#so it's harder to recognize

[samipekoe]

who's ready for the year of farcille

#these are very borderline so tumblr may snipe this lol #counting on how sketchy they are for it to not recognize the naughty bits <- doesnt know how this works #also im soo making my life so much harder bc i like chimera falin so much. so hard to draw #but she is so SEXY

[chryblossomjjk]

#literally this #extremely sad how adhd isn’t recognized n severely underdiagnosed in women #only got diagnosed w it n other things as an adult #n now it’s much harder to develop coping mechanisms but #we move lol #a win is a win #so if u guys are ever wondering why kiki rambles about bs that nobody cares about #n then over thinks n deletes all posts #or is v sensitive #n takes forever to yield any fic bc never satisfied w work #✨adhd brain✨ #also friends #gentle reminder to pls advocate for yourself #like you know your body and mind more than anyone #and if you feel like something is lacking or you need help #pls push for it #bc sometimes the healthcare system is #yk #but yeah #it’s super scary but there’s also so much relief in receiving a diagnosis #like you made it this far without knowing #the only thing that changes once you receive the diagnosis is that you have more access to tools than you’ve ever had maybe #yeah #anyways #love you all #n i hope you’re happy and healthy #n i hope you have a support system #and if you don’t currently you will in the future #if you ever need to talk or anything #im here

[just-mebs]

Whenever I think about HamBurr, I can't help but think of it as a fluctuating one-sided mess starting with what is Hamilton's crush on Burr in the beginning, and later Burr's own crush on Hamilton.

Hamilton is starstrucked when he meets Burr. It might be a case of puppy love or similar, but I think that through the first act you see this crush on his side that is persistent even despite their butting heads. Maybe Burr sees it too. Maybe he takes it for granted. Maybe he thinks it's silly or unimportant or just a distraction while he waits for life to make decisions for him.

And then BOOM: Hamilton moves on (both physically with the war ending and emotionally seeing how Burr never reciprocated his feelings in any concrete way). He's going for more in life. He's moving forward to make a life out of the world he's helped create that Burr seems uninterested in in a way (see: Non-Stop). And I think it's this turning point that makes Burr kind of "wake up" and realize his own feelings. He sees Hamilton moving on and making a life for himself and suddenly its like all the feeling he did have for Hamilton, the feelings he either ignored and pushed aside, come front and center and he's realizes that he's missed such an important part of his own life.

Or maybe it's now that Hamilton isn't actively pursuing him/giving him as much attention that he's realized that it's something he did take for granted and now regrets. So now, with Burr harboring these feelings, feeling the way that Hamilton probably felt for years during the war, he slowly becomes bitter. He's constantly trying to outdo Hamilton or prove himself to be on the same level or higher than he his. And while Hamilton acknowledges Burr throughout all of this, he never gets back to that contemporaneous war time love Burr so desperately wants from him.

#i like to think of them as tragic #theyre so messy #hamburr #hamilton musical #alexander hamilton #aaron burr #i recognize this is such a random post coming from me but im listening to hamilton again and had feelings #mine.mebs #long post #i do think they fuck tho at some point during the war but Burr treats it as a ''no-strings attached'' thing #and then regrets that post-war too #also im not saying yandere!burr but like....... i can see it #tldr: ham fell first but burr fell harder

[danothan]

tough pill i have to swallow is realizing that “getting better” doesn’t mean “getting to do more things,” getting better for me means taking better initiative in protecting myself. and THAT means making sure i do LESS things

#sounds kinda obvious but i only just realized it lmao #feels like i have to grieve a lot of my goals now but no one said the healing process would be easy #danbles #and for anyone else that has a disability that prevents them from doing smth #or trauma that makes certain triggers limit their opportunities #or neurotypes that make it harder for them to love smth like they used to #or whatever else #i don’t want to make it sound like you have to give up on the things that make you happy #I’M certainly not going to #but a huge value of mine has always been experiencing everything life had to offer #and everytime that backfires (whether it’s burnout; triggering a flashback; triggering an episode; putting strain on my body; etc) #i always just thought to myself ‘it was bad timing’ or ‘i haven’t gotten better yet’ bc the endgoal was to always get to that point where #i could experience it. i want to try new things all the time. i want to feel normal and be included in everything #but if smth keeps Making Me Feel Bad then maybe there isn’t a version of myself that can take it on #it’s not resilience to put yourself in harm’s way #idk how well i’ll be able to put this into practice tbh. i rly rly like exploring different experiences #even negative ones are valuable to me #but the least i can do for myself is recognize that i might not always be the problem #maybe i’ve already hit the limit on all the self-work i can do. maybe it’s the environment or situation itself that’s the problem #fuuck guys ​i feel like i’m going thru a stage of grief here why is this shit so hard 💀

