#so many perushim on Nadav and Avihu

[torahgalus]

Shemini

what if I want to seek out your holiness; what if I want more than you have given me; if I want to see myself wrapped in you, bound to you, bearing my heart’s strange fire on clean, unblemished palms. what if I tapped on each stone waiting to hear your echo, and I was ready to be kissed with holy flames--to leave nothing behind but this empty, reaching form.

#poetry #poem #torah #parsha #jumblr #Shemini #Parshat haShavuah #Poem HaShavuah #so many perushim on Nadav and Avihu #so perpetually uncertain to what extent we blame or elevate them #what does it mean to do more than you've been commanded #to do not only what's expected or asked of you but what you #inescapably #desire #is it sinful to pursue higher holiness #or connection #or does god see that desire and meet it #with those closest to me I will be sanctified #what if they see that desire and say come a step closer #same week as reading this parsha #which is obviously not this week bc yes I'm very behind #there was a bit in Shekalim about the Ark being hidden/buried #about a priest realizing it was buried beneath the flagstones #of the wooden storage chamber #of them crying out in discovery and being consumed by fire #so I'm thinking about that too