#sorry about the random vent

[tekatonic]

hey guys, sorry i was asleep again today. i uh. encountered a sleeping issue. i'm really tired rn but i guess i slept a little better ?

the weather here's been really doing a number on me, it's hot and heavy and hard to breathe especially in my room, i can't even sit at my desk without sweating like a pig...

it's been tough lately, but sharing the AU stuff with you guys has been a joy, so thank you for that <3

#off topic teka talk #sorry about the random vent #i've definitely felt better before #but i've felt worse too #i'll survive

[alliluyevas]

are people not allowed to find a subplot/trope boring or uninteresting anymore? is a story boring if it doesnt have a cheating plotline?

every story needs to hit a quota of five extramarital affairs before I crack open the page that’s exactly what I meant

#why are you so perturbed you felt the need to message me personally about this #I’m sorry that when penning a random vent post I did not include 900 disclaimers to ensure that the denizens of tumblr did not read #anything into it that I never said. have a nice day and feel free to read all the love triangle devoid fiction you wish

[mustangs-flames]

Hey guys, I'm going to be taking a break for a little while. I'll pop in from time to time to check the hail true body au tag and will still be uploading the next chapter of Good Samaritan once it's done, but I feel I need to step back for a bit. If you need me/want to ask something/want me to see something you can still tag me or send an ask, but I can't promise to answer it quickly. I will see it eventually though!

Take care! (further explanation of things on my end in the tags but tw: mental health, just in case)

#i am genuinely getting very bad at overthinking things like interactions from years ago and spiralling into bad anxiety attacks lately- #and i just #idk. i think i need to step back and away from things? i'll still be writing and posting to ao3 but i think a break could do me some good #i keep catching myself right on the edge of panic attacks and then feeling terrible afterwards #might need medication and therapy again to get stuff back under some semblance of order #i keep having genuine intrusive thoughts too that make me terrified that i am hurting people i care about or random strangers and i just.. #yeah. it's freaking me out really bad. #yeah. a break sounds good. #sorry for the vent

[babacontainsmultitudes]

80 or so years of life really ain't enough can I have an elf lifespan instead please? Or at least a dwarf's... I need at least a couple hundred years... Oh and a new spine every 5 or so years, if that's not too much to ask. 3. 3 years actually. Yeah, a new spine every 2 years, and a lifespan of 350-750 years, that's all I want really.

#SORRY this is such a random thing to be posting about and I guess it's a vent post haha #I suppose I've just been feeling a lot of... dread and fear lately... especially in the late hours... #''Lately'' as in on and off for most of my life but *a lot* as of the past few months #Like #Oh it's weirdly embarrassing to talk about this here it's a tad personal uh **tw (discussions of) death #But do you ever just feel paralyzed by the knowledge that one day you'll be 40? Or 60? Or 80? If you're lucky! #I worry a lot about wasting my life #I worry a lot about dying an unpleasant death #Or a painful one #I suppose I've always been gerascophobic... #But finishing school and turning 23 and not having a job and having just a hard time with my physical health lately... #I haven't been great I guess #I just feel like time has been moving so quickly lately!!! #And I've been going nowhere. #:0 not to be too much of a bummer y'all I'm not like feeling horrible rn or anything but I do need to vent I think #Cause if not it just stays coiled up inside of me. #*gah* I should channel all of this energy into Glenn in my pirate fic lol #😌 he's insecure (in part) cause he feels old #🥲 ough and I don't feel amazing about that most recent chapter but I guess that's a whole new vent #working on some different stuff for a bit. #ANYWAYS #I hope whoever happens to be reading this is having a good night ✨️ #oh or day if it's day for you lol

[elmhat]

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#I'm just going to have a little stress vent so don't mind me #this has been in the drafts for a while and I wasn't sure if I should post it #but I'm a little terrified of how many people perceive me here now sjdhfjk #I was completely blindsided by how many people signed up for my event #and my posts actually get seen by people now #Real People. who don't just live in a screen #I'm not used to it #don't get me wrong—I'm still a pretty small blog! I don't have a lot of followers! #even so #a decent number of people see whatever I write #and it freaks me out sometimes #I especially don't want to say anything insensitive or dumb #BUT I'm so so grateful for everyone who follows me and listens to my shenanigans #just. sorry if I'm ever weird about anything akjsdh #random elm thoughts

