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edenesth · 1 month
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"Well, how does it taste?"
Peering through the doorway, you tried not to make a sound as your boyfriend's mother asked, her eyes gleaming with affection, watching as her son, who was finally back home after a lengthy absence, enthusiastically savoured the homemade delicacies before him.
"It's good, as always!" San answered between bites, "Though, I must admit, it's got a slightly different flavour today. Not bad, just different," His mother bit back a grin as she sent a wink in your direction before he continued, "It's got that strong taste of the herb my girlfriend always adds to her dishes."
With a light chuckle, Mrs. Choi inquired, "So, whose version do you prefer then? Mine or your girlfriend's?" He glanced up at her with a puzzled expression, "What do you mean? Didn't you prepare this?"
She shook her head, a cheeky smile on her lips, "Nope, I was lucky to have a very helpful apprentice who volunteered to cook today while your lazy ass slept in."
His chewing halted momentarily as he blinked, straightening up in his seat, "W-wait, you mean—"
Before he could finish, you interpreted his mother's nod as your cue to make your entrance, "Surprise!" You exclaimed, swinging open the door to his parents' room and skipping toward them.
Mrs. Choi cooed as she enveloped you in a hug, "This is my lovely assistant for the day. How did you enjoy her cooking?"
As he took in your presence and processed the fact that you were really here, he crossed his arms over his chest and pouted, "Babe, did you lie to me? I thought you said you were too busy to come to Namhae with me."
"You ungrateful brat!" He yelped when his mother smacked him on the shoulder, "Is that all you have to say to your girlfriend after she took an emergency leave from work just to rush over here so she could surprise you and spend some time with us?"
His eyes widened in realisation, guilt flooding over him for immediately accusing you of lying to him. Jumping up from his seat, he hurried over to you, ready to beg for forgiveness if necessary, "Oh my gosh, you did? I'm so sorry, babe!"
While he tried to embrace you, Mrs. Choi shot him a stern glare, "You better be! Otherwise, I'll take her with me today to meet my friends, and you can spend the rest of the day alone at home!"
You snickered as he cowered behind you, attempting to use you as a shield, "I was wrong, eomma! I'll treat her well, please don't take her away from me!"
With a scoff, she nodded at the food, signalling for him to finish his meal, "You can start by polishing off what she made." Seeing her preparing to leave home, intending to grant you two some alone time before the family dinner scheduled for later in the evening, you moved to help her gather her belongings.
"Bye, eomma! Have fun with your friends! We'll see you, appa, and noona tonight!" He called out from the dining table, bowing his head in shame when she responded with a hand gesture indicating she would be keeping an eye on him.
"Don't worry about us, aunty. I'll keep him in line," You whispered to her as she slipped on her shoes. She giggled, giving your arm a squeeze, "Good, let me know if he does anything to upset you. I'll straighten him out."
You couldn't contain your laughter when you came back to find him sulking while doing the dishes. Snaking your arms around his waist from behind, you nestled your cheek against his broad shoulder, "What's wrong, Sannie? Aren't you glad I'm here?"
He pouted as he set the clean utensils aside to dry, "Seems like you've already had my mother wrapped around your little finger, huh? I swear, she loves you more than she loves me now."
"If you want her undivided attention, I can leave." You teased.
Before you could pull away, he panicked and spun around to hold you tightly, "N-no, please don't go!" He pleaded, burying his face in your neck, "I was just playing with you, babe. I missed you like crazy. I'm so glad you're here, and seeing you bond with my family means the world to me."
You melted at his words, tightening your embrace, "I know, Sannie. I was just playing with you too."
He couldn't resist moving in to capture your lips in a deep kiss. Your eyes fluttered shut as you kissed him back just as fervently. Pulling back slightly, he murmured against your lips, "Well, instead of playing with my feelings, why don't you play with something else?"
Gasping loudly, your cheeks flushed red at the implication, "Wh-what are you suggesting, Choi San?! This is your family's house, it wouldn't be appropriate—"
He burst into laughter, pecking you on the head, "What were you thinking, babe? I was just talking about Byeol. We haven't been here in so long, I'm sure she misses us. Don't you want to play with her?"
Only then did you recall the presence of his cat, and you turned over your shoulder to find her staring curiously at you and her owner, "R-right, of course. I missed her too."
He cupped your face, urging you to meet his gaze, and grinned slyly, "But you know, if you have other ideas, I'm sure we can—"
"No, stop it, we won't!" You squealed, flustered, pushing him away and rushing over to cover the cat's innocent ears from whatever suggestive remark your boyfriend was about to make.
Gently stroking Byeol's black fur, you cooed down at her, "Don't pay attention to your oppa and his filthy mouth, hm? Unnie will shield you from him," When the adorable creature affectionately mewed and nestled into your hands, you turned to playfully tease him, "See, she already loves me more than she loves you."
Rather than feeling envious, your boyfriend's heart swelled with warmth and love at the sight. It was at this moment that he realised you were the one he wanted to spend the rest of his life with.
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usa-manors-library · 7 months
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You Are _____ The Father
(A/N: This is an answer to an ask on my ask blog, @ask-the-usa-manor , but it got pretty lengthy! I wouldn't say it's the best quality since I intended it to be a much shorter blog post and not a full length oneshot, but at least it's fun. Enjoy the crack. So much crack. A substantial amount of crack. A boogie woogie amount, if I may be so bold. But. No real crack. Don't do crack. Do water. Stay hydrated. <3
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Ft... LIGHTHEARTED WRITING BY EVE!?! 😱🤯🔥🥣🦆***NOT CLICKBAIT***)
America sighed, content with his world as he picked up his bowl. It was a perfect afternoon. Life wasn't always this easy, but right now, everything felt perfect. The silence was golden, and this quiet peace was a rare escape. One that he normally didn't care for, as he didn't usually like to hear his busy mind. But for whatever reason; right now he was content with it, and he was grateful.
Sunbeams. Silence. Serenity. Soup.
"IT'S HERE!!!"
...South Dakota.
From where he was in the kitchen, America heard a series of crashing noises follow the distant announcement, trailed by a string of Virginia's indignant scoldings.
America cringed inwardly as he heard Dak wave her off with a quick 'sorry.' 
Bad move. He must be really high spirited about something if he's brushing off Ginny's annoyance. A peeved Virginia was a force to be reckoned with. Everyone knows that.
Especially me, America shuddered, perhaps a little too over dramatically as he returned to his lunch, Some days it feels like she's my parent, not the other way around...
He heard the scolding intensify.
...Welp, not my problem, He shrugged, Godspeed, Dak.
If it were anyone other than Ginny, he might've stepped in. However, believe it or not; he was a smart man. Deep down. Deep down. Very, very deep down. Wayyyyyyyy deep down, there was a little. Tiny spark of intelligence. Shocking, he knows.
Smart men didn't get under Virginia's skin. There are less painful ways to murder your soul.
While America shuddered at the thought, the nearby garden door swung open.
"Dad!"
"Don't care, eating soup," America shrugged, taking another spoonful, "Do whatever. Just don't die."
New York (that's odd, he's never in New Jersey's territory- er, 'the garden') kicked his shoes off, "Was that Dak who pulled into the driveway?"
"No, it's your other brother who has a shrine of bumper stickers to Badlands national park and an eerily accurate bobblehead of Mount Rushmore on his dashboard."
New York looked like he was about to shoot something back, but stopped short as a muffled chant started up;
"York, York, York, York."
America slowly lowered his soup. The chanting was getting louder. New York was... seemingly fine with it?
"York, York, YORK, YORK!"
America let out a shaky sigh, "Why is it getting closer?"
"YORK, YORK, YORK!"
"What's happening?"
New York just grinned.
"...Will it harm my soup?"
New York shrugged, "Probably not."
"Good," America turned his attention back to his beloved lunch, "Then I don't care."
"YORK!" South Dakota threw the kitchen door open, waving an envelope in the air. Virginia was right on his heels, still glaring daggers at him.
"Dak! Dak-man. Cadilldak. Dakbook," New York grinned.
America's eyebrows shot up. New York smiling at the sight of one of his brothers screeching at him while bursting into the room?
...Who's going to die?
"It's here!" South Dakota repeated triumphantly, handing New York the mail, "The paternity test's here!"
America almost choked on his food as he broke into a coughing fit. Virginia stared at him.
"Great!" NY cackled, snatching the envelope and blatantly ignoring his dying father, "So, have you heard from Connecticut? Is everything ready on his end?"
"Don't ask me, I'm just the guy you bribed into picking this up."
"Smartass," New York shook his head, "Alright. Let's go, Dad."
"Pardon?" America wheezed out, placing his soup on the counter.
"What? All those wars and you're going to let a soup take you out?"
America knows flipping off his own son is wrong.
But damn.
Does he want to.
"I have several questions," He started, uncertain if he really wanted to have that knowledge.
"And they'll be answered," New York assured, "If you come with us."
America paused and took a moment to process the situation. He looked to Virginia for help. She lingered for a moment, before shaking her head and walking away. Not her job, not her struggle.
Meanwhile, hesitation was the entirely wrong response.
"Dak," New York deadpanned.
South Dakota nodded, "On it, chief."
SD dashed forward and, to America's horror, grabbed the bowl of soup before swiftly returning to the opposite side of the room.
America gaped at him. After a long moment, he regained his voice;
"...Dak-"
South Dakota tilted the bowl ever so slightly, threatening to spill the bowl's contents. America froze.
