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hauntedrain · 3 months

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Part 1: For our own Sanity | Alex Turner x Fem! Reader |

social media AU Summary: Alex and reader's relationship turns public after a string of events.

✮▹A/N: So my first time doing a social media AU, so hopefully its okay <3

✰▹Warnings/Notices: Face claim is Sabrina Carpenter, mentions of age gap (Reader is about 25), I used Milo Manheim as an Ex of the reader. Potentially very bad cuz this is my first social media AU. Some old photos used, Not edited.

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@PeopleMagazine: Y/N L/N continues to amaze as she and fellow singer-songwriter are spotted together in New York, Only 8 months after her breakup with Milo Manheim with whom she spent 2 years together with. More on this couple and Y/N L/N's relationships and reputation.

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user1: isnt she dating people left and right?

↪ user2: Yes, so for Alex's sake I would run. And look at that age gap!

↪ User3: You guys are actually crazy, Alex doesn't need to run, and her past relationships have ended because of her PARTNERS' stupid decisions.

User4: This girl can't catch a break can she? Yall are on her 24/7.

↪ User5: LITERALLY. They shamed her like a week ago for making an album, it's her job!

User6: Anyways, live laugh love Y/N and Alex.

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@Y/N L/N: I truly love coming and performing in New York and I can't wait for next time ❥ Thank you guys for being so kind and lovely. Now onto my UK tour!

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User7: I fear... it's a serve.

User8: I need confirmation about the Alex photos or else I might die.

↪ user9: She doesn't need to confirm to anything, it's her private life.

↪ User10: You act as though she doesn't flaunt her relationship like crazy, she probably even knew about or called the paps to take those photos.

↪ User11: Exactly, she's always been the one to get a man and show him and their relationship off for a bit, then break up and make an album. It's giving clout chaser and a form of gold-digging.

↪ User 12: Milo has 2.4 million followers on Instagram. she has 32 million. i don't think she is the one clout chasing or being a gold digger.

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@Y/Nupdates: Y/N and Alex Turner both have arrived at the Grammy's Award Show! Both arrived separately but sources say that both are hanging around each other for the most part.

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User13: Both are GLOWING.

↪ User14: Exactly what I came here to say.

User15: So they are dating?

↪ User16: Nothing is confirmed and it's none of our business anyway.

↪ User17: let us have our fun. Both are big in the music industry, so we're bound to get excited. Like, imagine all the new music.

User18: I've seen some people say that they left together after the show.

↪ User19: I need to know if this is true RIGHT NOW.

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@Arcticmonkeys: 2/14/24

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User19: IM SORRY WHAT?!

User20: what the fuck is that last slide.

↪ User 21: IF THATS Y/N IMMA SCREAM.

User 22: On valentines day?! THIS IS GONNA BE GOOD.

Y/N L/N: Cant wait.

↪ User 23: WHAT.

↪ User 24: I swear to god you need to tell us all the secrets or else we're going to go crazy.

⭒❃.✮:▹A/N: I hope this is good and that you like it! Ill make part 2 soon. Sorry for being so inactive life is just getting busy. However, I'm really excited about this one and I'm also excited about other fics too. Other than that, thank you so much, and love you guys! PART 2 POSTED

#alex turner #alex turner x reader #alex turner x you #alex turner x y/n #alex turner x oc #the last shadow puppets #arctic monkeys #am #fluff #fanfic #alex turner imagine #alex turner fanfic #alex turner fic #alex turner fluff #smau #social media

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definitelynotshouting · 10 months

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I think I asked earlier and I forgot the answer or maybe you hadn’t decided yet, but you recently mentioned the difference between spawned players and born players again. I think you mentioned spawned players are more common - are any of the people we know and love (hermits or otherwise) born rather than spawned? Or are they all spawned??

I’m fascinated by the concept of spawned vs born players actually, and the way you said they’d have to get a comm specially made and fitted. Is there a minimum age a player needs to be for this? Actually what’s the lifespan of a player like, and how old are born players and spawned players each when they reach a similar developmental stage? I presume it’s different because spawned players are in a single player world alone whereas I assume born players are babies and thus need caring for?? Or how does that work.

I’m just. Fascinated anew by this concept which I had forgotten about until you mentioned it haha.

Omg hello!!! I genuinely dont think ive seen your previous ask, but 😅😅 i have a lot of them in my inbox rn, so i very well may have intended to reply and then lost the notification and accidentally forgotten

Either way, some of your questions have been answered in one of the very first posts i ever made about hunger au!!! Which means its probably VERY easy to miss since theres so much content in the tag now 💀 i really do need to post a link to my current masterlist for yall so it'll be easier to keep track of lore WODNKDNSKSK new project time YIPPEEEE <- loves organizing

As for the stuff that isnt included in that post, i'd say that yes, you do need to be of a certain age to get fitted with a comm-- im not quite sure what the requirement is, but its probably around when you first hit the double digits, maybe about 10ish?? Culturally it depends on the Player's parents/caretakers, but i think most born Players get their comms around ages 12-14.

Lifespan for Players is on the same level as arctic sponges here-- they live for a while before their code begins to destabilize of natural causes. Thousands of years at least. This is a pretty young universe relatively speaking, so several of the oldest Players who first spawned in are actually still around!!!

There are only two born Players on Hermitcraft, and those are Joe Hills and TFC. Mostly for vibes, and because the idea of the oldest looking hermit being technically younger than several of the others highly amuses me. Everyone else spawned in!! Since born Players are such a minority, it felt right to keep everyone else in the cast as spawned Players :]

Im so glad you like all this worldbuilding!!! :D everyone who says they find it fascinating makes me SO happy like i cannot even tell you, because for the longest time i felt like worldbuilding was one of my biggest weaknesses. So its really reassuring to hear im getting better at it and people enjoy it!! thank you for stopping by!! :]

#shouting speaks #asks #hunger au #hermitcraft #joe hills #tfc #mcyt #minecraft worldbuilding #txt

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hatsunegarfield · 2 months

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tumblrz cool cuz i kno none of yall kno me and the ones that do are too far away to gaf but man im abt to vent post on main

my god every night ive been dreaming of old friends. fully innocuous dreams, not of friends i had fallings out with but just those who drifted away. we go out to eat, go on road trips, ride roller-coasters and stay in cool creepy hotels together. they look the same age they did when we last interacted but ive grown. they know me, know the things we lived through together, the growth we've experienced together. im 21 now and so horrifically lonely that my unconscious mind is providing me with the only platonic connects ive ever known, the ones i desperately crave. they're such happy dreams, i wake up having enjoyed our outings til im brought back to the reality of it all. im not 16 anymore, we dont talk anymore. they dont confide in me anymore, laugh with me til their stomach hurts, quietly take in the scenery as we meander through spaces we obviously dont belong, learning, growing, seeing all that we can outside our scope. we arent sharing cigs or passing bottles on my back porch anymore. we arent middle schoolers sneaking boxed wine and messing with ouija boards anymore. we arent camping together, exploring together, learning together. but we still do in my dreams. we still get to be stupid teens and 20 somethings in my dreams.

i love my fiancé to death. he IS my best friend, my closest confidant, my 24/7, my everything. but its just not the same as having a friend. a best friend, who knows you inside and out beyond that romantic connection because they have seen you at your absolute worst. theyve seen you green out and smack your head into the corner of a wall at 14. theyve formed a barrier with their bodies in the PE locker room to make sure no one saw your body or your scars at 12, they posed for the cutest little picture of you in your halloween costumes together at 6, sitting in your kindergarten class. and we are all such different people now, and i miss them so dearly, but i know the distance was intended to be. but god i miss them so deeply theyve infiltrated my dreams and honestly i cant even be truly mad. as opposed to sleepless nights and physically torturous nightmares, im getting to be young again, with the people who knew me inside out and backwards, who knew me better than myself and loved me anyways. who ha# a much longer, much deeper, DRASTICALLY different connection to me than any romantic partner could truly have.

i miss them so badly. even the ones i resent for us falling apart, i miss them. i miss them so deeply that some nights the only place i feel at home is my own dreams.

i was warned adulthood would be lonely. i never bought it. i believed we'd be friends forever.

now im sitting in the bath drunk, posting on this hell site about how much i miss those i truly loved, truly adored, truly wouldve taken a bullet for.

god, GOD the loneliness aches in a way ive never felt before. please. please keep close to your friends. even dispite a natural, amicable distance, please check up on them once in a while.

my failure to do so has resulted in a pit in my chest that i dont think any therapy or substance could truly ever remedy fully. a deep ache that only really rears its head in my dreams.

please dont let yourself fade to nothing as i did.

