#so it sure as hell wasn’t me

[ohitslen]

Something something I was thinking about this afternoon over on Twitter right here

#no real meaning behind anything I just thought it would be funny #inside my head there are things that are happening beyond our comprehension. mine included. this is one of them #wouldn’t it be so cute? not to Kni maybe but to me and Vash sure is! #I used to be at the church choir when I was a kid for like a year and then never came back to it #my mom was a choir girlie her whole adolescence so it just kinda stuck with me for a little #I am not a catholic since years ago so this is double the funny bc I can barely remember anything LMAOOO #ww WILL become a priest and he will be the worst priest ever committing sacrilege after sacrilege incredibly sinful #oh religious guilt! how great I used to have loads of that one when I was a kid. it wasn’t even endorsed by my family I just thought that #hell was a scary place even if they never told me I would be punished. lucky in that aspect but they didn’t count with the fact that #I had undiagnosed adhd and anxiety so that was a hell lot of fun so let’s project yeah! #trigun #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #Kni saverem #millions knives #trigun stampede #trigun fanart #nicholas trigun #vash #wolfwood #nai trigun #Kni Trigun #church choir! AU #funniest thought ever like what the fuck even is this OQNMSKW

[medi-bee]

making a two minute animatic for a podcast 99% of my followers have never heard of well that’s just how it goes sometimes

#im alive hello hi can you hear me #the cycle continues #medi bee talking #i’ve never animatic’d anything before in my life this whole process has been a learning disaster #but you know what. it’s actually coming together i think #even though i started it without so much as figuring out what i want the characters to look like #i’ve drawn more humans for this stupid thing than i have in the rest of my entire life #the podcast is dungeons and daddies btw #single-handedly carried me through these past two months #binged all two season and now i’m in ‘waiting for the next episode to come out’ hell #get me out of this office i want to go home and draw‼️ #i wasn’t actually sure how serious i was abt this but now i’m like. 80% done somehow? #but i am the master of jinxing myself so let’s see

[ashthedestroyer]

Crushes fucking suck and I crave death

#lesbian #wlw #sapphic #lesbian pride #sapphic yearning #fuck I really like her but it’d never work even if she liked me back #the classic lesbian falling for an unattainable woman thing again WHY DOES THIS KEEP HAPPENING TO ME?? #every time I catch feelings for someone it ends horribly for me and I wish this wasn’t a feature #fucking hell she’s so pretty #fuck #rest be assured at least I know for sure I like older women

[thecowboykatsuki-anon]

Ah the burden of being the oldest child and only daughter and having your father treat you like a son only to get very annoyed when they discover you in fact cannot do everything the same a son could.

#I’m helping my dad move furniture this weekend #and he just does not understand that I’m not as strong as he thinks I should be #like we got into a screaming match on the stairs while holding a very heavy bookshelf FULL of books #cause ‘it’s easier to carry that way you just have to make sure it doesn’t kill me’ #but he didn’t like the stance I took so that I could actually hold it so he made me move to a position #where I could not only hardly grip it #but also had to contort and brace all of my body to stay upright #and then it got stuck and he yanked wirhojt telling me #so it took me part of the way with it and he very snarkily was like #‘I don’t know what the hell you’re doing but pay attention’ #so I lost my shit a little cause I was stressed and in pain and then we got into a minor screaming match #which I’m still annoyed about #and he’s been trying to be friendly again and finally was like ‘are you annoyed now?’ #and I told him I needed. a minute to not be pissed #but like fuck dude #I told you I wasn’t strong enough #which was hard enough because I knew that would be letting him down #but yeah #annoying #rant #vent #delete later

[seilon]

got another job interview tomorrow. pray 4 me

#it was originally for a busser or server job at a cocktail bar in a luxury hotel but the manager on the phone seemed like she wanted to #interview me for the position of host so. yeah #I’m a little intimidated by that role because I am not the most social person on earth to say the least but. I may be able to get used to it #and I will admit. I am kind of motivated by the pay and tips from being a host. cause holy hell it’s 18 bucks an hour plus tips #and that’s plus tips at a 4 star hotel. where the menu is pretty pricy and the people coming there Well Off. #I didn’t really consider that before but hhhhhhh……………that sure is enticing #hoo boy but anyway. a little nervous about this interview cause I’ve never done a host or server job before #but my conversation with the manager over the phone seemed to go pretty well i think so hey #kibumblabs #oh yeah I also cut my hair short last minute and i can’t tell if that was a horrible idea or not yet #it’s not nearly as finished as I’d want it to be but. here we are I guess #I havent legit cut my own hair (let alone this Much of it) in like. a couple years now I think #I think it looks fine but I’m just hoping I don’t regret it #I know it’ll grow out again eventually but idk #I did this kinda impulsively because of the job interview tomorrow. like I was kinda worried for such a nice place they’d be a little #picky with their appearance preferences and like. I didn’t want it to look like my hair was overgrown and unstyled like it was + most of #the bleached parts are cut off now so it looks a little more sophisticated I guess #but also I’ve been getting a little dysphoric lately because I haven’t been passing despite being almost 2 years on t and I think my hair #being longish wasn’t helping #now you can see my jawline and the haircut is more traditionally masculine and etc so. praying I am not called ma’am or anything at the #store or whatever anymore.