[mindshelter]

another piece of evidence for clark and kon's relationship being "older sibling upset by new baby"-- MOM i thought you were only going to scrapbook me... your special boy...

from superman (1986) #46

#clark kent #martha kent #but this is so cute fjdjsk i love it i forget were clark does tell his parents he kind of envies kon #where** #the way a kid would with a little sibling #an obviously recognizes it's not entirely rational to feel that way since the way both of them were brought up means they had it easier #in some respects and harder in others #they love each other regardless :] #dc #comic blogging

[sysig]

Experimentation (Patreon)

#Doodles #UT #Handplates #Sans #Papyrus #Continuing the theme of memories and what Gaster ruined for them haha #He doesn't even have to be here and he's making their lives harder! Par for the course #Lots of things have the potential to trigger their memories - a familiar smell or a food they recognize #But there were so many things they never experienced and sifting between them is very difficult! #Especially considering most of what they ''remember'' is actually just their Reaction to Something - like the smoke smell making them tense #Sans here getting a Reaction for sure tho - being questioned and experimented on does Not feel good #It's Papyrus doing it so that's one thing but even still - not having fun with this #Papyrus is so curious! He wants to know! He always seems to be a bit left out on finding things out haha #Sans being the more science-minded of the two probably has an impact there - ask your brother he'll help figure it out #Unless he really doesn't want to because it feels weird please stop (lol) #Still tho being asked to eat things as an experiment? ''oh hey bro maybe going to grillby's will remind me of something'' ''SANS'' lol #Papyrus didn't mean anything by continuing to ask questions he's just curious! #Sans goes to write down the results and then feels Even Worse so scribbles them out #''don't tell me what to do!'' directed nowhere in particular #Tries really hard to put it out of him mind A Lot #This remembering business sure is uncomfortable! #Look what you did Gaster you took a perfectly fun data-gathering session and turned it into something they'll need therapy for!

[rawliverandgoronspice]

I think we may have integrated a little too hard the idea that being aroace is the "easy mode" of queerness, and so contextualized all acephobic experiences as "not that bad" inherently rather than taking a hard look at them and what they can look like

#thoughts #personal #asexuality #aromantism #took me a while to acknowledge how absolutely *horrendous* my coming out process was #it was a bingo strike of bad coming out moments honestly #in a way that would have been obvious and followed very known patterns of systemic abuse #or at least I would have recognized them as such if ace experiences weren't demeaned as “less bad” by almost everybody #and so the focus becomes gatekeeping community empathy instead of listening to what's actually going on #it may be a mostly invisible identity but it also makes the surrounding violence much more insidious and harder to name #but it is very much there #and keeping that side of me a secret is still something that I have to put active thought into #(it becomes harder to hide as time goes on and hhhhh don't love that for me) #(can you tell I'm dreading the christmas family reunion.....)

[realbeefman]

i don’t really like omegaverse that much (absolute lie) but i DO think that house md would fuck *that* much harder if it was set in the omegaverse

#and i dont even necessarily mean this in a hilson-pilled way!!! #bc yes i do think house and wilson should have hot gay sex and hold each other until wilson’s knot deflates #but also i just think that the entire show could do a lot with omegaverse tropes #like heat suppressants as medical complications. #cuddy is a beta and it affects why her being dean of medicine is so impressive. it deepens her desire to hire house #an omega and an asshole #because she sees some of herself in him and recognizes that struggle #house post-infarction having to pay for sex bc he believes he’s ‘broken’ in the sense that he isn’t biologically attractive anymore #wilson is just. the best alpha. always taking care of his flock #kutner is an omega too and it hits that much harder for house when he kills himself #pheromones ‘smelling off’ being a diagnosable symptom #sex complications SO MANY sex complications #‘dr my knot wont deflate’ #like… theres so MUCH there to play with!!! its so fun!!! so much potential!!!! #i need to finish the show so badly so i can try to bang out a/b/o abt this show my godd #house md #hate crimes md

[spotsupstuff]

Okay, I was going to explain a possible path for a worm of the string au with Sparrow complaining one day that the puppet can't leave the chamber to relive the fever of being in one place and that her thesis being rejected and then Caper reading the thesis and iterating that idea and then he somehow manages to get off the string.

But getting off the umbilical without reason or explanation is more funny!

Imagine if that starts happening to the others iterators?

Pls tell me his face is priceless! More so if it is a red lizard (do train lizard exist in your au?)

Also, how would Notos and Haboob react to Sparrow?

