#something about me being the same person as I was in the past

[imsobadatnicknames2]

How can you consider yourself any sort of leftist when you defend AI art bullshit? You literally simp for AI techbros and have the gall to pretend you're against big corporations?? Get fucked

I don't "defend" AI art. I think a particular old post of mine that a lot of people tend to read in bad faith must be making the rounds again lmao.

Took me a good while to reply to this because you know what? I decided to make something positive out of this and use this as an opportunity to outline what I ACTUALLY believe about AI art. If anyone seeing this decides to read it in good or bad faith... Welp, your choice I guess.

I have several criticisms of the way the proliferation of AI art generators and LLMs is making a lot of things worse. Some of these are things I have voiced in the past, some of these are things I haven't until now:

Most image and text AI generators are fine-tuned to produce nothing but the most agreeable, generically pretty content slop, pretty much immediately squandering their potential to be used as genuinely interesting artistic tools with anything to offer in terms of a unique aesthetic experience (AI video still manages to look bizarre and interesting but it's getting there too)

In the entertainment industry and a lot of other fields, AI image generation is getting incorporated into production pipelines in ways that lead to the immiseration of working artists, being used to justify either lower wages or straight-up layoffs, and this is something that needs to be fought against. That's why I unconditionally supported the SAG-AFTRA strikes last year and will unconditionally support any collective action to address AI art as a concrete labor issue

In most fields where it's being integrated, AI art is vastly inferior to human artists in any use case where you need anything other than to make a superficially pretty picture really fast. If you need to do anything like ask for revisions or minor corrections, give very specific descriptions of how objects and people are interacting with each other, or just like. generate several pictures of the same thing and have them stay consistent with each other, you NEED human artists and it's preposterous to think they can be replaced by AI.

There is a lot of art of the internet that consists of the most generically pretty, cookie-cutter anime waifu-adjacent slop that has zero artistic or emotional value to either the people seeing it or the person churning it out, and while this certainly was A Thing before the advent of AI art generators, generative AI has made it extremely easy to become the kind of person who churns it out and floods online art spaces with it.

Similarly, LLMs make it extremely easy to generate massive volumes of texts, pages, articles, listicles and what have you that are generic vapid SEO-friendly pap at best and bizzarre nonsense misinformation at worst, drowning useful information in a sea of vapid noise and rendering internet searches increasingly useless.

The way LLMs are being incorporated into customer service and similar services not only, again, encourages further immiseration of customer service workers, but it's also completely useless for most customers.

A very annoyingly vocal part the population of AI art enthusiasts, fanatics and promoters do tend to talk about it in a way that directly or indirectly demeans the merit and skill of human artists and implies that they think of anyone who sees anything worthwile in the process of creation itself rather than the end product as stupid or deluded.

So you can probably tell by now that I don't hold AI art or writing in very high regard. However (and here's the part that'll get me called an AI techbro, or get people telling me that I'm just jealous of REAL artists because I lack the drive to create art of my own, or whatever else) I do have some criticisms of the way people have been responding to it, and have voiced such criticisms in the past.

I think a lot of the opposition to AI art has critstallized around unexamined gut reactions, whipping up a moral panic, and pressure to outwardly display an acceptable level of disdain for it. And in particular I think this climate has made a lot of people very prone to either uncritically entertain and adopt regressive ideas about Intellectual Propety, OR reveal previously held regressive ideas about Intellectual Property that are now suddenly more socially acceptable to express:

(I wanna preface this section by stating that I'm a staunch intellectual property abolitionist for the same reason I'm a private property abolitionist. If you think the existence of intellectual property is a good thing, a lot of my ideas about a lot of stuff are gonna be unpalatable to you. Not much I can do about it.)

A lot of people are suddenly throwing their support behind any proposal that promises stricter copyright regulations to combat AI art, when a lot of these also have the potential to severely udnermine fair use laws and fuck over a lot of independent artist for the benefit of big companies.

It was very worrying to see a lot of fanfic authors in particular clap for the George R R Martin OpenAI lawsuit because well... a lot of them don't realize that fanfic is a hobby that's in a position that's VERY legally precarious at best, that legally speaking using someone else's characters in your fanfic is a much of a violation of copyright law as stright up stealing entire passages, and that any regulation that can be used against the latter can be extended against the former.

Similarly, a lot of artists were cheering for the lawsuit against AI art models trained to mimic the style of specific artists. Which I agree is an extremely scummy thinbg to do (just like a human artist making a living from ripping off someone else's work is also extremely scummy), but I don't think every scummy act necessarily needs to be punishable by law, and some of them would in fact leave people worse off if they were. All this to say: If you are an artist, and ESPECIALLY a fan artist, trust me. You DON'T wanna live in a world where there's precedent for people's artstyles to be considered intellectual property in any legally enforceable way. I know you wanna hurt AI art people but this is one avenue that's not worth it.

Especially worrying to me as an indie musician has been to see people mention the strict copyright laws of the music industry as a positive thing that they wanna emulate. "this would never happen in the music industry because they value their artists copyright" idk maybe this is a the grass is greener type of situation but I'm telling you, you DON'T wanna live in a world where copyright law in the visual arts world works the way it does in the music industry. It's not worth it.

I've seen at least one person compare AI art model training to music sampling and say "there's a reason why they cracked down on sampling" as if the death of sampling due to stricter copyright laws was a good thing and not literally one of the worst things to happen in the history of music which nearly destroyed several primarily black music genres. Of course this is anecdotal because it's just One Guy I Saw Once, but you can see what I mean about how uncritical support for copyright law as a tool against AI can lead people to adopt increasingly regressive ideas about copyright.

Similarly, I've seen at least one person go "you know what? Collages should be considered art theft too, fuck you" over an argument where someone else compared AI art to collages. Again, same point as above.

Similarly, I take issue with the way a lot of people seem EXTREMELY personally invested in proving AI art is Not Real Art. I not only find this discussion unproductive, but also similarly dangerously prone to validating very reactionary ideas about The Nature Of Art that shouldn't really be entertained. Also it's a discussion rife with intellectual dishonesty and unevenly applied definition as standards.

When a lot of people present the argument of AI art not being art because the definition of art is this and that, they try to pretend that this is the definition of art the've always operated under and believed in, even when a lot of the time it's blatantly obvious that they're constructing their definition on the spot and deliberately trying to do so in such a way that it doesn't include AI art.

They never succeed at it, btw. I've seen several dozen different "AI art isn't art because art is [definition]". I've seen exactly zero of those where trying to seriously apply that definition in any context outside of trying to prove AI art isn't art doesn't end up in it accidentally excluding one or more non-AI artforms, usually reflecting the author's blindspots with regard to the different forms of artistic expression.

(However, this is moot because, again, these are rarely definitions that these people actually believe in or adhere to outside of trying to win "Is AI art real art?" discussions.)

Especially worrying when the definition they construct is built around stuff like Effort or Skill or Dedication or The Divine Human Spirit. You would not be happy about the kinds of art that have traditionally been excluded from Real Art using similar definitions.

Seriously when everyone was celebrating that the Catholic Church came out to say AI art isn't real art and sharing it as if it was validating and not Extremely Worrying that the arguments they'd been using against AI art sounded nearly identical to things TradCaths believe I was like. Well alright :T You can make all the "I never thought I'd die fighting side by side with a catholic" legolas and gimli memes you want, but it won't change the fact that the argument being made by the catholic church was a profoundly conservative one and nearly identical to arguments used to dismiss the artistic merit of certain forms of "degenerate" art and everyone was just uncritically sharing it, completely unconcerned with what kind of worldview they were lending validity to by sharing it.

Remember when the discourse about the Gay Sex cats pic was going on? One of the things I remember the most from that time was when someone went "Tell me a definition of art that excludes this picture without also excluding Fountain by Duchamp" and how just. Literally no one was able to do it. A LOT of people tried to argue some variation of "Well, Fountain is art and this image isn't because what turns fountain into art is Intent. Duchamp's choice to show a urinal at an art gallery as if it was art confers it an element of artistic intent that this image lacks" when like. Didn't by that same logic OP's choice to post the image on tumblr as if it was art also confer it artistic intent in the same way? Didn't that argument actually kinda end up accidentally validating the artistic status of every piece of AI art ever posted on social media? That moment it clicked for me that a lot of these definitions require applying certain concepts extremely selectively in order to make sense for the people using them.

A lot of people also try to argue it isn't Real Art based on the fact that most AI art is vapid but like. If being vapid definitionally excludes something from being art you're going to have to exclude a whooole lot of stuff along with it. AI art is vapid. A lot of art is too, I don't think this argument works either.

Like, look, I'm not really invested in trying to argue in favor of The Artistic Merits of AI art but I also find it extremely hard to ignore how trying to categorically define AI art as Not Real Art not only is unproductive but also requires either a) applying certain parts of your definition of art extremely selectively, b) constructing a definition of art so convoluted and full of weird caveats as to be functionally useless, or c) validating extremely reactionary conservative ideas about what Real Art is.

Some stray thoughts that don't fit any of the above sections.

I've occassionally seen people respond to AI art being used for shitposts like "A lot of people have affordable commissions, you could have paid someone like $30 to draw this for you instead of using the plagiarism algorithm and exploiting the work of real artists" and sorry but if you consider paying an artist a rate that amounts to like $5 for several hours of work a LESS exploitative alternative I think you've got something fucked up going on with your priorities.

Also it's kinda funny when people comment on the aforementioned shitposts with some variation of "see, the usage of AI art robs it of all humor because the thing that makes shitposts funny is when you consider the fact that someone would spend so much time and effort in something so stupid" because like. Yeah that is part of the humor SOMETIMES but also people share and laugh at low effort shitposts all the time. Again you're constructing a definition that you don't actually believe in anywhere outside of this type of conversations. Just say you don't like that it's AI art because you think it's morally wrong and stop being disingenuous.

So yeah, this is pretty much everything I believe about the topic.

I don't "defend" AI art, but my opposition to it is firmly rooted in my principles, and that means I refuse to uncritically accept any anti-AI art argument that goes against those same principles.

If you think not accepting and parroting every Anti-AI art argument I encounter because some of them are ideologically rooted in things I disagree with makes me indistinguishable from "AI techbros" you're working under a fucked up dichotomy.

[arcan3-reliquary]

VERITAS RATIO HEADCANONS (because we need more content of him that's him-centric)

And because you guys asked. Most of these headcanons are purely based on my readings of him or have 0 basis in canon, so if you don’t like them, feel free to scroll past them!!

fighting the war on autism on the side of autism. As a neurodivergent he's very nd coded to me, especially with the fact that he's a very caring person but terrible with emotions and words. He's losing the idgaf war so badly like there's no way a neurotypical person has a temper that short over the most (seemingly) inane shit

Kind of pasty. not just like porcelain skin, like clay-sickly-victorian-boy type palor. He tries to go outside more often, but by the nature of his job he's rather sedentary and inside alooot. He's perfectly healthy, he just looks like that. Same complexion as Freminet in my head, with fewer freckles and a tooth gap he likes to deny he has.

Wears the alabaster headpiece not just to deal with idiots, but to self regulate out in public. It blocks out smells, and dampens sound and light enough for him to tolerate some of the veeery overstimulating environments he visits.

For a man that values creativity explicitly, not enough people seem to believe he’d have an interest in the arts. So I think he's into sculpting. A chisel and hammer are very comforting weights in his hand, and while he doesn't particularly care for pottery or wet clay, he gets why it's so well liked. He uses himself as reference mostly because he's most familiar with his own body and asking others can be awkward or seen as weird.

The dude has extremely obscure taste in sci-fi novels. Like he will yap on and on about why he can't stand most sci-fi and recommend the most odd shit out there if asked.

Not really a hc, but he has very brittle self-esteem. It simply comes with the territory of being labeled “gifted” or “a child genius.” For years, a lot of his perceived worth came from the quality of his work or academic validation, and now his big reason for staying in academics isn't the knowledge itself, but rather the joy of teaching and sharing the things he knows.

Somehow both touch starved and touch averse. Contact must be initiated by him on his terms, or a shutdown will happen. But when someone he trusts does this, it's the funniest thing because he thinks he's being so subtle about his enjoyment of it. (Aven played w his hair once and Veritas passed tf out like that and Aven couldn't move for an hour.)

Chronic over-explainer. Either he misreads someone's tone and thinks they need the detail, or past conflict was caused by him thinking he didn't explain enough (it was usually just people being purposefully obtuse or daft.)

Unsurprisingly terrible to deal with when sick. Non-verbal, sits under a mountain of weighted blankets, and only communicates via the notes app on his phone or having Aventurine help him.

Ratio is terribly farsighted - just genetics. Lasic surgery fixed most of it, but he still needs reading glasses and contacts.

Intimacy issues alert. Vulnerability is scary and being put on a pedestal your whole life tends to make letting down pretenses a lil nauseating. Mortifying ordeal of being known and all that.

Girl Anachronism by the Dresden Dolls makes me think of him. I can't explain it. I think it's a combo of him being hella self aware of his issues but also just kinda treating them like something of a character flaw or moral failing rather than something he can ask for help with. Just a thought

AND THATS ITS IVE YAPPED ENOUGH ABOUT RATIO. The Aveenturine and Golden Ratio posts will come soon but for now have these. He makes me insane.

#dr ratio #headcanon #hsr headcanons #aventio

[winxwannabe]

Winx Season 9/Reboot Leaks

Okay here's the tea: earlier today a twitter user by the name of Cataclysm_Power started posting a video they claimed was from the new Winx season/reboot. When pressed for further information, they linked to a telegram chat with what appeared to be assets from Rainbow (17 screenshots/2 videos). After some C-grade internet sleuthing, I am here to give my (worthless and possibly wrong) opinion on which ones I think are real and fake.

A note before we jump in: I'm not posting full images on my blog, because again I do think some of these are real and if the leaker is to be believed, they hacked Rainbow to get them. You can look yourself through the telegram link, or others who've posted them on the Winx Club tag. I also think the leaker themselves is scammy because they've tried charging for Miraculous leaks before. Do NOT give them any money if they ask.

Real: Bloom, Stella, and Icy's asset sheets, Bloom Full Body Pose

A lot of these leaks are 3d modelling assets, and these 3 are the ones I'm totally convinced are real.

The biggest clue of their validity is the bottom banner. All 3 sheets have them, along with the same episode code and notes in Italian. They're all also linked to the same person: Pasqualino Masciulli is Rainbow's 3D modelling supervisor, and has been with the company for at least 9 years. He's done videos on Rainbow's youtube channel as well, using his shortened first name Lino. My main point is that's way too niche for someone to fake just to make some convincing leaks, and it would make sense for the assets to be tied to him.

Likewise, there's a full-body frame post of Bloom with fucking ugliest denim leg warmers credited to a g.riccobono. This is likely Giulio Riccobono, who is listed on Linkedin Italy as a Rainbow employee.

Probably Real: Tecna's asset sheet, Bloom's detailed asset sheet

Both of these are likely real but have weird things about them that make me pause. Bloom's more detailed asset sheet is missing the name, date and episode reference on it, and the notes are in English. Tecna's is missing the bottom banner entirely, and there's some weird cutting around her head that makes it look like someone hastily made a png and stuck it on there.

Unsure: Computer File Tab, MD Concept Photos, Videos

There's a screenshot of a folder with both 2D and 3D assets of all the girls. in the files. I'm not sure if this is from a computer at Rainbow or the hacker's personal folder, so it goes in unsure. I do think most of the assets in it are real - it's low res but the eyes on the 2D sketches are so similar to the ones on Rainbow's newer images of the girls I think they have to be connected.

There are also some full body concept photos for Bloom, Aisha, and Stella. They all look pretty legit (as they're updated version of images we've already seen) but Stella's has other images for 'possible pallets' included. She's the only one with it and the images look like they came from a flash dress-up game, and it gives me pause.

Lastly, the teaser videos of Bloom are probably real based on the outfit, animation and that stupid fucking Bloom shelf being in the background, but I'm placing it in 'unsure' because of the bandicam.com logo burned into the top. If it really came from Rainbow and everything else was downloaded, there was no reason for the hacker to not get the raw file. I think it's real, but I don't know if it came from Rainbow.

Something Ain't Right: Group Shot

What gives me pause in the fully-rendered group shot (even though its shown in the computer file tab) is it shows transformation we haven't seen teased and has a 'Lorem Ipsum' placeholder text. Aisha's hair also looks like it was done with AI - the back of her wings clip through the hair, and parts of it look copy-pasted. I'm stupid, it's the end of her braids. The 'Lorem Ipsum' thing still stands, but I'm re-filing this under 'unsure.'

