#so typing is actually Ideal for me

[icewindandboringhorror]

I was just thinking what a cool job this might be.. what if you were just the person who makes little still images of cute animal figurines doing various activities to post on social media...? like.. show up to work and just spend the whole day like "hmm... this table should be placed to the left a little.. let me set this miniature bagel down in this way... this tiny rabbit should be wearing a scarf", setting the backgrounds, the lighting, etc. ... dream job perhaps lol...

#I'm sure it probably doesnt pay much lol #but.. maybe in some ideal world.. #with my health and mental conditions and level of functioning there are VERY few Jobs I could actually EVER manage aside from #just being self employed and being able to set my own hours somehow etc... But every once in a while I come across something like this #and it's like... hrmm.... Yes... perhaps if I could align myself in this hyper specific scenario under hyper specific conditions in a #precise and predictable way and everything worked out perfectly and I had all the accomodations I might need.. maybe I could #do THAT thing then .. lol #Not just generally a 'social media manager' or something. I think that would drive me into the throes of madness #but SPECIFICALLY 'person who makes the images for the calico critters social media' and also #the place i have to go to do that is either my home or within walking distance of my home and also i rarely have to interact #with others aside from the posts probably going through some approval process and initial ideas where they tell me what #type of scene to make and also i somehow make $90.000 a year doing this for only 4 days a week with frequent sick breaks #dreamy sigh and so on and so forth and such and so on #ANYWAY........ #the idea of meticulously placing little pastries and miniature crayons and stuff around all day until the scene is perfectly crafted.. SO #SO so appealing to me... like designing environments in the sims except it's real and tangible.. And also imagine having access #to the FULL library of miniature items. to me that would be just as good as owning them #Like.. I get to use them and make little scenes with them and hold them and stare at them and everything except also #they're all kept at work so I don't have boxes of clutter filling home. #unlimited access to every little miniature food ever crafted yet none of the downsides (purchase cost and storage) #etc. etc. ANYWAY ... #Chuckling confidently as I add this onto the 'List Of ''Real'' Jobs I Could Do' which is just a notebook sheet of paper with only like 5 #other similarly unlikely hyperspecific scenarios scribbled down

[reasonsforhope]

Crowdsourcing a question

Okay totally personal post here because, now that search engines suck, my research is failing me. So I'm crowdsourcing my question about the residential care work industry!

Hoping at least some of my followers have experience in/with the industry and some intel on this:

Actual question: How common is it for jobs in residential care work (residential centers, btw, not home care) to actually have two people on the night shift? vs. just saying they always have two people on the night shift in interviews and their official policies, and actually it's not true?

Because my current job was, it turns out, apparently totally lying about "you'll never be on shift alone with clients" at orientation (when it comes to the night shift, anyway). Which, holy fucking safety issues, Batman!

Suffice to say this was a very fun thing to find out like three days before my first regular shift

So, I'm thinking realllll hard about switching companies, and I'm trying to figure out if I could expect to actually have a coworker at a different company, or if it's like an open secret in the field that actually, basically all the night shifts end up being solo shifts, because the industry is so chronically understaffed or w/e

#not news #ask #me #ideally only answer if you actually have specific knowledge of or experience with the industry #technically I'm working with disabled clients but also open to other sectors of residential care work if I do get another job #so if it's something that differs by sector please do let me know! #thanks so much #safety issues are for both me and the clients btw #this is not like “I'm afraid of the clients” in any way #it's about the fact that if something happened and I got hurt #I am the only staff in that whole house until morning #and there is MAYYYYYYYBE one client who is actually physically capable of calling for help #if I can't for whatever reason #also!!! this is an incredibly vulnerable client population with horrifyingly high abuse statistics!! #they should not be leaving someone they literally just hired completely alone with the clients every night for eight hours??? #not gonna give more details for many obvious reasons #but like. just. no. don't do that. no. #in any residential care work facility imho but ESPECIALLY in this type of facility #also like if a client has a medical emergency #you're really gonna want both someone who can render aid AND someone who can call 911 and the on-calls and such #and yes the chaos and “surprises” around this job and scheduling is why I haven't been doing original posts lately #so answering also helps me get back to doing that sooner!

