#so it's okay

[tizniz]

Holdin' it together, but it's hell for me (6.7K)

And he feels so stupid, because he was fine. Really. He was. At least, he thought he was. Except now he’s not so sure. Now he feels like he’s drowning in his own thoughts.

OR: Buck isn't having as good of a day as he thought.

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#eddie diaz #evan buckley #buddie #911 fic #911 fanfic #buddie fic #buddie fanfic #tanis writes #my works #fic: holdin' it together but it's hell for me #i need to stop hoarding my stories and just post them #because i love sharing these #and we can never have too many buddie stories #so please enjoy this emotional whump #but buck has an eddie #so it's okay

[boysbeloving]

,,, Can I Be Your Shade Of Life? ,,,

:):

Mile Phakphum Instagram update

#mile phakphum #mile phakphum romsaithong #kinnporsche #man suang #he doesn't use title case correctly and the editor in me is LIVID but then i realise that it's literally the internet and i love him #so it's okay #he always posts when I'm down and out so thank you for this babyboy #and the answer is yes

[hlxtn]

I AM ALIVE OHMGOD

I FEEL SO HORRIBLE FOR GOING AWOL SO SUDDENLY BUt life really wrecked me over the past few months (it's getting better now so its okay) You can read a part of what happened here

but tldr; my friend fucked me over/scammed me during my most vulnerable period and while trying to get ahold of my personal problems I also had to beg for all my money/stock back from the 'friend'. I've been taking socials one-by-one and tumblr is now next for me to come and answer messages and give updates. I will tackle my inbox in the next two days once I get off from work and can properly focus on giving actual replies. Just wanted to quickly update and say I didn't disappear without a reason and I'm really really sorry about that

#the end of the year as been the worst in my life #i had a close family member die #my dad has some kind of tumor examinations going on rn #had to find a new job #and a new place to live #had to get an abortion #friend scammed me #my other ex friend tried to roofie me at a night out because she wanted my ex and was jealous that we still were civil? #and because my friend ran off with my money i was broke AF #i made sure my cat was fed but brah those were the hardest months for ME #everything is getting on track NOW #so it's okay #im slowly building everything back up #i still struggle a lil mentally and having to juggle the shame of failure and shit but we ballin #writing out some of what's been going on doesnt sound as bad but tackling everything alone kinda builds up and sucks ass #doesnt excuse my disappearance but just saying these things so people get to have an overview to what has been happening

[thebluespacecow]

Got bored in class yesterday

Have a dc oc

#they are the litttlest of guys to me #sweet little baby #could do no wrong #The ears low i know!! #but it's cute #so it's okay #dc #batfam #dc oc #dc ocs #oc × canon #original character #viv #their name's viv #my little meta human

[thievinghippo]

THEY'RE GETTING MARRIED

#my time at sandrock #mtas logan #builder enid #during his proposal speech #he tells the builder #'I've been thinking about this for days' #*checks calendar* #sir you've been a couple for nine days #I'd tell logan to slow his roll #but enid wants to move that quickly too #so it's okay #they're gonna give andy #a little brother or sister #ASAP

[rachniqueenluxy]

Thrashing my way back onto your dash with another selfie

#personal #me #selfie #girl #gpoy #green eyes #ginger #my face #ask #snapchat #another selfie #thrasher #I'm cold #cold af #but I'm cute #cute #so it's okay

[bethanydelleman]

What do you love most about Jane Austen's characters?

So what I love most is how real they are, let me give you an example:

This specimen of the Miss Steeles was enough. The vulgar freedom and folly of the eldest left her no recommendation, and as Elinor was not blinded by the beauty, or the shrewd look of the youngest, to her want of real elegance and artlessness, she left the house without any wish of knowing them better. (Ch 21, Sense & Sensibility)

Elinor meets the Miss Steeles and is like, "No, they suck." Which seems very judgy since they were perfectly nice to her and she's seen them once. But we are like that, we form judgements quickly and some people rub us the wrong way. Elinor can be very cruel in her private thoughts occasionally, so human.