[iloveyoumorethansoup]

I think I should get medicated for my adhd/depression not cause it’s like detrimental to my mental health or anything. I just wanna be able to model all of Luna Nova into Minecraft

#I can do it #if I can focus #and if I don’t rot my days away in bed #i am currently avoiding homework to write this post #soup talks #also yall look at project Luna nova recently???? it looks so good!!! #they are my goal #my proudest achievement is not my cit pack. it’s sending them so many screenshots #it’s not up for download yet. but you best believe no one will hear from me for Days after it release #I wonder if I could beta test for them. I have a headset. I’m in their discord as some sort of helper role #ooh I’m a collaborator!! #yeah. I should see one day when I’m not going thru it #omg. yall. i was in the er yesterday (totally fine now) #I’m 99% sure my appendix was trying to explode #but I had to go in to make sure it wasn’t. cause that’s really bad and all. they gave me pain meds ran some tests #I’m not anemic found out. all my labs came back normal #I’m genuinely convinced it’s from stress. I think my appendix tried to abandon ship due to stress #they sent me home. said I was fine. come back if the pain came back. it hasn’t. I guess I’m fine! #hell of a day tho #anyways. I guess I should go focus

[crybaby-bkg]

tomorrow is my last day of having to do work for my classes and I’m just soooo ready for this upcoming break. I wanna write for an entire day at a time again and learn how to crotchet without putting so many expectations to be perfect the first time again!!!! I wanna paint and play my switch and just lay down without feeling guilty!!!!! I need it!!!!!!!

#I still have to respond back to discussion board posts after tomorrow 🙄 #but at least I wont have to do actual work after next week!!!!! #I wanna be free!!!!!! #also tips for learning crotchet would be greatly APPRECIATED #bc I don’t get how to do any of it 😔 #anyway lemme take my ass to bed #I have a quiz (or maybe two I’m still not sure) #and a paper and presentation and db to do tomorrow and I really don’t wanna #I know it’s gonna be light work but it’s gonna be time consuming which is what I loathe #like omg it took me FOUR FUCKIN HOURS to do ONE project today #I was mad as hell #it wasn’t even necessarily difficult to do just SO TIME CONSUMING #gimme my time back so I can nap on the couch in front of the fire place damnit #okay enough ranting gn!!!!! #—in store chit chat! 🍫

[wibble-wobbegong]

my hottest take is that I literally Do Not care how disconnected the wheeler family is, there’s no reason for nancy to literally see mike in danger in her vision and not only not tell him but not even have a proper reunion with him. literally didn’t even speak to him. mike, who is almost always closest to the center of the danger. the one who’s most likely to actually fall into the danger nancy saw. absolutely zero reason to be that emotionally detached to the point where your brother goes missing for a week and the most horrifying man on the planet shows you a vision that starts coming true and you watch him be put in danger and then just. Don’t even acknowledge him. in fact the only comment you have towards him is about how messy his room is. Girl what is wrong with you

#maybe it’s the older brother in me but genuinely how the fuck are you that disconnected #it’s not even like mike’s done bad things to her???? he’s been annoying sure but he’s also looked out for her #i’d get it if mike actively treated her badly but he literally doesn’t #if you think that’s normal behavior for siblings it isn’t #yes it’s been normalized to be distant but she literally was shown a prophecy of mike’s harm and then wasn’t even relieved to see him. didnt #even cross her mind #maybe im being a little bit of a hater but it’s so #i think nancy needs some sense knocked into her when it comes to mike #girl needs one hell of a wake up call #if mike going missing for years doesn’t do that then im gonna become nancy’s biggest hater. sorry #this one is for the boys only because i know someone is gonna twist my words on this and i don’t wanna deal with it #only people who actually want to make a solid argument are allowed here. aka the boys

[tautozhone]

literally can’t stop thinking about how xavier emphasized the prophecy couldn’t happen if wednesday wasn’t there and that she needed to get far away to prevent it, and how the key to resurrecting crackstone was in fact reliant on wednesdays blood. he knew something there, and he knows way fucking more than he seems to be letting on.

