what I think I remember) (If it’s real I need to find it, nostalgia and my persisting identity/memory crisis are calling)

So basically I think I remember that a while ago (I think back around 2017-2019) I stumbled upon a really complex Undertale au (likely including Deltarune though I’m not sure). It was this really detailed, plot heavy, overarching comic (I’m pretty sure it was a comic), but the thing is I can’t tell if it was even a real au or just some dream I had, both seem pretty plausible.

Of what I can remember of the au, it completely rewrote the cannon lore, introducing a new species, angels (possibly another but again I’m not sure). The new lore was very centred around the meaning of the Delta Rune symbol (image below just in case), and I think angels still existing was a secret, possibly comparable to like ancient Greek mythology in Percy Jackson. The angels were divine beings that took part in the Human/Monster war, though I’m pretty sure the entire war was rewritten, I can’t remember how though. They existed on their own plane of reality, I think it had heavenly symbolism like living in clouds or marble pillars, etc. I’m pretty sure they were very big beings, I don’t think building tall but pretty up there.

As for the comic (or possibly just illustrations) itself, I remember the art being detailed and skilled, with a lot of intense scenes. Strong inks, I’m pretty sure, though I could be entirely wrong about the art since I was young and stupid at the time. The writing was extremely lore and angst heavy, I can’t remember anything lighthearted but then again I barely remember any specifics. I also wouldn’t know the specific characters featured in the comic, due to the fact that if this comic/general au was real, I wouldn’t have known much about cannon Undertale or Deltarune due to not having access. Despite that fact, it still would make sense for me to be at least exposed to this comic due to the fact my only friend at the time was really into utdr aus and generally introduced me to fandom culture, so it would check out (around the time I remember seeing it I could’ve very well been learning about other ut aus so I would recognise it as Undertale without immediately recognising anyone, especially since I don’t think I read it too much at the time).

There’s not much else that I remember about the au, but if anyone has any idea what I’m talking about, please let me know! I don’t have notifications for tumblr, so I may not see it immediately, but dms, asks, comments, reblogs, all are ok with me, and I check them regularly anyway! Also, if you have any clarifying questions, don’t be afraid to ask, there very well could be things I’m missing in this description ^^ /gen /pos

(The Delta Rune just in case it’s not as mainstream in the fandom, idk it’s been a while since I’ve thought about specifically Undertale stuff (mostly been Deltarune or through that lens) /gen /lh)

#cw unreality #I think that applies? I’ll just be safe #undertale #deltarune #utdr #ut/dr #Undertale/Deltarune #undertale au #Deltarune au #utdr au #I don’t know how to tag this right so I’m using a lot #if this au is real and it turns out to be problematic I’ll be angry /lh #also sorry if this is like a mainstream au or something as I said I’m not much in the ut side of utdr rn #also also if this isn’t real and was a dream I had that’d be like really sick /pos #like my dreams are already wacky and now there’s a whole utdr au to throw into that situation /lh #thats just pretty dope /gen /pos

[lauriemarch]

When do all the bad days begin to amount to something good

#sorry to be sad on main i’m just… sad on main #upset and angry with where i’m at right now no foreseeable way to fix any of it #dark academia #light academia #studyblr #booklr #studying #light acadamia aesthetic #study notes #book blog #little women #poetry #quotes

[your-local-ruebit-hole-detective]

We need to seriously drop the fucking myth that children are a right. No, you do not deserve to have a kid. No one does. If you’re going to have one anyway, then you are entirely responsible for your bad parenting. I don’t care if you’re trying your best, this is a human being that you insisted on bringing into the world. Get off your fucking bullshit.

#I’m sorry I’m just really angry right now

[mochiwrites]

i hate my mother.

#vent post #delete later #why do you get all pissy at me just because I don’t want to make dinner #I’m sorry I’m depressed and taking care of myself let alone making food for both you and myself is extremely difficult right now #but yeah sure! get all angry with me #slam doors shut #instead of talking to me like a grown ass woman #and oh I don’t know. BEING MY FUCKING MOTHER #but okay! throw a hissy fit like a child #complain about how you’ve been working all day #and how you’ve been sitting in traffic #while I’m stuck dealing with intrusive thoughts #that keep making me think maybe everyone’s lives would be better if I wasn’t in it #but alright! I’m just lazy right? or I’m just tired #yeah #yeah okay #sure. sure.

[crybaby-bkg]

I wish I was more confrontational.

#I know it’s the pmdd but I’m so fucking angry #I hate overthinking bc people just won’t tell you what the problem is #I’m not a fucking mind reader and I’m not gonna chase after you if you don’t tell me upfront #and it’s like every time I fall into a depression it’s like people punish me #sorry I’m not at the front line every second for you #but you can’t be fucked to even acknowledge how I’m feeling right now #I’m so frustrated I hate this shit #tw: vent #—in store chit chat! 🍫

[selfindulgentfandomstuff]

A little surreal to me whenever I see ppl that are in some ways extremely liberal and like. Support human rights. But then.

Just… fall off of it when it comes to other things..

Like. No.

These things are all interconnected. We are all human and all human experiences are relevant in the fight for human rights worldwide.

#sorry if this is worded weirdly #I’m not feeling very articulate right now #just… disappointed and angry