#so yeah today might be the day to take a break xd

[cuubism]

I wanna know about Michaelangelo's hands 🥺🥺

ohhh, one I was actually working on today 🥹 it's only been in progress since October 2022 XD but it's a slowburn after episode 6 exploring Dream's difficulties with rebuilding the Dreaming, because I felt dissatisfied with how the Dreaming just sort of got fixed off screen in the show. It's kind of about writer's/artist's block, and overly-identifying with your work, and Dream confronting his relationship with creating, and learning how to take a break, maybe.

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“You would try to console me, when it was you who had the nightmare?” said Dream, as Hob went into the kitchen. “The nightmare was about you, so yeah.” “I see.” Dream was quiet while Hob put together the tea. Then he said, “What do you fear for me, then?” Hob passed him his mug, sat down on the couch beside him. He took a sip, then sighed, trying to work through the wording of it. “You hurting yourself,” he admitted. “Intentionally. Incidentally. Any way it might happen. Hearing you talk about how hard it’s been to create recently… that gap between expectation and reality, that can really wound, you know? Especially if you don’t give yourself grace. Which I suspect you don’t.” Dream took a slow sip of his tea, then said, “Grace is for those with room for error.” “Grace is for you because I say so,” Hob said. Dream seemed startled by this response. “Because you say so?” he repeated, at length. “Yes,” Hob said, with determination. He hadn’t let death stop him, and he didn’t intend to let Dream’s rules stop him either. “I’ll give you grace, if you won’t give it to yourself.” Slowly, Dream leaned over, and rested his head on Hob’s shoulder. Hob’s breath caught. He carefully put down his tea. Wrapped a hesitant arm around Dream’s shoulders. Ran his fingers through his hair. Grace. Such an easy thing for Hob to give, and such a hard thing for Dream to accept. “I do not know that I can give you what you are seeking,” said Dream quietly. Hob could just feel his breath over his skin. He made a questioning noise, not understanding Dream’s words, and Dream elaborated, a hush of breath: “Love.” “Oh.” Hob was still for a moment, because wasn’t this love? Dream close to him, and coming back to him? “No, darling, that’s not what I meant.” It could be, he’d love if it was, but— “I don’t have expectations of you. I just wanted you to know that I care for you. That’s all.” “Ah,” said Dream. He seemed to think for a while. “It is not that I… couldn’t,” he said at last, with some grief, and Hob’s breath caught, a sudden lurching what if lodging there. “It is that I have not succeeded in the past, and I do not expect that to change. Especially now.” “I understand,” Hob said. You could try, he thought. It doesn’t have to be the way you’re thinking. It doesn’t have to be in the form that you failed at. Hob didn’t like to be a grumbling “kids these days” type of old person, but he did sometimes feel that people nowadays put too many boxes around it. Hob loved him the way a knight knelt before his king, the way too long-parted friends would kiss, the way lovers drew each other to bed and the way he might tempt a starving animal in from the cold; he would have Dream visit his pub once a century or live with him forever, whichever suited him. If the type of commitment that Dream had tried and failed at in the past could not work for him, then they would do it a different way. “I think,” said Dream slowly, “that you understand me quite well, indeed.” “Oh, I wouldn’t dare,” said Hob, which brought a half-smile twitch to Dream’s lips, Hob felt it against his skin. “But I think, perhaps, that we’re hardly strangers anymore, you and I.”

#another longgg snippet #god this thing will need so much editing #michelangelo's hands #my writing #ask #thestarscanalwayslookatus #thank you! :)

[no-m4gic]

Hi! I'm the anom who asked for the autistic reader and I loved your writing! So may I request the same THH characters but with a reader who's try to be the sunshine in their lives (example: help Chihiro to be himself), but is secretly depressed and hide It from them cause reader doesn't want to seem fragile?

Sorry If Is complex XD thx!

i have limited free time so i know im probably never gonna complete (another) request(s) today. also i discovered i have no idea how to write for hifumi and yasuhiro, so i'm gonna blacklist them and replace them with mukuro. felt like this request seemed like a good prompt for nagito and also i feel like i could replace ishimaru's one with komaeda's as an apology.

sorry if you wanted the girls too, i'll get on them as soon as i finish my work- i didn't have enough time to write for them. i'll write for ishimaru, too. sorry for missing a lot of characters!

p.s thanks guys for your support !! i appreciate it sm <33

that's a long title 😨

the tags are such a PAIN

~ mod sitaya

THH CHARACTERS W/ AN S/O WHO IS THEIR SUNSHINE BUT IS SECRETLY DEPRESSED

BYAKUYA TOGAMI

"damnit s/o, why didn't you tell me earlier? you know i wouldn't judge you."

money = happiness to him, so he wouldn't fully understand your pain. he'll still support you though, if you need anything he'll send one of his workers to get it for you.

i mean if you were gone, yeah, he'd definitely be upset, so whenever he couldn't understand, he'll just imagine how he'll be like if you died or something.

he'll hire a personal therapist for you, unless you want him to be your therapist... which trust me, he is not good at.

bro can't even comfort anyone without making them cry more.

since he can't comfort someone psychologically, he'll comfort them physically, though he'll only show displays of affection at home or when you guys are alone, n e v e r in public.

honestly at this point, he won't give a shit if you stain his rich people clothes with your tears, he can buy the same new clothes again.

he's not that desperate, but can you imagine byakuya singing his s/o a lullaby?

not really, but he'll tuck you into bed himself personally if you fall asleep while sobbing your eyes out.

if you don't, he'll ask if you wanna fly out of japan for awhile, on his rich people private jet.

it's the least he could do to repay you for helping him during his dark times.

MAKOTO NAEGI

"s/o. how could you hide this from me? did you think i was going to criticize you...?"

he wouldn't ask the million questions running through his head first, he'd hold you first.

you come before anything.

he'll hold you for as long as you'd like, letting you cry in his shoulder while he rubs your back and pats your head.

since you helped him show the others he isn't an 'omega male' and also chased everyone who bullied him away, he'll return the favor.

he'll tell the teacher that you weren't feeling well and needed some time to rest in your room.

also he'll bring you your homework so you don't have to get it yourself and do tons of paperwork at once after coming back.

you don't need a therapist, you have naegi tell them as your therapist.

he'll listen to you go on for the entire day, and if you need to break down, you can jump into his arms and break down, using his shirt as a handkerchief.

MONDO OOWADA

"damnit... who did this s/o?!"

honestly he might just break down too.

but then he'll tell himself he's gotta be a man, with balls in front of his s/o.

he'll put his coat around you and hug you, telling you that it's alright and you can let everything out.

you can take that in any way.

he feels really guilty whenever he has to leave you for training or a competition.

but he'll always come back with a gift and your favorite takeout.

if you ever wanna cuddle, go find him. he'll be more than happy to have a reason to hold you.

daily compliments whenever you two meet up.

CHIHIRO FUJISAKI

"s/o, it's okay. you're not hopeless, you're filled with hope, you still have so much more potential,"

he'll offer to accompany you to do some activities to keep your mind distracted and also to cheer you up.

something maybe like styling your hair and making it look ridiculous by putting tons of bright, glittery accessories on your hair.

he'd ask if sharing his own insecurities would help, maybe just so you know he has other countless insecurities than just him fearing showing the others he's a guy.

if making your hair look worse than junko's didn't cheer you up, chihiro would make up some stupid games like hop like a bunny into mondo's room or sing one of sayaka's songs outside makoto's room while he's showering.

speaking of sayaka's songs, he'll blast all her upbeat pop songs in the room and you two can dance your heart out.

LEON KUWATA

"i figured. now come here i'm gonna cuddle your sadness away!"

leon would definitely try to remain positive

the only good side would be that he could skip his daily weekday baseball training, since y'know he likes hates baseball.

but no, really, he'd have NO idea on how to comfort someone properly.

he'd ask what he could do to make you feel better.

as well as bring you out to get ice cream.

while you guys are out you may or may not encounter celestia's cat wandering around aimlessly... and bring it back to leon's room.

obviously you guys return her, maybe style her a little, watch leon get scratched by her and so on.

overall at least you recovered quickly and now everyone can see you smile again <3

BONUS ;; NAGITO KOMAEDA

NAGITO KOMAEDA

"oh s/o. you didn't have to hide it from me, hopeless trash like me don't have the right to judge hopeful people like you,"

well now it was his turn to have his clothes stained with tears.

countless outfits of yours have been stained with his tears, because whenever you'd return late (which was always) he'd think you left him or something, and the closest thing he has to you are your clothes.

he's clingy.

and he'll become clingier.

everywhere you go he'll follow you like a lost puppy.

lost puppy literally. he won't just follow you, he'll beg for your attention.

anyway... back to you, once you even mention you were upset he'd pull you into a tight hug.

imagine how long that tight hug would be with depressed.

verrrrrry verrry long.

he'd wish he didn't have to let go of you.

and he wouldn't. you'd have to literally wait for him to fall asleep just to work your way out his arms.

he'll shower you in compliments and bless you with encouragements.

if you wanted he could ask gundham for a cat or dog or something, or he'd blackmail gundham just to "borrow" the four dark devas of destruction for like 10 minutes before giving them back even though nagito would lie and say they'd forever be gone.

you want, he buy. literally, you just have to say "i want this" and you'll have it.

no more despair only hope.