#wednesday addams #wednesday #xavier thorpe #xavier defenders come down upon me like snow on a hot dessert but i die by the fact this man is suspicious as hell #“’your problem is you don’t know who your real friends are you can trust me’ bro you are so sus and obsessive and you sound manipulative #writing an essay on why xavier will be the stalker and him in the photo is to throw wednesday off that it’s him #because he knows she’d figure it out if there wasn’t physical evidence of his innocence to lead her astray #i think him and tyler are in fucking kahoots i FEEL it #‘psychic connection to the hyde’ YEAH FOR SURE WEDNESDAY. LOOK INTO THAT THOUGH PLEASE.

[carelesscuriosity]

Captain Laserhawk kinda sucked? It felt like an ip-focused cash grab that didn’t actually have anything meaningful to say covered with a coat of cyberpunk paint

#captain laserhawk #captain laserhawk spoilers #captain laserhawk hate #<- ig i don’t rlly hate the show just think it could’ve been better #so the tags so ppl can mute me lol #anyway it was rlly lame thematically and kept deflating any buildup by killing ppl #im sorry but the board of directors reveal? just some group of shadowy ppl controlling everything in a surveillance state? weird choice #like cyberpunk is an inherently anticapitalist genre so the fact that this show just didn’t touch on that theme at all #… i blame it on the show being an ubisoft property designed to remind u of their games/products #if a singular rando super soldier can take out the entire army in a day then what even are the stakes #if it’s supposedly a surveillance state and oppressive regime then why is the literal military force not even a threat #‘ubi’ is probs a reference to ubisoft but meaning ‘universal basic income’ in-universe? sideeye… #so many of these thoughts are sporadic but tbh i think my issues rlly can be summarized as: the show shouldn’t have been billed as cyberpunk #cyberpunk is a scifi subgenre and while laserhawk was scifi it sure as hell wasn’t cyberpunk #outside of the visual aesthetic it just fails the genre as a whole

[iheartbookbran]

It’s the hypocrisy for me because if people are gonna complain about the show whitewashing Rhaenyra and Daemon (tbh I wouldn’t be so sure about Daemon since the show had him kill his first wife which may not have happened in the book and erased some of his more redeeming qualities like his relationship with Laena but w/e) then maybe they shouldn’t have been showering so much praise at the writers for doing the absolute mother of all character rehabilitations on Alicent instead keeping her as a one-dimensional evil stepmother who makes snide remarks about her teen stepdaughter possibly being groomed. Because that characterization for Alicent would’ve been far more ~accurate~ to the source material but I don’t believe that’s actually what y’all care about.

Then there’s all the call outs about the show’s handling of the Velaryons as black and how insensible it has come off as, which don’t get me wrong, is completely true but I didn’t see y’all concerned when the show took the canonical close relationship with romantic undertones that Laena (now played by a black woman) had with Rhaenyra and gave it instead to Alicent. On the contrary y’all were praising the show to the moon and back and gushing about the “lesbian divorce drama” so again, not so concerned about the source material or black characters being mistreated and sidelined, are we?

And just to be clear, the show could have turned Daemon and Rhaenyra into mustache-twirling villains with no redeeming or sympathetic qualities whatsoever and Alicent and Aegon could be innocent angels who have never done anything wrong in their lives and guess what? The throne would still be Rhaenyra’s by rights. Yes, the Dance of the Dragons is a horrible conflict caused by a bunch of morally reprehensible nobles veering for power and willing to do despicable things in order to achieve it, and yet at the heart of the matter remains the fact that society is sexist and simply Won’t Let A Woman Rule. Rhaenyra was the heir and was usurped by Aegon because of misogyny, everything that happened afterwards doesn’t negate that simple truth.

But anyways, none of that matters because f&b is an unreliable source and we can’t trust anything it says ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ so yes Rhaenyra is in every single way better than her younger half-brother, who’s a pathetic little wet-rag r*pist, and the green fraction is gonna support that pathetic little wet-rag r*pist because they hate women and children born outside the sanctity of marriage that much. Galaxy brain level take on the writers’ part. Truly immaculate lmfao.

#tbh this is so frustrating for me bc it isn’t as if i hate the greens or anything like that #i’m really enjoying alicent’s character and probably will enjoy aemond #and hell even aegon too if not as a person then simply because i really like the actor who’s playing him and think he’s genuinely talented #so i’m looking forward to seeing him ✨act✨ #but again the hypocrisy is what truly frustrates me #the day i don’t defend a targ woman from being unfairly treated by the asoiaf fandom (degrodatory) pls assume i’m dead #yes rhaenyra is the heir and she is in the right. cope #again like alicent all you want i sure do too #but acting as if what she’s doing is some kind of brave resistance against targaryen ~imperialist~ rule and she deserves a cookie for it #and rhaenyra is a meanie for not seeing things her way #as if 1) it wasn’t her father who sold her off to a targaryen king in the first place #and 2) she isn’t aiming to place her dirtbag targ son on the throne #her dirtbag son who rides a dragon and is married to his dragonrider sister and is by all accounts… a targaryen #like. pls stop being stupid and embarrassing #news flash the blacks have been the protagonist and the greens the antagonist the entire goddamn time #rhaenyra targaryen #daemon targaryen #team black #house targaryen #hotd #fire and blood #f&b book spoilers #house of the dragon #fandumb

[spaghetticat3899]

Made the mistake of following a tag of something I like and am prone to fall into obsessing over again.