[micahthemoon]

May 27 2023 Okay, you know what: I am low key angry about all the buzz that Käärijä is getting for having a normal body. People call him ‘fat’ and having to ‘lose weight’ but to me, he looks muscular and healthy. And it is not just online since I first encountered it irl with two girls calling him ‘Winnie the Pooh’. Do you know how much I’d give to have his body? To have his confidence? He is out there proudly showing his surgical scars and his tummy, and all people can see is that he is not model thin.

#this turned out to be more about jere/käärijä than my own gender identity so I'll elaborate a bit here #when people go after käärijä like this it hurts me and probably other like me since I do really wish I looked like jere #my gender envy tells me that this is the ideal to go for #I have actually never really felt drawn to the hollywood thin men and scrawny boys makes me anxious that I'll break them by touching them #and I know I'll never be thin #so people going after jere feels like an attack because if he is not good enough for you guys I'd never be good enough either #I have a strongly feminine coded body and I hate it even if people compliments it #so if let's say I actually ended up looking like jere then how would people even see me? these people's action tells me that they'd scorn me #scorn me for looking like my ideal self #for looking freaking normal #think about all the people looking like jere right - you are putting them down as well #by commenting negatively on one person's body you do not only hurt the person themselves but everybody with the same body type #or idiots like me having this bodytype as their ideal #micah out #käärijä #jere pöyhönen #esc #esc2023 #transgender #nonbinary #transmasc #gender envy #late entry #entry #findingmicah #also sorry for the rant

[wereshrew-admirer]

conflicting desires for lyke and duvall in sangfielle season 2:

-duvall low-key resenting lyke over the chine thing

-lyke high-key resenting duvall over the oratorio thing and EXPECTING duvall to resent him over chine but instead it's the same one-sided tension that they had on the jade moon

i want them to be involuntary friends. I want it to look like a huge 8ft tall straight* guy calling his obviously gay best friend a wretched bitch and everyone is a little uncomfortable about it except for duvall, who may or may not be behind lyke's bizarrely bad luck when it comes to flies landing in his drinks.

(*i don't think lyke is straight but i do think he's the type of bisexual man that people assume is straight)

#broken record voice #i don't often have trans headcanons actually but sangfielle is an exception... #to me the blackwick group is T4TvsT4TvsT+ marn #lyke is joyfully trans - he's 8 ft tall because he went overboard with the transition magic #pickman and duvall are both stealth because they grew up in oppressive societies #pickman is deeply uncomfortable how vulnerable it makes her feel - she doesn't exactly hide it but will kill u for mentioning it #duvall does hide it but only because he's been hate crimed #until sapodilla - after which he receives the most idealized form of instant-srs from the bugs that his gender euphoria sky rockets #and he doesn't tell anyone exactly but everyone in the blackwick group clocks him on the change #pickman hates it and thinks he doesn't deserve such an easy out #lyke wouldprobably be happy for him if he wasn't pissed over the oratorio #es is the most well adjusted and is privately very happy for him but polite enough not to mention it #chine is trans but in the “this animal does not experience human gender and it's inappropriate to even try to make sense of it” way #chine is also the only one who has seen duvall in every stage of transition and has been enthusiastically supportive the whole time #marn is cis but if any of them hadn't already transitioned then she'd be trying to treat it like a curse to be cured. #i think pickman has had the most traditional medical transition because she distrusts magic - until she meets marn who absolutely #already has a recipe for an hrt-charm and gives one to her #duvall did some sort of terrible black-market medical transition in aldomina - the kind where he had to lie to ten thousand therapists #to convince them that he was actually a straight man and so he should be allowed to transition because a straight trans guy is safer #to society than a lesbian?? that type of horrorshow. meanwhile he's exclusively mlm (or as exclusive as he can be while fucking chine) #which pickman would have respected because to be trans is to suffer for it but nooo instead she didn't even know he was trans until the bug #transition #es is just chill. duvall eventually got a magical bug transition? well es is the magical bug for syntyche #sorry this went way off topic #i am avoiding going to work can you tell? woops #this was all to basically say that i think it'd be funny if #before the bug transition duvall low-key resented lyke for having been able to access magic transition. some guys have all the luck

[fallingbyjuleecruise]

every day i think about the ansur plot in act 3 could've actually had emotional weight if larian studios gave a shit about wyll. damn.

