#sometimes it's consuming you know

[yuwuta]

satoru physically withers and crumbles every time you return his belongings. he doesn’t know how to tell you that he can only accidentally on purpose leave his glasses on your nightstand, or his jacket on your couch, or his shirt in your laundry so many times before he loses his mind. every time you don’t take he bait, he folds into himself and wonders why you don’t love him anymore and it costs him $22.50 to hear ieiri tell him to suck it up and use his words because he literally has to buy her company (and drinks).

but when you do take the bait, when you do wear his things, satoru thinks it’s all worth it. he can’t explain why it does what it does to him. it’s a sinister kind of possession he wants to have over you, knowing you’re your own person, free to do as you please, but also knowing you’re caged in him. it’s a lovesick kind of gooeyness that melts his heart seeing you fumble with the sleeves of a sweater that’s too long for you. it’s the vision of you seeing you drowning in him—in his clothes, in his things, in him, in him, in him. he’s selfish, he wants to consume you in as many ways as possible, wants you to drown in him, would die happily knowing you were one tenth as enraptured by him as he is with you. he doesn’t know how or why or when you gained so much power over him, but he doesn’t care, he doesn’t want you to ever stop, so if he has to keep pretending to leave his clothes and bags and glasses around then so be it.

#i don’t know how to explain that satoru’s love is so. beautifully consuming #he loves and loves and loves and he doesn’t even think about it it’s mindless it’s second nature #and sometimes he stops and pulls back and gets shy about how much you mean to him and how bad he wants you #he doesn’t know why you have this power over him but he doesn’t mind it and he wants more of it all the time always #oh…. my sweet sweet lover boy #jjk x reader #jujutsu kaisen x reader #gojo x reader #satoru gojo x reader #gojo smut #gojo fluff #jjk smut #jjk fluff #jujutsu kaisen smut #jujutsu kaisen fluff #jjk imagines #jjk smau #💌.satoru

[natjennie]

my mom and dad being like "this episode could've been 3 minutes of sad lesbian and 1 minute stitching joel up" JUST SAY YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND FILMOGRAPHY AND MOVE ON. there are reasons for drawing things out if you didn't get attached to riley it wouldn't matter if you didn't understand ellie's fedra backstory her immunity and all that comes with it wouldn't mean anything if you didn't get the perspective on the fedra and firefly situation none of the second game would mean anything. if you didn't get this characterization of ellie and her interests and her being happy you wouldn't be invested in her story. ellie's "everybody fucking except for you!" wouldn't have context without riley's death. you don't GET IT.

#you wouldn't give a shit when the fireflies almost kill her if they didn't humanize her now #Riley's bite wouldn't have meant anything if you didn't spend the time knowing her #God they're so... sometimes it's wild to me #how differently I consume media than other people #the last of us #tlou hbo

[bull-shit-suji]

not to like wax poetic about the literary nuances of Black Fucking Butler but i feel i need to point out how insanely campy it is. oh okay cool the butler is throwing butter knives at people with guns and winning. we're battling undertaker's zombie army by starting a boy band (we actually got the idea from the ZOMBIES' boy band). theres a curry making competition and its so important it needs an entire volume and a continuing motif dedicated to it. the Grim Reaper Death Gods are all cornballs with gardening sheers. the contradiction. the unintended irony.

i think the manga is like. toeing the line of camp. like its silly yet takes itself so seriously but its not too silly. my immersion is not broken by the silliness. but the anime is uncharted levels of camp. what the Hell was going on with pluto. you're gonna look me in the eye and tell me the phantomhives own a fifty foot dog thing and no one has noticed. simply one hell of a deer. ice skating. theres opium in funtom candy. the queen of england is maybe a little girl. speaking of which, the city of london just burned down. yeah the whole thing. the fifty foot dog was there too.

it's so ridiculously out of left field and the fact that none of the characters seem to notice or care feels like being gaslit. camp so visceral it's causing psychic damage. i am constantly begging the narrative to break character just once and acknowledge its silliness but doing so would negate the lack of awareness that makes it camp. its dated and timeless. an absolute milestone in camp history.

