#so i’m stuck looking like an eight year old girl forever and honestly i’m rotting from the inside out and if i could die i’d be so thankful

[drivemysoul]

i’m crying over my hair

#taylor.txt #i wanna kill myself actually #like why can’t i just be fucking happy for once #why can’t something just go right for me #i can’t do emo hair unless i use that wig #but it’s a girls wig #and if i look like a girl #i’m going to drown in dysphoria and actually lose it #i should’ve just gotten my hair tidied but i wanted to pass and now i still don’t fucking pass #i regret every single choice i’ve made the past few days #all i do is fuck my life up now #why am i even still here #i was gonna say my hair will help me pass more when i’m on t and then i can grow it out again #but i’ve decided i’m not actually gonna go on t #so i’m stuck looking like an eight year old girl forever and honestly i’m rotting from the inside out and if i could die i’d be so thankful #i should’ve died last year in may. #suicide tw #please don’t rb