#vent #adulthood

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iconsumeheadcanons · 2 years

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not gonna lie, it really feels like every post here that i see about ppl not having reading comprehension and being unable to understand metaphors and getting whiny about english teachers and there motifs is just full on (unintentionally or not) making fun of ppl w different education and different brains.

like cool im glad that youre so good at reading. im not. i try my best. i learn every day to the best of my ability. im never going to be at your level and making fun of me is not helping. now everything i say sounds stupid bc i missed the point or the joke that was "so damn obvious". im sorry i dont work like you.

like my teachers tried so much. not all of them were great tho (WHICH IS SO IMPORTANT IN THIS CONTEXT BTW) but it doesn't matter how nice someone is to me or how much they spell it out to me, im not going to be able to do it on my own. im sorry i dont look at the red curtains and think of [insert obvious motif here] and im sorry that metaphors go over my head and im sorry im fucking trusting that ppl arent willfully lying. im not media literate.

i know im making this about me when its not, but im the kind of tumblr ppl getting pointed out here so idk. i really like that post that describes diff types of literacy and what spots someone could be lacking in! a constructive look at the differences in communication!! also can we PLEASE acknowledge the role of Education. why can we acknowledge that older ppl arent going to be 'politically correct' bc they didnt grow up that or felt a need to say different (ie old queer ppl who use whatever labels are considered 'rude' now) but we cant acknowledge that many ppl don't have the "right" brain for what ur saying? or that their school is hot shit at literature education? theres an actual fucking reason we complained about lit teachers making us find a secret correct understanding of a situation of a grade. bc we didnt understand and no matter how much they say that we should that we still dont. bc the teachers can try their best but theyre not going to get some neurodivergent kids to completely understand metaphors.

(sorry non americans im about to talk about us here i know yall dont need to deal w this part) post about americans not knowing about other countries until such and such age? and there were Americans making fun of others (who may or may not have been lying, tho im gonna say most werent bc what a thig to lie about) bc they mustve been so damn stupid to not know about other countries right?? like as if that has nothing to do w schooling, location, culture, and a million other things. i didnt know ither countries existed untill o was like 12. yes i have some unusual circumstances (no tv being an important one) but i was just a normal kid living an average life in the us. sure my school didnt teach me and my parents didnt, but why would i, as an english speaking 8 year old w a completely american family in the countryside and no forseeable need to leave my gigantic nationalist country, need to Know about Other Countries? as stupid as this sounds (bc thay would be bigoted to say) its true? what would an average monolingual child in the us w no money need to know about other countries YET? are we gonna make fun of kids for that? or are we gonna acknowledge that education and stuff is not equal?

i know im still fucking worked up about this bc im being too sensitive or whatever. but shut up please. we may not have known before how sucky at CERTAIN literature things as the rest, but we know and theres not much that we can do but try our best. so shut up about ur superior brain and ur superior schooling. im glad that u are able to touch the magical hidden words in poetry and articles and whatnot. like seriously i am!! that can be such a useful life skill!! i don't have it. i never got it, and unless i have some miracle teacher or feel the need to spend years perfecting my 'commom sense' reading skills? i probably never will. i can still get enjoyment out of literature! maybe i read too much baby stuff and thats a problem, but i havent read adult literature that actually hit some magical Brain Thinking Worldy thought so. whatever.

#not many ppl or gonna see this #im just yelling in a void #if this somehow makes it pass the 20 ppl here i might die #boop.txt #tldr; please remember disparities in education and also that language disorders and literal diversity in brain function are a thing #you giys are teachers so i absolutely understand why you get tired of ppl like me who seem to misinterpret everything u say #but. but. but.#please stop acting like 'ur illiterate ' is an insult thats useful to anybody #ill shut up now! im not really speaking for anybody but myself but i know theres ppl who can understand my hurt here #actually lets all shut up and let this shit go!!! kthxbai #long post

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nako-doodles · 3 years

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check in tag 😌

tagged by the cutest babes @jaehyukkies @gimbapchefs @taesjpg @joenns @honsool @taehyungq @himbojin @jiminswn & @kimtaegis mwah! ✨✨

1. Why did you choose your url?

namjoon bought a duck mold, ventured out into a snowy day in winter, and gave me the greatest tweet i have ever seen

2. Any sideblogs? If you have them name them and why you have them

the day i gain the ability to wrangle more than one blog ill let yall know

3. How long have you’ve been on tumblr?

*starts calculating time furiously and almost burns out her single braincell* ive been here since like freshman year high school.....so............2010? 2011? ive deleted and restarted like 3 times tho so.........also you can calculate my exact age now (as if I dont have my age on my carrd aiowgjiorajgo)

4. Do you have a queue tag?

no we dont tag we just chaos in this house *finger guns*

5. Why did you start your blog in the first place?

i took a break from tumblr and kpop and then decided I wanted to make a bts blog out of the blue

6. Why did you choose your icon?

i drew all these tiny snow ducks i might as well capitalize on them yknow? really embrace my duck persona (Kim Namjoon witness the person you have made me)

7. Why did you choose your header?

honestly my entire blog brand at this point can be narrowed down to the hour ish (probably) joon spent wrangling snow into duck molds, placing them together for the twt, and captioning them ducktan sonyeondan (im on the look out for new ideas im ready for a change lmk if you have ideas 🥰)

8. What’s your post with the most notes?

i think its this post?? of the babies on rollerblades from that one iconic dynamite stage. and on that note tumblr should be able to let me filter based on note count instead of forcing me to rely one my shoddy terrible no good math skills. asking me to compare numbers bigger than 0? despicable.

9. How many mutuals do you have?

absolutely no fucking clue 🥰🥰🥰 i do love them to the moon (Kim Seokjin) and back tho!!!!

10. How many followers do you have?

ngl its still wild for me that even one of yall follow me thank you 🥺🥺🥺 its a great honor that you have bestowed upon me

11. How many people do you follow?

303 bc I like it when numbers are palindromes and also bc im bad at checking new blogs

12. Have you ever made a shitpost?

would like you to direct you to my #shirley you cant be serious.txt tag

13. How often do you use tumblr each day?

i try my best to “clean out” my blog (reply to my dms/askbbox, check out my mentions, scroll for new content i may have missed etc.) in the mornings and evenings when i have the time. ive been kinda bad at this lately bc its been hectic here in shirley headquarters but ill get to everyone soon I promise!! (this sounds like bad. its not!!! its just that leaving things stresses me out? like how i like replying to texts as soon as i see them or reply emails as fast as i can. ‘unresolved’ correspondence feels rude.)