Probably Fake: Darcy and Damien's asset sheets

I'm showing things from here on out because I'm so convinced it's fake please let me be right. Unlike the other character sheets, the ones for Darcy and 'new character' Damien have no bottom banner, are marked as 'Winx Club Season 9' with an outdated Winx logo, and have notes written completely in English. Darcy's has a bit of 3D modelling, but it's too different from Icy's. Maybe they're super early concepts for Darcy, but Damien...go home, buddy.

You're in the Wrong Place: Rainbow Pants Girl

I'm convinced this girl is from a different show and was saved to the 'Winx Club' folder by accident. Different clothing, hair, and shading. May you end up somewhere better than this reboot, Mystery Girl.

#winx club #winx #winx reboot #winx season 9 #whoever gave Bloom DENIM LEG WARMERS turn your location on I just want to talk #winx 9

[mtkay13]

Working hard on the business!!

I had a lot of fun working on this piece that fits well as a companion to this one! I really, really enjoy Wuxi and Zishu's side hustle and think about it a lot.

More musings on this piece below!

I have been thinking a lot about Wuxi and Zishu's relationship for the past few months--working on the translation of Qiye has given me a fresh look and new perspective on it which I feel like elaborating on for a bit.

While they come from very different place and are 5 years apart in age, Wuxi and Zishu seem to rather quickly relate to each other due to both being outsiders--to the capital and its codes. It's very sweet to see how quickly Wuxi seems intrigued and interested in Zishu, wanting to know more about him and quick to react when he's around.

Beiyuan is Wuxi's only friend so far, and I think it's very refreshing for Wuxi to find another person with whom he may be able to relate more on some regards, and whom he can look up to in terms of martial arts skills and craftiness. This is a personal HC of mine, but I sort of see Wuxi as having this sort of (fully platonic) "cool older guy crush" on Zishu.

Because of that, I feel like Zishu showing interest in Wuxi and going as far as to offer him to collaborate must have been incredibly validating and exciting. It was a way for Wuxi to be more independent, do something for himself aside from his own training, aside from his role as the young shaman of Nanjiang. Something for his own experimentation and profit--be useful, but also be shown respect and interest by someone he himself is interested in and respects.

I like to imagine that Zishu was already interested in poisons given his field of work and potentially learned a thing or two about that back in Siji manor--even potentially worked on some of his own, and was therefore more than excited to be able to figure out new things with Wuxi's help. On top of that, it must have been pretty fun and gratifying to work on this side hustle which in turn also helped gain some more control over the population (welp).

So yeah! It's nice to think more about what lead to the bond they have, and I can't help but think of how affected Wuxi must have been in TYK when he discovers Zishu's state several years later. Regardless of how helpful Zishu was when Wuxi worked to get Beiyuan out of the capital, he was a friend first and foremost and that alone must be a big reason why Wuxi is so determined to find a way to save him.

(that aside, the illustration was more fun to make than I initially feared. I usually don't like having to work on a ton of tiny details LOL but somehow the atmosphere here made it entertaining!)

(btw! I don't know if I mentioned it before, but in case I didn't: I transliterate "Wuxi" as such ((in one word)) because, him not being han, it feels more right to transliterate his name in a non-han fashion as well. It's unlikely that his family name is Wu and first name is Xi--rather, Nanjiang/Wasa names seem to work differently ((same for Axinlai and Nuaha)) than the typically han family name-first name model. Many thanks to Lianzi and the other members of the 7.0 team for bringing that up! That's it!)

#zhou zishu #wu xi #qi ye #lord seventh #qi ye meta

[raven-at-the-writing-desk]

If it’s alright, I have a question about Vil and Epel’s relationship. I understand that the accent changing plot line is just a cultural politeness thing that didn’t carry over outside of Japan, but the other parts of changing Epel’s behavior don’t quite make sense.

Why exactly is Epel being forced to call macarons his favorite food? And act very soft-spoken? I can’t see how these fit in with the politeness aspect of the table manners, no abrasive language, etc. It just doesn’t give a very good impression, especially in combination with the unfortunate implication of giving Epel a Southern accent for the “change your accent” plot point.

Before I get to responding to the questions posed by this ask, allow me to explain for those who may not be familiar with this controversy! This is so we can all go into reading this post from the same starting point.

I've made titles to denote the explanation of background knowledge and to denote responding to the questions actually asked to me! If you're already familiar with the Vil-Epel-accent debacle then feel free to skip the first section!

Disclaimer: I’m speaking on these concepts as I personally understand them. However, I am not a native Japanese speaker so I’d advise that you consult additional resources with a better understanding of the language and culture. Two resources I enjoy are Yuurei and MysteryShopTLs, who have both also addressed Epel’s accent and how it was localized.

The Accent, EN vs JP

It’s well-known that Epel is a character with a heavy accent who has been explicitly told by Vil, his dorm leader, to alter the way he speaks. In EN, Epel speaks with what appears to be a southern (as in, “from the southern United States”) accent. Therefore, when Vil tells him to stop speaking in the accent, it feels as though Vil is shaming him for his southern roots and culture. This has also led to fans (especially of the EN-only sphere) thinking that Vil believes Epel’s accent is “unrefined” and “makes him sound uncouth/uneducated”, which is why Vil tells Epel to cover it up. I have even received asks conveying as much in the past (here is one example).

In the original JP, Epel speaks in a way that does not closely resemble any real-world Japanese dialect but rather a blend of them. If you ask a native Japanese speaker, they would likely tell you that it is difficult to understand what Epel is saying and that it sounds as though he is speaking rudely or too casually. People could genuinely take offense to the accent because it can be mistaken as something else entirely. This is obviously very different than the real-world accent (which many people can still understand and wouldn’t perceive as rude) that Epel was localized to have. The decision to give him a southern accent, then, does not completely carry over its original JP connotations into EN.

What remains the same in both EN and JP is the reason Vil provides for telling Epel to adjust the way he communicates. As he says in EN, “Speak properly" to which Epel immediately assumes the command comes from a place of elitism/classism and Vil thinking Epel's manner of speaking is beneath him. Vil responds with, "Stop misinterpreting my instructions. I have nothing against your home or its dialect. What I object to is your attitude. Being proud of your home is all well and good, but there is a time and a place for that. The way you address your superiors is entirely unacceptable." (Keep in mind that before this, Epel was the one instigating a fight with Vil and subsequently got his ass whooped for disrespecting an upperclassman. As the victor, he declares that Epel must do as he says--that's the "culture" of NRC. The weak obey the strong, so if Epel wants to do whatever he wants, then Vil challenges him to beat Epel in a fight. Until then, the loser must obey the winner. Epel agrees to these conditions.) This may be a little hard for western English speakers to wrap their heads around, but MANY Asian countries, Japan included, run on a hierarchical system which is embedded even into their languages. Japanese, for example, has honorifics to denote the relationship between the speaker and the listener, as well as variations on the same word depending on the context ("boku", "ore", "watashi", "atashi", etc. are all valid ways to refer to oneself, "onii-san", "onii-sama", "aniki", "kyodai", etc. are all ways to refer to a brother, whether blood-related or not). In some cases, it's considered rude to call others by their first name unless you know them well, and even then it's not common to see a first name without an honorific. This is not as strictly adhered to in English, which is perhaps where a cultural disconnect occurs. What Vil is referring to in his instructions to Epel is what is known in the world of linguistics as "code switching", or changing how one communicates to suit the situation. Part of code switching is changing one's "register", or the level of formality you use. So for example, I could use a colloquial/casual register when I speak with my friends, but I may shift to a more polite and formal register when I speak with my professors, a boss, or an older relative. Vil, then, is critiquing Epel for not speaking politely to his seniors (something which is expected in Japanese culture, but not expected among those in similar grade levels in western cultures).

In the Harveston Sledathon event, we get to venture to Epel's hometown and hear how the locals speak. Indeed, we get more instances of people who speak in the same way Epel does. It's the Harveston dialect, which is so distinctive that it basically sounds like a whole different language. (There are also languages like this in real life; consider Mandarin and Cantonese; technically they are both "Chinese" but Mandarin and Cantonese speakers would not be able to comprehend one another even if they use the same written language). However, it's notable that Marja (Epel's grandmother) and the mayor of Harveston are able to code switch flawlessly into a more standardized tongue. They explain that this is a skill they have developed because it helps in communicating with tourists/visitors to the village and for whenever they travel to the nearby city to sell their wares. This reinforces Vil's point that there is a "time and place" for certain ways of speaking, which Epel needs to consider.

Macarons and Soft-Spokeness

Accent thing aside, some English-speaking fans take issue with Vil's stern treatment of Epel, particularly in instances in which Vil seems to be exerting significant control over his underclassman's behaviors. (Japanese-speaking fans largely do not hold the same sentiment.) Examples of this include Vil forcing Epel to state that his favorite food is macarons, as well as making Epel present as soft-spoken even when he's just among his peers. I will now be addressing both of these points. TO BE CLEAR, I am NOT trying to defend Vil but rather I'm just going to speculate about why the circumstances are the way that they are and/or why perceptions of his attitude may differ.

Starting with macarons! It is stated in Epel's official profile and by Epel himself in his Birthday Boy vignettes that his favorite food is yakiniku (Japanese grilled meat). However, macarons are also listed as his favorite food, and this is notable because he's the only character with two foods listed instead of just one. In the aforementioned Birthday Boy vignettes, Epel is quick to qualify his love of meats with, "Well, I do have one thing I like even more. It's, ah, macarons." When asked what he likes about them, he says, "They're... cute. And sweet! And they come in lots of different flavors." His voice here sounds hesitant, so it's not clear whether he's being entirely honest or not. He even admits in a whisper that, "[Macarons] are not very filling, but still." Epel again complains about macarons being good but not very filling when he has some in the City of Flowers/Fleur City. To this, Azul asks, "Why do you look so unimpressed, Epel? I thought macarons were your favorite food. [...] But was my intel mistaken? Would you prefer something with a stronger flavor profile?" Epel insists he is fine, and Azul responds with, "Excellent, then my intel bears out." This creates some confusion over whether Epel actually likes macarons or not. I doubt that the information Azul has on others is inaccurate. Plus, Epel states of his own free will to the player (who is interviewing him) that he also likes macarons. This leads me to believe that while Epel doesn't outright hate macarons, he does like them alright (but still prefers grilled meat more). The only thing he seems to have an issue with is how unsubstantial macarons are as a food item.

Now... why does Vil make him state that macarons are his favorite food instead of grilled meat? It's sort of touched on in Epel's Ceremonial Robes vignettes. In them, Vil chides Epel for his poor table manners and asks him to state his favorite food. Epel responds with grilled meat/barbeque, which earns him a smack from his dorm leader. (Vil actually smacks Epel multiple times in these vignettes as punishment, which ended up being another source of ire in the English-speaking part of the fandom; such a thing is more common in Asia and its media, so it's not seen as too outrageous in Japan.) "Do my ears deceive me?" Vil says. "I could've sworn I heard a word unfit to be spoken in this noble dorm. I will ask you again. As a student of Pomefiore–a dorm founded upon the tenacity of the Fairest Queen–what is your favorite food?" From this dialogue, it can be surmised that Vil's reasoning for drilling the macarons in as Epel's favorite food is because it is something that is more befitting of the regal "image" of the Fairest Queen and the dorm made in her honor. Vil seems to regard grilled meat as an inelegant food which does not suit the Fairest Queen nor Pomefiore.

The second thing the asker brought up is Epel's soft-spokeness. I guess I'm a little confused by this??? Soft-spokeness is a part of being polite; it ties back to volume control (ie "indoor voice" being softer than "outdoor voice"). I also don't recall a specific instance of Vil chastising Epel for NOT being soft-spoken at all times. He allows Epel to be loud sometimes and raises his voice himself. I feel like volume is not something that Vil harps on as much as other things like cursing or speaking politely to the correct authority figures (unless, of course, volume is important to the level of politeness required for the current conversation). I could be wrong on this though, so please let me know if you know of any specific instances of Vil being mad about Epel speaking loudly that I may have missed! What I do find odd is how... consistently (?) Epel tries to keep polite even when Vil is not around to monitor him. When Vil and Epel first met, Vil makes it clear that there is a "time and place" for Epel's accent, and it's not when addressing seniors. So... by the logic, shouldn't Vil be okay with Epel acting more relaxed or rowdy around first years or more casual settings in general? Why does Epel need to maintain the facade of being polite even when not in the presence of his superiors? Why does Epel seem to even act fearful about word of his misbehavior/rudeness getting back to his dorm leader and even make others swear they won't divulge the incidents to Vil?

One theory I'll propose is the entirety of book 5. Vil was insistent then on having Epel in the NRC Tribe. He wanted to weaponize Epel's cuteness, which he believed could compete with his long-time rival, Neige. This probably fed into Vil's demands for Epel to appear and act dainty and innocent, traits which Neige effortlessly possesses. Vil literally even refers to Epel as his "Poison Apple" that will help him defeat Neige. After book 5, Vil seems to have eased up on his rigidity. However, I will caution that this explanation may or may not align well with vignettes and/or event stories, which do not always work in a cohesive timeline with the main story.

Perhaps a more all-encompassing explanation is... this is probably because Vil is just very strict about how his dorm members present themselves at all times, since they are expansions of Pomefiore and of himself as the leader. Both the macarons and Epel's attitude are reflections of the dorm he (a celebrity who is very aware of the public eyes on him + his reputation) is affiliated with, and Vil won't have them poorly represented. He is the dorm leader, so he has the "right" to rule and impose his ideals as he sees fit. It's a similar situation to Riddle forcing the Heartslabyul students to follow silly, nonsensical rules (because they're tradition) or risk a scolding or a beheading. And again, Epel is following along because (as established in book 5), he has agreed to submit to Vil’s orders until he beats Vil in combat.

At the end of the day, I don't think Epel being forced to call macarons his favorite food is a huge deal. Is anything that big lost in claiming you like something that isn't your actual favorite food? It's not like Vil is forcing Epel to claim he likes eating something that would actually harm him (like, if Epel had an almond allergy or something).

What's more dubious is how VIl governs Epel's attitude and temperament at seemingly all times (to the point of eliciting some apprehension from Epel). Given the most generous reading, maybe it's Vil's way of teaching Epel maturity and how to keep his voice down since Epel had zero of it and acted loudly brazen when he first enrolled. It doesn't help Epel if he's quiet and well-mannered in very limited social situations; it has to be "generalized" or expand to other scenarios for Vil's lessons to truly be instilled in him. (Like... what would happen if Vil DIDN'T hold Epel in check? His classmates would not be able to understand Epel's speech, and he might get into trouble by picking fights with others.) This is a life skill that Epel lacks, unlike his grandma and the Harveston mayor, and Vil's teaching it to him via "tough love" (though whether you approve of his methods or not is up to interpretation). Recall that Vil also teaches Epel to embrace femininity as its own strength and to disregard outdated gender norms--this could be considered another "lesson". I doubt that anything Vil imposes is done maliciously, but rather comes from a place of wanting others to be better and to shine their brightest, even if that path is difficult or painful. Epel, as the rebel in this circumstance, of course does not enjoy being told what to do and misbehaves in small ways. There’s a limit on how much he can misbehave though, as it would hurt his pride to be reminded of his failure to one-up Vil. He's like a kid that doesn't want to be caught cussing or acting out by his parent. It can be seen as immaturity and an unwillingness to change or to grow up, but it can also be seen as someone who wants to freely be able to express themselves or to be their "truest" self. Epel is rowdy and headstrong, and it's difficult for him to repress these parts of himself. Given the least generous reading, Vil is oppressing and stifling Epel in many ways that extend beyond what his dorm leader position should reasonably allow him to do. In fact, a popular fan translation for book 5 is "The Beautiful Oppressor", as Vil is frequently shown limiting the liberties of his NRC Tribe members during their training arc, not just Epel's.

Which is the truth here? Why do those in the English side of the fandom decry Vil's actions and side with Epel whereas the Japanese side see little issue with this?

I wager that this predominantly comes down to, again, cultural differences. Many English-speaking fans are based in the west (particularly the USA and Canada, where the EN servers first launched), places which emphasize individuality and self-expression. Of course they would be more likely to take Epel's side, as he's the one trying to be himself and stand out in his own way. Meanwhile collectivism--an ideology which stresses conformity with a group--dominates in the east. They are more likely to see no problems with Vil's actions because, to them, he is acting in the ways he is to "guide" Epel and show him how to best "fit in" with Pomefiore and at NRC. I believe the whole "being soft-spoken" thing also ties back to cultural differences; speaking loudly is something else that can be considered rude in Japan, so it's entirely possible that Vil encouraging Epel to be soft-spoken is another element of politeness that did not translate well to English (as the western world tends to be much louder and more animated in their conversations).

What it boils down to is that the way Vil and Epel's relationship was written did not work well for a western audience, whose values and perspective is VERY different from the original audience TWST had. It appeals far more to a Japanese fanbase than a western one, and has resulted in many misunderstandings or anger about Vil's character because of this.