Like this example from Pride & Prejudice:

“I like her appearance,” said Elizabeth, struck with other ideas. “She looks sickly and cross. Yes, she will do for him very well. She will make him a very proper wife.” (Ch 28)

Elizabeth sees Anne de Bourgh from a distance and is like, "Ha! Darcy deserves an angry sickly wife." What a jerk thing to actually say out loud, Elizabeth! (though Maria is just confused). But she dislikes Darcy so that's what she thinks.

It's wonderful, no Pictures of Perfection to be found. Just flawed and occasionally mean humans.

#Jane austen #things I love #question response #pride and prejudice #sense and sensibility #judgey in their heads #so it's okay

[gauntletqueen]

I'm glad we as a society once again have the correct opinion that staves are better and cooler for magic users than stupid little twigs

#wizards #magic wands are only good when they are frilly and shiny and have hearts on em and shit #and are used by magical girls #AND EVEN THEN it's more fun for magical girls to use alternative weapons #also. Cardcaptor Sakura uses a staff so. Still wrong. wands have no place in today's world #orchestra conductors should also use a staff actually #oh actually biased but little witch academia can keep using wands #they got nice and creative with the look and feel of them #so it's Okay #But if they want to start using staffs instead I'd love that also

[aghosts-eulogy]

"i want to explain how exhausted i am. even in my dreams. how i wake up tired. how i'm being drowned by some kind of black wave."

#art journal #collage #journalling #junk journal #collage art #therapy journal #quote art #scrapbook #scrapbooking #art journaling #i'm not the happiest with this one #but it's not the worst thing i've ever made #so it's okay #yours truly

[beauty-and-passion]

FSS3: an update

Hey,

Two days ago, I finished the first draft for FSS3, a fanwriting of Sanders Season 3 (season 2 finale included) that I am doing thanks to the sweet contributions/ideas/prompts given by the people of this fandom.

When two days ago I was writing the final episode that would end Sanders Sides, I realized that 

it was boring

I was not satisfied by it

it was not what I planned

not all concepts seemed to be developed well

There was one possible solution only: to check everything again.

Some of you might think this is useless, because I already planned everything in advance, right? Well, when you write, stuff tends to be added or to change. Also, when you plan in advance, everything seems very smooth. But once you have the final result of your planning, things might be different. Still, it’s better to have it, because it makes it easier to go back from the start and check if everything really is as smooth as planned.

And so, here’s how I checked it.

Those are all the main concepts/plots I developed in each episode. I needed this to check

if all plots were developed during the season

if there weren’t too many temporal gaps

If they have been all wrapped up

But since this wasn’t enough, I also put the main ones into another graph

This gave me a better vision of how the themes have been developed and also how Character!Thomas should be developed.

And if you see these post-its, they all have a title. The title of a song of Character!Thomas’ playlists. After all, his playlist follows his character arc, so why not using it as a base to see if/how I followed his arc correctly?

And speaking of characters, I couldn’t leave behind the real main ones:

Here I wrote down what they did for each episode, then added the song titles. In this case, the songs don’t just help me see if I followed their arc, but act as a reminder of how I should write the Sides and focus on their personalities.

This also made me realize the dark boys never had a chance to talk about society, which is of course a huge oversight because they clearly love doing it every time they can.

And once I noticed this, I also realized what was sitting wrong with me: it was Roman’s character arc. Only by adding his songs, I realized that after the season 2 finale, I reverted his arc and made him full of doubts again. It could’ve worked if season 2 finale was one episode, but since we’re talking about 4 parts, Roman should start season 3 with a better understanding of himself.

Once I corrected this point, Thomas’ arc improved as well and I was ableto take away one prompt that was more of a nuisance, rather than something useful.

And so, I planned season 2 finale again. Now Roman goes through a real arc, Patton is not in the back anymore and I have a chance to show Janus’ character better: this guy is useful, but he should be used well, otherwise he will end up being just a way to make jokes.

Now you may ask: why are you telling us all of this? The reason is that I learned some stuff that I want to share - and that I hope it could be useful for people who wants to write/plan to write anything.