"...You wouldn't," He said sharply, a look of devastation and disbelief in his eyes. Disbestation? Devastelief?
Dak stared right back at him, "Would I?"
"What is he paying you?" America bargained desperately, "I'll double it! Just hand me the soup."
"Sorry, Pops. New York's paying me in free entertainment. I doubt you could top it."
"This is how you repay me?" America hissed, the searing knife of betrayal at the hands of is own sons twisting into the gut, "After I fed you? Put clothes on your back? Raised you-?"
South Dakota tilted the bowl a little more, the soup right against the edge.
America immediately raised his hands in surrender. South Dakota and New York exchanged grins.
"...Alright, alright," He inhaled sharply, "You win this time. Where are we going?"
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Some days, America felt like his children were walking 'practice protection' ads. Very convincing 'practice protection' ads. This, was one of those days.
"When did you even...?" America glanced around, "...Get all of this?"
He was fairly certain he was on a stage, one decorated like a stereotypical talk show set. A vaguely familiar one, might he add. They must of modeled it after a real show.
A curtain was separating the stage from what he assumed was an audience. It worried him at first, before he picked out the voices and realized that they definitely belonged to his own kids. Then, it no longer worried him.
It terrified him.
South Dakota stood on the left wing, offstage and still holding America's soup hostage. He even put it in a prop cage he found in the back... America wondered if he could take legal action and put the 'sue' in soup.
"Well, we were originally expecting to use it for you," New York admitted, "Clearly, we still are, just... in a different way than anticipated."
New York motioned to one of the armchairs. America accepted the offer and sat down.
After a couple minutes, he closed his eyes. Maybe this is all a dream. Maybe he's still at home, with his leftover soup still in the fridge and ready to be reheated. Maybe-
Hearing three sets of new footsteps, America cracked his eyes open. 
Nope, not a dream, He determined, A nightmare.
"Blackmail?" America questioned the newcomer taking a seat across from him.
England looked severely annoyed as he huffed, "Scotland."
"Thought so," America nodded. He glanced at the other, "And you?"
"Fear of Wales," Britain answered lightly, "And your offspring."
"Which one?"
"That's a rather loaded question."
"Now then!" Connecticut clapped his hands together with a smile on his face, "We can get started."
The three countries present were incredibly unsure if the wanted that. They didn't even know what 'that' really is. Of course, nobody cares what they want. At the end of the day, they were outnumbered 3 to Lord knows how many.
"Yorkie," Connecticut held out his hand, "The results, please."
New York stared down Connecticut, making no move to hand him the envelope.
"I had him first," NY stated sharply, "I knew him before you. I get to be him."
"I had him last," Connecticut huffed, "I had the latest version of him."
"I had the classic."
"He wasn't born there."
"He wasn't born at your place either!"
America and Britain watched the argument like a tennis match, eyes darting back and forth between the two states.
South Dakota was recording the ordeal on his phone, which in hindsight was pretty useless considering California set up cameras for 'the aesthetic.'
England was trying his best to dissociate from the entire situation, glaring at the wall and wondering what different life choices he could've made to prevent any of this from even existing. 
"Fine then," New York grumbled, "If we want to stay on schedule... Where was Maury born?"
In an instant, the envelope was snatched from New York's hands. The two formerly arguing states stared in bewilderment at the man who slipped in under the radar.
Eyes glimmering, suit still on from work, District of Colombia beamed.
"...It's my time to shine."
Crickets.
This can't be real.
"...You said you weren't coming," Connecticut blinked, "You're always 'too busy' for this stuff."
DC shrugged, "A man's allowed to change his mind."
"So, you really want to host?" New York asked incredulously, looking DC up and down, "...You?"
"I can have fun too, dammit."
Connecticut and New York exchanged glances.
"...I mean," Connecticut conceded, "I don't see a problem with it." 
New York shrugged, "If there's one thing you've shown us through the decades, it's that sometimes your only gift is entertainment."
"Thank you," DC nodded curtly, "...Bi-"
"But," Connecticut cut in, "We're co-hosting."
"Sounds fine-"
"Don't even argue," New York interrupted, "We're older."
"I didn't-"
South Dakota checked his watch, "And we're on in three, two...!"
The stage curtains opened, revealing an audience mostly consisting of family members with nothing better to do today. Applause prompted by the blinking 'applause' sign eventually died down. It was relatively quiet, except for continued rapid clapping from...
America squinted, eyes still adjusting to the stage lights.
Iowa.
"Woo!" Iowa cheered. He leaned over to the seat right to him- Nebraska- and whispered, pointing to America, "I knew that guy in college, Neb."
"That's our father," Nebraska deadpanned, "You've known him since you were born."
A hand from the row behind them took advantage of the exchange and stole a clump of their popcorn unnoticed. Cayman Islands was now completely prepared for the dumpster fire of a show to start.
This caught Arkansas's eye, and he leaned over to the popcorn thief.
"What's your name again?"
"C-"
"AndcanIpleasehavesomeofyourpopcorn?"
"-ayman."
"Thanks!" Arkansas smiled brightly, taking a quarter of his cousin's spoils.
Cayman stared off into space. He has to stop falling for that crap one of these days.
"I'd applaud, but," Michigan shrugged apologetically as he stared at Britain, who offered him an awkward smile and tried not to make eye contact with his nephew's clear lack of right arm, "You know how it is."
"Hello ladies, gents!" Connecticut greeted, "All of you who don't deserve such respectable titles! Welcome to tonight's trash television episode, Are You the Father? to avoid copyright infringement! Thanks for coming out! Who's in the house tonight?"
"Well, Colorado's here, higher than the waist on DC's trousers, " New York jabbed, ignoring his the capitol's glare as a spotlight briefly shone on Colorado. Colorado simply threw a peace sign before the spotlight went to another person in the crowd, "England's dad Wessex is here, somehow still not dead. Great job, Gramps. Keep making England wish you were for the res of ust."
"Speaking of Wessex," DC added, "What a perfect way to Segway into business! Now, 1,096 year old England claims to be the father of 5,258 month old United States of America. But America's younger half-brother, Britain, has some doubts about the validity of his father's words."
"...I do?" Britain muttered to himself, confused.
"Yes! You do," Connecticut prompted, "Why is that, Britain?"
"Oh... Uh..."
For once in his life, Britain seemed reluctant to insult someone.
New York nudged him, "...You won't hear a peep from us for a month-"
In a flash, UK pounded the arm of his chair with his fist.
"F%^* THAT YANK," He bellowed, "THAT'S WHY."
A bleeping sound via Utah with a censorship button echoed from the stage speakers. He's not even supposed to be there, he volunteered 5 minutes before the show and when nobody answered him he made himself comfortable.
New York nodded his head, as if to say; 'Keep going.'
"...Well then," Britain continued, "He's a total piece of—"
Utah kept the bleeping up until it was all you heard when Britain opened his mouth. At this point, the country wasn't even swearing. He was just reading his grocery list aloud.
"@%*% +^%{%]* +#^]*^{^[+ *]+}+!|]!,¥\+[+@&/!" Britain finished, "If that wasn't bad enough, he's a TWO DOZEN EGGS—"
"Thank you, Britain. I think that's all Utah can handle for now. He gets physically sick when he has to censor someone," DC elaborated.
"I mean, just look at him," New York motioned to the offstage unnaturally pale Beehive State, "Frail Victorian child lookin' mother—"
Utah shot him a warning look. 
"—'s favorite child who we all appreciate. And who might need to hand the remote to Nevada before he passes out—"
"So. England," Connecticut moved on, "You're the only person here who currently knows if America's your real son, or if you just snatched him Russian-Empire-and-Finland style. Anything to say on that?"
"Thank you for giving me the final push I needed to decide that a restraining order's mandatory," England solemnly answered.
The three hosts exchanged glances. They really didn't have the legal team to handle this. At least they didn't think so, considering their legal team was Rhode Island with a baseball bat.
"America," DC immediately continued, looking at the third victim- Ehm, 'guest'- his father.
America's eyebrows climbed up as he slowly turned to face DC, "...What did you just call me?"
"Right, sorry," DC quickly backtracked, "Terribly unprofessional of me Mr. United States, sir."
"That's not what I..." America gave up halfway into his sentence and simply sighed, "...Never mind. When can I get my soup back?"
"How does it feel to possibly be fatherless?"
"When can I get my soup back?"
"Want to expand on your answer?"
"When can I get my soup back?"
"I see. How does that make you feel?"
"Hungry. When can I get my soup back?"
"Is that hunger for the truth about who your father is?"
America stared at him like he was an idiot. To be fair, we don't have the evidence to disprove that claim.
"It's hunger," He explained at a tortoise's pace, leaning forward in his chair, "For. Soup."
"Interesting."
"Chicken. Noodle."
"Ah," DC awkwardly nodded, "That's a good one."
"I ask. For so little."
America held eye contact with the capitol for an uncomfortably long amount of time without blinking.
NY leaned over to Connecticut.
"...I can't believe I'm saying this," He muttered, "But we may need to cut the musical number."
After a couple extra moments of watching the scene in front of him, Connecticut acquiesced.
"Cut the musical number," Connecticut approved, "This is only a pre-show, I doubt the audience would care. Get to the results before he starts crying."
"Which one?" New York huffed, "They both look pretty friggin' close to tears."
