#so ive decided to suffer

[thelastharbinger]

Tidbits of ATSV That I Enjoyed (Or Alternatively: Just Miles Being The Most Endearing Spidey Ever)

Miles patting The Spot's head after successfully webbing him (I don't see this as condescending, but rather him still engaging with the humanity of a villain like Spot) and ~very assertively~ telling/asking him not to escape.

"I'm like Robin Hood-if he gave to himself."

Miles' spidey senses going off when he arrives late to his dad's party because there's nothing more frightening than Brown parents when they're mad at you. Beware the chancla or correa!

O.k. So we all know there are different versions of the movie out there. You may already know that one of the slight differences is when Miles goes to save Inspector Singh. There's a version where you can hear Gwen's voice in the distant background yelling no! when she thinks Miles gets crushed under the rubble, and there's another where she's silent as she webs to him. Now, I have found ANOTHER version (online) where her shouting is even more at the forefront. She's practically screaming and sounds more desperate, (prolly because it's close to the same way her Peter Parker died so she's reliving trauma) and the fear in her voice is palpable. That one haunts me.

Jefferson trying to equate studying for his police exams to childbirth, which Rio quickly nips in the bud.

Ganke having a soccer poster of Son Heung Min, a famous Korean footballer who currently plays for the Premier League Tottenham Hotspur and is captain of the South Korean national team.

Miles having a Sashimi (his universe's version of Supreme, but I just like the idea that Miles loves eating sashimi. Like I know that kid has good taste in food) poster in his bedroom.

The fact that Miles kept in touch with Aunt May for long enough after the events of ITSV that he helps her move.

The Spot saying he was one of the more handsome scientists at Alchemax according to his colleagues.

Miles and Gwen having the same collectible toys, the only difference being that he keeps his in the box and she doesn't.

"Hey, don't try to wow me with big words, man," *in deep manly voice* "I do crosswords every day"- Miles after Spot points out Alchemax as "the crucible of our connection!"

Miles going, "This job is so dumb sometimes" after he tries to web Spot at the deli, but it goes through a hole and lands on his face.

"Nahhh, he seems more Dominican to me." Kinda want Miles to meet a native Dominican Spidey because that dynamic would highkey fuck hard *pun not intended*. They would repair relations between our two islands-PR&DR.

"Almost there Mami *smiley face* *cowboy* prayer hands*"

The college admissions coach at Visions Academy straight up saying, "That's your story! Now, just stick to the script..." Ma'am what???

"Calmate Mami, eso no es my fault."

"I've hit a lot of different villains with a lot of different food...I'm just trying to lighten the mood."

Miles in his angsty teen era and smart-mouthing everyone around him. Love that for him.

"He almost killed his mom as a baby, I mean, look at those shoulders." No but for real tho. Those shoulders are as wide as a truck. Kim Seokjin who??? (if you understood that reference, ily).

Miles writing a love letter to his dad in 2 cakes.

Gwen at the water tower chowing and saying how feelings make her hungry after her and Miles talked about how they can't be together cause it would end in tragedy. Like Gwen, come again?!

Also, Miles' and Gwen's talk at the Williamsburg Bank Building being lowkey the catalyst for the 2nd/3rd acts of the film. Without them both kind of silently admitting their feelings for each other, Miles probably wouldn't have chased after her the way he did. Pretty sure you know the rest.

"I bet she doesn't even speak Spanish," and Jeff going "Que barbaridad" in his very broken Spanish. Queue Rio's bombastic side eye.

Both Gwen and Miles referring to Spot as a Villain Of The Week, even though neither of them have spoken about Spot to each other.

"I was bitten by a-wouldnt you like to know? Know what I mean?" SIR. Chill. This movie is for children.

The Spot inverting himself, going from a white mass with black spots to a gaping black hole with smaller white spirals. It's giving Junji Ito.

The irony of Pavitr exclaiming, "Well that was another easy adventure for Spider-Man!" right before an incoming canon event. HIS. He was about to experience his first big loss, and his happy-go-lucky nature would've been challenged.