First of all, this second check after the first draft confirmed me the importance of planning/putting down a whole project in advance, before submitting it to the public. Just imagine if I started posting stuff, without writing the end: I would’ve reached the last episode and realized that the beginning didn’t work. Then what? Take everything down and start again? All while people already read the first bad stuff I gave them? I would’ve lost credibility and people would’ve wasted their time.

Also, some episodes I planned are very good and I love them, so I would’ve hated to reveal them mixed with the bad stuff.

It also made me question, once again, how can Mr. Sanders think that writing a couple episodes at the time will help him properly wrap up the series. Sanders Sides currently has so many threads and plot points to explore, it’s impossible to properly wrap them up by planning just a couple episodes at the time. Even by planning the entire series in advance as I did, I realized there were a couple things I forgot! How can he not entirely forget/dismiss huge themes and concepts, if he doesn’t write the whole thing at once?

Last but not least, this served me as a reminder of how fun writing is. Planning the season 2 finale again made me happy, I loved the better focus I gave on Roman and Janus. And I can’t wait to replan/rewrite Roman during season 3.

Speaking of that: as you can see from my graphs, I planned 24 episodes. And I like that number, but I also realized some episodes are very short and they can be put together into one. Also, Roman’s rewrite will probably lead to less episodes in the first part.

So... well, I might end up wrapping all of this in less episodes than planned. Which is better, in a way, because it follows the trend of the first two seasons being less than 20 episodes.

In any case, I will keep you all updated.

Bye for now and I hope you are all having a great summer <3

#sanders sides #blog update #fss3 #thomas sanders #this project helps a lot #I am learning good stuff #and having fun #I hope you will enjoy it too once it will be finished #no problem in giving you some spoilers now #I am going to change some things anyway #so it's okay #also good luck deciphering my writing and the language mix

[anulithots]

The Rose. Episode 5 - "Gone"

Trigger warnings for blood and sickness.

Welcome to the finale everyone <3. I hope you like Rose and how this ends, because guess what? Fae makes a cameo in the next houseplant series (Prayer Plant)!

Also also, I like the idea of beings who don't have "aha moments" and are suddenly... okay. Because growth is not a linear process, and there isn't a set rule as what counts as "better" or not. So Rose isn't suddenly amazing now but fae is getting better.

Maidoe is a reoccurring character btw <3 Fae is supposed to be a master navigator in Trinity Hollow, and for context, most fairies never leave their tree's side. So Maidoe is.... a bit famous around there. Fae also has this uncanny knack for telling the future, for better or worse.

A tumblr houseplant story from @briarborealisart

The info post is here

Episode one - "Thorns"

Episode two - "Maidoe"

Episode three- "Petals"

Episode four - "Wild"

Note - this is still a first draft, any feedback would be much appreciated. Especially for this one, this is a super interesting concept to explore, but my brain found it so difficult, and comments on if I got to the core of this would be appreciated. <3

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Maidoe lost leaves.

One.

Two.

Three.

Fae didn't have much to begin with. White sap fell off the wounds in droplets. Puddles had stains on faer hands from wiping it away. Maidoe - silly, observant, practical Maidoe - was reduced to a mumbling heap of little leaves beside a bare tree.

Rose. Tried. Everything.

Fae told Maidoe about all the wild ways: too much water absorption, not enough microbes, leaf angling, and Maidoe always slept during prime evening and morning sun hours. Rose was gentle & soft. Fae sat beside Maidoe and told faer everything... but all fae would do was nod. Nod and never change.

Puddles told fair that Maidoe was going through a 'rough patch' and needed utmost care. So Rose sat with Maidoe, measured faer words and made sure to never poke Maidoe with faer thorns.

Rose wondered if Puddles helped more. Puddles gave nowhere near as helpful advice - 'take it slow' fae said.... that was so general and not conducive to a speedy recovery - but Maidoe always smiled more and gave Puddles hugs. Fae never listened to Rose's advice. Puddles said Rose's instructions were "too much" to deal with while Maidoe was in pain. Rose didn't understand. faer advice would bring less pain. Why didn't they see that?