[trans-axolotl]

have not left bed today + found out another friend got locked up + want to beat up every single adult that saw what was happening to me and looked away or actively made it worse

#personal #vent #suicide mention tw #i need to call her. last time we talked she said she was going to kill herself if she got incarcerated again #i love her. nothing makes me more angry at so many systems than trying to do suicide support with my friends who are locked up #trying to do this shit over the phone with people listening in. trying to figure out what meaningful support we can even give #because when she says that death is better than months of solitary i know exactly how she feels and what she means and i cannot fucking #most of the skills mainstream peer support has ever taught me are useless in that situation and my best is not enough #there are so many places that need to be burnt down. #there are so many people i love who are not out and it starts to kill me a little bit #and cops are starting to fuck with us here more. i've gotten bruised up a couple times from being shoved around #nothing too bad yet but just #jesus christ #sorry for coming on here to vent all the time but my offline life is a little crazy at the moment and half this shit i can't talk about irl #i honestly think i need to like. start learning how to fight properly again. bc i have so much anger right now #and learning how to actually fight sounds like a better idea then fucking off and getting into random fights like i used to #idk. will look into it

[salon-maiden-anabel]

I HATE PARANOIA FUELLED DELUSIONS !!! I HATE PARANOIA FUELLED DELUSIONS !!! I HATE PARANOIA FUELLED DELUSIONS !!! I HATE PARANOIA FUELLED DELUSIONS !!! I HATE PARANOIA FUELLED DELUSIONS !!! I HATE PARANOIA FUELLED DELUSIONS !!! I HATE PARANOIA FUELLED DELUSIONS !!! I HATE PARANOIA FUELLED DELUSIONS !!! I HATE PARANOIA FUELLED DELUSIONS !!! I HATE PARANOIA FU

#talk tag #sorry for venting on mainlol im just. idk #head in hands i haaate feeling like everyone secretly hates me behind my back and stuff when i know that isnt happening #ive genuinly never had ppl really yell at me for anything either my brain just loves to tell me its going to happen either way #to the point i just fully think its happening behind my back even when realistically its nooottttttt gruhhhhawhg #Ever since i saw oooneeee random comment years back about Oh if you feel guilty abt smtn thats bc your subconscious knows youre horrible! #ive just been in a fuckign nightmare of constant fear #and even no matter how much i rationalize to myself!!!! it never stops!!!

[vt-scribbles]

Something seriously lacking in my art is the ability to tell a story in a single illustration.

I've gotten so used to drawing my characters standing around doing random things that I've never practiced telling a full tale/putting implications into my pieces that require more thinking/looking.

It also comes from a lower amount of details in my works by default [since I like to get pieces done fast], but I'm tired of using that as an excuse.

#vent #kinda #sorry I'm just having a rough one tonight but I'll recover lmao #I think the AI art thing is really getting to me cuz like. #Anyone can make pretty images if they study and practice hard enough #[not to detract from people who don't tell stories with their images!] #but something in my brain wants to fight back because AI will never be able to Tell a Story through its images. #It can't make narrative choices through its regurgitation of random elements. It will never tell a cohesive and interesting tale through #detail choice #the worst it can do is create surface-level 'pretty' images by smashing together a bunch of mushed up information #but storytelling? that's human touch #that's intention. Thought. Choices. #and idk it's really bothering me lately that my images almost never... 'say' anything about a character. #this does not apply to anyone else's art I look at #it's just a standard I'm starting to feel my head apply to my own work and nobody else's. #which I'm taking as a sign that this is something I'm unsatisfied with #but the thought of starting to develop a completely new skill like that? terrifyingly daunting. #Sorry for the wall of tags I'm havin' some hella moodswings tonight #happens a lot when I get inspired by art I see #which I'm trying to work on but yaknow #it's a long process #anyways how's your night goin #I'm gonna cheer myself up by eating some amazing asparagus casserole

[the-doggy-diaries]

sooo annoying that one of my friends is like "and when mitski said 'mom wld u wash my back this once...' i felt that" when they get monthly automatic deposits into their bank account .... washing your back is all she does girl cmon 😭