Miguel saying conyo! when all the Spideys start pointing at each other.

"!Cállate!" "Nosy!" Sidebar: we don't talk about Gwen's banter with bad guys enough. She's so funny!

A lot of the Peters saying hi to Gwen as she passes HQ because she is canonically the one lost love--the love interest they all would've ended up with had she not died, so they all have an affection for her.

Web-Slinger going "Giddy up!" Cause he's swinging up.

Miles offering his fresh new takes on how to deal with the Spot upon meeting Miguel, saying "He just wants to be taken seriously. Like we all do." MILES YOU BEAUTIFUL, COMPASSIONATE GOLDEN SUNFLOWER BOY I LOVE YOUUUUU.

Hobie referring to Peter B. as Humbling Reality Spider-Man, which considering how steeped in tragedy the Spidey lore is, is really saying something.

Miguel's nonono no puedo más no puedo más. His misery is very funny and delightful to me. Little bitch ass.

"You know you're the only Spider-Man who isn't funny." Yes! More Miguel slander in the next one, please! Little bitch ass.

"Snitch!"

Miles shouting out Peter's name for help whilst Miguel pins and lays into him the fact that he's an anomaly. This after he momentarily glitches back to his ITSV store-bought suit. Mimicking the way-in also the first movie-Miles shouting out Peter's name for his own rescue as Doc Ock attacks him at the research facility. Because even though he feels hurt by Peter at this point, that's still his dad mentor and he still instinctively looks to him for protection. Rip my heart out why don't you!

Gwen sneaking back into her and her dad's place just to get that printed polaroid of her and Miles, a pic she already has on her phone.

Earth-42 Miles wearing Nike while our Miles wears Jordans.

#hi. ive seen this movie 8x in theaters and twice on pirating sites. i am unwell #also sorry not sorry for the miguel slander. i am a miles loyalist thru and thru thst bitch is on thin ice #but also literally can't get over gwen “it really is so nice to get to talk to you. me & him its different. in every other universe...stacy #cause directly underneath that she's actually saying. “i missed you. and what i have with you i literally do not have with anyone else and. #you dont know this but ive met hundreds and thousands of spiderpeople. nd even in my friendship with hobie its not like what i have with yo #and im actually really smitten with you. the one person i shouldn't be smitten with bc there is no happy ending for us. and idk... #if i should hold off. and im letting you know all this so that you can decide for me. whether to take that lesp of faith or not with you. & #hope that say yes and make the first move so that i cant but help to just sink into you.“ #AND IT MAKES SENSE! SHE MET HIM JUST AS HE WAS LIVING THROUGH AN EXPERIENCE SHE DID. OF BECOMING SPIDEY. AND RIGHT AFTER #SUFFERING THE GREATEST TRAGEDY OF HER LIFE WHICH SHE WAS ABOUT TO BEAR WITNESS THRU WITH HIM. SHE WAS THERE FOR HIS UNCLE DYING AND WATCHED #HIM BECOME SPIDERMAN. WE FORGET THAT THEY ACTUALLY WENT THRU SOME HEAVY THINGS TOGETHER. THEYRE TRAUMABONDED. I KNOW THATS NOT WHAT THAT WO #ACTUALLY MEANS. BUT IT MAKES SENSE THAT SHE CAN ONLY TALK TO MILES BC THEY PERFECTLY UNDERSTAND EO. #anyways idk why im shouting. im high rn. but crazy how all of that meaning was subtly thrown in there. like we got a confession scene folks #from gwen of all people! i love that for me. #also back to miguel: so i know he's hot. but if a hot person were to ever be rude to a waiter we agree theyre no longer hot right? right. #atsv #miles morales #itsv #miguel o'hara #the spot #ghostflower #gwiles #gwen stacy #ghost spider #gwen x miles #rio morales #across the spider verse #into the spider verse

[lunarharp]

scribbly first date type affair (continuation of my modern au stuff)