"Yes."
On the edge of them, really. Neither of them looked like they wanted to be in this situation, and District of Colombia came here willingly. 
"Washdistbia!" New York called over, "Stop trembling like a half-drowned kitten and wrap it up!"
Somehow, DC was able to drag himself out of the numbing paralyzation he found himself in and managed to look away from the haunting stare of America.
"Right," He answered shakily, "On to the results. In the case of 5,258 month old USA-"
"It's okay to say 438 years old, I can take it-"
"Englad, you are..."
Everyone watched in silence as he made an effort to open the letter.
It took him a solid three minutes.
It was a regular paper envelope.
"...Missing out on our new discounts! Get a brand NEW Ford F-150 for 30%-" DC blinked.
He read the paper. Then reread it. Then read it once more.
He glanced in the envelope again. Nope, nothing else. Just amazing deals for this autumn brought to yOU BY THE EVER AMERICAN [EAGLE SOUND] FREEDOM INFUSED-
Utterly lost, he looked to the others.
"...What the hell is this?" He asked, lifting up the 'results' in question.
A murmur of 'don't look at me's fell upon the stage and audience. Backstage, South Dakota cursed under his breath.
"I knew I should've asked them to stop mailing me my coupons," Dak sighed.
What.
"You get your junk mail from..." Connecticut took a deep breath, "The paternity testing lab?"
"Yeah," Dak admitted nonchalantly, "My grandma lives there."
America looked up hopefully, "Mom?"
"NO-"
Abruptly, the outro music started blasting. Without uttering a sound, England stood and walked away stage left. He hates you all. Especially Aili.
"...Well, that was... that," New York checked the time on his phone, "I'm going to take my seat and... pretend like I didn't just waste my afternoon."
It took America 0.5 seconds to practically hurl South Dakota out of his way so he could reclaim his soup. 
Britian rushed... away. Simply away. He is gone. He will not return. Everyone wave goodbye. Goodbye, Britain. He's free. Freedom. He's free. F r e e...
Ish.
"Goodnight everyone!" Connecticut bid with a wave, following the others off the stage, "Enjoy Florida on I Can't Believe It's Not Dr. Phil!"
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"...How'd you get my DNA, anyway?"
"You're a heavy sleeper after you cry. Pretty easy to get after Homeward Bound."
(A/N: I want soup.)
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zeroducks-2 · 1 year
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So I know that all the apprentice Dick stuff isn't really canon and it only happens in tt03 and that in 'reality' there was a Renegade arc... But I dont know anything about Renegade beside the fact that its a thing. Maybe you could tell me more about it?
It would be my pleasure! Sorry it took me so long to answer, tumblr ate my post and I had to rewrite it >_>
The first thing to know is that despite fanfictions/fanarts tend to portray Renegade!Dick as the "follow-up" to the Apprentice Arc, or anyway conflating the two stories (kind of mashing up stuff from tt03 and the comics), the two situations couldn't be more different from one another. They are in fact completely unrelated both thematically and narratively speaking.
In the comics, the Renegade idea comes from Dick, Dick is the one that insists on sticking around Slade, and Slade never forces/coerces him into doing anything (he has barely any participation in the whole thing). It's actually more about Dick and Rose than Dick and Slade, and in fact the "Renegade" alias itself is very nearly a thing, in the sense that Dick comes up with randomly it at some point, Rose uses it once and that's about it. Slade never even calls him that, sticking to "Nightwing", "Grayson" or just "kid".
A quick sum-up: Dick needs info about the society of supervillains but can't infiltrate them, because Slade is on their roster and he knows Dick's real identity, therefore he would recognize (and out) him easily. So he comes up with the idea of trying to convince Slade that he's a bad guy now and he can be trusted by villains - really Slade never actually trusts him, but in the process of testing him Rose grows very fond of Dick, and eventually Dick manages to thwart the society's plans and kick Slade out of Bludhaven. More or less.
That's not my favorite iteration of Dick, and especially not my favorite iteration of Slade and Rose, but all in all it's a fun, enjoyable story that's very in line with the overall mood and style of the (in)famous "Nightwing 1996" run.
Since we're here I'll go on to provide a more lengthy explanation of the plot with screenshots for poignancy (and because they're fun), but if you're already satisfied with the answer and you don't want more spoilers, go ahead and click away :)
The "Renegade" arc.
I'm going to start out with Issue #110 which opens with Dick leaving Sophia Tevis, the daughter of a mob boss, and her mother in a safe place for Sophia's safety.
Dick is having a rough time with just about everything in his life. This happens soon after the whole situation with Blockbuster and Tarantula and the aftermath of that, also he recently broke up with Barbara, lost his job as a cop and has gone no contact with Bruce. Tim drops by to check on him, and during their conversation, Dick finds out that Bruce was going to adopt Tim.
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Dick is very bitter, and Tim keeps justifying Bruce this or that way, as usual enabling his behavior (no hate towards Tim whatsoever btw, that's just how their dynamic tended to function). At some point Tim goes out of his way to reel Dick back in the situation...
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...And Dick gets understandably very upset
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I love how he's about to yell at Tim but then tones it down. He keeps doing it throughout the whole story, swallowing his emotions and then apologizing when "he sounds too much like Bruce".
Despite everything Dick insists on doing his job as Nightwing and refusing everyone's help, at the point that he's embittered enough for it to be believable that he'd be in a "I lost everything, I want to try a new path" situation. The problem is, as I mentioned before, Dick can't infiltrate the society and uncover their nasty plans because they have Deathstroke on their payroll.
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So Dick decides that the only way he has to do this is convince everyone, especially Deathstroke himself, that he's done being a hero, he wants to be a bad guy, he's been slapped in the face one time too many and he'll prove it to him. Only Dick has to talk to Slade for this to happen, and this leads to what's surely my favorite two panels of the entire story:
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The infamous "message received" text on the mirror of Dick's bathroom as he showers. Dick is totally unfazed by this btw, makes me think this isn't the first time it happens
Slade, dramatic motherfucker that he is, decides to show up in the middle of the night together with Rose (I'm sharing the panels again cause they're really cool)
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A fight ensues but Dick is outnumbered and in his civvies, so it's brief enough. Have I mentioned that Slade is also an idiot? I think I didn't, so here's Slade being an absolute idiot:
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I love this panel. I want to print it and eat it I am so normal about it
By saying "undercover with the bad guys" Slade is referring to the fact that Dick has been cooperating with the Bludhaven mafia, fact that actually helps Dick sell the whole "I'm a bad guy now" narrative. Which is what Dick insists upon, saying that he has no more reasons to fight the good fight. Slade isn't impressed, but he still offers Dick a bargain:
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Basically the idea is that Dick will prove himself trustworthy by watching over Rose, teaching her, and making her involved in his own things, and so he does; what follows is a number of short episodes in which he and Rose go around doing apparently random tings, bantering in the meantime.
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The reason why I say this is not my favorite iteration of Rose Wilson is because she's VERY BABY. Which isn't bad per se but I prefer a version of Rose which is less naive. Also, "Nightstroke".
In the meantime Dick has found out that the place where Sophia Tevis was hiding for her safety wasn't safe at all - her mother has been killed by cops and the kid has been put in a state home. Dick promised to go get her, and this is what he brings Rose along to do.
They rescue Sophia and Dick hides her in yet another place, and makes Rose promise that she won't say anything to Slade about Sophia and what they did. The first thing baby does when she sees Slade is tell him everything.
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Basically Rose is trying to make it so Slade will love her, or something like this. I'm actually not sure, their relationship here is a bit confusing to be honest.
So what keeps happening is that Dick brings Rose along - since he does not have a choice on that - while doing his things, pretending it's bad guys things while it really is good guys things. But, he does give her some valuable lessons and the two do grow quite close in the meantime.
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The issue is that Slade isn't easily fooled, and to make sure he's got Dick under his thumb, he kidnaps Sophia Tevis to use her as a bargaining chip, and to make sure Dick won't do anything that goes against the society.
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The brown haired kid is Sophia, but really this looks more dramatic than it actually is since nothing really changes, or maybe we could say it even backfires - Dick keeps doing his things, and if Rose wasn't convinced initially, now that she knows Sophia is being threatened (and she knows Dick cares for her since Rose helped him save her), she believes Dick more easily when they investigate the society's business and Dick says "it's all part of the plan I swear I'm not doing anything detrimental to your father, if I did he'd kill me and he'd kill Sophia".
And finally we have Dick calling himself Renegade: Rose insisted on calling him Nightwing since there was no alternative, so Dick comes up with Renegade just to get her to stop using "Nightwing"
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Soon Dick finds out that the society is planning to use the Bane toxin to create supersoldiers or something like this, and in the meantime he bumps into Arsenal who's legitimately concerned about him (especially because there had been news circulating about Nightwing cooperating with the Bludhaven mafia, and he's been pushing his friends and family away). Dick is forced to knock him out, and eventually Roy tells Oracle, who tells Superman, and it ends up with everyone really worried for Dick.
I'm not really sure how Slade knew Superman would have been involved (I might not remember about it but yeah, Slade knew Supes was going to get involved) and devises a plan to neutralize him: He fixes Dick's glove with a radio transponder and surgically implants kryptonite in Rose's missing eye. During the following confrontation with Superman, Dick nonchalantly says "yeah I'm a bad guy now fuck you", knowing that Clark can hear his heartbeat and can therefore tell that Dick is lying - but Clark reacts in a very upset way, Rose gets scared and jumps him.