#like the whole gauntlet is about expressing the type of heroism that wyll has striven for his entire life. #the way the quest is so prototypical in it's fairy tale sensibility of the honest and true hero awaking a dragon under the city and - #saving the day and he goes through this whole gauntlet that's a test of how well he ascribes to the ideals of balduran and his father - #and everything he ever clung to to validate himself to himself after being coerced into mizora's deal as a 17 year old kid and then - #he succeeds! he passes the tests! only to find that ansur (literally named answer) is an undead abomination you have to put down #like it's SO SAD. and to me a big part of his story is accepting who HE is. seeing himself outside of his deal w mizora or what his father #wanted him to be and the fact that wyll isn't allowed to have a big emotional reaction to the ansur situation is so annoying #in fact wyll doesn't EVER get to have an emotional reaction to anything bc larian studios doesn't care enough to flesh his story out - #despite giving him one of the most interesting ideas for a character in the game! like act 3 should be WYLL'S act! he's so tied into - #everyone important in that act that it's actually a crime that he's sidelined the most there and he doesn't have enough vocal fans - #that larian studios will ever care enough to patch his story or add anything like they did for karlach or astarion. it's so dumb. #and it sucks that the writers don't recognize wyll's abuse bc his abuser is a hot devil lady. what she does to him is sick. god. #anyway. whatever. #baldur's gate 3 #my posts #.txt

[a-wins-a-win]

unpopular opinion?? maybe?

Matt & Ivy have a really interesting dynamic!! both pre- and post-canon!! with or without romantic undertones!! either reciprocal or one-sided!!

and obviously it has to be handled with a particular level of care/respect BUT I think if we allowed them enough grace there is space to explore a really interesting possibility for that relationship.

#obviously Matt is not ENTITLED to Ivy - im absolutely not saying that at all #and he definitely did a lot of things extremely wrong and Ivy doesn’t HAVE to forgive him - she doesn't even have to *like* him #and in many stagings she actually doesn’t at all! even pre-canon she isn't into him on a *platonic* level - which i love for her #but I also think that - misguided & clumsy about it though he was - Matt is genuinely trying his best to see her as a person. #an idealized version of a person yes. but a person nonetheless. #which is what Ivy wants from Jason (and tbf he sees her as a person also but it’s an obviously different situation) #and while you can't force romantic compatibility (that was like. the whole point.) in some versions of the show they're not-quite-dating #- in varying types of “situationship” with varying levels of commitment. so it's not insane to me to say hey #maybe they need time to stabilize themselves and figure out who they are again after the events of the show. but maybe a couple years - #- down the line they reconnect and they're both in a better place & maybe this time it can all work out. #idk I think I just see a lot of people write it off entirely - and they’re well within their rights to do so don’t get me wrong #but I don’t think it’s fair necessarily to put them in the ‘doomed to fail’ category #wow okay I care about them as a pair more than I realised #tldr; give Matt & Ivy and their relationship dynamic the grace + complexity they deserve #mouse talks bapo #bare a pop opera #Ivy Robinson #Matt Lloyd #[as a side note - sometimes I think about queer Matt & transmasc Ivy & the interesting concept of their potential boyfriendism]

[singsweetmelodies]

your mom being a springbok supporter omg I love that😭 would u consider writing fics about them tho ?🇿🇦

morning anon! ohhh, great question - but i'm afraid it's going to have to be a no, for various reasons. firstly because, well, i simply don't know enough about rugby or about the team... my mum might be a big rugby fan but i'm not, really. i only ever watch 2 or 3 matches once every four years for the world cup 🥲

secondly, even if i did know more about rugby, i would still have to say no because my writer's block is currently so bad that it's even extending to my PhD. (🤣😭) in all seriousness though, i can't write anything of quality at the moment, and the second i do get my writing mojo back, i have a whole list of f1 rpf fics that i need and want to get to.