#it's 2 am im not articulating my thoughts well #just like. ohhhhhhhhg death and demons and walking the line between good and evil #dark acedemia vampire victorian vibes. except theres always some stupid shit happening with no explination. #like i know the tone shifts intentionally sometimes to match the haha comedic moment #thats not what im talking about #i mean when the most ridiculous plotline ever concieved is presented as a life or death situation #and after a while you're like lol this isnt dark at all and then BAM abuse trauma ptsd manipulation cults murders #the bittersweet understanding in clawing your way to the top #knowing the moment your revenge is exacted you will be consumed by the very thing that got you here #and choosing to keep climbing anyways #then boom back on that bullshit here's these motherfuckers in wonderland #the dark tone we had for all that trauma shit will Not be changing because catgirl grelle is just as serious of a topic #okay im going to bed #black butler #kuroshitsuji #sebastian michaelis #manga #ciel phantomhive #textpost #prev rb #oh i think the point i was trying to make it that its good because its camp #would not be nearly as awesome if it werent

[alsojnpie]

dishes are forever

#I MISSED HAVING A TABLET!!!! #ht papyrus #a gentle touch when you're sad #a menacing touch when it would be funny #he can do it all #LITTLE PRO TIP LIFE HACK THOUGH: IF WASHING DISHES MAKES YOU WANT TO LIVE ON A DIFFERENT PLANET #MAYBE YOU HAVE TOO MANY DANG DISHES #BEING IN A SITUATION WHERE I HAVE 80% FEWER DISHES THAN BEFORE MEANS I DO DISHES MORE OFTEN BUT IT'S SO EASY #AND NOT SOUL SUCKING AT ALL #JUST MY EXPERIENCE!!!!!! THAT'S ALL #I'm sure when i am reunited with my other dishes i will languish in bed staring at this psyching myself up to the task #but i like keeping random jars from food i bought and dishes that i picked up in different places. #they physically remind me of everywhere I've been and sometimes i just look at them and remember where I've been #my favorite is the old ratatouille jar i bought at carrefour in Chengdu #that jarred ratatouille was the nastiest food to grace this earth #i bought it in case it would make a quick easy meal (you don't really find those at the grocery store in China at least not back then) #but even my cheap lazy self couldn't eat it #so no one ever consumed that ratatouille but the jar was pretty big so i put other stuff in it and now it's my dish #and somehow the label is glued on PERMANENTLY it has never washed off after all these years #actually idk maybe it eventually did it isn't here for me to look at but it lasted a long time i know that

[ghostoftheyear]

jeez that post resonated with people, huh

anyway this is your reminder to reblog from people and scream and keysmash in the tags. when you read that fic, hit that kudos button, scream and keysmash in the comments (if you liked it; if you didn't, keep that shit to yourself). retweet/reskeet and make sure you're letting creatives know that their work is loved!

and don't bitch if you're not getting exactly the fic or art you want. don't be fucking rude to the creative's face. like I said in the other post, we're a community, and that means being fucking civil human beings to each other.

#fandom #drives me crazy sometimes #we're here to have fun and celebrate the things we enjoy #don't let corporations take over fandom #don't sit there quietly consuming like they want you to #be riotous #be joyous #show your love #and who cares who sees you #we want connection #we want to know what we're doing isn't falling on deaf ears #i'm so tired of friends being hurt or disappearing #it's ok to love #if you need permission i'm giving you permission

[mabelmidnight-takeover]

truly hope rick or becky come forward and ask people not to spoil pjo when the tv show comes out bc the whole "this piece of media has been out for this long - it isn't spoiler" is the dumbest thing to come out in the past few years. dont gatekeep the show, dont gatekeep percy jackson and dont be assholes to people that are only now getting to know this universe for whatever reason it may be. it won't hurt you to put a spoiler warning.