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A brief scuffle follows but soon enough Superman lets them go, and Dick goes confront Slade with Rose, informing him that he uncovered the society' schemes and that his plan backfired.
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Then Dick tells Slade something something along the lines of "Rose loves me and listens to me, while you implanted toxic kryptonite in her eye socket, so if you don't go away from Bludhaven I'll put her against you".
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and somehow it works, Slade "admitting defeat" and letting Dick go, but threatening him with "you don't know what you're messing with".
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Which actually is what happens soon after with the destruction of Bludhaven, Slade dropping chemo on it and all of that. But that's another story.
So here you have it, the brief story of Renegade and how it existed as Dick's alias for a short time. It's not much something that comes from Slade, more like it tangentially involves Slade while Dick is doing his thing. Again for whoever is interested in reading it first-hand, it spans from issue 110 to issue 115 of Nightwing 1996.
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featheredjohtolegends · 5 months
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Hello there from another world! To be honest, I'm surprised a pair of legendary Pokemon like you would have the courage to make a blog, ehehe...
Er, but this isn't about that! And I'm glad you have the courage! But, um... I gotta ask. What inspired you two to make this blog? Aren't you afraid of, like, people, and all? I mean I assume you two usually stay really secretive, just like, the, the birds from our world, but like, this is, pretty not that...
- Pallas Feldspar Shirogane (@silverott-chevalier)
P.S. (Sorry if I'm a mess, just, nervous talking to Ho-Oh and Lugia... trying not to let that get in the way...)
Hello there! You don't need to be nervous about talking to us, we're pokemon just like you are! We just happen to have more stories due to our abilities and scarcity. As for why we made the blog... Well part of it has to do with the fact Blivy (@oblivionthegiratina) also has one! They're our partner. :D
Also I'm a dragon, not a bird, though I can kind of see where the confusion comes from... You know, the lack of a dragon typing.
-Lugia
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Us making a blog is likely surprising due to the fact that, yes, legendary pokemon tend to be secretive. Especially ones that have a much... Much smaller population compared to others. It's not necessarily being afraid of people that keeps us away, though some legendaries aren't fond of interactions. Rather it's a precaution to keep from being used by those who only want our power. In most cases, it's safer for everyone to remain in hiding to keep some random person from just tossing a masterball at us.
In our case though, we don't need to worry about such a thing happening. We've allowed our chosen (@silveredfeathers) to keep a pokeball for each of us to prevent random capture, thus making roaming the lands much safer for us.
As for the blog, Lugia heard that Oblivion had one and thought it would be fun. I can say I've enjoyed answering questions others have considering I normally don't have a place to do so.... At least not without being swarmed by humans with busy minds that make it hard to communicate.
It's also nice to be able to use it to check up on our chosen without needing to see him directly, since showing up in a busy area leads to us both being surrounded... The number of times I've been whacked in the head by random pokeballs is ridiculous.
Lugia tends to roam more than I do, so having an easier way to make sure her in person check ins with Silver aren't going to happen at a bad time is rather nice.
Apologies for my long response, I hope it's not too much... I've been told I sometimes make my explanations rather lengthy.
-Ho-oh
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sharkfish · 1 year
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this is an intro post~
ao3: sharkfish
masterpost of rec lists
destiel art & fic: @alldestiel
rec blog: @theyregoodfics
my poetry: @chatterintheskull
nature/hiking: @alwayslookingbeyond
general writing tag
ficlet tag
traditionally this blog has been a positive/fun space, but you will likely see an uptick in political posts mixed in as we approach the 2024 US election, where we will choose between fascism and continuing to fight for democracy. your vote matters!
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destiel + random shiny posts i've collected (over 30,000 of them now. bless my heart)
blog mostly runs on a lengthy, oft-shuffled queue. if i put a heart on it, it's probably in my queue
old school fan, apparently - ship & let ship, your kink is not my kink and that's ok, don't like don't read, your mileage may vary, etc
mostly wank-free. just trying to have a good time over here
every attempt at a tag system has been a complete failure, sorry. (exception: i do make an attempt to tag for common triggers if the actual word isn't in or is censored in the post itself)
always open to prompts, with no promises it actually goes anywhere or that you'll like the direction it might go
i am very bad at answering dms, pms, texts, emails, comments, phone calls, letters, replies, tags, smoke signals, and telepathic messages, and then after a certain amount of time i feel like a jackass and am too tired to do an apology tour. it's not personal or intentional! <3 it's the mental illness
that being said, i appreciate folks who take the time to reach out anyway more than you could ever know. you are always in my heart, even though i am destructively self-isolating more often than not
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not gay as in happy, but queer as in you are welcome here
(and fuck you if you don't like it)
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likelylarks · 1 year
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What’s your most common DnD alignment?
Which DnD (5e) race do you tend to pick?
On a bad day I’m a Slytherin. On a good day I’m Ravenclaw. Thank you for the lengthy answer! I completely agree even though my house assignment has been pretty stable. But I mean I took the quiz when I was 15 already.... which is very different from 11. Emo teens are fun not evil lmao
I’ll tell you my alignment and DnD race once you answered haha.
sorry to answer this so late! i'm a mess!
okay so i've only been a part of one campaign so far, so i don't have trends yet!! but in the one i'm in currently, i'm chaotic neutral technically (tho, bc i'm playing with... i love them dearly but roleplay is not their gift, so in actuality, it tends to be more chaotic/lawful good because i'm trying to keep us on task lol)
i'm also a wood elf rn! and tbh i think i'll probably maintain a bias for wood elves even if i do experiment more, just because legolas's Cool CGI actions are imprinted in my psyche forever (even though he's not my favorite lol (aragorn my dearest darlingest beloved)) and also haldir, owner of the most emotional death committed to the silver screen, i think about him so much
also you're right! emo teens are fun!! they're just trying to figure stuff out and fit in somewhere!! they shouldn't be "punished" for the aesthetic!!!
i'm excited to hear your alignment and dnd race!!
much love to you xx
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glittter-vamp · 9 months
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What are your opinions on men who are 30+ that still say that they are still figuring it out about what they want relationship wise or aren’t ready for a serious relationship?
I have two different opinions on this depending on the situation. (this mght be lengthy)
First one: If this is someone you're already dating that's unsure about the relationship and you are expecting or wanting marriage with that person and/or kids, move on and stop wasting your own time. If you already know what your timeline is looking like for yourself and what you want out of life, stop wasting time with someone who is unsure about you because the person who is for you will make it known and won't be hesitant, you deserve someone who is on the same page as you and nothing less. If they can't give you a time stamp of things, it's best to move on. (I've had a lot of friends and family members waste their own time this way and the when they broke up them, ex was married to someone else in a year, don't become a placeholder)
Second one: If they're saying this on a dating app where they're a complete strangers to you, like they have "not sure yet or nothing serious, just want to have fun" on their profile or even on a first date straight off the bat, be relieved that you most likely found yourself a guy who knows what they want and aren't immature enough to lead you on if you are looking for something serious because far too many guys will not disclose what exactly they're looking for and then you catch feelings and he's like "lol sike". (But be weary of those that say they're not looking for something serious but are open to it, that can be a hit or miss)
But overall, I don't particularly agree with that whole "You're 30, you're 40 etc. How do you not know what you want, you should know what you want." Because some people could be coming out of a bad relationship, they could have been single for a long time and aren't used to dating much are might be testing the waters, might be in between careers and don't know if they'll end up moving soon...there's a lot of factors that play into why someone over the age of 25 could not know what they want in a relationship or not want to settle down and as a person who also dates women, it's not just a guy thing, trust meeee.
Everything comes down to compatibility and understanding your needs and your partners needs, if they don't link well together...it's not gonna be fun for either person.
I hope I was articulate enough in this and sorry for not responding to this sooner, I just wanted to make sure I answered genuinely and honestly 🖤
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yekoc · 3 years
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if ferrari is nr. 3 f1 villain, and nico r is nr. 2 f1 villain, who is nr. 1 f1 villain?
j*s verstappen.
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leilani-and-kass · 2 years
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So I've been having some... thoughts lately, and they'll be posted under a "Read More" thing because I have a feeling this is going to get a little lengthy. For those of you I talk to on Discord, this is nothing new to you. I've discussed it at length. I'm posting this more for the benefit of those I don't talk to on Discord.
Don't worry, it's nothing bad or anything!! And tl;dr: the blog's not going anywhere. I've just had some stuff on my mind.
A lot of people who know me well enough know how I feel about my art and all that, but something that's been on my mind for the past two years or so is the question of whether or not my ask blog has been holding me back from improving as an artist. And I think after thinking on it, the answer is... kinda yes and kinda no. Like on one hand, I know I've improved from when I started this blog. That's obvious, like go at how badly I used to draw Kass and laugh at it.
But on the other hand, I think there's only so much you can do to improve when you're focusing on drawing the same thing all the time, and I feel like lately... especially lately... my art has been extremely stagnant. Not bad, just kinda same-y. And I know it's awful of me, but I look around on Discord servers and see so many other people improve practically at light speed, and I won't lie, I can't help feeling rather envious. One thing they all have in common? They're not only drawing for ask blogs.