I'm not sure if I managed to adequately explain everything, but I hope that this at least helps you to see from a different perspective!!

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Reader x Chaeyoung - Getting Over It (Part 2)

I'm just gonna say I'm sorry for the late update and I hope you enjoy this one!

PART 3 will be up in just a bit.

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ENJOY!!!

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"Well Chae, thanks for the day." You turned to her as Chaeyoung put her hands behind her back and smiled.

"Of course (YN). Anytime. You did very well today."

You shrugged.

"I don't know Chae, it's been almost the same the past five days."

"Almost (YN), almost. AND you got to your knees yesterday. That's an improvement." Chaeyoung pointed at you as you sighed.

"And to chicken out a few seconds later." Chaeyoung's shoulder and frown fell as she punched your chest as you gave almost no reaction.

"Oh come on (YN), don't be negative. Sure, I can't imagine how tough it is, but to see you pushing and pushing, I can say that we're doing very well with each day. You're not swimming or anything, but the first day, you couldn't even go off the first step, now look at you yesterday. We're making progress and I'm glad I'm here to see it through (YN), no matter how slow." Chaeyoung topped it off with her signature smile while you remained stoic. 

You loved how Chaeyoung's eyes seemed to be smiling whenever you looked at her. There was a certain sparkle to her, and she was funny and goofy with you, which made you feel relaxed, brave and at ease whenever Chaeyoung was around you.

You smiled.

"Yeah, yeah you're right. I'm sorry about being negative Chae, you're trying your best and me behaving like that isn't right. We're making progress, small, yet progress."

Chaeyoung hummed.

"That's the mindset (YN), we'll beat this in no time." Chaeyoung raised a fist in front of her as you smiled. You loved her personality and optimism and you swore at yourself to not be such an ass to her next time.

"Yeah, we will. You know tomorrow, we should invite the others to join." Chaeyoung's interior happiness dropped, but she kept her smile on.

You and Chae told the others that Chaeyoung was helping you overcome it.

You even told them how it happened the day on the beach when it all started.

It wasn't a happy reaction as each of them grimaced at the event and a couple of them were on the brink of tears of what could have happened, Sana the worse.

Chaeyoung, hearing it again, closed her eyes and tried to think of something else. She didn't want to have that in her mind.

Eventually, they all calmed down from it and each of them gave a word to you that they were glad that you were with them, even Tzuyu, and promised to help you out when needed as well.

You thanked them for that and well, that was that.

"Yeah? You think they'll help?" She asked as you shrugged.

"I don't know about help, but with the heat out, it would be nice to be with us in the pool too." Chaeyoung hummed, "but who knows, maybe with you and the other's support, it'll be easier for me to ease my way into the water. And honestly, I feel bad that you're sitting there waiting for me to do something. I figured maybe you can hang with someone else in the pool while I do my thing."

Chaeyoung didn't know what to make of that.

Yes, she wanted to ask others to help, but after seeing the progress, she now thought that she didn't need to and she really wanted to have her own time with you.

If she said no, will you think she was selfish?

"Well...if you want them to come then, we could ask. But I don't mind waiting (YN), I told you with you, I don't care. Besides I remember our long hours of you tutoring me in math the last term and you stayed with me till I figured out how to solve each step (YN), longer than what we've been doing. You remember what you told me each night?"

You smiled.

"I said that I'd be right here sitting with you no matter what nor how long it takes till you got it." You recalled those words as Chaeyoung hummed in approval.

"Exactly, so now I'm saying that to you."

And there was the effect of being with Chaeyoung.

No matter what, your morale goes up to tenfold around her.

You chuckled at her enthusiasm and nodded.

"Well, I guess I got nothing better to do~," Chaeyoung jabbed your stomach at that joke as she and you laughed, "hehe, thank you Chae. Really."

She shrugged.

"Don't mention it."

You hummed.

"Alright. Well, I guess I should head off. My dad is texting me to get home now."

Today was cut short due to your dad making reservations at your favorite restaurant. It was you and your dad only as he wanted to, in his words, bond with you more. He felt like you were gone most of the time and he wanted to catch up with you. You would have invited Chaeyoung, but you knew it would be rude of you to do so with your dad wanting to spend some personal time.

"Hey no worries (YN), well, you have fun okay."

You nodded.

"I will. And thank you Chae." She smiled as you backtracked out her home and turned to back to her while walking towards your car. "I'll call you later tonight alright."

Chaeyoung nodded.

"I'll be waiting~ Bye (YN)." Chaeyoung waved as you waved back, unlocked your car, got in, and after buckling up, Chaeyoung saw you turned your head to reverse out her driveway, turning to the right to leave.

As your car wheeled away from her sight, Chaeyoung stepped back inside her home while closing the front door.

CLICK

Chaeyoung locked the wooden white door and gave a hum as she turned on her heels and headed towards her room.

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THUMP

Chaeyoung laid on her back on her bed and covered her eyes with the inside of her arm.

"Another day gone...another day of not saying anything..."

She had fallen for you so bad.

You both would spend countless hours together, talking about everything whenever and wherever. Even sending texts left and right with the simplest emojis and gifs to make the other laugh or smile.

She loved to hear your voice and look into your eyes as if every word you said was the most important anyone had ever spoken. You made you feel like she was the most valuable person in the world every time she was around with the amount of support and care you gave her with any issue or anything that bothered her.

The moments they spent together were few and far between, but each second was precious to her and she knew they were to you as well.

The rest of the world faded away whenever she was with you and the excitement and joy inside, a feeling that she had ever really felt before, the kind of feeling where her whole body is high, almost numb with emotion and she caught herself smiling for no reason rose up inside each of her whenever you were in contact with each other.

Nothing else mattered, and nothing else felt as good in her life now as when you two were in close contact.

And every moment away from you left her wanting to be back with you, thinking about you, watching the time go by until she could be with you again.

She changed for the better with a more outgoing and expressive personality along with you and as the others joined couple by couple, Chaeyoung couldn't ask for a better group than this.

Even to this day, there was no day that was boring to her with you at her side and she hoped that there will be many more days with you, but not as a friend, but more.

At a spur, Chaeyoung evoked recollections of you and her together from recent all the way to...

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FLASHBACK - 7 Years Ago

'Well, it hasn't been that bad.'

Chaeyoung thought as a week into her brand new school came and gone.

A week ago was the first day of her first year of middle school in a brand new area to which she moved due to her dad's promotion and relocation to the HQ of his job. She was happy for her dad and when she heard the news of moving...well she didn't really have a say in it.

So her family did in the middle of summer and it was a few cities over from her old place which wasn't so bad, yet so far away as well.

Her house was nice and the area was nice as well, but Chaeyoung had her fear about school. 

It was startling enough to be starting school without the couple of friends she knew, but a new place as well made Chaeyoung feel like an outcast. 

Not that her fellow classmates were mean; most looked friendly, pleasant, and cheerful when she heard them but yet Chaeyoung didn't make a move to interact with anyone and nor to her.

It didn't help that she wasn't able to be outgoing and ask others about being friends so she figured this was how it was going to be for a while...a long while.

Not that she minds though. 

And so the first week was of her sitting in the corner desk of the classes, corner of the tables in the library, sitting in the corner at the lunchroom, and basically being by herself, but she liked the peace and quiet of her own little bubble.

And her own little bubble happened to be herself reading a book, specifically manga books. She loved to imagine the settings and scenes processing in her mind while reading line after line to keep her mind going through the action or dialogue.

Speaking of which, before school started, Chaeyoung wandered through the aisles of the library of the school.

It wasn't as grand a local library, but it had quite a nice selection that Chaeyoung found interesting. She planned on checking out a couple of them after finishing the one she was to close end.

With her favorite books in mind, she went to the manga section and upon arrival, spotting someone standing in the same aisle. She quietly stepped a few feet forward and began browsing the selection on the shelves. 

Shuffling towards the left of her as she looked at each bindings name, Chaeyoung spotted a certain book that she didn't expect to find.

'Wait, they have (Book Name) here already?' 

Upon reaching a hand on the book, Chaeyoung retracted just as quickly as she spotted another hand on the right about to come into contact with hers. She followed the arm and it was the same person in the aisle standing near her as Chaeyoung took a step back.

"I'm sorry..." The person spoke as Chaeyoung shyly nodded.

"I-it's okay..."

"Uh," the person reached to the same spot and grabbed the same book as Chaeyoung gave a slight frown. As the person brought the book downward, Chaeyoung was startled when they offered her the book. "Here."

Chaeyoung looked at the person and the book and back.

"O-oh it's okay. You can have it." She spoke softly as the person shook their head.

"It's fine, I don't mind."

"...you sure?" The person nodded and Chaeyoung took the book from their hands, "uh, thank you." She returned with words as the person nodded.

"You're welcome...uh, Chaeyoung right?" Chaeyoung looked in question. "Sorry, I hear your name in roll call during our classes." Chaeyoung took a second to process that information as she nodded. She didn't know which class as she didn't pay attention to any other student's names.

"Oh...uh, yeah I'm Chaeyoung." The person nodded.

"My name is (YN) by the way." You smiled as Chaeyoung gave a faint one back. "So...you like (Book Series)?" You pointed at the book as Chaeyoung nodded. "Yeah, it's a good series. I'm surprised they even have the newest one here."

"Yeah...me too..."

"..."

"..."

A moment of silence occurred as it was getting awkward for Chaeyoung and you.

"...Well, thank you." Chaeyoung gave a faint smile, "I hope you get another copy too." Chaeyoung then turned around and-

"Hey uh," Chaeyoung stopped and turned to you, "I-I don't mean to sound like a creep, but I notice you sit alone in the lunchroom at a corner." Chaeyoung wasn't sure what to make or say to that. "And well, I was wondering...would you...uh, care to have lunch together today..." You asked in a bashful manner as Chaeyoung was taken aback, both feeling embarrassed as you gave a small frown. "I-If you want that is. I'd figured if you wanted someone to talk to or...yeah." You added thinking that you were forward as Chaeyoung's sight wavered a bit.

Someone actually wanted her to be with them?

"...I uh, w-would your friends mind?" She asked as your sight wavered as well.

"Actually, it's just me." Chaeyoung returned her attention to your embarrassed look, "I sit alone not too far from you and I figured maybe you'd want to hang or something...a-as I said it's up to you." You muttered and shrugged as Chaeyoung stared.

Guess there was someone else like her as well.

And know knowing it's just you, it's actually better than a whole group and Chaeyoung didn't see the downside of this as well. You seem friendly enough and it sounded like you were in her position as well. 

What's the worst that can happen?

"A-alright," Chaeyoung stuttered, "sure..."

And from that moment was the start of a beautiful friendship that neither expected.

And as you said, you joined her for lunch on that day, both sitting in her corner as they found that rather cozier than a table and isolated from others as well.

Chaeyoung didn't have any complaints about you and she actually had a small fun time.

In fact, you were there for the next whole week as they met up for lunch till the weekend came. Those days were silent as you both spoke about classes for a few minutes and then towards books that both have read and sometimes it was eating in peace. 

She learned that it was your first year as well and that you attend here for the same reason as Chaeyoung did with your mom being transferred due to a job promotion. She found it funny that you had the same reasons and behavior as she did.

Going to the end of the school week of lunching together, more topics and words were spoken and eventually, lunches had been much more pleasant than Chaeyoung would have imagined and the newfound friendship seemed easy and a nice feeling for Chaeyoung's new start. 

Friday came sooner than Chaeyoung would have thought and was eager for lunch again. 

Spotting you in the corner of their lunch first, she waved at you as you waved back and quickly as Chaeyoung sat, staring face to face, and engaged in somewhat meaningless conversation about their family, friends back at their old neighborhoods, and general topics in other areas than books such as anime, movies, music, etc till...

DING...DING...DING...

The bell for lunch to end dinged and you and Chaeyoung sighed at the sound.

"Well, that was quick." You spoke as Chaeyoung nodded. 

With both lunches already cleaned and packed in their bags, you stood up and offered a hand for support to Chaeyoung as she took it and thanked you. Upon leaving the multipurpose room, both of you got to a hall where Cheayoung's next class was on the right and you on the left. 

"Alright, well, guess I'll see you Monday." You said as Chaeyoung nodded, "bye Chaeyoung," and with that, you took a st-

"(YN)?" You paused and shifted to Chaeyoung's call to you, being only a foot away from you.

"Yeah?"

She gave a flat smile as Chaeyoung's shoulders went up and she became embarrassed under your look.

"I...well, I-I wanted to thank you."  

"Thank me?"

She nodded.

"For asking me about lunch last week and for being my...friend." Chaeyoung appeared shy and broke her vision aside from you. 

Her gratitude was unnecessary, regardless you smiled.

"I'm happy that you're my friend too Chaeyoung." Chaeyoung's eyes returned to you and a smile presented upon hearing that. "So Monday?"

She nodded.

"Yeah, Monday...and you can call me Chae, that's what my friends called me before." You hummed.

"Chae...alright then. See you Monday, Chae."

"You too, bye (YN)." She said back as you nodded and continued to walk to your intended class.

Chaeyoung turned in place and went down her hall as well and she couldn't drop the smile upon having a new friend here.

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FLASHBACK OVER - PRESENT DAY

Chaeyoung hummed as she recalled that day. 

She never would have thought that you and here would be friends for seven years now along with gaining new ones to form the crew that she thought were the best of any group she had...no offense to any prior friends she had before.

Later, as the other friends joined in, you were Chaeyoung's best friend.

And now, you were her love...well she hoped in time you will be.

Chaeyoung groaned and turned to her side and pouted.

'Friend...is that I'll ever be with her/him...'

.

.

I'm a little monster nal geomnae

Neol gweropyeo nae kkumman kku-

Chaeyoung gave a slight jump in place as her ringtone went off. She checked her plugged-in phone and saw Sana texting her.

Hey Chae. Everything 👌with (YN)?

Yeah. S/he left like ten minutes ago 

😔 So how'd it go?

Chaeyoung typed back.

Slightly better than yesterday 

I know it hasn't been even a week, but I think he's improving each day

That's nice. Is there anything we can do to help 🤔?

 Sana asked as Chaeyoung contemplated.

You girls free tomorrow to come over? 

She typed to Sana. "(YN) did say it might go better if more of us are here to help her/him." She whispered as deep down, she really wanted the alone time.

I can't, got a double shift at work 😭😭😭

Sana typed back as Chaeyoung smiled at her emoji's

That sucks. Well I'll ask the others then 

Sorry Sana 

It's okay. I'll live. Well good luck with (YN) then, on both problems

"Both pro-...oh..."

Chaeyoung sighed.

Alright Chae, I'll text you soon

My Mina is over here 💖🐧🥰

Chaeyoung hummed.

Alright. Have fun  👋

Oh you know we will~ 😏😘

Chaeyoung gave a soft laugh. 

Bye Chae 👋

Bye Sana

Chaeyoung placed her phone on her side and looked up at the ceiling.

"Maybe tomorrow...maybe..."

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TIMESKIP - NEXT DAY - 3:37 PM

Another Friday and another blistering day.

Somehow you'd successfully made it through the week, a whole week of spending every night after school with Chaeyoung, trying to test the waters and figure out the limits of your phobia.

Now, at the end of the week, this would be their fifth official session, and you weren't as frightened or timid as before but not by a large decrease.

Chaeyoung had been upkeeping her promise of being with you the whole time, even offering a reward for all your hard work on the weekend, you didn't know what it was, and even if you hadn't made much progress yet, Chaeyoung still insisted on it.

Having her with you did ease your nerves a bit, but you still hadn't been able to make it out of the shallows towards deeper water; only once you got to knee-high a couple of days ago till you went back out as quick.

Chaeyoung felt really happy that day and you surprised yourself that you managed to do so.

You tried not to think about it too much, your aquaphobia wasn't going to cure itself overnight.

You were sitting on the edge of the pool with your feet in the water. It went up to your shins as you moved your feet around in the water.

You had thoughts of how it wasn't as bad as you thought it was. In fact, you were doing your best to aid yourself at home as well. You didn't tell Chaeyoung, but you tried to do training at home in the shower.

While not at all the same as the pool, you trained to resist panic and stood in the water as much time as you can. 

Normally, you wouldn't stand in the water for long, only using it to rinse quickly, but now, you needed to do your part to do this since Chaeyoung was doing her best to aid you.

Speaking of her, she was sitting by you and Chaeyoung wore a two-piece yellow bikini with regular bikini top and a ruffle skirted bottom that exhilarated her perfect body frame and cuteness overall.

And both of you had your switches as Chaeyoung asked you'd bring it to wait while sitting and to battle her.

Sorry not battle...get DESTROYED by her.

You sighed.