14. Did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? Who won?

no im the type to unfollow/block/ignore if someone did or said something i dont agree with without a word

15. How do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts?

i get the need for those signal boost posts and promulgating important information but (and this is going to sound selfish) tumblr is my destress zone. i go here when the world is being overwhelming and terrible. i certainly read and educate myself as much as my mental health will let me, and i try my best to promote information and donate whenever i can, but i feel like social media has caused some people here to be too into canceling, managing, and being performative in their ‘wokeness.’ like you HAVE to have a blackout pic on instagram and you HAVE to reblog all these posts and you HAVE to immediately cancel everyone who has ever made a mistake EVER with no nuance or context (or dare i say......humanity). like fighting for human rights and speaking up again racism and bringing attention to societal problems is just a checklist to go down instead of being things you should understand and try to improve? like being ‘unproblematic’ starts and ends with mindlessly reblogging ‘woke’ content. idk sorry for going on a rant. going back to your regularly scheduled lighthearted content in 3...2...1

16. Do you like tag games?

ABSOLUTELY TAG ME IN EVERYTHING PLS AND THANK MWAH

17. Do you like ask games?

ofc!!! i used to do a lot of ask games back in the day but work and the pixel art ive been working on has been eating up all my extra time (and i always feel bad if I leave asks unanswered for too long see: q. 13) i do have that clover moots post saved for when my mental health is up and i have the time to tho!!!!

18. Which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

ngl the idea of being tumblr famous is hilarious to me bc it usually just the same 10 moots who share a braincell bouncing posts back and forth each other, but i do think all my moots are superstars that even class o super giants millions of millions of miles away are turning green w envy 🥰🥰🥰

19. Do I have a crush on a mutual?

i have a confession i have to make........i have a big phat standing crush on all my moots........its really embarassing............thats its bigger than even tae’s tush or joon’s tits..................pls let me down gently if you dont feel the same................

tagging: @cafejoon @stargazingjin @yoobijin @jinbestboy @jintae @jinv @taemaknae @butterful & anyone who wants to ✨✨

#fun fact! class o stars are the brightest stars in the universe and usually burn blue. BBUT in jpn and chn green and blue are the same #which is a big problem when describing color w my parents bc my def of colors is very different from both sets of parents #like I would say 'mom can I have that gray shirt? and she would be confused until I show her and she would go 'oh the blue one!'#or I tell me dad I wanted the pink mug and he would go 'nah bro thats not pink (粉红)thats peach red (桃红) and im like....but theyre the same #this gets even MORE confusing bc in old chinese and japanese the character for blue/green (青) is also used to refer to black #anyways long rant is that languages differentiate colors differently and the only reason we say rainbows have 7 colors #is bc 7 was thought to be a heavenly number (the greeks thought there were 7 bodies in the sky) which is also why a week is 7 days #and that languages develop names for black and white #then the warning colors of red and green #before moving on to the more nuanced colors #anyways tae I love you for your galaxy brain #bangtan has 7 members bc theyre all heavenly bodies #thats it thats where I wanted to go #is this what vsauce feels like #thank you for tagging me darlings!!!!!!#hash tag games

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yeoldontknow · 3 years

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❧ check in tag

tagged by the sweetest angel @propinqxity to do this little tag. this is such a cute list of questions, and some of these i dont think ive been asked before. thank you so much for the tag and the tumblr crush mention lovely. you truly are a bright spot on this website and i mean that sincerely <333

going under a cut because im certain i will ramble ~

1. Why did you choose this url?

its sort of like a pun between yall dont know and the fact that, hopefully, sincerely, chanyeol does not in fact know that i run this blog lmao i changed to this after a long time of being bread-jinie and i wanted to rebrand. i will, however, do my best to never change URLs again because the masterlist switch over was a complete hassle

2. Any sideblogs? If you have them, name them and why you have them

i have a fic recs blog called @yeoldontknowiread. as to why i have it, i know it hasnt been updated in ages since ive been kind of on hiatus, but i think reading and sharing work on this platform is immensely important. i actually read quite a lot of fanfiction, and i try my best to share the things i read. im very very behind on recs at the moment cause i try my best to write something substantial for every recommendation i make. as a writer, i know exactly the kinds of thoughts and feedback on fics that make my heart soar so i try to put in the same energy to my recs. community is only fostered when there is reciprocation

3. How long have you been on Tumblr?

hmmm since april 2017. i actually had my 4 year anniversary this year and i did have plans for things but i got roped into real life things and couldnt celebrate the way i truly wanted to :(

4. Do you have a queue tag?

no but sometimes i think i should. i view tags as a library on top of my knee jerk response to things. most of my tags are just my initial thoughts or feelings at any given moment, so those take precedence over a specific queue tag

5. Why did you start your blog in the first place?

when i was getting into exo, i was reading fanfiction like crazy. i used to write fanfic quite a lot in other fandoms, but at that time i hadnt written anything in about 2.5 years. exo was the first re-introduction to that feeling of excitement and inspiration. after about 3 weeks of straight reading, i decided i wanted to write again. i wrote the prologue to hero in about two hours and tried logging into AO3 to post it. sadly i forgot all of my log in information because it had been years, and was getting frustrated. i really wanted to put it somewhere out of fear that id lose interest if i didnt do something with it, and everything id read had been on tumblr. so i made a tumblr just to put hero lmao i didnt have any mutuals. it was a blog with straight 0. i hadnt even created an account to interact with writers before that moment, i really thought id be a silent reader forever. but exo woke me back up and for that i am eternally grateful.

6. Why did you choose your icon?

the yours music video is...so stunning? like the colour theory throughout the whole thing is truly so inspiring and gorgeous. and this shot of chanyeol looking at the painting took my breath away, truly. tulips and the color of peach, like do you know how evocative that is? ugh

7. Why did you choose your header

my header was made by @jamaisjoons for my birthday this year because shes literally the most talented person when it comes to graphics. and this was so kind of her to do, i cried a lot

8. What's your post with the most notes?

uhm....either the body through time or truth i cant remember which but i checked recently and its one of those

9. How many mutuals do you have?

honestly at this point im not even sure. i know ive lost a bunch while i was on hiatus because i was basically a dead blog, and some people do dash cleanses. and im certain others have left, too, for their own reasons. still, i have a good core of friends though who are active and that is enough for me

10. How many followers do you have?

more than i probably deserve

11. How many people do you follow?

399

12. Have you ever made a shitpost?

uhm i guess? there was a time when nng was not updated and every wednesday id post the days go by music video in sadness and grief but im not a big shitposter. if i make a text post its usually a life update or me crying about chanyeol, theres no inbetween lmao

13. How often do you use Tumblr every day?

tbh i havent used tumblr that often, not since march i think. i used to use it many times a day, checking in on friends and stuff, but once i started focusing on my phd applications i was only here sporadically. i didnt make an announcement either, just let my blog run on queue so i wasnt totally gone. i think i was checking in twice a week or maybe once every two weeks to refill my queue and check mentions etc. but now that my interviews are done im trying to get back on here daily to reconnect

14. Did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? Who won?

ive had my share of disagreements with people and any details about those situations shall remain as they are meant to: private

15. How do you feel about "you need to reblog this" posts?

in what context? like, you need to reblog this or your wish wont come true? or like, please reblog this to spread the word/spread awareness, etc? in the case for the former, i scroll right by. in the case of the latter, if im around and see someone raising a go fund me or some major event is occurring and i find a post with good sources or charities i will reblog. mostly though, the full extent my activism isnt really on this blog. its my escape from reality. my activism is usually placed on other platforms.