Don't get me wrong. I love drawing for this blog, but I also love improving and the satisfaction that comes from it, and I think I'm getting to the point where I can't have my cake and eat it too in that regard sadly. SO maybe it's time to start taking a page from their book and start spending a little less time drawing for this blog and a little more time drawing... well, literally anything else. Practicing fundamentals, drawing other people's characters besides my own more, fusions, or hell even drawing non-Pokemon content. I feel like at this point, that's the only way my art's going to see any real, significant improvement.
My conundrum has always been that I also don't like feeling left out, feeling like I have nothing to show or talk about because I'm stuck in the corner drawing practice stuff you'd learn in an art class while everybody else gets to have fun talking about their characters and plots and stuff. I mean, who wants to see me draw that weird boxy mannequin thing like 5000 times to learn how to draw humans when I could be drawing my seal, right? That is why this blog is not going on hiatus. But content probably will be a bit slow for the foreseeable future, at least until I can consistently achieve that speed and technique that many of the other people I look up to have down to a science. Or at least to some extent.
For the time being, I also want any time I do work on this blog to be focused on plot, because if I can't be excited for my art right now, I can at least be excited for plot, right?. Namely I want to bring back the comic and just doing more with Kass in general because I know the poor guy's been neglected compared to Leilani. As such, with the exception of Mundays, the ask box is going to remain closed for now. I may work on asks and responses and stuff every now and then, but I think until I progress a bit more with plot, they need to be on the back burner for now. That... has to do with another, rather toxic mindset I need to work on breaking, to be honest.
And one last thing? I did make a general art blog awhile back that I've tried and failed to do something with in the past and I'm so sorry. orz But hey, third time's the charm, right?
And uhhhh that's all I really have to say. I do apologize in advance for the slower content, but it's only because I want to give all of you the best content I can, and I made it a New Years resolution to not be so negative about my art (whoops??), and maybe I gotta just... try something different to not be as negative.
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ashintheairlikesnow · 2 years
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I’m sorry if this is too personal and you clearly do not have to answer but what is the diagnosis for? Autism spectrum? :o
Yeah, I am in the (expensive, lengthy) process of working through an adult diagnosis of being on the spectrum! It's really fucking odd and relieving, but I also am... uneasy about talking to my family about it.
Mostly because a part of me still quite pettily wants to say, "Hey, remember how you constantly told me I was too loud and had no common sense and that I was 'acting out for attention' when I tried to explain some clothes didn't feel right and the wind felt bad on my ears and I hated crowds and found them overwhelming and you made fun of me for it? Turns out... there was a reason for all of that and it didn't change, I'm just great at hiding it now."
They've already asked why I have so many books on neurodivergency now. I told them it was for writing, and that's true - I did start reading those books for Chris. But I learned as much about myself as I did about him.
Somewhere in the early spring of last year I decided to pursue this, and I don't know. It's really nice to just openly have interesting rocks on all my shelves. I've had so many of them for so long.
Sorry, this got a bit rambling and weird.
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fourangers · 3 years
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Hi Fourangers,
First of all, I love your blog so much. It's like going through a history back when Naruto Manga chapters were released weekly and your reviews were so Golden, Hilarious and spot-on. Am a new fan though (especially an SNS fan), I just got into this fandom only this year. I don't know if you'll answer my ask, but I just wanted to try and ask you few questions and I pray that you might answer me....
1. Since you've written in a post that you were active in the eastern part of the fandom, How was chapter 698 received in Japan? Because this is the chapter I inherently realized they both love each other. Yeah, I was too late but somehow whenever they interact with each other in previous chapters I always find them to be 'Weird' for just to be friends. Chapter 698 is just blatantly obvious that they love each other. Considering Homophobia and Shounen genre, I have no idea how it was perceived over there back then in 2014.
2. Which scene made you to ship SNS?
3. As an SNS'er how do you feel about the ending, where everyone was married off when they were just 19 just to make some shitty sequel??? As a new fan, I felt betrayed and It would've been perfect if they had stopped at chapter 699, leaving an open ending.
4. How do you face with the accusation about Naruto and Sasuke as brothers and we, SNS'ers are Incest shippers??? I don't care about that Indra and Ashura thing. But Naruto himself told he considers Sasuke as his Brother couple of times. And in Chapter 699, Sasuke acknowledged, 'He finally understood what it meant'.... It's the only thing that confuses me and I don't even have an answer!!! Plus, Kishi himself gave an interview that he based Sasuke on his Brother... I really wonder how he gave such an interview when he literally made them wear necklaces with each other's faces.
5. How was Naruto and Sasuke's sexuality perceived in the fandom back then??? Man!! Kishimoto just made lot of comic reliefs on their sexuality by making Sasuke on Sai jutsu, Naruto not interested in Icha Icha but making Reverse Harem no Jutsu, Naruto was angry when Konohamaru made Boy on Boy jutsu whereas he had no problem with him doing it. LOL. And all those homoerotic posters. What do you think about their sexuality, personally??
6. Why did Kishi had to develop their bond as Soulmates with some unintentional or intentional romantic undertones, if he was eventually going to pair them up with girls??? He easily could've gave many such romantic tropes to other girls and keep the bond between N and S as purely friendship or brothers. It still would've made sense.
7. Final one, Was Naruto really Nosebleeding when Kurama made a joke about Sasuke's kiss in Chapter 572???? We had a lot of heated discussion with other shippers where they claim that it was just a splotch of snot.
Sorry for the lengthy ask....... I am so eager to know your answers and I don't want to spam your ask box by sending multiple asks.
Thanks 😊😊😊
Hey yo! Welcome new SNS fan! I'm so glad that you joined us and I'll try to answer as best as I can. I'm not very active here on tumblr (except browsing lol) but your ask was such a delight to read.
1. I honestly don't remember. I think I didn't follow the japanese boards until the eventual 699-700 disaster. People were craving for reactions and I was curious about it too lol. And well...it's been years, I doubt I'll be able to find the reactions from that time. Imo, most readers don't care much about pairings, they just wanted to read about power-ups and abilities and the basic Naruto Vs Sasuke. Though there are some backhanded jokes about how gay Naruto is for Sasuke.
2. Hah. It's going to be very anti-climatic but it was when Naruto and Sakura were eating in Ichiraku Ramen. Naruto just used Rasenshuriken against Kakuzu and he busted his arm. Sakura was healing his arm and her attention was focused on Naruto. I used to be a NaruSaku shipper so I thought "Oh hey! This is the moment that Naruto would have a candid romantic moment!" But nope. He talked about Sasuke. And I was already getting suspicious about Sasuke's feelings towards Naruto ya know? And the whole "SASUKE IS MIINEEEEEE" in Orochimaru's lair. It was that moment I thought "you only have Sasuke in your head don't you, Naruto?" and started shipping SNS.
3. Hooo boy was I surprised when it was suddenly revealed that they had the basic heteronormative, boring marriage with bunch of clones of themselves. Everyone thought that it was almost like a bad fanfiction come true and some thought that it was fake. It was a pandemonium lolololol. I also thought that it was too lame to be true and lo and behold, when it came true I was floored. And then whenever Kishimoto threw new material, I got insanely pissed off because S*arada and B*ruto becoming pairing material is ok because they are a girl and a boy, and then they paralleled with Naruto and Sasuke which are only FRIENDS because they are both men. ARGH. Open ending was what Kishimoto planned from the very beginning but wrote a sequel to earn more money.
In that aspect, I made peace with it because of the whole anime/manga industry. I learned that, as a mangaka, you don't earn a lot of money with selling books, but rather with merchandise and profiting with sales right. And that guy have a family to raise, have two kids (which is hilarious about how B*ruto movie is his self-insert story), he needs a steady income. Also, I read reports about how anime studios are so poor and animators don't receive a decent income not to mention they are overstaffed and tired, and B*ruto is a good money cow for them to earn money so they can invest later on other anime they have more passion about it. So even though I hate this story with a strength of thousands suns, they are putting meal on people's tables and making them pay rents. I'm ok.
4. Lemme roll my eyes because in the Last movie they said that Hinata is related to Kaguya and so is the Uzumaki and Uchiha clan so they are all related woo hoo. But in the aspect of brothers because reincarnations bla bla bla, didn't Naruto himself said that he's no longer that brother, he's himself? Hmm...I gotta re-read it. One day. Maybe. lol. But I'm sure that he said "Sasuke is not my brother but I'm sure we'll understand well as friends" so there. Honestly, there are a lot of interviews out there and a lot of them are fake, so I'd always take the interviews with a grain of salt lololol. I do know from artbooks that Kishimoto wanted to create Sasuke as a rival-esque character and that was it. As he was developing Sasuke and Naruto's relationship, since he liked the whole yin-yang concept, whenever he wrote Naruto's story, Sasuke's was developed at the same time as his shadow.
5. I can tell from Naruto Forums (I used to participate back in that day) MOST of the non-shippers thought it was gay as hell, but you know...it was a relic of that time. While they thought it was gay, they didn't put too much thought about you know? Because it was shounen, and we knew that it was a joke that it couldn't be taken seriously. Of course, in the SNS fandom, we did make more analysis and there were a lot of instance when Naruto and Sasuke's sexuality was questioned. Some other non-shippers also thought that Naruto was totes gay for Sasuke (including a IRL friend).