IM SORRY ITS MISSING SO MANY CHARACTERS ANON 😭

#byakuya togami x reader #byakuya x reader #togami x reader #makoto naegi x reader #makoto x reader #ishimaru x reader #mondo owada x reader #mondo x reader #chihiro fujisaki x reader #chihiro x reader #leon kuwata x reader #kuwata x reader #nagito komaeda x reader #nagito x reader #komaeda x reader

[ladytauria]

A hello/good-bye kiss that is given without thinking - where neither person thinks twice about it. is so jaytim

you’re right nonny it so is

my first impulse was like—the two of them getting accidentally domestic, bc i love characters falling into relationships without realizing it xD

but then this scenario popped in my head & that’s what came out instead~

>> AO3 <<

Jason hasn’t been sleeping well.

His rest is troubled on a good day, and he hasn’t had many over the last week.

Well. It’s not that he’s had bad days, it’s just…

He misses Tim.

It’s stupid, because his bedroom is literally right across from Tim’s, but— It might as well be on the other side of the world.

He wishes they’d never agreed to stay at the manor for the holidays. It’s been miserable. Sure, he and Bruce are setting a record streak for lack of arguments. It’s been fun to hang out with the others, too, outside of the Cave and the mask. But—

Fuck.

The closest he’s gotten to a proper cuddle in a week was movie night, when he sat on the floor just to have an excuse to lean against Tim’s legs.

Jason knows he only has himself to blame. He’s the one who’s not ready to tell the others that they’re dating, even though they’ve damn near moved in together at this point. He just—he’s not ready for the judgment. The lectures, the shovel talks, the—everything. The reminder he’s not really good enough for Tim.

Knowing that doesn’t make it any easier.

Neither do the small, fleeting moments they manage to steal—the kisses they exchange in the lesser used parts of the manor, the brief hugs and touches they can exchange in front of the others. It’s. It’s fucking miserable.

He’s spent the last several nights lying awake, actively restraining himself from sneaking into Tim’s room. He just… He misses being held.

It’s the lack of sleep he’ll blame his slip-up on later, when all is said and done.

Tim’s got some stuff to do in the city today—Jason does too, but not until later—so Jason takes the liberty of making him a coffee and some breakfast to go, since he knows Tim won’t be down until it’s almost time to leave. He gets a couple of raised eyebrows, but, it’s not unusual for him to take the load off of Alfred, so no one actually says anything.

“You said you had plans today, right, Jason?” Dick asks, where he’s sitting at the breakfast table with Steph, Damian, Cass, and Duke. Bruce is standing with Alfred, the butler adjusting his tie like Bruce is twelve, and not forty-something.

“Yeah,” Jason says. “I’ll be gone for a couple hours.” First he has some packages to pick up, and also, every other week, he does story time at the library he used to half-live in as a child.

Tim shuffles in. Jason is glad Bruce will be driving—he looks like a zombie (and Jason would know). It takes him half a moment to spot the travel cup and paper bag sitting by Jason. He beelines over.

“Th’nks,” he mumbles, immediately popping the lid on his cup to take a long drink.

“Cool,” Dick says. “When you get back I was thinking we could break out the board games.”

Alfred finishes with Bruce. “Provided you all remember the rules, I think that sounds like a splendid idea, Master Dick.”

Jason snorts. One of these years they’re going to have all board and card games banned from the Manor.

“Ready to go, Tim?” Bruce asks.

“Sure, Dickie,” he says. “I’d love a chance to kick your ass.” His fingers catch in Tim’s belt loop before he can head to the door. He leans in, thoughtlessly, planting a chaste kiss on Tim’s mouth. “Have a good day, babe.”

Tim hums, smiling softly up at him. “You too.”

Jason almost doesn’t register the silence.

Then—

“What the fuck?” Stephanie breaks it, and Jason is reminded, abruptly, that they’re not alone.

The blood rushes to his face so quickly he’s surprised he doesn’t pass out; his skin ablaze with his embarrassment. “…fuck.”

That’s one way to announce their relationship.

[ 50 types of kisses ]

#jaytim #timjay #dcu #tauriawritesfanfic #lovely anons #asks and answers #to those of you i told i was going to sleep early tonight #i… well. i did try i promise #i’m so tired but i cant sleep so #i wrote a fic instead #& i hope my exhaustion isn’t too obvious lol

[ryuichirou]

Replies

We have A LOT of replies today! <3 Thank you for your asks!

Quite a bunch of them are related to our latest comic about Riddle and his mom, some are related to our previous replies, and some are just about the characters in general.

But before I start I wanted to note one thing: I’m probably going to start skipping some asks, and I’m sorry for that. I always try to answer everyone, but it’s getting more difficult for me to keep up, especially when writing replies where I don’t really have much to say. I’m not saying that you should stop: we read everything and appreciate you sharing your thoughts about characters with us; but please keep in mind that I might not reply. Like I’ve mentioned, me writing replies takes one (sometimes up to two) hour per day, and since I’m an artist, not a writer, it’s especially exhausting for me mentally lol I’m sorry about that.

I love talking to you, and I don’t want my replies to feel forced and burnt-out, that’s the main thought.

So, starting with the asks about Riddle’s mom and her amusing poster.

characharing asked:

i see Riddle's mom doesn't know of Chenya yet

I guess Chenya is just better at not being noticed when he wants to, being the Cheshire cat and all~

Anonymous asked:

Alrighty, who wants to go and throw apples at Riddle’s mom?

Probably the entirety of Heartslabyul…

Anonymous asked:

Your artwork with Riddle’s mom reminded me of a fan manga I saw on Pixiv by SIG. It’s about Trey confronting Riddle’s mom during winter break and helping Riddle get away from her (that’s what I can tell, I don’t speak Japanese)

Unfortunately I haven’t seen that one, but I’m glad it exists! After experiencing ch1 and seeing Riddle being so down and kind of anxious about returning home during winter break, it’s impossible not to get a “GO DO SOMETHING TREY TELL HER TELL HER” kind of thought. Or “MURDER HER”, it depends lol

Anonymous asked:

Trey needs to use his UM towards Riddle's mother. Trey can be a secret murderer if you ask me.

I feel like this idea is so prominent in our minds, we’ve mentioned it a couple of times, in the hc post about twst guys murdering people for sure lol

But yeah, Trey’s UM could be very dangerous…

blackbutlerfandomnerddomain asked:

Based on this, Riddle's first rebellion act is inviting Trey over when she's not around. Slowly the anxiety of him leaving before his mother came home faded and soon he began to feel the urge to have sex while Trey and him had the house to themselves. Bonus: They fucked on Riddle's desk AND Riddle's mum's bed

That would be absolutely scandalous, unacceptable, super nerve-wracking but also cathartic and completely necessary. Not to mention very hot lol You go, Trey, break that bed.

Anonymous asked:

Idia wants that poster too. XD

Yes please. And then the version of it with Rook’s face. And then the version of it with the Tweels. And then-

Anonymous asked:

My line of thought is 'ofc Riddle can still collar people' because some of the other prosecutors have gimmicks (Franziska and her whip, Godot and coffee, etc) but realistically it would probably just be Ace getting collared frequently during trials and investigations.

(This ask and the next one are related to the idea of Riddle being an Ace Attorney prosecutor, we mentioned it in these replies)

Yeah that makes sense, the prosecutors of this franchise just can’t do their job without doing something funky lol But what I love is the fact that it’s completely useless, be it a regular collar or a magical one, so basically it’s just a petty way to humiliate Ace because he is being annoying.

Lovely.

Anonymous asked:

Riddle would definitely lecture Phoenix about letting Trucy use her magic panties.

Oh man, so now Phoenix is disbarred and collared? This man just keeps winning lol

You can tell Riddle wasn’t allowed to use magic panties as a kid :(

Anonymous asked:

This is a dumb question but do you think Idia has what is the stereotypical NEET things? You know, hentai dating games, body pillows and the like. Also, what sexuality do you see the cast as? Just curious 😃

Idia is absolutely aware of all of these things and they absolutely surround him, and he is probably far less innocent than the game allows him to be lol But whether he really loves playing hentai dating games and buys erotic doujins depends on a story we’re telling in posts and drawings. Sometimes it fits better for him to be totally into all this stuff and be that gross otaku trope (with body-pillows, waifu-mousepads and kinks that are absolutely vile), sometimes it fits him better to just be aware of all that but not necessarily do it actively.

I guess the “default” state for us it that he has seen and actively read/played some stuff, so he is aware! But then again, he also seems like someone who wouldn’t want to see any smut with his precious waifus lol

We also don’t really headcanon characters’ sexualities, so I can’t really answer that question, sorry :( Whoever we ship them with, that’s their sexuality. So I guess they’re all gay lol

Anonymous asked:

I feel a bit stupid for not knowing this but the comic where Azul discovers the tattoo on Idia’s lower stomach and Idia freaks out, is that a kink or something?

You’re not stupid, Anon! It’s inmon (lewd crest, womb tattoo), basically a hentai trope. I don’t know if there are any strict rules about these tattoos, but in doujins that I’ve seen they’re usually used to make a character having it uncontrollably horny lol “Stupid and eager to breed” kind of horny. So I guess it really is a curse of sorts. But sometimes a succubus-type character could have it.

