enough for you by olivia rodrigo (and pretty much every other song on the album) really be making me break down crying because, like, our experiences might've been different but i can still relate heavily to the lyrics
like i never dated anyone in high school, there wasn't ever one specific person i was trying to please, but i remember throughout a lot of middle and high school trying so hard to be attractive
and like i was a fucking kid????? that pressure most definitely should not have been on me. and like olivia, i spent a lot of time resenting the other girls in my class when i couldn't reach their level, despite them growing up and dealing with the same bullshit beauty standards shoved onto teen girls and young women. they were never the enemy, but for the longest time i felt like i was losing some race i didn't even really wanna be a part of
and i also remember all of that shit changing when i came to terms with my sexual and romantic attractions and came out. like, it wasn't a full 180°, it didn't just completely stop, but i didn't let it consume my life anymore. i stopped trying so hard to look pretty and desirable for boys, stopped trying so hard to impress them. my self worth went up so fucking high during the last half of high school because i stopped letting boys' opinions of me make me feel inferior or like i wasn't "enough"
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