Imo, Naruto is definitely bisexual in my view. Sasuke I think he's asexual or gay. He's attracted to Naruto, but mostly because of his connection to him, not because of his physical attributes, so yeah...asexual. Or Pansexual. Sasuke is more complicated lmao. Imo, Naruto could be pansexual too, come to think about it. Yeah, I guess both being pansexual can be valid.
6. He developed Naruto and Sasuke being soulmates from the very beginning, that was proven in his comments in artbooks and in the manga. He probably created with the intention of making it purely platonic, going beyond physical ties. Then he shot himself on the foot by drawing Naruto thinking about Sasuke on bed, talking about how Sasuke is cool, meanwhile Sasuke waxing poetic about how Naruto saved him. What gives? Lol. Yeah, I think he got too enamored writing their relationship that he didn't have time to write romantic ones. What I noticed that Sakura's popularity never was really high, so I could see some editors putting their fingers all over it and making her less relevant. Also, Kishimoto didn't know how to handle her, so when she got her time to shine was the whole fake confession disaster. Coupled with Kishimoto sexism and, in his words (Kurenai's flashback), women are useful to spout more babies, women was never really relevant in his story, unfortunately. Even Kaguya who was technically the big bad boss, was never really fleshed out in comparison to Madara. So the null het romantic moments it's not because he wanted to elevate SNS moments, it's more about how he's incompetent about it. It's either Hinata slowly elevating to a relevant status because forced interaction (Pain's sacrifice and Neji's death) or Sakura being obligated to be pining over Sasuke because she's a girl. It's even more painful to see that, if we ignore B*ruto, both girls are shown to be just talking with their kids and dusting shelves, basically being housewives, even though thorough the story (especially Sakura) it was implied that both of them have much more potential than being their husband accessories.
7. It was a splotch of snot. I can confirm myself lol. Whenever the chapter is out and fans would scan it to scanlate it, the editor usually would amp up contrast to max. So usually the lines get much more thicker than usual, when you read the official release which gets straight from the source, you can notice how the lines are more delicate.
Oh lol...but then we also have a lot of controversy about translating style. THAT one is a whole new can of worms to open.
Man I had fun answering your questions! Please send more :P
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PERKS OF DATING A YOUNGER GUY I LEARNED AFTER WATCHING CHINESE DRAMA FIND YOURSELF + REVIEW!
1. He has less baggage
This means that he has more time to attend to your needs and wants unlike an older guy with a demanding schedule and lots of responsibilities at hand.
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2. He's more open-minded and adventurous
They are open to having new experiences and won't judge you for veering off the path you should stay on.
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3. He's infectiously energetic *ehem*
Need I say more? A younger guy's youthful sense will surely find unimaginable ways to impress you!
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4. He puts you on a pedestal
A younger man will appreciate your maturity and experiences and will admire you for it. They're also most likely take advice from you without letting it bruise their ego.
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5. He'll make you feel young
Be prepared to relive the fun parts of your younger years with him.
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It's not so wrong to say that the May-December relationship is taboo, especially among Asians. Most people I know had this inkling that when a younger guy hooks up with a woman way older than him, it could prolly mean one of two things — the guy's a paramour or she's a sugar momma. I'm honestly not a fan of it either on the premise that women mature faster than men. Let's be real, an immature relationship is a disaster. But now that I'm in my late 20s, and a hopeless romantic single at that, I kinda pondered over this. It suddenly occurred to me, what if one day I’m caught up in the position of being pursued by a younger man? Will I let the stigma affect me emotionally? Or will I take the risk ‘coz all is fair in love? I still don’t have a definite answer to this question. However, watching Find Yourself served as an eye-opener for me to look at things from a different perspective.
Find Yourself is a 2020 Chinese drama starring Song Wei Long and Victoria Song. It tells the story of a 32-year old Executive Director who never *even once* experienced dating. Given her age and career stability, she receives constant pressure from the people around her to find someone to marry and has since frequented blind dates arranged by her family, friends, or colleagues. But this girl is just someone who swears by the "spark" - no spark, then no point to the relationship. She may be old for fantasizing over first love and such, but she still yearns that it'll naturally come to find her someday. Until her thirst for real romance is quenched by a 22-year-old guy who started working as an intern in her company at his brother’s request.
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Although hesitant at first due to their huge age difference and the societal views, she went out with him on the condition that they'll keep it a secret for the first 3 months. If everything went well, she agrees to publicize her relationship with him.
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Let’s start off with the good things...
I just can't with this drama...! This so beautiful, cute, relatable - especially for a woman in late 20s like me. 
Plot-wise, it was well-imparted and makes perfect sense, touching a looooooot of relationship aspects in 41 episodes. Not only did I enjoy the happenings between our main couple, but our side couples' stories are very interesting too.
This drama pretty much straightened out my prejudice about age-gap relationships.
Light-hearted, just the way I like it! Every episode will make you smile and/or laugh hard.
Sexual tensions overload and superb kissing scenes! Let those hormones rush in. Not awkward to watch 'coz They. Did. Not. Hold. Back. Ack! If you're single, be prepared to feel MORE SINGLE watching this drama.
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Well-written lines that will make you feel real emotions. The words will shoot you straight to the heart.
Acting-wise, the casts, from the mains down to the sides, did a super fine job in conveying the sentiments of their characters. My highest admiration goes to male lead Yuan Song, not (only) because he’s young, hot, and handsome, but because his youthful vibe made me reminisce the paradox of my early 20s awww. Anyways, in the beginning, I am sort of confused why (of all girls) he fell head over heels with our female lead He Fanxing who's obviously out of his league. I even suspected him of taking advantage of her naivety in matters of the heart. But as the drama went along, our dude proved himself genuine... That he's sincerely just a guy who's deeply in love with a woman... That indeed, true love can exist in this kind of relationship. Both Yuan Song and Fanxing emotionally benefited from each other and it's so lovely seeing that.
⚠️ AND SORRY BUT THIS IS A SPOILER ALERT⚠️
Halfway through the drama, our main couple called it quits. I'm somewhat grateful that it happened. Their break-up scene is just so powerful I had to rewind it many times. Not because I liked seeing them suffer from the consequences of their incompatibility. Rather, I loved it 'coz it became the turning point of their relationship.
Their love is premature, to begin with — trust isn't mutual, commitment is one-way, only showing each other's good sides in fear of the relationship turning sour, one is willing to compromise while the other wants to avoid responsibility, filled with doubts and insecurities. During this break-up phase, we were shown the difference between how kids and adults behave and decide in a dilemma. I suddenly remembered this one line delivered in the drama which I agree with — "Only kids would choose one or the other. Adults find solutions". The break-up also served as our main couple's period of contemplation about who and what they want in life. It taught them how to fully embrace their offbeat romance against the norms. Fortunately, things wrapped up into a sweet end.
And of course the bad...
Hmmm... Maybe I'm just not used to it but am I the only one who thinks that this drama is quite lengthy? Yes, I enjoyed it but it's not a good one to binge-watch. It took me almost a month to finish this I nearly drowned haha. Honestly, there were parts they could've just compressed instead of dragging it for too long. One example is Ye Luming and He Fanxing's relationship trial. Ooohhh I hate this part it brought shivers down my spine ugh. Well truth be told, Luming and Fanxing are compatible and better off as friends. They jive so well, and I give it to them that they're both adults who can only understand adult things.
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But when Luming all of a sudden became a sneaky character to an intolerable point... Ah, I don't know anymore! Seeing how compelled Fanxing is to being Luming's girlfriend got under my skin. Although these ugly parts eventually became a good contributory factor to Fanxing's realization of her true feelings towards Yuan Song, but still...! I also hated Fanxing at one point for being so gullible in love. But yeah, I had to swallow it because that's her character setup in the first place. It should be expected of her to be hasty and dubious about it.
On the other hand, I wished they've been generous in showing us more about how Yuan Song and Fanxing's relationship is going after the public reveal. I've been waiting for this the entire time (they could've done so much more in 41 episodes' length!) so I'm quite disappointed.
After watching the second season of Well-Intended Love, I admit I lost interest in Chinese dramas. So watching this restored my faith in them. I even have a list of C-dramas lined up now! But I have to move on from this one first before I start another. It's not as easy as I thought ㅠㅠ
What do you think about this drama? Are we on the same frequency? ❤️
If you haven't watched this yet, watch it now. As in 지금부터 RIGHT NOW. Highly-recommended!
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sanzu-sanzu-sanzu · 3 years
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Hiiiii.🙈
Just came here to say that I love your Songs About Toxic People so much.❤️ I've been obsessed about the Bonten Executives ever since I caught up with the manga and it's just so sad how we don't have enough content about them yet.🤧
I love all the Bonten Executives and my favorites are Sanzu and the Haitanis.🥺🤧💕
It's funny because I don't even know how that happened and I didn't notice it right away but the next thing I know I'm simping after the three of them so hard and for days my mind has been filled with nothing but thoughts of them ever since. Oh, the struggle. (😂)
The lack of content about them almost turned me into a fanfic writer right then and there (🤣) because I seriously wanted to read something about an OC who's also the only female executive in Bonten and I almost wrote it down myself, I swear.😆 I have never written something before in my life. Never. That's why I am soooo glad to find Songs About Toxic People. You have no idea how you saved me from the thirst I've been having ever since I got introduced to Bonten!Sanzu and Bonten!Haitanis and how you silenced the raging thoughts in my head about them if only for a little while, may God help me.