16. Do you like tag games?

i doooo!!! theyre so fun i love learning about my friends

17. do you like ask games?

i love those too! theyre so cute and usually a nice way to have interaction immediacy with people in the community

18. Which of your mutuals do you think is Tumblr famous?

no one. can we please abandon this notion of fame on tumblr? arent we all here to write about some dick and some smut and some fluff and then hang out together and log off? lmao tumblr isnt reality and followers/fame is so arbitrary on this platform, no one has any control over any of it

19. Do you have a crush on a mutual?

i am in love with so many people here. let me name a few:

@yehet-me-up @kyungseokie @jenmyeons @j-pping @jamaisjoons @inkedtae @kookdiaries @yoonia @dulcetvk @kithtaehyung @imdifferentshadesofpurple @ditzymax @sugaurora @sahmbtsficrecs @junghelioseok @yeojaa @augustbutwinter @joonscore @btssavedmylifeblr @cutechim @sunshinekims @kimtaehyunq @ouvuo @delhyun @exo-stentialism @sooibian @softyoongiionly @jinseunie @zibermuda @bratkook @1kook @luffles424 @xjoonchildx

and so many other people and mutuals that i am certainly forgetting. love is such an expansive feeling, and it encompasses platonic ardor and creative desire. i admire every single person listed for so many different reasons, and cherish and treasure them or what they provide to the community. love is such an important and broad experience. truly, i hope they feel adored every single day x

#check in tag

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caffiine · 3 years

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A BRIEF PAUSE

From my regularly scheduled content. I’ve got some shit to say, y’all (forewarning for spicy language and spoilers)

I thought about making this post on my fandom subblog but this show and this relationship have been TOO important to me for the past 8 years to not give it its proper place in my life. strap in bc im not sure how long this mf is about to be.

When i started this DUMB show at age 19 tortured soul “empath” dark academia me thought sam winchester was going to be my favourite character. and don’t @ me, i love sam now in his own right (and we deserve some SAILEEN PEOPLE). but after literally less than 5 episodes i KNEW dean’s character and his arc were going to be amazing and beautiful and he immediately became my favourite brother. The nuances of his character i.e. his shell vs his true self were so evident to me even in the first couple seasons. in my humble opinion, he had the most growth of the two brothers.

They all deserve to be happy, but for whatever FUCKING reason dean has the HARDEST TIME OF ANYONE being happy in this show. I know it’s his character. I know it was written that way. But FFS. I kept wondering when they were going to wrap up his emotional arc and stop torturing the poor dude.

then in season 4 they introduced castiel and 1) I thought the new concept of angels as assholes was super cool and 2) I hardcore SIMPED over misha collins (still do). I watched benignly as cas and dean began to form this relationship that seemed pretty special. I started watching the show when it was in its eighth season and I binged the shit out of it for two weeks until I was caught up. By the time I was caught up I was CERTAIN there were some feelings between them and I LOVED it. I am bisexual and I was ECSTATIC for a potential queer relationship between two masculine-portrayed dudes. I went on tumblr to express my newfound theory, only to find out that this was a real THING. “Destiel” was already an idea that had absolutely and intensely BLOSSOMED in the fandom for several seasons already. So many others saw what I saw and saw the potential of emotionally tortured/constipated “daddy’s blunt instrument” dean and the unfeeling daddy’s boy cas “crack in his chassis” Winchester being allowed to be happy together. I felt validated and hopeful. For a while.

Then it was season after season of hopefulness for them to be finally happy with each other while still fighting the ills of their world with sam and the other new members of their family that were added along the way, only to constantly have that hope seemingly teased away at the end every single time. By season 11 and the introduction of amara (not bashing, eventually loved her character and her development too) I gave up. I lost hope. I stopped watching the show. I didn’t want to keep watching my two favourite characters continuously abused by the story they were thrown into.

I know not everyone likes destiel, not everyone thought it was real. That’s chill, idc. Stories are so often meant to be (and sometimes inadvertently) left up to interpretation by the person experiencing and consuming them. It’s what’s so amazing about books and shows and movies that are able to make us feel so intensely about them and their characters. And I felt SO strongly about dean and cas. It was honestly really upsetting to me, the way the show was going with their relationship.

A while later season 13 had been going on and I started seeing some things pop up on my dash. Hopeful things. I did a bit of research and accidentally saw THE SCENE from season 12 and I couldn’t help myself. I restarted it. I watched the whole thing from the beginning again AND introduced it to my boyfriend I think partially as a way to ensure I wasn’t imagining shit (it took him awhile and a lot of me internally screaming during many scenes but by season 9 he was like “uh are they in gay love”). Fast forward to me finally catching up as season 14 was starting. I was still hopeful, somehow. And it happened AGAIN. Season 14 and the beginnings of 15 made me so sad. I HATED what they did with their relationship. I HATED the way it ended. I HATED the way dean treated cas and everyone around him. It felt like the show was taking his whole character arc back to day 1. I didn’t understand. I kept watching for a couple episodes after the big argument and cas left but the luster was gone and eventually I just stopped.

I love this show. It has meant so much to me as a story. So many of the characters are/were very dear to me. I know it’s a running joke with this show about character deaths and homophobia but the strength of the bond I felt was between cas and dean gave me a lot of hope. But it wasn’t enough. I felt betrayed one too many times. And for those of you who kept watching, for whatever reason, I don’t hold it against you. It’s still a beautiful and interesting story without cas and dean’s relationship. But I just personally couldn’t do it anymore.

I hadn’t planned on watching the rest of season 15 when it came back after pandemic hiatus, at least not for awhile. So imagine my FUCKING surprise when I was doom scrolling through twitter during election week on Thursday and I see supernatural trending right along with election shit.

What.

I couldn’t stop myself, I looked and literally SCREAMED and made my boyfriend spill his wine all over our couch. I didn’t know exactly what happened as I hadn’t seen the episode but APPARENTLY all my emotions and feelings had been at least partially vindicated. So I BOUGHT season 15 so I could finish watching where I had left off. I watched 8 episodes in less than 24hrs (don’t judge me there’s a quarantine) and I LIKED them. And it might’ve been bc I knew what was about to happen in 15 x18 but I really felt like the show was getting STRONGER as it neared its finish.

I was so excited for 15x19. I read so many posts from fellow fans, destiel and antis alike. There really weren’t a lot of bad emotions running around. Everyone seemed hopeful and excited like me.

I probably don’t need to go over 15x19 emotions but im going to anyway. I was disappointed. I was confused. I was angry. we are in season 15. The last season ever for this show that has had a HUGE following of fans who have loved it, sometimes unconditionally, sometimes even though it wasn’t the best (and sometimes less than good). A season and show that had just announced YES. CAS LOVES DEAN. ITS REAL. And I shouldn’t have to go over the nuances of why we would expect more after this, with two episodes to go before the show is done forever.

But I will bc im mad af.

Like I said in the beginning. Dean’s character arc has been incredible. His emotional growth – as subtle as it might’ve seemed – has been amazing. And dean has always been an emotional, loving person. he just felt like he wasn’t because the world made him feel that way. And that’s sad, y’all. Dean deserves to realize he DESERVES happiness. And in 15x18, we were finally heading basically directly there. With destiel, yes, but even if you’re anti, what cas said to dean about who he is and why he loves him obviously struck a fucking chord with dean. It obviously changed the way he viewed himself (RE: “that’s not who I am, that’s not who we are”).

But for WHATEVER reason that’s ALL we got in 15x19. One fucking SENTENCE about dean realizing maybe he’s not just built to kill people. And then jack leaves without a single mention of Eileen or cas or Charlie or literally anyone they ever cared about and dean rode off into the sunset alone with his brother while we watched a fucking FIVE MINUTE MONTAGE that made me want to hurl my own body into the sun they were driving toward. And cas is STILL DEAD.

BUT THERE’S STILL ONE EPISODE LEFT AND FUCK ME IF I HAVENT BEEN PAINTING ON MY CLOWN MAKEUP ALL WEEK. SO WHAT DO I WANT????

ONE: DEAN DESERVES HAPPINESS. REAL HAPPINESS. What the FUCK supernatural??? Wasn’t this the whole point of his arc??? And don’t get me wrong I REALLY want that happiness to come from Cas and a real spoken relationship of some sort between them bc it also ties in with my second point but tbh just PLEASE let dean be happy. Dean is a loving person and does everything for love as we JUST FOUND OUT. Dean would NOT be happy with everyone he’s ever loved gone for the rest of his life. I just don’t believe that’s fucking true. h elp him pls.