#witch hat tag #orufrey #idk when the next modern au thing will be so i'll just post this by itself. hehe #that art was one of qifrey's first drawings. it was of a creepy eye. (it was around the time he got glasses as a kid) #(and was told that he might lose his sight completely one day so he became an emo because he already wanted to be an artist #like beldaruit who ran his foster home where he encouraged kids to draw art to express their feelings.) #and an insidious deviantart group called The Brimhats idk stole it & reposted it. he never got to the bottom of who exactly did it. #but one day. they will fucking suffer. #(he believes their goal was to develop AI art as they said stuff like 'all art should belong to everyone anyway' & 'there shouldnt be rules' #but actually they were probably just regular mean ppl who have moved on to new things in life than stealing kids' art on deviantart. #who knows though.) i want people to retain their disabilities or general tragedies like beldaruit would be in a wheelchair #and coco's mum is in a coma. but its just so funny if qifrey just has regular bad eyesight #and it's so cute that he would say he doesnt think of beldaruit as a dad & is distant with him but now basically runs a foster home too #where he doesnt just encourage like he was encouraged but actively teaches kids from sad backgrounds to become wonderful artists one day #anyway i am so fucking hungry now goodbye #P.S. BELDARUIT IS NOT OLD !!!!!!! i mean if qifrey is late 20s or older in canon like i want... i guess he..but.... NO !!!!!! 😭 #*edits in some follow-up drawings* #oru: i couldn't c-c-confess my feelings bc it always seems like he's worried about something..i shouldnt bother him.. #qif: *always worried about how to confess his feelings* #ive decided meeting at 7 on da is kind of ridiculous actually. i think they probably meet at like age 10 in canon..not immediately =_= #since beru-sama is like 'he finally found a friend'. whatever... this'll be my last art post for a while probably so see ya <3

[rpfisfine]

guys im sorry for failing you but this is where i pass away for the night i hope you guys have so much fun and i have had the most amazing and beautiful and traumatizing of times with all of you

#i slept for maybe an hour today and ive kind of decided not to drop out yet so i have to suffer the consequences in the morning #logs off stinking style

[rapidhighway]

for the love of everything that is holy can my roommates invest in desk lamps usually im not even very opinionated about The Big Light but dear god my eyes are getting blasted with big light 24/7 over here

#one of them will just fucking #turn it on when everyone else is in bed????? cause she can't see #USE YOU FLASHLIGHT WHAT IS YOUR PHONE FOR #WE. LITERALLY. WENT. TO. CASTORAMA. TO. BUY. LAMPS. #AND SHE DECIDED SHE DIDNT WANT ONE #IVE BEEN SUFFERING SINCE DAY ONE #my new roommate at least has a night light she usually uses but then she doesnt have a desk lamp so whenever she's doing soethign at her #desk i get blasted by 100000000 lumens #pleas PLEASE STOP OMFG #i know i cant really do shit cause they have to SEE #BUY A FUCKING LAMP DEAR GOD #and you know what. #they have the brightest part of the room #while my desk is sitting in the furthest part from the windows #I ACTUALLY CANT SEE SHIT

[amasdoodles]

a collection of doodles done recently, refs used

#ama doodles #aurora (oc) #ive been drawing aurora a lot lately and thats mostly bc i wanted to work on her facial proportions #i want to work on how i draw faces in general and i felt aurora suffered a lot from my very big eye and lack of fully settled #facial details. so ive been trying to work a lot on it #the two headshots were made with refs i still struggle drawing the face i want to give her freehand tho #none of this to be negative btw just sharing my thoughts! its the thought process of trying to improve #on a lighter note the other one is inspired by a silly convo with another player about aurora and her pc being so traumatized #and i sent the original meme pic then decided to draw it lol #i think this is the best ive ever draw my friends pc im kinda proud of that silly doodle of her

[wildmrmix]

Broooo I have so much homework I need to do but I no no wanna :(

#like its not my fault you couldnt organize and decide how long your lessons were so why am i suffering #what the hell catherin what have i ever done to you #one of them is literally a test that ive been using pity points to push the date on but I CAN’T WAIT ANYMORE #i just hate math so my brain wont remind me about it on principle #wild stop rambling in the tags challenge (impossible) #wildtalks

[an-assortment-of-forks]

there are doctors there are hospitals there are specialists there is medicine there are systems in place so people do not have to suffer and be tortured under their own chronic pain daily and yet. they're all fucking inaccessible to the people who need it most!!! to what I would argue is most disabled people!! I'm so fucking done with the medical system.