Now, you mentioned that when Sparrow killed the red centipede she was not in the respawning cycle. What is the age that the Ancients enter the cycle?

staring like a deer caught in headlights GSDLKMCLK this man should either have internal bleeding from a Red Liz bite or bad damage in the coconut and Yet he's 👌 how puzzling n yah! train/hurricane lizards Are real in the Serotonin Take!

as for Notos n Haboob, assuming it's in the off string post-ascension thing too:

they'd like each other! :D

and the respawn cycle is entered once the etheric body is finished growing which is around like.... 20-23 years old

#Spot says stuff #rain world #rw #oc tag #// gun // #oc: boreas' blessing #oc: three sparrows #oc: biting notos #oc: inhale in haboob #for lil added context the idea is that BB saved Sparru from the green liz actually. and then went on a tirade bout how she should go Die #oh boreas you are so sensible and know exactly what you want from people </3 #post-mass ascension off string with sparrows is fun cuz. shes fuckin Alone in the whole world. n the iterators have been hurt by the- #-ancients leaving so its a whole mish mash.. on one hand boreas recognizes her as his lil sister. on the other hes too angry n bitter to- #-face that familial tie rn. yea he was glad when the ancients left cuz no more vemon injections! but everythin became so much harder #not to mention other not self-sufficient iterators are on thin ice from then on. he also doesnt want euros to see her again cuz like... #what if the poor kid will have to go through the pain of losing her to old age again thats horrible. so the worry n protectiveness is back

[jestiamy]

yeah I've. been into undertale aus again. happy birthday fresh. alt ver under cut

fresh sans by @loverofpiggies . I don't think I have any extra notes. other than. yeah sorry my style has been (more) inconsisent lately ; I've been trying out stuff

#fresh sans #fresh sans fanart #fresh fanart #light eyestrain warning #cw light eyestrain #sans au #sans au fanart #art stuffs #I wanted to post something for his self-recognized birthday on the first #but unfortunately I was busy with my real human being friend's birthday. which is actually on the first #sorry fresh sans. I'll try harder next time. #you wouldn't know this about me unless you were me or perhaps a very dedicated obsessive but #I've actually liked fresh since like. 2018. which doesn't seem so long ago but it's been six years or something #passage of time; super crushing; I've done this joke rant like. nine times now. I really need to get a new joke #fresh #fresh art #fresh sans art #I like the colouring on this one. I've been trying to make my stuff more interesting lately

[inktheblot]

The rotation of Christmas music that plays in the store I work at includes the following:

Any version of “Last Christmas” you could think of and then some, EXCEPT Wham’s

Various people trying to come up with weird new verses to “Jingle Bells”

Joey Ramone’s cover of “What a Wonderful World”

This one cover of “Do You Want To Build a Snowman” that’s sung in like. That specific really breathy way that pop singers do Christmas songs sometimes y’know?

The song from the Victorious Christmas episode

Three songs from the Phineas and Ferb Christmas special

“I Have a Dream” by ABBA except not the ABBA version

- DO YOU REMEMBER THE 25TH NIGHT OF DECEMBER

#there’s also a kind of bizarre country duet cover of let it go #but that one’s in the Normal Everyday music rotation #which is more forgivable to me tbh bc i don’t get people trying to push frozen as a christmassy movie #it is SUMMER in frozen. it being snowy and shit is ACTIVELY A PROBLEM #there’s a couple other pop versions of Disney songs in the normal mix too #anyway #i THINK they might have played hallelujah last year a couple times but I haven’t heard it this year so that’s a win lmao #they also start playing the xmas music literally the day after halloween #but then also it stops the day after xmas instead of dragging into the first week of january or w/e #which I’m sure is a relief for most ppl #I’m the rare retail worker who doesn’t mind/actively enjoys hearing this much xmas music #but some of these choices … bizarre #it’s interesting working at like. a b- or c-list box store #bc I’m assuming it’s harder to get the rights or the budget for certain things the big Big stores do #so we get slightly-off parallel dimension shit like this lmao #inklings #christmas #i feel like the ‘they don’t know X’ meme of the guy at the party also bc I bet most normies don’t recognize the #2000s childrens tv special songs. #and just think it’s some pop bs that never became A Classic #if they’re not tuning it out completely #Christmas Is Starting Now is an absolute banger I’ll have you know.