Anonymous asked:

HAHAHA, I just read the ask about Kalim at Frollo's school... I liked that. You can see this dynamic ending HORRIBLE. I can actually hear Kalim playing popular music in class while Frollo pops a vein... I need Kalim to expand his harem, I need more characters to share Jamil's nightmare, haha! (I love Kalim, but Kalim💢💢)

Anonymous asked:

*I'm not sure if I wrote Frollo or Rollo (HAHA??) in my last anonymous ask abut Kalim in NBC, thank god these are anonymous, is 2 am here, I'm sorry

No worries, Anon, neither of us even noticed that you wrote Frollo until you pointed it out lol

Oh poor Rollo… He really got lucky that neither Kalim nor the Tweels or Lilia went with the NRC guys that year lol He wouldn’t be able to handle them.

And with Kalim being a student at his school, and Rollo being a school counsel president, he’ll HAVE to keep an eye on Kalim all the time.

And the worst thing is, there is no way Rollo is getting used to all this dancing and music and stuff, and there is no way Kalim is getting rid of all that either lol

Anonymous asked:

I will never understand why KaliJami and AzuJami fans fight. Jamil has two hands and deserves more than one boyfriend that he can barely tolerate.

See, maybe the last part is the reason, maybe Jamil’s psyche can’t handle two of these idiots messing up with his brain in two completely opposite (but equally annoying) ways lol If we asked Jamil, he would’ve probably said that his hands are not for Kalim or Azul to hold, and that he would rather drink rat poison.

Wow, he is so mean, that Jamil… Kalim and Azul both need to shower him with love asap lol

Anonymous asked:

Ruggie x Idia be like:

Ruggie: I can't believe you spend so much money on useless figurines. Talk about a waste!

Idia: Excuse you! Do you you know how much these will be worth in a few years?!

Ruggie:.......................Go on.

Yeah, pretty much lol This is basically their interaction in the Glorious Masquerade event. Ruggie has a lot to learn from Idia-the-master-of-anime-auctions…

Anonymous asked:

Post chapter 5 Epel: Did you know that Rook is a Neige Leblanche fan boy?

Pre chapter 5 Vil: What? Where did you here that from?

Post chapter 5 Epel: Rook.

Ahh, so this is what that ask was about!

A perfect opportunity to hit Vil where he expects you to hit him the least lol But I feel like even Epel feels bad for Vil when it comes to this topic, so I don’t know if he would do it. Although it would definitely be tempting at times, especially when Vil’s complaining about Neige under his breath and Rook’s just sitting there smiling and being awfully quiet…

#replies

[heroicgartist]

Caretaking Merchant (with a bit of Reader/Insert character x Merchant)

The Merchant is the best grandpa GILF figure of the Resident Evil franchise

Y/MN = Your Merchant's Name (Mine is Inigo/Mercado, full name Inigo Mercado XD, he/him they/them pronouns)

He/They would...

Take you under their stead without hesitation, apparently. Of course you and the mercado have a deal struck. You help out, and they carry your sorry bum on their backs. Helping out with arranging his cabinets of various wares ranging from foreign candy, collectible figurines, and GUNS. LOTS AND LOTS OF GUNS

Task you to polish his supply for the day. Y/MN ALWAYS explains how each gun, knife, tactical, lethal, first aid, ROCKET LAUNCHER? works and how it can be used in battle. You can't really keep up with all the details, but their giddy attitude as an expert for these tools makes you feel a fondness for them as if showing off their children to you. Makes you wonder how they know these things so well, but your mind might get into places that could think of him differently.

Be prepared for everything scenario possible somehow. It doesn't matter how bad your past is or what kind of problems you might be dealing with. Your problems mean nothing to him, nothing meaningful enough that they can't handle heh

Help you settle down. Sometimes you panic and cry underneath the pressure of your own life. The indigo colored flames and clothes are your escape from the world, sometimes you want to be wrapped underneath their darkness as if it is your new home. A new home that feels separate yet comfortable from the earth.

Despite their body somehow being cold blooded all the time, the moments they comfort touch you are the warmest moments you ever experienced. As their cold hand caresses your head, their cool presence lightens up harsh moments always "There there stranger. Ya don't need to be like this." "Sorry... Didn't want to be useless today... Again, I'm so sorry..." "Alright alright, you can 'ave a sickie. We don't need apologies mate, no worries for us amirite?" "Haha...! Yeah, thank you always... Y/MN" "Hah, ur always welcome to a sick day now and then heheheh!" he/they say as Y/MN ruffles your hair. Your eyes widen, with face blushing because Y/MN's chest boasted forward with a smile behind their masked face and closed eyes, as if they were proud of their own kindness at that moment.

Offer a massage in case you suffer from cramps or other strains on your body. It doesn't surprise you that they come prepared with Vicks, an ointment that people his/their age always have on their stock. Fittingly appropriate for someone cool as blue as Y/MN

Sometimes but rarely calls you pet names like sonny, sweetie, and god forbid he/they call you.... honey. Their crass rough voice has your knees weaken and rile you up into a red flare. At least before they sleazily laugh to themselves invigorating you to call them old man, creep, and cocky bastard. Which they are in the nicest way possible.

Offer you a chair to sit on whenever you're substituting temporarily. The reason why they don't sit is because they're a brilliant tryhard in maintaining the status quo of business for themselves. All trades are standing to him/them! Literally!

Whenever Y/MN does allow themselves to sit, he suddenly says in a demanding tone "Over 'ere stranger, closin shop for today. I know ya wanted a break, so don't dilly dally in cashing in ur vacation time hahahah!" as they beckon you to lay your head on their lap. Your eyes are mortified not because you don't want to, but because he was so nonchalant with his request. All your fears of handling their... personality disappear the moment that you look at his blue eyes, for some reason glowing a spec of orange you surrender yourself to their wanting moment of peace. Their body limps on the seat, breathing gravelly as he closes their eyes for a prompted nap.

You look up at his head, curious about what his face looks like, and what it is expressing, what mannerisms it may host. Your answer arrives the moment he suddenly snores, that they feel at peace with their inner secretive showing of happiness. But at the same time... their body laying still as a grave makes you afraid, afraid how your life would be without them. What you would be without them... Before those thoughts wander, Y/MN rest their arm on your neck, coughing and groaning before snoozing away your worries. Right... We don't need any worries right now

#resident evil #resident evil 4 #resident evil 4 remake #x reader #the merchant x reader #re4 #re4 remake #re4r #the merchant #re4 merchant #MerchaLeon #Leon x Merchant #resident evil x reader #resident evil x you #x you #there's only so much gifs to use for merchant but I'm THRIVING

[lil-melody-moon]

Year Summary #3

We're going with games today so without further ado!

The ones I've started and finished: 1. Pokemon Moon - Second/third time that I played it. I had started a save a long time ago, but I borrowed my 2DS to a dear friend of mine, so I just started everything from beginning. I enjoyed it as much as the first time actually, getting different Pokemon this time - or kind of? This is also where I discovered that tiny Pancham looks like Paul McCartney. Don't ask me from where I took it, but yeah. I named my Pancham Paul XD

2. Final Fantasy IX - I figured out that there has to be at least one Final Fantasy game during the year and this time it happened to be this one. Again, a replay, third fucking save. I had a new pc at that time, had to install Moguri again but you know. The worst was the fact that the old saves were gone, along with the one where I almost did everything in the time before the final boss. My first, almost complete save was gone, I was sad about that. That didn't discourage me tho, I played the game again, only to regret that I didn't use other names than default - it would be so fun, I have to do it next time. Anyway, I still love this game, I will gladly come back to it at any day really - crying at the end again, God, the credits song ;A;

3. Rayman 3: Hoodlum Havoc - I think this platformer will come back to the list of "play at least once a year". I love this games to bits, first platformer, my entire childhood and beginning of being a nerd is stored there - and again, Polish dub in this game is *chef's kiss*

4. Rayman Legends - replay after a few years and as much as I love the musical levels, the game itself is fun to certain point, I think halfway through, it gets kind of repetitive - or it might be me who played this game way too much in the past. Either way, I'm not coming back to it anytime soon. Had fun nevertheless tho <3

5. Murder by Numbers - got Epic Games Store, got my hands on free games and there I went, choosing this one as the first one. It has repetitive mechanic over finding clues - it's a detective kind of game, similar to Ace Attorney, but much more tame - but like, if you're bored you can cheat through them just to get on with the plot. I did that at the very end and really, I enjoyed the plot, characters, music. The tiny computer who helped the main heroine was adorable <3

6. Earthbound - you thought I will forget to play it? HAH, jokes on you! The end of year is nearing and my mind is already set on to play it again! I will never grow bored of this game and this time the team consisted of Ringo, me, John and Paul, Beatles themed team and truth be told, I WAS SO FUCKING UNLUCKY ON THIS SAVE. Like, I even did simplest mistakes, forgetting about the freaking shields which got me an instant kill. Had to repeat the last cave three fucking times, I never had such a bad playthrough in my life! Ringo borrowed his luck this time it seems

7. Spyro the Dragon - what did I do when I got a new PC? Downloaded PSX emulator and played Spyro. I'm a whole mood as my friend described me and honestly I don't regret this decision, even if I had to take this game in parts. The camera made me sick to my stomach - oh God I hope it'll be better in later parts and in the remaster - but like taking one level per day was a good idea to solve the problem. Plus the soundtrack - Copeland my beloved! - is just so good. One of those games which soundtracks I'll be listening to when I have time. ...Which reminds me that I have to make cleaning on yt with the games' music. MAJOR CLEANING *looking at my young self* You did fucked it up

8. Deponia - Oh yes, I came back to his fuckery and now I'm having a break before tackling the second game which I don't like very much, but about this one! The beginning is kinda long, but once out of town the game shows what it is capable of with puzzle solving, plot, humor, characters. I still love it and will probably nerd the third part like I usually do, because it's my favorite, but this time I did one major change. I've played with English dub, not like always with German and fuck, it is better somehow so I'm sticking to that <3

Now to the ones I've dropped: 1. The Legend of Zelda: Twilight Princess - Being younger I loved this game, but this time I just couldn't get into it anymore. Might be because my smart ass thought about erasing the save I didn't finish years ago and starting a new one, but who might know. I do regret I didn't finish the game for some weird reason those years ago, but maybe it was for the better? Either way, I sold it with a few other Nintendo Wii games, leaving only two Kirby games for myself so yeah

2. Mario and Luigi: Partners in Time - now I really had high expectations for this one. I always heard good opinions about it and so I started it, curious, only to discover that I'm bored of it in the long run. There's not much variety in the battle mechanics. You either do that or this and push buttons. There's no excitement like it is in Final Fantasy for example, it's simpler, much much simpler and the same goes too...