#people will never be able to know and consume all the media out there #idc if it's the most popular story in the world #no one is obligated to know everything and it isn't fair to be spoiled of something on purpose just bc you thought someone should know it #sometimes people dont have time or resources or interest at the time and thats completely fine #let people find out about the pjo universe on their own let people figure out the story as it goes let people get interested #this ridiculous idea that bc the source material has been out for a long time you cant spoil it will only get people to lose the hype on it #percy jackson #pjo #pjo tv show #pjo tv series #percy jackson and the olympians #what's the tag for the show

[briviting]

antwerp real

#looney tunes #marvin the martian #art attag #you know sometimes I wonder like #if people who follow this blog but not my main blog have any idea what to expect here anymore #anyway I loveee little titbits and trivia about long-running characters and how they developed over the years #especially when there are noticeable differences between early instalments and their later more well-known versions #e.g. m.oominmamma didn't get her apron until the newspaper comics! #so learning that marvin's original internal name was antwerp is cool!! #which is such a fun name in itself!! bc not only is that said to derive from the myth of roman solider #it can also be read as a portmanteau of ant and twerp! marvin's cute for the alliteration and satisfying similarity to martian #but man that's a good bunch of wordplay #I also love consuming any sort of supplementary/promotional/concept material of things and finding out mel blanc once recorded a song #called ''antwerp is my name'' for like a stage show or something which is Likely lost media by now is #Such a shame #bc that was probably the only time it was officially used outside of chuck jones' personal notes before his current name was chosen #lost media my beloathed :( #not searching for it that's fascinating but just that it like. occurs at all #anyway hi I didn't post any art for over month thank you for reading my infodumping here #oh & also I know he's been shown without the helmet & he really is just a little bowling ball. but I want to believe

[leqclerc]

@f1blrcreatorsfest Week 3: Music Artist-Inspired ↳ Sebastian and Charles + songs released in 2019 Shameless / Piece Of Your Heart / You're No Good

#formula 1 #f1edit #charles leclerc #sebastian vettel #sebchal #*shows up 2 days late with starbucks* #i like the concept and i would've liked to include more songs but im tired of fighting photoshop honestly it took long enough already 😭 #i tried to go for a more moodier mid to late 2019 vibe where the rivalry was kind of intensifying & everyone was talking about the tension #which tbf a lot of that as we now know was blown out of proportion but it was the prevalent vibe in the fandom & fic sphere #and in a lot of the ~defining fics that i consumed when i was first getting into them as a pairing and researching what i had missed out on #and i guess i have a nostalgic soft spot for that darker moodier more sultry rivalry vibe and mentally it's something i like to go back to #a lot of it is a direct product of the narratives and thought processes at the time and sometimes you just need to step right back into 201 #so these are songs that to me are reminiscent of that era ig and what i associate with it and the fics that capture that zeitgeist for me #f1blrcreatorsfest23 #* #*mine: gif

[caregivingchrysalises]

oh beloved, i’m here, papa’s here, *softly cups your cheek with my hand* starlight hey, we’re alright, we’re going to get through this, i know it feels icky right now, but it won’t feel this way forever~ buba also knows how silly that sounds as you’re sitting in that sadness, i promise i do~ you’re doing the best you can i know you are love. *taking your hand and holding it* expressing your feelings is something to be proud of blossom, your feelings don’t make you weak~ and they certainly don’t change the way i love you. i will always be here to dry your tears or quell your fears my love, ‘tala isn’t going anywhere angel, i’ll be right here when you need me sweetheart.

#a fun fact about me is that i am actually quite sensitive and can cry at the smallest of things #crying is healthy #safe space #does this count as abandonment comfort #those late night thoughts consume but your charming prinx is here to comfort you #late night thoughts #trying not to be discouraged by my dwindling reach on this app #sometimes i wonder if the universe rly just doesn’t want me to spread my wings…. #if you liked this please do let me know #it’s too late to be in the tags waffling #agere caregiver #comfort #sleep comfort #comforting #agere comfort #age regression caregiver #caregiver comforts #sfw caregiver #age regression #agere cg #sfw agere #idk how to tag this #a wee bit tired methinks #sleepy #goodnight angel #perhaps the tags will continue to remain an unsolvable mystery (i’m trying my best)

[camels-pen]

Sogeking: do it scared, but Do It!

Usopp, pumping himself up: alright, okay, I got this, I'm terrified, but I can do it

Sogeking: that's the spirit!

Sanji, walking into the galley: hey i'm gonna get started on snacks, do you- WHO THE FUCK IS THAT

#one piece #usopp #sogeking #sanji #nemotime #why it's sogeking sanji you know our old pal sogeking what's with the yelling #not to make this sanuso (lying) but usopp's scared about telling sanji something in particular #like. perhaps. how the sun reflects through his pretty blond hair. or how cute he is when he laughs. #or maybe even. how it scares usopp sometimes how much he is consumed by love for sanji #yknow funny little things like that #anyway

[thornsnvultures]

why do I hate myself?? why am I in such a bad mood?? why do I feel like laying down and crying???

