#so noone is even gonna see this

[frozenhi-chews]

I don't mind projection onto fictional characters that much, heck I do it myself. (Aspec characters my beloved.) But sometimes peojection just turns into overly sanded projections of the canonical characters themselves.

Heck not even projection, sometimes they'll just do whatever to the character to the point they're barely recognizable. Making them sanded and flat to put in the most bare bones stuff for like, memes and other forms of projection. Thinking it's cool or funny to have them be that way when it very clearly goes against canon.

Idk I'm just tired of seeing characters dulled down for whatever headcanons and ships and whatnot just because people can't handle nuance and think of them deeper than a surface level interpretation. PLEASE go back and look at the characters in canon and study them for a bit. Build headcanons off of that. Sometimes they'll do things that you won't do and that's fine. Not everything is for personal projection. (Though there's nothing wrong in being a self indulgent a little)

#yes this is about what i saw on twitter regarding starlo #no hes not a big breasted always cool high-noon cowboy himbo people tend to make him out to be #like literally i found out why i didnt like so many of those interpretations. its not just the fact so many of those are of North Star- #-and not Starlo #like okay. i can see Starlo doing some of those things as North Star and being drunk #but that's not all he is?? #people on Twitter forget he's a nerd #hes a freaking NERD. a farmer whos a NERD #COME ON #North Star is a front. its a persona. it's not who he completely is #people literally just took him. gave him a cool himbo personality. and slapped a big chest on him and called it a day #with like. none of the nuance of him being the insecure (and even self loathing) farmer he was and grew up as. and still kinda is #idk. sometimes it's nice to indulge that side of him but it becomes exhausting to see that its ALL people see him as #for petes sake im gonna make yall draw him as a nerd farmer #the cake doth speak #fandom

[general-marzipan]

Gotta love tf2 enjoyers who wait until the last minute to somehow scrounge up a tf2 cosplay (its me im tf2 enjoyers)

#tf2 #gonna save this so i can look at it later #team fortress 2 #YALL I JUST WANNA BE A COOL MERC FOR HALLOWEEN BUT I DONT HAVE ENOUGH STUFF TO STILL BE RECOGNIZABLE AS A MERC #lol imagine trying to still make an identifiable tf2 cosplay only for noone to know what tf2 is #i dont even have a red shirt for scout sad emoji #any help is appreciated #i gotta get ready for school at 5:30am tomorrow do we’ll see what happens #lol and there’s gonna be a costume contrst guess who’s most likely gonna enter against ppl who cosplay regularly lol

[front-facing-pokemon]

#manectric #i woke up at like noon today y'all i'm queuing this after work. i forgot about it all day and i was about to hop on totk #but i got the reminder to do it. so here i am. with manectric #el woowoo‚ if you will #a lot happened. yesterday. it was not a very good day. which is why i woke up so late. it was a little bit rough. but i guess it's a new day #so. it'll get better. planning on Not Doing Shit today or tomorrow to compensate for all the Bullshit that happened yesterday #hoping you all are doing well. one week from today (friday june sixteenth) i'll be hopping on a flight for the first time in 10 years #looks like according to the queue this will actually go up the day before we leave. so‚ to you guys‚ i'll be heading out tomorrow #which is scary a little bit. last time i flew i had no idea i was autistic‚ but now that i've come up with a lot of better accommodations #for myself and i understand myself a lot better and my needs‚ i'm realizing a lot of my accommodations just aren't gonna make it through TSA #plus it's a lot of unfamilarity with unfamiliar people and an unfamiliar environment which i feel like is gonna lend itself to sensory #overload like Immediately and i'm probably gonna get a headache bc that's how it manifests for me #so when we get there i'm probably gonna have to run to the nearest pharmacy. and grab some shit. which is annoying! so. i'm a little #worried. about the trip. NONE OF HTIS IS ABOUT MANECTRIC SORRY #this is a pokémon i have a hard time caring about outside of its involvement as the leader of the electrike in amp plains #that's about it #any tips from frequent flyers who are autistic would be greatly appreciated. not even just about flying but about like. going to unfamiliar #places on the other end of the country and stuff. i feel like that's what i'm most worried about even though i'm worried abt all of it #also hi i'm writing these tags from day-of. like the actual day this is going to post. me from a week ago sure did know what she was talking #about! anyway. i'm. gonna like. take my meds now goodBye see you all when this Posts in a few hours