3. Super Mario RPG - while having an amazing soundtrack, this game suffers the same thing as the previous. Repetitive battle mechanics and like this is probably the worst thing you can do to rpg. I know a lot of people love it and I can see why. The plot is great, dialogues, characters and world building is amazing, but for me if the battle mechanics ain't anything good, then I'm gonna drop the game and move on

4. Kirby Mass Attack - I always wanted to play this game. It was actually the first ROM I've downloaded on Nintendo DS emulator right after getting new PC and I had fun in the first world. I love the mechanics with the touch screen, the fact that there's 10 tiny Kirbys running around, but what threw me off guard is the fact that even if you have 10 Kirbys, you're gonna end with one at the beginning of the next world. I felt like all the progress was lost and I had to start from the very beginning. It somehow didn't feel fair you know. This was a big let down

And the ones I'm playing now: 1. Cave Story - first time after hearing what a good game it is, and I finally agree with an opinion! It's smooth, like the older games, the graphics are cute, music is amazing, plot simple, but engaging somehow. And true, some part for a new player are difficult - I'm playing on easy, I don't think of myself as of a great gamer and I still find it difficult. One boss was really unreadable for me, the one who was driving, I don't know the name of it, but like I had to have a few tries to figure out what to do and that is the only complaint I have about this game. Second would be no checkpoints between bosses at the very end, but like there was a chance for me to get a life refill, but like I didn't know about it, so I screwed myself on my own wish. Plus, I'm having a break from it because I'm stuck at final bosses. In the meantime I jumped to this one:

2. Yooka Laylee - which I bought on sale on steam and honestly, I don't remember when I had such a great time with a 3D platformer since Rayman 3. I know a lot of people are saying that it's not the same as Banjo-Kazooie - which I didn't play YET - but like, is it really worthy to compare instead of having fun with a game? I mean, the plot is simple, characters are fun, mechanics are great, the moveset is good, it's not limiting the player at all, the freaking soundtrack is a whole orchestra really, always giving the vibe of the world in a great way. There are a few bugs here and there, but they are not game breaking or anything. I was only throw off my guard when I learned that I need 100 pagies to get to the end. Guess what I am doing as of lately XD

And that would sum up this year. Thank you for reading all of this and i wish all of you a Happy New Year <3

#this one is probably longer than the one in the last year #I think XD #talking corner

[new-dawn-au]

Am I going to make Apis and Saki canon? Hell yeah, they're too cute not to! Don't blame me, blame the little demon pulling my heart to make this happen X3

Bold = texting

"Italics with quotation marks = thinking"

This was not good.

It was supposed to be a normal day, but of course, something had to go wrong. The thunder was too loud, too near, too…. Familiar. And Apis was not a fan.

He could feel tears building up in his eyes and his own grip on reality or any sense quickly slipping away as he tried to find somewhere to hide from it all.

He had stupidly forgotten his house keys, and Adonis was working that day so he couldn't unlock the door for him, leaving him in a bad situation of having to wait for hours to go home. And it sucked.

But just as he was about to break down, he heard a voice he had grown fond of over the past few months. "Apis? Are you okay?" Saki asked her friend, visibly worried about him.

Apis looked to his friend and tried to muster a smile but miserably failed, letting tears fall as he clung onto her.

"Please… don't let them hurt me again. I can't go back, I can't, they'll hurt me, I just know it. I'm dead if they find me, please don't make me go back… help me, please." He mumbled through his tears, he couldn't control himself when he was like this. He felt embarrassed, embarrassed that he was breaking down like this and having a breakdown in front of someone he considered a good friend.

Surprisingly to him, Saki had not pushed him away, instead pulling him closer and taking him to her house. Despite her knowing little to nothing about what he was talking about, she still comfored him. "It's okay, I won't let them take you. You'll be safe here."

By the time they had both entered her room, Apis had fainted from panic, leading Saki to lend him her bed and pull the covers over him whilst she went to get something for the both of them to eat and drink.

Nobody was home today so it left her to watch over her friend without interruptions. Suddenly, his phone received a message.

Adonis: That thunder is really loud isn't it? Hope you're ok❤️

Yikes, it was going to be complicated to explain that Apis wasn't actually seeing this message and that he had passed out. But Saki did it in the best way she knew how to.

Apis: this is Saki Tachibana, a friend of Apis from school! He's at mine rn bc he got scared by the thunder and he's sleeping thru it srry do you want me to wake him up? :)

Adonis: no, it's fine. It's nice to know that he has many good friends now. Or maybe you're more than friends🤨? Jkjk

Wait, what?

Was Apis's dad trying to suggest that they were… dating?! Saki had never even considered dating him! However..

She did find him very kind and cute. And it was so fun messing with his hair, it was always so soft and he always reacted so cutely when she accidentally touched his neck when playing with his hair with his little giggle and nose scrunch followed by his insistence that he was most definitely not ticklish on his neck despite him obviously being so. And his face was attractive as well, she had thought of kissing him before…. Wait, kissing?!

Okay, so she might like him, but there was no way that he felt the same!

Apis: omfg no💀 were not dating but Im flattered that you think I cud end up with sum1 like him XD

Adonis: uh huh, sure thing lol. If he isn't up or still at yours by half 4 then give me your address and I'll come for him.

Apis: will do.

A few hours later, Apis stirred awake and looked around before seeing Saki and realising what just happened. "Ah, Saki! I'm sorry for falling asleep in your bed, it won't happen again!" "Haha! It's fine, you were scared and you needed it, I don't mind." Saki smiled, handing him a rice ball.

"I assumed that you'd be hungry when you woke up so I made some rice balls for you, do you like it?" Apis took a bite and smiled back at her, blushing slightly. "Mmhmm! It's really nice, thank you."

There was that look again, that smile and those rosy cheeks. And those eyes… it made Saki truly realise her feelings for him.

She loved him, she actually loved someone again. She didn't even think she could love like this after her last relationship, but here she was, basking in Apis's presence, loving his existence, loving being around him.

Nope, she had to stop herself there. She was supposed to be looking after him, she could crush over him another time! "Hey, are you thirsty? I have some apple juice downstairs that I can go get if you want." Apis nodded and followed her to the kitchen, holding her hand to keep his balance stable

Saki could just feel herself overheating, his hands were strangely soft in comparison to her rough ones up, they felt like heavenly buttercream to her and she adored it.

But all of a sudden, she heard whimpering coming from him as he pulled his hand back, covering his white eye. "It must be that scar again! But how can I help him?" Saki thought, coming to a reckless conclusion.

She held his wrists gently so as to not hurt him, leant near his face and placed a gentle kiss on his white eye and scar, gaining a squeak from him. "E-Eh?! Saki, what are you doing?.."

"Oh shit! I am so sorry, I didn't know what to do and I thought that if I kissed it then the pain would go away! That was really stupid, I'm so sorry again." Saki apologised profusely before Apis interrupted. "You don't have to apologise! I… um.. actually kind of liked it.. it made me feel safe, and warm and fuzzy inside and I don't know why.. is there something wrong with me?"

Saki widened her eyes, could he feel the same thing towards her as she did to him? She had to test it.. "Hey, is it okay if I try something? You can stop if you feel weird or uncomfortable."

Apis nodded his head. Granted, he didn't know what was going to happen, but he put all of his faith and trust in Saki.

She leant near his face again, kissing his lips as she closed her eyes. She was taken by positive surprise when she felt Apis kiss back slightly, so he did feel the same way! His lips were just as soft as the rest of him, it was clear that they had been bitten out of anxiety and overall stress,but it wasn't unpleasant, it was kind.

Apis pulled away to catch his breath, his cheeks now a bright red. "I.. enjoyed that… a lot. I think that I… love you."

Saki smiled wide, her cheeks the same as his as she wrapped her arms around him, pulling him I to a hug. "I love you too, Apis."

IT'S DONE AND NOW I'M GONNA BURRY MY HEAD IN FLUFF OVERLOAD, GOOD BYE

#holy shit it's finally done😭 #new dawn au #zexal #astral zexal #zexal ocs #saki tachibana oc #don thousand

[mikimeiko]

To the East! Day 3 - Otranto

Woke up at an ungodly hour (7:00! On a Sunday! - though luckily with the switch to solar hour I gained one hour more of sleep) to get the bus to the train station (I hate that the train station is far enough out of town that you have to take the bus to get there). This is my one chance to get to Otranto, because there are only two trains from Lecce to Otranto on a Sunday and if I take the second one I won't be able to come back to Ostuni. I almost wait at the wrong bus stop but I realize it in time, and the bus does come!