"God I hate Mimikyu..."

Chaeyoung hummed.

"Oh come on (YN)~, it's cute~"

"Yeah, when it's on your sid-A CRIT?!"

Your Sceptile fainted as Chaeyoung's Mimikyu's Shadow Claw critical hit him. You pinched the bridge of your nose.

"Well, one mon left. Send out your Gardevoir~"

Chaeyoung poked the side of your torso as you sighed.

"There's no point, you're gonna OHKO her." You complained.

"You never know (YN), you shouldn't give up. Maybe there's a chance." Rather than a taunt, Chaeyoung's tone shifted to a motivated one and you took it to your current situation as well. 

Whether she was talking about one or the other, you nodded.

"Yeah, alright." you send out your last pokemon, Gardevoir, and commanded to use shadow ball...sadly...

"And you're faster, SLASH, and she's...gone." You watched your Gardevoir faint and Chaeyoung was the victor with three Pokemon left. "I need new mons."

"Well, what matters is that you didn't give up," Chaeyoung said as you turned to her and nodded. She raised her left fist, "gg (YN)." You raised your right and fist-bumped hers.

"Yeah, gg...next time I'll-"

"Hey, you two."

You both turned to witness both Jihyo and Tzuyu barely coming out of Chaeyoung's home holding hands, both with towels over their shoulders and already in swimwear.

Jihyo in a dark blue one-piece swimsuit while Tzuyu in a sea wave light pink two-piece bikini. Both articulated their perfect body figures.

"Hey girls, you look great." You spoke up as Chaeyoung nodded.

"Thanks, you two~" Jihyo smiled as Tzuyu nodded back. "So, how you feeling?" She asked as both were now near you both.

"Oh a lot better than the first day. Thanks to Chae." You turned to her as she smiled back.

Jihyo hummed at the two.

"That's great. Are the others coming Chae?" She asked as Chaeyoung nodded.

"Uh, they should be here soon. Sana, Jeong, and Dahyun can't come since they're working and Mina is out with her family for lunch but she'll try to make it so only Momo and Nayeon are on their way."

"Alright. So, how are you really feeling?" The sweetly concerned voice from Jihyo's intrigued face, "Because you seemed a little..."

"No, no I'm fine, thanks," you hurried to say before you had to hear what you seemed to like while proving exactly how fine you were by smiling too fast.

You wanted to say something, anything, that might remove the impression that you were being dramatic on purpose if only proper words would form instead of weak mumbling.

"Alright, just take it easy..." A warm, damp hand wrapped around your shoulder, simply holding it as if to let you know that you were not alone and not in a hurry. 

"Of course Jihyo." You spoke as Jihyo nodded.

"Same (YN)." Tzuyu simply said as you looked at her.

"Thank you Tzuyu." She nodded back and looked to Jihyo, "Jihyo, I'm going to tan."

Jihyo smirked.

"I'll help with the sunscreen~" Jihyo rubbed her shoulder against Tzuyu's.

"Back only." 

"Fine. I'll be back you two." Jihyo said to you both as Chaeyoung and you nodded and watched the two go to the nearest chaise lounge.

"This will be good." You said as Chaeyoung looked at you. "Hopefully." 

Chaeyoung hummed.

"It will be."

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It wasn't long before Jihyo got into the pool herself after sitting with you and Chaeyoung for a bit as she asked Chaeyoung for a race as Chaeyoung thought about it for a few seconds before you told her you'd be good.

You adjusted to the water with practiced ease, looking over at Chaeyoung and Jihyo who were swimming through the deeper waters, laughing and splashing one another as they kicked their way across the pool.

You smiled, letting their laugher and the closeness of their voices distract you from your anxiety as you scooted over and up and stepped down slowly along the shallow end of the pool, one hand on the edge of the pool and the other shifting along the surface of the water.

You turned to Tzuyu laying on a chaise lounge working on her tan, sunglasses on with headphones in while her arms rested on her sides with her fingers tapping on the chair.

Chou Tzuyu: a silent, sophisticated and sharp type of girl that made people turn their heads at her model-like features. She was a girl with few words to say and was quiet, but she wasn't distinct as she participated in lots of your group activities, much to her seeming like she didn't want to do anything with anyone. Even for years, it was very small talk as Tzuyu was direct to the point.

And being around her and noticing everyone around her either staring or checking her out was interesting, to say the least. 

I mean come on, with her perfect visuals, stunning body, and now a few feet away from you in a bikini...good lord...too bad for all the males that she plays for the other team. and too bad for the ladies that she's taken.

Her girlfriend was one lucky woman and speaking of whom...

Park Jihyo was the opposite of Tzuyu in terms of personality but equal in terms of attractiveness. Energetic, outspoken, driven; she was the 'mother' of the group so to speak: made sure everyone finished their homework and projects, made schedules on tutoring sessions for upcoming tests and quizzes, and even made sure you all were eating well...she was the most responsible of the group and while she can go overboard on the concern side, each of you loved her for her keeping everyone in check.

An odd couple that you didn't think would work yet they seemed to mash well. You notice that either girl was even happier with the other.

You averted your attention to the water being in the middle of your shins and knees.

You trailed your fingertips through the too-blue water and then slowly submerged as your knees buckled for the water to rise up your legs, eventually getting to your knees once more and even more as it went over your knee caps.

Then your eyes stung a bit and your breathing went close in intervals as you hoisted yourself up with the support of the wall, the water droplets going down your legs.

"Relax...relax..." You whispered.

'That wasn't too bad.'

It was strange, how things from your past stayed ingrained within you, muscle memory from a time when you were six causing you to have this panic.

You honestly wanted to beat this, but glimpses of that minute of you being down there swims up to your mind.

It was a pool and you could clearly see the water underneath and yet...you couldn't even go a third of your body.

But what Chaeyoung said was true, little steps and before you couldn't even step into it and now to your knees. That's something right?

"Wow (YN), you did that without me this time. Are you feeling okay?"

The ripples of the water grew and looked right to see Chaeyoung and Jihyo now treading on the water towards you.

You shifted your position with your back against the edge of the pool and with a soft exhale as Chaeyoung looking pleased giving you a hearty smile while Jihyo looking concerned and a frown to boot. 

You smiled softly at them both.

"I'm alright...I actually got past the knees." You met Chaeyoung's hazel eyes, catching a hint of confusion across her face at your somber reaction. "Really, I'm fine..."

"Remember what I said (YN), small steps." She repeated yesterday's words as you nodded.

"But don't push yourself okay." Jihyo lowered as you nodded.

"Yeah (YN), it's great that you're trying, but don't try to overwork it without me. Please?" You knew why she said that. After scaring her, you didn't blame her. 

"Of course. I'm sorry."

"No worries." Chaeyoung then turned to Jihyo. "Uh, Ji, do you mind getting some water bottles for us?"

Jihyo understood the 'code' that Chaeyoung was asking for, she was too nice to say 'can you give us a minute'.

"Sure." She gave you a smile, thoughtful before turning and wading towards the stairs leading out of the pool and towards the house...until she spotted Tzuyu on her right. She couldn't help but look at her beauty and how hot she was.

Jihyo walked towards her girlfriend and poked her on the shoulder. Tzuyu's head turned towards Jihyo's smile with her hands behind her back now.

"What?" She asked as Jihyo grinned.

"Nothing, admiring the view~" Tzuyu rolled her eyes. "I'm getting drinks, what do you want my Tzundere?"

"Water."

"Water huh? You are looking pretty hot~" Jihyo roamed her eyes down to Tzuyu's slender creamy body, her tummy, hips, her long legs, and the pink bikini articles that Jihyo couldn't help but think naughty-

"Jihyo, stop checking me out."

"You know I can't resist you Tzu~ Especially in this~ And to be honest," Jihyo leaned closer until her head was hovering Tzuyu's, "You're making me hot as well~"

Jihyo smiled as she observed Tzuyu giving a shake of her head and reached out to give Jihyo a playful shove.

"Then get in the pool."

Jihyo smirked.

"I love you too~"

Jihyo turned towards the home as Tzuyu smiled behind her Jihyo's back.

Meanwhile, you and Chaeyoung were back on the stairs and this time, you were on the second set of steps as you felt the water go up and down to your shins and a bit on your behind.

You sighed and turned towards Chaeyoung once they were alone, glancing up at her shyly and smiling softly. "I'm sorry about that, I shouldn't have-"

Chaeyoung shushed you softly, reaching out to touch your arm. "Hey, it's alright. I was nervous that you would...have that again."

You shook your head, glancing away from those bright brown eyes, drifting slowly across the empty pool. "I don't blame you. I saw you two swimming and hanging in the pool and I questioned as to how easy you and the others make it." You told as she shook her head.

"And hopefully it'll be easy for you too (YN), but for now maybe you shouldn't do stuff like that on your own." Chaeyoung's voice was soft, almost too soft, and you looked back up at her.

"Good call." 

Chaeyoung chuckled while reaching out to draw you closer, holding your hand resting on the step. "Remember, we're all here for you (YN). I'm here for you."

You sighed softly, letting your steady heartbeat soothe your nerves. "It's crazy how difficult it is...I mean it's just water," you brought your other hand up, cupped with the pool water that leaked out of your hand. "We drink this every day and I can't even stand in it."

Chaeyoung rubbed against your hand and closed your eyes as Chaeyoung soothed you, relaxing into her touch.

When several moments had passed of comfortable silence between them, Chaeyoung stood up and took a step into the water, and met your eyes.

"Do you want to try again?" You tilted your head slightly, watching Chaeyoung's suggestive expression and outreached hands. "This time with me?"

You searched her face up hands and smile alternatively and nodded as you took them.

'I can do this...I can do this.'

After grasping your hands in hers, Chaeyoung nodded and draw you with her through the water to which you came out as she backed towards that spot slowly, searching your eyes. 

"I want you to focus on me, okay? Just look at me, trust me to keep you safe. Don't think about where your feet are or what we are doing. Just keep your eyes on me, okay?"

You nodded, pushing down your fear and letting your feet lift up off of the steps of the pool, Chaeyoung treading water as she pulled you up and guiding you further towards where you were a minute ago.

"Keep a hand on the corner of the wall as well, so that you can feel the ground still and push yourself up when needed." You nodded and taking her instructions, you let go of the left hand and placed it on the edge of the pool.

Tzuyu, on the side, was watching the two as she stared at you treading alongside the edge. While she didn't show it, she did feel for you having to endure this, she was afraid of spiders herself and she freaked out whenever she saw one. 

And to see you treading across your said fear, she was rooting for you as well.

"Hey," Tzuyu heard her girlfriend's voice behind her and turned to Jihyo holding four bottles of water. Three in one arm held against her and one in her other hand, outstretched to Tzuyu as Tzuyu took it.

"Thanks."

"Sure...is s/he okay?" Jihyo asked Tzuyu as they both turned to you and Chaeyoung.

"That's it (YN), you're doing great," Chaeyoung spoke as inch by inch, took you closer as you stared right at Chaeyoung's expressive eyes.

"Well, s/he looks good," Tzuyu answered back as Jihyo laid down the bottles and watched the two now. 

"I'm worried that she's pushing her/him." Jihyo voiced in a motherly fashion, as Tzuyu shrugged.

"Okay, now that we're here, I want you to kneel slowly alright? And look at me when you do so."

Nudge by nudge, you felt the water rise up your legs and could feel the change in temperature as the bottom of the pool fell away, holding onto Chaeyoung's hands tighter as she kept her eyes locked, coaxing you along with her with soft words and gentle tugs until your kneecaps felt nothing but cold.

By now you felt the water rising up your body as Jihyo and Tzuyu watched intently at your face side.

"That's it, that's it. Easy (YN). You're doing amazing."

"I think that's good Chae," Jihyo spoke up, but neither you nor Chaeyoung listened. Chaeyoung because she was intending on helping you and you...well...

Cold, deep water.

Distinctively colder than the warmth of the shallows.

Cold enough that it sends fear singing like lightning up your spine.

Your breath hitched, trying to focus on the girl in front of you, trying not to think about the images inside your mind.

Dark water, muddled into the mossy green with algae and only the light rays above as you fought against the weight of those depths, pulling you slowly, tugging your body down.

You froze up completely, fear flashing wildly across your face.

At that moment you weren't in the pool with Chaeyoung.

You were back at the beach.

Chaeyoung instantly knew something was wrong, instantly stopping and pushing you quickly towards the edge of the pool, your view straight at Jihyo and Tzuyu. 

You took deep breaths as your nails scratched across the stone side of the pool.

"(YN)?!" Jihyo speed-walked to you as Tzuyu was about to get up as well, but both stopped as Chaeyoung's hand went up and shook.

Much to Jihyo's instincts to aid you, she followed Chaeyoung's request for now and stood in place, ready to assist if needed as Tzuyu was sat up on the lounge.

"Easy, you're alright. Just look forward on the ground." Chaeyoung's voice pierced your thoughts and without looking, you nodded at her instructions, letting out a shuddering exhale.

"Sorry..." You let out that simple word as Chaeyoung rubbed your back.

"It's okay, it's okay." Chaeyoung sprung into action. "Shh, you're safe now. I'm sorry. You're on the ground now," Chaeyoung repeated several times and positioned herself and drew her closer to you so she was leaning against your body close and snugged like with her left hand on your right arm resting as Chaeyoung played with your hair with her left to soothe you.

"I've got you. You're safe. But you've gotta breathe with me." She took a deep breath and slowly let it out.

You followed suit and Chaeyoung took it as a sign that you were on the right track for being better. Feeling her words and hands, you kept breathing and Chaeyoung, with every few breaths, offered encouragement.

"Yeah, (YN). Like that. Breathe in with me. Good. Now out. Now in again..."

It felt like forever, but your rapid gasps for air slowed to deeper, though still shaky, breaths.

Chaeyoung pulled her crush closer. "Good, good, just relax," she repeatedly murmured as your breath continued its gradual evening out. 

However, Chaeyoung wasn't faring any better; she still had her arms around you, keeping you tight against her and holding your hand.

But she shouldn't be hugging you. 

She caused this again because of what she did suggest.

It didn't sit well for Chaeyoung and while you didn't look nearly as bad as the first day with you cowering and hurdled up, it affected her greatly.

You have gotten way better about being in the water that yesterday you actually stood in the water up to your shins. She even saw your smile as your eyes were closed and you even felt comfortable.

It was her fault that you were going through this.

It was her fault you we-

"I didn't mean to panic." Chaeyoung got out of her mind when hearing your voice. "Don't feel bad." You spoke up, making her feel the opposite and stopping in her tracks.

Chaeyoung was about to say something, but Jihyo kneeled down in front of you and placed a hand on your shoulder.

"You okay?" She asked in a mother-like tone as you nodded. "Ahh (YN), what did I just say? Pushing like this isn't gonna help." She added slowly and quietly.

You glanced down left and then back up at her disquieted appearance.

"I-I know Jihyo, but...honestly that wasn't as bad as before."

Jihyo exhaled frustration through her nose and trust everyone in the group, you DO NOT want to make Jihyo mad.

Jihyo turned to Chaeyoung as she was looking back at Jihyo. "Chae, you should know better." This time her tone was sharp as Chaeyoung felt a kick in her guts from that and her expression told it.

"Jihyo, it's fine, I wanted to do this with her." Chaeyoung turned her head to your side, "She's trying to help me that's all. Please don't get upset at her." 

One look at you and Chaeyoung deflated look and Jihyo's knew it wasn't something to get frustrated about, but if this kept up, she had a few words for you.

You saw her eyes shift from tight to soft and her lips downward just slightly.

The poor girl was trying to aid her crush and Jihyo knew that she was doing whatever it took to do that.

Hell, Jihyo would do the same for her Tzuyu.

She turned back to her girlfriend sitting upright with her sunglasses off and staring at the three of them and then returned her attention to Chaeyoung.

'I guess that what love does to you.'

"...I'm sorry Chae, I didn't mean to say that." Chaeyoung looked towards Jihyo's sympathetic look. She knew where Jihyo was coming from when saying that, "...just...please (YN), none of us don't want to see you like that...after hearing about you, even in the shallow, I'm worried about you." Her demeanor turned 180 as you nodded.

"Thank you Jihyo. But with you, Chae," without thinking, you raised and placed an arm on Chaeyoung's shoulder as Chaeyoung smiled at your hand, "Tzuyu and the others," you looked at Chaeyoung, "don't worry about me, I know you girls are there for me, but trust me, I need to do this." Your words seemed to bounce of Jihyo as she gave a few seconds to gauge your answer.

"...Alright. And (YN), don't do that on your own again. We're all willing to help you out." Jihyo added as you and Chaeyoung smiled at that statement. 

Of course, each person in your ten friend group would rather hang with their partner more than any other, but that didn't mean that the other eight were anything less. 