TWO: CAS DESERVES HAPPINESS. I know we got this whole speech about “happiness isn’t in the having it’s simply in being” but like. Really. Castiel was supposed to be a throwaway character no one was supposed to care about. But we all cared SO MUCH that he lasted 11 SEASONS longer than intended and became a main character and an integral part of the story. Cas has arguably sacrificed more than anyone on this show. His last act was to sacrifice his life to save the man he loved. He knew where he was going. He knew he was finally going to be able to tell dean he loved him and then immediately be taken by the empty where we know now thanks to season 15 that everyone in there just gets to dream forever about their regrets and sadness. HOW IS THAT FAIR. HOW IS THAT A GOOD ENDING FOR CAS. HOW DO YOU EXPECT ANYONE – CHARACTERS AND FANS ALIKE –TO BE HAPPY ABOUT THAT. Its messed up, supernatural. Y’all KNOW it is and I hope to HIGH HEAVENS this is going to be corrected in 15x20.

THREE: give sam Eileen back.

Well that’s all I’ve got in me, folks. I’m absolutely and intensely dreading Thursday. Im scared and nervous and obviously still angry that this is absolutely going to be the opposite of what they promised – another “game of thrones” ending. Some of y’all are giving me hope with your posts about maybe they’re trying to keep the ending a surprise and maybe cas is coming back and how can they not and why else would they have done the second to last episode like that and I hope yall are right.

Either way, im glad I am not alone with my feelings. Thanks yall for the experience of this fandom and show. Let’s stick together on Thursday, no matter our differences.

PS stop calling jensen ackles a homophobe or ill hex you.

#supernatural #destiel #deancas #oh and #saileen #just to make sure theyre not forgotten #dean winchester #castiel #Misha Collins #jensen ackles #15x18 #15x20 #15x19 #i fucking guess #dean x castiel #casdean #castiel x dean #supernatural season 15

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aprito · 3 years

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hello <3 since i got these asks at the same time i decided to combine my thoughts on them in this post. yet another annoying sjw essay from yours truly on this blog

before i get into these i think i need to preface why im like. i guess overly hyperfocused on a certain unproblematic base (same age au / platonic canon) for them and avoid the ped0philic content like the plague lol

tw for pedophilia ment, rape ment if that makes you squicky. ALSO THIS IS LONG AND RAMBLY

as i’ve mentioned a couple times already, ive been into the ship since i was 12, back when it was very very common to not only post untagged (nsfw) canonverse content of the two in writing and in drawing but also non con and the like, so you can imagine how bad my first impression online was. thinking back on it ...as a child i found it disturbing but didnt really register how problematic it really was?? (i know, but i also lived in the middle of nowhere and had no one explain this to me)

skip to 2014 aka me coming back to naruto at 17ish and i had kinda become hyper aware of the fact that there was an increasing amount of people online who had come forward with explaining how fictional problematic content, mostly pedophilia, had been used to groom them into starting relationships with adullts. it was also a time where a lot of people didnt believe these victims, not registering how common it was for minors to be online friends with adults who had no boundaries and no qualms exposing them such content. not gonna get into my personal life here but i was lucky to not having gone through this myself. like... it kinda was my first time truly realising how fiction can EASILY be used to manipulate others irl (and yes i will not argue this, if you dont think fictional media can form and manipulate people’s opinions on attitudes, countries, cultures and virtues, pick up a book about the effects of propaganda media at least once please)

i, being young, still liking the dynamic but not really the romance, would point this out here and there in the fandom and get into fights with grown adults in their mid 20s who assumed i automatically hated the ship(s) and tried to restrict their freedom of speech or whatever, heard everything from the “age of consent doesnt exist in naruto” to the “sasori looks like a child what does it matter” despite people clearly playing on him being older and experienced. it made me so upset that people were just consuming all this content uncritically and exposing children to it tbh?? not really just sos but a lot of minor/adult ships in naruto in general. and thats where i sat down and thought, i do not want to be a grown adult talking down to children that point out how unsafe the fandom is. theyre absolutely right in drawing these boundaries and calling out adults who defend the uncritical consumption and creation of this content. i do not want to consume or create content that predators could use to groom minors, and i absolutely do want to let younger people in fandom know that i am respecting their comfort zones and want them to have a safe and fun experience. after all, naruto is not an adult show and i think a lot of people forget that!!!! i am not perfect in that regard but its something that i, at the age of 23, am very passionate about and strive towards to.

and i guess thats where same age au was born for me and i have been sticking to it ever since.

so finally we can move to the first question

aside from the fact that we both dont like canon sos, i dont think it would work out even if i wasnt prejudiced to it anyways. in all honesty, 35 year old canon sasori is not a redeemable character to me, given the fact that he’s easily amongst the cruelest villains in naruto (torturing and killing and taxiderming people for his own fun personal gain, never for a goal that served anyone but himself. how do you redeem having over 300 corpses in your backpack that you felt absolutely no remorse for killing). sasori was legit one of the only cruel villains that didnt had someone else pull the strings, which sends a clear message on kishi’s part, who absolutely loves to redeem villains LOL.

being that old, he obviously had already been very manifested in what he believed in, even if it was shakey, to the point where the first crack in that world view (sakura and chiyo protecting each other) immediately had him give up on his life all together. that, in my opinion, is not a man who’s going to know what healthy relationships would look like, regardless of it being romantic or not. 35 year old sasori to me has the same appeal as an expired can of tuna and he’s probably very happy 6 feet under. he’s supposed to be a failed gaara in that sense that he had no one to look out for him and therefore was never going to experience anything but a bad ending in life. its fine that hes dead honestly, it wraps up his short character development the best IMO.

adding to that, seriously, sakura was obviously interested in knowing why he was that way, and called him out for being seriously fucked in the head, but it’s weird to me that people assume she had any interest in actively rehabilitating him, let alone starting a serious romantic relationship with him. sakura who’s not only very, uhm, immature and straight forward when it comes to her romantic viewpoints also, as a big bootlicker, wouldnt soil her standing in the village by starting anything with a disgraced and far too gone criminal like sasori. shipping that version of sasori with sakura intimately is still going to set her up for a huge power imbalance that would be difficult to handle imo, even if she was the one in the fight ultimately exerting her power over him. i would still look at it and think damn she deserves better than having to play therapist for man like that lol.

additionally, even if you ignored all of this, you cant really ignore that sasori had already known her as a child, and that had been his first and most impactful impression of her. i dont think that sasori would look at 35 year old sakura and see her as a grown woman and not the little green girl she was in the fight. plus, you easily fall into predatory comparison territory between the “childish” and “womanly” and i have seen way too often in fic just being boiled down to her now being fuckable. a lot of of ships do this and i would just like to remind yall thats it not normal for adults to want to start relationships with children they have seen grown up or known as a child when they themselves were fully grown adults. therefore, maybe if sakura hadnt met sasori before it would be less of a problem? but that also obviously defeats the point of the dynamic and the reason he died in the first place. so yeah, it sounds kind of doomed especially if you were to make it romantic.