Train 9: Ostuni>Lecce. I haven't been south of Ostuni in years, and I only did this route by train once. There grass under the olive trees! Constantly amazed by the fact that it's not summer XD

I have just the time to have breakfast in Lecce, and I get a pasticciotto (pastry filled with custard, typical of this area) which... I don't really like the pasticciotto but every time I am in Lecce I feel compelled to try it again and don't get me wrong it was better than the ones you find in Milan but still. It's a pastry with TOO MUCH CUSTARD. I don't even like custard XD

Train 10: Lecce>Otranto it's a Ferrovie del sud-est train, so I can't use my lovely train pass :( it does have a nice cyan/blu color scheme though. It left the station almost 20 minutes late D: I had only one hour and half to visit Otranto and now I have even less :( the ride is slow but quite scenic.

The train never really recovers the delay and then, a couple of kilometres outside of Otranto, it just stops. It stays there for like 10, 15 minutes. It's a single track railway so we're not waiting for another train or anything. After a while they tell us that the train has stopped because there's a railway crossing and the barriers are open/not closing. Really? And we can't go because of this? Can't we go really really slow while blaring the horn? It is so late and I'll have no time to visit the city :(

So yeah, I have about 45 minutes and the station is up hill and not super close to the centre, ok. I manage to get to the seaside and see the marina and the outside of the historic centre, than I buy a rustico (puff pastry filled with tomato, bechamel and cheese) and I head back to the station. It's a pity, it seemed like a really lovely place - and also I could have done with a longer break from the train but it is what it is I guess.

Train 11: Otranto>Lecce is actually train 10 going in the other direction XD. I saw a goat grazing in a cultivated field, I don't think it was supposed to be there XD

I thought that I might stop in Lecce or Brindisi before heading back home (especially since the visit to Otranto was so rushed) but the hour more I slept this morning has come back to haunt me: sunset is at half past four, and I don't really wanna stay out with the dark, so train 12: Lecce>Ostuni is the last one I'm gonna take today. Time to do nothing inside :D

#this trip could probably have been planned better XD #travel #italy #to the east! #mag travels from time to time #i juat want a tag for the things that i personally put out into the world #my photography

[victorluvsalice]

-->While that was going on, I decided that while Alice was outside indulging her werewolf instincts, she could spread a little feed for the chickens -- while most of them were asleep, there was one hen up and hungry, and Cockadoodle the rooster was getting ready to wake everyone else up, so yeah -- might as well be prepared! She then wandered off to make a clay bunny on the back porch (fortunately avoiding the specter) before I directed her back upstairs to work on her book. THIS time, she was actually able to sit down and concentrate for a while, hooray. May all us writers be so blessed. :p

-->Smiler, for their part, got sent to check in on a yowling Kelly when she appeared on the back porch! Seems mama cat was feeling a little neglected with all the attention being showered on her kittens, so I had Smiler give her lots of calming pets to make sure she knew she was still loved too. :) Smiler then joined Victor in the greenhouse to unleash Bugs and Elmer on the plants, before hitting the cauldron grill to do a bit more herbalism! After all, they'd just gotten a bunch more locusts from Victor earlier this morning to use in their concoctions. :p They made a Soothing Skin Balm, which got them all the way up to Herbalism level 7, meaning they can make Natural Herbicide Oil! :D ...Theoretically, as it once again requires ingredients I don't have. >( I need to get them back to Granite Falls at some point to gather more plants and insects... Anyway, with that sorted, they then moved onto making a lovely yellow-and-orange flower arrangement, which got them to Flower Arranging level 6! Seriously, they were just BANGING out the skills today, let me tell you...

-->Around this time, Moory wandered out of their shed looking a little worse for wear, so I had Alice take a break from her writing to go give the cow a nice brush off. She then headed into the bathroom to give herself a pep talk (she was still feeling Gloomy from earlier), before being put on chicken coop cleaning duty. Smiler, for their part, tried offering the specter the Fizzy Fruity Drink from earlier -- unfortunately, this did not go well either, so I had them just harvest all their herbalism stuff and plasma fruit before going to clean out the cow shed (because, for some reason, the game wouldn't let me clean it magically anymore >( ). Victor, of course, was kept busy tending and harvesting the rest of the garden, because that's what he does around the house these days. XD What can I say, he is the Plant Guy!

#sims 4 #the lazy save #victor van dort #alice liddell #smiler always #lot of skilling up today let me tell you #especially from Smiler #they have taken very well to herbalism and flower arranging! #though the latter is easier than the former #because again I don't have a lot of the plants I need for this nonsense #mostly I don't have the 'toxic' variations of stuff like chamomile and fireleaf and the like #plus I'm still missing some insects like walking sticks #note to self maybe schedule a couple days in Granite Falls later for this trio #few days of camping and foraging might get me exactly what I need #I want to make the other stuff damn it #and yeah I didn't even bother showing the specter rejecting the gift #as it is so common these days #damn fussy specters >( #and what is it with me not being able to use Scruberoo on the cow shed anymore??? #come on game that was great #let Victor be OP with his magic :p #queued

[luminouslion]

Three times Marx said “I’m fine”, plus one time someone answered “No, you’re not.”

Here is a little “three plus one time” fanfiction I had in mind for some while now. And it’s Marx centered because my man deserves more love and recognition!

Warnings: sad boy hours XD

Word Count: 1.2k

1.

Marx was not having a great day. His head was pounding, he felt dizzy and even the smallest amount of light was hurting his eyes.

He knew he had a migraine but he couldn’t allow himself to take a break right now. There was still a huge pile of paperwork that had to be finished by the end of the day and to make matters worse Julius was nowhere to be found.

With a groan he sat down at his desk and started working through the pile, occasionally distracted by the pounding in his head.

After some hours of working he made his way towards the Castle’s kitchen to get himself a glass of water. This is also where he found Owen eating his lunch.

“Hello Marx!'' Do you want some, too?” He asked with a pointed look towards the pot with chicken soup.

Even though the thought of some soup sounded great at the moment he answered “No, but thank you Owen. I still have to get some more work done first.”

Owen just let out a displeased sound.

Marx continued his way through the kitchen and just as he started pouring himself some water another dizzy spell hit him, which caused him to drop his glass.

Immediately there was a steadying hand on his shoulder.

“Are you okay?” Owen asked.

“Yeah, I’m fine. Sorry. Don’t worry about this, I just lost my grip on the glass.”

“If you say so…”

Together they cleaned up the mess and as soon as they were finished Marx quickly grabbed another glass of water and hurried out of the kitchen back towards his office.

2.

He quickly made his way through the halls of the castle. He needed to get to his office as fast as possible. He couldn’t risk being seen by anyone.

This morning he got the message that his mother had passed away and while they were never really close, she was still his mother.

Yet he couldn’t take a day off to mourn her death. There was just too much work that needed to be finished.

Tears started forming in his eyes as he made his way through the halls. He didn’t understand why though. His mother never really was there for him. He has been taking care of himself ever since he can remember. He hasn’t even heard anything from her in years. Years! So why was her death affecting him so much?

“Hey Mushroom Head! Where is the old man? I need to talk to him.” He heard a voice say from behind him.

He quickly wiped his tears away before facing Yami.

“I don’t know. I still haven’t seen him today. But you could try it in his office.” He said.

Yami didn’t respond to that. He just casually looked him up and down.

“Normally I wouldn’t interfere with other people’s businesses but are you okay?” He asked.

If Marx would have been a little less focused on hiding his emotions he might have noticed the subtle worried undertone in Yami’s voice or the slight glim of concern in his eyes.

But he wasn’t and so he just answered “I’m fine.”, turned around and walked away towards his own office.

3.

Julius was nowhere to be found yet again. Which means he also had to finish all of the remaining work alone…again.

Currently he was running through the halls with a huge pile of paperwork that needed to be finished before King Augustus will have their throats.

Not being able to look well over the stack of papers he didn’t see William Vangeance standing in the hall and bumped right into him.

Both men fell to the ground, the papers lying spread everywhere on the castle’s floor.

“Oh Lord. I’m so sorry, William. I totally didn’t see you there.” Marx apologized while stumbling to pick up the fallen papers.

William quickly made his way to help the other man. “It’s okay. Don’t worry about this. Lots of work to do?”

“Yeah… you haven’t seen Lord Julius by any chance, have you?” He asked hopefully.

“No, sorry, I’m afraid I have not.” Responded the captain of the Golden Dawn. “But tell me are you okay? You seem a bit tired and well… stressed to be honest.”

A bit taken aback by the sudden question the advisor answered, “Well, Julius has been disappearing quite a lot lately but I got everything handled. I’ll be fine.”

"Mhm, okay. But know that you can always reach out to me if you need any help. I would be happy to lend a hand or two.” William offered with a warm smile.

“I’ll keep that in mind. But really I’m fine.” Marx shot a smile right back to him before storming off towards his office.

He closed the door behind him and sat down at his desk where he worked through the paperwork for the next few hours. Not noticing the late time his head grew heavier and his eyelids kept falling close until finally the welcoming darkness surrounded him.