"Is everything okay?" The three turned to Tzuyu still sitting up on the lounge. The other nine knew that Tzuyu doesn't show her emotions, but they also knew she cared for everyone else as well...mentally that is.

"I'm good Tzu, thank you." She nodded as you treaded to the left towards and up the stairs as the three stared at you, "if you don't mind, I'm gonna sit on a lounge for a minute."

Jihyo stood up from her spot and walked towards your side, intercepting you and making you halt in place as Jihyo was mere inches from you with a stale look.

"(YN), I didn't mean to get tensed, but I do mean what I said...especially Chae." 

"I know, I'm sorry too." She nodded, "thank you Jihyo." She smiled and patted your back as you went on your way towards and past Tzuyu as she followed you with her vision.

Jihyo went back to Chaeyoung as she mirrored Tzuyu's actions as you sat down on a lounge that was about 10 feet from Tzuyu, your back towards the three. It wasn't a great sign for the three girls there as they were left with concerning thoughts, but figured it was best to have your own bubble for now.

SWISH

Jihyo gently got into the pool with Chaeyoung, now slightly regretting what she said to the poor girl.

"Chae." 

Chaeyoung averted her sight from you to Jihyo inches from her as well. It wasn't long till she dropped her gaze to the ripples caused by Jihyo.

"I just wanted to help..."

Even though her frustration took her a bit, Jihyo felt a tang of regret for her choice of words.

"Cha-"

"Guess whose hereee~" 

Each one of them, Tzuyu aside, turned to hear Momo and saw her and Nayeon coming out of the backdoor. 

Both adorned with a towel over their necks with Momo having sunglasses on. Just like Jihyo and Tzuyu, they changed inside and came out wearing some fashionable bikinis.

Momo had on a black two-piece twist front bikini (and she made sure she wore it well) and Nayeon with a sky blue halter tankini set with drawstring sides at her bottom.

Nayeon and Momo looked around and noticed Tzuyu lying down on a lounge not far from the edge of the pool, both Chaeyoung and Jihyo near the edge of the pool  and you a bit further away to their left also on a lounge, sitting with your hands held together. 

They took a few seconds to glance at you, but no movement from you as they went forward towards Jihyo and Chaeyoung.

"Hey Tzu, looking good~" Momo pulled her sunglasses down and winked  as she passed Tzuyu who looked back in response.

"Hey, that's my girl Momo," Jihyo turned hearing Momo's compliment to her girlfriend as Momo chuckled.

"Hehe~ Relax Ji, I think we all know that." Momo teased and smirked behind her sunglasses upon getting closer as Jihyo pouted.

"Uh, is s/he okay?" Nayeon asked the two of them as Jihyo and Chaeyoung looked at one another.

"S/He...didn't fare well while being in here." Jihyo only needed to say those words as the two understood. "It was literally about a minute ago."

Both girls looked over at you, each feeling their emotions drop slightly at your posture.

"I'm gonna go say hi for a bit," Nayeon spoke up, not wasting time for an answer as she turned on her heels.

Chaeyoung's eyes trailed after Nayeon's approach to you as she figured it to comfort you.

"Hey (YN)~"

You looked to the right and up at Nayeon leaning down.

"Hey, Nay."

"Mind if I sit?" She asked as you nodded while making some room for her as she sat down on your left.

Im Nayeon was an interesting character that was a mix of Tzuyu and Chaeyoung. Pretty diva-like, sarcastic, and sassy most times to others, especially to her girlfriend Jeongyeon, but was a hyperactive and positive bundle of fun who was pretty energetic and brings life to the group.

Yoo Jeongyeon, Nayeon's girlfriend, was a mix of Nayeon, Jihyo, and Tzuyu. She was a mirror of Tzuyu's and Jihyo's behavior but not as upkeep or silent as both, probably the third mature one of the group behind them. And while she wasn't as hyperactive as Nayeon, she was there to have fun with the group or girlfriend as well. 

It was out of the left field when Nayeon asked Jeongyeon out. She almost wasn't going to go out with Nayeon, but after her constant asking, Jeongyeon accepted and quite enjoyed it, even if she doesn't show it often.

Meanwhile, Momo was already sitting on the edge of the water with her feet submerged in the cool liquid.

"Ahh~ now that's soothing." She waved her feet around and cupped some water with her hands and poured it over her thighs.

Hirai Momo was...well...the opposite of Jihyo. Laidback, easy-going and the definition of her lifestyle was casual. She'd take any opportunity to take a break from work or school and live life to the fullest with fun each day.

She and Dahyun were the perfect match as Dahyun, while having a slight responsible side, fun was always on her mind and the two, besides you and Chae, had the most of that together.

"With today's heat, I don't blame you," Jihyo spoke up while descending into the pool, settling down with the water rising to her waist. 

"So what happened?" Momo asked as Jihyo scooted closer, placing her arms on the edge of the pool. 

"As I said, s/he tried to get down like I am now. Didn't work so well." Jihyo turned to Chaeyoung keeping her sight on you and Nayeon. "Chae?" Chaeyoung turned her head and the other two ladies saw her expression to be somber. "What did (YN) mean when s/he said 'as bad as before'? Did something happened prior to this?"

Chaeyoung pursed her lips.

"..."

She didn't say anything and that confirmed Jihyo's statement.

"S/he had a panic attack didn't he?" Momo spoke up.

Chaeyoung merely nodded but was stunned that Momo was the one to guess it.

"Figures, my sister has claustrophobia, confined spaces and all. I remembered we were in an elevator and suddenly everything went black since the power went out and...well she couldn't take it and I remember every second of our parents trying to get her to calm down. I guess (YN) had one with the water?"

Chaeyoung and Jihyo heard Momo's memory and the younger of the three sighed and nodded.

"It was literally last week when you girls learned that (YN) had her/his fear. Minutes before Sana and Mina arrived."

"Wait? S/He had it that day?" Jihyo spoke up.

"Yeah...you have no idea how much it terrified me to see her/him like that." Chaeyoung looked towards your back, memories flooded of you on the cold ground, literally feet away from  where the three girls were conversing, "s/he was holding her/himself, mumbling and freaking out, and...it tore me watching her/him like that." Chaeyoung clenched her fists to remember how heartbroken she felt.

"So that's why. I'm so sorry Chae."Jihyo apologized as Chaeyoung nodded at no one in particular. If Jihyo had seen Tzuyu in trouble like that, she would have done anything to help her as well.

"That's exactly how my sister was too. I'm sorry for you seeing that Chae, I know how scared I was as well." Momo added to aid in Chaeyoung and while she appreciated the support, the damage was done.

"That's why I want to help her/him first. I don't ever want to see that again." Chaeyoung's tone was determined, yet lacking at the same time as both Jihyo and Momo gave a faint smile, but Jihyo...

"I know what you mean Chae, but you have to be careful with her/him, really. I don't know the extent of how bad her/his fear is, but from what I saw we shouldn't pressure her/him on doing this so swiftly," Chaeyoung sighed through her nose. "I know you want to help her/him, we all do." Momo nodded in confirmation, "but let's take things nice and slow alright." Her words echoed into Chaeyoung's brain. 

"...yeah. S/He was doing so well yesterday so I thought that-...no, you're right. I'm sorry." Chaeyoung felt her spirit go down as Jihyo rose up just slightly and patted her arm to relax her.

Momo figured it was time for a change of conversation.

"So...seeing as how you're the captain. What can we do to help Chae?" Momo asked, having Chaeyoung looking at her.

"Uh, I guess what I've been doing with her/him. It was walking along the edge to get comfortable in here."

"Cool. You mind if I do that?" Momo asked as Chaeyoung knew that they wanted to aid you as well.

"Sure, go ahead."

"Sweet~ Thanks Chae, and don't worry, Nayeon's probably cheering her/him up already." The three turned their head towards you and Nayeon's side of their faces, you had a smile on as Chaeyoung was delighted to see that. "And I'll take really good care of your boyfriend~" 

Chaeyoung stiffened in place and turned her head in lightspeed at Momo smirking at her.

"M-Momo...not so loud..." Chaeyoung's poor flustered tone made Momo laugh as Jihyo simply shook her head. "And speaking of (YN)~ Hey (YN)." She waved towards her left, causing Chaeyoung and Jihyo to see Nayeon and you coming back with held hands.

Chaeyoung noticed and it didn't have any affect on her, knowing Nayeon's love for Jeongyeon.

"Hey Momo." You said with a slightly less enthusiasm than you had before and it made Chaeyoung feel a bit down.

"So, I hope you girls don't mind, but I'm gonna work with (YN) for a bit~" Nayeon grinned at you as you nodded. 

Both Jihyo and Momo turned to Chaeyoung as she nodded.

"Sure, go ahead." Chaeyoung was going to let this be anyway.

"Sweet, alright (YN), you ready?" 

"Right now?" Jihyo asked as you nodded.

"I only needed a minute." You answered as Nayeon slowly pulled you towards the stairs.

"Alright, well, guess we'll leave you be. Momo, Chae and I were doing some laps, want to join?" Jihyo asked as Momo grinned.

"Let's do it~"

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TIMESKIP - 8:42 PM

Chaeyoung was on her bed binge watching My Hero Academia

you would have been here, but after saying you needed to rest for a bit, Chaeyoung understood not from fatique but from mentality and she didn't blame you.

But still, after your slight panic, Chaeyoung observed you doing well with the others girls: Nayeon with walking about, Momo with some small squats, Jihyo on the stairs and even Tzuyu was on the poolside with you chatting as you were walking around for a bit, a bit uncharacteristic of her, but the girls knew that she felt for you too.

Mina did arrive later wearing a lavander ruffle high bikini top with spaghetti straps with a ruffle skirt to match. She came dressed to impress and if Sana was here...she'd probably die, heck even you took a peek here and there...with every girl...well can you blame yourself?

After Mina's turn to help you, the seven of you stayed till around six where Tzuyu and Jihyo both left and thirty mins after watching a movie and playing card games inside, everyone except you left.

After hanging out till eight, you left as well, leaving Chaeyoung now in her bed, watching anime alone and eating strawberries at the side. She was a bit tired and was glad to have a bit of relaxing.

.

.

KNOCK KNOCK 

Chaeyoung paused her video.

"Come in."

The door opened to reveal her father with a plate.

"Hey sweetie, would you like a sandwich? I made a couple for me."

Chaeyoung smiled and nodded.

"Yeah I'll take one, thanks dad." He nodded and brought the plate towards her as Chaeyoung sat up and took the plate. The sandwich wasn't anything special, but she could eat it with her strawberries.

"So, how's it going with (YN)?" He asked as Chaeyoung nodded.

"He's getting there. He managed to get just over her/his knees before he...well," Chaeyoung shrugged.

"Freaked out?" He finished as Chaeyoung nodded again. "Well, I guess it's progress." Chaeyoung took a bite of her sandwich and gulped the bread and turkey ham down.

"How'd you do it dad? Your fear of the dark? I'm doing what you grandpa did but it doesn't seem to be working."

Her dad gave a sympathetic smile.

"Well Chae, just because it worked for me, doesn't mean it's gonna work for everyone." Chaeyoung's shoulders feel, "and it's only been a week sweetie, like your mother and I said, it could take quite some time for (YN) to be okay."

"..."

"I have to ask, last week, when you said that s/he got hurt, did you mean a 'panic attack'?" He asked as Chaeyoung nodded slowly and he saw her daughter's expression drop, "I figured...it must have gotten to you as much as her/him." Chaeyoung nodded.

"Which is why I want to do this dad, I know it's not gonna be simple, but...I want to help (YN) get over this fear." 

Her dad smiled knowing that, while that's her reason to help, he knew his daughter has a major crush on you. It was obvious to them and they didn't mind if you and her dated, you both already seemed to be the perfect couple and they couldn't ask for anyone better.

"I understand Chae. You know, when dad and I were in the basement, he said to me, "change the way you look at things and the things you look at change" and he showed me that the dark, rather than scary, can actually be a fun show, hence the shadow puppets with our hands that I told you and I remember him making crafts from paper to put on a show or tell me stories for me with a flashlight; the dinosaurs were my favorite. Having the mighty T-rex battle whatever dinosaur came to challenge him." He brought his hands up and pretended to clash them as if he was holding the dinosaurs themselves.

Chaeyoung gave a smile at his memory.

"Heh, well, anyway, I don't really know what you and (YN) can do in the water, but perhaps theres something you can do along what my dad said rather than just sitting there."

Chaeyoung lowered her gaze, hummed, and nodded.

"So...some show or movie about water?" 

Her dad shrugged.

"Could be a start." Chaeyoung nodded slowly.

"I see. Thanks dad, I'll think about it."

"I'm sure you will. Well, I'll leave you about it then," Chaeyoung nodded as he turned towards the door and just as he was about to leave, "and sweetie," she turned to her father, "your mom and I are happy that you're aiding (YN). He's lucky to have you as a friend."

Chaeyoung shook her head.

"We're looking out for each other dad. He's done the same for me and more." Her dad smiled and nodded. 

"We know. Alright, well, don't forget to return the plate. Night Chae." 

"I won't, night dad." With a final nod, her dad closed the door as Chaeyoung averted her sight to her phone and tapped the screen once to reveal her and you on the homescreen with her hugging behind you and both smiling at the phone.

"I'm lucky to have her/him too..." She muttered as Chaeyoung took another bite of her sandwich and went to googling what she can do.

.

.

.

About tenish minutes went by and Chaeyoung had no luck in what she can do what her dad said and just when she was going to ask the group of what to do, something came to her mind.

"Changing the way s/he looks at water...maybe I'm looking at this the wrong way. S/He can't get into the water like dad with the dark...so I wonder if only there's a way s/he can be in the water without being IN the water...that sounds ridiculous. How do I make her/him see that the water isn't all that scary..." Chaeyoung thought that it was impossible for- "Wait."

Chaeyoung got her phone and googled a certain word and sat up.

"Huh...hmm, this might work." She clicked on a website and started to read the main page, "It's open on the weekend...can this work?" She smiled, "I think it might."

So with a quick read on the times, she texted the group, hopefully they weren't all asleep, and then you individually.

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TIMESKIP - NEXT DAY - 9:23 AM

"Jesus Jihyo, can you drive any slower?" Nayeon complained.

"I'm following the speed limit." Jihyo calmly spoke up taking a left. 

"You could learn from her Nayeon." Jeongyeon grinned at her girlfriend as Nayeon huffed and poked the side of Jeongyeon's torso.

"Jeongie, I swear you are never on my side." Nayeon pouted as Jeongyeon chuckled.

"So...how long till we get there?" You asked.

"About six minutes," Chaeyoung answered on your left as you nodded. "Trust me (YN), we'll enjoy it." Chaeyoung seemed chippier than usual and you took it as a sign for you to not bring this down.

"I hope so, it is my first time."

"You're not alone, all of us but Dahyun and Momo haven't been there," Jihyo spoke up. "They went on a date there a couple of months back."

The group was heading towards an aquarium.

A building filled with fish, animals, and...water. 

Chaeyoung figured that since you were afraid of water, she'd bring you here to have you be NEAR water without being IN the water. So she typed in a place that fit the description: aquarium.

A zoo-like location where cute animals and sea creatures are taken care of and showcased.

Chaeyoung hoped that this will show that water isn't all that scary to be, especially with how cool some of these exhibits and animals are...she hoped.

It was a long shot, but if it could help you in the slightest, Chaeyoung will do whatever it took.

After calling each girl, excluding you, and telling them of her plan, they were a bit hesitant of you being there, but she assured that you'll be fine. It wasn't like taking a dive into a pool or anything, just lots of tanks of water.

They all eventually agreed to it and planned to go in two days on Sunday since most were going to work either morning or afternoon on Saturday, yesterday.

After calling you, you agreed to it after a few minutes of thinking.

You'd never been in one, and it was no wonder. 

You were, in all things, anxious and startled. More water in one place than could fill a pool reduced you to a nervous wreck, but you weren't going to let them know. 

At least this water would be confined to tanks, but still, you didn't trust it. 

All that water just behind inches of glass...you were practically getting goosebumps just thinking about it and you were still standing at the front of the entrance.

You weren't exactly sure how it was going to help, but aquariums had lots of water involved so maybe it'll help, maybe not, but you if Chaeyoung thought it would help then so be it, plus it was a great hangout for all you ten to be in so why not.

So with no one declining, except to make sure that you would be okay, the ten of you agreed to go and after another day of training in the pool with Chaeyoung and the rest, besides Nayeon, Momo, and Tzuyu this time and spending some quality time with Chaeyoung at her place, it was the day to go and you went early today.

The ten of you took two separate cars with Jihyo taking hers with Tzuyu, Jeongyeon, Nayeon, Chaeyoung, and you while Mina drove hers with Sana, Momo, and Dahyun.