WHICH BRINGS ME TO THE SECOND QUESTION

let me preface this that im not fundamentally against age gaps, even if im not super interested in it. after all, colorblind had a 5 yr age gap (with sakura being 21), even if, say, i wrote similar fics today i probably would make it smaller lol. i think it can be handled well if both parties have enough life experience to deal with it, and the author is cautious of where the age gap starts, i think a 10+ year age gap would be fine in a scenario where the younger party (i guess sakura) was at least 25-27ish, meaning she has completed most of her most formative life stages and probably had been in relationships before, meaning she would be able to handle it without having to fear a huge power imbalance. the older the younger party is the less the age gap is going to matter tbh .TsukiHoshino and AngelOfDeath10 both handle age gaps in their fics really well imo, so i do not mind reading about them.

unfortunately, a lot of people in this fandom think making sakura barely "”””legal””””” (18, not even 20 which is hilarious to me because the source material is obviously japanese) because they both cannot stand her being past her “prime years” of being young fertile and fuckable to much older men as well as thinking a 20 year old is automatically old enough to handle that type of relationship. ive seen a lot of unironic takes that believe it will absolve them of callout posts if they throw around age of consent and “shes 18 now suckers!!!” enough lmfao. absolutely hilarious. aging a minor up without aging the adult down seriously reeks of predatory “cant wait until youre 18″ narratives and thats why i find it similarly disturbing as straight up pedo shipping.

ultimately, sasosaku is and will always be a inherently problematic ship in canon, which is why i think it should always be handled a little more responsibly in fandom spaces, ignoring or outright excusing the main problem factor, which is sasori, isnt going to convince anyone that the dynamic in itself is well written and interesting enough to explore in aus, like giving sasori the redemption most of us wanted him to have by aging him down to a point in time where he was still realistically going to allow being positively influenced, similar to gaara.

so really, what i think is well handled age gap and how most people handle age gap in the naruto fandom are two different worlds at times lol

tl;dr

canon shippers have never been anything but gross when i was younger and i didnt wanna be like that, even if youre “smart”enough to differenate, actual creeps dont really care and might use your content to blur the lines, sasori isnt rly redeemable so romantic canonverse realistically wouldnt make much sense and is still iffy, age gaps are fine if they are handled well, but given that the dynamic doesnt really need the age gap to still work im not that invested on making that an essential part of my shipping experience.

thank you for reading and hope this makes sense!

#nonitxt #meta #another hot take from me #but seriously if you're offended over these #unfollow me lol idc #defending predatory content is not a hill im gonna die on in this life

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justcallmenikki7 · 4 years

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Namjoon: BTS!Twilight!Headcanon

Summary: The first headcanon in the BTS!Twilight!Au! You are getting a glimpse at the pack leader, Kim Namjoon!

Warnings: Slight angst, mentions of death, Namjoon having a little rough patch.

W.C.: 1.2k

Note: Lmao. okay so this is a whole new world to me when it comes to headcanons, so please be patient with me! Once all of the boys are all posted, then my requests will open up and you can ask each member and their imprint one shots and stuff!

So anyways, here is the Pack Leader -> Namjoon

- Basically Sam Ulely

- Very firm and serious

- But can be a big goof whenever he wants

- The first to transform into his wolf form (hint at sam)

- Truthfully, he hates being a wolf and in the pack cause he lost every chance of going to college and becoming a philosopher and a scientist.

- But, once Seokjin changed, he felt better because he had someone who felt the same way. (Quil).

- Even though Namjoon kind of likes being a wolf since he can transform into one and connect with his inner self and spirit, he hates the thought of killing someone.

- The first time Namjoon took down a vampire, he cried and wanted to kill himself.

- Despite a vampire killing a person, and he is against that, he believes that they were made for reason and is doing what their internal self does.

- But that thought did not last for long once he watched a vampire drain the blood from his baby sister right in front of him to get back at him.

- After that, he killed the vampire and accepted the fact that vampires are no good and deserve to die.

- Knowing that there are the ‘vegan’ vampire, he is curious but is still prejudice in a way.

- He does want to meet them to learn about them, but the angry side of him that holds hatred towards the cold ones still overpowers his emotions.

- His grandfather has said that they are kind, but that does not mean he trusts them.

- So when the other six change, Namjoon feels like he could be a ‘normal person’ again.

- Namjoon kind of has depression, but its mainly from the change and his sister dying. But the pack really helps his depression and since there’s the pack link – everyone is able to check on each other and there is always opened communication.

- BUT

- Even with the pack link, they do have the ability to block off certain thoughts that they don’t want everyone else to hear, but since they are very opened with one another and trust each other, they do not see it a reason why to block off their thoughts

- Namjoon is obviously the father in the friendship (Jin is the mom, obvs)

- So with his smartness he helps the maknae line with homework

- Also is very considerate and allows them to focus on their schooling

- (Has Yoongi Jin and Hope to run borders hfkjdhfdsjfdsocns)

- (Yoongi hates him for it cuz he prioritizes his sleep)

- Namjoon also lives with his grandfather, his parents having been killed in an accident when he was 12 and his sister 8

- Btw, there is none of that alpha crap like with Sam and Jacob – plz, we’re mature here

- To twist it up

- Namjoon is the same age as he is in real life, along with the boys

- But namjoon transforms before everyone else because of his Alpha gene, then everyone transforms in the order of their position in the pack

- I am so bad at these

Wolf Descriptions:

- His wolf is Jacobs color and size.

- His wolfs name is Apollo

- Apollo only takes over in fights or when he is becoming protective of their imprint.

- Apollo connects with their imprint through touch and when Namjoon allows Apollo to take over mentally (like fronting with an alter ego)

- Okay, in a way, this is like a split au, but not

- You with me?

- Oh yeah, the wolves are the same height like they are in Twilight. I don’t know how tall that is, but the boys wolves are all taller than you.

- I am not good at this headcanon thingy, so ummmm, what else do I need to add??

- Oof, okay, end of this – if more information comes up with requests/asks, ill make a comment at the beginning of each

Imprint Information:

- As for wolf – it is more intense than it is made out in the actual twilight books/movies

- You are the soulmate, and you are soulmates with Namjoon and the boys

- Namjoon, putting it lightly, will die for you

- (They all would, but we is on Namjoon’s part rn)

- You are the other half to Namjoon – his equal

- Literally when he first saw you, he almost tripped over a pebble and face planted into the sidewalk

- I will make one shots for each boy on the meeting of their imprint (you)

- Basically, being namjoon’s imprint means being the now mom of the group (Jin is severely salty)

- Nah, you didn’t get attacked by Namjoon like Sam’s imprint in Twilight, but you did witness and almost get hurt (will be in a one shot)

- I see as in imprints, the boys imprint on someone who is like them, but their legit better half

- So, what I mean by this is that you are the saving grace in Namjoon’s life

- You help his depression by talking and being there for him

- Such as, you literally calm him by being beside him

- It helps his wolf and him knowing that you’re beside him

- Like that mafia reaction I made a while back about you being the boys safe haven?

- Yes, its like this but 100000x more intense due to the bond

- When yall fight (which is rarely), the both of you feel emotions way higher

- Even though he’s an alpha, that doesn’t mean that the imprint is any different than the others.

- Imprinting in this is the same, even though they all have a different position in the pack

- Im just lazy and don’t see the need to make any more additions.

- BUT

- You are two years younger than him (23)

- But you guys are literally leaders,

- The boys look up to you for guidance – especially when they meet their imprints (lmao poor Jungkook and Yoongi)

- When Namjoon is stressed they come to you because they know that they wont get an alpha look when they have questions

- THEY’RE VVV PROTECTIVE OF YOU

- Like, it’s funny

- Especially the maknae line

- When you go out when it’s like during the Eclipse era in twilight, and Namjoon is busy with boarders and such he sends Jungkook out with you

- And when a guy comes up to you

- PROTECTIVE KOOKIE

- Basically the boys will be the Hall Monitors on Steroids and will S C A R E anyone (especially male or someone who seems suspicious) who comes up to you

- The pack make fun of the guys in the pack link

- You and Namjoon love reading together

- With the imprint thingy, whenever you and namjoon touch one another, it is like a medicine for you both cause there’s this power thingy where it brings automatic relaxation to the body

- Pretty dope

- Wait it’s basically dope

- *silence*

- Im sorry im lame

- Anyways, it is like imprinting in the books

- It is just … yeah

- I suck at these

- ONTO THE NEXT PACK MEMBER

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yuri-shibuya · 3 years

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hallo i am back w more arctic au! I have a tommy fic almost ready and im excited to post it lmaoo its more agreeable than the tubbo one so i can crosspost here too haha

But here are some fun facts about my tubbo fic and arctic au tubbo in general!!!