#im sorry this is so random but they follow me everywhere else i have to complain #complaining about their mom ALLL the time to me #saying they have an 'almond mom' when their pantry is so full of food and snacks and ingredients i could live off it for 6 months #complaining when their monthly allowance is late when my mom refused to pay me back the money shed owed me for years #when i was on the verge of HOMESLESSNESS #i know comparison is the thief of joy or whatever #but iDGAF #all they do is complain about their life to me and i have to listen to it #also they r at a super fancy university and im a community college drop out #and my mom SAIDDD shed pay for it but she DIDNT #so im 2000 in debt 😄😄😄 #YAY!!!!!! #vent

[dandyshucks]

ouhhhh the neighbour doesn't have any supplies of her own for crochet and I'm teaching her and my mother today starting in just over an hour

and i am ... not selfish with my supplies but i am unemployed and living off a very tight budget (cannot purchase any more yarn for projects unless i manage to do some pretty spectacular savings on my groceries for the month which is... not very doable) so I'm a tad worried she's going to be good at crocheting and want to Make Something with the yarn that i do have fjdskl and I would normally be totally fine with that but considering there's basically nowhere in town to buy yarn (i've had to buy online) and shipping is $20+ lately, that's not exactly a great thing for me right now 🧍‍♂️

#but i feel terrible for worrying about this fdsjkl like it feels selfish and greedy to worry #however. she is employed. as is her husband. and i have been unemployed (due to disability lol) and have had zero income for three yrs #just living off savings and watching it get drained slowly all away by my parents charging me rent to live in the basement fdsjkl #(and i realize i am very very lucky to have had so much in my savings account that i'd been stashing away since my first job in gr 8 lol) #so um... i think perhaps she should go to walmart and buy whatever random skein they have on the bare shelves #in NORMAL circumstances i'd be totally fine to share my supplies #i love teaching ppl and sharing my crafts !!! i love helping ppl make art !! i am normally very happy to share and give away !! #this is not normal circumstances though i am so stressed about even just buying groceries lately fdsjkl #AUUGHH i was just hoping she'd got some sort of beginner's kit or smth already fdsjkl #im probably worrying about nothing though fdsjkl like crochet takes a while to get the hang of #and hopefully by the time we have our next ''lesson''/teaching session she will have acquired at least some yarn of her own #and unfortunately i cannot lend her any of my hooks bc i am working on a project that requires the hooks i'd normally lend #vent // #dandy.cmd #I'LL DELETE THIS LATER BTW SORRY i just have to yell somewhere so i dont cry and panic dsfjkl i got myself so worried over this

[musical-chick-13]

Bro, I'm so tired.

#he's not SEEN as creepy he IS creepy!! #it's okay for a character to be creepy!!!! #and it's okay for you to still find them interesting or even like them because they aren't real!!!!!!!!!!! #he is 'regarded with deep suspicion' BECAUSE HE IS SHADY AF AND REFUSES TO BE A REASONABLE FUCKING PERSON #you would NOT be saying this if this character were a woman #In the Vents #'I don't see people as individual people with their own interiority unless they are personally connected to me' THAT IS NOT AUTOMATIC #NEURODIVERGENCE MY FRIEND #you will never get me to feel bad for this man. I simply cannot care. sorry. #also if the implication is that he has face blindness. why the decision to SEE EVERYONE AS GAME PIECES. aka 'things you exploit #for personal gain/entertainment' #it's not like. random blobs or fuzz or a singular generic look it is SPECIFICALLY. TOYS. #HOW WAS THAT NOT AN INTENTIONAL CHARACTERIZATION CHOICE. THIS IS A SMART SHOW. COME /ON/ #also the fact that he can differentiate between men and women. and men all look the same vs women all looking the same but in a different #generic way. which like. hmmm. HMMMMMMMMM. #also he can differentiate between his promoted and un-promoted coworkers like this does not read as 'I literally cannot tell the #difference between any person.' it comes across as 'I do not care about people or see them as people and find it boring/pointless #to bother trying to differentiate them in the first place' #also lmao at this article trying to convince me the teenage girl shoved into a court role against her will is some how more dangerous than #this man. like I literally cannot make this shit up.