You wondered how Mina was fairing with those three in her car.

You turned to your right as Tzuyu was staring forward until she noticed you and turned her head as well.

"Doing good?" You asked as she nodded.

"Yeah, you?" 

"Good, thanks." She nodded and turned her head to the scenery outside as you chuckled mentally.

'Yeah, short conversations are her style.'

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SEVEN MINUTES LATER

SLAM SHUT SLAM SHUT

Four doors were shut in succession as you six stepped out of the car and onto the parking lot of the large aquarium.

"We finally found a parking spot. Thank god." Jihyo chimed as the parking lot was close to full.

"This place is huge." Nayeon used her hand to cover the sun from looking at the building. 

"Well, there are lots of habitats and creatures here. Even a small whale is being shown." Jeongyeon tugging at her long-sleeve blood-red top to flatten it out over her blue jeans. 

Nayeon was wearing a similar top with a deeper v-neck with black ripped jeans.

Jihyo with black patterned blouse and shorts while both Chaeyoung and Tzuyu wore a design white v-neck with old-fashioned jeans.

You wore a white short sleeve shirt with an unzipped coal-black hoodie over and, like Nayeon, black ripped jeans as well.

"There's a whale here?" Nayeon asked as Jeongyeon nodded. "Jesus..."

They all walked towards the entrance and decided to wait for the others by the doors.

"Okay, Sana texted they're about a minute away. (YN), we'll all be around you alright? If at any point you need to back out, we'd understand." Jihyo spoke up for the group as some nodded in unison.

Being in the spotlight, you were a bit embarrassed, but not as a week ago, and you nodded to Jihyo's advice.

"Don't worry Jihyo, I'll be fine, but thank you, all of you." You muttered, face turning red as each nodded. 

Chaeyoung stood by you and smiled upwards.

"And here they are," Jeongyeon spoke up.

Over your shoulder, they could see the other four approaching around the parked cars in the lot of the aquarium. 

Mina, in a heavy jacket and jeans, was nodding her head. 

Sana, who was in a similar fashion, was poking the sides of Mina while holding her phone, and Momo and Dahyun, in holding hands, skipped towards you six with Dahyun in a sky blue top with shorts and Momo in a pure purple shirt with sweat pants, looking perky as ever. 

Sana released Mina and took a deep breath.

"Okay! So we're going to see the baby beluga! Then the seals! Then we'll look at the otters! Then we'll see the little turtles! Then the dolphins! Oooh! I want to pet a dolphin! Then the stingrays...Mina!? Are you excited!?" Sana exclaimed tugging at Mina's jacket as her girlfriend nodded.

"Yes Sana, I am very much excited." Mina smiled at her girlfriend as Sana giggled and grabbed her hand and pulled her to go quickly as Mina sighed looking forward while your group was amused at her behavior.

"Guess being with those three took a toll on her," Jihyo said as the other started to wave at your group.

"Hey, guys~" Momo held Dahyun's left arm as the four got closer to them.

Waves of hello's happened as they formed a circle outside the doors.

"Guess it's pretty packed." Dahyun looked back at the cars, "and this place is huge!!!" she raised her free arm and waved at the building.

"So we all ready?" Jihyo asked the group as they nodded.

"Mina!!!" Sana brought her phone in front of her eyes, "they brought in penguins last week!"

Mina's eyes widened as she saw a pic of a penguin on Sana's phone.

"Aren't they so-"

Mina grabbed Sana's arm and pulled her forward with a strength Sana didn't know she had.

"H-hey Mi-"

"Line. Now." Mina spoke with enthusiasm as the others laughed or smiled at Mian's newfound passion.

"Well, let's follow them," Chaeyoung spoke for the group as they all were ready to have a nice time.

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TIMESKIP

10 MINUTES

The entrance line was unexpectedly packed with people who are also seeking tickets to enter, but the girls didn't mind waiting in line as they chatted among each other or their individual partners.

Each one paid for their ticket as everyone heads out the lobby and inside the somewhat linear building, some of the girls were giddy like a kid on a school trip, and others feeling like the parents of the group. 

You however could already see water tanks all around and while it wasn't scaring you to death like the pool, you pushed those negative thoughts aside.

"Stick close to me, I don't want us to get separated," Chaeyoung whispers right against your ear as she takes your hand, and she feels you tighten your grip around hers.

"Yeah, thanks."

"Everything will be fun, don't worry." She said as you nodded.

'I don't want to ruin this day for the others.'

There are more couples around them, families with little kids, groups of friends, and other people who were just as stranded as they were, navigating the wide hall that served as the lobby of common marine ecology and what you'd expect to find. 

Behind the stretch of reinforced glass on either side of them were mini-ecosystems with common aqua life that seemed to be taken from slices off the ocean floor, which gives off the feeling of being in a tunnel at the bottom of the sea. 

A few children run past, excited to get to the other end of the lobby where the rest of the aquarium starts.

You stared at the kids as you sighed mentally.

'Even kids are excited. And here I am needing a guiding hand.'

Pictures of whales, dolphins, random fish, and other creatures adorned the blue walls. 

Dark blue wave designs wound their way past glass tanks and doors, taking everything in as you walked by tanks of all kinds of fishes and reading each information as you ten stopped to read each panel.

Chaeyoung took note of you more than the fishes or tanks as she was gauging your expression: all normal as they conversed among each tank.

Getting further in, there was a large circular room with ocean-themed decorations and there were spectators jostled around in a circle.

"Oh, this is where you pet the stingrays!" Sana exclaimed upfront as she pulled Mina with Dahyun and Momo following close by. 

"Aren't they dangerous?" You asked as Chaeyoung shook her head.

"They're harmless creatures, unless they're in trouble, they won't do anything." She answered as you nodded.

Upon getting closer, there was a platform that went up to waist high and in it was a shallow, maybe a foot, of water with sand, rocks, and coral to resemble a beach-like location with see-through walls to keep the water in for the surrounding of the pool. 

Finding a spot where some of your group can join in, you saw plentiful stingrays. 

The grey, flat, roundish shape creatures were circling the tank while moving in a wavy motion that propels them through the water. Having broad fins that run the full length of their bodies, it looked like they were hovering or flying through the water.

"They're cute~" Sana, like a child, jumped in place as Mina relaxed her.

"So we just pet them?" Jeongyeong asked.

"Yeah, like the others are doing." Nayeon pointed out.

"Do we wait for someone?" You asked, bringing Chaeyoung's attention to you.

"I don't think so," Chaeyoung answered as each girl and you figured to do what other kids and teens were doing. You all placed your hand over the rays and using two fingers, you brought it over the rays, as over half the girls retracted upon feeling the top of the stingrays.

"Oh..."

"Uh..."

"Ahh!" Sana yelped and brought her hand back as Mina laughed at her. 

"Uh, they feel rough." Jeongyeon groaned.

"That's what she said~" Dahyun leaned forward and pointed and winked at Jeongyeon as most rolled their eyes and Jeongyeon sighed in response.

"Hehehe~" Momo giggled at Dahyun's joke along with Dahyun herself.

"You two are literally made for each other." Jihyo shook her head as Momo hugged Dahyun's arm.

"And I'm lucky we are~" Momo taunted as Dahyun turned, smiled at her and the two shared a quick peck on the lips as they turned back to the rays.

Chaeyoung, being on Momo's left, gave a soft smile at the interaction.

'That could be (YN) and I...'

"It's like sandpaper covered with goo or something," you explained as your fingers glided across the rays as they swam by.

"Yeah, that describes it." Chaeyoung agreed with you.

Both Dahyun and Momo were feeling as many as they could, smiles plastered on their faces, as Jeongyeon told them to be careful.

"This feels weird," Nayeon noted as some nodded.

"I thought they are smooth," Sana spoke up.

"Guess not," Mina said as she took a step back, feeling enough of the fish.

"That's it then?" Tzuyu took a step back as well as most nodded, feeling content.

"Yeah, let's continue," Jihyo commanded the group as they continued forward with Sana, Dahyun, and Momo waving bye at the rays.

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The group walked past booths and exhibits about ocean life, the environment, and small displays of sea creatures as you ten ventured deeper into the aquarium. They take a slow stroll past each exhibit, still holding hands and reading the descriptions, and trying to match them to the brightly colored fish.

You passed tanks filled with smaller creatures such as jellyfish, tropical fish of all colors and sizes, eels, turtles, and even sea horses. You held hands with Chaeyoung the whole time as you ten were in a line of some sort traversing through the place in five pairs.

"Oooh!"

The two couples in the back and front turned to the couple in the middle with mild looks on their faces. 

Sana had gasped, brought her hands up to her face, and was looking ahead of her with childlike fascination. And in a moment that got all eight's attention, she turned to Mina, speaking adamantly.

"Ahh! MINA! The otters are next!" Mina saw other poeple turn as Mina patted Sana's back.

"Sana sweetie, relax."

"Hey, you'd be the same when the penguins are next." Sana teased and tapped Mina's slim torso as Mina huffed.

"She's right you know." Dahyun agreed as Momo nodded.

"Sigh...I know." Mina muttered as the girls smiled at Sana's enthusiasm and Mina's mellowed tone.

Chaeyoung then turned to you as you shrugged and gave a smile to her as Chaeyoung smiled back.

"How are you doing?" She asked as you nodded.

"Good, not as good as Sana though." You joked as Chaeyoung chuckled.

"Hehe, yeah, she's pretty excited...but how about you being around..." She waved her other hand and gestured it to the tanks as you looked at one with several catfishes in it.

"I mean, it's not really bothering me, but there were small thoughts about this." Your hand was squeezed slightly for Chaeyoung to show her support.

"Well, I'm right here with you okay." She stated as you nodded at her. "And if you want to leave, we could wait in the lobby."

"No, it's okay, I'll be fine. Just, be with me alright?" You asked as Chaeyoung hummed.

"As if I would leave you (YN)." She responded and while that was a more direct answer, you smiled and nodded at her. "But are you having fun at least?" She asked.

"Oh yeah, I'm having fun, hanging out with everyone here. Plus the animals are pretty cool to see and learn about." Chaeyoung nodded. That was what she hoped for.

You and Chaeyoung kept a steady pace as you walked alongside her and suddenly Sana pointed at a room ahead of them.

The pathway, bordered by various tanks and signs with information on aquatic wildlife, led up and around a large circular room with a large pool surrounded by a thick glass wall as quite a few people, like the stingrays, were pressed against the glass.

Sana, Dahyun, Momo threw themselves against an opening for them on the glass wall, resting their chins on the cold water as they stared down at the otters.

In everyone's eyes, was pure adoring bliss.

"Aren't they adorable, (YN)?" You nodded as you cautiously walked up to the glass as Chaeyoung walked closer with you as well. "Look at them all swimming around and having fun."

With her other hand, Chaeyoung pressed her hand against the glass wall. 

The otters glided across the water like nothing as they twirled amongst each other and you even smiled at the interactions.

'They are having a lot of fun...swimming is relaxing to them.'

...then...

"Look! Look! They're looking at us!"

Nayeon was right as a couple of them went towards your group.

Where the otters had been blissfully ignorant to the people's presence around them, now they were all looking in the direction of you and Chaeyoung. 

The former's brow furrowed. 

One seal, in particular, seemed to be looking right at you. Right into your eyes as you focused back. 

The otter was, without a doubt, staring directly at you. 

You expected it to be a passing gaze; a momentary glance, but no. 

The otter continued to stare deep into your eyes. Each of your friends glanced at you as they saw your other hand rising on the glass wall.

You could hear the crowds murmuring as the otter looked at your hand. 

"That's so cute~" Sana spoke up.

Chaeyoung gave a large smile at the scene and then she saw your expression.

A smile was on yours as well and Chaeyoung's instantly felt glee uprising in herself, she hadn't seen you smile when you were around the pool water.

Well, she has, but due to her jokes and talks.

This one, this one was on your own.

The otter then, swam away, having you lower your hand as you watched a couple of others join the one that was with you.

"That was awesome (YN)." Chaeyoung hummed as you kept your eyes on the otter.

"Yeah, it was." The girls on your right smiled at your smile as well. 

As you ten continued to stare, your thoughts frayed to your early childhood, before the incident as you remembered playing in kiddie pools and the tub full of water.

Believe it or not, you loved the water before the beach incident.

Something about being in the cool liquid was soothing when you wanted and fun when it needed to be.

 'That's how fun I remembered I had...'

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TIMESKIP - TWO HOURS LATER

It's been just over a couple of hours and the day progressed much as you'd expected it to. 

There was a lot of herding. 

A lot of standing.

 A lot of moving slowly from one area to the next. 

A lot of trying to find Momo and Dahyun from running excitedly towards anything that moved with Jihyo and Jeongyeon watching over them and Sana kept sneaking off to do something as Mina was caretaker for her.

Still, it did gave you a bit of fun to see the others enjoying themselves and to be honest, you had fun as well.

There was an area that took your group through the rain forests of South America, where you ten encountered a fourteen-foot anaconda, piranhas, caiman, desert insects, tree boas, electric eels, tree frogs and some giant Amazon creatures that you ten didn't think you'd ever seen.

Another area where it went through the deepest depth of the ocean and it was pitch dark that even Dahyun was scared to come in. It was to represent their world with little to no light, and no solid boundaries. The water temperatures were close to freezing and it had animals that seemed extraterrestrial in anglerfish and viperfish. Suffice to say, it wasn't one that the girls weren't coming back to anytime.

The Antarctica area was the last place to stop, much to Mina's misery, but luckily for her, it was after this one exhibit that she led the group to.

"Okay so this one is called, "Open Ocean" and it's supposed to be their biggest exhibit yet," Mina spoke as she pointed at the map.

"Biggest? Is that where the whale is?" Nayeon asked behind her as Mina hummed.

"Probably. Just says be amazed by walking alongside the largest sea life here." Mina tapped the description on the paper as Nayeon nodded. 

A FEW MOMENTS LATER

"And if I'm right, the guide says that the exhibit is right through...here..."

Mina and Sana stopped as each person behind stopped as well.

"Oh..."

You and Chaeyoung being last stopped as well and your breath hitched.

You gulped at the minuscule tunnel of water and each girl realized that this was a shark tunnel made for people to simulate they were at the bottom of the ocean and that thought alone caused each girl to either turn back or to the side towards you as you stared down the hall.

Chaeyoung was prepared to aid you if you needed it.

"Is this the only way Mina?" Jihyo said looking at the map as other guests went through the tunnel.

"There's another, but...yeah it's another tunnel it looks like." Mina pointed at the map and Jihyo turned to you.

"(YN)?" 

You nodded.

"It'll be fine Jihyo. Besides, I wouldn't mind seeing what they have at the "Open Ocean"." You mustered a smile as the girls glanced at one another.

They wanted to support you, but for some, with this tunnel, they guess you'd be reliving that moment from what you told them. 

I mean it literally looks like they were walking under the water.

"Alright let's get to it." Momo's raised her fist and caused the girls to look at her.

"Yeah, I'm eager to see what's at the end." Dahyun joined as you smiled at their agreement right away.

Each girl nodded as they respected your decision, but they would be wary of you.

"Alright then, let's go in." Jihyo spoke for the group as Mina and Sana went inside first, followed by the 2yeon couple, JiTzu and lastly DahMo.

Chaeyoung stepped forward in front of you.

"You sure?" You nodded, "okay, if you feel off, tell me, close your eyes and we'll go straight through okay?" You nodded as Chaeyoung led you through. 

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Again PART 3 will be up in just a bit.

Tumblr block count was exceeded.

Sorry.

#twice #son chaeyoung #reader x chaeyoung

[dukeofdelirium]

The sheer scope of Aang's loss is terrifying to think about sometimes (all the time). He didn't just lose the air nomads -tho it's his most personal and devastating loss- he's lost everything. Most plants and animals went extinct, the places he knows are in ruins. He lost the four nations as he once knew them, the friends he made, the festivals he went to, the peace and harmony he lived in. The slang, the references, the dances he knows are something of the past, now scoffed at. No matter how much he remembers, how much is restored, there's still so much lost to time. Aang was taken from a time of peace (before being told he's the avatar anyway, and the war silently brewing) to a war-torn age.

And he has Appa and Momo and Bumi from his old life and all the gaang, of course, but it's just so tragic on so many levels.

The fact he chooses kindness again and again and again in the face of all what was taken from him.... that he chooses life and peace, to make amends, and follow the teachings of his people.... that he forgives.... Aang is actually the greatest character ever, and someone needs to drown him in hugs.

I know 😭😭😭 Aang is such an important character to me and he is so near and dear to my heart. I absolutely adore him and his character arc.