+1

He was awoken by a heavy hand carefully shaking his shoulder. The first thing he noticed was that it was still dark outside, the second that it was Julius who woke him up.

“Good morning sleepyhead” the older man greeted him with a sheepish smile.

“What time is it?” Marx groaned.

“Just past midnight but you should probably head to bed if you don’t want to risk having a backache tomorrow.”

“Can’t.” Is all that Marx says.

“Why not? Are you okay?” Julius asks with so much concern filling his voice that Marx couldn’t stop the tears forming in his eyes. Everything that happened these past few weeks just seemed to be getting back to him all at once at this exact moment.

He looked away, hurryingly trying to wipe away the tears, “It’s nothing, really. I’m fine.”

A sad smile appeared on Julius’s face as he laid a gentle and warm hand on the younger man’s cheek.

“No, you’re not”, he said, “but that’s okay. You don’t always have to be fine. Now tell me what’s wrong, please.”

Now he really couldn’t stop the tears from spilling anymore. “I don’t know. Everything is just too much right now.” Marx responded.

“Oh, kiddo…” and with that the advisor found himself in his king’s arms, unable to keep himself from burying his head into the taller’s shoulder.

“I’m sorry. I’m so sorry!” He sobbed.

“It’s okay. You have nothing to be sorry for. I should be the one apologizing. It wasn’t fair of me to disappear so much and let you do all the work alone.” Julius tightened his hold a bit and patiently waited until Marx head his emotions under control again.

Letting go of him he said “Why don’t you go and get some proper sleep? We can talk a bit more about this in the morning.”

Marx looked pointedly around his desk, “still gotta finish all of this first or else we will have the King’s wrath against us tomorrow.”

“Let me worry about Augustus and go get some sleep. You deserve it.”

#black clover #marx francois #Black Clover Owen #yami sukehiro #black clover yami #black clover william #william vangeance #julius novachrono #black clover julius #julius and marx #platonic #bc scenarios #bc fanfic #fanfiction #scenarios #marx protection squad #Marx deserves a raise

[le-amewzing]

Knight & Knight

Ngl, kinda fell for Koshigaya-san at first sight in ch1. XD *Note: This is set after ch42 and mainly after the conclusion of the RIMT job (which ends with ch47), just so I can cover all my spoilerish bases. :3

Fic: "Knight & Knight" [FFN] [AO3]

Pairings/Characters: pre?Sakuragi Kana/Koshigaya Hitomi

Rating: K

Words: ~1,080

Additional info: romance, friendship, fluff, 3rd person POV

Summary: It's been like this from the beginning: Koshigaya saves her time and again. But Sakuragi wonders if she'll ever be the one saving Koshigaya.

      Koshigaya Hitomi is always there to save the day.

      It's been that way since the beginning, Sakuragi thinks time and again, and that hasn't changed much since, even as Koshigaya and the others at Magilumiere assure their newbie that Sakuragi is coming into her own as a fresh-faced magical girl. The team reminds Sakuragi often that they both want and need her, which instills some confidence, yeah.

      But sometimes Sakuragi thinks of how she even got involved with them from the start, and how, even though sure she helped Koshigaya with some magic tech that fateful afternoon, Koshigaya not only saved the day but literally caught Sakuragi in her arms. And that happens still, from time to time, in the field even now.

      Like today.

      Koshigaya might not have caught Sakuragi physically or any of the rest of them in her arms like the knight-in-shining armor she is, but Sakuragi can't help but think that this accidental job at the Research Institute for Magical Technology wouldn't've been possible if not for Koshigaya's insane level of bravery. Going up against this unknown factor, a group C Kaii, as Akasaka called it, proved nearly too much for four of them to handle…and yet they did, with Koshigaya's wildcard move of cramming her broom in one of its many mouths before the girls launched an all-out counterattack.

      But outside, after AST's Tsuchiba is gone and Director Koshigaya leaves and it's just the two of them once the RIMT thanks them profusely once more, Koshigaya heaves a small sigh and offers a small smile only Sakuragi gets to see. And she thanks Sakuragi, for believing in her. "You always do," she tacks on with a little chuckle and the tiniest shake of her head.

      The unexpected gratitude and this softer side to her senpai make Sakuragi's heart skip a beat, and she blurts that they should grab lunch together before she can think too hard on it.

      Thankfully, Koshigaya doesn't miss a beat, grinning in response. (See? Always rescuing the moment even, this one.)

      With this morning's…now afternoon's…job successfully finished, the pair transforms back and gets set on their trek back to the office by way of the ramen shop Sakuragi looked up earlier. It's a little bigger than the local place they often go to closer to home, so the girls grab a table and sit across from each other instead of side by side, like usual.

      "You sure about this, Kanacchi?" the blonde asks as they each skim the menu.

      Sakuragi does a double-take, but she doesn't want to go back on her promise. "Of course. Pick anything you want, toppings included—my treat, Koshigaya-san."

      Koshigaya laughs, mumbles, "What's with that?" but there's a rosiness to her cheeks at the gesture, because this is different from when Midorikawa feeds everyone in the office.

      Sakuragi knows this, and it's partly why she asked Koshigaya out, because she's wondered when the last time was someone went out of their way just for her alone… Honestly, she muses when their drinks arrive and Koshigaya launches into some bickering about Tsuchiba's attitude, Sakuragi's wondered a lot about Koshigaya lately, especially when the pigtailed magical girl knows her eyes and brain need a break from memorizing manuals and she catches herself instead staring at her senpai. She thinks that maybe her eyes have a habit of wandering, but—if that were the case—then wouldn't she gaze blankly at the others or even at inanimate objects around the office?

      Why, every time, are her eyes drawn like magnets to Koshigaya Hitomi only?

      Sakuragi would call her beautiful—breathtaking, without a doubt, especially when in action—if asked, but her thoughts trip her up whenever Koshigaya catches her staring, such as now, and Sakuragi splutters into her drink.

      Koshigaya laughs again, but it's gentle, not cruel, and she passes her kouhai extra napkins. "Hey, hey, hey, Kanacchi…! The food hasn't even arrived yet. Plus—" She sighs and leans heavily back into her booth; it's a tired motion only Sakuragi's seen, and just a handful of times, at that. "—I really wanna stuff my face and talk about anything else to forget he was there, too."

      …ah, right. That's the only recent change between them, Koshigaya confiding in Sakuragi about her family. Sakuragi had been shocked to see Director Koshigaya at the RIMT, but Koshigaya had handled her father well, when they'd seen him in parting—or so Sakuragi thought. Maybe it's been a bigger surprise than she realized…? She frowns.

      "Ah, don't worry about it. C'mon, smile, Kanacchi." Koshigaya tilts her head Sakuragi's way, wearing a small smile herself. But it's tired, like the rest of her body language.

      …oh. Sakuragi blinks at the scene before her, finally piecing it together and embarrassed she hadn't seen it before. But it makes sense now.

      Koshigaya Hitomi is always there to save the day.

      But there's no one there to save Koshigaya, and Sakuragi wants to be that one.

      She can feel her cheeks reddening, so Sakuragi slurps down more of her iced fruit drink in a lame attempt to cool her face down, but realization is like a struck match that refuses to flame out. Her thoughts on—no, her feelings for—her senpai might've been silly yearning before. But now? Now… Now Sakuragi isn't thinking about Koshigaya doing the saving or Sakuragi having the chance to catch her senpai in her arms or maybe even sweep her off her feet. Now, she can see that her brave senpai is not as strong as she presents, and Sakuragi wants to protect her from the things that do actually make her sad or, hell, even scared!

      Koshigaya quirks an eyebrow, wondering to where Sakuragi's mind has flown. Then she shrugs and fiddles with the crumpled-up paper wrapper from her straw on the table, pushing it to and fro.

      Sakuragi musters a small smile for Koshigaya before she gently flicks the wrapper aside. She catches the blonde's eye and her smile widens, as she stills Koshigaya's hand, loosely hooking her finger around Koshigaya's.

      The gesture is childish but a comfort, because she might be tired after today, but that rosiness returns to her cheeks, and that grin only Sakuragi gets to see returns.

      So…yes, Sakuragi admits to herself as they pull apart just as their food arrives, these feelings might've been friendship or admiration or yearning before—

      —but they're something else entirely now, aren't they?

GAHHHH. MAGICAL GIRLS IN LOVE. MAGICAL GIRLS IN LOVE. MAGICAL GIRLS IN LOVE. Honestly, this rly shouldn't be surprising to me considering my first ever fandom from childhood (*eyes Sailor Moon*), but yeah. XDDD I have a handful of ships for Magilumi, but I think Hitomi is just—so neat?? Who wouldn't fall for her? XDDD Later chapters have cemented my OTPs more, but I'm deffo down to board Hitokana from time to time, bc they're just so cute. But I also rly like Kana's viewpoint here, that Hitomi's always the protector, but no one's rly there to protect her/be her knight-in-shining armor (I mean, not super the case, since we see in flashbacks that she has the full support of Magilumiere, but still!). Since I've written Hitokae once before, I have another idea coming soon for that ship, but first—more MAGICAL GIRLS IN LOVE! 8D (Meaning, a diff OTP, *lol*.) And, of course, Magilumi fanart. I rly dig drawing everyone. :3c

Thanks for reading, and feel free to leave an anon/unsigned review via the FFN link or comment via the AO3 link at the top of the post, especially if you enjoyed this!