Perhaps it was the hugs.

Maidoe left the next day, white splotches over faer skin where the surprise hug punctured.

Rose had faer own matching splotches, all over faer thorns.

For a precious moment, fae forgot fae had them. But fae wouldn't forget again. If Rose had been more stern- more faerself - thorns & all, then Maidoe wouldn't have left. Simple as that.

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Puddle's leaves drooped, darkening.

Rose bit faer tongue. Fae shouldn't say it unless Puddles asked. It would hurt Puddles more, but how could fae let it get that bad? It was probably just a wind issue - the indoor winds always smelled weird. It was such an easy fix -

"Maidoe's tree is doing better"

Rose glanced over, it had gotten bushier - full of sprouts and leaves.

Rose nodded. "Fae had to get rid of the dead ones and let faer tree get sun, simple changes."

"Not to Maidoe."

Rose blinked. Right. Fae had already poked the others, already caused damage. How could fae fix that?

" ... Sorry"

"Sorry? Who are you and what have you done with Rose?"

"Oh don't be fooled, we are still having our debates."

"For sure."

Puddles fluffed faer leaves. a few fell. Rose grimaced. Wait, wait... if it gets any worse, fae would tell faer anyways.

Puddles sighed. "Do you have 'simple fixes' for these?"

"YES. It's a wind issue, your leaves are delicate-"

"Without the insults."

"Insults?"

"No one likes being insulted Rose, they want to know what they are doing right, THEN give advice."

Rose flicked faer ears. "Sooo... You did a very good job at - at -"

"It's that hard?"

"You're great at resting."

"Wow. Thanks."

"Love the sarcasm. But... really, both you and Maidoe let yourselves rest, maybe at the wrong times, but still... that's a good thing."

Puddles hummed. "Thank you. You should also try it."

"... Can I give you advice now?"

"Hold on... you need advice first."

"Me? Oh.. Ok-okay."

"Maidoe didn't leave because of you."

Rose blinked. "Wha - where did that come from?"

"You've been twisting your claws since you've gotten here."

Rose scowled at faer claws for their betrayal." That does not immediately mean that I think- I think... Maidoe left..."

Rose swallowed. Silly tears. Silly, silly tears that come for the smallest of things.

Puddles tapped Rose's snout in a supportive 'bop'. "Maidoe left because fae was losing faer leaves & wanted to see if there was more to the world."

"But... faer scars."

"I think Fae's quite proud of them actually"

"Oh."

"And fae wanted to see how great the wild actually was."

"It is great."

"I know Rose."

"Why didn't fae tell me.... before fae left?"

"You would make faer stay, say something like 'it isn't conducive for your health'"

"It wasn't conducive for faer health"

".... Faer tree is all bushy now. If we see faer again, I'll ask faer if fae has been a pollywiggin this whole time."

"I doubt that."

".... we'll have a debate on it later."

"For sure... and... Puddles?"

"Yes?"

"Tha- Thank you."

"Of course, Rose."

".... Now can I give you advice?"

Puddles laughed. "Of course, Rose."

Rose smiled. Fae didn't have to hide faer thorns, but fae shouldn't poke others with them either.

They wanted to be cared for - like faer bloom - that's why they never listened.

And Rose? Rose would work on listening too.

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That's the end <3

I hope you all like Rose's story. This houseplant series gives me so much joy, especially since I seem to be in a bit of a spiral again. (Listening to my favorite song "Agnes" by Glass Animals, non-stop to stop the throbbing static and the overwhelming heat and urge to cry but I just can't and it might get so so much worse and I thought I was doing better. This shouldn't hurt, this happened before, it shouldn't hurt.) And I guess that's the point, isn't it? I can't promise you hope for a happy ending, and it's okay to be broken now, it's a story, right? A constant cycle? And I know it's so so wrong of me to say it when I feel so awful, but... perhaps we can enjoy every stage of it? I love this song, I finally have the motivation to do schoolwork because my creative energy is sapped out, it will pass, it's okay right now. We'll take care of each other, and agnst is fun in stories right? All my little characters in my head are curling beside each other, murmuring comfort, because that's all I can really offer. I don't know the answer, but hey, growth is growth, isn't it? No matter if the plant is losing leaves or growing or living or dying, it's beautiful in a way. It seems so complicated and messy, but that's the web, full of dewdrops, catching the light.