sorry to disappoint, love! but i hope this answers your question 🥰

#asks & answers #anon #fic asks #of sorts? lmao 🥲 #anon i'm very sorry that i wrongfully gave you the impression that i know anything about rugby 🥲 #that is not the case i'm afraid #like i said; i only ever really watch the last couple of matches of the world cup and only because my mum makes me #soooo uhhh... not ideal fic scenarios lmao #ALSO - and this is quite personal #i am actually related to someone on the springboks team 🙈🙈 not very closely or anything - he is my second cousin - but still #the degree of separation there is FAR too close for comfort for me #d'you know what i mean? #so even if i DID know more about rugby and DIDN'T have writers block it would STILL be a no because yeah. there is a line #i would feel way way too weird to even consider doing it for any amount of time 🙈🥲 #I FEEL WEIRD EVEN JUST TYPING OUT THESE ASKS #akshdjdhdjdhdjdj and i don't even know the guy well... we have met maybe twice #BUT STILL #🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲 #it's an absolute no from me i'm sorry anon #(P.S. - the person i am related to is NOT faf de klerk. i just wanted to make that quite clear before i hit post on this 🤣😭) #(there's no way that i'm going to say who it *is* because yeah - degree of separation - but pls it is NOT FAF xD)

[anime-scarves]

Took my laptop apart at to clean it (at 3:30am as you do) and took some time to poke around and look at the internals.

This ram is so ancient that it out to be in a museum. It seems like 1333mhz ddr3 was quite reasonable at the time, especially in a laptop. But nowadays I'm pretty sure my phone is generations more powerful. Kind of insane how computing power has rocketed forward in just a decade or so. I've never even heard of super talent before lol. They seem to be a bargain computer hardware company of sorts.

Honestly kind of a miracle that the laptop still works. It got used and abused as a main work station and routinely ran in the ~90'C range with many blue screens over the year due to over heating or corrupted memory. Now that I think about it I had an issue once where the ram was corrupted but reseating them and running memtest brought them back to life. It was strange, but you take the rare Ws that don't involve individually testing every stick of ram in every ram slot only to find out your mobo is broken.

This was 4am tech ramblings with Scarves.

#text #the laptop is literally falling apart #you have to press the power button a certain way or it wont turn on #and the key that types the last digit of my password doesnt register keystrokes like half the time #but it got me here #real hero of a laptop #im pretty sure the hard drive is moments away from bricking #it sits at 100% usage all the time #which is not ideal #this is also a windows thing #but ya #its not really worth trouble shooting #i just play VNs on it in bed sometimes #it has actually blue screened from playing VNs before #which is a real indicator of its general health #i tried to play genshin on it once #and it did run #but the fans spun up so hard it was about to take off #i thiiiink it has a gtx 670m? #or maybe a 700 series laptop card #i dont remember #but it played things suprisingly well #just got a million degrees hot #i should go to sleep

[angeltism]

I'm sooo hot

#➳ the fool speaks #srry jk I'm Nawt . i love myself . i mean i could be less mentally ill but my looks ? my interests ? my taste in music ? #again if i were someone else and knew me . does that make sense . I'd have the FATTEST fucking crush on myself godddddd #cute brunette with glasses who occasionally dresses like . vaguely alt ? who listens to rock ? fuuuuuuck it'd be over for me #i kinda am my own type honesy #*honestly #from my looks to how i try to be with my partner to my interests to like 95% of my personality #mmmmmmphhh #i mean I'd benefit from someone who's less dramatic than I am and complains less openly n stuff . erm #but I'm working on that !! so I'm on track to become my own ideal partner actually . i should just buy a big mirror and wheel it around w m #everywhere and date myself . joke . i crave intimacy with another separate living being . but still DAMNNNN i love myself . I'm nawt perfec #but I'm going a pretty damn good job at this whole life thing . so far . i guess ! #** feel i should clarify ''srry jk I'm nawt'' is ''sorry haha nevermind I'm nawt sorry I'm super hot and unapologetically think that way #about myself'' but i think w the rest of this it's obvious i meant it that way djdjsjdjdj

[icewindandboringhorror]