~mew

#kabushiki gaisha magi lumiere #magilumiere co. ltd. #magilumiere #magilumi #hitokana #sakuragi kana #koshigaya hitomi #fanfic #mew writes too much #they are so cute to meee

[iamthecomet]

Daily update on Into the eyes of fire:

As it‘s pretty early, there might be a second update coming later

You‘re so right. I often struggle with giving up as soon as something doesn’t go as I planned/wanted it to.

This project means a lot to me and I think the fact that I’ve already mentioned it so much to you helps with keeping me at it (because I can’t just give up and never do it and nobody will ever know nor care)

It makes me so so happy that you‘re excited for it! /g

Those days suck. Usually the only thing that helps is sleeping and hoping the next day is better (even tho then I’m often scared that the next day might be just as bad)

We definitely do ♥️

Yeah, snuggling with owl plushies has helped surprisingly much. It‘s an old habit I just recently picked up again, but plushies truly are very nice (and owls simply mean everything to me. I‘m not getting called Owl for no reason xD)

Today started terribly, but I managed to get myself together somehow which meant I was at least a little productive

I’ve also drawn a little, but I’m planning on going on with that now

I read that ask about casual ghoul nudity and it totally made me think of ItEoF, because it‘s the main reason why I decided not to host it on webtoon

And now there is an entirely naked ghoul on the second page lmao

So yeah. There‘s gonna be a lot of casual nudity in it

~ @owlishanon

I am also very guilty of quitting something if I'm not immediately good at it. Or as soon as it starts to go wrong. It happens to me a lot with craft projects. But I've gotten better about following through--and trying again if the first time isn't what I want. Perfectionism is super not healthy, and I'm trying to break myself of it. Not everything has to be perfect. Just doing it at all is something to be proud of. I'm glad that talking about it keeps you motivated. You can talk to me about it whenever you want. It's fun to hear your thought processes about it and I'm excited to see it take shape! Today was a better day for me than yesterday (not perfect, but better and that's all I can ask for). I also snuggled with some plushies when I went to bed last night. And when I got home from work the keyboard I thought I'd ruined was back up and running (thanks to my partner cleaning the absolute shit out of it and doing everything he could to salvage it). My keycaps are still a little sticky, but they all work. I really really love casual nudity ghouls. They're so important to me. I'm glad you're including them. It just feels so normal that they wouldn't have any of the same humans have around nudity for so many reasons! I'm glad you're going to include it!! I hope the rest of your day went well and you got some drawing done! I have the next two days off so I am going to try to get some crafting and some writing done. We'll see how successful I am.

#comet comments #owlish #comet's anons #I've been trying to crochet a little ghoul #I bought a pattern for it and have made a couple version of it and it keeps coming out not how I want #I'm hoping the third time is the charm

[darkicedragon]

So starting the day off at 7c/45f and leaving work at 14c/57f.

Yeah. No. I’m absolutely not bringing my jacket today, ahahah. -- My bus has been diverted Again, and I saw it coming up. Had to dash for it. I’m not sure if the driver saw me or was just taking a small break, but they stayed there long enough for me to get on.

Was pretty much x-x on the bus, so I think I might try doing a bit of jogging so I can at least do that without dying. -- Doing a health safety checklist at work.

‘Do your feet touch the ground when you’re sitting at the desk?' aaaaaaaahahahhaah. No. Absolutely not. XD My feet are either cleared completely off the floor, or I’m so far forward in the the chair to have my feet flat, I may as well be standing. I have a footrest though.

'If you are required to sit at your work station for long continuous periods (up to an hour) do you have an opportunity to take regular breaks?' >-> I got pulled up because Head Manager saw me taking a walk every hour, so now there must be a Reason for me to be walking around. Even though that actually takes me away from my desk longer than if I just sped around the office for 2 minutes....

‘Are the symbols on the keyboard easily readable?' I know it’s more about making sure the keyboard is actually new, but I don’t look at the keyboard anyway, haha.

#d's work rambles

[dzpenumbra]

6/25/23

It got late again, but here I am. I was pulled into streams today, there were very compelling storylines playing out. It was most of the day, actually.

My whole rhythm was just off today, I don't even really know why. I didn't start my day with yoga. I guess it was the RP that did it. I usually do yoga, then maybe put headphones in and listen to a stream while working out, or listen to music, either or. But today... I just didn't. I think I just fired up a game instead, but none of the games I've been playing have been scratching that itch.

After a little bit, I got back to work on my Zen Garden project. As planned, I tried to use wind to separate the sand from the gravel. I brought my box fan down and tried that, but... somehow it wasn't really strong enough. I'm sure if I left it for a few hours it might've had an effect... but it just wasn't really doing it for me. Then I used a handheld air compressor thing that I got to clean my PC, held about 4 feet away, and that thing fucking worked... but it worked too well.

It separated the gravel and the sand very effectively, but it brought a lot of the sand airborne and out of the cardboard box setup that I made. I tried setting up the box vertically, with the dish in the bottom, so the sand would blow out around the sides, but it still sent big puffs of sand out into the air. So... I really don't know how else to do that, I'd really need to basically encase the whole thing in a plastic bag so the sand doesn't escape... but then I can't damn see. It's a shame because what I was doing was very effective, it was separating the sand from the micro gravel really well. There was just a lot of loss and it was making a mess. So... I started going back to water separation.

Basically, I'm taking the sand/microgravel mixture and putting it in a glass cooking dish, adding a small amount of water and just working it until the water is very muddy looking; full of particles. Then carefully dumping the water into a separate container, then repeating the process until the water is as clean as possible. Then, I wait for the muddy water to settle, and separate the clean water from the sand so it can dry. This produces super-fine sand. And, unfortunately... the process isn't perfect. There's still a lot of fine sand left behind with the gravel that just... isn't being picked up for whatever reason. It takes longer and it's more work, but it's a zero-waste solution.

Later in the night, I realized... my sieves are getting here tomorrow. XD At least they're supposed to be. Those are going to be a godsend for sorting gravel by size. I'm just... not sure what sizes I got. I'm afraid they may be more focused on larger sizes. I don't know if any of them are going to be any smaller than a normal kitchen sifter, which is what I've been using. I'm just not sure where else I can find a finer mesh that still lets shit through. I was debating using coffee filters before, but... I think those are going to be too tight a mesh to even let sand particles through. I wanted to get a flour sifter when I got my groceries delivered, I feel like those have to be finer than normal kitchen sifters... but they didn't have any. So yeah, the sieves are going to be great for sorting the gravel in general, but I might have to keep doing this water separation method too. Idk. But I feel like having super-fine sand creates a very different aesthetic, and I like the whole transformative process of getting from cheap all-purpose sand mix to super-fine sand. I like the problem-solving, the troubleshooting, it's very rewarding.

I did end up doing yoga and working out around midnight, right before cooking dinner. Yoga... I kinda just did a few stretches, honestly. The workout was super intense. It was 3 sets of this circuit - 10 sit-ups, 10 sit-up punches, 10 sit-ups, 10 crunch kicks, 10 sit-up punches, 10 crunch kicks. With a 2 minute break between. It was pretty rough. But I made it through it. I can actually feel myself losing weight, like I can feel it in my skin. And more than that, my muscles are getting much stronger. It's a nice feeling. It's only been a bit over 2 weeks. It's been a lot of work, that's no lie, but I'm surprised how much of a difference so little time has made.

And... that was pretty much my day. Troubleshooting sand stuff, watching really good RP, working out, making fried rice.

Oh, and my bean plants are fucking huge. I woke up and all three were fully sprouted in one container, two in the other. And they're all like 4-6" tall. I'm really gonna have to stay ahead of staking them, I don't wanna get caught off guard with this. Gonna have to go gather some big sticks. The tomato seems to be doing okay, it and the pepper plant have flowers which are starting to bloom. :) That tomato plant is so damn big, it's like... at least 3 feet tall now. It just dwarfs every other plant in the apartment. The baby succulents are coming along very nicely, and more and more little buds are starting to pop up and I'm starting to go "oh shit, what did I get myself into..." But I'll figure it out, they can grow in pretty much anything. My Pothos starters though... They're healthy and all, they look fine, they're just... not really growing. I expected them to grow super fast, considering they're very vine-like. But some don't even really seem to be doing anything but moving their leaves around. The ones that have sprouted are just kinda... going slow. I don't really know what else I can do for them, maybe give them some more light? I don't know, maybe I just had the wrong expectations, maybe they aren't a fast-growing plant. It's not the end of the world either way, I just wanna make sure they're doing okay. The Night-Blooming Jasmine is done with its bloom, it shed all its flowers and is now sprouting new branches like fucking crazy. I'm probably going to have to prune it already just to corral the growth a bit, keep it contained. The orchid seems to just be kinda... hibernating, I guess. It's very healthy; the leaves are in great shape, stems are trimmed and fine, roots are healthy. I've just gotta figure out what to do about this distilled water thing, its roots have a kinda chemical burn look to them on the top and I read that's because of using tap water instead of distilled water. So... I have a plan and setup for distilling water, I just haven't really gotten around to it yet. So... all-in-all... the indoor garden is doing great.

Re-telling my nightmare in my journal last night got me really jumpy and anxious. It was tough to get to sleep for a bit because of it. I got there but it was definitely a bit of a battle. It's always really really tough when you're physically exhausted but your mind really doesn't want to go to bed for fear of the dreams you might have. But I'm pretty sure it was totally okay, and I don't remember having bad dreams, so it worked out.