Erhm... sorry for the rant, my thoughts are on the borderline of mean and I needed to sort them out.

But if you don't mind the little self-promo: reblog this with one kind statement to "water" rose, let's spread some wonder to this convoluted place <3

And spread the word to anyone else who would like to add their houseplant to the garden, perhaps we can fill tumblr with houseplants.

#writeblr #the land of the fallen fairies #creative writing #fiction #short story #self improvement #that's a bit of a clickbait tag #but I'm trying to tell the self improvement people that it's okay #so it's okay #the tumblr houseplant series #the tumblr houseplant series rose

[charlotte-of-wales]

The green BAFTA 2018 gown had some prime cleavage I just hated her hair and makeup that day

she said #tits out (and I respect her for it)

imo the hair is fine, but I don't love the makeup

#I usually give preggo women a pass on these things bc ya know she was growing a human #so it's okay #fashion #answered

[jackyjackdraws]

Kevin seems...interested in his husband’s eating skills

Some more sketches relating to this scene in the show under the cut

Kevin when Dipper leaves

#gravity falls #Mystery Husbands Au #dipper pines #stanley pines #kevin griffith #Frick i forgot to draw Stan's ring #But i guess it doesn't matter cause Kevin has it #Also if you know the AU you know these two are married #so it's okay #idk i thought it was funny to have Kevin be absolutely swooning over how his husband ate the canned meat #it made the evening a lot more exciting for the two of them

[marlenmckinnon]

qocc oc challenge — day four : soundtrack

Isaak Karakostas • Dead of Summer

Couldn't put me together again 'Cause all of my enemies started out friends Help me hold onto you — The Archer, Taylor Swift

[challenge by @nolanhollogay]

bonus ↓

#c; isaak karakostas #qocc oc challenge #rp related #univers: slasher movies/tv shows #i tried with the gradients and the b&w #but it was surprisingly tricky #also #is the bisexual flag noticeable? #not really #but isaak does not notice at first #so it's okay #he's gloomy and sad #why do i make my ocs so sad and anxious #oh well #it's a new oc so i hope you like him

[nochi-quinn]

Fic/Fluff/Kinktober, day 17

Fandom: Baldur's Gate 3 Relationship: Tav & Karlach Rated: G Words: ~400 Prompt: "I never said it would be easy." ( @fictober-event)

"You alright, soldier?" "I just thought I'd feel different, standing here." Taran shook their head, looking down. "It's been a long time."

[neocities][AO3]

#fictober 2023 #baldur's gate 3 #karlach #karlach & tav #baldurstag #my writing #this is just taran lore tbh #but karlach is also there #so it's okay

[crimsonblackrose]

I told my aunt that I’m tired from longer work hours, stress and my upcoming deadlines so she asked if I wanted pie.

This slice of pie is the size of the plate. 😭

Aunt: You need the sugar to keep you awake. Me: Do you want me to never sleep again? I’ve already had 2 coffees and a caffeinated soda. Aunt: And now a slice of pie.

#mumblings #i'm exaggerating #but this is too much pie #for the moment #my afternoon snack plan was toast 🤣 #it's key lime that my uncle got yesterday because the last time he tried to get pie it flew out of the cart and smashed all over the floor #and he was so bummed so he was determined to try again #and I think it's because my cousin and aunt inhaled the tiramisu I made in like two days 😅 #anyway I was able to talk to the person I needed to talk to and I was 1000% over thinking the project #so I have a draft done and just need to edit it tonight #so it's okay #it may even out because last time I underthought about it till the midnight hour 🤣😅