The fact he had unconditional love for the world even tho that same world took everything from him. The fact he did all of the things he did for others never asking for anything in return. The fact everyone tried to get him to give up the last of his culture and he put his foot down and said “no. YOU move” .. who is doing it like him? King

“But he never let it destroy his spirit. He chose to find meaning in his suffering, and eventually found peace.” When Katara said this in TLoK I threw up and died btw. Also when Aang said “It’s easy to do nothing, but it’s hard to forgive.” ten year old me felt that and I never really stopped feeling it.

We should all be a little more like Aang. He is the most special boy ever and he deserves the entire world and also 100 trillion dollars.

#Aang #avatar the last airbender #atla #anon #aanglove #aang appreciation #pro Aang

[ingravinoveritas]

Hello, lovely followers. I was traveling for work again in the second half of this past week, but I'm now home and looking forward to answering all of your Asks that I've been seeing in my inbox. I first wanted to reflect a little bit, however, because this trip was also a personal one for me.

This week's travels took me to Anaheim, California, which is where Disneyland is (I think I actually must've not been far from where David and Georgia just were, funnily enough, as my hotel was right by the park). It wasn't my first trip to Anaheim, though. The last time I was there was when I was 11 years old, on summer vacation with my dad in California while my mom was on a tour in Italy at the same time. As you'd expect, my dad wanted to take me to Disneyland...but I was too scared and overwhelmed, and we only ever got as far as the parking lot. The gates were visible, and I remember how they loomed, that feeling of something foreboding washing over me...but rather than excitement, my tiny body was filled with dread. I mentioned this while in conversation with one of the hotel employees during my stay, and he said, "What kind of kid doesn't want to go to Disney?"

What kind of a kid. Well, an autistic kid. A kid who was constantly anxious, emotional, and terrified of sensory overload. A kid who hated crowds and noise and rides. A kid who didn't travel well to begin with, because she was afraid of new places, anything unfamiliar, anything that wasn't safe and home.

A kid who was me.

Even before this, there were so many ways that the world had said "This is not for you." But still, there was something different about it happening there, in the bright California sunshine. My favorite Disney princess as a kid was always Belle, because she also loved to read and didn't fit in with the people around her. Belle connected more with books and animals than people, and that made me connect with her. But Belle was also beautiful (as Disney princesses tend to be), and thanks to the bullying from my peers, I was very aware that was something I was not. So no matter how much I wanted to be Belle, there was no way I could ever be a Disney princess.

This is not for you.

Thinking about all of this during my trip made me feel so many things, but I was most surprised to find myself feeling a sense of nostalgia in particular, a longing for the child I was, who I wish I could comfort. It also made me feel such sadness for that child and anyone else who finds themselves in a situation or a place where the world thinks they should be happy, but they're not. And there are few things more difficult than feeling that way in (of all places) "the happiest place on Earth."

I didn't end up going to Disney on this trip, even though I had a little bit of time to do so. It's still not for me, but the difference now is that I am okay with that. That need to be the kid who wants to visit Disney--the "good" child, the child who isn't "broken"--has gone away, and I'm more than happy being adult me, and finding a place that fits me, instead of the other way around.

And that was my nostalgia trip, in quite the literal sense of the phrase. I have a picture or two to share in another post, so stay tuned for that as well...

#personal post #autism #disneyland #of course this happens during World Autism Month #so my emotions were a little all over the place #reflections #reflections from the road #childhood #thoughts #nostalgia #thank you all you lovely people for being here #<3

[hariboz]

“forget? you?” — shb x gen!reader

a little something i wrote to get back into my writing flow!

ex!hanbin has been plaguing my mind for a while now. the type to make the heart wrenching decision to break up with you to follow his dreams in hopes of finding what he wanted in the spotlight, ready to sacrifice the comfort of your embrace to chase what he has been dreaming of for years.

“thank you for always being by my side, but i don’t know if i can be happy if i don’t try one last time. i don’t want to break your heart, angel, but will you let me go?”

and you did. of course you did, how could you not? you could always see the sparkle in his eyes when he showed you a new choreography he made, the longing in his gaze when watching others dance on the same stages he could only dream of being on. you knew he was happy with you, you knew he loved you. he was happy, loved and comfortable, yet unfulfilled. because while you would give him every single star in the night sky if you could, no amount of your love would sustain his desire to become the shiniest star of them all himself.

so you let him go, gave him your blessing and told him to better make it to the top so your love was not given up in vain.

you had never seen hanbin cry so much before.

“i promise, angel. i’ll carry you with me in my heart.”

and truth be told, ex!hanbin held his promise. he made it. a leader, a highly sought after visual, a mc, a vocalist.

he’s not your binnie anymore. he’s not the one waking up an hour before your alarm to make you breakfast anymore. he’s not picking you up from work with that sweet smile and a smoothie in his hand. he doesn’t try to teach you his choreos anymore. he doesn’t giggle at you while fixing your hair anymore.

on days where it’s especially hard you catch yourself wishing you had refused, had kept him close to you. had begged him to stay back, to not sacrifice all the serene happiness you shared; but then you snap back to reality, the realisation that these selfish thoughts keep crawling their way up making you feel guilty.

it’s a sick twist of fate, you think, when you happen to walk past a wall of support ads for him plastered along your way. you don’t know whether to laugh or cry; whether you should be elated he is receiving an amount of love you could never have given him or whether you should be hurt and bitter that all this meant more to him than you seemingly ever did.

it’s not fair to compare like that, you know that, but it’s not like he’s there to defend himself. he’s never there anymore.

in your inner frenzy, the internal fight between wanting to support the man you still love oh so deeply and the selfish wish to have kept him for yourself, you bump into someone, misty eyes barely focused enough to notice the person in front of you.

you look up briefly to apologise, wanting nothing more than to get away from this overstimulating throwback to your better times, only to realise that the devil — angel — himself is standing right there.

right there, in front of you. sung hanbin. your binnie.

you know it’s him immediately despite the mask he’s wearing. the all too familiar sparkle in his eyes and his pretty lashes that you know all too well blinking back at you in shock, his eyes desperately darting over your face in an attempt to drink in every little change and detail.

you’re just about to speak when he turns at the sound of his name, which is when you finally realise the crowd standing not too far away, observing him like hawks and pointing their phones at him.

right. he’s idol binnie now.

so you bow politely and leave, trying your best to manoeuvre through the crowd. your heart is beating in your ears, your thoughts all jumbled and confused. you haven’t seen him in so long. not in person, anyways, and now you’re running away? what else could you have done?

it’s like you’re on autopilot, not even noticing you’ve made your way back home until you’re stood in front of your apartment. it’s then when you’re about to unlock your door, planning to crawl into bed and never come back out, that your phone vibrates.

first once, then twice.

“i don’t know if you want to talk to me anymore, but i was happy to see you today. even if it was really short.”

“i miss you.”

“you didn’t forget?”

“forget? you?”

“i could never. i love you.”

”did you ever think about dating an idol?”

ex!hanbin who, i think, would give it all up to follow his dream only to realise every single version of his future had you in it. and now he’s here, trying to win you back, hoping it’s not too late. because ex!hanbin is not only a romantic, but also in love. deeply, unabashedly in love.

#maise’s notes ! #trying to get back into the writing flow 🫶🏻 #this is very dramatic for no reason but that’s where my fingers took me lol #zb1 #zerobaseone #sung hanbin #zb1 fluff #zb1 imagines #zb1 scenarios #zb1 x reader #zb1 hanbin #hanbin x reader #hanbin fluff #hanbin scenarios #zb1 angst #hanbin imagines #zerobaseone scenarios #zerobaseone x reader #zerobaseone hanbin #hanbin

[a-dumb-sarcastic-bisexual]

More headcanons about Anakin and Ahsoka being menaces to the general public

I feel like both Anakin and Ahsoka react to being sick in similar ways and by reacting in similar ways I mean they do everything in their power to ignore the fact that they’re sick 

Which is funny because they both get annoyed when the other refuses to accept that they’re sick Ahsoka will take any hint that Anakin gives her that his condition is failing and runs with it 

Man could breathe different way and she’s like “Master it sounds like you’re sick maybe you should lay down and let me take over” to which Anakin refuses 

Ahsoka’s just as bad because Anakin tries his best to take care of her without letting her know he’s onto her 

But of course she’s not stupid and can tell when he’s being more of a helicopter sibling than normal and calls him on it 

God forbid they get sick at the same time because they just spend the whole time trying to take care of each other 

And god forbid they get sick at the same time when Obi-Wan is around cause then they just turn into whiny children 

Like no seriously it’s like a switch goes off in their brains that renders them into beings incapable of fixing their blankets 

Obi-Wan obliges because what dad would stop taking care of their kid depending on the age 

Honestly my brain kinda leaned into Ahsoka’s chaotic younger sister energy with this one 

But I love the idea that she will just sneak attack Anakin and Obi-Wan 

Most of her “sneak attacks” go something like this: Anakin walking down the hall minding his business when Ahsoka drops down from the ceiling 

But before she can land on him he sidesteps and grabs her by the collar before she can hit the floor which results in Ahsoka moaning and groaning that she “Almost got him that time” and Anakin grumbles back that the only thing that “almost got her” was a black eye

He does have to admit that her random seak attacks have made her better at climbing 

Sometimes she’ll walk up behind Obi-Wan and try to cover his eyes but most of the time all she gets is his shoulders 

Most of the time it doesn’t even slow the man down he just keeps walking while asking her about her day and how classes are going 

But as she gets older she’s able to mask her presence better and manages to sneak up on the men once or twice�� 

Obi wan is always willing to admit defeat and congratulates her on her well earned victory 

Anakin blames it on his age and that’s the only time that Ahsoka will ever hear him admit to being “old” (he’s 30) 

It’s an ongoing joke that you shouldn’t separate Ahsoka and Anakin some say you risk a limb if you try others say you’re risking your life what most don’t mention is how you’re risking your sanity 

Because they become the most annoying motherfuckers when they’re apart 

Ahsoka acts like they’ve been separated for 10 years and will tell stories like she’s reminiscing about the good old times but most of the time the people she tells the stories to were present for the events so it goes something like this:

“Hey Rex do you remember when me and Anakin threw someone into that lake those were the days” “Yes I do remember that commander because I was that person and it was a week ago”

In his defense that’s the fifth story she told him in the past hour and here was there for all of them

Anakin’s just as bad but for a different reason because all he does is overthink

Like don’t get me wrong he keeps up the “cool guy” personality before she leaves but the second she’s gone he’ll sprinkle little questions into normal conversations like “Do you think she packed warm enough?” “Do they have enough emergency rations?”  “Did anyone make sure that ship was up to code before they left?”

He made sure she packed for every single weather possible, he packed enough rations for two weeks even tho they were supposed to be gone for two days, and he checked the ship before they left 

Sometimes Anakin or Ahsoka will just walk into each other's room and hang out they don't do much they kinda just sit down and talk 

Sometimes they have a silent but mutual understanding to leave the room and go bother Obi-Wan in his 

I love the idea that Obi-Wan and Anakin are victims of Ahsoka’s undying fascination with human hair she loves when their hair is long and encourages them to grow it out longer so she has more to work with 

She all but falls to her knees when she sees how long Padme’s hair is and she’s the creator of some of Padme’s funkier hairstyles (both Anakin and Padme make a small note to force Ahsoka to do their future kid's hair)

She’s also weirded out by facial hair so every single time Obi-Wan shaves or Anakin tries to grow a beard they’re treated like a different person entirely 

It took them a while to figure out why but once they did they lost their minds laughing (and also made silent vows not to do it again cause it freaked her out)

People often say it’s like Ahsoka and Anakin can read each other's minds without using the force 

Some people find it hard to believe but it’s pretty easy to tell when people are having conversations through their bond and when two people are having a conversation just with looks

It’s not an uncommon sight for them to shoot each other looks after someone says something a little bold and for both of them to be laughing by the end of it 

It’s just as common for them to get into little arguments and finish it in complete and total silence before one of them finally gives in with a huff 

It’s kinda freaky but they don’t seem to notice and everyone around them is too used to it to care

#star wars #the clone wars #star wars clone wars #star wars headcanons #ahsoka tano #anakin skywalker #obi wan kenobi #padmé amidala #captain rex #ahsoka and anakin #snips and skyguy #disaster siblings #they put poor obi wan through the ringer #that man needs a vacation from them #his blood pressure has been through the roof since they met #rex always suffers when they're separated #so does Padme but she's a better sport about it #this show has taken over my brain #and my google docs #like someone free me

[em-writes-stuff-sometimes]

Please see the original post. Thank you to @queen--kenobi for sharing it with me.

You are correct and so very justified in this.

I have been hateful to others. I have been woefully complicit in the racial harassment of a POC user @themotherofblood—a girl who is so very young to have received the horror she did—and the harassment of several other members of the community during my acquaintanceship with Bel and Fae, in a manner that is at best cowardly and at worst morally and fundamentally reprehensible. I have behaved in a manner that is disgusting, deplorable, wrong on every level of measurement.

I either ignored the mention of or laugh-reacted at conveyance of numerous anons Bel and Fae reported themselves as having sent. I continued in conversation as they made lengthy, detailed insults about other users, offering no criticism of the behaviour. I said nothing while people experienced their frustration over receiving hate. I let my anger and paranoia fuel me into creating an entirely new Discord account for the sole purpose of ensuring that others weren’t committing the very same behaviours I was allowing against me. I created a burner account to retrieve “evidence” from another blog to support my statements, violating their right to feel entitled to privacy. I never once voiced suspicions over other anons I privately attributed to Bel and Fae due to the similarities in their cadence and seeming motivation. I fell into the most toxic cesspit of groupthink and let others direct my appalling behaviour without acknowledging the fact that as an adult, the only one in control of my behaviour should be myself. My entitlement gave me the illusion that my suffering during my time in fandom excused me from doing my moral duty to this community and to society. And, perhaps the most damning of it all, it was not until I was personally motivated by my own selfish fear and anxiety that I finally abandoned the source of so much hate.

It didn’t end there. I continued to say nothing, days and weeks and months after the fallout. I did not act quickly in the wake of the fallout. I sat, silent, complicit, soundless while the hate rampaged on.

Thank you to @/witheredoffherwitch for a thoughtful and well-articulated call-out of things I was too arrogant to see within the scope of my own circle. I deserved the things said, and I should have been far less up my own arse to see this for myself. I will not make any kind of excuse here. This is not the place for it.

I definitely do suck ass. I am and have historically been a petty, mean loser. I am a hypocrite, an asshole, and a piece of shit for the way I have behaved. I have done a great deal of harm in publicising the things I have, and even more in having ever been involved in the first place. Your lives are not sport for our entertainment. You’re real people too, just the same as me.

I will very much try to do better and be far more strong-willed in future. I will be kinder and devote my energy to being someone that no longer resembles a piece of human crap. Whether that be a journey I take with or without the people I have met and adored along the way, that is what must be. I want to get back to writing, but actively ensure I do not simply “leave this experience in the past”. It is something I need to carry ahead with me as a reminder of the damage I have done and the very many people I have hurt and disappointed.

I am going to try. It doesn’t make it right. It doesn’t make it okay.

#hotd fandom drama

[cocogum]

Yugo should feel weirded out by Echo.

I am so confused about Echo’s whole deal with Oropo mainly because of what Oropo is supposed to be.

Isn’t she aware that he looks like Yugo??? So many people around her say that he does, even Yugo said the same thing to Adamaï back when they were both stuck in the Inglorium.

Like if people around Echo keep saying that he looks like a copy-paste, then she should be able to know the similarities too. There’s no way she couldn’t have been aware cuz she’s been with Oropo the longest and was practically his diary for all these millenniums.

And here’s why it bothers me so much.

SHE SHOULD KNOW.

The fact that she and him have been in a relationship too is extremely odd cuz she KNOWS she’s essentially screwing with one of Yugo’s alter egos….

It’s obvious that Oropo and her have done things….cuz like…the bed scene in Season 3 implied it.

So…yeah.

I wish Echo could’ve talked to Yugo at least once in Season 3 but the two never interacted. The only two instances where they’ve been somewhat in the same scene were when Eva had given birth to Pin and when they both saw Oropo and Amalia kissing. So even if they were in the same place at the same time, these two never even spoke to each other let alone glanced at one another.

Like I really want Yugo to be weirded out by this lol. To know that a random eniripsa demigoddess has been screwing with one of his copies.

Oropo even says these in S4 EP1: “Here you are, whole again.” And “We are a part of you.”

So when I say Echo has been plowing a part of Yugo this whole time, I’m not exaggerating. She was literally doing that.

Also here’s another thing, when Yugo had finally accepted the eliotropes to be parts of himself, that meant he was able to see what their lives had been like, to know who they were, and what they’d gone through. So wouldn’t that technically mean that he also saw memories of Oropo with Echo? We did see how Yugo got a glimpse of Oropo and Echo’s kiss right before the bomb exploded so that would imply Yugo saw everything.