#today is an absolutely wretched pain day that makes me want to not be here anymore but guess what! #wasted a whole year trying to convince my doctors I was in significant and disableing pain daily and the best they could do #is tell me to go to PT and to wait 6 months and tell them if it gets better #to prescribe some shit like gabapentin or otc pain meds and write me off #tell me they'll get new X-rays to see if it got worse by the summer #disability exists!! specialists exist! good doctors fucking exist!! somewhere!!! I'm sure!! #but here I sit. in excruciating amounts of pain unable to convince any fucking doctors of anything #and that year I spent pushing myself to the limit is wasted bc at the very end of it all only one guy listened to me #and he said no one in their giant ass facility could diagnose me #so I'm back to square one bc I got a new job which means new insurance and new doctors to try and convince again #I just want to be on disability so i can want to be alive again #I'm so frustrated and in pain constantly #what are people like me who have to work 40hrs to afford to live but don't have any family to rely on supposed to do?? #just die? am i supposed to continue to work until im too disabled to move and be profitable unless i get lucky? #bc some fucking doctor finally decides to actually listen??? #ive tried ALL THE DAMN TRICKS TOO. telling them a friend has it and thats how i found out. that my previous doctor was looking into it #etc etc #I'm SO done living like this i am exhausted. #and to know that i COULD BE HELPED. RIGHT NOW. is the worst fucking part #these systems are in place so people like me dont have to fucking suffer. #but i cant even do anything about it bc i have a cat.

[redrobin-detective]

I think one of my problems as an AU fanfic writer is that I have a hard time deviating from canon with my ‘soft AUs’. I can and do come up with all sorts of wild scenarios and spin out from there but I like keeping the facts of canon as close as possible.

I think of the constraints as a challenge, to tell a story within my self imposed limitations. If I change ONE thing, how will events change and in many cases the answer is, not much at all on a story level while I focus on the emotional. But as much as I have adhered to canon and my only personal beliefs, it does tend to make the story a little predictable, a bit boring.

#don't mind me #Ive been thinking what it is about TLWA and ARbaON that I just don't like #and I think its the concept of a soft AU in general #I like writing bc I do genuinely enjoy the challenge of making changes within the confines of canon #Izuku never meets AM that one time so what happens after #Tim meets Bats early and in a panic decides to keep his identity a secret #these don't affect larger canonical parts of the story in my very persnickity detail oriented mind #but when I reread them #idk it just feels boring #I try and make up for it with emotional weight and story telling and that has its moments #but actual storytelling? it suffers a bit #it can be done! I still think I&E holds up as a fun emotional/action story despite holding true to the tenats of both batman comic and YJ TV #Its something to consider as I move forward as a writer #anyway reread secret robin and its... not........ bad but man I could have done so much more with the concept #I already have a long mental list on what I would change if I were to rewrite TLWA

[jorvikwildhorse]

halfway through completing Soul Riding, blissfully musing about what i'll name my Rune Runner: Maybe I'll name them Runestone, Wayfinder or Sequoia. That would be cute.

staggering towards completing Soul Riding, on the edge burn out and so tired of catching the corrupted horse that can run through walls and trees 100 times: I'm going to name them Blockhead if i live through this. or Ballbreath. or Everclear, because i need drink.