[coffee-bat]

yknow i really hoped id bounce back quicker

#its almost been a week and i havent recovered #so im just a mess and failure out and about for everyone to see and laugh at behind my back #i havent had time to process anything i hsvent had time to recover. but who gives a shit genuiely #i should be doing better #but im barely holding it together #im barely keeping myself alive and functioning. i barely get up and barely eat. im behind on everything uni-related. #and everyone sees it everyone sees me failing at getting uni work done in time and theyre mocking and judging me behind my back #im 99% sure even my friends are #bc im not just gonna go around telling everyone like 'hey i attempted sui last week im not holding it together very well' #thatd be even worse. theyd hate me for seeking sympathy/attention. #but since noone knows they just think im lazy and stupid #and i cant fucking do this anymore i feel like im falling apart #vent #personal #suicide mention #sorry for vent on main again #im home alone for the past few (and next) days and its making me hold it together even worse

[samaspic31]

I have many criticisms of tales of the jedi, but the main one is… why ? What’s the point of rehashing the comics and novels that much ? If that was to answer questions, people could look for the comics. Lots of these anecdotes felt redundant, things we could already easily deduct from previous media to me.

Also I’m not gonna lie I love the prequel era as much as the next guy but I’m tired 90%of the animated shows being set in it and recreating scenes of it. Feels like nostalgiabait more than a genuine exploration of the time period. I am also getting tired of lines being added for the sole purpose of getting people to point and shout like master like padawan !! Meaningless repetitions driving a point already made many times. The history of the Jedi spans so much more time than those 13 years we already have 3movies and hours of shows about, and harbours so much more diversity than the 6 members of the disaster lineage can ever exemplify, but it’s their stories that get told over and over the highest budget projects of Star Wars. Tell me a tale of high republic jedi, tell me about Luke’s student at his temple, tell me something long after the sequel trilogy, tell me the myths of the old republic. Why call it Tales of the Jedi as if it was about the Jedi as a whole if it’s gonna be tales of that one specific lineage

#dishing filoni a very stop making all your fictions so repetitive #the soundtrack did slap and some scenes hit but. aside from that #voice cast and clone model suck etc etc #not tagging totj cause i don’t want to add to it trending #the contrast with this week’s episode of Andor is startling. something with a message and nuance and perfect execution #vs filonis usual insensitivity #and stealing interesting concepts of the comics while executing it so poorly the point gets lost and the attempts at nuance fail #sam speaks #star wars #i watched it illegally and I advice you to do the same #tales of the Jedi felt more like prequel/tcw cutscenes than worthwhile stories #and with it airing at the same time as Andor it’s just even worse #all this hype and the fandom preferring it and racial insensitivity….. for unnecessary stories 2pretty shots and meaningless callbacks #I feel like this show treated me like I was stupid. as if repeating the three same lines in the same episode was gonna make me cry #as if I was incapable of coming up with explanation for dookus fall by myself. as if I needed to see it him delete kamino #as if they needed to straight up add the s7 o66 scene for me to understand that’s what the episode recontextualised #I digress. I’m disappointed and the good parts are not overweighting the mediocre and the fucked up racist context #people call Andor a pointless spin off when the way it’s done gives it purpose and teeth and nuance. #filoni has been making pointless prequel spin offs noone initially asked for and unnecessarily filling gaps since 2008 #I will give it that there were attempts to add nuance to Jedi identity. a lot of it fell flat tho #it’s so blatant filon just wants to make more and more prequels and that’s what drives what gets made #stoked for the acolyte series. finally something in a new time period

[famderfries]

If eBoys fans existed you would never hear the end of why James is the best

#Hes funny; he makes music; he plays guitar; hes comfortable in his masculinity; hes good on his own and in a collab; hes 6'4 #the only reason James isnt more popular is because he isnt skinny im just saying #And tbh im not too upset he was taken up by the dreamsmp bunch even tho hes known wilbur for ages #because he gets more views and that but also like i feel like ppl reduce him to 'wilburs friend' quite often and its not fair #i understand if you dont like commentary videos but James is so good #He also found a niche that he can fill ehich is literature and music!!!@ #noones gonna see this but this is gonna become a james marriott stan account #james marriott #apollo says stuff #the eboys