Now. About your absolutely beautiful and wonderfully written fic. Let me just say that I love everything about it.✨ The characterization, the little details about OC, their interactions, the dialogue, everything, is chef's kiss in my opinion. English is not my first language and (I'm guessing your's isn't as well? If I'm wrong, please ignore this but if I'm right then) I admire how beautiful your narration is. The words you use and the way you can create an image in your readers' minds using your descriptions is amazing.❤️
Your "show, don't tell" skills in writing is very beautiful, very admirable, and it's also my most favorite part of your story. I love it very much, seriously. That skill is the one thing I lack that made me give up in being able to write something of my own.😌 I realized that when it comes to writing, there are so many factors to remember and consider in order to make it interesting and engaging for your readers. Worldbuilding, character development, pacing, to name a few. But the hardest for me to master is the one thing you're so amazingly good at. And I admire you for that. That's why whenever I come across a writer like you with such excellent "show, don't tell" skills, I always make sure to make my appreciation shown. ❤️
Another thing I love about your story is the OC.😭 God, I love her so much. She is everything I've wanted to see in a fic that involves the Bonten Executives. She's a badass, she's feisty, and she perfectly fits right in with the other characters. I could just cry with how perfect she is in my opinion and you made that happen.😭❤️ I'm very satisfied with her character and I want to thank you again because I just know that if I did followed up on my need to write my own fic despite my inexperience, I just know that I'll end up disappointing myself and possibly even hate the plot idea because I was not able to meet my own expectations so thank you, thank you, thank you.❤️
She is amazing. You are amazing. Your whole fic is super amazing. I am glad and relieved that I don't have to write my own because yours already exists and it's so perfect.🤧
A female Bonten Executive, and the only female one at that.🥺🤧😭 I am so incredibly happy that the idea is finally out there and someone finally wrote it and that someone is also such a good writer. 🙌🏼
Kudos to you and I hope I can do more than just read and then say thanks. I believe you deserve more than that because I've been looking for this exact content you made and I've been looking for days. And now that I found one, even just the one, I'm relieved because it's already perfect on its own.😌
It's possible that it would take a long time for other writers to write something like this: a female OC that involves the Bonten Executives, my favorite flavor.🤧 It makes me sad, but no matter. I don't mind if I have to reread Songs About Toxic People again and again and again like how Sanzu takes drugs I'M SORRY for a long while because it's enough to satisfy my hunger and my thirst for the time being.❤️
Wow. This got super long. My bad. 😅 I did not mean for this to happen. I hope you don't mind this long ass appreciation message. I love leaving this kind of messages to writers like you.😊
Anyways, yeah. I just came here to tell you that. I hope you're having an amazing day and that you're safe wherever you are. Please take care of yourself. I'm looking forward to more of your works and what you can come up with. I am super excited! 😁
Best of luck and God bless.
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helloooo :”( this one took me a quite a while to answer because i just couldn’t stop gushing whenever i’d open my inbox huhuhu but you have no idea how much this truly means to me and i wish i can write better words at explaining how this made me feel. <3
first of all, your obsession with the bonten executives is COMPLETELY understandable i’m literally on the same boat as you my friend hahaha with sanzu being my main guy <3 they’re just so hot and dangerous but i also think there’s something kinda funny with all those guys being together LMAO (especially sanzu and the haitanis…add in a dead-eyed manjiro omg..)
just like you i am quite sad about the lack of content on them hahahaha it’s the main reason why i started writing about them in the first place, actually! (also because i'm just obsessed with sanzu) but that was more at the beginning when i still mostly relied on ao3, and then i got more active on tumblr and now literally everyday there’s new fics about them and that makes me extremely happy 🥺 i always did think that the bonten executive OC would make for such a nice flavor so i just latched on to the idea, and i also wanted to keep it a little more casual because i’m not the best with dark themes hahaha but it also helps me imagine the bonten execs in friendlier, more human, more everyday settings—a very fun exercise when you can’t stop thinking about them!
i am beyond happy knowing that you’re enjoying my fic to the point of sending me this lengthy message (whose length i don’t mind at all!!!) 😭 painting a picture with words is one of my favorite things ever when it comes to writing and i just…tear up when people enjoy my descriptions and the interactions and the little details huhuhuhu you have no idea. i didn’t even know i was doing a ‘show, don’t tell’ manner of writing until you pointed it out, so i gotta thank you for this cause it made me think more about how i write (in a good way!), so thank you, i super appreciate it.
i also hope you do get to write if ever you wanna! manifest the things you’d like to see in the world—something like that! hahahaha but also yeah, it can be fun and the possibilities are endless and it’s fanfiction so you can always do you <3
again, this really just made my day and i’ve saved it to my notes to read for when i’m feeling meh hahaha. i gotta say in advance tho that my updates might not come as regularly as before cus (1) life and also (2) need ken wakui to reveal more about my favorite bad boy sanzu LOL so we get to know him better.
and here’s to hoping more people write about oc’s that are bonten execs! so you’d get to have your share of this genre of bonten fic! hehehe you deserve it <3
THANK YOU SO MUCH, i hope you’ll have a nice day too 🥺 and take caaaaare. MWAH.
ps. oh yes, you’re right! english is not my first language hahaha.
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ominousunflower · 3 years
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Hi, If you don't mind me asking, are you still planning on doing other Miraculous fics other than Lace And Leather before you retire from it or is this the last one?
Hi! No worries, I don't mind the question. And nope, I'm no longer writing Miraculous fics--I probably should've pinned this on my blog instead of sticking it in my header, but like I said here, I'll only be writing new Miraculous fics if they're gifts for my friends who still follow the show.
I've called it a "hiatus" because it's possible I'll write for other fandoms, or randomly be inspired to write another Miraculous fic in the (far) future. For the time being, though, aside from Lace or Leather, I don't plan to write any more Miraculous fics, and I don't think I'll be writing for any other fandoms anytime soon. (Who knows, though? Maybe some other show or book will inspire me.)
I know it's rough when authors leave a fandom, and I can see why it's confusing for people since I'm still in the middle of posting a fic. It's kind of a weird limbo--I'm not really in the fandom anymore, but I'm also not about to abandon a gigantic fic when it's only halfway done. It would feel unsatisfying to me, and worse, it would be really disappointing to readers who have stuck with the fic for months. Fortunately, I do have a complete first draft, so at this point, it's just a matter of finding time/motivation to edit it.
But, yeah, I've definitely experienced situations where an author I follow suddenly moves to a new fandom, and it's always a little bit jarring. Even when that author introduces me to new material that I really like, it takes me a while to come to terms with the fact that they won't be creating any more content for a fandom I'm still in. It's hard not to feel like I've been left behind!
I can't read minds, obviously, but I totally understand if some of my readers feel a little let down. The fact is, I'm just not that interested in Miraculous anymore, and I can't change that. That's not to say that I hate the show--what I've seen of Season 4 has been fun! However, I'm not invested enough to want to create/consume any fan content for the show, and I don't think that's going to change.
On top of that, I'm really busy with irl stuff and writing original fiction. The thing is, I actually didn't start out writing fanfiction--I'd been working on original stuff for years, but when it was finally time to edit my most recent novel draft, I encountered really bad writer's block. I still wanted to write, though, and I had tons of ideas for Miraculous, so that's how I became a fanfic author.
Last summer, though, I finally overcame my writer's block, and in November, I started a brand-new draft of the novel. Since then, I've been more excited about the story than I've ever been, and writing it has been really fun and rewarding--especially now that I'm sharing ideas and excerpts with my friends, who have been amazingly supportive of the project.
Of course, that doesn't really benefit my AO3 followers--they're subscribed to me for Miraculous fics, and even if they like my writing enough to be interested in my original stuff, I don't intend to share any of that publicly. Still, I'm doing what I've always done: writing what makes me happy and then sharing it with people. Before, that meant writing Miraculous fics and posting them for y'all to read; now, it means working on my original novel and showing it to my pals.
Sorry for the lengthy answer, anon! I figured that other people besides you probably had the same question, and I wanted to properly address the issue. Take care!
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cloudy-reverie · 3 years
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Hello I want to ask you something about Mars Red (I don't mind about spoilers) tell me what happened with Maeda and Yamagami-san in chapter 13 and also, do you think the anime was good enough? Thanks.
Hi there! I’ll answer both of your questions under the cut, as this will be a long post.
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Do I think the anime was good enough? Well, I have mixed feelings about it, and I’ve been thinking of doing a full post of my thoughts after I’ve watched it all a second time now that it’s complete and easy to marathon. I enjoyed the anime immensely, but I’m not above critiquing things I like, either.
I started reading the Mars Red manga last year, and even now after the anime, I still prefer the manga’s version of events. I haven’t seen the stage play, the original source of material, so I can’t account for how accurately the manga or the anime adapted its events. As I understand it, the anime gained attention just for being an adaptation of a stage play, which doesn’t happen very often. Usually, it’s the other way around. That explains the interesting use of cinematography in the anime, the emphasis on drama and soliloquys and so forth. Some people might find the anime pretentious in that way, but, well, it is what it is, being adapted from theatre. Being an English Literature major, I didn’t mind it, and I also like the occasional artsy series.