[paging-possum]

was going to start writing an essay about the possible overlap between christianity and OCD and then I remembered im on Tumblr dot com and also a fucking idiot when it comes to putting things into words

#idk man I just think about it sometimes #because I feel like one of the biggest steps in the direction of ocd treatment/management/recovery is to acknowledge that it exists #and recognize your obsessions and compulsions are becoming detrimental #and it becomes so much more difficult to do that when the obsessions are around gods perception of you/your own moral standing #because it just feels like a normal religious thing to be thinking about and worried about #and compulsions like repeated prayer just feel like something you're supposed to do #so even the thought that they could be bad feels blasphemous and it becomes a vicious cycle of ocd and IDK!!! IDK!!!!! #I still feel very weird talking about it with other people but its something I think about a lot because the worst part of it is that #no matter how bad it is breaking the cycle is maybe the most terrifying part of it and on top of that if religion is a big part of your lif #then it can be harder to find support for it as well because everyone around you doesn't see it as a problem either #idk im just rambling a little bit. anyways. hi guys religious ocd is a major bitch I kinda want to write something about it

[annamaryllis]

I would like to know exactly how luke asking annabeth to run away with him went down.

#annabeth🥺 #it's sad to think about how it'll be so much harder for annabeth to unpack and heal from that relationship bc he's dead #it's hard enough to come to terms with someone you love/held in high esteem hurting you so deeply #but she's also grieving him too so it's even harder to hold him accountable to herself and recognizing the good and the bad #she may struggle to not romanticize the memory of him #sorting through what about their relationship was pure and genuine and what was fueled by other stuff #both of their trauma really played into it in some of the worst ways... #but to even recognize how her trauma played into it she'd have to identify what her trauma even is and how it's affected her life #it's really complex and difficult work #and bc he's gone she'll never get to question him on stuff like what he was thinking at certain points and why #so certain things will never get the best closure #ugh it's all so fucked up #MAYBE SOMETHING WE COULD HAVE EXPLORED IN HOO RICHARD???? BUT NO #and it would have been perfect too bc she'd also be dealing with issues caused by both of her parents triggered by the MoA quest #like her mother's conditional love #and trauma from her mortal family #and her fear of spiders relates to both of these things bc it's a phobia that's passed down from her mom's actions #so she's being punished for something she's not responsible for and also being burdened with a quest simply for being her mother's daughter #and it also represents her mortal family's neglect bc they ignored her needs and all that... #AND THEN the only person she's received actually pure and good unconditional love from was snatched from her for 6 months #and the MoA quest could have been a way to confront some of these fears and wounds...so she's a little stronger by tartarus which #should bring out the best in her and the worst in percy #and then he can work through some stuff too down there #HoO could have been a journey for them where they're undone and then healed #bc at the end of everything they have the medicine to literally everything which is real love (which they have for each other intensely) #the rant I could go on about this...I have so many thoughts about what HoO should have been. maybe one day #annabeth chase #luke castellan #✏️

[optiwashere]

Regardless of my opinion about the song itself, the new Unleash the Archers video is making me a bit rabid to see them live again. Their shows are fucking killer. Plus, Brittney and Scott were very sweet when I got a chance to chat w/ them at a merch table a handful of times.

Also, last week's new releases didn't quite grab me so I never did a ramble about that lol. Really hard to top that Isenordal album...

#random rambling about music #I think that was a tag IDK I've lost the plot on some of my own tags lmao #anyways the song is fine #but I'm betting it works way better in context of the album #and I was saying this in dms with a friend but it reminds me just how much of an album person I am lmao #re: last week's new releases - the new Aborted is pretty good and it was nice hearing SO many familiar voices #I recognized Alexandre from Despised Icon instantaneously and Oli from Archspire did his rapid-fire thing so he wasn't hard to miss lol #but it's very much leaning harder into deathcore which I'm w/e on save for a handful of bands

[kiragecko]

@shadow-dracat

#reblog#text#gender#linguistics#neopronouns#I'm not sure this is screen reader safe#but I'm also not sure it is unsafe#no plain text

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Does anyone have a link to where I can read about the effects of formatting on screen readers? Because I've been wondering for a bit about people transcribing everything that isn't plain text from posts.

Figuring out how to make long posts readable is a struggle. Formatting helps with focus issues. (Mine, at least.) But I want to find something better if indenting 3/4 of my text messes with screen reading software.

#accessibility #the problem for ME is that the wide spacing between lines makes it impossible to visually organize the data #so if the post isn't mostly paragraphs it's really hard to recognize what goes with what #but I CAN switch to a bunch of short posts that have links to each other #they're just harder to avoid for followers #and links need to be edited in once the posts they link to actually exist

[studentofetherium]

Brainwashing Detective Hisui is on the case! (to find where you live)

#tsukihime #btw i'm sticking to the higu bg because i don't have a clean screencap of the tsukihime doxxing #so it'd be a lot harder to reconstruct #but also because it's funnier #and also i already have the template that people would recognize