[crucifixionstream]

no school tomorrow fuck it we big ballin AND im deep cleaning the room HELL YEAHS HEARD AROUND THE ROOM

#we’re in a serious freeze rn and i called it on my school cancelling classes for tomorrow but i got lucky bc its til noon on wednesday #so i only got one class that day #but we gotta go to the store tomorrow and im Hoping theres gonna be maybe three people total at the place #the deep clean is gonna take HOURS i fear but it’ll be sooo so worth it in the end #i might even get a little silly and start a drawing tomorrow hehehahahoho #WE’LL SEE!! #samwich time

[espy-heart]

been trying to get in the habit of drawing before i go to bed.

i'd put this on my other blog, but i kinda just thought this'll explain why i don't post much anymore.

#espy art #i used to post sketches and stuff here #but i started postin em to my sideblog cause i just. thought i'd just post finished stuff here instead. #and over time i just. stopped finishing things #and what i did finish i just. wasn't proud of #but i post em anyways caus ei go so long without posting #that i figure the few of you who are still here would rather see something even if it isn't my best #i wanna make stories and pretty portaits and funny things and all sorts of stuff #but i'm not a storyteller and i'm not talented and i'm not very funny #and i'm just not creative #y'all've seen edgy comics like this all the time. everyone's sick of it. noone wants to see it #i'm too little too late. i have no substance #i wanted to make this my job once. i don't anymore. cause it's never gonna be viable #ive learned to be ok with it #but it still sucks #i'm going to bed. i hope the 5 of you who see this are doin ok

[enoch]

im reading donna tartt’s the secret history and honestly i am cringing considerably and im like 35 pages in

#the second i heard that theyre supposed to be in ancient greek class i knew i was gonna cringe to death from pretentiousness #like this is very beautifully written though a little heavy #but first instance of someone saying something in ancient greek and its grammatically incorrect #and now a dude from the class saw the protag and said 'are you the new neanias?' #neanias meaning young man in greek but why would you ever say this like that. noone even says this ever like its so cringe #i promise im not anti-academia LOL its just that the concept of snobby westerner students being snobby about learning ancient greek #and studying ancient greek texts #and then saying cringe shit like this just makes me die #either way i will continue this because its well written and i wanna see what happens #and maybe the cringe will be integral to these characters' writing

[kii2me2ii2]

stop drawing trollsona caliborn when you KNOW he had a humansona !!!!!!

#my caliborn has a kidsona lol his name is call hyborn #caliborn #he has a humansona too theyre different things tho #he doesnt wanna deal w having a problematic source / character smtimes so even tho his humansona is a bit sus it works #im kinda thinking abt an au where lliope is a troll and born is a kid ya know #and theyre gonna play a two player session together #the thing is i dont wsnt people grtting on my ass about out of character shit like this is my caliborns idea ok #he likes himself and he likes writing about himself #so its basically rpf lol #anyways i hope noone sees this despite me tagging it ignore the other tags pls

[dimthedimwit]

"In putting on this suit and entering the sleigh... the wearer waives any and all rights to any previous identity, real or implied, and fully accepts the duties and responsibilities of Santa Claus... in perpetuity until such time that wearer becomes unable to do so... by either accident or design." - The Santa Claus

#the santa clause #im only posting this cuz i couldnt the actual quote anywhere #i had to look through the manuscript of the movie to find itlike #good movie. i havent watched it in like a decade #it feels like an adam sandler movie #is it an adam sandler movie? #im not checking #why am i adding so many tags to something noone will see #eh its nice to monologue sometimes #even if its to noone #:D #i was gonna click post then i thought 'wait is it a quote' #im being semantic but its a label on santa's coat so im not sure if it counts as one #the coat cant talk so is it right to say its a quote? #eh whatever who cares