Anyway, as a manga reader, I had different expectations going into the anime. The manga is more character-driven, whereas I feel the anime was more plot-driven, and the addition of anime-only characters – as interesting as they are – made the series seem crowded with only 12 episodes to pack everything in. The manga fleshes out the regular cast more (the anime didn't fully touch upon Defrott and Suwa’s pasts, left out Takeuchi’s shock over a revelation, erased parts of Maeda’s personality, left out some fun Code Zero moments, Aoi encountering Code Zero early on, etc.), and it definitely toned down the violence for a more mainstream audience because Shutaro’s manga rescue of Yamagami was far bloodier and terrifying, as Shutaro, agonizingly, begins to realize what he’s capable of and who he may become.
And one example that I still complain about (lol) is that in the manga, Shutaro and Aoi’s relationship is highlighted in the first chapter alone and emphasized in subsequent chapters. It’s clear they care for each other. It’s clear they’re among the main stage players. It’s easier to be emotionally invested in what happens to them by the end.
In the anime, Maeda takes centre stage instead, with the first episode introducing us to his fiancée, Misaki, whom he has never met in-person until she becomes a vampire. From that point onward, their what-if relationship and Maeda’s regret is frequently alluded to, culminating in the final episode.
Typically, whoever you introduce in the first chapter/episode are the characters that you’ll be going on a journey with, so it was a bit jarring for me when I realized Shutaro and Aoi and the rest of Code Zero wouldn’t be introduced until the second episode (well, Aoi did make an appearance, but they had her interact with Maeda more). We never get to see all of the flashbacks of Aoi and Shutaro, never are shown how much Aoi is determined to find Shutaro. We never even get to see Shutaro's “dream visit,” and then that silly vampire (sorry, Shutaro, I still love ya) left visible footprints in her yard after claiming he was a ghost, and she definitely noticed, so she knows something is up. Had if we had received all of that, perhaps the rescue and the finale would’ve been far more emotional for anime-only viewers invested in their relationship.
Instead, there was more feeling for Maeda and Misaki because the anime took care in telling their story. The anime was good in that aspect because they made Maeda and Misaki’s tragic relationship the focus, and so we were able to reach full circle by the end. Meanwhile, with Shutaro and Aoi practically being sidelined, I saw comments from anime-only viewers confused about why they were suddenly a main couple or getting the spotlight in the end. The anime could’ve avoided that confusion by tightening up their storytelling and fleshing out Aoi and Shutaro more as characters.
I also feel the anime focused a lot more on the politics and military, too. There were so many lengthy meeting scenes when it’s more balanced in the manga, I find. Also, just the other day, I was rereading some exchanges between Shutaro and Yamagami, and laughing, and thinking about why the anime didn’t include those because they were funny daily life scenes. There are also anime reviews complaining about the pacing, the random tone changes, and other things that might’ve compelled them to rate the anime higher.
So, do I think the anime is good? I might be biased, but I enjoyed it; it wasn’t a masterpiece, but it was good for what it intended to deliver. Also, I like series based in the Taisho era, so that was a bonus for me. The manga isn’t 100% perfect, either; it might disappoint Maeda fans, for one thing, and it does tell its story quickly (I wish it was longer). I personally prefer the manga over the anime, but I love both.
The way I view Mars Red anime and manga is like this: Fullmetal Alchemist (2003) and Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood (2009) are both favourite series of mine. FMAB is prefered by most people, and is widely considered one of the greatest anime series ever, a modern masterpiece. It adapted the manga completely – only because the manga had finished by then, and I absolutely love the manga. However, it doesn’t mean FMA ’03 is bad in comparison; it just has a different but no less unique storyline that Arakawa also liked. With the manga still running at the time, FMA '03, being as popular as it was, had no choice but to go its own way for completion's sake.
This is the case for me here: I like the Mars Red anime and manga for different reasons. I’d probably recommend the manga first due to my preference for deeper character development. But the anime also tells an interesting version, though it could’ve done with a more streamlined focus. Karakara Kemuri adapted Fujisawa Bun-o’s stage play in her own way, presumably keeping to the general storyline but also adding personal touches of her own (you’ll know if you’ve read any of her works before); Signal M.D. studio handled the anime adaptation with their own team of writers while striving for the theatrical atmosphere of its roots. They accomplish different results.
And now that there’s a game with more information about the characters, the Mars Red universe seems so much bigger in an exciting way.
Now, to your second question:
MAGComi is a monthly manga magazine, and you can read chapters online for free for a limited time. They made chapter 13 available to read while the final chapter 14, newly released, is for premium subscribers. Chapter 12 is still available to view, as well.
Since I can’t read Japanese, I will be excitedly awaiting a translation from Laughing in Quarantine scanlations until I get my officially licensed volumes in English this year and next. Thus, I can only make guesses based on visuals alone while factoring in the anime’s events.
So, in the previous chapter 12, Code Zero encounter Nakajima, as they do in the anime, though the context differs slightly. It’s more menacing, and Maeda is revealed to be inside one of those vampire unit mechanical suits, already a vampire himself, near mindless. Yamagami is enraged. A fight ensues. Then, the Great Kanto Earthquake occurs, as it does in the anime.
In chapter 13, as you can see, the fight continues, dangerously close to shafts of sunlight; the rest seem trapped by the rubble, unable to get to the two in time. Yamagami sees Maeda shed a tear, and they exchange words, and Yamagami seems determined to save Maeda’s humanity. Yamagami then pushes himself and Maeda into the sunlight. They grin at each other, exchanging more words, as they are both swept up into flames, dying together.
Then more incredible stuff happens in the rest of the chapter, as you can see! We’ll have to wait for the scanlation team to provide us more solid answers.
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ivarsrideordie · 3 years
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Your recent post on AHA being absent from social media got me thinking; my response is verbose and I was nervous it would be annoyingly long to post in the general comment section. So I came here? Is that a thing? Lol. I'm still in my infancy stage with Tumblr. Learning the ropes. So, the thoughts:
Sadly, loneliness and projection are too real. Day dreaming is fun, but scary territory when the dreamer begins to derive their self-worth and happiness from a person or relationship built in the mind. Truth is, this man is merely an attractive stranger whose true personality we can only scratch the suface of. There is no true, substantial two way relationship. So when people 'miss' his presence, who do we miss? The character of Alex developed in the mind? The idea that if he posts, it directly validates his acceptance of 'me' as a person? That he posts because he cares about engaging with 'me'? Alex cannot accept or reject 'me'... he doesn't know 'I' exist. He's engaging with an idea of a group that he hopes is kind but sometimes isn't- a general group of people he's probably grateful for but also weary of. When a fan's emotion and self worth becomes impacted by an actor or influencer's engagement... that's where the line gets real blurry.
I read an article I think of him mentioning that people write to him frequently with heavy thoughts, asking him to respond, to ultimately save them from themselves. That's fking tragic, for both sides. Both humans. My heart breaks for the lonely and the lost who put so much stock in a stranger's validation. Because the savior in their mind is all they have. I'm not judging. I'm not. I understand walking that line more than I'd like to admit. Its too easy to do when you've made inferences in your mind and patchworked together the personality of a potential friend. And what can he do? Its an unfair ask with one person, let alone hundreds, thousands? How can he protect himself from that impossible emotional burden if not by hiding? This person we follow online is just another human in the world who poops like rest of us. And the psychology of acting and influence is heavy. To get the big roles and make a good living, you sell your image, I suppose. You're the product. The more popular, the more valuable in the box office. But also the more exposed, judged, and vulnerable. Do you give up the dream of your passion as an income and the idea of supporting your family because you 'can't handle the heat'?
I do believe all jobs come with a trade off. If I want to earn enough money to afford certain things, I trade time away from my children while working, for example. I don't know if we can change the machine. The psychology behind why his job works like it does. But, just as I am on an endless quest to find balance between what I gain and what I lose as I endeavor to be both happy and provide financially, I imagine he is too. And that's ok. That's fair. Not personal. 
Suffice to say, if I were this dude I'd be ghosting too.
Sorry it took me a bit to get back to you on this.  I actually wanted to be on my laptop so I could answer with more than a 4 word reply.  
First off, WELCOME TO TUMBLR!  I’ll take any comments or questions no matter how long they are so don’t worry about being lengthy.  It’s not hard to use and its both fun and annoying to be on.  This social media platform is becoming just about as bad as Twitter or Facebook.  
You make some very good points.  I agree there is a very fine line between reality vs “reality’ and some fans can’t seem to figure out which is the real one.  When I was younger, I had issues with this.  I have done some stupid stuff that was totally stalkerish.  Then I grew up.  That was also the time I started realizing I was bipolar with high anxiety.  I would have rather been in my own little world with my fake friends then real life.  It takes a lot of hard work and time to pull yourself out of that kind of mentality and also a lot of work to stay out of that kind of thinking as well.  
I’ll admit I say that I miss Alex as well.  It’s not necessarily him that I am missing though.  You are correct.  It is the essence of what Alex puts out there of himself.  We all have come to love him as Ivar.  Some people can’t get away from the fact that he is in fact not actually Ivar so they have that whole image of him in their minds thinking that that is who he is.  I feel for those people.  I feel like some, if not most of the people who have this disassociation have had horrible childhoods.  That was my issue.  And like I said, I have learned through therapy and hard work how to distinguish the two.  
Expecting anything from anyone that doesn’t know you is definitely unfair.  I would never put Alex or anyone in a situation where I would tell them I would die or kill myself if they didn’t talk to me or love me.  That is selfish and unfair to do to anyone.  
That is just my two cents.  Thank you for this comment and somewhat of a debate.  lol  
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