Okay, enough rambling, I want to do tarot. I actually want to get a tiny bit of ice cream too. It's been super hot today, for some reason, and I just had a craving. I'm just gonna do one scoop instead of the 3 I used to do every night. I'm gonna actually put it in writing that this is not going to be a habit, just a "getting through a tough time on a hot day" thing. Then tarot right after.

Past - Ten of Cups, inverted (Settling down, well-being, a happy family, simple pleasures.  Harmony and joy shared with loved ones.) Present - Knight of Swords, inverted (Clarity from confusion. Rugged, fierce, determined, logical. Deliverer of answers, but frank to a fault.) Future - IV: The Emperor, inverted (A powerful, dominant, strategic and protective figure of great influence and reach.  Symbolically, important changes, a shift in power, new responsibilities or authority. Adjacently symbolizes stability.)

Aww. -_- Inverted Ten of Cups is such a sad card. And it's where we're starting. Ten of Cups is the happy ending, the wife and the kid and the house with the picket fence, running off into the sunset. Inversion here being... I don't know. A missed opportunity? Or something that got (or is getting) in the way?

This is connected to inverted Knight of Swords. I'm honestly not entirely sure. I know I've gotten this before... I know Queen and King of Swords, but for some reason I'm struggling with Page and Knight of Swords. Okay, I looked it up to clarify for myself, which... ironically... is the answer. Knight of Swords is clarity. I want to sorta come up with simple associations to get the gist, but I fear simplifying the symbols too much. As a start, let's try... Page = epiphany, encountering the truth, Knight = clarity, delivering the truth, Queen = facing truth (on both sides), King = living with the truth, leading by example. Again, these symbols are not that simple - as personalities are not as simple as one word - but it's a start to remember them. This Knight is also inverted, so... same deal, something preventing this symbol from manifesting.

And to round out the trio, we have inverted Emperor. A symbol of planning, structure, expansion. Or it can represent a man of great power and reach. I don't often consider cards representing other people much, which I really need to change a bit. Very few people are as isolated as me and can just assume that the cards represent aspects of themselves rather than people around them. With Emperor inverted, we can see the dark sides of conquest, or a bad influence of rulers.

Yeah, so... about that whole "cards representing other people in your life" thing. That can apply to a lot. Some cards are pretty clearly representing... events or moments... or forces of nature... but others are pretty clearly representing personalities. Like... The Tower is clearly not a person; Wheel of Fortune, Three of Wands and Ace of Cups are clearly not people. But the face cards can very clearly represent personality types. The Emperor and Knight of Swords I would definitely include in that.

So, on to connecting the dots here. What got in the way of my happy ending? Was there ever one in the works, honestly? I've had like 2 real relationships... and one was about 6 whole months and she really wasn't that into me and abandoned me twice when I had a fucking blood clot in my shit. The other took my savings, lived in my house without paying rent for 2 years, rented another apartment in the same town while living with me, put us on a "break" to sleep with someone and still to this day never admitted it, and started hooking up with a coworker less than 2 weeks after our 3 year relationship ended. So... if there really was potential for a happy ending with either of those two people? I'm just not seeing it. So... what is getting in-between me and my happy ending? The cards say... --- Oh, before I go further, Ten of Cups isn't just about a romantic ending. It's also just... harmony with loved ones in general. Just putting that in there. --- A blockage between me and this Knight of Swords character. Having clarity, seeing the truth of it all, and being able to act on it all. Which, admittedly is absolutely a problem for me. I often feel naïve, and I let my desire to "be a good guy" overpower my awareness of what's going on around me, and prevent me from getting out of difficult social situations. Now... I don't trust myself enough to be able to discern whether a relationship is toxic or not. I mean... my last "date" was a very recently divorced mother of two who told me she had herpes and recently got out of the psych ward of a hospital (she said for drinking and fighting with her then husband and he didn't feel safe? So he got her sent up?) and she thought a nice first "date" would be to come over to my house and bring 2 full goat skeletons worth of bones for me, because I said on my profile that I was "interested in getting into stone, wood and bone carving". And I didn't screen out any of that. I'd say... the Knight of Swords would be able to see the red flags there, yeah? That's the best I can figure out there. And this somehow results in... what... having a strong domineering presence in my life that's super controlling, possessive and unstable? I mean... that checks out, right?

I'm super tired. This is the best I have for right now. Oooo the bonus placeholder card is a new one, so I wanna do that real quick.

Bonus - Seven of Cups (Wishful thinking, fantasy.  Letting imagination run wild, disregarding key facts.)

I kinda feel like I'm kinda there right now. Like I'm not reading this spread accurately, like it's kinda forced and it's getting super late. So... fuck it. Learning the cards is the most important part of this process right now.

(Rare post-proofreading add-on) Huh. I was really tired and just kinda... dipped out at the end there. And was feeling kinda trauma-reliving self-sabotage-y... And I completely overlooked how the Seven of Cups was... well it's kinda... exactly what I was saying, isn't it? XD Just... disregarding warning signs and idealizing. Which is what I was saying was the exact problem in past relationships, and what my connection with the Knight of Swords would ideally prevent? I just thought that was interesting, I was nodding off so I completely missed it. Alright, off to bed.

#diary #journal #online journal #stream of thoughts #stream of consciousness

[totaldramafan-lauri]

Today: Big CRK update Tomorrow: Splatfest Day after that: April 1st (the day I usually do my Eurovision First Impressions posts)

Busy few days.....b-by my standards.....

I miiiiiight give myself a bit more of a break and put off the Eurovision posts by a day or two? But I don’t wanna put it off for TOO long, for obvious reasons....I-I still need to listen to the songs super early in the month, so I can be fair to them all....

U-uh....I might as well start talking about it, tho, before I go!

Yeah, about Eurovision.....I-I’m still interested in it, but other stuff’s been distracting me, just like last year. Luckily, it’s not....AS bad as last year? At this time last year, I was busy writing Naivete, the biggest project I’d ever done, and that was taking up most of my energy, so Eurovision was pushed to the side for a while (altho I was still able to fit it in). This time, my distractions aren’t as big - just been playing games and keeping up with idol crush, and that’s about it. I don’t really have an excuse to go quiet about it. XD

Some reminiscing about last year’s Eurovision below:

I remember how last year, I never did a final thoughts post like I usually do.....and....there’s a reason for that beyond laziness. I actually did sit down to write one, but....for the first time, I chickened out. It mainly had to do with the discourse around the winner that I’d been seeing here and there. I was intimidated. I wanted to give my opinions on it, but....it felt like, no matter what I said, it would’ve felt like the wrong thing to say, or like it wasn’t my business. S-so, I just....decided it wasn’t worth it, and skipped doing the post. I know I could’ve just talked about my thoughts on the rest of the scoreboard, but no matter what, if I made that post, I would’ve HAD to feel like I had to say SOMETHING about what I felt about Ukraine’s winning song. And now that it’s been almost a year, I feel like I can share my thoughts more comfortably now, so here’s the abridged version of what I wanted to say: I believe that it wasn’t because of pity that they won. That was a really cool song, it was unique, stood out, was insanely catchy, and Ukraine have always had a good track record. The song would’ve been winner material any other year as well. However, I do believe that it WAS because of pity that they won by THAT much specifically (over four hundred points from the televote). And my thoughts on the rest of the results was that I more or less agree with everything except thinking Finland and ESPECIALLY France were robbed. I liked the year overall, and yup, that’s about it.

But, it’s in the past, and that felt good to finally get out of my system. XD Yeah, I dunno how that would’ve gone over with people who care about my opinions last year, pffffff....

One final note is that....in hindsight: while I did like the overall collection of songs in 2021 better than in 2022......in terms of just my favorite song, 2022 wins. While I do have songs I adore every year, I cannot overstate how OBSESSED I was with “Jezebel”, like.....i-in a way I haven’t been obsessed with a single Eurovision entry in years. That song was EVERYTHING to me, and I still love it a year later even with other song obsessions since then. Cuz of that, I’m not expecting anything of that level from this year, cuz I’d most likely disappoint myself by setting my standards too high. Still pretty hyped to see what kind of songs my favorites will be, tho! ^^

#lauri talks to herself #its almost time once again #(i cant believe drowned is a year old now #and naivete will be a year old next month!! geez!)

[raksh-writes]

Alright, finally wrote the email to the repair place about my phone, we'll see what they'll write me back next week. Hopefully it won't be worse than the already pricey repair Im expecting...

The worse thing today, tho, is that I feel extremely brain-fogged and exhausted and can barely focus when I should be studying and all 😔 I might just have to take today off to rest and gather my wits to study more tomorrow, maybe?? Or maybe I'll feel better in the evening, that'd be nice too...

#personal #Raksh posts #also still waiting for my cousin to let me know about that thesis #but she's busy so I'll wait for now and write/call her in the evening #cause if she wont be able to help I gotta either write someone else or prepare for a trip on wendsday ;/ #damn this day #its prob the weather #theres an alert about storms and its so hot and humid and dreadful xd #also had a bad night with not the best sleep and waking up #so yeah today might be the day to take a break xd #Id love to use this dreary day for getting some good fic-writing-feels #but feeling so brainfogged and all prob wont let me ;< #just really really tired I guess 😔 #damn maybe I boot up Skyrim or Divinity and relax some hmmm