[nimomo-mo]

vent

#i was hungry today so i think my appetite is coming back despite the pills #and im not sure if thats a good thing #i still cant focus so i mean. lol. lmao even #at least i cant make myself start tasks and my executive dysfunction is as bad as ever #now i have the issue of if i keep getting hungry like before im gonna gain weight again and i dont wanna #look theres nothing wrong with being fat or chubby and god knows im not aiming to be a stick figure but oh my god i dont want to gain weigh #i should work out and get fit like a normal human and that means i should eat right. but i still have that nagging feeling #i love myself. i do. i have the dissociation thing where i cant recognize myself in the mirror tho. and its not good this time. #usually i dont really mind since its like. you know like its not me anyway so what does it matter if that girl is fat or not #but im really self conscious and feel gross and i dont know why it all started back up again #i want to measure it. want to weigh myself. want to count calories and check with measuring tape #but i really shouldnt and i know that if i do i will trigger such a bad episode i might end up in the fucking hospital #i need to hold out until this episode goes away. i need to stand it all until i get my head back together. #i dont wanna get malnutrition or lose weight so fast my skin gets flappy #but every little thing i eat ends up nagging at the back of my head about how if i eat more ill get fat and noone will like me then #its not true. i know its not true. and i know fat people are gorgeous and i am already chubby so what does it matter #but i feel horrible. i dont want to look like this or feel like this or be like this #i want to be the best i can be. i want to reach my full potential. but its not exactly working. i swear to god i wanna love myself #i want to be loved. i want to be adored. i want to be the one someone picks even if the room is full of gorgeous and competent women #i want to be the first choice and for the person to see me as the most beautiful person in the world #to be the first choice and to be everything someone wants and needs. to be the ideal. to be the perfect one even with my flaws #i want someone to look at all the ugly sides of me and look at my fat and my emotional fuckery and my ugly crying and still love me #i want someone to love me so wholeheartedly i wont ever feel like theyd like someone else. that theyd pick someone else. that im not no.1 #i want to be that person you do a double take of. to be the one that people get jealous of. to be the spotlight. to be the prettiest one. #its egoistical and selfish and childish and mean and dumb and naive and self absorbed i know. i know that it is #but its still there and its embarrassing . but im not gonna pretend like i dont have these thoughts and feelings. #im not smart or pretty enough to stand out. i dont know what could make me special. i dont know what i do that makes me unique. #what am i? who am i? how do i get better? i want to be better. i want to be better i want to be better i want to be better #i want to reach a new level i want to reach their level i want to be at the top i want to be special i want to be better i want to be proud #i want to be genuinely proud and special and outstanding enough to not feel insecure or inferior anymore

[belittlejuiced]

i want to keep being excited about life

i want to do more things for myself

this whole year has felt hectic and like i havent really gotten a chance to just breathe (i havent gone to the ocean even once :-() but that's because i mostly have no energy left since i juggled (am still juggling) three clients. im giving myself grace for the fact that i havent taken care of myself that well. surviving is the priority after all.

but i keep wanting more. so im going try my darndest to make choices that make me happy. I'll definitely be planning that beach trip one of these days, april sounds hella nice to spend some me time by the sea.

#personal #ro.txt #im also pretty proud of what ive accomplished this year 😭 #wala lang #never thought I'd see the day where im actually p proud of who i am #im excited because i feel so adamant to experience more moments that make me feel alive--in the best possible way #i think id never stop wanting for more--never stop feeling so curious abt what life has to offer #i hope this never leaves me i hope this never fades (even though it eventually does as with all things) #i feel so light considering it's noon and not the early mornings and i still have some work to do lol #idk but im not gonna question it

[orcelito]

Ok im gonna try to get the next chapter of ITNL done soon. If not today, then tomorrow? It's gonna depend a lot. But I'm getting antsy. I don't want it to be 2 weeks between updates.

#speculation nation #itnl shit #less of a thing of me feeling like i owe it to readers (though i do want to make readers happy) #more i just get antsy if i go too long without posting anything #posting these analysis posts is helping with that at least :p i enjoy watching the numbers go up #even if it is a Little intimidating how fast this most recent one has grown hfkshfj #numbers go up & my monkey brain that wants attention is placated. for now. #anyways. yeah. im gonna try to finish writing itnl chapter 8 today at the very least #but im gonna b working at noon tomorrow so i cant stay up too late editing #so! hopefully i can finish editing tomorrow. we will see.