[aa0akaace]

My gender is strange, hard to describe, unknowable, and mysterious, which is why this june I'll be partnering with the scp foundation-

#i could have also made a hollow knight vessel joke or a rainworld joke possibility but couldn't think of one for this meme #im sorry for not posting alot of pride month related content ive been anxious about things and havent made any art that i wanted to post #ignore random vents in tags you dont see this shut #scp #scp containment breach #scp fandom #scp posting #scp shitposting #scp foundation

[avianii]

that moment when you have a bunch of pilots emailing you to ask about talking to your club but you know for a fact nobody is gonna show >:(

#anii's random thoughts #i have SO many people I could be doing interviews with #and so many events that we could do but nO #club members who actually care rn is down to me and literally nobody #HOW CAN YOU NOT CARE ABOUT THE WACKY AF F16 #sorry I'm just venting rn #because I don't wanna just do it and have 0 people show up after I put in that much effort to find people who know their shit

[mustangs-flames]

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#took my anxiety meds and did my cbt exercises and am doing a bit better now #turns out i had forgotten to take them today #and a bunch of random stuff triggered a bit of a spiral #one of those being about horror story creation and how anyone who writes/makes horror content is- #inherently an evil person and shouldn't be making it. so yeah. uh. seeing that during an anxiety episode didn't help out at all lmao #i got scared thinking i had hurt everyone in the world by writing a horror series #despite. you know. tagging all my stories age-appropriately. tagging content. and even providing content warnings on each chapter #like. i think i do a lot more than some creators do when being responsible about horror or handling certain topics in my writing #especially because of the religious trauma #and the bad childhoods and parents. and the fear of god and how it can negatively impact one's queerness and identity #and i mean. i've always been clear that if i ever forget to tag something that all you have to do is let me know and i will fix it asap #idk. not saying i'm like a beacon if perfection but i try to rationalise to my anxiety that i am doing the most i can #if that makes sense? #anyway. sorry about my break earlier #tw: vent

[nekrophoria]

Okay, yeah I give up.

#infinite saving my beloved #I spent all day in my gameplay save file just for it to not let me save after hours of progress #REPEATEDLY #already moved em to a new town #remade a super bare bones house and remade the family #but yeah #doesn't change anything #there's just only so much new or interesting gameplay wise I can post if I can never actually save my progress #so yeah I think I'll give up on posting gameplay stuff #not that I ever posted much gameplay #but it was a fun distraction every now and then #but dealing with this is the bloody opposite of a fun distraction #okay tag rant over #just really burnt out on this shit #if there's one thing I absolutely despise about sims 3 is just the sheer frequency of crashes and shit going wrong all the time #like #it's insane just how often you lose any kind of progress because of some random fuck up in this game #it's really discouraging #okay rant over for real now #sorry just needed to vent a bit #ignore me

[cynicalmusings]

‘the most crucial skill that a good drinksmith needs is listening… drinksmithing is all about having conversations with your guests’

tea house owner!reader energy for real

#my mind shot straight there when siobhan said this in the hsr event #hey guys #what if i just steal the concept of the event and write a continuation? #the reader does spy on people and accept bribes for jobs blah blah blah #but they also offer free therapy over tea! #(but only if they like the person if course) (everyone else is getting eavesdropped on) #…i started writing this as a joke but hey it could be fun #if i ever write a continuation of that fic i might do something like that #high cloud quintet members coming for therapy after baiheng dies #reader helping couples talk through problems in their relationship calmly #i’m a sucker for characters who are very elusive and sneaky and cold but when it comes to it have a heart of gold #‘yes i will expose your enemy’s business blah blah but hang on let me help this lost child find their parents first’ #‘oh you’re not being patient? you think your rivalry is more important than this child? actually you can keep the money and leave thank you #[turning to child] ‘now tell me where you last saw your parents’ #and with their connections from the various dealings they’ve had around the xianzhou they’d be really good at dealing with these situations #and with regards to the jing yuan aspect of things i firmly believe he needs somebody with kindness and warmth in them to fall for them #reader can’t all be bribery and dodgy deals #imagining him coming to the shop one day to get some information they’ve gathered or whatever #and they’re like ‘shush not now i’m hearing this girl vent about her shit partner’ #or doing something nice #and he falls even harder #sorry i have gone on an absolute tangent here #i don’t know what demon possessed me #maybe i will write a part two who knows #that reader would certainly be a fun one to flesh out #r’s random thoughts