Obligatory fancier outfit that must be present anytime I post outfits 

#self #fantasy costume #If I had the money for a custom tailored fantasy-ish victorian-ish suit instead of piecing together random thrift store items with like walm #rt halloween costume type jackets and stuff.. #unstoppable..... #I would actually lean more straight up historical with my wardrobe it's just that everything I own basically is thrifted aside from a very #small portion of things (like usually socks for example I get from ebay. wigs from ebay. things that it's hard to find in thrift stores. etc #) and I rarely ever find stuff like that at the bins. Your closest bet is like. hopeing that the week you come in just so happens to also be #a week that a church costume department recently donated a bunch of old stuff. but I just haven't really had much luck finding like fancy ve #sts and suit coats and cloaks or like tunics and etc. etc. #Styles like mori kei or cult party kei are pretty accessible and easy for places like the bins (where youre usually digging through piles of #curtains and fabric scraps and doilies anyway). but finding like.. a straight up tudor england costume or something is . VERY rare #Sometimes you do find halloween costumes. Or like. stuff that's clearly like cheap 'Goth' stuff from shein or aliexpress that someone has do #nated and they can be a LITTLE okay in terms of usable for costumes. But you rarely find actual good quality stuff. obviously because like #real very good quality historical costumes are expensive and most people aren't just like 'yeah dump it off to goodwill' lol #In an ideal world though I would have fancy top hats and neck ruffles and stuff .. know this ghhjbhj #Lack of that will not stop me from taking picturesin basically the same outfit 6000 times though. My one single silky black vest and #one of the two solitary ruffly neck shirts I have every been able to find. #Pointy-ish little boots that I put with everything even thogugh they look terrible up close because they're literally like over 10 yrs old #I bought them so long ago and the black fake leather lining is like peeling off of the outside #ANYWAY #he's back again... the same little generic like elf vampire ruffle shirt with vest look.. might as well be the same guy #I support him and his dumbass disintegrating shoes anyway

[this-should-do]

ykno i think that only ever being told im physically appealing by drs saying i could be prettier if i did this or that or lost weight or by my mom trying to emphasize how im a pretty GIRL to invalidate my desire to be more masculine most of my life probably affected my ability to feel good about my body

#like genuinely i have not been complimented on my looks for a majority of my life by peers #like ive had friends recently like say im slaying or looking good but like in the face kf yhings it doesnt like do anything i guess like #its what friends do #i had a person j used to be friends comlliment me once about me looking hot and sexy and i started feeling nauseus so i dont know what thats #all about so its like would i even want people tk ckmpliment on looking good? do j need that? how does it work why would i need it #when i dont really desire the types of relationships where being attractive matters #if im in my ideal state of mind i dont even register my body its seperate from me and im just my thoughts so i dktn have to think about #my ohysicality but when i have to register myself i just feel ugly but even more it all just feels wrong to have a body at all and thats #prob where the transness comes in tbh #like i dunno is it better for me to have avoided being told over and over that im worthy becuz im attractice as a woman or is that a symptom #kf me just being ugly that nobody ever commented on my body aside from adults daying how cute and ptetty i am and then my mom telling them #that im actually really smart to help me value my mind over my body becuz she grew up being ugly while also thinking shes stupid #like #like all of this to result in me being ugly no matter what way i cut it and i cant even bring myself to care much about it most of them time #even tho it feels mishapen in my mind as a feeling #its like bad and i look at myself in the mirror and i feel bad i look bad my face is wrong and its like the strongest feeling i feel some #days for those brief seconds i see myself and then j look away and it goes away and im back to having normal bland brain waves #its kinda fucked

[subconsciousmysteries]

love my bf love my life but that one song by Corey Taylor gives me war flashbacks to all the 48 combos I've loved before and I secretly listen to it sometimes when I'm bored with healthiness and I want to feel pain again

#Drama is an addiction #Nothing else #Forever grateful to the healing crowd for teaching me abt trauma bonds #Really broke the illusion of my intense feelings being True Love #With my bf where things are healthy #The love takes time to grow #It has taken a year for it to grow to where it was instantly with the 4/8 dudes I was with #When you stay together committed even during those times when you aren't euphoric about each other... it shows realness #My exes were the type to cry and whinge and panic abt the relationship being a waste as soon as I stopped being their perfect ideal #as soon as their feelings mildly shifted it was a BIG DEAL and I had to scramble to save the relationship #See this is the downside of True Eros Relationships tm #as soon as the mood shifts it's a big disaster because the relationship is built on nothing but feelgoodies and illusions #When the relationship is also built on pragmatic things like finances ambitions and family #You value each other based on things other than Muh Feels (ie your virtues and talents and skills and what you physically bring to the tabl #So the relationship doesn't fall apart based on stupid teenage mood swings #I used to think relationships were all about feelings but that's actually not the case at all #I think partly because the type of men I was into wanted relationships to be all about blind illogical feelings #They shamed women for thinking pragmatically and opportunistically about relationships. #But my bf is exactly like me in that department and I was so thrilled to be understood #My bf praises me for the things that my ex called me narcissistic and evil and deceptive for #Like being aware that I have options #Anyways my bf could be a 48 combo which would be hilarious cuz it would make this post stupid #But he's 7 core so that cancels out all the negative stupidity of other 48s