- every name in the fic was named after minecraft blocks or entities!! (I had a bunch of fun mangling block names for it haha)

- i accidentally wrote smith for tubbo and never changed it apparently HAHAHA

- tubbo was the son of a blacksmith

- he does really badly with longer swords, but he is very good with shorter ranged weapons (hes super wily and can get real close)

- he owns a copious amount of daggers and short swords and he hides it all on his person (where? No one knows just knives everywhere yall)

- buff tubbo supremacy!! (hidden bulk u never expect him to just yoink a hammer but here we are)

- tubbo was about 10 when he entered! (does this mean that legal signing up age in artic empire is 12? yes yes it is)

- salt and pepper haired older man is an mcyt! But definitely ooc, i needed someone who could be super sweet but also be super intimidating (more intimidating characterization rn tho hahaa)

- tommy was about 8 turning 9 when tubbo first sees him

- tubbo is an angry bean but he mellows to chaotic gremlin after a bit hahaha

- tubbos fight scene took me like a week?? To write bc i kept procrastinating

- also whoever made "the queen facing a war" playlist on spotify, u are a lifesaver much jamming while writing haha

Thats it for now!!! Stay safe n healthy yall ♡♡

#arctic au #tubbo #tommyinnit #fun facts again!!!#fic writing

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denkilightning · 3 years

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zuma timeline aka im finally writing all the trauma shit down pls bear w/ me

(tw: rape, csa, child abuse of multiple kinds, fires, burns, death, scars, trauma, suicide attempt, organized crime groups)

ill keep it in a age - what happens chart so it’s easier to keep up with

0 - 6 - baby denki is born in malibu, when he’s 5 and get’s his electric part of his quirk* he and his family move to eureka, california

6 - 6,5 - baby denki and family (without charles and tora, denki’s sister and her gf) move to japan, saitama

6,5 - (24.12) the raid happens, lead by eandevor and planned by shakai. denki watches his mom (reine) die in a fire, almost dies in a fire himself. dad kaminari (daichi) gets taken by the police to tartarus, but denki doesn’t know that and he thinks his dad is dead. denki gets taken by HPSC officials to make him a perfect hero like they did with hawks

7 - right after denki ‘starts his training’, falling under shakai’s (his handler) care, he starts planning his suicide. after few months he attempts, and fails. in consequence he loses the water part of his quirk and develops a quirk disability, and he goes hard of hearing. he spends next few months in physical therapy filled with emotional abuse, constantly drugged with quirk repressants and gaslighted. he meets keigo.

8 - denki’s assigned role changes, instead of a pro hero he’s trained to be an assassin. he’s also given the name ‘zuma’. given zuma’s cold, distant and stubborn nature (SzPD + ASD), zuma’s trainers and instructors, as well as shakai, start to physically abuse him.** shakai’s emotional and psychological abuse keeps on going. zuma and keigo’s relationship grows to be sibling-like

9 - 11 - (rape tw) shakai takes zuma to venice, italy. the main plan is to exploit zuma as much as she can, and then kill him indirectly. to do that, she ties with organized crime group (mafia veneta). in overall consequence, for three years zuma gains assassin experience (and he’s damn good at assassinating people), claiming an incredibly high body count, while for the same three years he’s sexually abused by one of the italian mobs (no i did not bother to give him a name yet, ill get to it eventually), and psychologically, financially, emotionally and physically abused by shakai. because of zuma excelling at his job, shakai decides to keep him alive. when zuma finds out shakai wanted him to die, venice massacre happens. (here should be a link to a post describing what happened at the massacre, but it doesn’t exist yet). zuma develops an eating disorder.

12 - shakai and zuma come back to japan. keigo takes zuma into his custody, becoming zuma’s legal guardian. (*finger guns* AAYYYYYYY- sorry sorry im serious now) keigo also lets zuma to cut his hair, that’s been long, impractical, and annoying.

13 - 15 - nothing really happens that i thought of, unless i forgot of sth. untreated trauma, personality disorders (PPD, SzPD, STPD)

15 - zuma applies to ua, as a way to run away from shakai. he (against his will) keeps his jobs as a HPSC assassin.

also he ends up in QPR with shinsou, becomes an underground pro hero, a pro-hero-medic, and bakusquad agency’s manager. FIGHT ME ABOUT IT.

*here’s a post about denki being a double elementalist - electric and aqua type

** that is an incredibly shitty ass excuse, no one, especially a fucking traumatized child, deserves to be abused. im noting that just to point out that most of the abuse he’s encountered is rooted in ableism, and some is rooted in racism.

additional notes:

if you wonder why charles didn’t do anything about denki’s situation: she thought he was dead the entire time. HPSC literally falsed denki and daichi’s deaths. in records denki kaminari died at the age of 6.

daichi dies when denki’s 17

if you ask why denki’s age of 6,5 matters: it doesn’t i just figured the date when the raid happened

fuck shakai, ill have the time of my life killing her off, but keep in mind yall that she’s following the circle of abuse. most of shit she does is because she’s been abused, too. it doesn’t excuse her actions at all, tho obviously. also she’s been only abusing denki, not both keigo and denki, so additional fuck you @ her.

both of the abusers die before denki :) very painful deaths if i have to say anything about it :) (/no sarcasm)

#chargehawks legal guardian au #denki kaminari #*mine #pls share ur thoughts about this all

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Anon 1 said:

Hi! I don't fully remember the plot, but basically there's a universe where Bucky died (I think it was like a gladiator type thing?) and Steven mourned his loss. The avengers get sucked into this during a mission (probably) and Steve is super happy to see Bucky but Natasha doesn't fully trust him. I think Steve has a hut or something with fur rugs.

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Anon 2 said:

HI! love this blog! i'm looking for a modern au fic where bucky goes to steve's house to thank him for rescuing him when they were deployed overseas. they end up spending the whole day together in steve's new house and get together at the end, its

Anon sent in The Only Way Out Is Through by Brenda (oneshot | 6,659 | M)

Anon 3 said:

I read this college AU where Steve and Bucky were the presidents/leaders of rival fraternities and they have a lot of fights but end up having sex in the end. I looked through a lot of your tags and I still can't find it. Thank you!

miraishu and Anon sent in avalanche by pieandsouffles (complete | 45,993 | E)

Anon 4 said:

I've been looking for a specific fic I've read on ao3 a while ago for days Steve and bucky live in the avengers tower and bucky starts going back in his dreams where he's with the howling commando and Steve has to comfort him in the modern time because it's too much with all the deads etc. and they get together in the past and Steve starts getting these new memories as well. btw it's not "memories I now can't recall" which seems to be a bit similar.

Anon 5 said:

Hi! I've been looking everywhere for the fic where steve is an illustrator and bucky is a famous author who releases a children's book about their friendship but through the metaphor of a cat and dog's friendship (Kitty and Dot?). It's one of my favorite fics ever and I'd much appreciate anyone's help to find it. Thank you!

Anon 6 said:

Hello ! There’s a Modern Bucky/Modern Steve fic where Bucky has just moved into an apartment complex owned by Tony Stark (who was his boss) and since the walls are windows, he can see Steve in the building across from him. They start to message each other using pencil and paper ( kind of like in You Belong With Me by Taylor Swift). They eventually end up having sex in Bucky’s apartment. Thank you!!!!