YOU'RE TIRED. YOU GOT THREE HOURS OF SLEEP LAST NIGHT, YOU BIG TODDLER. YOU DON'T WANT TO KYS, YOU'RE TIRED AND YOU DIDNT TAKE A NAP TODAY.

#im yelling at myself #because sometimes myself needs to be yelled at #but if this feels familiar to you let me remind you: #your friends don't hate you you're not worthless you're a good person #you're just tired #capitalism and the all consuming collapse of society as we know it can be exhausting #also you probably stayed up too late reading smut like me 😊

[howaboutalittlehelpneos]

Drops this and runs because I'm still on a break

#im sorryyyyy i know i should be doing anything else BUT the vision was too strong when i saw this post i Had to make it #hes just a little silly okay #yugioh arc v #candyshipping #sora shiunin #yuya sakaki #hes used to his little freak of a boyfriend but sometimes sora still scares him a little #is it truly love if you dont want to consume/preserve a piece of your partner in some way

[healingheartdogs]

I have made a grave error, a horrible, awful, truly terrible mistake.

(I have POTS and I stood up from my seat at a normal speed and stretched.)

#pots #potsie #the real mistake was actually choosing to take my beta blockers a few hours late #because I REALLY REALLY wanted to enjoy some grapefruit juice with my meal when i woke up #sometimes sacrifices must be made for the sake of satisfying your tastebuds #in case you didnt know grapefruit deactivates MOST meds #so you shouldnt consume it after taking your meds for the day #and if you have grapefruit before your meds you need to wait a couple hours after until you take your meds #unfortunately grapefruit is one of my favorite foods and my absolute favorite fruit juice so choices were made today lol #also if you're like me and have ADHD then similar rules apply with vitamin C in general #dont consume vitamin c within a few hours before or after taking your ADHD meds or they won't work

[uncanny-tranny]

I've seen some trans people who are almost in this doomerist mindset about cis people ever respecting or loving them, and I understand what that feels like and I understand where they're coming from. I remember, though, just how many cis people I know who are not only capable of respecting and loving trans people, but do so enthusiastically, and it really just makes me remember that transphobia isn't inherent to being cis. Cis people are entirely capable of learning and growing and allowing trans people into their worlds. There are always going to be those cis people who aren't at that point and might never be, but that is on them, not their cisness.

I think this small shift in viewpoint has helped me reframe my emotions about this topic. It's helpful for me to be able to take a step back and remember that being cis isn't a reason for people to not accept trans people, you know?

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #i was really upset about some transphobia i've seen from cis people and sometimes it makes me want to retreat inwards and never trust... #...a cis person again. and then i remember some of the people i know... #...like a cis friend of mine who is dating a mutual friend and he loves her so much in such a pure way... #...or another friend of mine who picked up on little hints of my transness and never once blinked an eye... #...or how about the growth my dad was capable of undergoing? #just today i was talking to him about biology and just how cool it is that the human body can adapt! #i talked to him about testosterone and educated him about estrogen! and he was completely receptive... #...like sure. there are some scary cis people out there and i will never doubt that... #...i have had my fair share of fear. but i think always being on-edge also doesn't serve us... #...because learning to fear every little thing ends up eating away at you and the person you are. it's consuming... #...and stressful. and traumatizing. and i know how that feels like. nobody deserves to live that way

[fiftysevenacademics]

My wife, watching Wei Wuxian pester Lan Zhan: He's obviously adorable but kind of annoying.

Me: Yeah, sometimes you just want to slap him silly. I love him.