[jlf23tumble]

I'm really trying to understand. I know Joshua does take good pics but some of his pics are awful and they still get so much praise. I'm seeing comments "I know the pic is blurry but it fits Louis' tour aesthetics". Seriously? Is that the excuse now? "This pic looks like shit but it fits Louis' tour aesthetics". Since that pic Harry posted on IG that was super super blurry, which I think he was trying to make a point with. That fans don't control him. I thought Lloyd's pics have got better since. They show more of the audience. I really like his recent pics that show Harry and the audience. They give a vintage postcard kind of feel. Old school. But he's still being trashed as ever. Sometimes I'll see a pic and think... that's not that bad so surely they won't be trashing that. But they will be, always are. He can't do any right. But Joshua can't do any wrong. I think it could be partly because Joshua talks to the fans on twitter. So they feel 'closer' to him. They're still incredibly bitter about the iHeart? tour photography award going to Lloyd, while also saying that it means nothing. If it means nothing then why still so bitter? Why the desperate push to vote for Joshua? They say that Lloyd only won the award because of Harries. Well yes. If Joshua won the award it would be because of Louies and Larries. That's how fan voted awards go. If anyone does like Lloyd's pics they get insulted for having bad taste. They really despise Lloyd and they just don't stop complaining about him. Why is it always like this? That everyone Harry works with is hated by the fandom and everyone Louis works with is loved?

I'm sitting here, nodding my head as I read this like a goddamned kitsch toy dog on the dashboard of someone's bitchin' Camaro because yeah, YEAH. I have some thoughts about it that I'm sure I'm not all that articulate about, so I'll take it to the tags and let your ask just shine up here, uninterrupted yet fully appreciated

#a lot of my thoughts go on pure vibes and gut instinct vs. proof #so take it with a grain of salt #but there's SUCH a weirdness in the fandom reaction to harry's photographers vs. louis's when louis's admit they love and emulate harry's! #and i don't know if it's larries exclusively or if it's beyond that #with helene it was fucked up STRAIGHT UP misogyny from the larrie camp #super telling on so many levels and even more so because her pictures absolutely mirror his (see: his super artsy ig posts) #and the stuff she does professionally is so varied that it's even MORE telling when said people tried to say she was a shitty photographer #she's not--not even a little--and she outright said he picked the shots that she took that he loved the most and chose them to post #and that's true for both anthony and lloyd by the way: harry is looking for a certain aesthetic and they are providing it #and he is both paying them and selecting the pictures he likes best to share #if he thought they were awful--he'd fire 'em (just like he has with actual people in his band lol i kid) #i've long wondered if he is just so sick of the slick perfect idealized shots of himself that fans create and manipulate #shots that echo the manmade boybandness of it all #and he has his own eye for what he finds beautiful or interesting and it just merges in what he wants to represent himself #it's so FASCINATING it's multilayered and yet you STILL have these dumdums out there bitching about how much they hate lloyd #as if it's HIS fault his boss is pushing for a specific type of aesthetic--if you hate it take it up with his boss #and if you 'don't understand it' take it up with his boss #the fandom urge for this squeaky clean perfect image that absolutely matches simon cowell's for the same is mighty funny in a real venn way #me? i cannot fathom why you wouldn't want to see what a celeb is actually choosing to use to represent themselves #ESPECIALLY when it's not pretty-pret #and then to turn around and blow some smoke up the ass of someone who is doing the thing you HATE SO MUCH with your other fave #yet you have special stupid baby tags for it when it's someone else? #i don't think it's any subconcious hatred of louis or anything when it's from the biggies repping larr nation #but it's mighty curious when you have at least two photographers from louis's camp #doing the EXACT same thing as harry's photographers #and at least one of them citing at least one of his as an icon to emulate #yet....silence #and even worse this weirdo urge to push some kind of larrie interaction on joshua and lloyd #the fan-voted thing was extra funny to me on so many levels my god #i'll shut up now i've officially entered old man yells at cloud territory