#spaghetti speaks #Tumblr is gonna make me obsessed with Invader Zim again- there’s so much good art here #Lowkey making me want to draw my 100% Unique and cool IZ OC from sophomore year #Her name was Kat and I initially made her in Starbound via a mod #I drew her and her SIR unit (Screech; iirc) quite a bit because the IZ style is so much different than mine #I wasn’t super good at mimicking it but I sure as hell tried

[alicunt]

started thinking about how sleep to dream by fiona apple coded alicent's have i lost my sanity? or is everyone else asleep, dreaming the same wooly dream? is and then i was like. wait this is actually what everything has been about since the beginning...

alicent doesn't go to sleep to dream. rhaenyra has her head in the clouds (<3). that's IT that's the story

#smth smth love is a hell you cannot bear = we were trapped but we were together. until you decided i wasn’t worth bearing the prison #so gimme mine back and go there for all i care ( i’m gonna make sure you do) #one thing abt me is that i’m going to make a song about something so specific

[vulpinesaint]

my coworker and i unprecedented comedy duo of the year with the one-two punch of cancer and transgenderism jokes

#LOVE making jokes about being trans with this guy. so awesome #he said 'yeah they already cut me up' (cancer procedure) and i went 'dude. hopefully me too soon' (top surgery reference) nd he laughed #and later he said 'they said my body just makes extra testosterone after the cancer' and i went 'HELL yeah. i love extra testosterone' #and we like. high fived. being friends with a straight guy is such a rush #he's so normal about it and he knows what i'm talking about too... #sorry for being in love with my coworker when i'm aromantic and he has a girlfriend. he got my top surgery joke #we’ve joked about 9/11 on multiple separate occasions too. sense of humor of all time #love working with that guy. literally the euphoria of having friends #tragic that i wasn’t working with him on monday i could’ve said ‘happy 9/11’ to him for sure #valentine notes

[seilon]

my mom was just talking to a friend on the phone and she was complaining about how all zoomers either can’t hold conversations without them being stilted and shallow or they basically traumadump and talk too much about their emotions and im just…… she is a psychologist. specifically a college counsellor. almost all of the zoomers she talks to are. literally university students assigned to her to seek out long term therapy for trauma, stress, anxiety, depression, behavioral and social issues, etc……….

what does she…expect……… to hear…….????

#really terrible pool to gather your data on All Zoomers and their typical generalized behavior from #like. #no shit??? #the other point of reference for zoomer behavior is Me which is also a terrible choice because I am. autistic. among other things #but I sure as hell don’t traumadump. kinda the opposite I don’t like acknowledging my emotions at all if I can help it #so I only apply to the stunted conversations aspect and even then when I do have conversations I wouldn’t consider them shallow #boy what a fucking mess #older generations are really just. sometimes. so upset about not being the center of the world anymore they’ll target anything about #younger generations for literally no reason it’s. exhausting #another issue with her pool if it wasn’t obvious enough is that these are UC students. aka some of the most stressed out overworked zoomers #you can possibly talk to #again. horrible pool to gather data from on All Zoomers #idk man this just. irked me a bit #she used someone admitting they used to cut as an example of traumadumping/being too emotional/whatever and it just felt gross to mention #because again she is a College Counsellor. #I can guarantee whoever that remark is based on is someone who mentioned it after being asked BY HER about the nature of their trauma/ #mental health issues so she can match them to a long term therapist. #aka: IT IS IN HER JOB DESCRIPTION TO HEAR THESE THINGS #fbsjcekdjfksjcjekcnrnd #kibumblabs #rant

[tariah23]

An elderly lady complimented my hair today and asked me how I “got it like that,” and she was so 🥺… (so cute… )

#another elderly lady jumped in front of me at the cvs because I wasn’t paying attention and I ranted a little I’m pretty sure to heard me #but I don’t like to be rude or mean to old folks so it was okay it wasn’t even that serious #I was scrolling and wasn’t paying attention anyway but she knew I was in line like girl #you always see videos going viral of old ppl being rude as hell and talking to folks like they’re crazy but there are a lot of ppl out here #who don’t give a damn about how old someone is they’ll still try to pick fights with them and throw hands #I feel like respect should always go both ways and that old people need to learn their manners as well as young folks #but especially old ass ppl because how have you made it to such an age and you’re still this awful? #at least younger folks have plenty of time to become a better person #it’s never too late for anyway but I’m just talking about in general here #well yanno #rambling