#sometimes i really empathize with jiang cheng #my long-suffering wife made a good faith effort then peaced out on this show #so I'm trying to act cool like it's not consuming my every waking and dreaming moment #stuff you probably don't want to know but I'm telling you anyway #my stuff #the untamed

[mokutone]

hi what do you think abt t4t kakayama (it's canon to me tbh)

:) hi ty for the question. i will do two sweet pictures of them being intimate and then under the cut there's going to be a longer very unsweet and more technical response

so i'm usually not a very shippy person! but that said i am also on the record as an occasional kakayama + kakayamagai enjoyer

i do hc them both as trans and in different ways w/ different experiences of transition and identity! i have no interest in proving my view as canon, but i do regard my reading of the text (text here including the anime) as a valid interpretation of yamato's experience of identity

yamato, for example, imo, doesnt have any real lived experience of being raised as a child of any gender. he was an experimental subject, and then he was Danzō's weapon/vessel for the mokuton, and then he was in anbu.

in a fun little word game which should not be taken seriously: it'd almost be more fitting to describe him as "adgender" rather than "transgender" since the prefix "trans" implies moving across where the prefix "cis" means to stand still, but the prefix "ad" means "to move towards" and i headcanon him as somebody who was degendered as a child, not in a cool nonbinary way, but instead in a dehumanizing, objectifying way, so his experience of creating his identity and his gender along with it is one of moving toward the concept of gender this word doesn't and wont exist, but bc of the way english works it would probably be simplified to be spelled precisely the same as "agender" in the same way that "aggression" came from latin "aggredi" which came from "ad" (meaning to/toward) and and latin "gradus" (meaning step) (essentially the combination means "to step to" [in a threatening manner]) the only diferences is where agender (meaning no gender) is pronounced ay-gender, the agender that comes from adgender would be prounounced more like "uhgender" in the same way that agressive isnt pronounced like "ay-gressive" but instead like "uhgressive"

and then...as for kakashi? i just decided on vibes. i didn't think hard about it.

i guess i should also say that, while i draw kakayama very infrequently, when i do draw it i usually try to be very apparent about the transness in the artwork if i can? especially if i'm drawing anything more intimate than a peck on the cheek. it's no secret that shipping is often times the most energized part of fandom, and i kind of don't want to produce romantic or sexual artwork which will be enjoyed by people who don't think trans people can be attractive? or who find that trans headcanons make a character uninteresting to them? or worse, "ruin" a depiction of a character to them?

often i think about in terms of. IF there are people that follow me that love my work (usually) and think that kakashi or yamato are hot (usually) and love kakayama (usually) but get frustrated or even uncomfortable out when i draw them as explicitly trans? then i'm drawing all intimate artwork of them as explicitly trans.

it's a little like...nobody gets to love my work if transgender characters are a turnoff for them. that's the bar for entry, is the way i think of it, but really its more like putting onions in a dish. if you want to eat the dish you have to eat the onions. if you don't want to eat the onions, don't eat the dish. all the meals i make contain onions. i'll never compromise on my intention to put onions in every dish i make. that's my ninja way, as the kids say.

especially in the climate we're in right now.

i don't know. i have a lot of feelings about how most fandoms tend to view trans men, especially in terms of romantic and sexual relationships. I'm doing a bad job of expressing the depth of how much seeing how fandom treats trans male identity and transmasculine bodies impacts the way that i draw + write kakayama, but genuinely it's something i think about every single time i create content about them.

#yamswers #danova #often even when there r trans characters/trans hcs of characters the m/m pairings are usually trans + cis #+ i wanna emphasize: there's nothing wrong with that. trans+cis relationships are as beautiful and valid as t4t #but...in fiction...there's like. expectations. of how a trans guy will act in a relationship with a cis guy #literally every transmasc person knows exactly what im fucking talking about lol #i'm trying to keep this conversation PG bc naruto is not an adult show—so. anyway #the presence of t4t depictions is basically essential in offering an alternative image of relationships + intimacy for trans individuals #a view of trans bodies which is not designed for the pleasure of cis consumption+assumption #a view of trans bodies not couched in an artist statement saying ''this is a trans body. this is how you interact with a body like it.'' #sometimes even stuff made by trans people will cater to explaining transness to cis people + thats fine and okay and— #—can be cathartic to create. esp as a trans person since so many of us are Surrounded by cis people irl #but. as a singular consumer. i get tired of that. i don't want it—at least not in the way that fandom frequently produces #i'm sorry this was probably an ask that expected a reply full of trans love and just got a bunch of technical stuff back #but to be fair this IS how i feel about t4t kakayama