Anon sent in Something Beginning With... L by 74days (oneshot | 5,840 | T)

Anon 7 said:

I read a fic a while ago and I can’t remember its name, but it’s post-eg and Steve brings back 2012 Steve for a while and they and Bucky have a threesome? It’s got bottom bucky

Anon sent in Carnal Synchronicity by AidaRonan (oneshot | 6,506 | E)

Anon 8 said:

Hi, im lookibg for a fic that was like it was pre serum steve but he was still captain america or something and bucky was also an avenger but they didnt know eachother, and in it bucky would like walk around naked to tease steve bc he had a monster shlong and steve was a size queen,. yeah thank youu!

Anon 9 said:

There were a handful of fics I read ages ago that shared a trope, but I can’t seem to find a decent way to search for them: college AU, with Steve and Bucky being fake boyfriends in order to participate in a relationship study at school. At least one of them was more than 10k. Anything that rings a bell world be absolutely amazing—thanks so much!

Anon sent in Introduction to Fake Dating Your Best Friend 101 by crinklefries (complete | 24,627 | T)

Anon 10 said:

Hi, i am looking for a fic I lost. It features pre serum Steve and (i think) winter soldier looking Bucky. There are also Natasha and clint who are married or dating. Natasha and bucky work at a restaurant but they all have shady, super secret past. Both steve and bucky like each other, but bucky can only speak russian to him because his past missions messed him up. There is also a scene where bucky serves steve some food at the restaurant he works at and steve thanks him in russian.

Anon sent in to live with thee by aw marvel no (getoffmysheets) (complete | 69,834 | E)

Anon 11 said:

Is there a fic where steve is big and has some form of OCD, and he keeps cleaning his apartment with bleach and baking cookies? He throws the “imperfect” cookies out. I think bucky was maybe his neighbor? It’s set in modern times but I can’t remember if they had powers or not. Any suggestions would be appreciated. Thank you guys for giving time and effort to this blog!!!

miraishu sent in Bucky Barnes Has His Shit Together (and Other Lies He Tells Himself) by betts (oneshot | 14,159 | M)

Anon 12 said:

Hi! I feel like I actually originally found this fic on your blog, but I haven’t been able to find it again. It’s one where they’re together, but they’re hiding it from the Avengers because they believe the Avengers are very homophobic. I think it was pretty angsty. They finally do get found out and then they explain to the team everything that made them think the team wouldn’t react well?

scottieisstressed said:

i’m looking for a fic that i’m pretty sure is based on the hallmark movie snow bride. i’ve tried searching ao3 tags and yalls blog but i can’t find it. one of them is a reporter sent to investigate a tip that one of the brothers of a famous family bought and engagement ring and find out who it was. they get caught on the property by one of the brothers and they end of fake dating

Anon 13 said:

Hey so I’ve been trying to find this fic that I read a while ago but I can’t remember the name or the author :/ it’s an au and they meet on a train - Steve is an artist and was drawing Bucky (kinda creepily) for his comic, Bucky is a panic-prone war veteran, it’s cute. Any ideas?

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Anon 14 said:

i was wondering if you guys could help me find a four part book that takes place after civil war? all i remember is that bucky kept leaving steve and steve had severe depression and they were all in wakanda and im PRETTY sure wanda used her powers to get rid of buckys trigger words and made steve forget what the valkyrie was? im also pretty sure steve gave himself up so his team could be pardoned. thank you!

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very long gender talk under the cut

thinking about how when I was in the 7th grade I was like ah I am nonbinary my pronouns are they/she and I said that with confidence on my instagram bandom/aes account without a care in the world. and then i left bandom and i was like ah i am not going to think about gender please nobody perceive me and that includes myself. if i think about gender for even a second then i will die. and then i rejoined bandom and i am again confidently saying i am nonbinary my pronouns r they/them (with exceptions). and my point is that it’s beautiful what seeing some dudes in makeup can do for your self acceptance❤️ no im kidding that is not the point. but actually it kind of is!

when i was 12 i didn't read into mcr lyrics and connect them to transness at all, because i was 12 and wasn’t yet intelligent enough to do so. but i saw gerard, along with other musicians, being gnc and i really connected with them, with their rebellion of the gender binary regardless of if they were cis or not. i saw gerard and ryan ross flaunting their makeup and cute little outfits around on stage and i thought to myself huh, if they can do that then i can reject the restrictions put on me by the gender binary as well! and when you’re so young, these think pieces we all spout out now don’t really matter, because you see people who you connect with regardless of if they are actually what you are or not and at the time it’s enough, the think pieces can come later in life. so part of my point is that trans people are allowed to connect with figures like this regardless of whether or not those figures themselves are trans as well, because nobody should be able to say “no that person isn't trans you can't relate to them or find self acceptance through their personal presentation.” like why does that matter so much to some people? why do people feel the need to police what trans people do and dont connect with? I think if a trans person finds some meaning and parts of themselves in the media, even if that thing isn't trans, then the meaning is still just as valuable to them.

So this was my view of everything when I was really young- obviously there is hardly any nuance to it and I dont identify as what I did back then (I used to id as genderfluid specifically, but now I just id as nb), but that’s fine. I was a kid, and kids often don’t look into things the same way older teenagers and up do. and older teenagers dont look at things the same way as middle aged people and so on and so forth but that's not the point. the point is when you’re so young, sometimes all you know (or all I knew, at least) is that you dont like the gender everyone perceives you as and you relate to these people who break their own barriers, and it’s ENOUGH. it’s enough to help you and even if that person isn't trans, your connection to them isn't any less valid. and this obviously applies to older people as well, and it also applies to anytime in your ~gender journey~ but I'm just speaking from my own experience here.

and when I left bandom and mainly focused on mainstream media, the height of breaking the gender binary was, like, millionaire white gays putting on glam makeup. and saying that out loud makes it sound exactly like what the musicians I looked up to were doing, but I think the difference is that beauty gurus put on makeup to be beautiful and I could not connect to that or relate to that because wanting to be beautiful was the exact thing I was trying to escape from. it wasn't like fucking up your face with some red eyeshadow to look cool and evil, it was putting on 50 dollar highlighter to conform to capitalist standards of beauty. so because there wasn't any gnc representation I was looking to, I slowly began to hide from myself and became incredibly uncomfortable thinking about gender at all, and I stopped identifying as anything, never said I was cis but never said I wasn't, you know how it goes. and these years of my life really shine a light on how important finding things you can connect with and attach to as a trans/gnc/nb person is- again, even if those things aren't actually directly trans themselves. especially because we are lacking so much to cling to already, but also just because these connections of ours are personal and can help us for a plethora of reasons.

then I came back to bandom and the gerard way gender discussions came in my life at full speed and very quickly I began to reconnect with gerard specifically and I dunno, seeing all of that was so incredibly healing, I suppose. I spent a lot of time with a lot of anxiety about my gender because I had nothing to cling to or find meaning in, and even though I listened to mychem throughout those years I didn't analyze things like that, so really I owe a lot of the resurgence of my self acceptance to all of yalls gerard way gender think pieces lol. there are other figures I still connect with regarding this, but gerard specifically not only because of his directly expressed experiences with gender but also because of the analyses of lyrics and symbols brought to light to me by mcr tumblr. so my other point is that when a community of trans/nb/gnc people connect with someone, that connection absolutely should not be policed by others in any way, shape, or form. it just so happens that in the case of gerard, they have explicitly expressed their own gender experiences that do not align with being cis (and if you think that they do then you need to genuinely reevaluate your perception of gnc/nb people). but even if they hadn't, even if gerard arthur way was like I Am Cisgender I Have Never Questioned My Gender In My Life then guess what? trans people would still be allowed to connect with them. because it isn’t up to anybody what others find themselves in.

Anyways. I think this post was all over the place and I dont expect anyone to have read it but I just think people need to just fuckingjejbfakjnfjab stop being so scared of nb people. a lot of other ppl have said this stuff better and there's a lot more I could have elaborated on but u get the gist! the gist being: cis people shut the fuck up

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