[aqqleshiqqing-archive]

MY FRIENDS!!!! I REALLY LOVE THEM 🥺🥺🥺💞💞💞💞

#this made me smile so hard... because they actually. like they make me feel so giddy i really love them as a whole #i lowkey did this just to add them to my platonics carrd profile hehe but it looked so much better than i expected #im veru audible about tom but i love them just as much 🤧 they're my ideal type of friends #like its chaotic but also very chill #yeah <3 #ahhhwhs them 😭😭😭 #also this is their canonical heights!! thought it'd be cool to add that #edd is hunching a lil but hes the tallest #tom is the shortest heheh but not to jesse just an inch or so #~ art #♦️ jesse protection squad

[cosmic-cd]

thinking about leon again tonight

#cosmo rambles #i need to get back to playing around with the Hazel and Leon get Eeby Deebied to Hisui thing #because i think still the dynamic of leon being very athletic and strategic while hazel is more on the artsy side and is like #more ideal in a support role is really fun #leon willing to go out there and wrestle a garchomp while gushing about how fantastic it is at physical attacking #while hazel sits by and sketches it for the pokedex and makes little notes about what they found in the environment #leon building himself a new team around types he's never tried before and picking the weaker starter to hazel's to give himself a challenge #hazel somehow letting leon goad her into actually taking a rival role against her despite never really having rivals before #unless you count blue making her so so so so mad but that's unrelated. she'll fight him without a pokemon #leon's understanding of battle mechanics and what each pokemon needs to thrive and what it's capable of beyond just its typing delights me #while hazel tends to be like me- less strategic and more about getting those type advantages in LOL #also having two trainers taking on nobles and filling the dex with their own roles to make things smoother is fun #but also because im imagining leon and hazel sitting together as hazel draws and talking as they peacefully watch pokemon from afar #or running for their lives together or riding on wyrdeer's back together #on top of that just. the two of them going to paldea together for a temporary teaching gig and getting swept into things #keeping an eye worriedly on students and Oh God No What Do You Mean the World is Ending. Again #theyll go on a vacation to kalos after this. and because XY has already happened theres no stress there #they just get to get into some mega evolution training. the most stress is red blue and green show up like hiiii #red and leon get into the most heated rivalry imaginable and hazel is being pulled away from her pokepuffs #god this is getting so long. im just thinking so hard im sorry IF YOU READ THIS FAR THANK YOU IM SORRY

[sanchoyo]

guess who got a JOB 👈👈😎

#idk how itll actually be but it sounds good in theory!!! #they can do my hours + benefits!!! on part time!!! (GOOD benefits too!!!) PLS LET IT WORK OUT....PRAYER CIRCLE #i dont start until MAYBE next week (or later depending on the speed of the background check/drug test stuff) BUT....it SOUNDS good to me #ill be workin Alone for the most part...just Vibin in my Own Area...free food/drinks too!! #i rly would like for it to work . bc this was GREAT TIMING i lose my dads insurance v v soon like 1 month T_T was starting to sweat over it #AND ITS NOT FAST FOOD OR RETAIL (HUGE W IF I HAD TO GO BACK I WOULD START BAWLING) #+ the boss seemed v nice and chill (and had sick tats) (I DONT HAVE TO DYE MY HAIR A NORMIE COLOR EITHER!!! DOUBLE W) #sanchoyorambles #very very happy. and so nervous i will probably puke #there were no interview questions btw it was just us cracking jokes + paperwork i got hired on the spot B) #i mean /i/ had questions but like none of the usual bs like #'where do u see urself in 5 years. why is this ur ideal job' type shit which was GREAT bc i hate those qs SO MUCH #we all know im here for money. and benefits. we do not need 2 play these games #but actually dishwasher or janitor kinda IS my ideal job?? so??? lol actually #i LIKE chill jobs where im cleaning things im GOOD at it when i had a higher pressure job where my work actually like #could influence HOW WELL AMBULANCES WORKED. IF I MISREAD A BLUEPRINT OR DIDNT DO MINOR THINGS RIGHT. THATWAS SCARY AND TOO MUCH PRESSURE #i mean my real dream job is artist/writer/otherwise creative in nature but. yknow! not realistic rn so....we r doing what we gotta 😤 #i...will try very hard this time #i NEED that debt to be paid off fr