#i'm joking. but also please end my suffering... i'm at 82000/120000 so i'm........getting there i guess #this is one of the grindiest things ive ever done in a video game and i've done eureka and atma in ff/xiv #jwhtext #also those are all legit names so have them if you want i haven't decided still lol

[thedeadthree]

the high stakes tennis match in my brain between my w/itcher brainrot and the urge to have brainworms about f/allout again bc of the show and wanting to see my clowns and make new onessss but also continent clowns and writing 🥀😵‍💫

#leg.txt #high stakes tennis match indeed !!!!!! brain is brain worming or whatever they say sozjjxjx #i was having a wiiiicked bout of the stomach suffering the past couple days and i am busy today but ill likely have the chance to watch this #weekend and EEEEK i am soo stoked im so happy that it looks soo good and that it’s loved EEEEEK I AM SOO EXCITED #the fact yelenas fc is also the protag too like CRYINGG yelena on the screen twinsies !!!!!!!!! EEEK!! #she’s also adopting her ive decided thats her daughter now 🥀😤 #but i already have an idea or two on a few dears and i am revamping my f*o4 dears and making a new girlie for artyom sooo i am stoked <33 #i think it’ll be a cute little break from the continent clowns so i can have fresh ideas <3 !!!!!! i am so stoked <33

[aro-carpenter]

Skdjf

#studious followers might note that im usually not online rn. but am today #this is because im bored as fuck is class and being on my phone is currently more socially acceptable than thinking blorbo thoughts #while staring into space in the general vicinty of my laptop #send help. #i decided to skip my last class so ive got roughly 10 minutes before im free for break #suffering. pain. i want to go play video games #original

[skrunksthatwunk]

i just finished saw v and i don't have high hopes for the rest of the franchise (based on what ive heard) but im in too deep to stop now

#no i haven't enjoyed the last two no i don't expect to get much out of the next five or so movies. but i need to know. #i guess saw v mightve suffered bc i watched it basically immediately after iv #something i didnt do with any of the others #but i was told v was one of the good ones so i was looking forward to it. i dont think it was burnout yknow #but uh. i didn't like it. i think i liked iv more honestly. strahm and hoffman do absolutely nothing for me #i liked the traps. that was it though #it felt so pointless and empty. it was the first one where i genuinely wondered why they made it. why did they decide to keep going with #this. i think ii and iv both function more/better as setup for their following films but like. at least iii was pretty good yknow #like both amanda and hoffman's accomplicing feels kinda retconned in but at least amanda's an interesting character #what does hoffman have. what does strahm have. nothing. and no i don't think they have much in the way of homoeroticism either. #i don't tend to be so negative and im sorry if someone goes in the saw tags and feels bad about me talking shit about something they like #because i know that doesn't feel good. honestly i'd love to hear why people like v. maybe it'll change my opinion of it if i look at it a #different way yknow? but for now im just annoyed by it. iv was engaging in the moment but very forgettable #i liked riggs well enough but we barely learned a thing about him. he wasn't a deep character at all and i think that's a shame #but v was just a paperwork-based cat and mouse chase. 90 minutes and it still felt like they were wasting my time #why did strahm go to the old trap locations? i don't think he found anything out there. likr it was just a framing device for the flashback #but he didn't actually have a reason to go there. waste of my time #not an original critique im sure but saw ii on seems to be more focused on scale and layers of shit (i.e. having two games going at once) #than using the traps to examine the characters. i mean you go from two guys in a bathroom for a couple hours #learning about who they are gradually at a slow pace vs like 8 people in a house plus cop stuff plus 90 second traps of dubious fairness #hoffman has no real relationship with kramer (unlike amanda) and basically everyone who'd been following jigsaw is dead and so are jigsaw #and (presumably) amanda. what am i supposed to be here for? the vague outline of a saw trap? the type of torture happening? #im not even opposed to that per se but frankly the more they focus on the cops surrounding this shit the less fun it is #why are you making all the traps like 15 seconds long and tied to characters who aren't the primary focus. it's saw #ughh i miss adam. i miss amanda. hell i miss kramer and he was pretty present in this one (flashbackwise) #whateverrr. anyway that poll comparing chainshippng shotgunnshippng and coffinshippng where shotgun was last? lesbophobic. #im only half joking about that. im sure ppl have their reasons for coffin but i also think it's the tendency fandom bias for “two white guy #ships. but hey maybe vi and onwards will add more context to that that'll make me reconsider. i mean i wouldn't have liked the amanda #accomplice thing That much if i'd only seen ii. i think iii really makes it mesh better and it leads to fun character stuff #(though i still think i would've liked it more bc like. amanda was always grateful to jigsaw right? again hoffman comes outta nowhere)