How does he feel? Isn’t he weirded out???

I get that Season 4 didn’t have everything explained because of the damn budget but even if they did have it, I wouldn’t be surprised if Ankama wouldn’t dig deeper into this.

It’s just completely random to think about but it still exists. It’s still something that Yugo can think about, reflect on, and try to process what he just understood.

Toross is one thing to have been harassed by but being indirectly harassed by a demigoddess eniripsa is another thing entirely.

Bro technically got jumped by two divinities help-

Like no shade on Echo but girl what are you doing.

Like just picture this and pretend the same thing happened to you:

You’re 21 years old but you came to find out that not only did you accidentally create a whole race entirely composed of fragments of YOUR SPIRIT, but one of those fragments ended up getting into all sorts of shenanigans with some demigoddess who you had never met in your life.

And I know you’re gonna say: “But Oropo is his own person, he has thoughts and feelings too. That’s why he was able to love someone who wasn’t in his creator’s life, making him carve his own path to his destiny! 😫😫”

Gurl.

That’s putting feelings over logic.

Oropo is a PART of YUGO. Oropo doesn’t even disagree with that either. He doesn’t correct Yugo when he tells him that they’re supposed to be the same person.

Like I said before, he literally tells Yugo that all the eliotropes are parts of him, literal alter egos.

Without Yugo, he can’t live.

Without Yugo, he can’t think.

Without Yugo, he can’t be.

He literally cannot exist on his own because he is a part of Yugo. That’s why the majority of eliotropes can’t live for very long because their main core, Yugo, isn’t with them. That’s why Oropo tried to morph into Yugo so he could live longer.

Also, eliotropes can’t help but feel everything Yugo feels too: “We all cherish them as much as you do but nothing belonged to us." - Oropo in S3 to Yugo. It’s like an instinct, a force that they can’t control, they can’t help themselves but go with the feeling.

So again, Echo, what were you thinking??

Not only did you know Oropo would have a much shorter life span than you if he didn’t have access to the Eliacube and the eliatrope dofus (which would still be a pain to use for him), but you knew that he was essentially an exact copy of a person who had created him by accident, AND has a tendency of leaning towards that very same person’s desires more than he can help himself. Even his freaking name (which means “to rest” in French) wants to be at peace aka join Yugo.

Oropo declared he wasn’t going to see the day when his brotherhood become gods because he will die soon. Echo should’ve known, out of anyone, that the time would have come eventually.

So here’s the thing: since Echo knew he was going to die soon, and he was the last of his kind, she knew that Oropo’s life expectancy would go back to Yugo’s body.

Then what? What would she do?? Do nothing and weep?? She was his second-in-command and she truly did love him, so what would she do after that? Become the Eniripsa goddess without expecting to ever see him again??

I don’t think she planned that far.

She should’ve been more aware that falling in love with the COPY of a person who would die before you never ends well.

Again, the eliotropes are not saying that they want to be their own selves. They are perfectly fine accepting what they are and want to be acknowledged by Yugo.

That was the sole reason why they all appeared before Yugo when he was getting tortured by Toross. That was the main goal, to be acknowledged.

So Echo, why???

Like genuinely, did love blind you that much???

Also imagine if she actually ended up joining the others in the Inglorium unwillingly….

What are you gonna do, kneel before Yugo and tell him to bring Oropo back???

Literally what???

Someone has gotta tell me how her relationship works with Oropo.

#wakfu #ankama #krosmoz #wakfu yugo #yugo #wakfu season 4 #wakfu s4 #wakfu echo #wakfu lady echo #lady echo #echo #wakfu season 3 #wakfu s3 #wakfu oropo #oropo #wakfu oropo x echo #oropo x echo #yugo wakfu

[crispylilworm]

last i’m posting about this xoxo sorry about the watcher spam recently but i feel the need to put my 2 cents in since my opinion on this doesn’t align with the vocal majority on this site

gotta admit my first youtuber drama experience was a 0/10 not because of what the creators did but solely because of the insanity of the fandom. because…wow. i have never seen a group of people throw around demands and accusations of betrayal in such a dramatic way lol. maybe i’m in the minority here but i felt the majority of responses and criticism just were any lacking basis at all.

my first thoughts with the announcement were literally “oh good for them new streaming service, i won’t be going for it, but maybe after a few months i’ll consider paying for a 1-time sub to catch up on everything”. sure some disappointment i wouldn’t get regular updates but overall excited for the new content this pay structure would give them the flexibility to create.

maybe because i didn’t get into youtubers until the pandemic when watcher was already it’s own independent thing i don’t have that same (*cough cough* parasocial) level of connection, just really enjoy the videos they put out. maybe because i go through subscription-of-the-month stints of paying for a patreon or twitch or other creator channel and rotate what i watch, this didn’t feel outrageous to me. i hate the subscription world we live in so i go out of my way to never pay more than a strict budget limit per month because that’s my ability and that’s my mentality on this. i thought at best maybe i’d consider rotating this in when they put out more.

don’t like the idea of it? you don’t have to pay for it. can’t afford it? i understand the disappointment from this aspect but creators don’t actually owe you anything for free - even if it was free in the past. overall and for whatever reasoning you have: it wasn’t that deep.

if anything i am in a way thankful that they rescinded on their decision because that means me & others will continue to enjoy videos for free. but overall i’m disappointed that this means they’re sacrificing their own creative wants and financial needs of whatever they had planned. we won’t actually know the extent of what, if anything, this prevents them from creating because y’all wouldn’t even let them attempt to try this next phase out.

fans saying “well we don’t want high-budget content” well maybe they want to explore more than what they’re currently able to do? maybe they want to create more beyond their buzzfeed-format videos they know will rack in views from the nostalgia-obsessed side of the fans? i, too, personally love their humor and would just enjoy them chatting and being silly, but i do also think this holds them back. remember those hilarious self-made commercials from their most recent videos? that's probably just a glimpse of what new flavors of content they’re able to think up.

this whole fan response was just disappointing (and pretty scary ngl) to me, and i know saying that is like kicking a hornets nest but i really think if they continued with the plans from their original announcement it would have been ok. i actually think it would have been more than ok! but the response imploded so hard i’m sure we’ll never see them try something new again lol.

my personal thoughts are that if your opinion in any way revolved around something they “owe” to fans, feelings of “betrayal”, thinking they’re “sell outs” for wanting to transition to paid content - i think you really need to take a step back and reflect, and i mean that with zero malice. watcher is a business, not your friends, not “the boys”, not your guaranteed source of a specific type of content either. ultimately they made a business decision that they thought would help them grow that would have either succeeded or failed, that's it. for better or worse, we wont get to watch that play out.

i will continue my quiet enjoyment of their videos, and happily move on past what i frankly think was the most unnecessary internet drama i’ve seen in a minute lol. the takes overall were dumb but tame, i only blocked a handful of accounts for posting things i thought were totally out of line that i won't get into but i'm sure you've either seen or heard people discussing.

i didn't even get in to my hot takes lol like how this plays into the dangerous trend of the expectation of art to be free....and the overall devaluing of creatives and why AI is thriving in these areas...but ill defend that thesis another day lol. y'all aren't ready for that.

#watcher #my thoughts #long post #putting this in read more so yall dont jump me lmao #overall conclusion is #its not that deep

[buddiebeginz]

Rewatching that Zach Sang interview with Oliver makes me more convinced than ever that Buddie is coming. The question about Buddie was at the end of the interview and it didn't really feel like an organic question more like something maybe they were requested to ask about.

I mean why not ask Oliver what the future of Buck and T*mmy is considering he's the one Buck is actually dating right now? And like I said in a previous post about this Oliver could have answered this many different ways in an effort to not get people’s hopes up. It just feels like they're trying to get the audience ready for Buddie by talking about them so much. They talk about Buddie in pretty much every 911 interview about the show lately. This wouldn’t be happening if the intention was for Eddie to be straight and Buddie was never going to be a possibility. The focus would be exclusively on Buck and T*mmy and while they have gotten some focus because of Buck’s coming out and that’s who he’s dating there’s always stuff about Buddie and Eddie. Tim and Oliver and the rest know how popular Buddie is, if it wasn’t happening I truly think they’d try and distance themselves and Buck from that. Obviously you want fans to tune in but you also don't want fans expecting something that's never going to happen because people will just get frustrated and tune out.

They very intentionally made Buck's coming out connected to Eddie in such a huge way that if Buddie wasn't happening I find it next to impossible that not one person would have looked at the script especially for 7x04 and said hey maybe we shouldn't feature Eddie so heavily in this episode when so many people want to see these characters in a relationship.

Plus everything that Lou has been saying too leads me to believe he's not staying beyond this season. Like I know some of you really like him and like him and Buck together but nothing the show has been telling us and nothing the actors etc are telling us gives me the impression he's being set up to be a long term love interest.

I also think when you look at Buck in some ways he's almost the main character of the show. I know it's an ensemble show and I know more experienced actors like Angela Bassett and Peter Krause get a lot of attention but if you go back an watch earlier seasons a lot of storylines are from Buck's pov to a certain extent. Plus there isn't another character that we've watched grow and change as much as we have Buck. My point is considering Buck is such a central character of the show (and an extremely popular one at that) I find it highly unlikely they're going to just stick him with any ol love interest as his endgame ship. Especially now that Tim is back as showrunner he's expressed that he didn't really like some of Buck and Eddie's past relationships.

Oliver has also talked in interviews about how Buck is going to have to work at his next relationship and I don't see that as being with T*mmy. He hasn't really had to put any work into this thing with him. He liked T*mmy and now they're dating. Same as with any other relationship he's been in. Oliver literally said that is how all of Buck's relationships have been. He likes a person and he gets that person and he said this season that is supposed to change for Buck.

The thing that will be different I think is when Buck finally realizes he's in love with Eddie and has to deal with that. I also wonder if Buck is going to have to work to prove to Eddie he wants to be with him. Eddie has been there loving and supporting Buck for years but then you had Buck saying (last season) that Natalia (this women who he just met) saw him in a way no one else does. Which I think had to have hurt Eddie on some level.

I also wonder if Eddie, once he truly realizes his feelings for Buck will be hesitant to change their relationship. Eddie has historically chosen romantic partners he doesn't allow himself to get too invested in, I think so he doesn't have to be afraid of losing them like he and Chris lost Shannon. I also think that Buck actually dying for a few minutes when he was struck by lightning brought all of this up even more for Eddie. Buck has been the one constant in Eddie and Chris' life and I wonder how Eddie will deal with things as the relationship is changing. I think he'll be afraid of losing Buck and resistant at first so I see a lot of areas where the show can take things to have Buck be the one to fight for Eddie and for them to be together.

There's also the fact that Buddie parallels Bathena, Madney, and Henren all the time. The show has a history of these epic ships while Buck and Eddie have for so long been in these lackluster relationships that go nowhere with partners that are not their equals. The deserve to have a great love story every bit as much as the other characters and that's clearly with each other.

#sorry this got rambly just had a lot of thoughts #911! #buddie

[deeneedsaname]

Megamind Sequel, animation, and the apparently-forgotten era of CGI shows

Alright guys, buckle up, it’s time to talk about Megamind and the sequel/show!

Let’s start with the basics: two new additions to the Megamind world are coming out: a tv show called “Megamind Rules!”, and a sequel movie, Megamind Vs the Doom Syndicate. Obviously, the first thing everyone noticed was the animation quality lacking in comparison to the first movie. Then, people quickly reacted either agreeing or complaining that people were complaining, etc.

Yes. The animation is not as good as the movie, or as good as what people have come to expect from CGI nowadays. This is NOT the fault of the animators, obviously!

But I think we can all temper our reactions by remembering a few key points!

This sequel is not the grand ‘Megamind 2’ people have been dreaming of. Will Farrel is not voicing Megamind and the animation looks funky, I know. Therefore, we can’t think of this as a movie going to theaters, but a sort of direct-to-tv/direct-to-dvd sequel. Think Cinderella 2, Ice Age Buck Wild, Aladdin 2: The Return of Jafar, etc!

To put the expectations of the Megamind 2 of our dreams on this movie and series is unfair to it. This is the equivalent of a direct-to-DVD disney sequel that you didn’t hear about until I years later and were like ‘wait, there’s a Tarzan 2???’ in the middle of a drug store (that was a shocking day.) Enjoy it for what it is!!

2. The modern CGI animation consumer has been spoiled rotten. Yes, that includes lots of animation enthusiasts! Back in the day, particularly in the 2010s, ‘poorly’ animated TV shows based on a popular movie were pretty common, ESPECIALLY for dreamworks! Meet some of the examples:

Kung-Fu Panda, Legends of Awesomeness

Aliens Versus Monsters

Penguins of Madagascar

This is NOT a knock on those shows, especially on their quality. Personally, I think Penguins of Madagascar had great animation quality, especially in the later seasons. CGI animation for television is a different beast and doesn’t have the same budget as a movie. (Also, Penguins Of Madagascar show was fantastic, 10/10, no notes, INCREDIBLE music changed lives etc etc.)

Nowadays, CGI animated shows have animation quality comparable to movies, including some Dreamworks ones, such as Kung Fu Panda show Paws of Destiny, or Cars on the Road, the really fun cars short series!

3. The good points!! There is a lot to like about this! The Doom Syndicate is actually pretty cool, as they were first mentioned in I believe the art book, a video game, and an original draft of a sequel film (don’t quote me on that)

Not only that, but ROXANNE IS STILL THERE!! This may seem small, but it’s been common in the past for female love interests to be thrown away and replaced, often because a voice actress couldn’t come back (that’s part of why I lvoed Puss in Boots 2 so much: Kitty Softpaws had her same voice actress and was still an integral part of the plot just lik the first movie) Roxanne still being part of the cast and still being with Megamind is not something to take for granted.

4. Is it disappointing that the long-awaited sequel isn’t a full-blown theatrical release? Yes. Is it disappointing that the voices aren’t returning? Also yes. However…

TL;DR - Megamind 2 and the show should be taken for what they are: a 2010s style tv series and a direct to dvd sequel respectively, this is NOT the fault of any animator, and is not necessarily indicative of quality of writing. Enjoy it for what it is!

#Megamind #megarox #megamind 2 #megamind vs the doom syndicate #megamind x roxanne #roxanne ritchi #megamind 2010 #megamind rules #I still have to watch both: I am WILDLY behind on my tv watching but im catching up!!

[127luvr]

Hi it's me the roleplay person. Can i change it to doyoung doing a menpa but then finds his childhood friend he had feelings for? Then he found out that they both liked each other?

time lapse ᯓ★

doyoung x male reader

you knew it was a shot in the dark. sending doyoung a question on twitter just the same as his thousands of fans. but it was better than trying to reach out to him privately, his direct messages on all platforms locked to anyone he didn't follow. this was assuming he had changed his number a dozen times over after the several years you hadn't seen him.

but it's no more than five minutes later when you feel your phone buzzing nonstop next to you, the sudden mass of notifications causing your heart to race.

it takes you a minute to turn your phone over--to read doyoung's response. he remembered you. remembered your name. his response was soon followed by him following your account back, the action only causing your skin to itch in anticipation.

doyoung wasn't just your classmate--and band mate--from all those years ago. he had established himself as an idol in a group--as well as a soloist. you'd have no idea how much he'd changed.

the reunion didn't take long to plan. with youngjae, jihoon and dowoon more than excited to hear from you after so long. the most the four of you had ever interacted were to wish each other happy birthday. conversations never exceeding more than two messages.

but here you sat, sitting across doyoung. who is wearing a beanie that covers the top of his eyebrows and glasses with thick black frames. he's all you can look at. his cheekbones sat high on his face now without all of the baby fat, lips just as pouty as you remember them being. you were being hit with all of the feelings you remember having as a teenager.

but you were an adult now.

"how much do you get paid, doie?" doyoung almost spits his drink out upon hearing the nickname--one that you originated--come from youngjae's mouth. you find the question silly--to put it simply. you wanted to ask doyoung about his members, about how close they all were. you wanted to ask him about the lyrics to his songs. you wanted to know him personally again, instead of continuing to idealize him as the 15-year-old you once knew. you wanted to know doyoung outside of that--outside of his idol image.

doyoung doesn't take offense to it, he brushes it off with a joke--a quick 'you think i'm getting paid?' slipping past his lips before he can stop himself. he makes the group laugh, but he focuses his eyes on you, watching your mouth drop open in amusement over the rim of his coffee cup.

you maintain the eye contact with him, your heart beat quickening. and you know he can feel it too.

the feeling that comes with knowing what the two could have had if only one of you confessed all those years ago. this wasn't something you would be able to brush off and continue being friends with him. eventually the feelings would come bubbling to the surface again--like bubbles forming on a boiling pot of water. if something wasn't done fast--it would boil over.

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