[radmista]

We're really in it now, the combo of stress sleep deprivation and period are working against me, almost cried when the barista said good morning 😭😭 like it sure is a morning

#nearly passed out at the stables today 🤙 love it when my group decides to make us meet 45 min earlier than the assigned time #bc they're idiots who didnt plan accordingly to not have 3 animals to check in on before the test dau #like thats not my fault and do you have any idea how devastating it is making me get up even earlier #yeah getting up early for everyone sucks but idk how to put this without sounding exceedingly whiny #but getting up early is like having the worst period cramps sort of emotional and physical toll on me #ask me to stay up all night or do an exceedindly long overnight I can do that. night owl for real #i dont struggle doing that. ask me to get up at 5am ON MY EXAM DAY bc YOU fucked up your schedule. #after making me show up 30 min before the scheduled time all week #im so mad. the entire week ive pandered to their schedule bc their obnoxious 'if ur not early ur late' like fuck all the way off #im trying so hard and my studies have greatly suffered from the sheer exhaustion of this bs #screams

[4ngelofpurgatory]

:(

#ive spent today deciding i need to suffer and hurt my own feelings #found a conversation with my old best friend where we talk about her suicide attempt and her saying she is so upset it didn't work #and the last conversation i had with my other best friend of years where i tell her shes hurting me and she makes me feel crazy saying she #didn't know you had to talk to people to people to stay friends with them and she has too much homework to deal with me #time to sob for the nth time today

[razzafrazzle]

i have no explanation for this but. oc ace attorney au official art edits. i worked too hard on them to not post them so its ok for me to be a little cringe for a second

[image description: three edits of official ace attorney art, edited to look like the artist's original characters. the first is art of detective gumshoe that has been edited to look like a character named geo. geo is a bulky man with tan skin, an eyepatch, thick eyebrows, and slicked-back black undercut hair with light green sides. the second is art of franziska von karma that has been edited to look like a character named sara bomba. sara is a pale-skinned woman with short, stylish black hair, and she has yellow eyes, teal eyeshadow, and teal lipstick. the third is art of trucy wright that has been edited to look like a character named venus madeline. venus is a dark-skinned chubby girl with dark brown afro hair, pink-tinted glasses, and freckles. end id]

#urgh. tired. just take these and i will suffer the consequences of my actions come morning #wanna do phoenix but moon looks so far from what phoenix looks like that it wouldnt even matter at that point #so im tryin to sticl to characters that look similar to their counterparts for this #also i KNOW the ages make no sense but ive arbitrarily decided that i dont care #strangely proud of these honestly #doc talks #my art #? sorta. did a lot of drawing for these so?? idk. tagging it that anyways #my characters #ace attorney

[lovesickeros]

trying to get some writing done but I'm in absolute shambles who built this site bc it needs to be thrown away immediately. just shut it down.

#hm yes i AM still alive. dont question where ive been its complicated (hsr) #whoever decided shoving an ask into my drafts so i can work on it also doesnt let me edit it on mobile.....ROT #wdym i have to leave my comfy bed to write ohhhh i am at my wits end someone please come end my misery #very trying times. infuriating even. i am malding. seething. #is there a fix. am i just meant to suffer. is this site gaslighting me bc i cant find anything abt this. i feel like im losing my MIND #i can edit the draft just fine on pc and my OLD drafts remain editable. just. not new ones??????? #head in hands i am having a midlife crisis and a mental breakdown over this